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Now that I have less distractions IWL, I am going to begin to get much more on-topic with my LD work. I used to lucid dream just when it came naturally and doing "Whatever" when it happened, but starting now, I am going to write in my dream journal every morning as long as I am physically able to and I am going to set myself tasks for each lucid dream I have. I plan to have at least one LD per 3 nights (the one time I was on-topic I had a very good success rate) and am going to prepare in advance. As of now, here is my tasklist:

TOTNLD (Task(s) of the next lucid dream): Go Outside; Stabilize the Dream
TOTW: Dig a hole
TOTM: Develop some sort of supernatural power (Flying, Fireball, ETC.)
TOTY: Stop & Commit a crime with said supernatural power


Please comment with task suggestions if you have any.

Backlog

A lenghty ld though some parts are completely impossible to recall due chaining, continued sleep and overall dream idleness.

Me and grandma plus some other DC are headed up this building with really weird stairs. It turns out that there is some workshop taking place. My awareness goes up for a moment and I realize this a dream and that I am about to visit a sort self-defence workshop. This sounds pretty cool and I wonder if I would be able to learn something. I get inside but lose lucidity as we are instructed to sit there and watch funny presentations about other people.

My awareness finally goes up and stays that way. I waste a lot of time just walking and looking around, the surroundings change to this partially outdoors quite spacey area. Also, I make a little affirmation that will ld for as long as possible (not going to wake up). There is one very awesome thing that happens by itself. As I am looking around, it seems that it is raining, so while I am gently turning to the side and at that point either time or the water freezes in time /slows significantly. I am able to see each and every single raindrop suspended in the air in a sort of super slow (or suspended) motion and all of these raindrops are little round spheres of water that I can see in detail. It's so unexpected and amazing, I can't believe it. I think I need to take a second to look to the side and contemplate on what I have just seen. I make a big mental note about this.

After some more exploring, I become concerned about me actually having to perform some tasks rather than doing nothing (good point, especially since I recall very little from that part). I remember I wanted to do the Toty drinking contest with Hercules and Dionysus. My ideal representative DC for Hercules would be the Rock, I try to summon him here and there but he doesn't show up. I am disappointed and continue with my general summon idea - guys in ancient type of clothes or topless muscular guys. A number of DCs appear and there is an older man with some ragged clothes that could look like Dionysus after he has been having too much fun. With some more effort, a topless DC with reasonable appearance and muscle comes near Dionysus and it's time for the drinking contest to begin.

I go to the side of this house (in front of which we currently are) and get in the kitchen where there are a number of ancient jugs hopefully full of wine. I take quite a bit of time looking for the one that is large enough and also full, take a very ancient looking one and bring it to the guys. Dionysus drinks a bit of the liquid but he spits it out (I later think how my DCs are always trying to cheat), anyways I take the turn and drink a great deal of this weirdly tasting strong alcohol, even have some worries about dream swallowing waking me up. I manage to keep my concentration but as I pass the jug to Hercules, the dream thins out.

Not really sure if I chained, the scene reappeared etc. It was a similar overall construct to the previous place but the guys and the wine are gone. I give it another try, summoning some more topless muscular guys. A few such DCs appear though with not as much muscle as desired and I mentally try to add more muscle. As these guys are now approaching me, I have a moment of apprehension about them actually turning hostile and what am I going to do in such case, but I manage to calm myself down before this manifests, thinking these guys are fine etc. The scene is pretty difficult to organize this time and I give it up, also being distracted by bf in one of the nearby rooms of the area. I go back to look for him but he is not there anymore. My memory is pretty bad but at some point the dream interrupts again.

While I expect the dream to be over, I am surpised to find myself in the dream again. Somewhat similar overall long open area with transitioning parts. I contemplate whether I should wake myself as not to forget the details so far. But then I am still dreaming, so why wake up. I try to make a review of what has happened so far so I that I don't forget. Ok, what else could I do here, I try to recall some more tasks. The problem is I didn't consider more tasks for today and it is difficult to recall any from DV. Still I am convinced that if I think about it will be able to recall one more from the totys - the nemean lion. I recall the steps.

There is a window separating the area where I am and the outside and as I try to phase through it I end up peel lifting the glass which turns into other light material. I end up in a place like a back yard where I try to summon the lion. Some really cool music shortly plays at this point (and also different music in prior parts of the dream, really good quality), it really fits the mood. I have some doubts about my summon working (it feels like one of those dreams), but tell myself not to give up and try to think about a lion instead of the casual summon technique.

This works and soon a smaller than expected (large dog sized) male lion comes near. He is not too aggressive, but definitely wild. I grab him at the back of his neck (no lifting) and take him along with me, looking for the exibition place. I make mental notes about his size, how convenient the place is. We enter a large hall where it seems the contest will be taking place, though the participangs have not arrived yet. To save time, I summon a cat and take it along as well. It's a really stubborn cat so I have to constantly hold it too. I position the animals on small pillows? for the contestants that have self summoned here.

The referees are here, a DC referee woman takes a look at the cat and a few more cats that have appeared on nearby pillows. She then proceeds to do an examination of my lion, saying something about his paws and posture and in approval finally hands us the price - a roll of paper with the winner certificate. I run out of attention, the dream thins out and I wake up.

Been nearly a month since this DJ has started!

Trip to the cold Antarctica

The dream started when I got this ticket to a program in Antarctica from a friend who I haven't seen for some time (IWL). She said she had two and wanted me to come with her. Excited, we decided to meet up there. Fast forward and I'm on this large glacier which I thought to be Antarctica. There were penguins around along with some other people with me who were apparently the program supervisors. They were creating holes in the glacier which would fill up with water so that the penguins would have a swimming pool. What? Penguins deserve comfort as well! One of the supervisors who was there with me made this large rectangular pool. Apparently there was a problem where the water wasn't filling it up completely and I fell in the water as well. I wasn't really terrified and I swam across to this rope ladder which led up. Once back up, The scene changed into this building which was similar to a house but more like walls and a roof, and we were still on the glacier. There was a glass wall where the penguins were on the other side, and there was this little hallway which led to a dead end on my right, but it was turned the other way, towards my back. There were people in there along the walls who were the other ones that were admitted on the program. I couldn't recognize the girl who wanted to meet up with me but if I called her name she'd walk up to me. We had to stay in this small house for a couple of hours. Fast forward and I was eating chips. I was talking with my friend and I left to another room in the house where they were selling something. There was more that I did her but I forgot. Fast forward and we were leaving. I had to carry a bunch of bags of food which were apparently mine. I left with the girl and the scene changed. I was in my current school's track field but the school looked like my old one's, and my class was the old one as well. For warm up my old teacher said that it depended on what I wanted to play after it. I picked something and then he said to go do 5 laps. I went to go run it and I spotted a person from my current class. I ran around to find the girl I went to the trip with, along with a friend of hers. I forget what happens after this.

I'm wading through icy water, tracking someone down. It's dark, the water looks black, and there's this mist in the air, I can't see very far. There's bodies floating in the water, wrapped in cloth. There's another man here with me, he calls me by the name of Logan. I'm focused on the dampness in the air - it caused problems earlier when we couldn't get a fire to catch.

Thinking about fire makes me see another time, standing in a large stone hall, standing off to the left of the woman presiding over some ceremony, having to remain still throughout her speech, wearing armor, uncomfortable. There were rows of people arranged in front of us, and as she called each of them up she'd hand them a lit candle, symbolic, but I was looking at those candles and thinking of them as never enough to hold off the chill.

Back in the icy water, we've found the person we were looking for in a little area surrounded by bare trees. He's standing off to one side and watching an old woman perform some kind of ceremony, something like a funeral for the old ruler here - I have a vague impression of something strung up among the trees, either the last ruler's bones themselves or at least something representing them. She knows who we are. She tells me that just because I've killed the old ruler, that doesn't make this place mine. The territory is passed down through the blood, and there's still someone with the elf blood to inherit it - the man we've been tracking down. He's not related to the old ruler, and he's more human than anything else, as is she, but that doesn't matter; this territory will remain in the hands of his people, not mine.

The man in question objects to this - this is a situation being forced on him. He tells me he's sorry. The guy who'd tracked him down with me makes some sarcastic comment, telling him to quit the humble act; but I believe him, this isn't something he'd wanted. Nonetheless, the old woman's in the right; there's nothing I can do here, we've lost. I tell him it's all right. It's only when I speak and hear the tone in my voice that I (the dreamer side of me) realize he and I (the character side of me) had been sleeping together; we're most likely going to have to end that now.

The old woman resumes her ceremony, now involving him. It doesn't take long, just a few words. There's a wreath of pale yellow flowers which he accepts from her; as soon as the ceremony's done he drops it and it falls apart in the water. I'm thinking of the moment I first met him, when he'd been locked up in a cell.

I was looking for a new dorm. I was talking to someone and he/she referred me to a place near the city. The place is just near the street, but there's construction everywhere.

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Notes:

- 3 a.m. - 9 a.m.
- No coffee
- Listened to a new audio

Didn't sleep we'll that night and after WBTB, went again to bed with the Raduga recording on...
At some point - don't remember how - I realized that I am in a dream (in a room) lucid. I decided to just play around with the dream (I actually remembered the portable hole TotM, but decided not to do it as the month was almost over - after waking up, I was quite surprised that this was indeed correct). So, I intentionally changed a Mona-Lisa wall picture, teleported a Coffee Machine from a shelf and then made all the stuff from the shelf fall down in front of me. Then I went to the TV set and tried to grab the hostess out of it. I felt her back and neck quite real and pulled her out - she was the size of a big doll. Then I must have drifted into a normal dream that I can't remember...
P.s. I was quite busy these days and didn't have time to record this...

I in a garage surrounded by animals in cages and I was talking to them about what happened to them and why they were there.

Then I was in a mans home and his place was filthy, you could hardly walk over all the rubbish. I kept on tripping or slipping as I was trying to find my way out.

I was on set at a house in a forested area, this house had a massive garden that we were filming on. I was in the background most of the time and part of the crew. We had lots of bunches of flowers that a was moving around for what seemed like hours. It got dark and all I wanted to do was go home and sleep but all I was doing was moving flowers. I then felt stuck in time and I was doing the same thing over and over again, moving flowers from one side of the garden to the other side and back again. Then I was at home and my mom was angry at me for something and having a good shout about it. I then checked my phone and I had so many messages - too many. They were all from people I didn't want contacting me. The top message was from my Ex and the first bit of the message went "I'm glad that you and Kyle". I didn't open the message because I didn't want to read it. Now I was angry and tired. My brother and his friend came into my room to ask me questions but I wasn't listening.

Morning of May 2, 2015. Saturday.



In the first part of my dream, I find myself going into a bank while I believe my intentions were to enter a grocery store - though it takes a short time to consider my intent. I seem to be two or three blocks west of my (deceased) sister’s Loomis Street house though all of the buildings are seemingly unknown (fictional). After a short time, I realize that I can become invisible and perhaps take what I want. I actually become invisible while standing there (and there are no other customers) but the tellers (behind a large and fully open counter area) do not really react (at least not in any vicarious fashion). I go to the east side of the room (even though, again, the building is unfamiliar yet in a familiar area on Gillette Street in La Crosse and with a recognizable directional orientation) and find a more secure room that is off limits to the public. A male is seated behind a desk but because I am invisible, I walk over to the mostly empty rows of shelves (or so it seems at first) and explore. The male leaves the room and I pick up some large silver coins, which include at least one Australian fifty-cent coin and one Australian twenty-cent coin (even though, again, I am in America and do not really think about this). I incorrectly reason that I have a dollar with these two coins together but it is actually seventy cents. However, I take many more silver coins and leave the bank, still unseen.

I walk easterly and just before I get to the Loomis Street alley (which runs north and south) a post office jeep turns from the alley (very unlikely) and drives toward me. It then tips over on its side farther onto the sidewalk than I am walking because of a rather odd attempt to avoid both me and a car coming from the other way (though this could certainly not happen in the real world). The scene seems to play out in a sort of unusual slow motion. No one seems to be hurt and I keep walking, turning south into the alley.

It turns out that my wife Zsuzsanna and family and I now live in the Loomis Street house, though it is much different inside. What used to be the “junk room” (as my sister called it) but is actually a bit like an enclosed verandah is here similar in structure to a room in our present house on W street, including the wobbly floorboards. Not only that, there is a large room directly beneath in a supposed basement, but of a living room quality and illogically (and likely wrongfully) perceived at this point as being of the first floor at ground level, and the kitchen I am in being possibly on the second floor. There is a small square opening in the floor of the room I am looking into but it is only big enough for a small dog or cat to get through. In fact, I worry that our two cats (fictional, as they are not the same breed as ours in reality, one being a ginger tabby, another a calico, I think) will soon fall through that hole - as they are also in the room with my wife and I also see a guinea pig running around on the floor near the hole. Our two cats soon fall through. Looking down, which seems at least ten feet, I first think I see blood on the tip of the tabby’s tail, but this turns out to be a misconception. The two cats look up at me and I report to my wife that they are both seemingly okay. My wife seems “trapped” on the other side of the room (even though there is an outside door on her side - though that would only be the case if rendered correctly in-dream) but carefully walks over in my direction near the doorway, as the floorboards become more and more wobbly and problematic to walk on and I worry the floor may collapse completely (though this does not seem to happen after she exits the room). I make a mental note that the room needs to be closed off.

Later, I seem to return to the bank to invisibly take something else; some sort of large silver horse head (from the same room as the coins), probably about five inches long but apparently worth near a thousand dollars or more. I notice the house is looking much more like the Barolin Street house when I return to put what I have taken in a secure spot somewhere.

AWAKE/NOTES DREAM SEMI-LUCID LUCID

I did the bonus task of the month! I am actually pretty happy that I was able to accomplish this so quickly. Lately my lucids have been longer and more fun, and actually, this is the forth lucid dream in a row. It took me more than a week to do last month's basic task (and I was too late, haha) but I did this one the night I found out about it. Anyways, I'll stop blabbering.

It is my first day in university. I am sitting at a desk and we are being taught something. We are given lots of money - it is for some work we did - there are multiple 20 dollar notes and some 50 dollar notes and 10 dollar notes.

I am probably still in uni. We were given an assignment. I talk to some girls that are in that room. I think I am semi-lucid at this point. I walk out of that room with some of my friends and I pass a mirror, which I look at. I look completely normal. I try to make my hair shorter in the mirror so I can see how I would look with that haircut. It doesnt work so I just continue walking, losing lucidity.

I am at the shops with my friend who moved to a different city in waking life. It feels like she has been here for at least a week.

Later in the dream, we are at the school library and we are talking about something. We are sitting near the bathrooms. A guy I think saw earlier in the dream walks out of the female bathroom. He apologizes to my friend and I, which confuses me because we weren't the people in the bathroom. He goes into the male bathroom, which is basically a glass box in the middle of the library with some toilets in it and a sink, and I think, he should have used the female bathroom because this is not even a propper bathroom. I realise that weird/unhygenic bathrooms are my dreamsign so I do a reality check, and although the first one fails, I am already lucid so at this point I am just doing reality checks to test them, not the dream.

I walk outside. I see my little brother there and he looks upset. He tells me its because he can't do the assignment we got in universty properly and is going to get into trouble (he is 9 though, and looked that age in that dream so I don't know why he even got that assignment). I tell him not to worry and offer for him to fly with me. He agrees. I grab his hand and we fly off. There is a big pool of water there and we fly above it, almost touching the water. It is a bit hard for me to support both of our weights so I tell him to spread his arm like wings and we both fly around. I lose control a little bit a few times and go into the water, but it is stll fun. I think the dream fades out at one point. I still imagine myself in the water and I look up when I am at the bottom. I swim up. This is either a very faded dream or a vivid daydream. Eventually I am in the dream again. I shout "clarity now!" (a bit quietly though as I don't want to wake everyone up in case I am not fully in the dream and shout in waking life) and everything becomes more clear. I am still near that pool of water. There is a river nearby. It is not very wide - just around 5 meters accross. I remember the TOtM, so I try to waterbend the river. It doesn't work well at all, but I saw that the water wobbled a bit. I try to control a small blob of water and eventually am able to do at least that. This is a bit weird because I was much better at waterbending the other day. I then try to split the water in the river in half and it actually starts to work. I move the two halves away from each other and the right half is now completely gone but there is still some water flowing from the left side. I try to get rid of it, but by the time I almost do, the right half starts coming back. I decide that this is the most I'll be able to do with this river in this dream, but I feel like this was a pretty sad attempt for a bonus task, so I decide to do some fire-bending instead. Behind me are a couple of trees up a small hill, but I dont want this to be a sad attempt too and try to find myself an actual forest. I tell myself that once I fly up, ill see that behind this hill is a big forest. I fly up and see plenty of trees to burn. I land back on the ground. I try summoning a fire in my hand. Nothing happens. I cup my hands and put them together (as if you just caught a flying insect in your hands) and try to summon a fire in there. I opened my hands carefully and saw a tiny, white flame, just a little bigger than a rice-grain floating above my palm. I started making this flame bigger (I doubt that it would have been able to set anything on fire before) and it grows until I have a big fireball around half a meter in diameter. I drag it behnd me as if it is a balloon on a string, setting every tree I pass on fire. After some time, I look around and see that there is no tree around me that isn't burning. I decide that my job here is done and remember the goal I wanted to do after I do the TOtM - get a dream guide.

I fly off. The sun is now setting and the clouds look beautiful. There is a red glow everywhere. Around are what look like buildings being constructed. There is constructon happening over the big pool of water too. For some reason there is a slightly unsettling atmosphere. I fly and see some mordern buildings with apartments. I fly into a room that is empty. I try to spawn a dream guide, a character that I've seen in my past dream. I notice that a person - my clone - is standing on the other side of the room. It is also trying to spawn someone. I tell it that it is an inaccurate clone (it was a bit skinnier than me) but it gets upset and shoves me. I stand there for a few seconds, looking at my clone. I suddenly wake up.

It is almost 6am, which is the time I usually wake up, so I guess that's why I woke up so suddenly.

I looked down up a huge swell from Chapmans peak and tried to get into my wetsuit as fast as possible as the sun went down. We where on the corner above the road on a multi coloured conveyorbelt at "Imvumvu's" hang out, which was open to the elements.I thought it would be better not to put on booties to save time but then remembered the treacherous rock path below that could cut my feet up. A Cristiano Ronaldo look alike was also on his way down to enter the water. When I looked the sun had practically set,and i doubted we could go surf...also worrying about sharks.

2015-05-02
00:30 (about) bedtime

mental journaling only during night
1 Opti-Men multi-vitamin at bedtime
remee on (didn't notice anything even during wakings)

+ a guy is pouring bourbon/scotch, I see the amber liquid filling several tumbler glasses. he's saying this is the good old stuff, from the early 1900's, before they started using machines to make the alcohol. The scoutmaster DG is there, I think about his kids: GG and JG, I think about saying how I remember that GG was a prof at XXXX university but that was the last I knew of him. I think how I remember JG was a young kid but he's only a few years younger than me, so he's now in his late 40's. On the ground in this house are some highly decorated water ramps between levels, water can flow from one level to another this way.

+ house: inaccessible higher level standing on a stairway the upper levels are disconnected the stairs to not go all the way there. Go to a room, there's a young girl with a record player that is playing really loudly, her mother comes by. There are a bunch of kids and they're all involved in playing out some story

+ football: incomplete pass: the receiving jumps way up, reaches for the ball over his head, he catches it at first and the momentum of the pass bend his arms behind his head with the ball, but he drops it. The next play, this is our last chance, I tell the other players, "no matter what, don't stop for anything! Don't stop for anything", we start the play and I run and jump over a low chain-link fence, into a house, my teammate is there with the ball, we've scored a touchdown! I ask him, what happens if they built a house in the end zone, if you run in to that house and into the laundry room, does it count as a touch down? He says yes it counts.

+ Sitting on a public table outdoors in an area a little bit below the level of the sidewalks which go by on each side. The table is covered with papers and books like dictionaries. I'm working my finances? One paper has large numerals written on it (1900?) that represents my salary. Dad's cousin GL walks by on the left sidewalk, sees me, says hi, her older relative is astonished at my salary, GL tells her "they make more money now than they did in the olden days." GL's daughter, my cousin KR walks by on the right, sees me, and gives me an approving look.

+ I'm rifling through the (white pages) of a huge thick old-style phone book. I think I come across a list of the parks in SF. I say "You know why I like SF? Because it has so many parks." I think about my favorite park [false memory], I say "The 'Heights' park is my favorite in SF", and a girl there says "Yeah it's my favorite, too!" I imagine that park, with wide open play areas.

+ I'm in a house, there's a hot rod outside on the street whose entire top part bounces up and separates from the bottom chassis. Inside, the clothes washer keeps breaking down from one component that continually needs to be taken out and reset (woman tenant does this), I think I should buy a new one, I should get Maytag since they work well and don't have such problems, then I look at the washer and notice that it is a Maytag. The man tenant offers to pay part of the cost but I think he shouldn't, I'll take care of it.

+(f) very strong (illegal) alcohol, gets stronger every year

+(f) workaholic guy goes to work, should stay home & be with family, NSFW top view of him going to town orally on his wife (displayed live on a big billboard)

+ we're doing something illegal, I'm not part of the gang, I'm just there, should I put away my instrument or use it as a distraction if the authorities arrive? A creepy weird old guy wearing many layers of coats emerges from a closet, I think I've seen this guy before (from a previous dream?) "whom I remember from before" [false memory] came out of a closet, a "drugged" guy is lying on the ground his face is colored like "two-face" split down the middle, white on the left, red on the right. I'm watching his face and trying to figure out what's going on with him.

2nd May 2015

I walked the dirty streets of India with a young local, yet westernized girl. We chatted nonchalantly and as we stepped off the pavement I noticed a gold coin that had a half moon cut out from the top. The girl immediately notified me of its high value.

A local man with his family noticed all of this and offered to purchase it from us. I negotiated with him, and after some fuss managed to bring get 5000rupees from him, as the Indian girl watched quietly.The man gave the gave her the 5000rupees and carried on his path.When I spoke to her about splitting the money she told me it was her coin and therefore her money.I felt flabergasted and cheated. I,after all, had done all the work!

2nd May 2015
I found myself in an old age home. The white back room I was in was well lit by large windows and high ceilings. There seemed to be a en-suite bathroom in the corner, with walls made from cardboard lower that the one in the actual room. I walked towards the rear of the room and caught a glimpse of myself in a large vertical rectangular make-up mirror on the right hand side wall.

I couldn't recognise the person who looked back at at all.

It looked as though I had aged 20 years, had a huge musache, and look like a long black haired Mexican that was aging.I immediately knew i was dreaming and and stabilized by focusing on the detail on my at my hands.They seemed to have large black and deep grooves on them.
I told myself that when I turn toward the front of the room I would find a flower to smell. When i did, no flower was in sight. I began exploring the space and what seemed to be a lounge area with turquoise and cream chairs and a low coffee table.
Finally, on the coffee table I found the small flower I had been looking for. It was a small white daisy that was growing out of a pink and purple cardboard box with a dark pruple ribbon running along the length of the box. Metal black spikes coming out of the box caged the flower in as protection, but the flower was exposed at the top.I gave the flower a sniff and it gave off a sterile hospital aroma, and immediately began to die and wither.

I was in a museum with group of classmates. There was a swing standing close to some kind of a statue. We all sat on the swing. It was made of wood and chains. I climbed up the wooden construction, and just sat on it. After a while a security officer appeared, and told us to go away from the statue. He looked at us again, and told that we can sit on the swing. I jumped down, and saw some money lying on the floor. I took it all, and climbed up again.