A World In My Head!!

February 2, 2012

I should go to bed

Synopsis: I witness a strange tribal rite of passage that left a child unloved by her parents. Lucid, I jump into a golden swamp with swimming deer and trash.

Tribal Rites and Swamp Swimming Deers
Inside a hotel room, me and a reporter get a first look at an ancient tribal rite of passage from Africa. A young female teenager, naked, sits supported on top of a boys back. She slowly dances using only her upper torso while the boy crawls around with his head tucked into his chest. It was a wierd visual effect, making it look like she had six legs. The dim lights helped with the eerieness.

The dance is over and now the rest of the female teenagers line up to have their bodies inspected by an elder in the tribe. To do so, they strip off their bathing suits. I was talking to the reporter and we both agreed that technically none of the girls were afraid to be naked because this was a nudist tribe, they were only wearing bathing suits because we were in a hotel.

A mother is so proud of her daughter, its like the kids just graduated. Just when I thought the ritual was over I noticed two girls quickly squat down on command, in front of the elder. They were completed folded over, with their foreheads to their knees and their hands tucked in.

But somethings wrong, their backs are completely flat, and so is the back of their heads. Its like something squashed them. They were squished into table shaped people. What could do this? Then I realized their backs were being used as the ground for the ritual, and after so many years, their backs flattened. The elder rearranges them like boxes and yells at one of the girls to stand up.

The reporter was recording the entire event.

The box-girl wanted to perform the rite of passage herself. But before she can even try she's insulted by her own parents for being too fat and ugly. She frowns and chokes back her tears. At this point the reporter says 'Im sorry, I have to stop, her expression is too sour" and walks out the room. The parents insult the girls hideousness some more, then summons everyone to dinner.

I was horrified and pissed off! Magically at this point the family went from black to white.

The family was eating dinner in a private restuarant they rented out. I remember the father screaming at the hungry reporter "Family only!" I had something to say to that man that could make him choke.

"What are you standing there for, youre family too, come on eat J"

I didn't say anything and just left myself. I waited for what felt like hours for the family to finish their over priced meal. I snuck in, into the hotel room of the sleeping girls. I found the "ugly" girl, her hair was curly like mine but softer and lighter in color (like mom). She had a frown even while dreaming. I whispered softly to her

"Not matter what your parents say or think, you will grow up to be the most beautiful"

Then her frown changed into a smile and she continued to dream sweetly. I felt like my dream mission was done, which made me realize - hey Im dreaming.

Excited to be lucid I run around looking for something to do. A whole laundry lists of dream tasks pops into mind. Maybe I should do that, maybe this. I found a library. Maybe that can offer me intriguing informationn about the subconscious, nah that sounds like it'll take forever. So I continue running. Then I find an air hockey table. But playing made my dream abstract. Afraid it'll make my dream unstable, I stopped playing and looked for something more useful.

Thats when I finally find a door out of the hotel.

Outside was a swampy marshland, with golden grass growing in the water, and golden water shimmering with the morning sun.

"THAT!" I was so excited I couldn't even finish my sentance, but I found what my lucid dream was about.

I noticed deer were swimming in the swamp, with only their heads above the water. So its deeper than it looks. I dive on in! The water feels so real it makes me think for a moment that maybe ive lost my mind and im really awake. Its cold. Its slimy. It smells like a swamp smells, and theres a dead frog floating next to me.

Im grossed out but I remind myself its just a dream and im not going to get any diseases. I swim with the swamp deer for a few minutes. The waves grow and grow. The height of the waves covered my view, hiding the human boats on the other side creating them. We were almost run over. Its so hard to swim fast! Giant boxes and random items float our way atop the waves. It felt like the humans were trying to corner the deer. It was working. Scared, the deer swim away to the other end of the swamp where the water was shallow. Theres a fence and more boxes preventing them from fleeing.

I look at the humans on their boats and im pretty mad at them for ruining my swamp. Then I wake up.

February 1, 2012

Zebra Pegasus and Other Pets
My sis was feeding the stray cats by the porch. Except one of them wasn't a cat, it was a baby winged zebra the size of a cat. How cute! I wanted to take a closer look. At first I thought its wings was just an illusion made of clumps of fur. But no, they were functional feathered wings.

I couldn't believe I was staring at a winged baby zebra, sitting on my porch like any other cat. I was shocked that no one claimed this oddity for them, he looks like he's worth a million. I find a half eaten plum in the fridge and give it to my striped friend.

Later, in a box I find a forgotten pet rat. He was as friendly as a rat could be. I dunno why, but I thought that I should bathe him. He was well behaved, sitting on my palm as I shampoo him. But when it came time for a rinse he got agitated and tried to bite me.

Thats when I notice a man in my kitchen and I instnatly accepted him as an aspect of my subconscious. He tells me something but I don't remember it. I ask him about my health and the most I could understand was eat more fruit.

January 27, 2012

Synopsis: Lightly lucid, I help the dream characters learn to fly. Later, I witness birth life and death in a single horrifying moment.

Lucidity and Total Life in a Moment
I was at school, in a large open format classroom. There isnt a class in session but there's lots of students hanging around. After what felt like a long time, I get the idea that I can fly. I look down at my feet and imagine myself getting lighter, light enough to float. It takes a moment but gravity gives way and I'm airborne!

Excited I start to dance in the air and fly over the classmates. Some of the students started to fly to. "Its a dream! You can fly!"

My friend was having trouble, she told me "Its been so long since I've flown in a dream I dont remember how. I feel stuck to the floor"

So I stand next to her and show her slowly, one foot at a time off the ground. After everyone gets their taste of flight inside school, the professor walks in and starts a different class. So we head to the backroom to continue our lucid exploration.

"Lets try walking on water"

The back room was dark, dank, dirty, old and it had a huge sink. So we filled a bucket with water. "Okay, you first". The water was oily and slimy.

"Hell no" I said "I dont care if its a dream, im not touching that dirty water". So we dump it and try to clean the bucket real quick. But nothing we did worked. The water was still dirty and greasy.

"Lets try walking on water another time, at this rate I'll wake up"

I also remember talking to the other students while in that room and I remember saying "We spoke about dreams for hours" which I don't remember "And after flying, all in all it feels like ive been dreaming for five hours"

We left the back room, I felt I could wake up any time now. I went back into the main classroom which was now empty except for a small group of students.

The next moment was so vivid and horrifying, I forgot half of the dream.

A group of students sat around a creature, moaning in agony. His mother was in tears. They held his hand, caressed his head and remained in sympathetic silence.

He had white fur and blue eyes. He bellowed in pain as he swelled up and mutated and grew some more. I realized he was born just an instant ago.

"Whats going on? Rapid development?"

His mother continued to cry as he continued to grow, mutate and age. He cries out "why, why". His eyes were deep. There was anger, as life was stolen from him in an instant and he begins to die, fear as he dies, and gratitude that he lived at all.

As one creature died another was rapidly born from the mutated mass. But I didn't want to witness what I just witnessed again. I altered the dream and now these rapid development creatures were just mutants, but their life cycles were stabilized. Still they looked in the mirror and asked why.

I woke up soon after, but that single moment of birth life and death stayed with me the whole day.

January 18, 2012

Synopsis: I ride a tree, become lucid, talk to DCs and meet Tracy who told me how to get to my forest

Make the Water Still
In a giant backyard some bad guy mocks me, my sisters and my friend, some guy I don't even know. The bad guy makes my friend climb a tree, and asks me to do the same. I don't mind! Not sure how this is punishment, but I wanted to climb the highest tree.

So I fly up to the highest tree and sit on its branch and look down on every one below. My friend tries to sit next to me but he just falls off as the tree starts to sway back and forth. Some people below thought it was funny, so they pulled and tugged on my tall tree. But nothing made me move from my tree post.

I get this idea "im out of here!". And me and my tree ride away. Its covered in fur and its branches reach the ground and become fuzzy feet. Its like a giant cat tree. Through the fields, down an old england ally, and into a mansion. I noticed my cat tree at some point had no legs - I was floating. The cat tree gets smaller and smaller until finally im just holding onto kitty. I give her a kiss and put her down in the fancy bedroom. I guess Im on my own now.

I run outside and scream "im lucid dreaming!". I was just so happy to be lucid dreaming again. I'm in a courtyard and there's a lot of DCs. Im surprised because lately when Im lucid DCs disappear. I wanna know what DCs know, so I pop the question

"Hey, did you know that this is a dream?" "Hey did you know that this is a dream?"

Some of them look at me strange, some are happy with the news. An older black man with a luisiana accent says "You're right. Look at the details. Everything is so clear."

He seemed aware, the other DCs gather around him to understand what he means. So I asked him "Are you an expression of my higherself?"

"No! You are"

At the time I thought he was saying that he was the dreamer and Im the DC.

I go back inside and run around the mall, and watch a sex-ed video that was kinda gross because it featured a woman with tiny crabs, literally living inside of her. I run past a room owned by an older women, and the room was called Ayurveda. It was all the way in the back of the mall in a lonely dark corrider. The corrider looked boring so I didnt go inside - I THINK I MISSED AN AWESOME OPPORTUNITY HERE.

I leap back outside instead, skipping my way across a grassy field into a forest - yeah this is more exciting. But the forest was actually kinda creepy. Everything was eating everything else. Snakes attacking, animals growling and howling. I met a DC there. She seemed aware.

She told me that this wasn't the forest I'm trying to get to. My forest is peaceful, animals don't eat other animals in my forest and she reminded me of this. She told me its possible for me to go there now.

"How can I get to my forest?"

She takes me to the bank of the river and instructed me "Make the water still". The water was filled with rippling waves, so all I have to do is - make it still.

"Oh I see, you want me to meditate? Ive never done that in a dream before"

We sat down together by the rivers bank, and I did my first dream open eye meditation. I was nervous doing "nothing" would make my dream melt away. But it remained stable. I noticed the incredible details. But there was also a fuzzyness, like my side vision was fuzzy so I can only focus on whats in front of me. The water was like silver. And not too far from the forests edge was suburbia. I sat there trying to still the water for what felt like minutes - who knows it could have been ten seconds.

But nothing I did stilled the water.

So we left the forest and she led me back inside, I guess to see something. As we walked through the mall I tried to memorize every detail of her being. Her short bob hair with strawberry brown stripes, her petite height. We went into a bedroom and I think shes pulling a box out - cant remember.

I ask out of the blue "Is it true when people die they end up in a dream?" I guess she reminded me of a spirit I saw years ago.

She looked taken back and sad by my question. "Sort of, but not exactly."

"What's your name?"

"Its Tracy"

She starts to tell me something, but then I felt a "switch", I knew I had woken up and left the dream, and instead was only imagining I was still dreaming - if that makes any sense. Tracy was still trying to tell me something, but now it makes no sense, her appearance becomes unstable.

"I cant (hear you), I'm waking up! Im waking up!"

Her face, her hair, it keeps changing, but I dont want to forget.

"Wait tell me your name again!"

"Tracy"

I wake up. But it turned out to be a false awakening - hypnagogic imagery. Then I woke up for real.

January 2012

Synopsis: Two tornado dreams, and a vampire I kill

Note: watched too many episodes of storm chasers

Storm Chase Me
Im on a country winding road. At first Im on a bus with a group of friends, until the twister shows up behind us and now were in a pick up on the run. The twister follows us, surrounds us. The two in the back were supposed to be keeping track of its movement, but when I looked behind me they had fallen asleep.

Who falls asleep while running away from a twister?

The driver is screaming at me, he can't see where the tornado is. I'm looking at the gps on the phone, but instead of showing me the tornado, theres a spider symbol on the screen. Whats up with this spider? Its, its saying its right in front of me. I look up at the drivers head, theres on a spider on it.

"stay still theres a spider on your head!"

I try to flick it off and as I do I feel something bite my left shoulder, waking me up. I fall back asleep and continue to dream of tornados.

This time I'm outside my apartment, but the neighborhood is completely wrong. Im talking to mom on the cell about my tornado dream, but then I see something on the main road. Its whispy and transparent, but its a tornado.

I get off the phone and run to sis. I don't feel safe staying in this wimpy apartment, we've gotta move. Sis agrees so we get in the car and try to outrun the tornado growing every moment. But the tornado seems to follow us and leaves us on a mad chase all over the city. At one point we tried to hide in a closet - but it was the janitors closet in the mall and they shoo'd us away.

We made a giant circle around the city and finally decided to stay in our apartment. We dont actually make it to the apartment, we simply parked and took refuge in the car.

I waited for the tornado to come, instead it simply fades away.

Like the spider, a new enemy appeared, a female vampire. The city was dark, and she threatened to kill my sister. After some time I confront her, and told her to stop threatening my sister or I will kill her. But she continues to say shes going to kill my sister.

Upset, I grab a pair of scizzors, and I warn her again that the only whos going to die is her. She threatens my sister again. So I slash her eye hoping that if I blinded her she can't kill my sister.

She doesn't even feel any pain. She threatens to kill my sister still. So I chop off her head and her brain oozes out. She's an undead vampire, I've only weakened her. I put her head and oozy brain in a jar. What do I do with it?

Ive got to bury it far far away from her body so it cant unite. Not my closet, I dont want to think about her head being in there. Finally I find a pool of water and bury it under the mud. I woke up soon after. That was pretty gross.

January 5, 2012

Synopsis: we take refuge from a red raging tornado, lucid, escape military and imagine a new scene - a beach

Note: I woke up in the middle of the night and tried to recall the dream I just had. All I remember was that it had something to do with someone being healed. Their legs? Ayurveda? I realized now's a good time to try a lucid dream induction. I didn't, I just fell asleep instead. But its the thought that counts!

Red Tornado - Calm Beach
I'm walking with a group of friends in the industrial part of the city and were just having a good time. That was until I saw the red storm. "What is that? Do you see that?"

A massive thunderhead was sweeping down in a funnel shape just next to the lake under the highway overpass. The storm was glowing red. And as the funnel became a tornado it was like the red was a shaft of light in its center.

"We need to take cover!"

There was an abandoned warehouse like building nearby. But it was also right next to the path of the red tornado. As we ran inside I thought it was strange that the red tornado was stationary. It didn't seem to be moving and it was silent.

The inside of the building was weird. It was mostly empty, with dark concrete walls. Dark because of the lack of lightning, kind of like a parking garage.

"There's a basement level, that'll be the safest spot" said an older man who was now leading our group that grew into 20+ people.

We ran down the flight of stairs, which were really abstract. When we got down there I looked out the windows.

"Why are we on the third level? I thought we were going down?"

Its true, some how running down the stairs took us several floors up. We examined the staircase and determined it was missing a level or somehow that level was twisted the wrong way. We can see the ground level with the cars from way up here.

Back up we go, which takes us down. All is quiet now. There's only one light on in the "living room" of this vast empty basement. Without the company of friends, this place is creepy.

I don't remember why but I went down *back up* by myself - to get something or look for something. When I came back up to the basement everyone was gone. There was no way they could leave without me noticing, there's only one door and I crossed it going back up.

They vanished.

"Hello? Hello?"

I get that strange feeling I've gotten before, they vanished because they never were. I don't want to stay here anymore, the place only feels darker. I quickly run out of the closest window, lucid. The storm is gone. Excited that I'm dreaming I observe my environment. I start with the items closest to me. The brick wall. I touch it, its gritty. There's a vase on top of a post.

So shiny it looks so real! I tap on it and it makes a hollow sound. I put my palm on it and try to merge my hand into it but I can't. It feels too solid. I realized I do this a lot as a RC in waking life, and that its not a very good reliable RC for me.

The military show up on the scene. What do they want? I just try to mind my own business and go the other way, into this weird cityscape that looks like a bad video game layout. But they follow me. I try to lose them and they give chase.

They chase me into an area that looks like the isles of a walmart were tossed into a field, and lots and lots of boxes. Dream characters start to shout at me as the military men get closer. They're blaming, they're telling me how horrible this dream world is and its all my fault.

"Get her!"

I finally lose them in the field of isles and boxes. I hide underneath a table hidden by cardboard, I hope they didn't see me. I want to change this dream scene!

I close my eyes and imagine the ocean instead. At first it feels like nothing is happening, I swear I'm still just underneath this table. But I give it a few moments, waiting for a cue. There. I felt it. I dunno, it just feels different. I open my eyes to a sandy strip with Hawaiians and tourists dancing.

Cool. I saw people I recognized from waking life. Happy I shouted "were dreaming! were dreaming! hey, are you listening? this is a dream!". But they just nodded their head at me. I couldn't remember where I met them from, so my dream gave me dream-memories. I remembered them from a strange class.

The dance is over and everyone is gathered by a stone wall. My vision blurs in and out. I can't feel the ground. There's almost no sound. I figured this was sign I could wake up anytime soon. So I didn't feel like sitting by the wall listening to some old bearded man yap on.

I saw a tree with huge candy fruit of every color. I take a huge bite, but instead of something sweet, its more like a mild lemon.

I woke up. Its a FA actually. I tell my sisters about my dream. My room is totally facing the wrong wall. And then I wake up for real. (or did I?)

January 3, 2012

Dream Signs Update

Based on the past few nights and many random dreams I was too lazy to write, my dream signs deal mostly with FORM and CONTEXT involving the home.

1. The apartment is an older apartment I haven't lived in for years: context

2. My bedroom is the wrong bedroom I haven't had for years: context

3. I'm living with the whole family, when I'm not: context

4. Theres a hill where there shouldn't be a hill: context

5. Driving to dallas only took an instant, wow!: context

6. I don't remember ever parking my car, where did it go?: context

7. I'm in a class I shouldn't be in: context

8. The highway never makes any sense : setting form

9. Im upset my sisters are deciding the arrangement of my room: emotions

10. bathrooms are as weird and as scary as ever: setting form

So, lots of context dream signs! Not easy! But most of it has to do with the home. So that's what I'll focus on the most for the next week or so.

Reality Check Everytime:

1. I come into contact with family: Are they supposed to be living here? Am I supposed to be sharing a room with them?

2. Everytime I'm in my room: Is this my room? Is my bed where its supposed to be? How many beds are here?

3. Everytime I'm in the living room: Is this my living room? Is the front door where it should be, by the kitchen? Is the porch where it should be? Does the porch have a screen door or a regular door?

4. Everytime I'm in the kitchen: Is the kitchen where its supposed to be? Does it have one entrance or two? Whos in the kitchen and why?

5. Everytime I'm going somewhere: Do I even know where I'm going? Why am I going there? Does the going there make sense?

6. Everytime Im in the bathroom: Do the bathroom appliances make sense? Is the toilet scary?

and something like that

December 29, 2011

Synopsis: two mini dreams, occupy dallas and visiting family

Notes: fell asleep before finishing the 61 point relaxation technique. Had trouble writing down my dream as soon as I woke up because I needed to get ready for work

Visiting
I returned to downtown dallas to see my friends from occupy. I guy who had been flirting with me, happy to see I still exist asks to go out with me. I don't give him an answer but we continue hanging out with the rest of the occupy crew

In another dream I visit my parents back in SA. But the apartment is all wrong. Its an apartment no ones lived in for like 15 years. But it goes over my head in the dream. My mom is cooking me food, my sisters are playing games, its like the holidays all over again

December 28, 2011


Synopsis: A volcano is born and me and my sisters try to escape the lava


Notes: Reading LaBerges book and looking forward to re-discovering my dream signs. Abstract dream


Volcano in the City
On top of a steep hill next to the apartments, wild animals are lose. I remember trying to calm an angry startled wolf. He snarls at me and I keep my distance. My sisters aren't disturbed by the animals running around the place, they just keep on gossiping.


Then I see a giant shadow over me and a deer. The shadow is large and round, and it grows bigger and bigger. "What the hell!" Recognizing this shadow from Zelda, I jump to the side and dodge a giant boulder that fell from the sky.

"Thats a volcanic rock!"


"Volcanic?"


The rock is still steaming. In the distance I can see a giant plume of smoke rising. "Look, there's a volcano growing over there!"


It wasn't long before me and my sisters see lava. We try to escape the city, but we get lost in an All-Generic-Building. We wandered into the public restroom, were my sisters make a quick stop. But as they use the potty the ground splits and lava spews out.


Sometimes it wasn't lava. Sometimes it was this nearly black mud mixed with volcanic rocks.


The alarm rings



After Thoughts:
1. dream was abstract with out of place steep hill
2. out of place wild animals
3. dramatic environmental change - the volcano
4. sense of danger and urgency
5. All-Generic-Building
6. abstract messy restroom

(backlog)
November 20, 2011

Synopsis: A restless night where short dream offers me - pain

Note: Hallucinated fruit flies upon waking

Sensation: Pain
Mom is driving me home, she's come to visit for the week. As well pull in the parking lot I show her a strange fruit I found recently growing on the local trees.

When you first peel it it looks like a pomegranate. But it has this pit, like a peach. And the two halves of the fruit can rotate around that pit - making the fruit take entirely new shape. Now it kinda looks like two lungs attacked to a dark brown pit.

When I step out the car I noticed an ant hill. I carefully walk over it - but floating ants catch me by surprise.

At first I didn't know what it was - I thought it was a strange bug hanging from a web strand. It swung back and forth, scared to touch it I'd jump back. But I got a close look at it. It was ants, holding onto eachother and making themselves appear much larger as they swing on this web.

Well I'm glad I avoided them becuase they look aggressive.

Mom is opening the door and I try to walk - but I can't move. Theres ants in my pants and they're biting places they shouldn't. Ow! Ow! I try to swipe them off and run inside so I can get my pants off. Ow! Ow! Their burning stings wake me up. The pain is instantly gone.

In another dream - I don't remember all the details, but at some point I get a paper cut. The really itchy burning kind.

There was a third dream, but I don't remember this one anymore or the pain sensation it gave me.

When I woke up there's a giant cloud of fruit flies buzzing over my head, and a few house flies. They were so real looking. The way they buzzed around bumping into each other. Their tiny wings. Damn. Why are they flying over my head? Are we infested with fruit flies again, I thought we got rid of them?

After a few moments the flies flew away as if they knew they were spotted.

The next morning I went looking for the flies. We had three house flies. But I only found one fruit fly buzzing around the kitchen. The swarm of flies couldn't have really been there - plus such a large swarm would make noise and it was silent. Damn - I'm still seeing gnats when I wake up.

November 21, 2011

Synopsis: A hospital clinic is just behind my closet door, and its headed by pure evil

Note: Im sure the dream is a metaphor I can't figure out!

Closet Clinic
Dad wants me to take him to small hospital clinic. For some reason I know this clinic because I'm there everyday - even though I'm neither a patient or a doctor. I drive him over and take him to the back entrance, I've spent hours roaming the hospital so I knew where all the doctor rooms were.

"You can just go in that room and a doctor will eventually show up"

But he thought it was weird to just sneak into a hospital like that. So we walked all through the hospital just to make it to the front lobby where he can wait his turn properly. Now I know my relationship to the hospital. I tell dad, "I'll be nearby. My bed is just over there."

The hospital clinic is just right through my closet door!

I left dad alone and relaxed in my room. Laying down on my bed, I stared at the eerie glow emanating from the closet door. Now and then I'd open the door to check on dad. The door was like a portal and opened up to any part of the clinic I wanted to see.

But apparently I was seeing too much. I started to get a sense that someone didn't like how easily I can spy and intrude on the hospital clinic. A male presence. Angry.

I asked a few of the nurses if they had felt this presence. They come in my bedroom to talk in secret and they tell me about the head of the hospital, an evil man. Some even went as far as to say he was the devil.

I hoped that dad was okay and that some twisted experiment wasn't being performed on him!

Suddenly my closet door swings open on its own. Its facing down a long hallway, at the end of the hallway was a room - black and red. I can see the tall lean figure sitting on the other end.

If it wasn't for the dream being a bit foggy, this scene would have been totally ape shit freaky. Thankfully, thanks to foggy-dream-ness, it was just weird.

The nurses warn me! "He's coming for you!"

Shit! I gotta get out of here! I slam the closet door. What to do? What to do? I jump out my window and try to fly away. He chases after me and uses dark magical attacks. I dispel each one with my left hand. "You can't hurt me!"

But I was completely stuck. The dream environment was a square. The landscape had walls. The sky had a ceiling. I retreated back to my bedroom as his prisoner. He told me I could never leave, and then went back to his duties at the hospital.

Well, I just can't stay here.

I try again. I fly out my window and this time I really focus on exiting this landscape. There's a posted sign, its not really sign. I don't remember words or pictures or anything. But there was a sign, and somehow the sign let me know that just past it was a peaceful heavenly realm free of evil. Great! I look for a small entrance and squeeze my way through.

When they said heavenly I was expecting something a little more - I dunno - colorful?

The heavenly realm was bleak. Imagine cardboard boxes stacked to look like buildings. Still the people were nice and warmly greeted me. They told me more about this place

"Here, all your thoughts manifest. Go ahead and try it"

There was this weird device in front of me, so I tried rearranging its configuration. I imagined the buttons would follow where ever my fingers moved. The buttons moved so fluidly it was awesome. I started playing with my environment more.

A girl was using her imagination to color the cardboard buildings, now covered in linen.

"Whats with these ugly buildings anyways?"

"Well they used to be oh so colorful, but then we got tired of all the colors so we toned the place down a bit. But I think we can try introducing color again slowly"

BANG.....BANG.....

Something is trying to break through the barrier of the heavenly realm. "Its him! He's come for me!"

BANG.......BANG......

"Seal it up!"

Already two magic doors appeared - and they were unlocked. Everyone races to the doors and seal it with prayers written on paper, like in anime. We sealed the doors but he still broke in. I was ready to stand up to him, and so were my new friends. But I woke up at that point.

October 30, 2011

Synopsis: In sharp contrast to "Fracture", this dream was explosively happy. Another OccupyDallas dream. Robots invade. We win. That simple.

Thoughts Explode
I was with OccupyDallas, a group of about 100. Our happy little group gets infiltrated by alien robots! These robots divide us, to weaken our solidarity. They then milk us for everything we had - literally - like we were cows.

And that's when the protesters scream "But I don't even have utters!"

We got tired of this bull. My captured group of about 10, sneak behind our robot overlord and find a few cables behind his neck. What happens if we - oh - lots of oil spills out. Robot down!

These robots aren't so tough!

"Lets go free the others!"

The group quickly disperses to be re-captured and then tell their captured friends how to free themselves.

Mom calls

"Everythings fine I'm not arrested. Something is going down right now, but soon everything will be okay". I thought it would take a while for the group to collectively to take down all these alien robots. I was wrong. In the middle of the phone call I hear the whole of OccupyDallas explode into a roar of glee!

Just like that, everyone was free!

"Already?"

And I thought - the knowledge exploded like a wild-fire!

The group starts to march a glory march - declaring their victory! "I GOTTA GO MOM IM MISSING IT" I hang up and run as fast as I can to catch up. I find my place in the front and march merrily. Sure we only took down alien robots, but we felt like we could take down anything.

October 29, 2011

Synopsis: This dream reminds me a lot of "I'll never give up". Except now that I've joined OccupyDallas, it has a different context. I'm with a group of rebels that fractures and attacks its own members. And I never found out why.

Fracture
We were a happy group of rebels and we were all united under a single cause. We lived together in the AllGenericBuilding. Something happened, and I never understood why it happened. One day, half of the group decided that the other half needs to be exterminated.

Former comrades attacked me and friends without warning. We fled, as none of us could honestly fight former comrades. At this point we discover our talents. I transform into a gargoyle.

My poor forsaken family lived in fear. I tried my best to find us a safer place to live. Before we feared the government. Now we were fearing our former allies. We flew through room and room and room desperately searching for sanctity.

But in the AllGenericBuilding, everything is like a mall - out in the public.

We tried to blend in in the mall. But our attackers were close by. "Quick we need to leave!". The group races ahead. We reach a fork in the mall. The left leads to large glass doors that lead to the outside. I really wanted us to go that way! But the group felt it was way to visible, they could see us for miles.

Instead they went to the right, down a small hallway and into a room with no windows or doors. This was what I was afraid of. Still I went with them, not wanting to leave my only family now.

We could hear them nearby! Where do we go now? Someone in our group finds a trap door that leads to a basement. Awesome, we can hide in here until they leave. The basement looked like a theatre.

We thought we were safe, but they were waiting for us inside the theatre. It was a trap, and they were leading us like a school of fish the entire time. The battle that ensued was horrible. I remember stabbing some guys eye out with a pen.

Only half of us made it out. I still never knew why they were attacking us, or why half of my friends had to die. This left me so angry and confused. Why? Why was this happening? I looked at my poor group. So torn. So broken. On its last leg of hope. We looked like war refugees - in a fancy mall where no one even knows what we've just been through.

"Come on. We can't stay here. Let's keep moving" So we do

October 2, 2011

Synopsis: We mutants just want to live in peace. But they wanted war. I lead the revolution, everything falls apart, but I'm too pissed to give up!

Notes: Hi, its been a while!

I'll Never Give Up
We all lived in an all-generic-building, mutants and normal people. As the story goes, the mutants were hated and feared most especially by the government. We were treated as second rate citizens and confined to certain areas of the building - our home and prison.

Some brave boys started the revolution. They inspired all of us. Behind closed doors we gathered and pledged united under our single mission - freedom for all!!

I was no one special among the group, just a new recruit. My specialty was lightning. But we mutants were so united, that the power of one could be used by the other. At first our revolutions were harmless! Like college rebels, we mostly did sit-ins or used our gifts in public despite it pissing the government off.

We were thrown out of the building, denied jobs or rights, and forced to live like thieves. So naturally, we were still living in the building except now we didnt pay rent!

After months of trying to rid us like roaches, the government made a compromise. They delivered the letter to me. It said that we mutants would be recognized as citizens again, if only we pay our bills!

I take the letter to our noble and young leader "That's it? They just want money? That's easy. We can do that!"

The revolutionary mutant leaders and several of the top members of our rebel group met with officials to sign the deal. But the officials didn't come. After waiting a long while, I was getting nervous, something is wrong.

Instead of officials walking through the door, we were greeted by, of all people, mutants!

I thought maybe they wanted to join our group, but instead they said "You mutants are all the same. Monsters too dangerous to exist in this world. We are here on behalf of the government to do their dirty work. And the pay is nice."

"Scum! We are fighting for all our freedom, don't you understand what you're doing?"

"Didn't you hear us? We are monsters, so we don't give a damn. Were going to end your stupid revolution by ending you!"

They attacked, and with their fierce powers they killed our young leader, who was too kind to seriously injure another fellow mutant. An all out mutant fight broke out, as mutant children cried for our leader.

I gave it my all! One lighting strike, thats all it takes, one lightning strike! I fought side by side with my friend, who fights like a wild animal. The living room is torn apart. It feels more like domestic violence than something in an X-men movie.

They corner me, but I shift into water and slip away. I share that gift with my friends, and they shift into water and slip away from the bad guys.

I look around me and realize were losing! Our numbers are dwindling and I have no idea where half our team is! Everyone is so terrified as they fight for the lives. This is no good.

"Retreat!"

We escape the mutant attackers and hide even deeper in the all generic building. Speaking only in whispers. Since our leader and all the top members were dead, that left me the next highest rank. I was now the leader of a broken mutant revolution.

I kept us hidden and safe for months. We had more mutant children than mutant adults. So all of us pitched together to keep them safe and happy. We always stayed together. We were family.

It was spring time so together we took the kids on a field trip. Still outcasts and wanted, it was really tricky taking 20 plus mutant kids on a field trip. We ended up hiding beneath a football stadium that had a good view of the zoo.

That's when I noticed that we weren't alone! Cops, school buses, tourists, it seemed the whole city was gathering here and even though there was no game.

"We need to get everyone out!"

But before we could leave the stadium was filled. The mutant kids hiding under the bleachers were so used to this sort of thing, they just continued chatting away anyways. I got distracted by a spider web and moved too much! That's when a normal human saw me.

The old man recognized me right away, seeing as how I was the new notorious mutant leader. But he just asked me which way did his wife go. And I just point that way! It guess not even the normal humans want this war to continue.

After a close call we return to our home in the all-generic-building. We can't keep living like this! I talk with my group and suggest "We can all have an animal form, and take residence in a forest."

"That's a good idea!"

"What should I pack for a forest? What do you think of these pants?"

My friends start to pack big bags for the forest. "I'm not bringing anything" I said "I'm just gonna go naked. Anyways, don't take too long, we need to leave soon!"

My sister, who was normal, came to visit me. These types of visits were always dangerous for both parties. I was happy to see my sister again!

That's when my second in command informs me that those scum-sold-out-mutants were on the hunt again, and they were just down the hallway. Shit! Everyone had to stay quiet. These mutants were powerful and dangerous!

But sis, who was in the other room missed the warning. And she closes the door way too loud.

"They'll hear that! They know where we are now!"

"Quick, get into the back room!"

I tell my sis she has to stay behind, or else they will search for us. She's normal so it'll be okay.

But the bad mutants were already waiting for us in the back room. This raid was even worse than the first one. They swiftly divide our group and drag innocent mutants away to be arrested. Others were less lucky and were murdered on the spot. I fight with everything! But our numbers dwindle. Ten, Seven, Five

Theres just three of us now!! Just three!! We had to run. We leave the building and enter a warehouse with the bad mutants attacking behind us. My team member stays behind to keep them bay. I don't think he lives.

Now its just me and my best friend. "Hurry! We need to leave the city!"
She transforms into a black dog and runs ahead, but she runs into a dead end. I quickly dodge and hide as the bad guys run past me. My friend was too slow and I hear gun shots.

Now its only me.

The bad guys find me.

"Theres no use in resisting. And don't even think to use your powers. I've filled the room with poisonous gas. Your brain is already melting. Just come quietly with us." They smiled. I was their prize. The last leader of the mutant revolution.

I was shaking "Let me see my friend again, I want to say good-bye."

"No."

Now I'm pissed! I'm really pissed, I ain't giving up! I quickly place my hand on their foreheads and let my lighting rip. I think the poisonous gas only made it more explosive. I quickly run to my friend, still in dog form. She's still breathing!

I tell her that I love her, dont die. She gains some strength and gets back on her feet. But I carry her anyways. They're right behind me. I run. Out the window. They chase me in and out of buildings. We run inside a house, my friend hides, but she hides again in a dead end.

"Not in there!" too late

He's right behind me. I screaming in my head "I'll never give up! I'll never give up!" I shift in and out of buildings. Through anything! "Ill never give up! I'll never give up!" I end up in a kitchen with nothing to shift through, my reflection stares back at me from a golden plate.

He's searching for me in the bedroom. "I'll never give up, I'll never give up." I look for a way out. There! A window! I can see my green forest. I can carry out my plan of living life in there - I run towards it. And then I wake up, with the image of my green forest glowing from a kitchen window stuck in my head.

I was upset that I didn't get to finish the dream and rescue the mutants that were imprisoned.

May, 2011

Synopsis: The Goblin King takes me away and forces me to sing (he was no david bowie!)

Note: Before I fell asleep, I asked my subconscious to make me lucid no matter what. I instantly thought of a gross restroom because thats a big dream sign for me. But I hate dirty restrooms, so I told my subcon, anything but that!

The Goblin King and My Song
(abstract portion of the dream) '
Me and my sis are watching Doctor Who. A storm descends onto a large building, and the Doctor knows "who" the storm is.

The Doctor climbs the tower to face this ancient demon, the lord of demons. He does his magical Doctor stuff, and creates a time vortex to suck up the demon and trap it for all time. The demon rears his ugly face as hes sucked into his demise. Hissing and screaming, he threatens that he'll return. And then, just before hes completely engulfed by the vortex, he spears the Doctor with his scorpion tail, and takes the Doctor with him into the abyss. The Doctor is dead.

(the dream becomes more vivid)
Years later, me and my sister were living safe on a hobbit hill, when I hear thousands of steps rushing towards us. Its a goblin army, an army that was once led by the lord of demons. If the army is back, does that mean the demon is back to?

The goblin army surrounds me and my sis and pins us down by spear point. "Friends of the Doctor, we will kill you!" they said revealing the plot line. I knew me and my sister were in danger because these goblins kill without mercy, unless

"We surrender! Take us to the Goblin King, so I can bow down before him!"

The goblins look at each other confused then sputtered "then we will!"

So they take me and my sister to the goblin castle. The King is said to be the right hand of the ancient demon, raised as his son. As we approach the throne room, every goblin and gobliness was so well mannered and regal.

"Presenting the two sisters of the hobbit hill!" Trumpets sounded. Guards open the golden doors. And a red carpet is laid out before the throne where a child was sitting! A kid! The Goblin King is a kid? I can play this game!

"Your majesty were so honored to meet you!" Me and my sister bow before the child king and his court filled with teenagers.

He doesn't look pleased. He looks really annoyed. And bored, which is dangerous, because maybe he thinks killing innocent people is fun.

"Do your people sing any songs?" He asks

"Lots, we have all sorts of songs"

"Sing me a song"

I know one! No wait. Every melody, every rhyme that Ive ever heard or known just disappeared from my mind. I stood there desperately with hundreds of teenagers and their caddy eyes watching me. I can't remember any songs! Why can't I remember?

I look to my sister whos not taking any of this seriously and she starts to sing "Twinkle twinkle little star" in a really weak voice.

The child Goblin King tightens his fist, I think he's snarling. This is not going good. My sis is gonna get us killed at this rate!

"My Lord!" I interrupt my sister "Can I sing to you in prose a song of my own? If only, you would provide the music?"

"Great idea!" He claps his hands and a band behind him begins to play.

My heart is racing. The dream feels too real. What am I doing? I can't sing! The music plays and plays. The goblin king taps his fingers. Hes getting impatient with me. The teenagers sneer.

"I..........love.........the wilderness..........

I love the burning sun in the sky
And the warmth on my skin"

The music is getting louder, and I sing louder too

"I love the river of the forest
And dipping my head in her waterfall"

The wild goblin teenagers are actually dancing to my crappy song, and with dream magic they sing along knowing everything Im going to say! The dream gets full blown Glee'ked! And the entire goblin court sings the chorus with me!

"Other people get drunk and wasted
Not me!
Nature's all I need!"

One blond goblin belts her lungs out and steals the show! Now even im getting into it!

"ohhhhhhh and the moooon! She's so beautiful
I'm in love!

We love the burning sun and the warmth on our skin!
And dipping our heads in the waterfall!

Other people get drunk and wasted!"

Which was really funny because half of the goblins were swinging their beers as they danced

"Not me!
Natures all I need!"

Im out of ideas, so I just repeat the entire song and they sing along. But the crowd starts to die out. And little by little I'm the last one singing and get the cue to shut up!

"Other people get drunk and wasted
Not me!"

I didn't even get to say the last line! They just exploded into cheers and clapping! Wow. Im so glad they liked my song!

The goblin king looks very pleased. He comes down from his throne and smiles at me.

"I have a gift for you!"

My sister interrupts him, all um, business like

"Thank you very much for your time Mr. Goblin and your kind gesture." And she holds out her hand to shake his

"Uh, no not you. Anyone but you. I should kill you"

And my sis takes an awkward step back and disappears from the scene.

"But you, follow me. There is something really special that I want to show you"

I silently follow the Goblin King, wondering what he wants to show me. But he takes me to....the bathroom?

The child king is now an old ugly goblin of a man. The public bathroom was horrifying! Goblins were crapping in the floors of the stalls! There is piss everywhere. And theres this machine in the center of the bathroom that actually squirts piss at you!

"Aaaahhhh!!"

"Aaawwww.....Pure urinic acid. Like lotion. I use it every morning" says the Goblin King as Im horrified

"Is..........this........what you wanted to show me?" No no no no.

"Actually sir" says a janitor who I think is just spreading crap and pee everywhere "Its really nasty stuff. And I dont think you should use it my Lord"

"What? No. My doctor told me, this shit is good for your skin. Urinic acid! Try it!" And he presses a button on the machine and it squirts pee at me

"Aaaaaaaahhhhhh!"

More crap plops on the floor next to me

"OMG!"

Someone get me out of here! Then I wake up. At first I'm pissed that the Goblin King showed me crap. But then I remembered that I asked my subconscious to make me lucid no matter what, but please no dirty bathrooms! Well the Goblin King didn't care and wanted to show me that I'm dreaming. Thanks Goblin King, even if I was too dumb to get the message!