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Date: 24/07/2012
Place: My bed
Time of getting into bed: 11.00pm
Nothing before bed - Ginseng & Ginkgo the morning before

Waking thoughts in black
Non lucid dreams in blue
Lucid dreams in red

Dream 1 - non lucid (12.55am)

So, I was all intent on taking my Lucid Dreaming pill on a WBTB last night, for the first time. I went to bed early, and fell asleep normally. I must stress I DIDNT TAKE ANYTHING, not even the usual B6 as I wanted to see the effects of the G&C without any interactions. I took Ginseng & Ginkgo the morning before, which I have been doing for about a week now. The night was particularly hot (we're having a heat wave, woohoo!) and I slept semi-naked, and out of the quilt. This always gave me nightmares as a child.

Dream fragments -talking on DV about WILDing and lucid dreaming. I wrote this in my DJ, I was sweating and really tired (hence just a short sentence / fragment) but I was feeling weird. I was slipping in and out of consciousness and as I was I was unintentionally WILDing! It came on so fast, I would lie down to sleep, and felt my body go numb, then a floating sensation, all in a matter of minutes. I didn't fight it, but I mostly 'popped' in and out of it, very unusual sensation. This happened all night, at one point I checked the G&C pill on my bedside table to make sure I hadn't taken it in my sleep, because the feeling was so intense. I hadn't. I decided not to take it, as it was too early. (even though I was dreaming?) I slept, and then woke up to a loud noise a little later. I woke up (or did I? FA?) because there was a loud noise outside, at first I thought it was a helicopter flying by )it happens) but it got louder and louder, I realised I was awake... (I think... I didn't RC) but I was in SP - the noise got loud and turned into screeching, just like HH that people describe, but I've never had it. After the noise, I felt tingling all over my body, and fell asleep. Thinking about it now, was this a dream about WILDing? Or did I wake up in SP briefly? I have no idea.

Dream 2 - non lucid
Two guys are performing oral sex on me, the dream gets really weird, with medieval torture devices being used, I'll skip the details, but it was weird and erotic. This was one messed up sex dream.

Dream 3 - non lucid / slight lucidity at end - 3.00am
My mum is coming to pick me up from somewhere because I have been drinking. When she gets there she has some pizzas ready for me to eat, which I'm thankful for because I'm starving. My mum disappears, and I begin to panic. I ring her phone but she isn't answering, I worry she's been in an accident. However she then pulls in the drive with her car. The car is a big silver estate, and puffing out clouds of black smoke. I initially think she's had car trouble, but she gets out with my younger sister and says she's been in hospital. My younger sister is in tears - I ask her what's wrong? She says her favourite singer Adele, is in hospital. I laugh, and say 'I know she is, she's been in there for ages, call yourself a fan?' but she get's even more upset and says its an operation on her throat. I make a mental note to check weather Adele really has had an operation when I wake up, or weather my dream is making it up, as I can't remember right now.

I woke up, with a music in my head from my childhood, that I had COMPLETELY forgotten. It was eerie and freaked me out, as I tried to get back to sleep, I kept remembering dreams from YEARS AGO. I shit you not. I thought about getting up (this was about 3.30am now) and watching some TV because I was so freaked out I daren't sleep. However I forced myself to sleep, but I woke up again and again, each time remembering dreams from about 5 or 6 years ago, with amazing detail. I thought I'd completely forgotten these dreams. What the hell was going on? I finally fell to sleep properly again.

Dream 4 - non lucid - 5.15am
My family owns a food shop, I go in search of starting my own food shop. I have a clothes shop, but this gets shut down. A pink tie is left hanging from one of the windows, and I take it as a souvenir. I open a shop selling action figures, and I make shoes themed with cartoon characters and comic characters.

Dream 5 - non lucid
I am chilling with friends when someone asks me if I want to take part in a fun, free experiment. I agree. I have to hold these 2 black bars, it's a new kind of virtual game where you play an incredibly life-like character, that moves just by sensing through the bars in your hands. When I grab the bars, they hurt me at first, but I get used to it. I am a young soldier, in the war, I follow his life as he struggles to survive and still look after his wife and young child at home. I get really involved in this soldiers life, eventually feeling like I am him. I wake up in the dream, and the soldier is now a real man, stood over my bed. He tells me he is real, and wants me to follow him, I'm shocked, but not scared. I go and meet his wife and daughter, it is an emotional reunion for them, I watch quietly. Again, I wake up and feel like I'm WILDing, entering SP without trying. My body is tingling and numb at the same time, I feel like I'm floating over my bed. I remember more dreams from my long forgotten past, but this time I try to remember more and I'm shocked when I can. I quite like it. I fall asleep.

Dream 6 - non lucid
I'm watching a TV show about young fathers meeting their in laws to be. One guy is wearing nothing but a purple robe, he has a scruffy beard, and lots of body hair. He poses and messes around and his naked body is clear to see.

Dream 7 - non lucid - 9.03am
I'm at a dinner table in a restaurant, wearing fancy dress. I am wearing a santa costume, but it isn't totally correct. Someone nearby is a policeman. We add up 'fancy dress points' that we get for our outfits, so that we can have enough points to leave the restaurant. There was more to this dream, plus a whole other dream after this one, but I didn't write them down.

Overall, what a weird night. I feel refreshed this morning, but still in awe of the crazy night I had and I can still remember those dreams from years ago!

Date: 07/07/2012
Place: My bed
Time of getting into bed: 11.12pm

Ok, first off, I slept as usual, then woke up in the night without remembering any dreams. I did this last night so just presumed my intention / auto suggestion to wake for a WBTB was waking me up in my NREM cycles. Anyway, I relaxed, tried to WILD but thought I fell asleep.

Dream 1 - non lucid / FA / lucid

False awakening, I wake up (from a dream I don't remember or never had) in my bed, in the exact same room etc. I start complaining to my bf that I didn't have a lucid dream from my WILD, and he tells me he had many!! I'm pretty pissed off, but ask him how he did it. He says he'll help me, and tells me to hold his arm as we fall asleep. I do, and enter a dream. (Dream within a dream? wtf?) in this dream I am running around a town square, watching people running from giant shark heads that are attacking, but the shark heads barely move, and they have no bodies, they actually look a little like plastic. There is water gushing from them but they are on the street in the middle of the day? I wake up, into my bed. I then tell my bf that I wasn't lucid, and he tries to help me WILD - this part of the dream is really hazy, but I remember slipping in and out of the dream, WILDing and talking to him. Not sure what was a dream and what was real life at this point. Suddenly, I'm in a really vivid dream. I'm stood in a corridor, cream and pale brown walls. I plug my nose, and can breathe!!! Fuck I'm lucid!!! So I laugh like a maniac, super happy that my ADA and RCs during the day have paid off. I first, rub my hands and jesus, this is so convincingly real. I look above me, around me, try to take in as much as I can, thinking to myself 'Remember all of this for your DJ!' So it appears I am in a school, or college of some sort. There are a few people dotted around, classrooms and pictures / notices on the walls. A young girl, with ginger hair exits a classroom and sits on a chair or bench next to the wall, I think she had a book in her hand but can't remember. I want to talk to her but then I realise I recognise her from school all those years ago. She looks pretty pissed off, and I remember I never did like her in school. She glares at me, as if warning me not to speak to her, so I ignore her. I walk along a bit, enter a classroom and a girl sits with a few guys, they seem a bit stand-offish, but harmless. The girl is chewing gum in a really unattractive way, but I ask 'Where am I?' They look at me like I'm crazy. The girl finally answers 'This is a superschool.' I ask what it is called, and she hesitates, like she is unsure. She then stammers a bit, looking at her male friends for help. 'erm... it's.. it's called... Mkat, it's a superschool for boys.' but she sounds really unsure, and there is the same amount of boys as there is girls here. I thank her and leave. I presume when she said MKat she meant the drug? Weird. I leave and walk around for a few seconds, I'm so super happy this is a lucid dream, that I keep giggling and smiling to myself! I decide to rub my hands as a precautionary measure, and then stamp my feet as I remember this being mentioned. My legs wobble and I feel the muscles as I stamp, woah this is so real! I'm so impressed! A friendlier looking girl walks by and I say 'hey! Can you help me?' she smiles and tells me she will get her teacher. Seconds later, an older woman appears. She is friendly looking too, with full grey hair but only in her 50's, she has a name tag and wears a grey jumper over a lilac blouse with trousers. Her hair is shoulder length, she may have had glasses around her neck. She smiles to me, and asks me what she can do to help. I tell her I'm looking for a magic potion drink, remembering TOTM. She doesn't seem to know what I'm talking about, but agrees to help anyway. For a while I keep repeating 'magic potion, a magic drink, it's a potion, blah blah' just to get the message across. She tells me to follow her and walks off briskly, I follow her. As we walk, I notice paintings and drawings framed on the wall. I take a closer look at some, one is a watercolour of a young girl, not too bad but pretty novice painting. The next is something I can't remember, but it's a yellow and orange mess. I note the name underneath is one of my ex bf's names, but with a few letters different. As we walk, students pass us each direction, everyone seems about mid 20's and a little older, all quite engrossed in their college duties. The nice teacher asks me where I'm from, I think for a few seconds then say 'Superland.' I don't know why I said this, but I remember not wanting to say where I was really from for some reason. I think because I could say anything and it was my dream! She nods and smiles, then asks me why I want the magic potion, nosy lady! I tell her it's really important, and someone specifically left it here for me! She asks who, and ur, I sort of panic a little, I hold my face and try to remember the name of the DV member who does the TOTM thread, but I can only think of Gab, so that's what I say. She nods and smiles again, I'm not sure she believes me but she is too nice to say anything. I rub my hands again, still amazed at the real vividness of the dream and then say to the teacher, 'I'm dreaming you know!' I laugh after saying this, it sound's so crazy! And I feel like such a rebel (haha) and she totally doesn't believe me, in a really sarcastic voice she says 'oh, that's nice!' and I say, 'really, I am!' but I can't stop laughing and she kind of looks the other way. For a moment I think of attempting the advanced TOTM, but then I remember it involves jumping on a train or something, so I decide against it. (Doh, I forgot that was last months!!) Eventually we get to a room where some kids are hanging outside, she says 'I'll just go and check if the magic potion drink is in here, please come with me,' and she enters the room. I go to follow, but suddenly a stream of students starts leaving the room, and a loud bell goes off! I get pushed around a bit and fear I'm waking up, so I get out of the way and calm myself down. The students are all rushing out, there's HUNDREDS of them! I get annoyed with my brain for doing this to me, but then think 'hang on, this is my dream, I can get in that room any way I like!!!' I think about pushing through the wall, but don't feel confident enough. Then I think about flying... yes! My next task was to fly properly. So I point my arms above my head (like I'm diving,' and just... fly! It's so easy! Complete control, a bit slow, but it's fine for me. I fly over the heads of the students (they don't notice, or care) and towards the gap in the door above their heads, it's a tight squeeze, and I get a little stuck (got to lay off the sweets ) but I get through, the student's below feel me brushing over their heads and start complaining (Ow! / Get off! / Stop that!) I find this mildly amusing. I land on a grey sofa, and stand up. It's a regular classroom (except for the sofa) and the teacher is stood with 2 young, good looking girls smiling and waiting for me. I walk over, and YES!!!! THEY HAVE THE MAGIC DRINK!!!! Thankyou very much! They present it to me like a trophy, and I grab it, eager to drink! The bottle was bright purple, with a purple lable that had no text but purple colours and shapes. The cap was strange, a bit like a ring-pull, but plastic. The closest thing I can think of is like a plastic milk carton lid, or fruit juice lid, where you pull it off and it's a plastic circle with a line of plastic attached to it. I discard this and peer inside. The drink is a darker purple, with the consistency of fruit juice. I happily take a few big gulps, and shit, this is such an amazing experience. I can actually taste the drink! It's mega sweet, perhaps too sweet for some, but nice to me. It's fruity, and tastes like berries, but with a LOT of sugar. I like it so I drink more, trying to really remember the taste, it's almost MORE taste then real life, my mouth is watering so bad! The teacher and the girls just stand and watch with big smiles. I must look like an absolute looney. I stop drinking and wait to see if I feel any different. I don't feel anything, except - THE DREAM IS FADING! Oh no! I try to rub my hands, and it slows the fading down, but doesn't stop it. I try to spin, but AGAIN I find this impossible. I don't know why but I really can't spin in my dreams. I want to do something, but it's almost like I know this is the end. I wake up, wide awake, and pretty fucking happy. Maybe the magic potion was a dream-ending potion? HAHA.

This was the best dream ever in my life ever. I was wide awake, stayed in bed and tried to sleep but my mind was racing, even shutting my eyes was difficult. After an hour I decide to stop trying and get up and have a cup of tea. I watched the birds playing in the veggies outside, and felt like I really appreciated life after that dream. It was so real, and I still remember that vivid, amazing taste of the drink. I feel like I need to say such a big thankyou to dreamviews, because without this site I would never have had that dream!

***NOTEWORTHY***
I went to college / University years ago
FA, lucid, best dream ever!
Realistic and the drink was amazing
Super awake on waking, perhaps the B6???
RC worked, as did rubbing hands
Spinning never works for me.

Date: 04/07/2012
Place: My own bed
Time of getting into bed: 2.30am

Dream 1 - non lucid 6.16 am

I am a young boy again, possibly 13ish. My family are all farmers and we own some considerable land and wealth. My father has recently died in a freak accident, of which my Uncle thinks my Mother is responsible. My mother and Uncle fight, but he remains around the home, does most of the work on the farm and raises us. Soon my eldest brother dies in a freak accident somewhere on the farm. My mother, who appears a bit unstable, involves me in some illegal activity which includes me standing outside a school, and dealing with big wads of cash. I have to smuggle the cash into a building, as I enter some guards try to pat me down, I hide the cash in my pocket, and luckily they don't find it and I get through. Then my mother murders my other brother, by drowning him in mud at the farm. My Uncle is angry and tries to stop her, but she thinks he is after the money. They fight for a long time, until eventually he locks her in a tractor, and she sinks into the mud, drowning. When we recover the tractor, she has left an envelope with my name on it, and inside is all the money they were arguing over (it was £4000) my Uncle seems sad, and I agree that he should be entitled to some of the money, so tell him to come and sit with me while I work it out. He starts talking about how I should buy a house with my money, and that he has seen a nice one nearby for £4000.

*There is a fragment of dream here, and I was pretty sure it was the same dream as above, although it doesn't fit anywhere.*

I get a card, which says 'Nodon' on the envelope. I know this is from a certain friend, because their email address includes the word Nodon. The card has lots of glitter and decoration inside it, and the letters have been written in brown felt tip, very neatly. I suspect it was 'Nodon's' wife who wrote it. It is congratulating me on something, but is written in a very silly and childish way, with 'Ni ni ni ni ni' written all over the text. It also includes a picture of me, which was taken from facebook, and I think the picture is terrible. I tell myself that I really must not forget to say thankyou to Nodon.

Dream 2 - non lucid 8.23 am

I am in a room, with lots of rooms attached to it in which people are living / store their belongings. A bit like a ship. None of the rooms are locked, and everyone is out, we are the only people here. (We are myself, little sister, and unknown DC) My little sister steals some jewellry from one of the rooms, and I tell her off, and make her put it back. We pass the room of a tattooist, and suddenly we set lots of machines off. The 2 girls (my sister and the DC) make me turn the machines off because I am the man. I do so. I am carrying around a file with lots of bits of paper in it, I keep going through the paper, checking off boxes and lists. The paper had a bigger role to play in the dream but I forgot it. However I am now going to a music concert, and start getting ready. I put on a white shirt, and the girls make fun of me, telling me I look silly. I go to the gig, and there is another man with a similar white shirt on. I talk to him.

Dream 3 - non lucid

There is a young girl (10 yrs old?) blonde, and a bit chubby. She is advertising what looks like a bottle of cooking oil. She says; 'If your body is unique like mine (meaning fat) then you need this!'

Dream 3 - WBTB / WILD & 2 x FAs 9.34am

This is where it gets weird, I woke up, got up to drink a little water, then after writing the previous entries in my DJ, I tried to WILD. Several times I got very close, and had to re-try.

The man I am sleeping with turns around and says 'Shall we get up and have some food?' I am annoyed because I was trying to WILD, but I tell him 'Yes, OK then.' It wasn't until after I got up for the day that I realise this never happened. Must have been dreaming.

Suddenly I felt the familiar onset of SP. There was no noise this time (woohoo!) just a really bizarre all over body feeling which I have grown used to. I welcomed it, and a few times it came and went as my concentration wavered. However soon I felt it flood my senses, and at this point I 'willed' my body to move. I felt my body sitting up, and leaving my other body sleeping behind. I kept thinking 'so how do I go from here, into a dream?' this was more like an OBE, it felt so absolutely real. Suddenly I lost it, and I was awake lying in bed. I decided to do an RC, in case it was a false awakening. For some STUPID reason, I held my mouth, not my nose, but I did realise I was dreaming and became lucid. I shouted out, 'I am dreaming!' and then decided to try and calm down, however I must have got a bit too excited, because I suddenly woke up. I was annoyed, but happy the WILD worked, so I started writing in my DJ. I put the time as 1.17, but put 1.77 by accident. I scribbled it out, and put 1.17 then suddenly, I woke up for real. It was a FA!! The time was really 9.34 I was so sure that I had woken up, what an idiot!


***NOTEWORTHY***
My family are not farmers
I do have a friend whose email address is really Nodon
Lucid
FA

Date: 26/06/2012
Place: My own bed (for a change!)
Time of getting into bed: 11pm
Glass of apple juice in the day.

Dream 1 - non lucid

We are at a music festival or music event. There are lots of bands and different stalls etc. We go into a small, dark, dingy shed. (We being me, and friend I and friend R) We are just chilling / talking in here. I know of a group of people just outside, and I know that they are not friendly. One of them comes in to retrieve a bag he left inside here, which is like a holdall type bag. He tells us there is a human skull inside, and we just say 'ok' because we don't want any trouble. The group are young, hooligan type kids (god I sound old) who have guns. The young guy gets offensive and pulls out his gun, but my friend I takes it off him. There is no struggle, more like a nervous tension. I plays with the gun, asks the kid some questions while the kid answers them. I then aims the gun jokingly, and 'accidentally' shoots the kid several times. Although he is not hurt, they shots are close and nearly hit him every time, so the kid takes the gun back. Now he has it back, the kid dos the same; talks about the gun and aims it at people. I panic, assuming he will end up shooting someone. He shoots at me, and I get scared but he tells me not to be scared, and that my jumper is too baggy, and will catch the shots before they get to me. Amazingly he's right.

[Dream 2 - Lucid dream

I woke and wrote my previous dream (see above) I needed a pee so I went to the toilet and came back. As I lay down, I attempted to WILD. I was very hot and had to stop to remove covers then continue. (I always get hot when I WILD?) I start 'feeling' a dream, talking with friends, playing with my friends cat. To keep myself aware, I start 'rubbing' my friend's sofa that I am sat on while this dream forms. (Dream sofa, I am really in bed) However the dream is not solid yet. Suddenly, I am in a fully fledged dream and don't know how I got here! However I am fully lucid. Unlike my last lucid, I do not panic and I stay calm. But I think this is due to a lower level of awareness. So I'm walking with my partner (let's call him 'N') down the road, I fear there was more to the beginning of this lucid but alas, I have forgotten. I am telling N that I am dreaming. He doesn't believe me, but does ask me some questions to test me. I tell him let's get a train, so take him to the train station. As we walk there, I am amazed by the details my mind has come up with. The scenery etc. We get on the train and I see a pigeon close by, I try to touch it but it flies away. However I'm not bothered as I'm happy I am dreaming, so we hop on the train. As I walk by a DC, I stroke his face to feel the stubble on his face, he stares at me but doesn't seem to mind. We get off the train again, and I'm not sure where we have got off. I ask N if he believes me yet, he says no, but does seem to be thinking hard about it, like I am beginning to convince him. We have to go through a check-point before we can leave the train station (like guards on a gate) and as we approach I get horny. I get out my junk with the intent to present it to a DC when we arrive at the gate. N notices and asks me what I am doing. I suddenly realize I don't want to upset N, even if it is the DC version. So I put it away and pretend I wasn't doing anything. However N is very persistant, grabbing me and challenging me. I get a bit frustrated and suddenly N is as well. I fear he may become angry and ruin the dream, but I remember what I read on DV about making DCs do what you want, so I think of the most plausible thing I can and say 'N, aren't you supposed to be at the post office today? It shuts in like 5 minutes you better hurry!' N works for the PO. He suddenly realizes and rushes off, leaving me alone. I decide I am no longer horny after that charade, and progress through the gates into this new, unknown place. When entering this place (must have been a building, but I don't remember doors of any kind) I was almost speechless about how AMAZING it looked. Not necessarily real, but just very detailed, and beautiful. It was along the lines of a train station, mixed with a shopping centre, and maybe a pub or nightclub element to it too. I saw so much in here, simple wandering round that I have probably forgotten much of it. First of all, there were lights and displays. I think it was evening-ish time so these lights looked BEAUTIFUL, I really stared at them, noticing they were made of little lights, with a yellow glow. Reminded me a bit of Xmas lights. I was smiling madly, thinking 'this dream is awesome.' I then walked off, found some women searching in a fridge for their dinner while they were on a break. I searched for a little bit but then walked off. I was at a bit of a loss of what to actually do. I didn't even think of flying (dur) and even though I knew I was dreaming, I didn't do anything crazy or mind-blowing! I suddenly remembered the task of the month. I knew it involved walking through a mirror. I turned around, expecting to find a mirror, and taadaa! A lovely mirror. It was a bit high for me (I'm a shortarse) so I pulled myself up to it, and just stuck my head through boldly. At first I thought of a beautiful park scene, and thought 'don't think of that, cos then that's what you'll see!' however it wasn't, what I did see, was SPACE. Like, our universe, just black, and filled with stars and I could even make out the milky way. It was BIG. There were brightly coloured parrots flying through space, just casually flying around, in all directions, kind of slow. The vastness of the space scared me however, and I decided there was no way I was climbing in there! So I pulled my head out. It was hard to get out, like I would somehow fall in, and for a minute I was stuck, but a very nice young DC, who had black hair and a friendly smile pulled me out. I thanked her and told her the mirror was 'all hers.' So she climbed up and stuck her head in too!
I walked off again, repeating over and over that I would remember the mirror for the TOTM, determined not to forget. I followed rooms in this building, not going in them but reading the signs above the doors, observing the DCs going on with their lives. I came across a large photo booth (the type you get passport photos printed instantly on) but it was 4 or 5 times bigger. I went inside, and realized you were supposed to sit on the tacky-looking plastic sofa (it was an old, battered machine) and put money in, then a person would have a conversation with you about anything you liked. I found this silly and walked out, the thought crossed my mind that if I pulled the curtains, I could have some 'adult fun' in this booth. But I decided against it, not wanting to end the dream early. I walked up some stairs, running my hands along the metal pole at the sides, and finding it very metal-like. I found a room which I spent some time reading the sign above it, but have now forgotten what it said. A young guy walked past, and I got horny again. Figuring I'd just go for it, I walked up and asked him if he fancied some fun. He ignored me, but clearly wasn't interested. He wasn't even that good looking, but for some reason I persisted, taking his hand and placing it down my pants. He was clearly uncomfortable with this, and gave me a terrible look which made me question my morals. However I knew I was dreaming, so kept telling myself he wasn't really upset and it was just my mind telling me its not nice to do things like this to strangers! However the guys dad suddenly appeared, concerned where his son was. His dad looked mad so I left! While walking away, I thought 'hey, I haven't had to stabilize this dream once!' So I rubbed my hands together to practice, and the whole place lit up, and became a bit clearer. However this faded again as soon as I stopped rubbing my hands. I already thought everything was clear, but now it had been clearer and gone back again it seemed a little unclear. (If that makes sense) I shouted stabilize! But my dream began to fade, I shouted it again, this time with NOW on the end, and summoning up as much confidence and courage as I could. The dream came back. I had a few more seconds of walking around, then blackness began to set in. I tried spinning, but I couldn't do it, it was really hard! I couldn't even get close, I tried rubbing my hands again, and this was better, but in the end I just gave up, and let myself wake up. I figured it was the end.

When awaking, I could have gone straight back into a dream again, I didn't move or open my eyes. However I wanted to write in my DJ, I didn't want to lose the dream! So I got up. Although this dream was clearly lucid, it didn't feel as real as the first time I had a lucid dream. I think this is why I was a lot more in control, because it wasn't so shockingly life-like. Don't get me wrong, it was pretty amazing. I feel annoyed that I didn't do more, and super annoyed that I let my penis get in the way of a decent dream.

Dream 3 - Non Lucid dream

My cousin 'C' has come to stay fr a few days. I got on well with him (he annoys me in RL) and we had lots of people who were crowding round to see / meet us, like we were famous or something. More him then me. We were talking about going to a music concert while he was here, I told him Linkin Park were playing, but he wanted to see Rhianna. I thought 'he used to have decent taste in music...'. There was some sort of parade going by, with lots of drunk people watching and celebrating. I have a fish tank with lots of shrimp but no fish. I complain about this and someone tells me to draw some fish, put them inside and they will come to life. I start doing this, but my cousin distracts me, as do our fans who keep watching us / asking us questions.


***NOTEWORTHY***
LUCID DREAM!!!
WBTB / WILD
TASK OF THE MONTH?
Festivals / concerts YET AGAIN - DS
Cousin hasn't visited for a while

Date: 19/06/2012
Place: My holiday caravan
Time of getting into bed: 11.50pm
During the day I drank 1 x 500ml Monster energy drink

WILD attempt (first ever)

Strangely enough I decided to try it without prior sleep (don't ask me why) this took a good hour before I really felt the effects, but here is the results;

Went to bed, relaxed, tried to get sleepy and restful. Took some time but finally felt in the right place. Found sleeping on my side the most comfortable (my sleeping position of choice)
Was continually interupted by random banging noises - was sleeping in a caravan and sounded like the walls moving / creaking? Never noticed this before so really annoyed me!!
Each time I was awoken I ignored it, and relaxed again - partners loud breathing kept me awake but after using it as a beat to keep my own breathing slow, it became unnoticeable. I found this bit easy.
After some time I was clearly getting close, I could not feel my body, I kept experiencing swaying / floating sensations and my 'mind' was totally immersed. It felt a bit like I was mildly drugged up, I couldn't feel my hands or even the quilt around me. I didn't feel the need to swallow (which I have a bit of a habit of doing) I continued counting to ten, and saying ;I am dreaming' each time. I often lost my place and had to start over but remained calm.

After an unknown amount of time, my body lit up as if on fire, but not painful. I had vibrations running through my body, which I tried to feel and control (sort of worked) it was not a bad sensation, but so real and intense that it did 'light' my brain up. Almost like going from sleepy and hypnotized to being conscious and SWITCHED ON. My ears popped as if I was underwater, and I tried to enjoy this strange sensation, telling myself I was about to enter a lucid dream!

This sensation was exactly the same as the sensation I had when getting lucid a few nights ago. I feel like I know that I'm lucid, but I have to DO something to break through the barrier. Last time I raised my hand and pulled myself out from my 'body' so to speak. this time I didn't get a chance to. My initial idea was to 'roll over' into a dream. I didn't do this in time.
Unfortunately I must have gotten too excited as I 'woke up'. I did a quick RC to make sure it wasn't a FA, which it wasn't. I jotted in my journal and tried to re-enter, but by then my heart was racing so fast and I was wide awake.

It did give me incentive to try WILDing again though!

Dream 1 - Non Lucid dream

I am at a festival, trying to get back to my tent. There are lots of people walking around, and a large queue of traffic blocking the way. It is also very dark and very muddy, however I am not worried, I just keep walking.

Dream 2 - Non Lucid dream

I am somewhere, and trying to get home with my partner. We have no money to get home, but a limo pulls up looking for some famous people. We get in, pretending it is for us so we can a free lift home. It takes us to the home of the famous film stars who own the limo. We get out the limo and go in their house. Their house is big, spacious and obviously they are rich. We help ourselves to their stuff but we are not trashing the place as that would be rude. Someone knocks on the door and we panic, and hide. They soon go away and we decide it is best to disguise ourselves as the film stars so that no body suspects us. We put on their clothes, for me this consists of a dirty, white string vest and some large boots. I then have a string necklace around my neck, with beads and random bits hanging from it, a bit broken and messy. I also wear a long, dirty, thick trenchcoat. We then put egg yolk all over ourselves. No idea why. I believe we got these from the fridge.

Dream 3- Non Lucid dream

I am going through a drive through, although the actual company is not one that I know of (made up?) the men who work there are nice, but incompetent. They wear police helmets, and apologize for the delay. I finally get the food and drink but after drinking the fanta, it is warm. I hand it back and complain and they are nice, and agree to replace. However it takes so long to get a replacement that we decide to go for a short walk. We step out the car and see a strange gift shop. It is clear we are in a place I am unfamiliar with in my dream as I sort of explore, like a tourist. The gift shop is brown and had a big skeleton outside, it appears to sell strange and bizarre gifts. I don't go in, however, I turn left towards the main shopping area, across a square where people walk / talk / go about their lives. Here I see someone watching me / staring. I try to ignore them but I have a feeling they are going to talk to me and I really don't want them to. I am not scared, but don't like them so I try to mingle with the crowd and hide. It works. Next thing I know I am in a pub garden, playing pool (or snooker) with a friend. I notice my partner isn't here and ring them, trying to get them to join us. He will not join us because he cannot bring his own beer into the pub. I tell him we have water and this sort of changes his mind.

Dream 4 - Non Lucid dream

I have got some baby rats as pets. They are in a cage but I take one out to hold, it is fast and I drop it on the floor. I then try to pick it up but it is so small I lose it in the fibres of the carpet, I then search for it and find it - it is now an insect but I do not seem to be bothered by this transformation in the dream. I follow it a while then carefully pick it up, putting it back in the cage.

***NOTEWORTHY***
FIRST WILD ATTEMPT!
The sensation I describe as 'lighting up my body' was present again
Ears popped during WILD
I love rats and had many pet rats in the past
I recently attended a music festival
A festival and a drive through have been been in my DJ recently
I recently played pool with a friend