That reminds me of a dream where I was an animal trotting through a clearing, unlike any animal I'm aware of that currently lives on the earth. It was a happy dream. It seemed very much like 'me', not like someone else.
Originally Posted by sivason
I also feel as though I've been an alien that has two spinal columns, one on each side, instead of the one in the back. I haven't dreamed about this, but its a very strong impression if I think about it, and the transition to a single spined animal feels to have been traumatic. With the two spines, and the corresponding brain differences, it seems an individual can do something like waking and lucid-dreaming thinking at the same time, rather than cycling sequentially through waking and sleeping states. But I think that it makes it harder to integrate the two processes, and that the human design is advantageous in that regard.
I also feel that I've been in closer telepathetic communication with others in the past, less like an individual and more a like a part of a big network, then there was some kind of large scale falling apart, almost like the universe was stretched from the corners and we couldn't hold together any longer. For the most part I don't feel much affinity for the earth or its history, its as if I'm from somewhere else, though of course this sense is pretty subjective, and could be distorted enormously by what I'm suppressing or not.
I feel close connections to rocks and animals in parts of the American west, even though I don't have any human ancestry from there, and I guess no humans have been in north America for more than 20,000 years or so. I feel more affinity to the idea that my human spirit is a collection of animal spirits, maybe which don't always gather together in the same combinations between human lives.
Regarding what is and is not spiritual junk food: I think what constitutes good food or not depends a lot on history. For instance, lets suppose than a person reincarnates after spending many lifetimes doing mental yoga, and then figures out that mental yoga is a dead end. That person can't just throw it all away and live as if they have never done that sort of thing. Doors have been opened, patterns have been developed and deeply ingrained. It has to be fed and cared for, much as a child has to be fed and cared for even after the romance that spawned the child is over, not locked away in a dark room and forgotten. Similarly, I think that caring about past lives is going to be necessary for some people, even if its not a good idea for a lot of other people. I don't know which category I fall into. I guess if it comes naturally, without a lot of mental contortions, then I'm in that category. One way I approach this sort of thing is to follow the fear. If I sense fear in a part of myself, I look for a way to see into it. Of course people are often afraid of things that are actually dangerous, like using dangerous drugs or hunting dangerous animals. But I'm just talking about finding the opening to something I'm suppressing or hiding from in myself and thinking about it. I'm not talking about prying open my third eye with a crowbar or something.
A can see that one possible benefit of being aware of a past life, is it would enable a person to work through and straighten out certain kinds of thoughts without having to go through the same experiences in life. On the flip side, it might be better to just deal what is in front of oneself in the current life. Fate is pretty good about serving up food for thought, and doesn't necessarily need the help of any exotic meditative devices.
I'd say something like the 'human sacrifice' impression is strong enough that its already in front of me as something to deal with, not something I have to dig up to be aware of. That kind of awareness may be an undesirable side effect of those practices themselves, but like I said I have to move on from where I am now. For the most part this subject isn't something I've dreamed about, its something I feel while awake. Off hand I can think of only one dream, where I was in a large semi-basement filled with antiques, representing old memories, and people were doing hosannas in front of some kind of god and there was blood flying off of them.
In a related context I see something like falling mirrors, like the mirrors are people's souls, and windows into other worlds, and I feel responsibility and remorse. I don't know more specifically what this refers to - it could take a lot of different forms in terms of events or human behavior. I also feel that there's a play here with possibilities, that the potential of something that could have happened but did not is used for some kind of magic. I'm not aware that people consciously do this kind of thinking, it seems slightly more advanced somehow, not possible within the scope of how people normally think about time and events.
Sivason - for the most part I don't do meditation, but I can feel impressions of things and think about the impressions. I don't really have a "mind's eye" where I see pictures, and I don't have a very free-flowing imagination in relation to sounds either. But to the extent I can think about impressions that I can feel, I'd just as soon think about this sort of thing while awake rather than doing it in dream.