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Since my last DJ entry, I have been on holiday and rarely slept, or been so tired and drunk that I didn't write in my DJ. When I did write in it, it was just 1 or 2 words a night. I worried that by not writing in my DJ my recall would suffer, however after getting home, I had a nap or two, and then before sleeping I made sure I got to bed early, and taking Apple Juice and B6 really seemed to help, as my recall was back on form. This is just proof of how drinking and disrupted sleep can kill an otherwise great dream recall!

Date: 23/07/2012
Place: My bed
Time of getting into bed: 10.35pm
100mg B6 before bed

Waking thoughts in black
Non lucid dreams in blue
Lucid dreams in red

Dream 1 - non lucid

I am queuing for some sort of festival in a field. It takes a while to get through the queue, and while I'm there I spot a guy eyeing me up. He's tall and average looking. We talk, and once we get through the gates we go to find somewhere to have sex. We find the edge of some woods, where other couples are shagging, so decide to do it there. We get on the floor and get to it (I'll leave out the details, but it was fun ) Once we have finished, we agree to meet again and he leaves. For some reason I'm still hard, and want more sex, so I wander round in search of someone else willing to join in. I wander to the back of the field but it looks boring, some security guard tells me I can't walk around with my cock out, but I ignore him and walk off. I pass a group watching two people fight, its a guy and a young girl, but the girl is a professional boxer and she beats up the guy pretty bad, so he is bleeding and battered. I finally meet up with the same guy as before, and ask him if he wants to come back to my place. He does, so we go to a small room, which is like a waiting room, and try to ring a taxi. All the taxis are booked or busy, so we have to wait. While we are waiting, other people come and talk to us. Somehow we get back to my place, I don't know how, but it felt like a gap in the dream. However my mum and sister are at my home, and they are annoying and embarrassing me. My mum tells the guy I'm with that I nearly had sex with my sister when I was younger. WTF?! She then gets her boobs out and starts dancing while smiling like a mad women. I tell her to stop but she doesn't, I'm mega embarrassed. Why does my dream mum always ruin my sex dreams? Lol. The dream seems to skip again, I'm now alone in my room, and waiting for the guy to arrive so we can have sex. He arrives, and just as I let him in, a neighbor comes round to visit and I let her in too. I tell the guy she wasn't invited, and apologise for her being there but she overhears, and gets very angry and offended. I feel bad and try to make excuses but she is hurt. For some reason, I'm trying to post some bizarre egg-like things through the letterbox at my front door, but it is full and they won't squeeze in.

Dream 2 - non lucid

I am going to my friend's house and pass a clothes shop that my friend owns. I peer in, and see there is someone stocking shelves with new items, and they have left their bike outside. They look at me, as if to watch their bike but I walk on, I would never steal a bike like that. I soon meet up with the friend, and tell him that I saw his shop in a dream, and that I dreamt someone was stocking the shelves. I don't know why I suddenly decided that part was a dream. I wasn't lucid. I did fall asleep using the mantras 'I will know I am dreaming tonight.' which may have played a part. It was weird that my dream self thought that was a dream, when I'd just done it, but didn't realise the whole thing was a dream. The guy tells me he had the same dream, including the bike outside, and we think this is amazing for a bit. We go to call on another friend ready to go out and party. When we get to his house, he's already been out all day, and is ready for bed (he's drunk and in a mess) however we persuade him to join us. He is wearing a white shirt.

Dream 3 - non lucid
This next dream was sort of connected, but I did wake between the two so it was a separate dream.
I am at my mums house, getting ready to go out with my parents and my partner. My little brother (who is about 8 in the dream, he's 19 in RL) is sad that he has to stay at home, and is a little upset. The dog jumps up to lick his face and make him happier, but he cries when we leave.

We leave and i lead the way, going to a random house that I see down the street, I'm not sure what my intentions were, but I certainly wasn't invited to this house and I don't intend to knock, I just push open the door. My parents and partner shout words of warnings as the door just falls because it is not attached to the wall, it nearly lands on a man inside the house, who looks up angrily. I apologise, but still waltz right into the house, where 2 men are laying a carpet. I feel guilty for barging in, and so I start helping them, they carry on, annoyed but not about to do anything. I rip up the old carpets (brown, cheap carpets) and start bagging up the rubbish. My family sort of watch, and the 2 working men realise I'm quite helpful and are thankful. At some point, my mum asks me to check on my little sister who we left at home in bed. Yes, for some reason my little brother turned into my little sister, who was also a young child in the dream, and she is 23 now. I use my phone to access hidden cameras in her bedroom, and see she is still fast asleep in bed. The bed has an old-lady style flowery pattern on it. I show my mum and my mum is concerned because there is white foam all around her mouth. She thinks my sister has a mouth disease, because she didn't clean her mouth properly.

Dream 4 - non lucid

Me and my partner are outside the main hall of my little school from when I was a young child. However I am my real life age. My partner goes in the hall and I stay outside with lots of chocolate bars, I go in, but I have done something wrong and get sent out again.

Dream 5 - non lucid

I am in a kitchen making dessert. I have made a sponge cake base for each of us, and I am now melting berries to pour on top. The berries melt down to a purple sticky liquid, and I pour it over each dessert. We try to eat it but it is scalding hot, I burn my mouth Before bed, I ate a pizza that was too hot and burnt my mouth. I woke up with a blister. (ouch) [COLOR="#00bfff"] While we are doing this we are watching a TV, which is showing the news that someone has gone missing, suspected killed. I am a few friends know about the murder, because we covered it up and hid the body. However we are keeping it a secret. Some girl who is par of our group that knows, accidentally lets slip about the cover up, and I feel she will be murdered next. 2 of my friends run away to a different country where they have great fun doing things like white water rafting etc.

Dream 6 - non lucid

Me and my friend go shopping, because my mum asked us to pop out and get her some wine. In the supermarket, it takes me a lot of time to find the right bottles of wine, and I take care not to drop and break them. My friend disappears. I then get a trolley full of sweets and chocolate for myself. This is quite normal for my shopping trips! I also go and pick up some prescriptions from the shop's pharmacy. When I get there they won't give me one of the prescriptions because it is not in my name, we argue for a bit and then they give in and let me have it. I am angry at them questioning me so I walk out of the shop with my trolley full of goods, and don't pay. It is now dark outside, and there are gangs of youths hanging around on the streets, and some dodgy looking women. One street I avoid because I know a gang will attack me down there, but I approach a dirty, thin women who tries to fight with me. I pull out a baseball bat and beat her away, she also pulls out a baseball bat but I grab hers and use both of them to hit her until she leaves.

Dream 7 - non lucid - 12.30am

In this dream, I am a policeman. I am going through some of my assessments with a supervisor because they feel my work is starting to slip and they want to help me. They find out my wife and children died not long ago but I still think they are alive. they follow me, to a place where I think my daughter is, she doesn't exsist but I see her, and talk to her. They try to tell me that she died, and this makes me cry. I know they are dead really but can't cope so I pretend they are alive. The 'imaginary' daughter tries to convince me to commit suicide. My supervisor helps me leave and I am in tears.

Date: 06/07/2012
Place: My own bed
Time of getting into bed: 11.09pm

For some reason, I woke up several times in the night without remembering any dreams. However judging by my clock, it was too early for my REM cycle. I tried to WILD, but got too hot and fidgety so just slept. Upon waking after each dream later on, I was wide awake and could have got up even though it was too early. This is very rare for me! I stayed in bed and managed to slip in / out of dreams easily, remaining lucid. Several times I would catch myself in a dream as it started forming, knowing I was dreaming, but each time I wasn't asleep enough to be fully in a dream. It was very relaxing, and good practice.

Dream 1 - non lucid

I am at my friend's house (R) R tells me he just bought another cat, and I laugh because he already has 2 cats. It is a beautiful cat, with fur coloured like a leopard. I can instantly see why he had to have it. I tell him his house smells of catfood, and he gets a little offended although I didn't intend to be mean. His living room has only 3 walls, and where the other wall should be it opens up straight into the outside, and it is snowing out so all the snow is being walked into the house. It's beautiful, as it's dimly lit, maybe evening time. I am stroking his leopard cat, it seems to like it. I don't see his other cats anywhere. We are watching TV, and I decide to go and do something else, I put my coat on (a black, biker jacket) and as I walk out I see the room next to us is filled with older people (40's / 50's) and although I can't see them all (maybe 4 or 5 of them?) I see the nearest to me is a nice looking lady, well presented, a bit motherly. She is smiling happily and enjoying the TV they are all watching. I decide it is best not to disturb them as she looks so content. I try to be quiet. A woman with a clipboard comes in, looking a bit annoyed. She starts telling me to turn the TV off as I am annoying my neighbours because it is so loud, she is kind of rude so I snap back at her, telling her I have turned it off ages ago so she must be mistaken. She starts to argue but I dismiss her and walk out, a little annoyed.

Dream 2 - non lucid

I am starting my own business and looking through designs for my shop. The business is centered around lucid dreaming, but it looks like I am designing some sort of cafe with a dreaming theme.

Dream 3 - non lucid

I am shopping with my mum, in America. We are shopping in a big mall type thing, which is so big we have to drive to other parts of it. ***I HAVE VISITED THIS MALL IN ANOTHER DREAM YEARS AGO I am sure of it!!!!*** On our way into the first shop, there are small pens containing animals for sale, kids are playing with the animals, I look in and they are ferrets, crossed with little dogs. One pen is ferrets crossed with dashunds, and they look happy and calm, very pretty. The next pen is ferrets crossed with Jack Russels, they are a lot more fiesty and some roll around play fighting each other. I want one but know I can't have one. We enter the first shop, and my mum is looking for a shirt for my dad. We look through shirts that are shiny, colourful material, with badges or flowers on the breast. They give me an Indian Sari feel to them, but we know my dad would never wear anything like that. Mum finds some clothes (a shirt and jacket - plain black and white) for herself, she tries them on and they look great, so she decides to buy them. She doesn't find anything for my dad. I find some cool Pokemon badges that are only 99p. I choose a Pikachu and Raichu, my mum starts telling me I'm too old to be interested in them, but then gives up. When we go to pay, there is no cashier, so we just walk out. We get in the car to go to the next set of shops, and my mum says she will return to pay later. I tell her don't bother, it's their fault they had no-one to take the money, but she insists we will go back. In the end, we return to the shop to pay.

Dream 4 - non lucid

I am in a bathroom, or very small room with an extremely attractive young man. He is fair haired, and has piercing blue eyes. We are making out, and he asks me if I want to have sex, I say yes. We start touching each other up, while kissing and undress each other while still stood up. Suddenly my mum walks in and disturbs us, I am really pissed, but I am nice to my mum who is just asking me a stupid question. She leaves, and we start making out again, this time a little more desperately and I'm gagging for it. I wake up.

Dream 5 - non lucid - moments of lucidity.

I am at a festival, but I am alone. I decide to try and get backstage, and do this by jumping fences when no-one is looking, some guards (in suits with sunglasses on) spot me, but don't seem to do anything, I think they're on a break. I keep going, feeling mischievous and daring, and suddenly I think 'I am dreaming, so I can do whatever I want.' however I lose this lucidity as an older man stops me. He is maybe late 50s, mardy looking and a little out of shape. He might be tan coloured, or maybe indian? I can't remember. He tells me to follow him into a trailer for an exam. I don't really want to, but for some reason I feel I have no choice and follow him into the red, metal, old trailer. Inside there is nothing, and I know this is not authentic. He lays me down, saying he has to start the exam, but then starts touching my penis. I get annoyed, and try to stop him, but he insists, after a few more minutes of him trying and me resisting, I wake up.

Dream 6 - non lucid

My phone had run out of battery so I couldn't record the time, however the sun was shining through my curtains so it was pretty late, maybe 10.30, 11?

For some reason, someone I don't know, has decided that certain people (myself included) have to be put on a motorbike, given a gun and sent away. None of my friends are sent, just me so I wave goodbye sadly to them. On our bikes, the ones of us that have been chosen drive in a line through a door, and into a big hall. In here, we have to ride around, pull wheelies and shoot each other, until the time is up. Those who survive go on to the next round (a bit like battle royal) and those who die....die. I survive with ease, and the next round is we have to get rid of all the food in our little plastic cups that we each have. The food is like party food, or buffet food. For me it is salt and vinegar chip-sticks. I have loads of them and worry I will not get rid of them. As the clock starts, my friends turn up to help me, I have the idea of eating them all to get rid of them, and my friends say this is crazy, but as I start eating they disappear (obviously) so they all start doing this. The time is ticking down and I still have a few left, so I sneakily pour some into the other contestant's cups. This works, and I win. Because I did so well, I am entered for free into a horse race, I find out my horse won, and get £20 reward. I first I think it is £20,000, but no, it's £20. A guy I fancy tells me he is hungry, I'm annoyed because we just ate all those chipsticks and he's still hungry? But as I fancy him I agree to spend my £20 on getting him some food. We go to a stall, (suddenly we're in a festival field, with food stalls lined up, but we don't seem to notice or think it's weird) he browses the menu then gets 'Steak chips' This is like chips, all connected together, dipped in steak juice, with melted cheese on top. It looks amazing and I want some, but he doesn't share. This annoys me too! But because I fancy him... I let it slide. He wants to heat it up, he's starting to become a real pain, but I take him to a microwave to heat it up, he starts complaining that he can't figure it out, and I get angry and decide to do it for him. He wants to put 30 minutes on the microwave, but can't do it, I type 30 in, and it puts on an hour. He starts shouting that it is wrong, but I tell him harshly that he should just stop it after 30 minutes, and that will do. Some polish girl behind me in the queue for the microwave starts complaining that we are taking too long, and tries to reach over to cook her own food. Already pissed off, I shout at her and slap her hand away. She goes quiet but mumbles something under her breath. A man does the same further down the queue and I think of confronting him, but I'm not sure exactly what he said. Me and they guy I'm with decide to leave this place as I'm getting angry. So we get a taxi and go to a shopping centre. We pass my old college on the way, and I point it out but the guy is not interested. I start to think he's a dick and no longer fancy him. We get to the shopping centre and most, if not all the shops are shut. Now the guy complains again, saying there's no point in being here if the shops are shut. I can see lots of people sat around drinking outside the shops on tables, and suggest we go join them and just have fun, but he is having none of it. The driver asks us if we are ok, and neither of us reply as we are both in a mood. The guy I'm with tells the driver, that clearly we are not ok, and the driver says he will take us someplace else. The guy then complains that he can't afford the fayre after already being brought out here, and the taxi driver says he can just pay it when he has the money, like an IOU. This seems to work, and we drive away. I remember the taxi driver had a geordie accent, and so I concluded we must be on holiday in Newcastle.

Dream 7 - non lucid dream fragment

I am t with a bunch of friends, we are deciding what to watch on tv. One guy suggests this certain channel, because it has The Big Bang theory on 3 times, with another program on in between each BBT. I agree with him, as I like BBT. Everyone else is indifferent.


***NOTEWORTHY***
My friend R has 2 cats, but his house doesn't smell of catfood
I like Pokemon, and probably would have bought those badges in RL
I had a conversation about ferrets making good pets during the day
I recently bet on a horse, I also drive a motorbike, I've never shot a gun though!
I love chipsticks.

Date: 27/06/2012
Place: My own bed
Time of getting into bed: 12.48am

Dream 1 - non lucid - 2.24am
Me and my partner, 'N,' are getting motorbike lessons. N falls off the bike and hurts his foot quite badly. The teacher is nice to me, but very strict and uncaring with N. There is a small child nearby, and suddenly he / she clings to my arms, and will not let go. I try gently to remove the child, but the child won't budge.

Dream 2 - non lucid - 8.52am
My notes here are terrible, I can barely read them!
We are at a music concert / festival in the middle of a field. The field is empty apart from us and a small group of people, we are 'waiting' for something. I do remember waiting for an awfully long time. The feeling is that we don't know what we are waiting for, but it is supposed to be big. Like a famous person or something. Suddenly a few people are running towards a makeshift hut, which has queues leading in. There are star wars posters around and people start saying it is an actor from star wars appearing. My friend S is running towards the hut, as she is huge star wars fan (and in the dream she is wearing a star wars Tshirt) I stay where I am. Then, a giant inflatable slide appears in the shape of a tongue, at the top of the tongue where the mouth should be, a big inflatable gorilla head pops out, and from it's mouth lots of people start emerging, and sliding down the slide. The people are all good looking, wearing very little amounts of clothing, and what they are wearing is neon pink. They all slide down to join us, who are cheering, but then nothing happens. They just sort of hang around and wait with us. I notice I am wearing a neon pink babygro, and start to take it off. However I am naked underneath so put it back on.

Dream 2 - non lucid - 10.08am
I considered WILDing, but my partner kept snoring so I got angry and just went to sleep.
I am in a low budget hotel room. I am laying in the single bed, alone. A dog comes in, which I seem to recognise. It is a HUGE dog, maybe a rottweiler? It jumps on the bed on top of me, and licks my face. Although it is scarily massive, it is very friendly and I stroke it for some time. I vaguely remember someone disturbing me by coming into the room??

I consider this all one dream, although it could have been several;

Next I am back in one of my old childhood bedrooms. My little sister is with me, as is my partner N. I am taking some tablets to get high. As I am taking them, I find some other tablets which are a different colour. I decide to try one of these too to see what it does. I take 1 of each. I try to put the remaining tablets into a pill box, but it hard to get them to fit, so I have to squeeze them in. (I'm sure Freud would have something to say about this ) For some reason, I decide to put some in my mouth, but not eat them, just store them there. One of the tablets splits in my mouth, and the insides pour into my mouth. I know worry that I've had too much and will OD. I try to scrape out the stuff that has spilt into my mouth, but I am not doing so well. I decide to flush it out with water, so I find a 2 litre bottle that has water in it, and I pour it into my mouth, rinse, and then spit it out the window. I panic that my mum, who is in the living room below, will see the water going past the window and come up to check on me. However I have no choice, so I keep spitting. I also wash my hands clean with the last of the water.
Eventually we decide to leave, and go to our hotel room. Due to the fact I have been messing around with water and tablets I haven't had chance to get a shower or get changed, so I set off in my PJ's, and decide I will get a shower when I get there. N tells me we are going to a different hotel room this time, as we have been upgraded to the posh bit. We walk there, me with a heavy backpack on. We notice the change between the 'budget' side of the hotel and the 'posh' side. Suddenly everything is blue, clean and very nicely decorated. There is a bar along the left, with ashtrays on it. I tell my sister to put out her cigarette because we are in the posh bit now, she argues at first but after seeing how posh the place is, she agrees and puts it out in one of the ashtrays. We walk past a lounge area, with footstools and sofas, and lights in the floor. We turn right, past a blue pool table and through a door to the hotel rooms.

***NOTEWORTHY***
I have riden a scooter type bike for a few years now
When N tried riding my bike in waking life a year or so ago, he did actually fall off, but wasn't hurt
Dream sign appears again
Don't know is S really likes Starwars or not
Im not a huge starwars fan, but it's ok
I occasionally take a pill at parties with friends

Date: 26/06/2012
Place: My own bed (for a change!)
Time of getting into bed: 11pm
Glass of apple juice in the day.

Dream 1 - non lucid

We are at a music festival or music event. There are lots of bands and different stalls etc. We go into a small, dark, dingy shed. (We being me, and friend I and friend R) We are just chilling / talking in here. I know of a group of people just outside, and I know that they are not friendly. One of them comes in to retrieve a bag he left inside here, which is like a holdall type bag. He tells us there is a human skull inside, and we just say 'ok' because we don't want any trouble. The group are young, hooligan type kids (god I sound old) who have guns. The young guy gets offensive and pulls out his gun, but my friend I takes it off him. There is no struggle, more like a nervous tension. I plays with the gun, asks the kid some questions while the kid answers them. I then aims the gun jokingly, and 'accidentally' shoots the kid several times. Although he is not hurt, they shots are close and nearly hit him every time, so the kid takes the gun back. Now he has it back, the kid dos the same; talks about the gun and aims it at people. I panic, assuming he will end up shooting someone. He shoots at me, and I get scared but he tells me not to be scared, and that my jumper is too baggy, and will catch the shots before they get to me. Amazingly he's right.

[Dream 2 - Lucid dream

I woke and wrote my previous dream (see above) I needed a pee so I went to the toilet and came back. As I lay down, I attempted to WILD. I was very hot and had to stop to remove covers then continue. (I always get hot when I WILD?) I start 'feeling' a dream, talking with friends, playing with my friends cat. To keep myself aware, I start 'rubbing' my friend's sofa that I am sat on while this dream forms. (Dream sofa, I am really in bed) However the dream is not solid yet. Suddenly, I am in a fully fledged dream and don't know how I got here! However I am fully lucid. Unlike my last lucid, I do not panic and I stay calm. But I think this is due to a lower level of awareness. So I'm walking with my partner (let's call him 'N') down the road, I fear there was more to the beginning of this lucid but alas, I have forgotten. I am telling N that I am dreaming. He doesn't believe me, but does ask me some questions to test me. I tell him let's get a train, so take him to the train station. As we walk there, I am amazed by the details my mind has come up with. The scenery etc. We get on the train and I see a pigeon close by, I try to touch it but it flies away. However I'm not bothered as I'm happy I am dreaming, so we hop on the train. As I walk by a DC, I stroke his face to feel the stubble on his face, he stares at me but doesn't seem to mind. We get off the train again, and I'm not sure where we have got off. I ask N if he believes me yet, he says no, but does seem to be thinking hard about it, like I am beginning to convince him. We have to go through a check-point before we can leave the train station (like guards on a gate) and as we approach I get horny. I get out my junk with the intent to present it to a DC when we arrive at the gate. N notices and asks me what I am doing. I suddenly realize I don't want to upset N, even if it is the DC version. So I put it away and pretend I wasn't doing anything. However N is very persistant, grabbing me and challenging me. I get a bit frustrated and suddenly N is as well. I fear he may become angry and ruin the dream, but I remember what I read on DV about making DCs do what you want, so I think of the most plausible thing I can and say 'N, aren't you supposed to be at the post office today? It shuts in like 5 minutes you better hurry!' N works for the PO. He suddenly realizes and rushes off, leaving me alone. I decide I am no longer horny after that charade, and progress through the gates into this new, unknown place. When entering this place (must have been a building, but I don't remember doors of any kind) I was almost speechless about how AMAZING it looked. Not necessarily real, but just very detailed, and beautiful. It was along the lines of a train station, mixed with a shopping centre, and maybe a pub or nightclub element to it too. I saw so much in here, simple wandering round that I have probably forgotten much of it. First of all, there were lights and displays. I think it was evening-ish time so these lights looked BEAUTIFUL, I really stared at them, noticing they were made of little lights, with a yellow glow. Reminded me a bit of Xmas lights. I was smiling madly, thinking 'this dream is awesome.' I then walked off, found some women searching in a fridge for their dinner while they were on a break. I searched for a little bit but then walked off. I was at a bit of a loss of what to actually do. I didn't even think of flying (dur) and even though I knew I was dreaming, I didn't do anything crazy or mind-blowing! I suddenly remembered the task of the month. I knew it involved walking through a mirror. I turned around, expecting to find a mirror, and taadaa! A lovely mirror. It was a bit high for me (I'm a shortarse) so I pulled myself up to it, and just stuck my head through boldly. At first I thought of a beautiful park scene, and thought 'don't think of that, cos then that's what you'll see!' however it wasn't, what I did see, was SPACE. Like, our universe, just black, and filled with stars and I could even make out the milky way. It was BIG. There were brightly coloured parrots flying through space, just casually flying around, in all directions, kind of slow. The vastness of the space scared me however, and I decided there was no way I was climbing in there! So I pulled my head out. It was hard to get out, like I would somehow fall in, and for a minute I was stuck, but a very nice young DC, who had black hair and a friendly smile pulled me out. I thanked her and told her the mirror was 'all hers.' So she climbed up and stuck her head in too!
I walked off again, repeating over and over that I would remember the mirror for the TOTM, determined not to forget. I followed rooms in this building, not going in them but reading the signs above the doors, observing the DCs going on with their lives. I came across a large photo booth (the type you get passport photos printed instantly on) but it was 4 or 5 times bigger. I went inside, and realized you were supposed to sit on the tacky-looking plastic sofa (it was an old, battered machine) and put money in, then a person would have a conversation with you about anything you liked. I found this silly and walked out, the thought crossed my mind that if I pulled the curtains, I could have some 'adult fun' in this booth. But I decided against it, not wanting to end the dream early. I walked up some stairs, running my hands along the metal pole at the sides, and finding it very metal-like. I found a room which I spent some time reading the sign above it, but have now forgotten what it said. A young guy walked past, and I got horny again. Figuring I'd just go for it, I walked up and asked him if he fancied some fun. He ignored me, but clearly wasn't interested. He wasn't even that good looking, but for some reason I persisted, taking his hand and placing it down my pants. He was clearly uncomfortable with this, and gave me a terrible look which made me question my morals. However I knew I was dreaming, so kept telling myself he wasn't really upset and it was just my mind telling me its not nice to do things like this to strangers! However the guys dad suddenly appeared, concerned where his son was. His dad looked mad so I left! While walking away, I thought 'hey, I haven't had to stabilize this dream once!' So I rubbed my hands together to practice, and the whole place lit up, and became a bit clearer. However this faded again as soon as I stopped rubbing my hands. I already thought everything was clear, but now it had been clearer and gone back again it seemed a little unclear. (If that makes sense) I shouted stabilize! But my dream began to fade, I shouted it again, this time with NOW on the end, and summoning up as much confidence and courage as I could. The dream came back. I had a few more seconds of walking around, then blackness began to set in. I tried spinning, but I couldn't do it, it was really hard! I couldn't even get close, I tried rubbing my hands again, and this was better, but in the end I just gave up, and let myself wake up. I figured it was the end.

When awaking, I could have gone straight back into a dream again, I didn't move or open my eyes. However I wanted to write in my DJ, I didn't want to lose the dream! So I got up. Although this dream was clearly lucid, it didn't feel as real as the first time I had a lucid dream. I think this is why I was a lot more in control, because it wasn't so shockingly life-like. Don't get me wrong, it was pretty amazing. I feel annoyed that I didn't do more, and super annoyed that I let my penis get in the way of a decent dream.

Dream 3 - Non Lucid dream

My cousin 'C' has come to stay fr a few days. I got on well with him (he annoys me in RL) and we had lots of people who were crowding round to see / meet us, like we were famous or something. More him then me. We were talking about going to a music concert while he was here, I told him Linkin Park were playing, but he wanted to see Rhianna. I thought 'he used to have decent taste in music...'. There was some sort of parade going by, with lots of drunk people watching and celebrating. I have a fish tank with lots of shrimp but no fish. I complain about this and someone tells me to draw some fish, put them inside and they will come to life. I start doing this, but my cousin distracts me, as do our fans who keep watching us / asking us questions.


***NOTEWORTHY***
LUCID DREAM!!!
WBTB / WILD
TASK OF THE MONTH?
Festivals / concerts YET AGAIN - DS
Cousin hasn't visited for a while

Date: 20/06/2012
Place: My holiday caravan
Time of getting into bed: midnight exactly
I took 100mg B6 tablet before bed

Dream 1 - Non Lucid dream

I didn't notice any effect from the B6, but will continue to take it.
When waking, it was so dark I used my phone to find my pen, I then noted the time was 2.57am
My notes are sparse (I was VERY tired)
I am at a music festival. 2 of my closest friends are there, as is my little sister. I know I am educating my sister on something, but my notes are random words and unreadable so I can't remember what it was.
Suddenly me and my partner are walking down a street, and along comes a polar bear. I am not sure if this is the same dream, or a new one - but my notes say this is the same dream (I divide dreams with lines across the page) so...
The polar bear wants to have his photo taken with us, and the two middle aged woman who are also walking down the street in the same direction. They are getting out their camera, when my partner dives in for a quick photo. The polar bear lays on a bench, in a cheesy pose, my partner smiling and thumbs up next to it. After that we walk off fast. I am giggling and walking fast because I know the bear will want money for having his photo taken with us, but leave the 2 woman to pay. I hear one of the woman shouting angrily after us, 'Don't run off, come and pay! That's cheeky!' The polar bear catches up and I think 'oh well, nice try' I am fumbling to get my wallet from my trousers, and while I do so I talk to the bear, who is now a human dressed up in a bear costume. (Like what you find in theme parks etc) I ask him how he is, etc - making small talk. I'm laughing and joking, a little cocky I think. We eventually arrive back at his place, where I discover he is simply a young lad, probably in his mid teens. I ask him weather he gets free food with his job, and he says he gets vouchers for a certain amount which he cashes in at the stalls. (So I am clearly still at a music festival) I express he gets paid too low for what he does and the dream ends.

Dream 2 - Non Lucid dream

I have simply written in my notes; LOST DREAM. I guess I couldn't remember it. I have an image stood in a room filled with junk...

Dream 3 - Non Lucid dream

I have managed to get tickets to an outdoor music festival... (I'm noticing a pattern here!) I am happy because the tickets were hard to get. there is a big ring in a field full of tents, and a stage to the side. It is very busy and lots of people. While I am sat at my tent, a friend's boyfriend walks by and says hi - we converse for a bit (maybe my friend was there also, but I don't remember seeing her) and then he leaves. For some reason I now have big, green, dragon-like wings. I can use these to fly, although not by much. I like my wings. We go to the stage to watch a band, it is VERY busy with loads of people gathered and squashed up, but I love this. I dive right in and use my wings to get to the front, where I rock out for a bit.

Dream 4 - Non Lucid dream

I have moved into a new house, which is actually quite nice. I have moved in with an old friend (non sexual, just splitting the rent) and we are quite happy about this arrangement. There is a knock at the door, and it is his ex girlfriend, who he split up with in a bad way last year. She has changed a bit, and since it has been a while he decides to forget about the past and invites her in. I don't complain but I do not like her. I actually pretend that I don't know who she is. She sort of does the same. We make small talk and drink tea etc, but then she starts acting like her old self again, going through my belongings, I believe she is stealing stuff. She also sprays paint on one of my windows, and I tell her off harshly, claiming that it takes me ages to clean. I scrape the paint off but she keeps doing it so I get angry. She then starts graffitting the walls, I get really mad and try and throw her out, she resists (not in an angry way, in a 'i'm the victim here' way) and I insist. Eventually my friend talks to her and she calms down, but then I find her going through my things again. My friend agrees to take her home and they leave. Before she leaves we do let each other know that we are aware of who each other is (as we were pretending not to know each other) When they are gone, I get a call from the friend who is lost, I use my GPS / sat nav thingy to direct him to a kids toy store.

Dream 5 - Non Lucid dream

I am yet again, at a music gig. I am waiting for Steel Panther to come on, having rushed there to see them. Guns n Roses are just finishing and I dance around like a loony with some friends. Slash jumps off stage and starts playing his guitar next to us. We appear to be the only ones at the gig, so all the attention is focused on us. Axl Rose then jumps off stage, and starts singing in my face, I respond by singing back, or screaming the words back at him - genuinely happy and psyched up! My DJ notes say: 'Good feeling' and I have drawn a little smiley face


***NOTEWORTHY***
Upon writing the last dream it occurred to me that MUSIC FESTIVALS / CONCERTS are in a LOT of my dreams. This could be my dream sign! Yay!
Writing down the time was a good idea, will try and do it more often
The bands in the last dream are both bands I like, and have seen in concert
I was reading about flying in lucid dreams during the day, hence the wings in my dream?
My friend who I moved in with in my dream, really does have a psycho ex girlfriend.

Date: 19/06/2012
Place: My holiday caravan
Time of getting into bed: 11.50pm
During the day I drank 1 x 500ml Monster energy drink

WILD attempt (first ever)

Strangely enough I decided to try it without prior sleep (don't ask me why) this took a good hour before I really felt the effects, but here is the results;

Went to bed, relaxed, tried to get sleepy and restful. Took some time but finally felt in the right place. Found sleeping on my side the most comfortable (my sleeping position of choice)
Was continually interupted by random banging noises - was sleeping in a caravan and sounded like the walls moving / creaking? Never noticed this before so really annoyed me!!
Each time I was awoken I ignored it, and relaxed again - partners loud breathing kept me awake but after using it as a beat to keep my own breathing slow, it became unnoticeable. I found this bit easy.
After some time I was clearly getting close, I could not feel my body, I kept experiencing swaying / floating sensations and my 'mind' was totally immersed. It felt a bit like I was mildly drugged up, I couldn't feel my hands or even the quilt around me. I didn't feel the need to swallow (which I have a bit of a habit of doing) I continued counting to ten, and saying ;I am dreaming' each time. I often lost my place and had to start over but remained calm.

After an unknown amount of time, my body lit up as if on fire, but not painful. I had vibrations running through my body, which I tried to feel and control (sort of worked) it was not a bad sensation, but so real and intense that it did 'light' my brain up. Almost like going from sleepy and hypnotized to being conscious and SWITCHED ON. My ears popped as if I was underwater, and I tried to enjoy this strange sensation, telling myself I was about to enter a lucid dream!

This sensation was exactly the same as the sensation I had when getting lucid a few nights ago. I feel like I know that I'm lucid, but I have to DO something to break through the barrier. Last time I raised my hand and pulled myself out from my 'body' so to speak. this time I didn't get a chance to. My initial idea was to 'roll over' into a dream. I didn't do this in time.
Unfortunately I must have gotten too excited as I 'woke up'. I did a quick RC to make sure it wasn't a FA, which it wasn't. I jotted in my journal and tried to re-enter, but by then my heart was racing so fast and I was wide awake.

It did give me incentive to try WILDing again though!

Dream 1 - Non Lucid dream

I am at a festival, trying to get back to my tent. There are lots of people walking around, and a large queue of traffic blocking the way. It is also very dark and very muddy, however I am not worried, I just keep walking.

Dream 2 - Non Lucid dream

I am somewhere, and trying to get home with my partner. We have no money to get home, but a limo pulls up looking for some famous people. We get in, pretending it is for us so we can a free lift home. It takes us to the home of the famous film stars who own the limo. We get out the limo and go in their house. Their house is big, spacious and obviously they are rich. We help ourselves to their stuff but we are not trashing the place as that would be rude. Someone knocks on the door and we panic, and hide. They soon go away and we decide it is best to disguise ourselves as the film stars so that no body suspects us. We put on their clothes, for me this consists of a dirty, white string vest and some large boots. I then have a string necklace around my neck, with beads and random bits hanging from it, a bit broken and messy. I also wear a long, dirty, thick trenchcoat. We then put egg yolk all over ourselves. No idea why. I believe we got these from the fridge.

Dream 3- Non Lucid dream

I am going through a drive through, although the actual company is not one that I know of (made up?) the men who work there are nice, but incompetent. They wear police helmets, and apologize for the delay. I finally get the food and drink but after drinking the fanta, it is warm. I hand it back and complain and they are nice, and agree to replace. However it takes so long to get a replacement that we decide to go for a short walk. We step out the car and see a strange gift shop. It is clear we are in a place I am unfamiliar with in my dream as I sort of explore, like a tourist. The gift shop is brown and had a big skeleton outside, it appears to sell strange and bizarre gifts. I don't go in, however, I turn left towards the main shopping area, across a square where people walk / talk / go about their lives. Here I see someone watching me / staring. I try to ignore them but I have a feeling they are going to talk to me and I really don't want them to. I am not scared, but don't like them so I try to mingle with the crowd and hide. It works. Next thing I know I am in a pub garden, playing pool (or snooker) with a friend. I notice my partner isn't here and ring them, trying to get them to join us. He will not join us because he cannot bring his own beer into the pub. I tell him we have water and this sort of changes his mind.

Dream 4 - Non Lucid dream

I have got some baby rats as pets. They are in a cage but I take one out to hold, it is fast and I drop it on the floor. I then try to pick it up but it is so small I lose it in the fibres of the carpet, I then search for it and find it - it is now an insect but I do not seem to be bothered by this transformation in the dream. I follow it a while then carefully pick it up, putting it back in the cage.

***NOTEWORTHY***
FIRST WILD ATTEMPT!
The sensation I describe as 'lighting up my body' was present again
Ears popped during WILD
I love rats and had many pet rats in the past
I recently attended a music festival
A festival and a drive through have been been in my DJ recently
I recently played pool with a friend

Date: 18/06/2012
Place: My holiday caravan
Time of getting into bed: 00.45am
During the day I drank 2 x 250ml Red Bull drinks. Combined total of 10mg B6 as well as taurine / caffeine etc

Dream 1 - Non Lucid dream

I am in a room, which is a bit dark and dingy. Feels like a pub or bar, and I even remember there being a bar serving drinks along one side. The people in the room were holding pints etc so it was most likely a pub. One wall of the pub is a giant black screen, with white writing all over it. The writing is in French. Someone stands up and tells everybody in the room (all adults) to get into a male group and female group. We do so, then they start talking about learning to speak French.

Dream 2 - Non Lucid dream

I am waiting in a doctors waiting room (except there is no room!) this is outside. Other people are waiting with me, including my dad and some strangers. One woman is waiting because the doctors think she may be crazy. To prove she is not crazy, she gets a dog (Yorkshire terrier) and saws it in half with a chainsaw. I am shocked and horrified, but no one stops her. In fact one person helps her. The dog is still alive as it is being cut into (which is very neat, no blood) but then it dies. She seems to be searching for something inside the dog (peering inside, not touching) which will prove she is sane. Then she saws off the dogs head, which floats into the sky like a balloon, and into the clouds and far away. The floating head is a boxer dog's, but the dog was a Yorkie. It is sad and a bit spooky. I complain to my dad, who agrees, and claims he was just there to get his sodium levels checked. I figured that's what I must be there for too, so we continue waiting.

Dream 3 - Non Lucid dream

I am playing a computer game on my ipod. In the game (which has very basic graphics, much like an old SNES or SEGA) I am a little man swinging from a rope to collect coins. I am not actually in the game, I was playing it on my ipod. I decide I will only complete the game if I let go of the rope and collect more coins, which I do. The game features a large, blue viaduct.

Dream 4,5...6? - Non Lucid dream/s

Not sure weather these were all one dream or a collection of 3. My notes in my DJ are sparse and not written properly. I will lump them together but they could have been fragments of 3 dreams.

1... I am taking a video on my camera of my friend / romantic interest. The video is bad quality and wobbly as I have zoomed in from afar to get it. I remember thinking 'this is like the scene from Slumdog Millionaire.' Where the boy sees the girl looking for him through the crowded train platform. Suddenly it is me I am recording, my hair is slightly different but I am sat down and smiling (not looking at the camera) I figure I must now be my friend / love interest because I can't be filming myself.
2...I am picking up beer cans in a field - this must be a music festival.
3...I am at the vets for a friend who wants a job there. They agree to offer him the job if I fill out some forms. My love interest (not the friend who wants the job) gets angry because his ex works there, but I ignore him because it is a favour for a friend. The door is all I remember, a large, white door with 'VET' written on it in green.

Dream 7 - Non Lucid dream

I am in the field mentioned in a previous dream. I am drawing a whale, which I give lots of detail to. Eventually it become very real looking, but not like a drawing, more like CGI. It then swims away in the air. A close friend of mine is sitting next to me playing a game about Star Wars. He seems addicted and the game is pointless / boring. I start to draw a dinosaur (Trex) but this again becomes very realistic and CGI looking. It then starts to move around and eat people, with lots of blood and gore and nastiness. However I am not worried as they are not real people he is eating, just CGI people.

***NOTEWORTHY***
Someone bored me with pictures of viaducts earlier that day
I recently attended a music festival
I like to draw and do so a lot
My love interest really does have an ex at a vets, and avoids him / the vets
I want to speak French, and have a few French phrase books. However I don't have the time to learn and never really read them.