Nebulus

D1 - needing to see a solicitor
D2 - Walking through gardens in the baking heat, back garden is natural and covered with vines. At the front of the house my brother is standing on a well kept lawn. I talk to him about something to do with houses and gardens.

D3 - I am with a survivor colony, we are somewhere very barren looking. The earth is blackened, maybe volcanic. I then go down into a cavern which is open wide the surface. We are all in rags and are discussing how to survive.

D1 - I am looking at a third person view of a youth with long dark hair and sunglasses is leant against a wall in the dark, it is a split screen view of the same youth sitting in the blinding sunlight.
On one side the youth has made good choices and has good intentions on the other the opposite.
I am trying to choose between the two as they continually add choices.

D2 - In a large wharehouse style Art gallery/ exhibition centre.
The walls are all painted black and the lighting is diffuse from the high ceilings. I am talking with a group of artists but I feel they do not have proper motives and are trying to deceive others. They see me as a threat and I am chased through corridors of the exhibition. Running through the ground floor with windows onto a courtyard, in heavy sun. I run between their artwork, which is being resprayed from nozzles on the ceiling. The artwork is everchanging to create a moving painting, sprayed in a circular fashion.

D3 - At college a student is trying to cash in a credit payment. But is having trouble. I inspect the note and see that it is in fact an record form showing that they infact are not enrolled and owe fees. Everyone else is oivious to qhat the problem is.
I go into a dark room with lots of big old computer screens.

Got to Barcelona where there has been a lot of stormy weather but none transfered to my dreams

D1 - Someone had the idea of raising money by creating a ride. Customers would plumet marrionet style, flipping over and over. She decided when I expressed concern into one freefall drop ending in a flip to the ground level. I felt this would be probably fatal but was most concerned about her state of mind for designing it LOL

D2 - A boat was being stabalised by placing gold bars into it, they were strangely shaped and ornate.
D2 - Staying in a poky flat, I needed to take my hamster to the vet. I felt quite worried for it. Anyway I went out , deposited hamster then went dentist.
On returning I realised I forgotten about hamster.

I was at some aunt's house and thought it was christmas for some reason.
Anyway something was repeating over and over again. I was trying to do something, gymnastics? yoga?
then I was transformed into a form of energy, I could see third person view my outline in this strange yoga position
but inside I was an orange flowing energy, quite runny like orange honey or lava but not hot. It was cool feeling and nice.

Then it dawned on me that I was in a dream and I said "I'm dreaming!" a little too excitedly. I was perplexed at not being human in my dream but being this wonderful but unusual energy.
My mind started to race, "Quick what should I do while i'm lucid","Fly!" I thought. So I flew but I moved within the outline only, so it was more like everything else moved and I stayed still, "Zoom" then I thought um, what now? and was happy and wondrous of the energy.
then BOINK! I was waking up.

[Comment]
Last lucid was caused also by slow dawning due to physical sensations of a repeated event (key turning).
Thanks Elainey! for giving me the intention, again

Walking around a town at night, it was getting dark.
For some reason it seemed sensible to take a shortcut through someones house. This meant climbing through their window and into their kitchen. Also once was not enough and we went around again. Second time round the owners turned up an oriental family. They did not seemed perturbed instead the dream became about the fact that they had a lodger and that it was some kind of tax avoidance thing. The lodger was being paid a few thousand and was actually there to do some building work and decorating.
Outside was a giant skeleton of a rounded building that was being delivered.
Next we went and crashed back at our place. This meant sleeping in a large floor to ceiling shower. There was someone else with us, who the girl with us had casual sex with. The previous night it had been the same.
I felt left out and left. I found a place which was a room filled only with beds. I created a body out of thin air but it was a bit ghoulish.
There was then a person in the next bed who kept trying to pinch my things. To avoid this I had to climb up a bell pull which was hanging down like a vine from above my bed. I climbed up and up, like Jack and the bean stawk. The guy kept pulling and I fell down.
So I created some mini soldiers of sorts to protect the bottom while I climbed up. They had cuttlery as weapons Oo.
Next when I came down there were some annoying old people who were trying to punch me. One had really crazy curly hair, and they seemed to be joined together. Anyway I only had strength in my right hand. Eventually I punched them and went back to bed.
By now the room seemed full of people. Chance of sleep or anything zero.

I had been meditating on space between my thoughts and not getting caught up in my thoughts when I fell a sleep.

I then had a false awakening where I thought there was someone at the door, I could not move as much as I tried or would move a little then find myself in exactly the same position again.

Then I was back in a dream, I was a woman with long black hair and brown eyes. I knew I had been followed by something or someone, felt like it was a previous dream I could not recall.
Inside the bedroom of a narrow house, I was trying not to move a muscle, trying not to make a sound. But I felt whatever had been sent to get me was here. I crept out the door to a side of the house away from the road and obscured I hoped from view.
LOL towering above the house and reaching way up into the clouds it seemed, was a creature with skin like bark. It could have been a giant tree, except its top came to a point where the gnarled head was and there were no leaves just branch like brown arms.
It was immobile but felt as though it was straining its senses to find me.
I went silently along the back of the house and into a side door to the kitchen. I waited there until a man I had been waiting for, with short brown hair and a black waistcoat turned up.
It started to rain as it got heavier we decided to make a break for it. The creature that seemed more like an elemental spirit or titan, had been still for so long, we were now unsure if it was waiting for something but we could wait no longer.
We walked in the rain which soon became torrential, hammering down on the road. Straight up to where the creature stood as there was no other way. It did not move and we looked up at it towering above us giddily. Behind it were hundreds of small stumpy brown trees, all with eyes. They did not move either and we made our way hurriedly through them.
Last bit was very vivid indeed, particularly splashing of rain on road and feeling of cold and wet, as we were soaked.

In a dark and foul tavern, many people dressed wretchedly are eating foul smelling dishes of food. They look animalistic in my eyes,
and all seem to have lots of facial hair. There is a thin mist in the tavern of either cold or cooking smoke from the fire, it is unpleasant and damp. We are being offered to sit and join these people for food but are repelled, one even begins to be sick from copious amounts of ale. Evidently not a five star establishment, we leave.

I guess there is a lot that disgusts me about myself and I try to hide from, and be higher than, but it is still there, part of me.

At school a child came up to me and hugged me. They would not let go. Then along came a social worker and told me I had been chosen as a substitute father, as the child's father had had a breakdown.
I went to the child's house and found that the father had made a few mistakes that had attracted the attention of the authorities.
The house looked pristine, and much nicer than mine, lol. It was open plan, with a white kitchen table with some photocopied notes on it. The father had apparently stapled they're lesson plans to the child's homework (they were also a teacher Oo).
It all started getting really weird and I got freaked out after that, feeling obviously I shouldn't be there and wtf would this happen to me also.

Spoiler for Substitute husband:

Wife came home and it all get way out of hand. It appeared I was taking on the role in more ways than one. She started giving me a blowjob, right there in the kitchen. It was all very wrong Oo.
Then the social worker comes through the door, and we scrabble to clean up. LMAO.

D1 - In a large house with sprawling corridors, like a hotel, all is dark. My daughter is a baby in her bed. I go to check on her and the scene suddenly changes to very tense. I find a giant rat, its head is bigger than mine, about twice the size and its is about to bite my throat. It is looking at me and I am willing it not to attack. I notice that in the doorway, there are horrible spidery grubbs that are clustered there, some dropping down. I pull a large blade out of nowhere and am hesitating whether to stab the rat which is poised to attack. We are eyeball to eyeball.

D2 - Helping someone to write a document on computer, I give them the correct filename it is 16 digits long, lol, a code. There are a series of many documents with a similar code that need to be entered?

D3 - I am in a horrible appartment, with a sofa in the kitchen area. There is a cover thrown over it as someone has been sleeping on it.
A large burly man with a bald head, is after me for something, not sure might be debts. I run out of kitchen and down a corridor. The corridor has a zillion identical looking doors. I take the one on the end and hide in there and find a large mallet with a long handle. I lay in wait for the man.

D1 - I having been persuaded or decided that it is my responsibility, I am standing outside a hall for group functions and parties etc.
It is dark and looks like it might rain, I am standing wearing a t-shirt and nothing else. In my hand is a tray, with a large cake on that has been sliced, I am to offer this to people as they pass by.
I then realise that information on next years positions has been posted inside and go to enter. There is suddenly a melee of hundreds of people all coming out at the same time. I am again swimming against the current and making no progress. I have been told I have been given a position I want least.

D2 - In a classroom with very large students, secondary? They are all sitting on high stools at narrow bar like tables. This excentuates how short I am in comparision. They are a tough class I can feel and I am apprehensive of how things will go. At this point their teacher turns up, they are annoyed as though I have spoiled their game.
The teacher is a short haired, blond lady with glasses. She beckons her teacher's pet to come over to her, he towers over her so she askes him to kneel, bringing him to her height LOL they take their roles and act out the usual smiley niceties.

D3 - In a dark room, with a large furnace like machine, two very odd chemists are making booze. There are loads of small fuzzy creatures, like coconuts with eyes. The chemists are also strange creatures but much larger. They compiserate with me, drinking heavily.

Lots of syncs corresponding to something in my dream, so I don't know whether it also symbolises something else, probably

D1 - I am at my parents house all is dark, its a wintry morning. I'm wearing a quilted jacket and am in their kitchen then locking up before I go out. I am scared of something unseen a presence/feeling. I double back and check they are a sleep. They're door is closed signifiying they are still a sleep.
I take a small steel key to lock the back door, I feel the cold of the key against my fingers and fiddle with the lock, checking and re-checking. This action is slowly waking me up in the dream. As I feel vague stirrings of my consciousness, as if a mist is lifting or becoming less foggy headed.
Outside the ground is frozen with a light snow. In the distance I can see children surrounding two cats that appear to be fighting.
I preceive that the childtren are in some way encouraging or in some way to blame for the fighting.
The cats are jumping into the air as they fly at each other.
Two of the children walk in my direction, I am scared and angry at the same time.
I finally realise it is a dream, and say to myself are i'm dreaming. I wonder what to do and can think of nothing except to release my pent up emotion by kicking one of the children up the butt.
The other child has a funny blue and white, thick woolen jumper and matching woolley hat. He has long fair hair and looks on bemusedly.
I remember that I need to stabalise and rub my hands frantically together but then I wake up.

[Comment]
The action of touching the key in the dream clearly triggered my surfacing from the normal dream state.

D2 - Long dream where I am working with another teacher in a large lecture threatre, preparing stuff for later. I am interrupted by a manager who askes where a painting has gone missing. I pretend to look for it, in the hope she'll go away.
Similarly, I try and escape from an office later on some pretext or other in the hope of not being found out.

- Trying to get into a college library at closing time, everyone was streaming out when I needed to get in. Going against the flow of people.
- Not knowing what to do.
- Being told to teach English instead of ICT.
- Searching around looking for something I could scavenge to make metal parts for musical instruments. Finding metal latices of metal cubes. Finding cupboards full of old metal gizmos, wondering if I could break them apart to use.

D1 - At an office with lota of and lots of files bound up with string and some in leather. K is best employee and is showing me how to do something. We then go into the main office with and old desk and chair (no computer, it is pre-computers).
When I use the old landline phone and go to put my mouth to the phone a woman with wavey hair kisses me repeatedly. Its nice and warm and soothing.
mini-chain - somewhere else in the building a man (looks like a old police canteen) is being given a custard pie then a meat pie for his good work?

D2 - In a game world (repeated dream). The world is vast and outside in large fields. I am following a path through the levels.

D3 - I am in a cramped house/apartment but it just constists of a small hall which leads from a room which is like a changing room with benches to a bathroom. My partner leaves and I am left with Mr B . I go into the bathroom as I am late for work.
I look at the hairs on my face, not in the mirror but all around me, as my hair is standing out really long, from my face and head.
It is suspended as though either there is no gravity or it is alive. But infact it has the energise of the universe pulsating through it, causing it to be directed in certain directions like many millions of medusa snakes.
This hair sequences is oh so incredibly vivid.

Had a nightmare again. This time I was in an old house, victorian with old style lamps. Cold and creepy.
The lights went off and I was left alone, my daughter went out.
I could make out stairsdown in the half light but didnt want to go down as I knew there was a big ol monster down there.
So I sat and are cakes, even though they were making me feel sick, to take my mind off the fear.

[comment]
When i'm depressed I over eat. So that figures.

Programmed myself to wake after every dream, which I did but I find it very much like coming up for air then plunging back under the murky waters, quite disorientating. So lots of chaining.
Also I tried FILD a lot.

D1 - Escaping from my father I travel across europe. I am being traced by a chip sticking out of my iphone.

D2 - Staying in Ireland, in a farm house. Waking up early in a bedroom, with double windoes overlooking the farm courtyard. I am a child but do not want to go visiting the farmyard animals with the other children.

D3 - I am a child again and I am unable to stop the bathroom tap running (a phobia of mine when I was younger). I am yelling for my My mum to sort it out.

oooo I don't really remember having dreams where i'm a child before Oo, must be deeper.

I had about four false awakenings LOL