Hopeless Wanderings

So, it's been awhile since I posted a dream, and it's been even longer since I posted a dream that didn't involve death or something disturbing. So I thought I'd post what I remember from last night.

Me and some guy got washed up on a deserted island in the middle of nowhere. For some reason, we had a tent and some supplies with us. I knew we were going to be stuck there for awhile so I started setting things up. It seemed like somewhat of a small island so I didn't think there was anyone else on it. We started exploring and came across some weird things, like a clothing shop(with no one in it). I just thought, "oh that's awesome, now I'll have a bunch of clothes to wear." I still wasn't thinking there were other people here. We came across a lake that was down this hill. I sort of stumbled into the water and that's when I saw other people. A man, a woman, and a little girl. I knew immediately that these weren't good people, and that we needed to hide from them. I was in the water with the guy who was with me, and the strangers were in a boat coming our way. The only thing we could do was hide underwater. So I held my breath and went under. I ran out of breath so I breathed, and realized I could breathe underwater. I heard the little girl talking about wanting to jump off a platform into the water for fun. She did that, and that's when she found us and then we were in trouble. We tried to get away but I think they captured us.

The only thing I remember from this dream was arriving at an airport in New York City. We got off the plane outside(instead of inside in airport) and immediately I looked into the distance and saw the remnants of a world trade center. It was still there(well, half of it), all these years later, and it was still smoking. It was like people left it there as a reminder and never cleaned it up(and it never fully collapsed). I just remember looking at it and saying, "oh my god. oh my god. look at that. look at what has happened here."

I got the results of my recent blood test, and a tumor was detected. The doctor told me that it was cancerous, and that there was nothing they could do. There were two doctors in the room with me and my mom. The female said I had no time left, that I was going to die right away. The male doctor said he thought I had three days. Three days. After the appointment, me and my mom broke down and started crying. I couldn't stop. I spent the three days with family and friends and then just let go. Then, I was observing the aftermath of my death. People were crying. I tried to log onto facebook to see if people were posting about me, but I couldn't get on. I started dancing gracefully, as a ghost wandering my hometown. I thought, is this how I want to spend eternity? Wandering around the place I used to call home, observing the people and places? I awoke with this song(Hometown Glory - Adele) in my head...

"I've been walking in the same way as I did
Missing out the cracks in the pavement
And turning my heel and strutting my feet
'Is there anything I can do for you dear?
Is there anyone I could call?'
'No and thank you, please Madam.
I ain't lost, just wandering'
Round my hometown
Memories are fresh
Round my hometown
Ooh the people I've met
Are the wonders of my world"

I had the most depressing dream ever last night and I just have to record it.

My sister committed suicide. I was torn up. I couldn't stop crying. I was SO devastated. My parents were devastated to but they didn't seem as upset as me. I was just.. I don't know how to describe it. The feeling was AWFUL. Crying, crying, and more crying. I woke up still feeling the sadness.

It felt SO real that when I woke up I still felt like something was wrong, so I got in touch with her(she seemed ok). This dream made me realize that I don't know what I'd do if she died, I'd just be torn to pieces.

this is the coolest dream I've had in a long time.

Me and my dad were going to go to space. This part I don't really remember, but somehow we got on this machine that took us there. We were exposed in space and not wearing space suits but we were fine. We get to this clump of different machines in the middle of nowhere, and you had to press the button of what planet you wanted to go to. My dad pressed out destination planet and then we were there. It was a small planet, but beautiful. I went back to the button thing and wanted to explore more of space bu I didn't want to get lost so I went back. My mom, sister, and grandpa then showed up. NASA had built a house for us, it was a log cabin. I kept joking around saying things like, "where's the tv" and "my phone doesn't get any signal". The cabin was by a very small lake, or maybe it could be considered a pond. Once the sun went down, I realized that it would be back again in like 10 minutes since the planet was so small. It was basically just the cabin, the lake, and rock. But damn it was beautiful. My mom had all our meals prepared and she handed me an Arby's sandwich. I just stared at it for a bit, remembering my last experience at Arby's with a chicken sandwhich that wasn't cooked all the way through, but I just took it and told her I'd eat it later. At one point grandpa wandered off and we were worried but we found him.

We then decided to explore another planet. We arrive in a forest-like setting next to a river and then we see people. They start to chase us down and have us all tied up ready to kill us. We try speaking to them but they don't speak our language. For some reason, I go, "Hablas Espanol?" and one of them goes, "si!" and this was a huge surprise. Now, my Spanish consists of 4 years of high school spanish, and that was 4 years ago. "Solo hablo un poco Espanol" I tell them. The man guy talks to me for awhile, trying to figure out who we are. It takes awhile but they start to understand us and become friendly. At one point I say, "Soy de el planeto Earth. Las personas son..." and then try to fish around for the spanish word for "ignorant", trying to tell them that some people on our planet our ignorant and still believe the Earth is flat. I ask which planet they are from and they tell me but I forget. Eventually they let us go and we get into our boat, ready to head back to our small planet. The end.

Yeah it was kinda weird that the "aliens" spoke Spanish but whatever. The imagery in this dream was unreal. I wish I could visit distant planets. Maybe someday..

D1: I was at my house and was going to have some people over. I acquired some acid and was planning to get high with them and have a party. My parents? or someone told me to keep the house clean, otherwise I'd be in big trouble. So I took the acid, and next thing I know, the house is a complete mess and I remember nothing. So I quickly clean it up. At one point the cops come looking for me so I go to my ultimate hiding place, under the water bed(this was at old house) and hide under there underneath a blanket, but I think they still managed to find me because they tore the house apart looking for me.

D2: I don't know if I was asked this question or if I myself asked it, but the question was, "If you could go back to one day in your life, what would it be?" And I just wanted to go back to a happy childhood day, so I picked the day I had my birthday party at the roller rink. Next thing I know, I'm like 10? years old and I'm in my room getting ready for the big day. For some reason I'm hanging up pictures of Santa Claus. I never made it to the roller rink, darn it.

D3: I was back in high school. I was quite enjoying it, but I was in the main lobby doing something, like baking muffins or something random, and I started to get super dizzy. I went to the health room and there was a guy before me who asked to go outside and they let him go. When I asked, the nurse said, "I'll schedule an appointment with your primary care doctor" and I said, "No, I need to get outside right now!" and she just kept saying, "I'm sorry but you'll have to make an apt with your doctor" and I said "I've already seen my doctor!" "You have?" she said. "Yes! I have a condition called Vestibular Migraine and it makes me dizzy and I need to get outside right now because I feel as though I'm going to pass out." At this point I was crying. I think she finally let me out.

Seems I can't even escape getting dizzy in my dream life.

D4: Then, I woke up but then was in "half sleep" and I was back in my high school just enjoying seeing it again, walking down the hallways. There were 4 locker hallways and some of them had string lights on them, it was kinda pretty. I remember trying to find my 2015-16 planner that I lost. Also, I remember walking by a classroom and hearing a teacher shout, "Laura!", as if she wanted to say hi and introduce me as a former student, and I didn't want to be seen so a ran away and hid in one of the hallways.

D1: I was at a train station in the middle of the woods with some people. A murder happened and me and the people I was with were responsible. We somehow compacted the body into a small size and threw it in a small trashcan in the bathroom. We were scared that our DNA was all over the trash can and the body, but lots of other people using the bathroom also used the trash can so their DNA was added to it. The whole dream was spent trying to cover up this murder/not get caught. The dream started to repeat itself. At one point in this dream, we somehow compacted the body into small cubes and I shoved them in my mouth to hide it. I woke up gagging.

D2: I was at my boss's house and he was showing me his dogs, as I was going to pet-sit for him while he was away. He showed me into the basement where he would play with them. There were 3 medium-sized dogs. His neighbor's house was connected so when he saw us he came to say hi. His neighbor was an older man, maybe 60 ish with graying hair. We were in the basement and I was standing next to this neighbor and my hand accidentally grazed his thigh. "Did you do that on purpose," he asked, flirty. "No!" I replied. "Yes you diiiiid" he said, creepily. Then he started touching me inappropriately. A girl next to me saw and started telling him to stop. We went up stairs and I started freaking out because I knew I would have to come to this house several more times to look after the dogs. I started to have a panic attack.

I was in the mall with my mom and all the stores were having huge after-holiday sales. I was in the mall for what seemed like hours, going to different stores, and I noticed I wasn't getting dizzy. I went to Vic Secret and almost everything was sold out. I kept going through the undies to see if there was any I wanted. It seemed like there would be almost none left, and then more would appear. I saw nice sweaters on sale for 7$, now that was a steal. So I got one of those and got in line.

Then I woke up and was sad I didn't really get a nice sweater. This happens frequently, where I go shopping or somehow acquire clothes and I'm so happy but then wake up and realize I have nothing lol. Maybe my dreams are telling me I need a new wardrobe.

short entry, don't remember much.

My brother, who appears to be a slim guy around 18 years old with dirty blond hair, is trying to kill himself, and I keep crying and crying and trying to stop him. My dad is there too and I think we're both trying to get to him but we can't reach him. It's a very emotional dream. I don't know if he ends up going through with it.

Did I mention that I DON'T EVEN HAVE A BROTHER(not even a half-brother)?
but it felt SO real. weird.
Now I'm convinced I have a secret brother out there somewhere.. which could definitely be true as my dad was a... donor. yeah. ok. im done now.

It's Brittany's birthday and I'm trying to get her some presents. I ended up getting her a 20$ Target gift card and blond hair dye & toner because she wanted to dye her hair blond.

I'm at my house on a dark and snowy night. I hear a roar and look outside and to my surprise, there's a lion perched on a low-hanging tree branch in the backyard. It roars some more and I think, how can this be possible? A lion in these parts? It must be a dream. I look down at my hands. Everything is fuzzy and hard to see. I spin to try to stabilize, then start calling her name. "Where are you, ___? Then, people appear before me and at first I think one of them is her, but it's not. They are men and women dressed as characters from the bible but they are cartoons. I ask them, where is ___? "We haven't seen her in years," they reply. I was frustrated. Then, the dream zooms out across an ocean where a cartoon fish sticks its head up from under the water and says, talking to her, "You know, ___, you have to learn to swim before you learn to fly"(or something like that). Then I lose it and wake up.

So... like the millionth summoning fail. Unless you count the bible cartoon characters I summoned, or maybe they just appeared, I don't know.

Lately 90% of my dreams have been super emotional, like about suicide or murder or just... emotional things.

Not sure if these dreams connect but first I was pet-sitting dogs with my mom and then I was a little girl(not myself) and fed up with life, or something. I don't quite remember what led me to this, if it was the shitty pet-sitting or what, but I went to a cliffside and decided to jump off into the water. I woke up in the hospital and realized my body was half metal. The doctor had saved me, but with a cost. My mom(not my real mom, the little girl's mom) was with me. My body felt foreign and weird and it was hard to control it. Months, years went by as I remained trapped in the hospital.

One time, I had to use the bathroom. This is gonna sound gross, but when I tried to go it was like.. it sprayed everywhere because I couldn't control my new body. Yeah. Anyway, when I left the bathroom stall I saw Ashley from Revenge and some fine-looking man. I realized I was dreaming. I wanted to attempt a TOTM but I couldn't think of what it was, I only remembered the one from last month, which was to ask for a joke, which I didn't do. Ash started talking dirty to me and then I ended up with the guy.. yeah.

So then I have a flashback to when I jumped off the cliff, but this time I notice that my doctor is there, and he's the one that convinced me to jump. So I realized it was his fault all along that I ended up half-cyborg. He wanted to experiment on me so he made me do this. I was pissed. Also, during this scene, I was an observer, and I saw myself try to jump off the cliff and a boy(maybe 14 years old) try to stop me from jumping and it made me smile.

Then, I was back in the hospital with my mom and she was annoying me. I shouted at her, "It's almost my eighteenth birthday(wow I was in there for a long time)! Go away!" implying that once I turned 18 I would have nothing to do with her.

I went to the top of the World Trade Center, I think it was one of the old ones, and it was over 700 floors to the top. I stood at the edge and was ready to jump off when security came. I ran and somehow got away from them. I hopped on the elevator and took it to a random floor(176). I noticed there were security cameras in the elevators so they would know what floor I was going to. When I got off, I climbed some stairs and then tried to find a place to hide. This went on for awhile. Eventually, I went to the first floor. You had to walk through security in order to leave the building. I walked through the metal detector but the pocket knife in my purse set it off and security found me. I somehow escaped and went to hide again. It was a long dream of riding elevators and hiding from police. At one point, I met a woman(I was now a man) and she stayed with me for months as we hid together. I got her pregnant. Some time, the police were right behind us so I said, "follow me!" and ran up a few stairs and through a door that had small walkways with a huge drop on either side. We hid there but a policewoman spotted my.. uh.. girlfriend and she finally left. I was all alone. I think at one point I might have actually jumped off the building but ended up back in it.

I was shown the venue at a Blue October concert, and then I was somehow there. About 1/3 of the seats were still empty, so Justin told everyone to move up closer to the stage to fill the seats. I was in the front section a few rows back. The band was singing and I had no idea how many songs they'd arleady sung because I had just gotten there but I hoped the concert just started. I tried to sing along with the songs but for some reason I didn't know them too well. I hoped he would sing a song I love. Then, the band took a break and Justin put a preview for a movie on the screen(like maybe he was being paid to show a movie preview?) and I stopped paying attention because Anthony showed up. He had gained a lot of weight. He asked me to give him directions home because his GPS would only give him freeway directions and he didn't want to take the freeway home. I noticed that the theater was right next to the Ice Skating Arena so I figured I could give him directions from there, so I took his phone and looked at the map but I couldn't figure it out. I was annoyed at him for asking during this awesome concert. I got the song "My Never" stuck in my head and was anticipating it to come on next. The movie preview ended and the band was going to come back on but, what do you know, I get a text from Anthony that wakes me up.

Just had to write this one down even though I don't remember most of it. It was one of those dreams I just loved, I don't know why, but it was just emotional and... fun? I don't know, but I really enjoyed it for some reason.

I was at the library. There was a guy there who did something bad, I don't remember what, but I shot him and killed him. I didn't get convicted of his murder so everyone hated me for it because they knew I was guilty, but I knew I had killed a bad man so I didn't care. After that, when I entered the library people would alienate me and give me angry looks. Everyone hated me. I was told that I was not allowed in the New Materials section for some reason, but I needed go to that section because I wanted to find a book that was written about me and the murder I committed. I could have told someone to find the book for me but I didn't want anyone to know what book I wanted, so I just wandered the library quietly.

So that's it. Again, I don't know why but I really enjoyed this dream. It's really hard to get the feel of a dream down in writing. It's like I enjoyed the fact that people couldn't stand me... weird.

Probably inspired by the recent terrorist attacks and the fact that my friend told me people can call your phone and hack it if you answer a certain number.

There was a terrorist after me who wanted to kill me. I was in someone's house, maybe my house but different. I was trying to hide. My phone rang, a 715 number. I answer, and my phone goes weird, and I realize it's been hacked. I start freaking out because I know this means the terrorist can track my location now. I tell my parents to call 911 or do something
but they just kinda stand there. I'm terrified. I try to sneak out of the house without my phone in hope that the terrorist won't see/follow me.(I would remember more of this dream if I wrote it down right after waking..)

I'm not gonna say this was a nightmare but it was one of those dreams you wake up from and wait awhile before you allow yourself to fall back asleep to prevent entering the previous dream again.

I skipped a few days writing down my dreams because I haven’t been sleeping very well but I’m up north now and sleeping like a rock.

-Harry Potter dream where I’m trying to defeat the Dark Lord

D1: I was at some train tracks with 3 other people who I didn’t know but had met in the dream. I was watching them cross the train tracks and trains were coming from both sides(there were two sets of tracks). I yelled for them to hurry up but they were taking their sweet time. They made it across, but I noticed this man, maybe in his late 60’s, sitting on the tracks. I didn’t know if he was there on purpose or if he was going to move at the last second, so I just watched. The train hit him.

Now I was at my house, it was a flashback to before the man had died. I had a “feeling” that he was in danger, kinda like Allison Dubois from tv show Medium. I called his number, which was only two numbers, 75. My dad tried to stop me because he didn’t want me to bother him, but I had to call. He answered. “Hello” he mumbled, sounding very depressed. “I uh.. just wanted to know if you’re okay. It’s perfectly fine if you’re not okay, and I have a strong feeling you’re not.” He says nothing and hangs up.

D2: I was in a waterpark and this girl was telling about her experience drowning. I was transported to a very, very large pool with a huge drop off from the edge of the pool to the water, and very deep water(maybe 100-200 feet). I was terrified. Some time during this dream I was drowning and it felt like I couldn't breathe. I was thinking about how I have a phobia of deep pools and was wondering if there was a word for the phobia, but I realized I was dreaming. The dream wasn’t very stable so I rubbed my hands together and then I yelled “CLARITY” and it kinda felt like I yelled that in RL too. I knew I would lose the dream soon so I decided to jump off the edge because I wasn’t scared anymore. It was a very peaceful, relaxing feeling and then I woke up in a FA and tried to write down my dream.