non-lucid

Had a bunch of dreams but was to lazy to write them down. Thought I would remember them. I only remembered the last dream of the night.

My view is third person and I'm in some kind of League of Legends game. The map is transforming into a new map. There are no fountains or defensive towers anymore. There is a hedge building in the middle that I walk to. There are some enemies there that I do some kind of delayed AoE damage ability on. A character from Bleach is there and I escape. New dream stage. I'm in the big room upstairs in our home and look on the projected screen on the white wall. There is a lego female that makes an announcement about the big change in League of Legends. The female is transformed into a lego man with a mustache. I think if it is sexist to do that for a while but decide that it is only natural to have equally many female and male announcers.

Notes: I played a game of League of Legends with my cousin some days ago. I fixed the hedges at my job some days ago too. I haven't thought about Bleach I think. I haven't thought about lego either. In school we watched a documentary about the female roll in history and that she has been constantly badly treated. The announcer in the documentary was a female and my teacher talked about how it would be weird if it was a male.

2nd October 2020

Scraps:

(Forgot most of the dreams but remember having a few long ones. Morning routine didn't really allow for making early notes.)

Some bit where I was in a stairwell of some kind. It was a modern-looking place but the steps themselves were like that part in the Hobbit film (which I watched recently) where Gandalf is investigating the ancient tombs. I remember using the strange spirally square stairwell but feeling wary about falling since there were no railings or anything. Someone else was there with me? It was a brightly lit stairwell and I think the steps themselves were a bright red or red-orange colour.

Some part in space, vague memory of being similar to Freelancer, and a nebulae background. Something about T and some interactions between us? Discussing a game maybe?

I'm in city and talk with dad about a two-wheeled vehicle that he holds. I take the vehicle and drive out of city. The vehicle I drive has two pedals like a bike. I look at the fuel gauge and find that it is being refueled when I use the pedals to bike. When the gauge is full I use the fuel to go really fast. I look on the speed metre and find that I am driving in 74 km/h (46 miles per hour). I think about the dangers of riding this fast, unprotected in a small vehicle. I see a new road to the left that is going into the woods that I ride into. There is a car that almost crashes in to me when I turn in there. There is an old man that I talk with about something. I ride out to the big road again and use up all my fuel when a curve comes. I go so fast that the friction is not enough to hold me in the curve. I manage to still be on the vehicle but it's going into a big wheat field and the vehicle is gliding on the side. It stops just before a big tree and I am safe. I walk with the bike to the road again and try to drive. All the fuel is out so I try to bike it in order to refill the fuel. It's almost impossible to ride the bike and the gauge is not going up. I'm feeling hopeless.

Notes: I though about biking in order to get some daily exercise yesterday. Dad and I was in a shop where they sold different kinds of two-wheeled vehicles a week ago. The road that I was riding when the speed metre was showing 74 km/h has a speed limit of 60 km/h IRL. In physics we talk about friction and centripetal force. There was a question about what speed you could have in a curve without falling of like I did in the dream. The wheat field represents hard work as I finished reading "The Richest Man In Babylon" yesterday. I though about how a man can make money by buying and selling things but that only real value can be created by manpower. If I work and create value I can feel confident and proud over myself.

I'm by Sturkö. My brother and my cousin Sebastian M are also there. We go onto a wooden fleet and we want to make a boat out of it. We get a mini motor that is really fast. We put it one the end of the fleet and we are able to go pretty fast. We have another motor that we use to change the direction.

Notes: I sometimes have dreams about going out into the waters with some people. I dreamt about Tobbe yesterday wich made me dream about Sebbe today.

I'm in Sturkö and flying around. I try to reach the atmosphere as I have done once before. I'm not fully lucid because I haven't thought about what my dream goals are. I fly by the water and I see the water under me split a little when I fly over it. I am amazed by the quality of the dream, the beauty of the water and want it to last forever. I feel the wind over my skin as I increase my speed. I live in the moment and fly in all different positions. On my back, on my stomach with my hands in front of me, on my stomach with my hands along my body, on my stomach and doing swimming motions with my hands. I see my family by a table in front of The Green House and go to them. I know that we are going to eat food but I don't see any. I sit on the wooden bench. The dream disappears and I wake up.

Notes: These are the dreams I yearn for. The feeling of being free and so flexible in your flying. You can go anywhere. Now when I think about it it may have been a FA.

1st October 2020

Dream:

In the van with H. For some reason, some part stopped transmitting power (to or from the engine). The drive shaft? Not sure, but it was still rolling and the engine itself was still going. But the van was only rolling (uphill, somehow) and couldn't accelerate, the throttle did nothing. We were rolling at about 40 in the middle of a town. H put on some hazard lights and other things and steered gently into a side bit stopped the van.

Then something about a vest he had to put on and I was attaching some untinged leather straps to velcro bits? Two other people were here and we were talking to them. They were the ones that told H to put the vest on?

One of these people was an artist and I don't remember what was said exactly, but I turned around at some point and now faced an alcove-type bit and all my paintings were there. I remember mentioning that there really weren't that many (I felt) but this small room still looked cluttered by them.

Dream:

Not sure how it started but some random character was the centre of it all now and there was this "ending of the world" thing going on. Some brightly coloured spheres went up in the air and then different things started happening but I forgot the details. I do remember some people and all their stuff, inside their houses, would get sucked/warped through reality into some kind of dimensional containers. I remember having a feel as if I could control some of what was going on, through a console? But otherwise I was not directly present or involved.

Then some other part after it's all over. There's two anthropomorphic mice and they are wearing motorcycle-gang type leather outfits. They are talking to each other and one of them has a coin about half his size. It's supposedly a 30 cent coin from the USA but he mentions it would be worth several hundred now after everything that had happened. The coin was shiny. There was a filmic or cartoony characteristic to this scene, but I think it otherwise looked realistic.

At some other bit in the middle of a ruined city. I feel more present in this section. I think something about how things didn't need to have turned out like this. I think to myself that if people had been more sensible, even with what was happening, there would be more to return to, or something to this effect. Neo or someone like him is here. He has a mobile phone and there are other people and there's now some kind of stigma (that I intuitively know about in the dream) about using this "old" technology and I remember a travelling section of the dream through or over the ruined city where nobody has guns or advanced technology but are all using improvised clubs.

But this Neo character talks to someone using this mobile phone and the nearby characters get angry at him. He tries to be quick about it and tries to lose their attention? But the dream ends shortly after this I think.

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Notes:

- I think the two mice were probably a reference to Biker Mice from Mars, a show which I did watch a bit of but not a lot, my siblings had watched more of it, I think. But I haven't really thought about it in years.
- My previous entry also featured motorcycles.
- It's possible that it's just imaginative leaking from daily life, as a few times we've been going past signs that mention motorcycle accidents.
- The transmission/power issue with the van was probably related to a discussion I had this week with H in the van, in waking life.
- The second dream was particularly long, but I lost many details on waking, in part because of motivation issues though.

30th September 2020

Dream:

With my family, visiting some fancy historical complex in America. It's on an overlook type area, atop a generally hilly area. Don't remember the surroundings much.

Mom, dad and T are the family I'm with. I remember we walked into a room with a long curved glass separating the room from a display area. There are highlights from the top and behind the glass is a natural-looking and rocky display, but the main feature is a plaque attached to a rock? We sit down on some of those museum-type sofas and there's a female voice talking about this plaque and/or the display.

Outside, going away from the compound area.

(recall gap)

Then something about a motorcycle gang? And two of its members are causing havoc along a road, in some way that I don't recall. I'm a policeman and have a motorcycle of some kind myself, chasing them through roads and rice fields, where people are working.

(recall gap)

Then in a shower. It's in some old place's bathroom. The shower is a walk-in type, with no frame at all, being only a white plinth. It's centred against a wall of this bathroom, which is quite large. I remember old and darkly stained wood, either in the bathroom or outside of it. Cerulean-blue tiles?

While I'm in this shower, bits of crap start coming off the back of where a silicon seal should be. Some bugs and a small horned beetle crawl out. (The word kabuto comes into mind as I write this out)

Then I get out and someone else is around. Not sure who, but they find a small clam shell of sorts and put it in front of this beetle. It gets in the shell and wears it like armour or something, the other person remarking on this fact. Then nearby is a crab and this other person disturbs it and it crawls away? But the crab is also in a strange sea shell of some kind.

(recall gap)

Vague recall of roaming some mezzanine area and old halls of the place with the bathroom. A bedroom too?

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Notes:

- Shortly after writing out this dream and getting some things ready for the day, I found a beetle on the hoodie that I was going to wear.
- The whole dream was continuous but the threshold/transition moments seem to have mostly been lost on waking.

I drink extra water in order to wake up in the night. I wake up 03:37 and write down this dream.

I'm bouncing at the Sturkö trampoline with another person. Suddenly all this fertiliser poop is dropped next to me on the trampoline. Me and the other person quickly go out of the trampoline. My sister is there and I ask her if it was her doing. She is serious and says that she needed to do it for something important. I walk in The Green House and see Tobbe M there. He talks about football. Gradually Tobbe transforms into Klaus and he starts to scream loud. He screams about football and how the judges are bribed in a crazy manner.

Notes: Klaus screamed in a very scary way.

When I went to bed again and tried to WILD I got some real pain in my left foot. I moved my foot and felt if something hit my foot but nothing had happened.

I'm by a gas station and there are some aliens shooting at us. I shoot back but get captured. I am being transported to some kind of house that is slimy. I am half lucid because I try to actively wake myself up here. I am being led to a passageway and I meet a dead end. There are some holes in the wall to the right with some kind of thick liquid running through them vertically. An alien in the front that also is a prisoner is crawling into a hole and disappears. I take my hand in to the hole to feel if there is air on the other side of the liquid. I feel a wall and I assume that the alien was able to teleport. I do the same thing with the second hole and find that there is also a wall stopping me from entering there. The third hole doesn't have a wall and I am able to crawl through even tough it is very uncomfortable, especially since it is a very claustrophobic passage. When I am through I find myself in a doom shaped room. There is a bench that I go to and sit. An alien that is humanoid enters, I think that she is about my age and attractive. She comes to me and we start to kiss. She sits on my left leg. I don't know how long time we interact but I am suddenly with other humans that I know. I talk to Diego and he is mad at me because I kissed the girl. He seems to be interested in her by the way that he is talking about her. I tell him that it was only a dream and that it's okey. '

Notes: I talked about it being a dream in the dream but never got fully lucid and got hold of my IRL memories.

Always when I have a love interest non lucid dream I wake up with energy and happiness.

non-dream dream semi-lucid lucid false awakening


Staying at school for several days without going home. But then a storm is coming and I decide to get on the 1st transportation home not to get stuck even more days. My animals are home alone and I am not sure they have sufficient food or water of it the storm won't cause damage in my home. On the way, I go buy some more food and water for everybody and somehow end up debating with some lady with a baby, who has a bigger load of work of the two of us: her with the baby or me with all my pets. We agree to disagree.

Riverstone's brother calls me, insists I have to come to his place and taste something he is brewing in the pantry. I say better not but I do taste some sort of nachos on a sauce that he prepared. He insists I taste the other thing so I go look for it at the pantry. From a window I see a couple dudes touching an unresponsive cat at a café entrance. They seem to want to pick him up but does not seem like they have something good in their mind. So I go there and push them aside and pet the cat. He reacts and slowly gets up. The guys get pissed at me for interfering and I get defensive and literally fight the smaller one. They back off a bit but come back again. All of a sudden I start feeling weird, reality perception altered and I think they drugged me somehow. I look at them and they become whiter and whiter, like beings made of porcelain with perfect white bodies, no hair and no clothes. I am apparently going through a similar transformation. They drag me to my home. The feeling is very harmonious and loving and everything looks beautiful, but I haven't forgot who they are and what the situation was before so I become defensive when they both grab me and I realize they want to rape me and drugged me so I let my barriers down. I struggle and I become wrathful. I growl and spit fire and climb walls to get out of their range. They admit they expected me to cooperate and that now they will have to be rough with me. But I grow bigger and stronger and I resist and lock myself in the kitchen. They talk to me through the door trying to reason me out. Once the drug effect is gone we actually have a conversation and they seem to become aware of their actions and apologize and say they want us to become friends. I explain we ain't friends. They say they have time.

Diogo Faro (a comedian) is in my house. We're both in bath robes like we're very intimate, but actually we're still strangers to each other and I am trying to break the ice while I cook something in the kitchen. We talk and we become friends. He invites me to come to his next shows 5 days in a row. I ask if I can go to only one or if are they all different. He says they're different. I complain it's probably too costly for me but I'll try to go to at least one. Then he asks what other comedians I like and I say I love Jon Stewart but no way he is coming to our country and I hope someday to see a show with Jon Oliver. Then a friend of his comes to pick up Diogo. While they talk I notice one of my windows is not well fit in the framework and I try to fix it. I explain to them I already had a problem with a window falling to the ground floor once and that luckily nobody was hit by it. Then his stupid friend knocks the window down just for fun. It falls down several floors. We hear screams at the ground floor and I think the worst just happened. I kick the guy out from my home and Diogo is a gentleman and takes my side and tells his friend what an asshole he is. He stays in my apartment as I go downstairs to check it out, not without first grabbing the other guy by the neck and tell him he needs to pay damages and take responsibility for injuries on likely victims. But he scrambles. I reach the street level and there is a beach party going on at the entrance of the building, which is an apartment tower by the sea. I look for any sign of someone hurt and nobody is complaining, all looks normal. I check cars in the park and none seems broken. There is an abandoned dog in the park which breaks my heart but some ladies seem to take an interest and do not leave his side, so I believe they'll help him. I move on and go a bit more to the side where there is a garden and apparently the window fell there. No person was harmed but little elves live on that garden and one of them got scared when the window fell near him and he accidentally cast a spell on a lady nearby. He gave her the body of a fat beaver but kept her human head. Everybody freaks out when they see her.

I am with Riverstone at DMV or something, dealing with some documentation. He goes somewhere else while I wait in line, so we don't waste so much time, but he takes my backpack to put in a locker nearby. Unfortunately I leave my phone inside. Then I meet 3 girls who seem to want to bond with me, they want to exchange contacts and I don't have my phone. I tell them to wait that I'll get it but they leave anyway and for a second I feel sad like "I thought we had connected". Anyway, I start looking for those lockers and realize I am in a gigantic hub of services and transportation, an endless maze of corridors with access to trains and subways, with counters of different services along the way. I become mesmerized by an ecosystem of tiny crustaceans that seem to inhabit some old carpet under a counter of some public service and I lay on the ground just admiring how they attract flies on silky sticky strings and then eat them and communicate with one another through the strings. But I need to move on and I go randomly in the direction I think is the correct one. I reach some escalators. There is a normal one to the right, one coming down on the left and one in the center with strange smaller steps and colors. I take that one. On reaching the top there is a guy that looks out of Street Fight and a cage where I am supposed to get in as he yells that I have taken the challenge and now I must compete. I am scared about what kind of competition it is. If I'll be dropped in an arena to fight. So I skip it and jump to a sidewalk exiting the place. Then I see the competition was a life size Mario Kart race and I regret so much having skipped it. I then chose to explore what other games are there and step into an interior amusement park. Each room is home to a game or arcade and there are kids and adults playing. I spot a friend going into a room so I follow her but then lose sight of her. I see another entrance to a darker room, seems like a movie theater, but people sit relaxed in groups around tables and they are eating. There is popcorn and candies everywhere and apparently one can eat all it wants. I grab popcorns to the left and right, there are levels and levels of shelves with displays full of sweets. It's truly the dream for any kid or glutton. Then I spot some employee looking at me and making me signs to leave and I realize I had to pay an extra ticket to be there and be able to eat. I just leave with some kind of sweet on a stick. I hear beautiful music inside a room that looks like the palace of Versailles and I dance happily until I hear some voice saying "take that girl outta there". I notice I am behind an orchestra playing to a select audience and I get out from there discreetly. Then I am busted by some Arabs who apparently are with my dad on some lunch meeting. He had spotted me and they felt compelled to meet me. They make fun of my previous fail and invite me to join them just to upset my dad. They ask me what's that I have on a stick and I say some kind of marshmallow, not sure. But they turn it around and becomes evident that it is a pigs head on the stick. I am horrified and they are disgusted. They take it away from my hands.

At my farm and a bunch of family members is there. My grandpa is there and my mom and my aunt are taking care of him. My dad, my cousin Sara and maybe her brother are also there. An ambulance is coming with the sirens on and we all think it can only be a mistake because everybody is ok. But they still park the ambulance and the nurses come out in the direction of the gate.

Have been doing some reverse RC for the past days and it have given me some insights. I went to sleep 22.30 and accidentaly set an alarm 23.07. When I woke up by the alarm I had already had a very light dream about dad and something.


I'm by Sturkö bridge with William. There is an old woman there too. William and I talk about how much water we have bought from the lady. Peter asks us why we buy water. Me and William say that we buy mini hydro electric plants from the woman. Every litre of water costs 1000 kr (110 USD).

Was unable to motivate myself to write initial notes but initial recall was good.

29th September 2020

Scraps:

Something about H. H found something that in the dream was called the 14th note? Some kind of mysterious and forgotten-about musical note or tone. This 14th note was dubbed "Mu".

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Notes:

- I recently watched a film called Valerian, by the same person that made The Fifth Element. On Valerian there was a planet Mul. Somehow the topics seem related, this "Mu" note being a musical fifth element of some sort.

I thought I was missing a dream... It seems I skipped an older DJ entry by accident...

12th August 2020

8:30

Dream:

(points) Something about furry art. A kitchen, on-board a boat. Fancied two girls who were aboard. They were flirty? But they didn't know about one another.

I was in some open restaurant area. I wanted soup from some famous female cook? I remember running in my home town. It was busy. I saw a motorised unicycle of some kind with a white paint job; I thought it looked kind of cool and I thought about how someday it would look out of place, outdated and silly. It was night time and I had to sprint my best (didn't feel dream slowness too much) to get to a harbour that was where the exit ramp out of town should be. From there, this cruise ship was leaving and I knew this because of its horn which I heard while running. I didn't want to miss it.

I got to the loading ramp just as it was leaving and made a jump for it. It was a bare miss from my mark, plunging into water and grabbing onto a rear steering fin.

From there I thought of calling someone (JC?, but the character or my old friend?) on the ship to bring me a rope. Then thought of just using a teleport command instead. No, instead I decided I could do this by myself and balanced on top of the steering fin and despite the water and speed, jumped forward and got on the deck.

I got in through some doorway, watching my head. Passing thought of "so what if I fancy both of them?". I go down some steep metal or wood steps and I see her, one of these girls whom I apparently fancied. She was taking off some clothes in order to get changed. She had red briefs, a blood red colour.

I remember we both smiled at each other but didn't speak. I had the awareness of having a glazed clay bowl in my hand and wanting some soup. There was a kitchen ahead through another bulkhead doorway. When I got inside the kitchen, there were two aggressive dream characters sort of accosting me. I forget who they were or looked like, but they were like pirates?

Insistently I told them I would pay them to be left alone while I was in here. They thought I had nothing of value (mocked me?) and I remember scrounging through my pocket. Dozens of coins, I shove them at the two "pirates", the coins aren't nearly as valuable as I'd first expected however. I keep looking through my pockets. A stone? No, an ore nugget of sorts. It feels rough and I give it to them. It was a nugget of gold, but in reality the feel of it was more like a piece of pyrite ore like one I have in waking life.

But I still decided this wasn't enough and somehow gave them something else but I don't remember what it was. They are now dumbfounded and agree to my terms now. Their aggression goes away, pretty much, and now I walk around the kitchen and see a very orange-y styled chest freezer, with pictures of garfield on it. I assume this is some BL ice cream thing A started.

I remember going near a counter at the end of a queue bit, effectively bypassing said queue. But I felt as though I'd earned it with my payments to the "pirates". I still want that soup, but I can't or don't manage to find any?

The next thing I remember, a black chef is getting fired and complaining that he was in a good mood and the head chef ruined it all and so on. I remember very shortly after, reading a review online that this chef left about the restaurant, saying very poor things about the crew or something. I feel that it's in bad taste (but feel some sympathy). Then I'm in an upper deck. Mix of a train and airplane aisle? Windows to the outside. It's day-time and some people are sitting in this cabin-like bit by the windows. A white girl says "I was pinning (some artist)", referring to how she was subscribing to this artist on some platform called "pin.it"?

We're talking about furry artists, apparently. She mentions she feels embarrassed for talking about it out loud. A big black man sitting next to her, gives her some reassurance and tells her he actually had some interest in that same artist too.

I forget what else happened, a lot of detail is absent from this DJ entry overall but I had a lot more recall of the dream initially.

Some other bit about a base, partially in space? With technical-looking game block tiles and an ancient Egyptian ruin? Some overlap with the pirates somehow...

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Original note:

- On waking I could smell the curry I'd left on a timer to start cooking at 7AM. The cookery related part of the dream may well have stemmed from that and from all the preparation I'd done for it last night. I also made a dessert, leaving the curry, the main course, to effectively cook overnight. In the dream, I was looking for a soup, which to me is traditionally a starting course.

Added notes:

- Quite likely the search for the soup was both a metaphor and a more literal desire at the same time. In the literal sense, a true full meal, to me, should include a starter such as a small soup, a main course, with meat or fish, and a dessert course, such as a sweet pudding of some kind and the meal we would be having the day of the dream would be missing this starter course. In the less literal sense, this food-related dream-plot goes back to old roots and to what I was used to having at meal times for a large part of my early life, so it seems somewhat nostalgic in a sense. I could extrapolate more meaning from this but these are the two most immediately relevant meanings to me.

- The more carnal aspects about relationships on this dream maybe just came about as a coincidence with the food plot, since food and sex are supposedly pretty close in the brain, that's what makes sense in my mind anyway. But the two girls were also distinct in some way that I can't remember anymore (one may have been more open and the other more reserved and other such dualities?), so in the more metaphorical sense they are probably just relating directly to some aspects of myself, not to mention that at the time I was working on developing two characters that had a similar nature of duality between them.

Well, some very exciting dreams. I fell asleep for an hour an a half on saturday night and had an unexpected long lucid.

Dream 1

I had a dream that victoria from work became my girlfriend. We went on a road trip to b.c. or something, and she kept demanding that I buy her pop constantly. After a few I began to refuse and told her she had plenty of money of her own to buy things with. She got really mean and bitchy after that.

Dream 2

A dream about jamie. She was hanging out with me for a while and then went away. I checked my phone a lot because we were talking on my phone earlier in the dream. All message history was erased. I looked everywhere for her in the dream but couldn't find her.

Dream 3

I was in a room sleeping with 2 girls in their early 20's. Very good dream But I won't go into the details.

dream 4

work related dream about a manager complaining about my work when it was really busy. I told him if he didn't stop and actually help I was just going to leave the shift, quit, and never come back. I actually feel like that during every shift. Once my savings reaches a new goal ina few months I will quit and/or move. Can't wait.

Dream 5

This entire dream seemed to be lucid. I remember someone driving in a busy city like red deer or calgary. I was dropped off at a mall late at night. I wandered the mall for sometime when I became lucid. I wanted to leave the mall. Every time i headed for the exit I wound up in a basement or something that was under construction. I asked one of the construction workers how to leave the mall. He walked with me for a bit and i went in the direction he suggested and just came to a dead end.

I turned back and tried a different way but ran into the construction part a again. I asked the same guy again and told him to take me out to the parking lot.
This time he turned deeper into the construction part. There were stair wells with no stairs and just random construction scaffolds and other equipment. We did dream like parkour down that area. He eventually led me to a dark area.

I felt like I was going to lose the dream because everything was black. I held onto walls and door handles in the dream to ground my sense in the dream as I walked. eventually I was what appeared to be outside because there was houses around. The dream kept blacking out and I kept stabilizing it. After several tries i wandered into a strange room with some children in it. There was a children's song playing and they were playing a game on the ground, which was black glossy and constantly moving. It was like a treadmill and the walls were of the same making. I felt out of place an wanted to leave. I found a slide area that seemed to be the exit. I followed a bunch of kids down the slide and wound up outside.

I was outside in a residential area. The dream was blacking out again and I held onto the ground to keep within the dream. I shouted Jamie's full name aloud so see if I could find her. As if on cue A house with a porch rendered in front of me. There was a woman standing on the porch with a bright lamp on her. She didn't look like Jamie and I was unsure if it was her. She greeted me like Jamie would and her voice was familiar.

The dream transitioned to inside. If we went through a door and into her basement I was not aware of the passage. There was a sensation of physical contact like a hug with her this entire sequence. It felt good and loving. She kept saying she wants to contact me but she still has a personality disorder. but the way she worded it sounded like she actually had a split personality. I said, "I know sometimes you're like dealing with two people, one that adores me and one that couldn't care if I existed or not. BPD can be like that but to me you're still a complete person" in other words. I don't care what her problems are, I just want to hear from her and know that she's okay, or even if she's not okay i want to know that too. for a few seconds she morphed into a small dog and I was scratching her belly. She went back to human and said, "And then a few weeks ago i was doing drugs." To that I said, "Well I know you expect me to not put myself at risk with certain things. And I've been getting better." to that she said nothing. there's still the sensation I am holding her and she is holding me.

She grabs a handheld game device and says something about my brother lending her a game. (wether she actually talks to my brother or not, neither she nor my brother has mentioned it.) It's like a PSP or something. I lean on her a bit while she plays. the dream gets a watery sensation like it's going to end. I tell her, "I want you to put the game away I want to keep talking to you before the dream ends." She says nothing and continues her game. the dream ends.






Dream 5

A dream my brother moved into place with cheap rent. It was an interesting place with 2 rooms and a bunch of hidden rooms in the basement. When I asked what my portion of the rent would be he said,"$1400." uh... Hell no I don't live in Vancouver,

Dream 6


something about Jesus but I forget.

Note: at least two other people in DV had dreams about being in a basement under construction this weekend.

[27.09.2020]

Survival with Lucifer Morningstar
I am outside, and it's like a very realistic survival game that has mechanics like Rust, and you play it like real life. At some point it seems to be real life. We're outside, and there's cars and otherwise normal civilization but we, a group of me, Lucifer Morningstar from the series Lucifer and somebody else who might be my friend Steven. We go to a sort of tree house and start discussing in a heated argument what we need to survive.

[28.09.2020]

Entitled woman
I am in a sort of special room with a roommate which is a chubby woman who feels entitled for some reason and with my mother. It might be a sort of asylum, or maybe even a sort of bunker or something. She complains constantly what kind of TV program I watch. At some point we seem to get along well, and my mother comments on that but I make a remark that suggests it's not going to be for long.

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That was weird.

Got hyped to try WILDing again and started to read Sageou's guide again. Drank some extra water before I went to bed so I could try it in the night.

I'm playing a game with Olle where you get attacked and buy plants in order to defend that I have never seen or played before.

Notes: I played a game where you place rose bushes in order to hurt enemies some days ago.

I'm at a big football field. We are playing football but the ball is smaller than usual. I am the goalkeeper and feel out of place. The other team keeps shooting balls at me and I am incapable of grabbing the ball. I try to jump to the left in order to save a ball but my jump is really short so I fail. I feel that my team is starring at me and know that I should have been able to save that shot. There is a free kick and I am to kick. When I look at my feet I notice my shoes. I have my working shoes that are really big and is not fit to make precise shots with. I run and kick the ball. The ball flies to the left but my team manages to take the ball back. I run for the ball but someone from the enemy team grabs my shirt and pulls me back.

Notes: I heard someone speak about football yesterday. Life is tough now and I have some problems at home. I feel like I am the goalkeeper who can't handle his position.

I wake up and have to go to the bathroom 06.05. I stay awake for five minutes, write in my tag book, and then go to bed. I think about how I want to eat a cake in my dream. I lay still and feel my body disappear. I fall asleep.

Mom walks in my room with a half onion while I lie in my bed. She is trying to charge the onion with a phone charger. I realize it's a dream but it fades as I do so. I wake up in my bed and do my RC and realize it's a dream. I walk up to the door and my eyes are clogged and it's hard to open them up. I walk outside and feel my face with my hands. I don't have much sensations and it's mostly dull. I undress in order to become more lucid and walk naked in town. I try to remember what I wanted to do and it's really hard and frustrating in the beginning. I remember that I wanted to eat a cake and walk past my school in order to find a cake. The dream fades.

25th September 2020

Scraps:

School. Construction, building or making something.
26th September 2020

In-line note; finally had a chance to make some proper DJ notes again.

7:30 (recall from last parts to first) Dream:

In a town with H. We were selling this prankster "frat bro" guy some metal keg, full of something, for a prank of his. We'd brought the keg to him on top of the van. H disappeared and left a shoe, one of his red and white ones. I assumed H had gone for a wee.

Then something changed. H was back and we saw the other guy off. Now we had a lorry with a weird trailer thing, just like a really long wooden-looking beam, with axles and wheels.

Earlier; Vision of the prankster guy and a group of people his age in a parliament building of some kind.

Then, in a street in a city, I see one of his posse. A fake blonde, a white girl. They were all in their early 20s. She tries to use an ATM and doesn't understand how to work it at all, looking a bit like an animal trying to understand the contraption. Something about her only having 23 or so in her account?

Earlier; In a school. Passing thoughts about old friends. I'm my current age, I roam through a very busy underground/maintenance area where all the other students of this school are passing through. I feel as though I am so different from when I was a kid. I walk through the crowded area with some type of confidence, not letting any anxieties or worries stop me or bother me. I spent a moment wondering how I could have ever let myself feel so anxious at school. Then I have some passing thoughts about how many of these kids will be struggling with some or many of the same issues I had and with no guidance either, which I also didn't really have for many aspects of that stage of my life.

Earlier; Talking to someone. Old friend or similar? The same underground place but not as busy. The other person has a Pepsi and gets it open? Has issues and the cap of the bottle gets deformed; I put it back on for him when he starts to struggle with it.

(more recall but faded)

9:00 Fragment:

Remember being in a building. I'd been there earlier in the dream. Now me and C from school were here to find out something about some guy? It was the guy's birthday? Or maybe we were going to prank him and so we needed to know more; maybe a combination.

I remember I couldn't be seen by anyone else at some point. I put on the one ring. I was effectively invisible but I could still see myself. I think someone specific could still see me. I remember an interface with something about this universe's rules on the top left, but I didn't look in it.

27th September 2020

Had recall but let it fade, didn't care enough to make notes because I felt too tired.

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Notes:

- The moment of deep introspection through thought was somewhat unusual for a dream, especially with how specific it was. Oddly enough it's something that happens frequently enough in waking life but not much at all in dreams for me.

I'm in a big hall with my family. I see an audience and Martin (Kajsa's Martin) holds a guitar and is playing. He suddenly takes the guitar in one of his hands and stretches it out. While he stands there holding in his guitar, he is simultaneously playing with the fingers of that hand. It looks amazing and I am astounded. He is playing some kind of Cmaj7 chord by the look of his hand (Barre at the third fret) but it sounds like a regular C chord. I take another guitar and tries to do the same thing. It looks like a six-string guitar but it feels like a twelve-string guitar when I hit the strings.

Notes: I heard Martin would see us yesterday.

I've been drinking alcohol and am intoxicated. Dad is drinking alcohol and is laying in a bed. Me and mom is complaining at him but he is just dodging us. Mom asks him why he would have kids if he would turn up like this.

Notes: Me and dad is not drinking alcohol at all. I saw my friends drinking yesterday. Maybe that was why.