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I was playing CS:GO on a zombie escape server. I was actually in the game. The round started and I fell behind because I couldn't decide on which weapons to choose. I ended up grabbing a heavy machine gun and a desert eagle. There were already about 10 zombies and they were ahead of me. They hadn't noticed me so instead of shooting them I just sneaked past the first few. I was running along a boardwalk by a river, all my teammate were up ahead waiting for a helicopter to depart holding off the zombies.

I had 3 behind me and they were catching up so I turned around and threw a nade at them, sending them back quite far. The last zombie on my path was in front of me and had noticed me already. I drew my desert eagle and shot him repeatedly in the head while still running towards him. He was weak by the point I got to him and kicked him in the chest making him fall into the rapids below us.

I reached the place where the rest of my teams was holed up, they were behind a wall of craters which I had to climb over. As I climbed over, the helicopter departed holding half the team. About 10 of us were left behind and there were now tens of zombies behind us. We kept running along the boardwalk and reached a house. We entered the house and reinforced all the entrances hoping zombies would just pass by. There were 3 rooms and one of the girls in my team was being really flirty. She took off her pants and was wearing a g-string thong and a pink shirt, she had a perfect squat-ass. She implied we would have to sleep together given everyone else had already picked a bed except for us, I thought of my gf but subconsciously thought it would be alright because it wasn't real.

I was at a small island with a pink house and palm trees. The sky was clear and sunny, and the water was as blue as it could be. I immediately recognized the place, I was in Master Roshi's Kame House. Vegeta and Bulma were arguing about something, and I was Krillin. I thought I should go find Android 18, but Roshi came out and said it was time to train. Goku was there with me. Roshi said he had trained someone and they had become stronger than me and Goku. I thought that was impossible. He gave a command and Chiaotzu came out; at this point I thought this was all a joke.
Roshi told me to give him by best shot. Chiaotzu started charging an energy blast, so I backed up while charging a kamekameha. We shot at the same time, his blast was a big red sphere, it looked really powerful. I was giving it my all but it was too strong. I tired deflecting it to the ground but failed. The red sphere consumed by kamekameha and was now coming towards me. I docked under it and Chiaotzu made it turn around using telekinesis with his index finger and hit me. He defeated me easily and I couldn't believe he had become the strongest human on Earth.

I met up with my kinesiology friends, among them were Ryan, Megan, and Benji. We were in a library discussing how long it had been since we last got together. There was a bit of sexual tension between Ryan and Megan, and she looked hotter than normal..I think her boobs were bigger. Ryan was giving me shit for not going to the Stampede party, and I thought he was wrong. I thought I had actually gone (I didn't).

We left the library and started walking towards a big building. We were in downtown, it was night time, and the sky was cloudy except for a patch where the full moon was shinning through. It was a bit chilly, to the point where I could see my breath. We got to an ally and Benji said this was the place. I just played along. There was a ladder on the building and we started climbing it. It was very wabbly but no one cared. At one point we had to jump to another ladder and I thought it was a bit too risky. We kept climbing and climbing and eventually reached the roof.

On the roof were two of Benji's friends. They had built a hanging campsite between this building and the one next to it. It was like a mesh that you could walk on with tents scattered on top of it. I saw my tent and crawled up to it. Below me was just air and clouds. I thought it was really cool I was camping above the clouds.

Another FA and LD.

Created Thursday 14 July 2016

Technically, there were a total of four dreams I recalled today, one which briefly became a DILD, and another which I chained into a DEILD. I'll just count the last as a single dream. Furthermore, I've only a hint of what the first involved.

Scrap Group 1
Something about a hotel, and possibly a mall.

Dream 1 - Special Guest at the Gas Station

The visuals were mostly clear. I was working in my old gas station at late dusk. A former co-worker, Tito was also there.

This place was packed, leaving me stuck at the register. At one point, a tanned skinned woman asked for a pack of Motrin, and also buying a small bottle of water. She lugged around large black leather purse and an umbrella, and also had care of several small kids. I reached for the medicine, which was oddly placed amongst some cigarrettes. In her hurried confusion, she almost tried paying me with the Motrin pack. On correcting her, she handed me the required $2.01.

Later, an olive skinned guy was trotting along with a large, plastic, multilayed cart. Very suspicious. I went to the front door, where I for some reason leapt on the ice cream cooler to get his attention. One query on what he needed, and he dropped everything and left abruptly.

Soon, someone buzzed from outside. Out on pump 5, I believe, was a frustrated woman, a black, full-sized van behind her. Several of her kids were running around. The woman was obviously using the hose from the other side of the pump. Through the intercom, the woman complained of the card readers not working. I bade she come inside to resolve this, angering her further.

As things picked up, Jose left elsewhere for undisclosed reasons. I alone had to deal with this parade of a line. A string of transactions later, I serve a thin, short, lightly tanned, dark haired, Hispanic young lady. She'd a long nose and looked rather plain overall, and was dressed in a striped sleeveless shirt and dark spandex. In lieu of buying something, the girl introduced herself.

"I'm Nahiri. I have something to tell you, but it's gonna take a while." I only partially acknowledged her words, my concerns lying more on the ridiculously long queue behind her.

"Er... would you mind if I take care of a few people before we start?", I requested. "I'd really appreciate it." She seemed a bit annoyed. While the next customer approached, I continued.

"Nahiri, huh? That sounds familiar... [Magic - The Gathering], right? Hmmm... wait a minute..."

It clicked. I was in a dream. I made breathing test to confirm this. Unfortunately, this ends the dream immediately.

Dream 2 - Beach Ball Planet

The visuals were mostly clear. I was a passenger in an unknown vehicle, riding around locally at twilight. All of my siblings were with me.

Seems the area was different, what with all the fields and trees in place of the hospital and several communities, much like how it was over a decade ago. Furthermore, a shopping plaza was being constructed where the BJ's would be. We dropped by to look in at several of the unfinished restaurants. One was a since defunct grill restaurant. Another was a Thai restaurant, which would make two so close by. Curiously, one of these places opened prematurely. My brother, Adam, peeked inside for a take-out menu.

Unknown skip. I'm at my bedroom, the sky fully sunlit. Soon, I realized I could fly, and so I zip around the house. This spooks my sister, who was lounging downstairs. So, she left. She takes along an unknown young male who she'd charge of, as well as my baby niece, who appeared as but a newborn. They go in an old, white minivan. I levitate inside to say goodbye, and float out through the sunroof while sitting cross-legged. Could barely make it out before I got my back end scraped by the speeding van.

Next, I take to the skies, spinning and dashing through the clouds. I enjoy myself for a few minutes before I fly back down to my neighborhood. While heading home, I glance at a startled neighbor woman smiling nervously at me. Then, I notice an odd, dark figure on my roof. It seemed a twisted man-bat type creature. So, I fly up to chase it away, only to find it was just (or likely changed into) an oversized trash liner. I kicked it off, and seated myself on the roof to relax for a bit.

After that, I flew into my bedroom, where I made flying spin kicks for fun. These attempts came out awkwardly, all too high and imbalanced. Suddenly, I wake up. How disappointing. As I remember the dream, I think to myself "If I were back in and aware of the dream..."

Voip. Just like that, I'm flying high in the clouds, my neighborhood and the entire town visible far below.

"...I'd try the earthquake TOTM."

Now aware, I thought it best to get to it immediately. I dive down at mach speed, and reel my fist back to ready a punch. Out of courtesy, I tilted myself to land in my backyard. Here it comes. A big impact. I strike the Earth, and... Bop. The entire planet is punted out of orbit like a giant beach ball, with me dragged along with it. Darkness and blurred stars zoom through the sky. Heck, this takes me far enough to pass Mars, the red planet skimming dangerously close for at least a few seconds before it's scrolled out of view. I wondered what sort of climate awaited us in this new orbit. Surely, many animals would go extinct in a short timeframe.

I awaken with such thoughts in head.

Preface:
Bed at 11pm. Lots of physical activity to release stress, so my body is sore. Recall of morning dreams are better.
Lots of detoxing and re-organizing going on in my life! Lately, I have been trying to rid my life of negative thinking. Most importantly, this has included removing myself from some of my social circles and false friendships, as I found the individuals to be emotionally and spiritually harmful. I realize that many times, my friends didn't mean to be so toxic, but I have a very high EI, and I'm very sensitive, so it affects me deeply in very different ways. Being around negative people is extremely spiritually exhausting. I need to be around friends who have a genuine interest in my well being and who have the same interest in nurturing the friendship as I do. I don't have many friends, but some of the few I have need to be kept at "arms length"; others have to be let go completely. As a result, I have been spending time with my really close friends and trying to build on the relationships that are most meaningful in my life. I am very excited about this time in my life, as I feel the negative energy is finally being cleared from my path.

DR1

I received a call from a friend in Dallas, telling me that she was coming to visit for the weekend. My mom and I begin an organization project. We are in a huge room, which is apparently my closet. There are racks of clothes neatly organized, but I still have more apparel to put in order. I begin to complain that I have no space. All of a sudden, my mom moves a rack of clothes and reveals tons of unused shelf space. "You have plenty of room", she says. I am excited and begin to use the space. I have conversations with my mom about clothes and I even have the nerve to say I really don't have anything to wear. She laughs, of course.

After cleaning, I am with my two small nieces outside. We live in a house with a doorway that faces a busy street. There is a bus stop on that busy street, half a block from our house. We do not have a front lawn at all. Instead, we have a sort of pavement space. It almost feels like we are living inside of a storefront. Anyway, I am sitting on the ground with my two nieces and we are putting together a puzzle. This is a beautiful puzzle, of a view of buildings. The puzzle pieces are huge, maybe the size of small postcards. However the puzzle itself is pretty big, so its taking awhile and the sidewalk is full of them. There is one part in particular that I want to put together- a gorgeous periwinkle blue building. I am so happy while putting it together and I'm really feeling great. The kids help, and at some point my sister joins us. I start to grab all of the pieces for the framework. The kids get bored and go inside. My sister is helping but she's working on another area, and we're making small talk.

Then, a small boy gets off a city bus not too far away from us. He looks homeless. He's kind of dirty and wearing tattered clothes. He sits down next to me and watches me put the puzzle together. I let him sit there, because I figure he's harmless. He starts to ask questions and talk a lot. At first I am not really paying attention, but then his voice starts to get deeper. My sister notices the boy and becomes uninterested in the puzzle. She goes away (inside our home?). I am a little confused by the boy's presence and exactly what he wants. I don't ask him anything, and it feels hella uncomfortable, but I let him go on sitting there and talking. I get about 4 pieces of the part I really like, so that I can completely see the building. I turn to look at the boy, and I get freaked out because he has turned into a homeless man, sitting there watching me put together this puzzle.

At this point, I become a third person in the dream, and I can see myself sitting on the ground with the puzzle, and I can also see the man not far away. He is still seated, but he has moved closer to me. He has this sore on the inside of his bottom lip; I can see it when he talks. He looks completely neglected. I can see my expression and feel it at the same time..I am weirded out but I try not act weird because I don't want to disrespect him. He starts talking about random things, I am not really sure about what- his problems...I don't know, he's rambling. I am wary of him. I watch myself stand up and move away from him. I appear grossed out. I also go away (inside our home?).

Side Notes:
Experienced memorable, blissful feelings while piecing together the part of the puzzle with the pretty, blue building.
Experienced fear and disgust upon infringement of a stranger.
News of my friend in Dallas is odd. Will have to check on her.

I met a young boy who was in a school play. I gave him some advice on nervousness, and relived my days of school plays. After the play I went to a party store to get ready for the after party. The store was owned by that kid. I was telling my parents how much I respected him, but deep down I wanted a store of my own. Eventually the store was torn down and every item and shelf removed. I started talking to a cute girl working there and a moment happened that was identical to yesterday. I remembered the secret of eye contact and spent the entire conversation staring deeply into her left eye. It was very beautiful and so detailed, I could never reality check something like that.

But from now on I will. Whenever that moment happens in my life I will become hyper aware. At least I'll try.

Dream Signs:
Deep eye contact
School Play
Parents

I'm in a one-story structure speaking to S who is sitting on the couch. I tell her that I can teach her how to have an out of body experience. I then put my right hand through my left palm, and realize I'm dreaming! I head by the DC and toward the sliding glass doors, determining what I want to do. I turn left, but quickly decide against staying indoors, and decide to start the search for my spirit guide. I head through the glass doors, and enter an area with a small body of water in the center. The area has a greenish hue throughout it, and has a partial ceiling. I begin to ask for my spirit guide. I stare into the center of the body of water. and notice that a small circle begins bubbling in the center as if the water is beginning to boil down below. I continue to wait in this green glowing area, but nothing happens. I turn around and head out of this area. I continue walking for a short period of time, but head back to the previous room since it was more interesting. The dream begins fading quickly, so I try to stabilize by spinning and moving my vision around. The dream goes to void, but I keep spinning to wait it out. I begin getting a headache which seems to be in the front of my dream head and the dream goes to a non-lucid.

I was reading Andrew Holocek's new book last night before bed. He has an *amazing* chapter on mindfulness meditation. He writes about napping exercises where you try to take a thought through hypnogogia into sleep and from sleep back to waking.

I find myself awake at about 3hrs and get up to pee. I decide to return to bed lying on my back with pillows supporting my arms straight down at my sides. I don't sleep on my back any more because of snoring but I've lost a lot of weight in the last several months, so maybe I can return to back sleeping (I slept on my back for the first half of my life). Back sleeping has resulted in the past in fairly "wild" FAs.

+ I find myself aware that I'm experiencing REM atonia "noise": extremely loud rushing in my ears, growing louder, together with a sense of pressure on my chest. I remain calm and wait it out. The noise subsides then returns. No visual dream begins. I wonder if I should just "get up" and if I'm already in the dream state.

Then (perhaps discontinuity) I realize I'm lying in bed in my CH in my sister's old room by the corner/windows. In the other twin bed is lying my ex-gf SB [DREAM SIGN]. I feel like telling her about my almost-WILD.. She says something, I don't hear perfectly clearly, I think she says "I want to kiss you." I wonder if I should get up and go over to her and kiss her.

Spoiler for sexy/erotic content:

I then realize her hand is reaching across under the blankets and is on my penis, which I feel is becoming erect. I "pulse" it so that she knows this.

Then I realize her leg is lying across my body. I reach down and caress her calf and her upper thigh. I think about how I've always admired her legs. I feel they're smooth and say "smoooooth....". I detect only the slightest bit of stubble, very little.

Then she's on top of me? Then she gets up and heads out of the room (which has an entry room? another set of doors leading to the hallway) and she's going to the bathroom and says "I'll get us some towels" in preparation for cleaning up afterwards I think. I notice the door is open. She is not SB any more but a brunette with a sort of husky and a bit "hill billy"/low class voice.

Spoiler for sexy/erotic content:

I realize she's put a condom on me: I look down it's solid white latex. My erection is stretching it out. I pull it on snugly and walk back to the bed by the window. I'm thinking about the noise we may be making soon and that we need to close the door so that it doesn't bother my parents down the hallway. I sit on the edge of the bed and look down again and see I'm quite bit and hard, ready for action.

I look out the window and I see a very close view of the B Bridge, a bit slatted like on a computer screen, and I say, "Hello, <city>!"
Then I realize the blinds on the windows are open, and the people living up the hill from us can see into the room, and this bothers me [DREAM SIGN]. The blinds don't seem to close properly. I'm standing right in front of the windows, looking up at the houses that can see into our room. Among the trees and against the blue sky, there are two twin black modern "tower" houses barely more than a room or two wide on each side that go up 30 or so stories. I then realize there's a man sitting on his balcony looking down at us. My dad says "Oh, that's just RoLu".

Spoiler for sexy/erotic content:

I realize my erection is starting to fade

I then try to pull us both under a desk out of the view of the guy peering down from his balcony.

Then we're talking to some clown looking guy with brightly dyed hair: it's a solid bright orange/pink. He's also wearing bring (orange/pink) shoes. He looks like a middle-aged white guy. He's saying something about what someone said. I think he's courier and I want to tell my girl that she shouldn't be scared of him.

I wake up,

Spoiler for sexy/erotic content:

rock hard.

My heart is beating really hard. I'm really excited about this near-WILD, so early in the night. I find it very hard to return to sleep.
Discontinuity, sleep one more sleep cycle?
Somewhere around 4-4.5 hours I wake and just can't get back to sleep until about 6-7 or even later.

+ I'm driving along side a truck, this truck has some friends of mine in it. It's a big truck with a big cab. I think to drive up alongside the truck and to push in the clutch and rev my engine to tease them. I pull up along side and look in to the cab, there are two guys there, my friends. Then we're stopped and I walk in front of the front of the cab, and notice a lot of little green plants either growing there or plastered there. It looks very messy and I think they'll need to clean this up.

+ I'm walking into a bar, it's "only 5pm" and is deserted and I don't want any drinks. There is a female bartender, I go to her and say something, I'm waiting for someone? I look down and see an open large red and black backpack and "recognize" it. Then I'm walk through a short hallway around a corner and I'm outside with a very old woman/witch standing a bit away from me. She controls a wolf I know, but I don't see it. She turns reverse video (like a camera negative), and I go up to her and imagine igniting my lightsaber and slicing her with it. Then I see a skinny wolf who confronts me. I'm then back in the corridor, trying to return to the room I came from. The corridor keeps making 90-degree left turns. One, two, three, 4 left turns in a row.
This corridor doesn't lead back the way I came, something is not right with it. Then I see an opening into what appears to be the back/high area of a large auditorium [DREAM SIGN].

I walk in to the auditorium and wonder if my mind will be able to render it instantly and completely when I turn to the right and look down. I enter and indeed I see a complete auditorium.
I look down and there are only a few sparse groups of people seated, partway down to the right. I jump/fly down to them, and try to choose a girl. I'm hovering over the higher group, but look down to the lower group and see some cute blondes, one of whom is turned around and looking at me. I decide the one I'm over is cute enough and land

Spoiler for sexy situation:

and start getting a BJ. It's pretty vague. I move down and there is a visual of a guy licking a (raspberry?).

I soon wake.

+ some fighting/team situation. I'm in a corridor and my friend is in a large cubicle when I notice an enemy soldier coming our way with a large rifle/energy gun. I say out loud "soldier, big gun, he'll be here in SECONDS!". Soldier arrives, my friend comes out of the cubicle and mentions/says something about "the rail gun is in the cubicle." I go in and look around but I can't find it. I come out and shrug, he indicates behind himself again and then I notice that it is stuffed down the back of his pants. I take it out and pump a lever which charges the rail gun and it starts making a high-pitched charging sound. I point it at the enemy solder (it has a flexible tube from its barrel?) and shoot, which gives him a minor shock. Then I pump and shoot, pump and shoot again, on his left/back side and it really gives him a jolt. He really hates that rail gun. Then I'm outside and ahead of him and he's pursuing I know. I have a lot of places to hide, it's like a multi-level children'd playground with lots of low tube tunnels. I'm not sure where to go. The pursuer runs around the perimeter of the play area and I hunker down inside, not well enough, because as I'm crouched down I see his eyes meet mine and he's found me. (We fight?)

I was a footman with raiding force that wanted to reclaim it's land from evil warlords. I had a chainmal, throwing axe and a hand axe. The fort was surrounded by huge, circular wall made of wood logs. The entrance wasn't heavily guarded - women of different age with throwing axes. With my group we rushed to battle, avoiding their thrown weapons. I let only one of the women alive. She seemed somehow familiar, she had long blonde hair and was tall. We let her free and moved onward, to find ourselves a shelter for the night before striking warlord next day. We've found safe spot inside an abandoned shed and fallen asleep.

I hate this game
It feels like I’m playing a very realistic game. It starts with me and some other guy being stuck in a run down room about the size of a smallish bedroom. The walls are grey from dirt or whatever. There's also a small dog. In the corner is a messed up wooden door with a padlock on it. On the other side of the room is a dark hallway that will lead us to who knows what. There's one more door, to a storage closet or something. The guy enters the hallway to explore. On the other side of the door I can see an older man. I think he has a tanned skin. He definitely has some dreadlocks, though I think not all of his hair is dreads. For a moment I wonder if there is some understanding between us. I vaguely feel a connection. I open the door to the storage and accidentally hit the dog, who was just digging for something it seems. It seems like he's found something. The dog has found a tiny hidden space in the ground, which contains a key. I use it to open up the padlock. I think at first the door doesn't open yet, but eventually it's wide open or it has disappeared. This happens while I'm on the other side of the room. The man starts using blow darts to shoot at me. He doesn't shoot me directly. The darts ricochet off the walls 3 times before getting to me. He doesn't always hit me, but it's scary enough. A few times I get hit on the back, which hurts. I grab a large bamboo pole from the closet and attempt to scare him off. It works a bit. I follow him outside. I know I should be waiting for the other guy, as I shouldn't leave him behind, but... The man has upgraded to actual bow and arrow now. He's perhaps 5 metres away from me. I need to cover this distance fast if I don't wanna die. I smack the bamboo pole around, trying to distract him and throw him off balance.

Attack
I'm sitting in a tram in Amsterdam, as obvious from the lay out of the tram and the blue / grey colours. To my right is my girlfriend. We're sitting sideways, on the left side. Somewhere in front of me (so on the right side of the tram) is a black guy about my age, with a backpack. I've got a bad feeling that he's gonna be shooting up a lot of people, though I don't remember why. I think I saw a gun. I'm not sure whether I should say something. In the mean time I'm still trying to figure out where I need to go, using my girlfriend's white iPhone SE. She mentions a stop and I hope she's wrong about it. I quickly unlock her phone with the finger scanner. Damn. She's right. This is also the place where I suspect the guy will start shooting. He and some other people have already exited. I can loudly hear the first two shots. My girlfriend wonders what it is. I immediately tell her to hit the floor. A few seconds later we run to the back exit and to the other side of the tram stop. There are still people just sitting there, unaware. I see the guy again. By now he's moved close to a grass field behind the tram stop. At this point I get separated from my girlfriend. I think I leave her behind, though I'm not sure why. The guy is still shooting people and I'm getting way too close. I hit the ground, pretending to be dead, but doing a shitty job at it. I still crawl around a bit. Is that.. yep, that's dog poop quite close to me. I think I can also feel some underneath me. Fuck. I take on some more dramatic positions to make the guy think I'm dead, though I've crawled already. He's shouting something which seems to be aimed at me. That he'll shoot me too I think. For the time being he seems to be focused mostly on getting other people. He shoots a bit in my direction, but not with real intent to kill. I can't help but wonder if this is a form of solidarity cause we're both black. At this point the dream kinda happens several times, or it is just my imagination running wild. He runs out of bullets and needs to reload. I get up, dash over and tackle him. I sit on his chest and pummel his face. He's still got a grenade in his left hand though. Hope he doesn't blow me up with him, or throws it down my shirt or something like that. I see all these things happening, but none actually happens. In the end I've pretty much beaten the guy to death. In the aftermath I (as the other black guy) end up being mistaken for him and getting arrested. Surely there must be witnesses around who can state my innocence.

Now for some lightheartedness: I'm.. at home? I guess. I've got a magazine which the AH [Dutch supermarket] mailed to me. It's still wrapped in plastic. They've included a live hamster or guinea pig or a similar rodent. It's in the plastic, together with the magazine. It can barely move. I take a moment before releasing it. I thought it was sad, but I needed to process the fact that the supermarket had just sent me a live animal through the post.