side notes

After a lot of misses and less hits with DILDs, WILDS, EILD, Subliminal methods and everything that I could possibly throw at this every night, I finally found a method that seems to be working for me. I found out about this due to curiosity. At first I thought the first try was just luck but it seemed peculiar to me. But when I did this successfully 2 more times I found out that this simple method actually works! And it gave me more consistent hits then the DILD method alone.

Basically what I did yesterday was I just went about my day and wasn't even thinking about Lucid Dreaming because I was in the stage where I nearly gave up because I was going at it so long. But during a visit from a friend I suddenly had a random thought about how my friend keeps being portrayed in my dreams. Then I thought to myself.... "I will have a LD tonight." and I did it while knowing that I would, with no doubt in my mind. Then I would push that aside and forget about it while going about the rest of my day.

Sure enough, during a dream about Candy and awesome tasting cookies that were put left out on a living room table. And my NJROTC class (which seemed to much more like the military then a high school program.) I got mad at them because I wound up being the odd man out somehow. And I got in a verbal and almost physical argument with one of the higher ups. It seemed to me that a lot was at steak because we were in a parking garage complex and some kind of enemy was out there. After the argument I realized that I wasn't just the odd man out anymore, I now had to get out of there because I apparently did something worse. So I dashed out and I looked around my surroundings which were beautiful. It seemed to me that this was an entire base out in the middle of an awesome grassy field. The grass wasn't ridiculously long it was about as normal as my grass in the back yard. but the color green was more faded with the evening sky. The sun wasn't fully down yet. Suddenly the feeling of being in between awake and asleep came to me, it didn't hit me, it kind of faded in while I was running. Then I said to myself subconsciously, "there it is again! That feeling!" I stopped for a moment and thought, "Alright now I'm going to try running at sound speed!" I closed my eyes and I could feel myself running, (which was awesome!) but I couldn't feel that push or any speeding up. I opened my eyes again and sure enough I was going at normal pace. I thought that if I focused that I'd be able to. Then I consciously, and on purpose, tried to really do a Kamehameha wave, but all I got was a near black out because I really focused the crap out of it and pushed it. Then I thought to myself that I need to ground this dream more. So I ran over to the metal roof that was buried in the ground and that led to the other distant part of the base. It was an outside spot with all of this stuff. Basically I got the impression that this was a small refugee camp or something. I started to feel the metal and focus on it, but it was too much in a hurry because the sub thought conveniently came at the back of my mind that I'm going to lose control again. I could feel the metal on my hands which was a first because I never felt anything in my dreams like that before. I could feel the bumpy surface and everything, but I lost the control. Then some other random dreams followed.

Despite the fact that I messed up. I didn't fail, this was a learning experience that helps me so much now. Now I know it was that feeling that I got when I would wind up in limbo after being knocked silly out of a dream. It was the same feeling from the first Lucid I ever had. I remember it, and I felt it, and now I know this method works! It simply uses the weapon that I'm using already during my waking life, I believe that there isn't anything that I can't do as long as I put my mind to it, failure only happens if I let it. It's because of this state of mind that I'm excelling in my college classes and my art work is looking the way it should, and the way I want it. This technique supports DILD and I think it may support others as well I don't know but I'll check as I continue fooling around with this one. BOO YEAH!!!

I've done alot of reading up on it and I've been telling myself to master DILDs first. But after this month I've had a change of heart. I'm going to master both WILDs and DILDs I need more control over my sleeping pattern and I'm truthfully (and regrettably) becoming impatient with the results that DILD is producing alone. I would either have an LD and then lose all of the minimal control that I already have by doing something stupid and extravagant (Like a Kamehameha wave). I'd rush the LD, or I'd become too exited and go into a free falling tailspin and get knocked so hard that i'm in twilight. And I have no say about what happens because of my excitement. So I'm going to preform and try WILDs every night before sleep (which I know is a no no; it should be 4 to 5 hours into sleep) until I get it. I already have some knowledge of what a partial WILD is because I've been up to the hallucination level more than once. But I used to get freaked out and wonder if I was going crazy because I'd hear voices so many times. So if anyone has any comments, criticisms, questions, concerns, let me know because I'm going into this head first, and I'm not stopping. Until I can do both or at least one of them.

Every morning I've woken up and I have written down so...many....pages.... But no matter what I do, when I have lucidity, I lose it just as fast as I gained it, or I'm aware but I can't do anything significant. This doesn't discourage me from repeatedly trying again and again and again until I get it. But it's a little frustrating to know that I have only so much knowledge of what it feels like to be lucid. My basic idea (and when I mean basic, I mean that I really can't confirm it but it would seem about right) is that I suddenly feel like I just woke up, and I went back into the dream or I'm thinking about the dream as if I was awake. There has to be a way to get myself to mount firmly before I lose that control. Because I lose it as soon as I see it. How do I know that the feeling is lucidity? Well I checked back to my first experience (which was the most vivid of them all) and I realized that after seeing that I was in fact dreaming, and then getting my arse knocked around in that tail spin because I got too exited, that same feeling followed, and it was there with me while I was in my spinny, blurry, limbo. then I realized that I've had this same feeling many many many times before especially when I'm in a tail spin. So my question is, how the heck do I mount myself in the dream before I lose the control? I don't think the "I'm an anchor" thing works. Anyone have any suggestions?

I've been keeping my guard up since I've started, it's no surprise to me really, I just find it kind of funny that I happen to have toys and action figures as one of my dream signs. It's either toys or cartoon characters that still hold a spot as my dream signs. As for Master Mind's technique, I'm getting better recall, and I'm still seeing the transition from one dream to the next. In fact, I had a bad night the previous night because of heat. But I see another trend starting to form. I always knew it was there but I could never put the two dreams together, the transition would sever them and keep me from ever putting the two dreams together in relation to plot, only bits and pieces would come up, if I was even lucky to have that. So now I got one month to go, and as a reminder to my future self, should I get discouraged if I'm not happy with where I'm at: Set another 2 months and try again! It's summer! You hate Summer! If you get discouraged then just know you'll do better toward the Fall and Winter seasons.

I'm using the Subliminal technique to induce some kind of results. The first night as you readers would know I fell flat on my face pretty good due to stress. This was after I listened to the full song, nothing for the second night when I tried 15 minutes each. But now I listened to the entire first song and I ended up with some reasonable results.

Results:
everything was a bit more vivid and I remember so much more, it is still coming to me in pieces, but I'm grateful it's even coming to me at all . I'm surprised I'm able to even have a few memories of the first dream out of the 3. Before it was just one semi vivid shot. What I find also weird was the the fact that I barely remember the transitions from dream to dream, but I saw them for the first time. I thought my dreams just skipped O.o

The Dream:
Dream 1 had me and my little bro in it. We we're working together to get out of this weird water plant of some sort. It was an obstacle course kind of like those crazy Japanese game shows where people get the shiz knocked out of them. But this course required me and my brother's team work to figure out the landscape, and find the switches to help us find another exit. I'm pretty sure that if either of us did something wrong then we' fall into whatever kind of crazy water that was. I was in a metal lift and I was watching my brother work his way to a switch. I was hoping he'd hit the right one. He shimmied his way to it then he hit the switch and the lift worked. After that we were both trying to get out of there through a small door way on the floor.

The second dream came after this, as I said I barely remember the transitions but the fact that I have a fragment is something at least. Anyway; the second dream merges with the third one. after me and my bro fall through the little trap door, the scene changes. There is a weird fiery place where these creatures live and people die. There were catwalks everywhere that allowed us to walk over all of the molten metal carnage, but after that the 3rd dream transitions in and both work hand and hand to make the next plot.

The third dream (or section) had me, and almost everyone I know as of now located in this huge store warehouse next to a shore. Everyone in this place camped out, and chilled here. However I think there was more to it than just having a good time. Inside this warehouse there was a small entrance on the floor somewhere that allowed the creatures to come in and cause a ruckus. We had to run and take cover behind the giant isle shelves in order to keep out of reach of them as they stormed in. I remember this happening twice, and I was frantically trying to get something before they came the 1st time. I was around the house cleaning appliances section, and right in front of me I saw bathroom toilet papers in a nice stack. Other parts of the dream had me looking ou in the docking area of the warehouse where a ship could come in and directly have it's cargo unloaded into the warehouse. But instead there was a tent out there where someone from my class was. the little tent was on a float of some sort. Next to that there was a dock that allowed passage to the tent, and it was also where the scene outside changes between a parking lot and a dock. a car was out there (I think it was my car) and I walked up to it. I could see inside it, and I could see the little droplets of rain running down the car surface as I walked around it. There was also another section of the dream where I saw all 3 of my friends and some other ones. And we were sitting together somewhere and I was talking to them. the dream ended when everyone went into the place where the monsters were and confronted them. I remember only so much, but the things I do remember are vivid. And I would consider this a dream sign because it is happening more than once. There was a small waterfall of tar that was coming from somewhere in this place, and it ran down a moving escalator of some sort. As I looked at it, the tar ran down ahead and revealed countless skeletons. These skeletons were picked dry of everything; probably by the tar.

There were a number of other small things that I remember that are avoiding me right now. But the fact is that I'm surprised the vividness was to the level that it was in this dream. Now if this had been either an epic dream, or one of those dreams that I have on rare occasions that have a mass amount of detail, then I think there would be a lot of potential there. Especially the vivid dreams, which in their own category are entirely epic in every sense of the meaning. Those I'll cover some other time. I'm going to start trying to squeeze both songs in to see what kind of result I get starting tonight. Hopefully the results are some kind of lucidity, so I can work from there and my brain doesn't have an epic fart and send me into a tail spin so bad that my subconscious mind gets sent into the next astral plain and back. XD

I'm reaching about near the same amount of weeks that it took me to get lucid last time. Since then though, I've only realized that I must've been dreaming about 2 to 3 times up until now. If I could do it without trying then I can do it more often then I know, simple as that. As for my recent dreams, I've been keeping track, and writing them down on a note book. I'll update this Journal when I get the chance. This is just me checking in.