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I woke up naturally at 6:45AM for my WBTB which was nice. Couldn't quite remember my dream. My non lucid recall has been sort of shitty for the last week. I took 8mg Glanatamine and 600 mg Alpha GPC with some fruit. After a half hour of listening to anime soundtracks and setting my intentions I did some SSILD and tried WILD. I got some imagery that wouldn't stick and eventually got out of bed but the dream never stabilized so I won't bother putting an entry for that. I kept waking up and doing nose plugs but they weren't false awakenings. Eventually a dream formed but I had lost most of my lucidty.

08.17.2016
09:38 AM

Magic Lesson One: Rock Climbing (SSILD)

I am in a final fantasy style RPG on a game boy advanced. I remember playing this game before in a different dream and wan't to speed run through it to get back to where I was before. I set up my character and complete the first area to receive my sword. I then attack some enemies with it. I get to the overworld and make my way to where I can get my first companion which is a warrior guy. I then go through the overworld to a mine where I can start leveling the mining skill. I forgot though that you have to talk to this mole man NPC first to get access. I go to the first dungeon and also get a mage girl companion. We defeat the boss of the dungeon and I wake up a bit.

I am a semi lucid now and in my own body. I am at the edge of my college at night. I want to keep playing the game so I pull a GBA out of my pocket and wonder how to get back into it. I start running around while I look at the GBA and thinking about how to turn the mechanics into a real game. I realize I don't have a GBA and remember that this is a dream. This is my chance!

I stop running and actually skid because I am going so fast! It is dark but there is a street light so I feel comfortable. I see a DC is jogging along the sidewalk. I walk out into the street and remember that I wanted to try a stability potion first. I put my hand back and summon a bottle. It is triangle shaped with a small cork and green liquid in it. I pull the cork off and drink the entire bottle. The dream destabilizes for a second and then completely restabilizes. It isn't the most vivid dream but I feel like it will last a long time. Another random DC runs by. I say out loud, "Juliana, I am ready for my lesson." I flow energy through my hands and stick them out. "I now understand the importance of body, mind, and spirit!"

Anime -esque flash back time! Previously when I asked Juliana to give me my lesson she told me to read some books first. I started with Journey to the West and read the chapter titled "Monkey King studies magic" The Monkey King (the character in my avatar) went to study with a sage to learn to be immortal. After 7 years he had to choose which philosophical discipline to focus on but was disappointed to learn that none of them would teach him immortality. The sage took him aside and told him he could learn the secrets of body, mind and spirit which isn't a formal discipline but the forces that hold the universe together. This is how The Monkey King gained immortality and a bunch of other magical powers!

From there I knew the other books would relate somehow to the body, mind, and spirit. The book on astral projection is related to developing the energy body. The book on zen is related to focusing the mind. The other books where the Vedas and I learned more about the Ātman, the "true self". I can do energy flow simulation to work on my body schema and I can do zazen meditation to work on my mind but I couldn't find any meditation to work on the spirit. Considering I don't believe in a literal soul stuff like transcendental meditation seems like complete bullshit. I ended up realizing that just listening to good music is a great way to meditate on spirit! https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LaJoDAXkSMw Now, back to the dream!

I imagine Juliana appearing in front of me in a puff of smoke. Nothing happens. Hmm. Well, it was worth a try. Another random DC runs by and startles me. What is with these DCs? I stick both my hands back and feel someone take hold of them. "Hi Juliana." I say. "Hey Matthew." she replies. I turn around and it's her. I hug her and notice she has dark hair again and her witches hat this time. "I'm ready for my lesson." I say. She looks around and takes in the environment. "It's dark here. Let's go somewhere with more light." and she points to one of the buildings at the college. We walk over there and I ask,"Hey Juliana, I'm curious, what is your natural hair color. I've seen you with red hair and dark hair." "My natural hair color?" she says. "Oh, it's grey but I'm always changing it." I say, "Grey? Are you sure? Okay." She looks at me with wide eyes and says, "Matthew, I want to ask you where you come from." I am a little taken of guard and say, "Haha okay. I want to know a lot more about you too." "Ya, but you sort of popped up out of no where and now I'm your dream guide but we hardly really know each other."

We get to the door of the building and she opens it. It looks nothing the same on the inside. There are students everywhere in white uniforms. There is a staircase even though it is a one story building from the outside. We walk in and I see a door at the end of the hall with light coming through the window. "You did it! Let's go through there." I say. There are so many students I get destabilized a bit in the commotion but because of the potion it is really easy to stabilize again. I look back and see that Juliana has changed into a guy with aviator sunglasses on. She looks like Dave from homestuck but I can feel it is still her somehow. I take her hand so we stay together and we go to the door. "Let's make it a basketball court." I say as I open the door and go through. It really is a basketball court on the other side and it's day time! There are DCs talking and playing and there are tall buildings around the park.

"Okay, let's start the lesson. We walk over to a bench and she sits down except now she is an indian boy. "I did the research on body, mind, and spirit." She nods and smiles. I go on,"Body I can develop with energy flow simulation. Mind I can develop with zazen meditation." She looks happy that I figured this stuff out. "Spirit I had a hard time with though." She looks concerned. "You see, I don't believe in spirits" She is about to say something but I explain myself. "Well, I believe in spirit, but not souls. In my mind, spirit is the essence of a person. Their passions, feelings, and relationships. I don't think there is a metaphysical thing determining those things. Not in the waking world but I would imagine souls are real in the dream world." Juliana looks very confused. "Waking world? What is that?" I say, "That's where I go when I wake up. You don't know about the waking world?" She squints at me and says, "So that is why there is something different about you." I ask, "So where do you go when you go to sleep?" She says, "Another dream world." I ask,"Haven't you ever woken up before?" She replies, "Not Really. So what happens when really wake up?" "Look." I say. "We should get to my lesson. Contemplate this and we can talk more about it some other time. Also, why do you look like an indian boy?" "Oh, sorry." She says and gets enveloped in a white light as she transforms. I stand next to her to help her get the height right. I ask to see the red hair this time. She looks like herself again with the red hair.

"Okay, your first lesson." She points at some kids playing on the side of the court. The kids around here like to get them selves in all sorts of trouble. They go in places they aren't suppose to and do dangerous things." We walk down the court. "See all these tall buildings." I nod. "They like to climb up the walls and do graffiti way high up. The adults just can't climb up there to clean it but the kids never fall." We stop at the end of the block. "Your first magic lesson is to climb to the top." I ask,"What's magical about rock climbing?" She explains,"I know it isn't extravagant but it will teach you all the principles. Go ahead and choose a building and get climbing."

I choose a building and start pulling myself up on the brick and engravings. I get up a ways and find myself at a difficult spot. "Look at 11 o'clock." I look up and a bit to the left. I see a flourish decoration that will make a good handhold. "Thanks Juliana!" I say and keep climbing. "What is this dreamviews thing on your phone?" she says. I look down and I am higher up than I thought. "Hey, what are you doing with my phone?" I shout. "Don't fall and wake up or you will loose your cell phone!" she says. "Even if I wake up I won't loose my phone." I say and keep climbing. "So what happens to your stuff if you wake up? Doesn't it disappear too?" she says. "Ha ha that isn't how it works." I say. "When you go to another dream world you don't bring your stuff. If you are inexperienced that is. Hey, who is this Chiara girl? Is she your giiiiirfriennnnnnnd?" she giggles. "Yes, that's my girlfriend." I say. "Your waking life girlfriend? Let's go through your texts!" I am very high up now but there is an over hang. I am starting to get the point of all of this. While I was distracted by Juliana I climbed much faster and easier. If I am just confident and go with it I can do anything! I make it over the overhang and can see the top now but I start to destabilize. I think about what I learned and use it to just go with it and stay anchored to the dream. I imagine myself holding the top ledge and the dream restabilizes. I pull myself to the top. Juliana is just a little dot now. I give out a victory yell and jump off. I float gently down and as I am landing near Juliana I take away her phone. I see that she has her hat off so I take that too and plop it back on her head. She looks a bit guilty but happy. I start to wake up and while I have more to say to Juliana I feel like it is time. After all, I have a lot of dialogue to right down before I forget it!

So my feeling was right! Juliana does know it's a dream but I am surprised she didn't know there is a real waking world. I look forward to continuing that conversation and my magic lessons.

early:
+(f) sitting in the car with all the cousins, I'm looking around amazed because it has been such a long time since we've been on a road trip like this

later:
+(f) outside? doing something with very tall poles disappearing up into the sky (tall ceiling?) There is a moving metal chute attached to the poles, and I'm looking up at it wondering why it doesn't fall down, it is leaning away from the pole. On another pole the metal chute seems attached better.

+ outdoors, lots of activity all around. A (helicopter?) flies overhead and a bunch of skiers jump out of it. They're using their skis as parachutes to slow their desent, and so their skies are up in the air and their heads are facing the ground as they fall. They are falling into a little ravine/steep hill that allows them to turn upright and touch their skis down to the ground and get to skiing down the slope.

I make my way onto an unfamilar tennis court to talk to an instructor I knew from band (he's wearing a sun hat). I'm about to talk about the Bluecoats 2013 line when a confident-looking blonde guy about 10 feet away (wearing a Bluecoats uniform) loudly proclaims "Blue Kinghts" (seemingly to me and the instructor rather than the air). I am somewhat taken aback as I was in the middle of a sentence.

I'm with some DC I feel like I know (although he is unfamilar) and he is introducing me to 2 trainers. We are outside the aerobics room of a gym I know except that the room is somehow now racquetball courts. They set up an appointment for me for the next day late in the morning (time not remembered). Then things somehow change and it is changed to 6PM (it is 5 something PM currently). All the while I am standing there in a short latex-white swimsuit with a towel and have a feeling of "hurry it up please". realizing I have little time to do my swim (I got tired of swimming IWL?) I walk briskly over to the pool. Can't remember if I took the senseless long way or the logical way but I end up at one of the last two lanes (I believe the second-to-last). I jump in (dive would imply practiced grace) and for some reason decide to swim near the bottom (deeper than IWL). I am somewhat frightened for a bit as gravity keeps me down once I try to come up. I fight and eventually win. The swim is a blank until the end when some people outside the pool are messing with me and either throwing on the pool cover or messing with the laneline. I believe it was the laneline but later it is separated so I am confused. Near its separation, it is slightly tangled and two people mess with it on each end. I did not look who was near me but at the far side is the percussion caption head from band. I remember thinking something like "figure it out" a few seconds before the line is divided. I get out of the pool and note that it is nearly 6. I rush over to my plastic plate dinner of spicy cornbread (?) and chicken but then notice it is a few minutes after 6 (although it has been seconds). I rush through part of the corn bread (most of the meal) and don't touch the chicken. I wake up later.

Fragment 1: I'm in the RV with Grandpa and a few other family members. As Grandpa drives down the driveway and out of the gate, I say something to him and the RV starts to tilt horribly to the right. I freak out at first, but it just keeps tilting and finally hits the ground on it's side.

Fragment 2: I'm waiting at Grandma's gate with Julie. It's dark outside. A man is walking down the driveway to us. Once he get to us he puts the unlocked lock on the fence and attaches a large camera right next to the lock. I ask him about the camera but he doesn't answer. I already know that it belongs to Grandpa.

Fragment 3: I dreamed about a school. High school.

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Lights Out

Lights went out all across the world and, it would be good to stay with friends and family, not to wonder off. If you wonder off you could get killed by a monster.

More School Dreams

My Junior year is just around the corner, of course I'm gonna get School Dreams.
I was at school in World Studies, the bell was about to ring but me, my friend Alec and a few others just ditched class.
Then, I walk into a classroom where I have to get Paper. I remember the Freshmen looking at me, I was kind of nervous. I look through a bunch of papers to see if there is any Blank's. I couldn't find any over there so I just dropped the papers, the papers didn't look organized now. I looked in another which were test papers, I saw lots of papers with my name on it, I was thinking I could write on the back of one of these.

But when I turned it around there was stuff written on the back. I go ask the teacher to see if she has any lined paper, she says no.

I'm back in World Studies, everything looks different as if it was a movie that just got rebooted. On the projector screen there was a song, it was kind of stupid. So I lie my head on the table, the song was about lucid dreaming. I was gonna goto sleep so I can Lucid Dream. Hmm...well I'm stupid. I remember waking up in real life, I couldn't feel my hands, I was tired so I would go back to sleep. But I got acid reflux and, I was uncomfortable so I had to get up.

I actually remembered this dream! That's nice, hopefully I remember again tomorrow. You know if I hear anything about Lucid Dreaming from somewhere like TV, Friends, Family, School you know I should reality check next time.

Morning of August 17, 2016. Wednesday.



My wife Zsuzsanna and I seem to be much younger, perhaps both in our twenties, seemingly about the same age. My dream starts (or at least becomes viably discernible) at a point where we are walking out from the Cubitis carport (a common induction point in my childhood and teenage years) about an hour or two before dawn.

We are headed out to the highway area just beyond the big front yard (the original Highway Seventeen) for some reason. I notice that the area is different. Instead of a culvert, the land is elevated about eight feet above the highway (which is an intriguing variation I had never dreamt of before). I notice a few wastebaskets just off the highway, of various sizes and colors, which I consider as belonging to neighbors. I also get the impression that people sometimes sit in the area on the wayside below as an act of socialization.

Zsuzsanna goes north to the area near where Harold’s orange grove started. There is an unusual large light-colored tree growing through a recess (or circular “notch”) in the embankment with its west side open (and facing the highway). Most of the branches (at least those in view) look as if they had been cut off about a foot or so from the trunk. Some of the exposed roots seem to be nearly at the height of the embankment (extending into the recess only) even though the trunk also properly extends from the ground below just off the highway. I do not question this highly unlikely and illogical feature. There is no traffic on the highway during the length of my dream.

After a short time, even though I have no lucidity, I will a television to appear. It is a widescreen television similar to our real one and it faces the house. I tell Zsuzsanna to “watch this” as I manipulate its placement without touching it, using telekinesis to slide it a bit more north. (At no point is anything discernible or considered to be more north of the tree.) There is a sense of puzzlement where I consider that the embankment may have a slope from the ground level below that is horizontally deeper in near the bottom, and if this is the case, there may be people there though unseen, though this does not seem to be the case after a time. I cause the television to float in the air a few times, just past the edge of the embankment, as I contemplate what to do with it.

I eventually start moving my hands in both a vertically and horizontally increasing span (moving my arms about slowly in an arc) as if indicating that the television is getting larger both in its width and height. This actually works and I am amused as I cheerfully ask Zsuzsanna “how is this?” It becomes very large, nearly as big as a movie theater screen (though with the black surface of a television), several times its original size. The detail seems flawless in how it slides and becomes larger, vaguely reminiscent of shutters opening (though not directly rendered as such, though I do get an association of parts of it flopping out from the side as it evenly grows larger though not as if by original design). My dream becomes more and more vivid as I go closer to the tree and the edge of the embankment and I sit down to the left of the tree (south side). It is the only tree visible in the area.

Zsuzsanna starts climbing the tree, but only near embankment height, and she mostly only circles around it, sitting on a truncated (seemingly evenly sawed-off) branch a couple times, while facing the tree. Still, I am concerned that she could slip or fall and I tell her to be careful as I would not want anything to happen. I then use telekinesis to start causing dirt to fill in the recess that the tree is adjacent to, but decide to stop after a short time even though the completion would cause the area to be more stable to walk on (though this is not really logical as in reality there would still be less dirt overall in the area, although there is a sense that I may be creating it as I also mentally move it). Zsuzsanna seems very happy and deriving pleasure from moving about the tree’s circumference (while staying mostly at the embankment height, going neither up or down). I feel a sensual attraction to her as she sits on the truncated branch facing the tree, the scene being somewhat erotic.

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Since 1968, Highway Seventeen (the original name as the stretch is now called Northeast Cubitis Avenue), when featuring as the main setting of a dream (especially in the final segment) causes an absolutely amazing heightened sense of clarity and extremely clear “realistic” detail and vividness. I suspect at least two possible reasons for this. A highway often seems symbolic of the strongest link between dream self and more discernible increasingly active consciousness. I also spent a lot of time (during a period of about eight years) waiting on the wayside for the school bus (as well as getting off there in the afternoon), and so these two factors also can combine to validate this as an augmented liminal space and “arriving home” (waking up) scenario. The fact that I non-lucidly create and manipulate the television (which usually represents a dream within a dream though in contrast also a link to the external real environment) seems to be a very intriguing non-lucid practice of dream manipulation (though many dreams throughout my life, I as my dream-self have also manipulated non-lucidly solely by pretense and nearly subliminal expectation, though this does not always work, as with my recent “Robot Help” dream as an example). Additionally, the television expanding and growing larger is also analogous to my dream becoming more vivid.

I start off outside somewhere. It looks like I was in some kind of castle courtyard. It was daytime and I was standing on cobbled concrete, there was a stone railing that en squared the area I was in and there were also flags here. I'm walking around and realize that I'm playing a game and right then I run into a player. I started to run but he waved at me to come over and I saw that he was the Mega Dragon Zord! He was large in sized and despite him appearing like a 2d sprite, he was still very detailed. I seen his red visor, the shield like chest and his tail. He smiled and waved at me and I pressed a key and waved back at him. He ran off and I went on to exploring. I thought that if I was on a normal server that he would for sure attack me with that drill weapon or try to uppercut me. I seen some green forest trees off in the distance, beyond the wall and some clouds in the blue sky. Then I see a princess-like woman. She also waved at me and I waved back. I walked next to a stone railing and a horizontal mini pole extended from it. I decided to try and climb it but the pole was slippery and I flipped upside own, nearly falling. I grabbed on to the pole tightly and Mega Dragonzord saw what was going on. He ran up to the railing and he held his hand out to me but not beyond the rail. I reached out to try and grab his hand but realized that I was reached through one of the holes and did not want him pulling me through that. He pulled his hand back anyhow and was making sounds and then I realized that he was pointing at something. I looked down and can see the princess down below safe. Then I a saw a rope, that is what he was pointing at. I grabbed on to it and slid down. and when I got to the bottom. Mega Dragon laughed cheerily, clapped his hands a few times and left from there. The Princess was glad that I was okay and she shook my hand. Some music started playing then I woke up.

Tonight I had non-lucid dreams but not much recall. Of course I didn't try to force it because I needed rest more than I needed dreams.

I was in two groups of people I knew/know. I believe first I was with a small group of people I knew from rowing. We were lined up near a line of EZ-ups near a lake. Although I believe there was a dropoff to a lower level and then the water level. I recall a feeling of dread. I spaced out and noticed the people near me were holding some sort of pose that seemed to be a core exercise. Noticing I was the only one not doing it I assumed the pose. Blank. I'm in some library (a building that was nearby us) that is large. I seem to remember all the bookcases being about neck-high but the ceiling going up very far. I was running around and felt some relief from the dread I had felt earlier even though I am aware that the same people are in the same building.

Blank.

I am at band rehearsal as an instructor. Except the group is small and practice is in the middle of an intersection I am very familar with. The director was there except I did not notice him until he spoke to me following my joking harassment of another instructor. He says I messed around with the snares a lot last year. Sudden transition/blank. The same group of people is in the yard of my dad's house at the edge of the lawn. Little is remembered. Then I am in a group with the percussion section a bit further out in the center of the lawn. I recognize another instructor I have seen often IWL and the caption head (although briefingly but I remember him less). I remember hearing about drama and either thinking or saying "All you innocent high schoolers". I believe that was the wording. Next I recall a feeling of isolation listening to them laugh. I become somber and immediately think to myself (exact wording) "I think too much and read the wrong books". Around then the instructor references a book about black magic that I cannot remember if I mentioned IWL.

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Chain of Memories

I was at Castle Oblivion from Kingdom Hearts, looks like the picture above but is more colorful with red curtains and some other colors. I believe I was Sora or someone, I remember a woman A.I. talking to me about this castle disrupted the flow of Space and Time. (Since the castle creates solid copies of memories)
Later in the Dream, I remember getting catapulted across a grassy terrain. And I also remember looking into my reflection, I looked like Robert Downey Jr. and I even had the ironman suit on, minus the Mask.

That's all I could remember, see you tomorrow if I can remember...does anyone have tips for dream memory? and control?