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Alright everyone, this morning was quiet out of the ordinary as I had 2 FA's which I both turned into LDs. Not only that but for the first time I was able to interact with a DC (my mother) and I got a response that still leaves me with a lot of questions...

1. Panick at the mall

I'm waiting in a que for something in a supermarket and I seem to be having a good talk with a couple, we laugh a bit and eventually we go outside. There are many people and we're all very packed together, accidently the guy I was talking to bumbs into me and fall down in a puddle of water. I notice the sleeve of my pyjama being wet and I say in a very kind way that it mildly annoys me. Then I'm suddenly on the other side of the mall sitting at a tavern drinking a banana/kiwi smoothie. It's raining very hard outside the windows and the square is empty, the woman that sits at my table is slightly worried as she talks about a new type of tornado that forms during rainfall. I look outside again now paying attention to any whirlwinds and suddenly see one forming. At first it's small and transparent but quickly it grows in a large dense tornado, the woman runs away deeper into the mall leaving me alone and I leave too after I first finish my smoothie that actually tasted quiet good.

2. Awakening* (DILD)

I wake up dazed and see the very early light of the sky that still looks dark and grey, it's 05:00 in the morning I think and don't give it much thought. Until I see the clouds in the sky moving abnormally fast followed by planes flying in a formation. I become slightly suspicious and do a nose-plug RC just incase, what do you think I can breath through it like it's nothing! I sit up in my bed an feel the sheets who are very thin, I do the RC again and try squeezing my nose as hard as I can. It feels like I can squeeze it as tight as paper but still feel no pain and breath normally. Then the dream gets unstable and I feel waking up slightly disappointed.

3. Awakening 2.0* (DILD)

I wake up again and notice I can still see the sky through me windows, even though it's cloudless I still become suspicious because my curtains are open. I do another RC and well, we're lucid again!
I sit up and again start doing the RC multiple times, it's about 06:00 in the morning now slightly brighter than previous LD. I sit at the edge of my bed and think about the fact everything is fake and a product of my mind, I consider doing some RCs I haven't done before, like turning on the lightswitch. It stays dark and I sit back on my bed looking at the switch trying to activate it with willpower or something. I notice my mother sitting at the computer in my sister's bedroom, I ignore her at first but when she walks into my room and starts folding some of my clothing I feel like I have to do something.
I'm slightly worried about what her reaction will be because I still feel this mental barrier of doing things infront of DCs that aren't normal. I start a conversation with her beginning with a very controversial statement in my eyes.

(A= me, B= DC-mother)

A: "You are not my mother."

B: *giggles a bit*

"How nice of you to ask it like that."

"I'll explain it to you, everything you see right now is 'you'."

"You are my child which means..."

A: "That we're genetically partially the same...?"

B: "Yes."

(Note that the actuall conversation was a bit more vague and somehow I got information from her telepathically or some other way.)


Then I notice old pictures of me and my sister as children on hanging of the side of my bed, in most of these I'm happy and playing around. I also see some pictures of my father being happy too and looking at me. I was between 6-8 years old I think in these pictures.
For some reason this made me very emotional and I couldn't help but start crying, it is at this point that I wake up for real

So yeah I was quiet impressed by the answer I got from her, I think by the time I saw the pictures I actually lost most of my lucidity though.

1. I had just walked into Kroger. I was walking around and saw my friend Sydney from school. She looked the same, blonde hair, short and everything else. We were walking together throughout the store and I was going with her to help her get the things she needed. A group of guys behind us started following Sydney and I told her, "Hey we need to get away from these guys, not because they like you but because they're kind of stalking you" (idk).
She did just that and we walked a little faster for a second to get away from the guys. Once we did, I saw some stuff that I needed and told Sydney that I would catch back up with her once I got my stuff. She continued on through the store and got her stuff and after I got what I needed, I ran to catch up with her. I remember seeing someone else here that I knew.
Later on, I was walking on back through the store. The store lights had gone off and I saw people walking around. I looked to the ground next to me and saw a replica of the area of the store that I was standing in(little confusing, it was weird). I walked back towards the entrance of the store and saw a black guy. He said he was "about to start it up again", and it came to me that he was talking about zombies. He started "it" and I saw a wave of zombies starting to approach us fast.
They came around the corner and the guy I was with started shooting them. A minute later when they were all gone, a group of about 5 people showed up and teamed up with the black guy. They stood in a wagon, Im assuming they were waiting for the next zombies. All of a sudden, a group of people popped out from behind the corner that the zombies came from. They were all clones of the group I was standing next to. " I can do whatever I want, none of y'all are real!", said the black guy, "This is my dream, and I control it.". I became Lucid after he said that, and I looked around, "Its been a long time ", I thought.
Out of the blue, the store lights came back on, and I found myself just standing around looking at everything. I immediately started my attempt to Dilate time. I counted up(or down, cant remember) and started walking forward slowly, trying to feel myself really slowing down. It didn't work, and I told myself I'd just give it another try later. With that, I turned around with my next goal in mind, find a DC girl that I've been looking for for a while. I looked around, trying to make her appear, but it didn't work. I tried looking around corners, opening doors, but nothing worked.
When I opened the front door of wherever I was, as I was looking for the DC girl I noticed it was night time outside. The moon was out and it was very dark. I saw a group of girls outside making their way inside towards me. "One of those girls is going to be her", I told myself. All of the girls walked in, and none of them were the one I was looking for. I stood in front of the door way, thinking of another way. All of a sudden, a small rat/guinea pig creature ran inside at full speed and climbed up to my shirt collar. This little guy had really sharp nails/claws, so I didn't want him to "search" my body, as I knew thats what his intentions were.
He told me a few things, but I can't remember them. I buttoned up my collar all the way, so the small guinea pig/rat couldn't crawl inside. The creature approved of me, and let me inside, as if I weren't already. I turned around and to my surprise, found that I was now inside of my house. All of the lights in the house were off, except for lights that were emitted from girls' electronics. I walked into the living room, and there was an entire group of about 5 girls just sitting down. I think 2 or 3 were on the couch, and one was in the recliner and the other was standing. One girl I knew from real life, Kendall, was sitting on the couch with her legs spread completely open.
I went to pick her up and take her upstairs so we could have a fun time, but when I touched her she told me, "No stop, my stomach still hurts and hasn't healed fully". When she touched me, I felt a wave of pain go through my body, and I didn't know what it was. I walked away from her and sat down on the back couch in the very back of the living room. I sat there thinking about what to do. "Ah, I can do the ToTM's! Nah I don't really wanna do that right now". I kept thinking, and the dream ended. I'm assuming it ended because I stared at one focal point in the dream for too long, I stared at the ground for a good minute or two.
Progress: I successfully distracted my mind so I wouldn't wake up when I didn't want too. I controlled my emotions.
Things I need to work on: Immediately stabilizing the dream once I get in, believe in myself; so I can better my dream control.

2. I was inside of a car with a few friends, and my other friend Thomas. We were riding in his mom's van I think. I started talking to him, and he told me that he had just become a christian. I knew that before, he didn't really believe in anything. I asked him, "What made you believe? Don't tell me its because of what happened recently". "Well, me really, and also your dad and [something else", he replied. I said okay, and respected his belief, though I myself am not a christian, but lately have been thinking about my beliefs.
We continued driving on the freeway to who knows where, and on the way, I saw a car that had an inflatable AK-47 flying out of the left side of the car. It was just floating, and was attached to the car by strings. I wanted to jump onto it, but knew that it wouldn't support my weight because of how light it was and I would end up just falling onto the freeway and probably dying. I looked outside at the sky, and at this point, it was overcast. A layer of gray clouds covered the entire sky, and now the sun was absent and no longer shined on our faces. This was a good thing to me though, I don't like 90 degree weather, or just hot weather in general.

3. I was inside some sort of mall, and everything inside was really nice. I remembering walking by a group of ladies who were curious about the overall value of a store, and how much it was worth. The store was called something like, "The Omni", or something like that. The girls were talking about how the net value of the store used to be 5.9 million dollars. I looked at the wall of the store and saw that exact number.
One of the girls proceeded in saying that, "Now, the overall value is 7.9 million", I looked over to the wall again where its value was posted, and it changed and now read "7.9 million", and had some weird symbol next to it. I looked inside, and the color scheme of the store was cyan and gold. You couldn't see the inside of the store where all of the products were because of the way the entrance was designed.
The design of the entrance was like this: You walk in about a few feet and then a wall blocks you from walking directly forward any farther. To the right and the left there is a short hallway that leads directly into the store from there.
I tried walking in myself, but was soon blocked by some bald black guy, and he was dressed in a really nice suit. I don't remember exactly why he didn't let me in, but I know he threatened to call the cops if I didn't leave, so I left. I continued walking around this mall and eventually saw my family. I caught up with them and we continued walking. We started walking towards a really nice restaurant, all of the tables and chairs inside were all stainless steel.
Before we got there, we stopped at some exhibit that was only about 20 yards from the entrance of the restaurant. This exhibit was showing people who had rotted and gotten disfigured, and'or had gotten a serious injury. It was based off of some type of tragic event, I don't remember what though. I remember looking at a torso of some dead person, and they had a huge gash/opening to where you could see each of their ribs fully, and they were bloody. I continued walking on and saw the face of someone that had been in this tragic event. It was a woman, and her face was disfigured and had been rotting. The sight of it really displeased me so I skipped the rest of the exhibit and made my way to the restaurant.
I looked back and the rest of my family was still looking at the exhibit. I wondered why they were so interested in looking at rotting flesh, disfigured faces, and injured bodies right before we were about to eat. Everyone seemed really caught up in the exhibit and I had to wait a few minutes before everyone finally left it and came into the restaurant. I was with my mom, sister, dad, grandpa, and grandma. The lady inside that worked for the restaurant seated us at the table closest to the entrance. This table was really long, the length of a thanksgiving table or one you would see at feasts.
I walked to sit down at the right side of the table, but changed my mind and sat on the left side. My sister sat on a small table right behind the big table; it was directly against the wall and only inches away from the entrance of the restaurant. My grandma sat on the right side of the table, in front of my sister. The table was split down the middle halfway by a glass wall. I sat down and looked around some more. I noticed there was a group of 2 people sitting at the same table with us, which I thought was kind of unusual. I looked back at my sister and she was motioning for me to come to the table she was sitting at. I told her to come sit over here next to me, but she didn't move. I remember looking at my mom just to see what she was doing. I don't remember anything else.

4. I was outside of my house, in my driveway. Alot of my friends were with me, some were: patrick, dylan, trey, emily, and I cant remember the other ones. I remember my driveway being really crowded a filled with tons of stuff on the side. I looked up into the sky and saw that it was overcast, and the clouds were gray, but had an electric blue glow to them. It looked like it was about to rain.
My friend Dylan got inside of a small car, and started driving around on our street. He was driving pretty crazily.He even went up a small arch and used it as a ramp and got airborne for a second or two. Soon, another driver came by and Dylan swerved the car and stopped right in the middle of the road. Luckily, the other driver was observant, and slowed down. The other driver was in a blue truck. He saw Dylan stopped right in the middle of the road, and went on the right shoulder area and went around him.
Dylan came back into the driveway, and me and my other friends looked at him like he was nuts. We calmed down a bit once we realized that Emily was in the car with him, because she's a really good driver. After that, we all just chilled. I got out a board game and was about to play with everyone, but Emily came up to me and told me to get out of the middle of her floor (what is going on). I looked around me, and found that I was inside of some sort of house now, and apparently this was Emily's room.
I picked up the game and put it on Emily's bed and started to set it up. She seemed satisfied now, and didn't mind that I was doing this on her bed.

5. I was in my room, and was only wearing my boxers. I "realized" that I was really dirty and needed to shower and change clothes. I looked down at my boxers and they were wet, as though I just had a wet dream(Lol, sorry to anyone who is reading this, once again, just recording this to get my recall better). I took off my boxers and got a new pair.

Felt like I had two long substantial dreams last night, but my recall is still v bad. Heres whits left. Non lucid of course

1) Staying with my pal Fraser at a wee shack in the middle of nowhere, we had to slide on our bellies along a wee passge full of all the shite of the day to get to our rooms! The man who owned the place was a skinny weasly sort of chap. I stood with this man outside the shack as dusk fell, there was a burn running alongside the shack, I mind the noise the ater was making. He was on the look out for monsters.

There WERE monsters, but sadly I forget!

2)At my shop. There were a couple of lassies with me. We were up the back and heard a hell of a noise from above us. Cant mind the specific dialogue but they were blaming our neighbours, I said that was mpossible as this far back into the shop there was only attic space (which IRL is correct), I opened the door which led to the attic to make my point. it was exactly as is IRL and I was daring them to go u and check out the sound. Bits I forget but later I was in the attic and it didn't feel right at all, as it was far too big - presumably I was supposed to do a reality check here!!

Bah.

First Dream(Non lucid)

I was talking and sort of arguing with a dreamer about territory in the dreamscape. When I woke up I was sweating and hot. - w - I don't know if it ended up being a nightmare but I turned on the fan and felt better. The funny thing is when I woke up I was half asleep thinking of myself as a powerful dreamer who could make any DC I wanted do whatever I want too. But I was only thinking it for like two seconds.(I'm not a hostile person I just acted like that in the dream without knowing what I was really doing)

Second Dream(non lucid)

Something happend earliar that i don't recall. Than I was with my brother I think and he brought me to a lady who wanted to train my fighting/running skills. I left though because she seemed manipulative. I bumped into a old friend of my brother and a little boy after that. He kept asking for w/e cereal or food he wanted in the dream and I tried giving him what he wanted. After that I forgot what happened. Maybe I woke up.

Third dream(non lucid)

I arrived at a old train stop where I saw dirt,tracks,graffiti and a guy standing from afar. Someone was narrating the scene saying that the place I was in is where the old train use to stop. Than I was picturing a message being written by me about a unknown person I called X who I was trying to stay away from. At the same time I was thinking of someone I didn't like. I appeared in sleep paralysis after that and noticed the window showed it was bright outside. Out of no where someone started poking me annoyingly than pulled me from my feet off my bed. I was like Jehovah help me but than remembered it was a dream. The invisible thing than grabbed me from behind and all most floated me out my window. But I pushed it away and told it not to come back. I screamed after that to try and break the dreamscape but it didn't work. After a few seconds I woke up though.

Fourth Dream

I was in my house and saw my brother had new games and the screen was playing a new super smash bros brawl game. I decided to be Kirby and I was on some weird white oval ship. I was fighting but was pushed off the ship. I managed to get back on it by believing I could though. I stopped playing after that and left the room. Once I got upstairs I became lucid and remembered the task acillus asked me to do. I looked outside the window because I wanted to go outside but it was getting dark and kind of wet outside. I decided I wanted to ask my guide the question so I went downstairs with the belief I'd find him in my bro's room. No one was in my younger bro's room though so I went to another one. I found him just sitting on the bed reading something. I said to him " I have to ask you a question". But he said he didn't want to answer it and went upstairs. I was annoyed and went into the hall to find a kitten walking in the hall. I picked it up than went upstairs. I saw people and said that Dawn was being a jerk so I'm gonna ask them a question. But they just laughed and a DC handed me a ice coffee that I drank. I asked Dawn if he could just answer my question but he said no.After he left I woke up.

Fifth Dream

I was watching a video of Adventure time. Finn was about to kiss a snail lady but Jake stopped him because the snail lady turned out to be evil.

I didn't make too much of an attempt to remember this dream when I woke up because I don't have any technology with which to log notes at the moment, so the more minor details have been lost to me now. However, I still remember the main plot.

I have a memory of how this dream started, but I honestly can't remember if it was something that I actually experienced or just a false memory that was added in at some point later on in the plot. Regardless, what I recall is being at some friend's sort of oddly designed house with a few other people, and I think at least one of those people was doing the same thing I was. The main thing I can remember is being given a dose of LSD to take, which I did.

After that point, the dream got very abstract for a while. It's hard to remember much of what happened, and I have to feel like my mind was simulating ego loss by just making the dream all hazy and third-person. What I do remember though is that at some point there was a flash of scenery that was natural and very beautiful but also physically impossible. I had stronger awareness for just a moment, with which I became lucid.

I found myself standing on the edge of a cliff overlooking a huge drop down into a valley overlooking a vast ocean under a sunset in full view. Floating above this valley was a large section of land with a forest on it, just hanging there in the distance. There was actually forest all around me on the cliffs too, it was all quite serene and aesthetically pleasing. I actually spent most of the lucid that I can recall simply enjoying the breeze at that altitude and taking in everything that I was seeing. I also flew around that area just a little bit and repeatedly used my new technique of taking off my glasses to increase the vividness of the scene, which worked every time.

At some point after that, things got very hazy and abstract again. There was more that was going on but it was again hard to recall, but the next thing that comes back to me is suddenly snapping into my dream body at the friend's house where I initially took the LSD. I was hit with the sudden realization that everything I had just experienced was a part of my trip, but I was perplexed because I thought it had felt so much lucid dreaming. I mainly spent the rest of the dream thinking back on the experience, until I woke up.

It was even more of a mindfuck when I actually got up. It was like a lucid dream inside of a trip inside of a non-lucid dream. o.O

1. I'm exploring a submarine. There was a lot more but I don't remember.

2. I'm on this huge island with big cliffs all around. There's a huge tunnel that goes through the island, but it's sloped downwards. I'm with some other guy and we run and jump into it and we start skydiving through it. When we come out the other end, we're still pretty high above the ocean so I lean forwards and go into a dive. I could feel the wind going past my face and I was going pretty fast. Then, I dived into the water.

14/8/2014

0000-0730

I was in line to go to a Disney park that looked like a castle. I saw my friend B. We talked about the castle. I remember talking about it being a great fortification if there were a bunch of machine guns on top of it. But also it would suck in an air attack. B didn't seem to care. I remember thinking about it in terms of Arma 2.

Later, I got into the park and went on a roller coaster and that high tower chair ride.
That's all.

Dream - Lucid

I went back into Kohl's for the first time since I quit. It was nighttime. I went over towards the customer service desk side, hoping that no managers would see me. There weren't many people there at all; I didn't see any customers. David (a supervisor) then saw me from a distance. I was fine with seeing him. He said
"Krista!" and ran up to me.
We talked for a bit. I had been noticing how different the atmosphere felt there, how it wasn't the same place I got hired at when I first started. I heard a girl's voice I didn't recognize paging on the intercom. I commented on this to David.

Then, David led me up to this big, tall black stair step ladder that was over by the service desk. He walked me up to the top of it and told me in so many words that since I quit, I had to stand up there for awhile. He then left to go do something else. I felt silly standing up there so I got down.

I feel as if I encountered David again, but I can't recall any more than this.

~

I was with Cherie' and Jeremiah sleeping in these makeshift spaces outside. It was morning, and I was just waking up in my sleeping bag. It was like we were camping. I had been sleeping in this incomplete wooden structure that Jeremiah had built; it's as if the bottom half of it was done, but it was missing a top half and a roof. The structure also appeared to be partially sunken into the ground; you could see dirt from underground pressing against the incomplete portions of the walls. There was also an orange tent next to it that was mine. I had gotten it late, however, sometime after Jeremiah had built his structure. For some reason, I hadn't slept in it in a few days, but instead, I slept in Jeremiah's structure.

I spoke with Jeremiah and Cherie' a bit. I told Jeremiah how the structure he built looked sunken into the ground; you could see dirt. I told him he was now at higher risk for snakes and pests invading his space. I then thought about how I hadn't slept in my tent in a few days, and my sleeping bag in the tent probably had spiders and stuff in it.

At some point, I looked at my sleeping bag and noticed a stripe of light brown/reddish dirt on it. I couldn't think of how it got there.

~

David was showing me some beta versions of some video games, Star Fox and some other game. The Star Fox beta was originally called "Bunny Adventure", where you played as a rabbit, probably Peppy Hare, in a Banjo-Kazooie type adventure game. A voice was narrating, as if I was watching an ad for the beta version of the game. It advertised the hero as having metal legs, which, in IWL Star Fox, they all do have metal legs. It said other things as well, but I can't remember what. I wondered if there was a full beta out there somewhere of this game since the game play in the ad showed a very complete looking game.

Then, David was playing the game and making all these things happen that weren't programmed into the game merely by thinking about them (a nod to lucid dreaming). He made this Satan-like boss appear, and
all these other dark things were happening too. It felt odd and a bit unnerving to watch him do this.

~

I know I dreamed more than this, especially in the Kohl's dream. The last dream about the beta game is very hard to explain; it had more of a feel to it than anything that was unnerving towards the end.

I haven't really been too focused on LDing these past few days, mostly just from dealing with daily life issues and focusing on work. This has also affected my recall, so it seems. When things calm down again, I'll shift my focus back.

Boy is this a cool one.

Me and S are invovled with something lucid dreaming related. We need to find all of the lucid dreaming crystals scattered around the globe to prevent um... something bad from happening. I can't remember what. We have already collected two of the crystals, a green one and a blue one. The crystals themselves are tiny but they go in these oriental metal storage boxes with open sides, making their apparent bulk considerable. The crystals we have collected are actually hidden at my house.
We are on a school bus, the only ones. Somebody had to be driving though. (And they were driving like a crazy person, crashing into cars and such.) I didn't even think about that until we got off. Also, it turned out the government wanted to control these crystals to make weapons. So they had sent a drone to kill us.
A copter drone comes down. It is perhaps 8 feet wide with four rotors on the sides and an assault cannon on the bottom. It shoots into the side of the school bus and we duck down. Broken glass and metal goes everywhere.
S tells me to get the Minigun. I look and see a large armored box, open it, and sure enough there is a Minigun inside. Now IWL, I probably couldn't even lift a Minigun much less use it effectively, but supposedly as a part of finding the lucid dreaming crystals, some of our powers carried over into the real world. Thus, I had the power of super strength and could lift it. I battled the drone back and fourth. I would fire, and it would pull out of view. He would fire, and I would duck and hope I didn't get shot.
The driver pulled into a woods with a high canopy. The drone couldn't follow us there. We got out of the bus. I then learned that the driver was in fact Manei (My DG) and apparently as part of finding the crystals, now only had my powers carried over, but my DG as well. But she looked a little strange. She looked like my DG blended with my crush from sophmore year HS. Whatever. No time to ask her out on a date, this is way more exciting anyway.
She says she is going to hide the Minigun under some branches and leaves in the woods until we need it again, and walks off leaving me and S. We walk into my sub very nonchalantly, as if we are no longer being tracked by the government. One power that carried over from S's dream is that he can fuse two objects to get a better one. He says he will fuse the bikes together for me to use since I am faster on my bike. He does so and makes this really cool looking racing bike. S then fuses our cars into a sports car and says he will take this.
S drives off. I start flying after him. Supposedly at this point we were supposed to go our separate ways to look for more of the crystals.

.../I'm arguing with my dad about something, I'm getting angry with him for something I don't remember/...

* Unfortunately I didn't have a piece of paper at hand to write fast notes when I woke up from this first dream, there were a lot more but didn't want to wake up too much. I saw myself writing some notes, turning on the netbook, exploring different options, but always gave up because of the possibility of not being able to go back to sleep.

.../I'm in the old cafeteria at the university, I see the lady who served there and we talk about something. I'm hungry and ask her to give me something to eat and drink. It looks like it's late and there's no more. I got a glass of some fruit juice although I wanted a Coke. There's a piece of broken glass in it, I drink it anyway leaving the little piece at the bottom. I think I may go to the canteen, got some chicken from somebody first, I finish it before getting in/...

.../I'm getting back to another house from my university times, it's in front of a park, there are two women lying on the grass. They same to be half naked, and kiss each other. I see my wife on another grass spot, at first glance she looks like she's not covering her breasts, although when I get closer, she's lying face down. We talk something and get into the house/...

* That house uses to appear from time to time, now it has a third floor. Those days was just one floor on the ground.

* It wouldn't be a bad idea to put some recalling tools close to my bed, since these days I will have some more time

8/14/14

Last nite bed 10:30

Woke up at at 2:30 remembering 2 dreams.

1.
I'm traveling by a train. It's about a 2 day trip, so I'm walking through a sleeper wagon to find some empty cabins. I see people sleeping, train cots, regular beds with comforters...


2.
Dream with coolbert

I'm drawing an outdoor scene. A grassy area with walls and buildings. I suck at it and he is helping me by showing me how to add texture and walls. I watch him add elements to my picture. At some point he just writes "texture" and that part of the picture filles itself out with a pencil. And I'm like "hell, I'm watching him and I swear that thing was not there just a second ago. How does he do that?"

Then he is showing me which pencil to use for outlines and other, slightly diff colored one for filling it out. I'm thinking he is really good at it and I will never draw like him.

Woke up 8:20

Nap 10:15-12:30

I was in some kind of a school or camp. We are looking at a flyer from the teacher about our upcoming fieldtrip to Washington. We will be visiting two places. Also something western related. I whistle a tune from a western.

We suppose to be someplace at 3:30, but as I'm walking with someone, we realize we didn't finish signing our paystub papers so we have to run back, even if it's already 3:25 on our watch.

Morning of August 14, 2014. Thursday.



The first part of my dream has something to do with separating junk mail from real mail. Part of it also involves a small stack of A4-sized order forms and I believe at least one catalog. I am not sure of the location though it has some aspects of my sister’s kitchen, but is a larger room.

For some reason, I decide to make pink-frosted donuts, which has something to do with a baking kit (actually a set of several, each in a different package) with the ingredients and such having arrived in the mail that day, though my wife and I had apparently gotten these shipments for free, possibly by an oversight of the company (though perhaps a promotion that was incorrectly duplicated a few times to the same address). There is also an ambiguous idea that they may turn out to be soft sandwich cookies instead, and with vanilla frosting in the middle. I am trying to work out, when putting them in the rectangular baking tin, if there is going to be enough for a six by two arrangement or an eight by two arrangement. There seems to be only enough dough for seven and the different parts of dough are uneven. My sister (Marilyn, now deceased) makes a comment about how I am not doing it correctly, which is somewhat annoying. I put the dough all back together to start over and there also seems to be icing mixed in by that point, even though I had not yet actually had it out.

Trying to place the individual donuts into the tin again results in a problem. There then seems to be thin, larger, randomly shaped rusty pieces of the baking tin flaking off from the bottom (reminding me a little of what happened to my thermos in primary school years ago) and getting mixed into the dough - but at that point it does not seem to matter as much as another illogical problem. There are now seemingly a fair number of pre-made small and thin disc-like sections (reminding me a little of miniature communion wafers, I suppose - though I never saw any in real life) of tougher dough all mashed together in one corner of the tin, seemingly enough for at least a dozen or more smaller sandwich cookies. They were apparently supposed to be placed singularly (followed by a layer of icing and an additional “disc” for each) but now would be hard to separate. Most of the icing has now ended up in one blob mixed with other pieces of dough. I am more annoyed.

After a short time, the dough actually seems baked even though I had not yet put it in the oven. I inform my sister that the would-be donuts are too much like light cake in texture at this point. Somehow though, the contents of the tin go back to how they were before the other events happened. I get so annoyed that I catapult the contents of the tin into a mostly empty dumpster outside.

I start two other sessions of attempts to make these things, figuring that if one goes wrong the other may still turn out. (I still do not know if I am making pink-frosted donuts or white cream sandwich cookies.) I mentally cause butter to form at the bottom of each tin (oddly, without realizing you cannot just imagine things to materialize into a baking tin in real life), a lot of it in fact (but uneven in placement), so that when the dough is placed (also materialized mentally by this point as if I am teleporting the contents of the unopened remaining kits and using telekinesis to shape the dough after separating it into smaller parts), I soon, after not being satisfied with how much is in each uneven piece, once again start over with the mashed dough and it eventually changes into a darker and darker color, with apparently too much oil mixed in, by which I am sure may affect the taste and probably result in a health issue. I continue, though, but once again start to get annoyed before my dream loses cohesion.

Thus this turns out to be a typical non-lucid “nothing works for a step by step task” dream because of dreams often refusing to form into a proper continuity or chronological cohesion or stability in general (due to critical-thinking and common sense usually being defunct in most types of dreams), which I find somewhat amusing in afterthought as a major lucid trigger failure.

I am updating with the past few nights, not in order, just as I remember them. Some are detailed, some are snippets.

One of the most vivid dreams that I've had lately was a few nights ago, after asking to be shown anyone who loves me. It felt like a past-life flashback, not too in the past, maybe the 60s or 70s. I was riding a bus, and I was a Japanese girl. There were two Japanese boys who liked me, and they were both trying to find me on the bus. I remember going to one of their houses and eating some kind of rice dish. They were both in love with me. It felt very pure and calming, not like my life at all.

Someone took down my Marc Bolan poster and took it away and I was so upset and sad! I really do love that poster. I have no idea why I'd dream this.

I was reading a newspaper and it had said the US Government is about to start putting bleach in our tap water to remove the pharmaceuticals and chemicals. I was so shocked, I couldn't believe that they would be doing something like that! Then I reread it, and it said that they already had started to do it.

I had dreamed about that guy again. He was there with his friends, in my house. I asked him something I cannot recall, and he looked to the left (and I thought- he's lying!) A portal appeared in my living room and I fell in. I was with one of his friends who had been there, naked, squirming around on a hill with a bunch of other men and woman doing the same thing. We kept falling towards the water like it was a sinkhole. He almost fell in the water, falling in love with his reflection. I pulled and fought so hard for him not to fall in the water below us. If you looked into it, you would be pulled towards it. I saved him, and we managed to get back. I opened the fridge and told everyone- see that cake in the fridge? (It had two slices missing). That's what did that to us...
What a strange dream!!

I did have a lucid dream, a few nights ago, but it was so blurry and hazy and uncomfortable I made myself wake up since I couldn't stabilize it.

Chapter 1: Brain Grubs
The events that transpire I can’t well explain
I stuck some white grubs into my brain
Carnivorous grubs these creatures were
And when I did this nobody stirred
One after one I placed into my ear
They crawled through my eardrums but I could still hear
I did not scream nor did I care
You must understand I wasn’t all there
What happened next? Well they ate my brain!
Why I did this? I can’t well explain.

Chapter 2: Trashcan Girl
So my friends and I were strolling through a camp. I don’t know what friends I was with, nor do I know what kind of camp it was but it was not the kind of camp a person wants to be at. I am guessing it was something like a refugee camp but I cannot be sure. I do know that this camp was inhabited by Chinese prostitutes and their pimps. It was the hour of twilight and my friends were wandering through the streets of this camp and came down a dark ally. There was a trashcan in the middle of the ally. We didn’t think anything of it until a prostituste popped right out of it. She climbed out without saying a word and just stood there. Confused, we were about to say something when another prostitute came in with their pimp. She peeked in the trashcan for her fellow night girl and was shocked when she could not find her. Of course Trashcan Girl was standing right fucking there but, you know, whatever.
“Excuse me,” she said to us, “But have you seen our friend. She was just in here but now I can’t seem to find her.”
“Here I am!” Trashcan Girl suddenly exclaimed. Happy to have found their friend the three of them leave the ally and continue on with their business leaving us to try and make sense of what had just happened.

Chapter 3: Ponies in Dead Space
I was not in my own body but rather I was a passive observer as I observed through the eyes of another denizen. And who was this denizen? Non other than Applejack! Applejack was walking through a giant medical spaceship. It was like a moving hospital where injured travelers could go. A necromorph outbreak had taken place on the ship but the workers were doing all they could to make sure that this did not interfere with their work. After all, they had important work to do. People were counting on them. Applejack was on her way to see my grandfather who had come in contact with the infection some how. He had not come in direct contact with a necro so he could be saved but he had to go through some sort of industrial grade decontamination machine.

Applejack was following the way-point that was programmed into her rig armor to find my grandfather. She came across Pinkie Pie and Rarity who were playing cards at a table in front of a giant window that gave view to a big brown nebula in the background. They were having a personal conversation each one discussing some problem that was going on in their lives. Applejack attempted to chime in with her problems but they were still talking to each other.

“Darn it!” she said, “Why are y’all ignorin’ me? I got problems too.”

The princess Twilight Sparkle walked in and she said to Applejack, “You barged in to vent your problems but you completely disregarded theirs. I don’t excuse their ignoring you but what your doing is worse.” So Applejack left them to keep talking and her waypoint took her down a narrow corridor. I was able to feel what she felt as I saw what she saw. So when she became nervous about what may be waiting ahead, I could feel as though I were there myself. Before continuing Applejack made a point to check her Strife Specibus to see what kind of weapon she used. I don’t remember the weapon she had. She also checked the fetch modus in her sylladax and saw that she had some kind of modus that turned objects into apples. With all of this noted she continued on. She turned the corridor to find herself in between two steel shelves much like the shelves we have in the Walmart backrooms. There were three pallets of mulch that were blocking her way. She proceded to climb over them. She was half way over when the dream ended.

8/13/14

Last night bed around 11:30 - 8am

Nap to WILD 9:25am - 12:20pm

I did my ascending breath breathing excercise as I always do and felt my body getting super relaxed very quickly. I felt my head getting "relaxed" too, and I knew lucid is near. I was right there on the edge, but no lucid yet. I figured it's because I'm not asleep yet. I know sometimes we think we are awake when we are in fact already asleep, and thatused to happen to me all the time, but this time I really was still fully awake.

I pushed my head back and got a falling backwards feeling, but as soon as I stopped pushing, I came back. So I continued the motion and stood up on the bed, without bending knees or anything else. Quite freeky, but I have done it before, and did it a few times today too.

After standing up, I went through few doors. Each one lead to an empty room with whitewashed walls. One was kinda dark and led someplace else. I have made a decision few month ago to explore rooms and houses, since they normally scare me and all I want to do is to jump out the first window. But this last room, I said no thank you and backed out. But no matter what I was expecting, all rooms were emtpy with whitewashed walls.

This goes on for quite a while, and I remember doing some things in rooms as well.

Then I slept for 2 more hours.