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My wife and I had recently decided we wanted a change of pace, and moved to live in the woods. Our house was big enough and was completely removed from the rest of society, secluded and peaceful. As far as we knew, we lived alone out there. A few weeks after moving, I had started to hear a tapping noise coming from outside. I assumed this was from trees outside banging into our walls, as it often got windy out there. Over the course of 2 or so months, the tapping got louder and louder.

We wake up one morning before the sun had risen and I say goodbye to her as she heads off to work. I sit in our room as I listen to her car pull out of our gravel driveway and drive off. A few minutes later, I hear knocking at the door. I'm thinking maybe she had forgotten something, so I answer it. But no one's there. I try to see through the darkness and fog of the early morning out to our driveway, but I don't see anything parked. I look to my left and spot our black dog laying on the veranda playing with his toy, so I assume it was him who had just been scratching on the door. As a soft rain starts to fall, I go back inside.

I close the door. Inside the living room, I hear that familiar tapping on the window, now the loudest I had ever heard it. Like a knock. These taps were too evenly spaced together to have been from any kind of tree being blown about by the wind. The rain is picking up now, coming down hard on my tin roof. Suddenly, from the other wall of the living room I hear that same knock. Outside I see the dark silhouettes of trees surrounding my house thrashing and waving back and forth in the storm's howling wind, and paranoia starts to fill my gut. I try to calm my nerves, reminding myself that I am the only thing out here. As waves of hail and rain come down on my house, I walk back to my bedroom.

I look under the bed, the space between the frame and the floor too small for anything to fit underneath. The closet, full of clothes. Under the desk, nothing but lint and dirt. I go to check behind the curtains. As I start towards the window, I hear footsteps coming from the front porch and my heart starts racing. I pull the curtains back, and peer ever so slightly outside. The sun had started to rise, light creeping across the forest floor. I squint to see who is out there.

A warm wave of relief washes over me as I see my wife and I's dog, toy in mouth, bowing at the front door, his dark coat drenched in mud and rain. He notices me watching him from the window and runs over excitedly, whining at me. His puppy dog eyes put a smile on my face, as I'm reminded that everything is as the way it had always been. I walk back to the front door, but hesitate for a moment. I recall my wife telling me not to let the dog in the house after it had been raining, as he'd get our carpet dirty. But hearing his whines, I tell myself she'd let it go just this once, and I open the door to let him in, quickly shutting it to keep the rain out. I sit down on our doormat and hug his muddy fur as he jumps about in my embrace. He shakes himself clean, now safe inside the warm house. But still his whining quickens, coming out in loud gasps as he drops his toy. The dog turns and takes my hand in his mouth, shaking it urgently. His whines are so loud, it sounds like a faint scream. I pull back from him and look into his beady eyes. As he stares back at me with a fearful expression I try and ask him what's wrong, but he continues to scream. Then his black eyes look somewhere behind me, and his gaze turns wide and white. In the reflection of the door's wood, I see two large, yellow eyes, staring right back at me.
And then I woke up.

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I'm not the best writer but I tried to capture the absolute terror I felt last night after being awoken by the first real nightmare I've had in years. Couldn't go back to sleep after this one.

My wife and I had recently decided we wanted a change of pace, and moved to live in the woods. Our house was big enough and was completely removed from the rest of society, secluded and peaceful. As far as we knew, we lived alone out there. A few weeks after moving, I had started to hear a tapping noise coming from outside. I assumed this was from trees outside banging into our walls, as it often got windy out there. Over the course of 2 or so months, the tapping got louder and louder.

We wake up one morning before the sun had risen and I say goodbye to her as she heads off to work. I sit in our room as I listen to her car pull out of our gravel driveway and drive off. A few minutes later, I hear knocking at the door. I'm thinking maybe she had forgotten something, so I answer it. But no one's there. I try to see through the darkness and fog of the early morning out to our driveway, but I don't see anything parked. I look to my left and spot our black dog laying on the veranda playing with his toy, so I assume it was him who had just been scratching on the door. As a soft rain starts to fall, I go back inside.

I close the door. Inside the living room, I hear that familiar tapping on the window, now the loudest I had ever heard it. Like a knock. These taps were too evenly spaced together to have been from any kind of tree being blown about by the wind. The rain is picking up now, coming down hard on my tin roof. Suddenly, from the other wall of the living room I hear that same knock. Outside I see the dark silhouettes of trees surrounding my house thrashing and waving back and forth in the storm's howling wind, and paranoia starts to fill my gut. I try to calm my nerves, reminding myself that I am the only thing out here. As waves of hail and rain come down on my house, I walk back to my bedroom.

I look under the bed, the space between the frame and the floor too small for anything to fit underneath. The closet, full of clothes. Under the desk, nothing but lint and dirt. I go to check behind the curtains. As I start towards the window, I hear footsteps coming from the front porch and my heart starts racing. I pull the curtains back, and peer ever so slightly outside. The sun had started to rise, light creeping across the forest floor. I squint to see who is out there.

A warm wave of relief washes over me as I see my wife and I's dog, toy in mouth, bowing at the front door, his dark coat drenched in mud and rain. He notices me watching him from the window and runs over excitedly, whining at me. His puppy dog eyes put a smile on my face, as I'm reminded that everything is as the way it had always been. I walk back to the front door, but hesitate for a moment. I recall my wife telling me not to let the dog in the house after it had been raining, as he'd get our carpet dirty. But hearing his whines, I tell myself she'd let it go just this once, and I open the door to let him in, quickly shutting it to keep the rain out. I sit down on our doormat and hug his muddy fur as he jumps about in my embrace. He shakes himself clean, now safe inside the warm house. But still his whining quickens, coming out in loud gasps as he drops his toy. The dog turns and takes my hand in his mouth, shaking it urgently. His whines are so loud, it sounds like a faint scream. I pull back from him and look into his beady eyes. As he stares back at me with a fearful expression I try and ask him what's wrong, but he continues to scream. Then his black eyes look somewhere behind me, and his gaze turns wide and white. In the reflection of the door's wood, I see two large, yellow eyes, staring right back at me.
And then I woke up.

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I'm not the best writer but I tried to capture the absolute terror I felt last night after being awoken by the first real nightmare I've had in years. Couldn't go back to sleep after this one.

Legend

Colors: Lucid, Semi-lucid, Non-lucid
[comment from waking] in angle brackets
(comment / clarification from dreaming) in parentheses
Abbreviations: DS = dream sign, CH = childhood home, S1/S2 = sons, S/O = someone, S/A = something about, [f] = fragment

Summary of the Night

• Good sleep. Fewer B/R trips (first night of capsule that should help reduce them)
• Recall vanishes easily upon waking. Need to strengthen the intention not to move after waking. Tough, especially if the b/r urge is strong or the body is really tired of its current position. So again, the contents of the dream, while I know there is more, is not all recalled. Need to increase presence and attention
• BT: ~22:45 or a bit earlier
• OOB: ~07:20

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Lost recall

[Woke and still had the impression of a dream but I moved and it vanished. Something about a group of people]

Picking up CL's books

[This came back to me during delving at the final waking]
Indoors, large group of people mulling around, fairly crowded, like a registration area with service counters, I see people and I think one of them might be my friend and housemate CrLe from WFP. I see it is him, then (he?) drops a big pile of books and I'm trying to help him pick them up but they keep falling down to the ground [DS].

Saving Foxes

Indeterminate area, indoors/outdoors, the ground is uneven and there are some fox warrens here with a fairly large opening leading down into the ground. My (?) cat (orange tabby) goes in to a warren and I want to save the baby foxes from being taken out and eaten by the cat. My cat comes out dragging a fox and I grab the fox away from the cat and smack it on the face to punish it, it looks at me with a sort of confused expression then leaves. Then some person does the same, and I also grab the fox from him so it doesn't take it away.

Donate Coins

Indoors, large open atrium area, walking with a group, I encounter a group of young people they are holding out cans that are for holding donation of coins to support their worthy cause. I think that I should donate since I was one the organizer of their group. I dig around in my pocket for coins and pull out a mixture, I find one or two quarters and put them into a can, (only quarters are acceptable donations), I look at the change in my hand, and shrug and say sorry, I don't have any more quarters. Some coins fall to the ground. I also have a small sliver/fragment of a coin. I see a medium-large (about 3 inches across) metallic bowl like a small ashtray with a design on it like the front of the quarter (Washington).

Strange Girls

Indoors, after "Donate Coins?" In a room with a man/teacher, and on the wall of the room to my left, are hanging from horizontal bars (like in a gym class) a group of strange, small girls. They're very small but not child-like, more like dwarfs. Some of them have developed breasts. The teacher is saying, of one girl in particular, that she is happy not doing anything.

Legend

Colors: Lucid, Semi-lucid, Non-lucid
[comment from waking] in angle brackets
(comment / clarification from dreaming) in parentheses
Abbreviations: DS = dream sign, CH = childhood home, S1/S2 = sons, S/O = someone, S/A = something about, [f] = fragment

Summary of the Night

• Another tough BTS (back to sleep) period this time around 02:00 (~ 3 hours after bedtime), but did sleep and dream
• The experiences were much richer and involved with a lot of detail than what I am journaling. I remember the detail being there in the experience, I just don't remember those details upon waking. I need to work on remaining still upon waking, which is challenging if there is a strong bathroom urge and the body is tired of the current position.
• BT: ~23:00 or a bit earlier
• OOB: ~07:30

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Carousel

Outdoors, wide open area, people around. There is a "carousel" [maypole?] with streamers hanging from it. I grab the end of one and am holding on while the thing spins me around. At first I have to dodge obstacles close to the central pole, but then I'm moved farther out and I can spin around without hitting anything. I go around one or two times

Kissing DB

I'm with Uni g/f DnBrk, (she's riding the carousel with me?). We're nuzzling, I rub my chin on her head/hair, we kiss lightly. At one point she sticks out her tongue and I take it into my mouth and she's saying/thinking "OOOhh, this is much more exciting than when we were going out!

Fire Brigade

Outdoors daylight, park-like area, the fire brigade is here (working on a building?), I'm talking with them a bit, they're saying something

Red/Black

Indoors, cafe-like room with tables. A group of us are sitting down to one. Everyone has on bright red or black shirts. I look down and I have on [don't remember which color]

Sand Racers

Outdoors, daylight, same environment as Carousel? There is a group of people driving vehicles [racing?] through the sand. As I watch one guy drives from my left to my right in a sort of mini car/go-cart, and ends up piling up a small hill of sand in front of his car which blocks his progress and he stops.

Trombone style
A guy is playing the trombone. His embouchure is strange: his lips are extended far over the mouthpiece itself instead of being tucked in front of it. I remember how DB used to play: correctly. I "asked" her about it, and imagined she used the "proper" brass embouchure of pursing your lips like you've finished saying the letter "m" out loud.

In the car with my mother, suddenly and unexpectedly we were on a strange but beautiful road through an arid landscape with large, low, bulbous overhead lights, so I said to her this is an unfamiliar location and she said yes; then I realized one or both of us might be dreaming it in the car and she might be asleep at the wheel so I warned her! Remained non-lucid.

first waking: about 2 hours

second waking: about 5 hours (?)

+ [f, vague] something about chess. Analyzing a position? something else about something. haha. just a faint impression of something else.

took 4mg galantamine and 600mg AlphaGPC. Never made it back to sleep, got up around 8.5 hours. Got very physically relaxed and felt a few "jerks" of approaching sleep but never made it over the hump. Happens sometimes when I'm maintaining mindfulness / lucid presence a lot during the day in the beginning.

Boo hoo.

looked through an old dream journal i kept before i found this website and saw this:

6/4/23 (6th of April)
"i was walking down a sunny neighbourhood street with a group of people my age that i didn't recognise. Then i walked off with one of the girls from the group and ended up at her house, asleep in her lap as she watched a video in the middle of the night."

I don't remember this at all, but I thought it was cute :- )

BT early, ~ 22:30
reading TYoDaS before bed, feeling calm, very drowsy.

first waking with recall, about ~05:00?

+ restaurant, seat at table sit left side other guy right, people already eating so no point in ordering and waiting a long time, circular table, this place is famous for it's (lentils? onions? lamb? I see a dish),

+ in resort city? dirty feet. I want to wash them before moving on with my travels. I look down and see them, there's dirt on and about my toes and the top of my foot

+ bandit/gang invades room, hiding in large pit in room under blanket, guy starts stabbing around with toenail scissors, I decide to come up before he accidentally stabs me under the comforter, he stabs very painfully in finger tip and drives the point in painfully, I fight back and pull it out of my finger with great effort, I think our group could fight these guys back and want us to resist the attackers

+ In basement [of CH judging by the layout], I look down and see tiny things skittling/crawling across the floor. Then later they become ants carrying eggs [WL day residue], sweep them up, tiny broom ineffective, I remember there being a huge/wide broom back by the stairs that works better, . Then there is a guy and he's using the special device that is put high up on a shelf it's like a desktop computer seen from the back with foam and controls, I (another guy simultaneously?) saying "you can't use that." Then I clarify, " Yes you can absolutely USE it, but without an advanced degree you won't understand what's going on and can't contribute."

+ [f] putting strange little cartoon-y creatures with huge eyes ("AI"?) into computer cases/boxes

[Super long BTB, fully relaxed but very long to sleep. Get close to sleep several times. I feel myself starting to enter sleep but my mind prevents it/pulls back a couple of times. I again do the "pretend to be asleep" and it takes a long time but it seems to work. I also do SSILD and on the body cycle totally relax my body, sight cycle totally relax and unfocus my eyes, and on the audio cycle I work on stopping using my eyes to "see" and instead use only my mind's eye. Beginning of Hypnogogia but it never really goes anywhere]

2nd waking w/recall, about 07:30?

+ outside in city standing on sidewalk next to street, there are buildings on each side of the intersection so visibility left and right on the main street is limited. an older woman is sliding backwards down the slight incline on a sort of sled heading towards the main street, I just watch her go, she enters the road and I think that's dangerous she could be run over, and sure enough a truck comes from the left and hits her and runs over her, and stops. She is just lying there in the road, and I think I see a pool of blood around her head. I think that I should have stopped her when I had the chance when she rolled past me. I run to the street and I'm holding up my hands to warn off any more cars from entering that section of the road and hitting her again. I'm waving my arms to get them to stop/turn away. A very small car ignores me, goes around me, and continues forward (but doesn't hit the woman), I think that guy was really rude.

+ Sitting outside in a sidewalk seating area of a burrito restaurant. I'm with two other people, they are sitting across the table from each other, I'm to the left of the guy on whose side I'm sitting. I eat my food and finish it very quickly [on sensation of taste or texture]. Now I think I'm going to have to sit here while the other two people take their time finished their food. I look at the guy to my right's food, it's a bit burrito with a bright orange sauce and a bright green sauce as well. I think that is the super tasty hot/garlicky/creamy sauce that I love so much at my favorite Mexican places in SJ. I think man, that's got to be a tasty burrito. I also think it will be very messy to eat since it's so saucy.

[another waking? not sure]

+ [f] driving on a pure black and white road. Everything is full black or full white, no gray. Stripes / checkers on the road, it's a slightly twisty road

+ [f dreamlet? hypnogogia?] A brief scene of two 18-20 yo girls and some adults standing in the distance. I feel an attraction to the girls.

+ at dinner party. Sitting at table in dining room, people around the table. Then standing with the guests/hosts in the kitchen (it's an open dining room/kitchen combination room), and they're serving dessert, which is New York cheesecake. They're handing me the plates to put on to the table at each person's place. One normal piece. Then they give me a very large piece, which I put at my place because I want it . Then they hand me a plate with a VERY small piece, actually a collection of very think slivers all sort of piled together. It's so small I'm not sure where to put it. The host says "oh put that at my place" (or I imagine that?). They're also serving dessert wine?

I didn't remember eating the cheesecake, but then it's gone. I wanted to have some, slightly disappointed.

Then the party's over. The hosts are sitting at the dining table. I'm standing a bit away from it. I'm the last guest remaining. The host I see mostly clearly is the woman, with dark/black medium length hair, she's turning and looking at me. I tell them "Thank you so much for having me!" I realize it's a pain to have a guest who just doesn't leave and tell them that and that I'm going. On the other side of the table I have a large bag like a grocery bag and I look inside and see some bags of dessert, not cheesecake but some other cake/pastry, and I think that I perhaps shouldn't have these. I close the zipper on the bag, there's some guy standing nearby.

I'm at a large sink, I'm running my hands along it, I feel an irregularity like a soft spot, then I look down, and see that the entire corner is completely broken and the sink is unusable. The top material is all gone and I see underneath it a sort of structural support material (like on plastic moulded objects that help give them shape/strength). I tell the guy there that he's going to have to replace the sink. It's a huge sink, at least a yard long and very wide, practically a bathtub. I think (tell him?) that it's going to be hard to replace the sink because (I say this part) they are all built from cast iron underneath.

I was a tourist visiting a shack in a swamp in the middle of the woods with my family. We chatted about things that happened in waking life. I was lucid, but the DCs weren’t, so I didn’t mention it to them, but I had good memory of waking details. Shared all accurate info.

We ordered some food, but it never came.

The barista said they’re out of an essential incgredient needed to make our dish, but they have a food cellar with more in stock and her coworker is currently getting it.

After a while, I walked over to the kitchen and saw that the food cellar was down a set of stairs through an open door. The lights wers flickering off and on.

“Yeah. My coworker hasn’t come back yet. It’s been a while…” the barista said with apparent concern. “Someone will need to go check on her, but it’s so busy in here with all the customers.”

She seemed far too busy as she served drinks to the shack tourists. So one of my family standing by and volunteered to go.

About halfway down the stairs to the food cellar, the lights flickered again and I was like “Yeah, no.”

I backed out and told my family member to not go down there. She went down anyway and, lo and behold, she never came back.

My spouse wanted to volunteer next and I dragged her away, telling her not to go down there.

But she eventually did anyway and it got her, too.

I thought to myself that I didn’t feel like having a nightmare tonight and would not engage with it, so I went outside.

I was curious though, so I confirmed just by “knowing” that it was a monster. Originally, it was a monster for children designed to prey on kids with unfinished homework (hence the flickering lights and being in a food cellar). It was supposed to be a silly kid’s monster.

But… as logic has it, you can’t do homework if you’re dead.

So it started killing people (kids, adults, anyone, even people without homework due). It wasn’t just a silly kid’s monster anymore.

That’s it. I didn’t engage with it further.

first waking with recall:

~ 06:00

+ I'm in a gym, on a reclined leg press machine. The sliding back part is flat on the floor and the pressing platform is up off the ground. This one has a sliding back piece that is on rails, it moves while you're doing the exercise. I'm adjusting the mechanism and positioning of the sliding back piece so that I get the proper full range of motion for my legs with the pressing motion. There is a locking mechanism on the right side that fixes the position, it has a button on it and I'm examining it, pressing the button, and sliding around with the back piece to try to feel out the correct positioning. Then I'm doing the leg presses, I do 5 reps, then 10, but I think I should probably not do more than 5, and then I'm thinking about logging this set in my training log book. There is a (man?) standing near/off to the right, observing me?

+ walking around an office. One of the things we need to do is to deep fry a potato, but the question is, where can we find one? There are some onions here on a shelve, we cut them and they are half rotten inside. I think it should be easy to find a potato, we just need to ask around to find someone who has one.

I'm approaching the workspace / desk (out in the open) of Mel. Grf. (grad school karate girl) with another friend/colleague (guy?). MG is sitting at her desk looking at us as we approach. Her eyes/expression is "off" a bit, she looks wild with crazy eyes. The skin of her neck and traps is exposed and I want to move behind her and give her a neck/shoulder massage, as I did at least once before [TRUE]. But I wonder if she will like it or not. I decide not to.

Walking back to my workspace, it is now dark/twilight, the workspace is tiny [DS] and many difference people's workspaces are all jammed together, flimsy small desks with computer equipment on them. GyPld (company n) is there and I greet him as if I were returning from an absence, and I think he thinks that I've encroached on his workspace and that he has pushed my desk back a bit away from him.

[LONG time awake after noting keywords from this waking. Very physically relaxed but mind jumping around a lot. Thinking about my chess game from the evening, and chess in general, and then shutting this down realizing it is too stimulating. No kind of mental relaxation or targeting works. I try "surrendering" and "accepting" my situation. After almost 1.5 hours of this, I try pretending to be very tired and then pretending to be asleep. Zero mental activity, total relaxation, a complete blank. This finally works and I do fall asleep and have a second period of recalled dreams, with a waking

08:30

+ I'm outdoors with a small group of friends. We're on a snowy path/road, and leads down a hill right in front of us. The road is white with snow and very smooth, and we get the idea to slide down the hill for fun. One of us backs up a bit to get more of a running start, and slides down the hill, going very quickly. I look down and see that at the bottom of the hill a green metal gate that goes the width of the road is now completely blocking the road, and my friend is sliding still very fast right towards it. She hits on the left side of the gate where it meets a wide post, and bounces of the gate/pillar up a bit, then lies there unmoving. I know that this is my Uni friend DeniDryr, and I call, "D, are you OK?" She seems to be moving a bit so I think she's OK. I continue to look down at the bottom of the hill and see that the gate is now open, and the road blocked, I do a sort of double take at this as I don't remember seeing it being opened.

Then I want to go. I also move a bit back from the start of the hill, but now the road is uneven, not flat silppery snow, but full of potholes filled with a pool of melted snow. I'm trying to get speed going but I'm moving really slowly. Then (I think?) my friend MR is there with me, also trying to get up speed, and I say "you have to really think about moving fast!" (or s/t like that).

Then I'm through the gate and find myself immersed in water, deep below the surface and I'm swimming up towards the surface. I want to breathe but I know I can't because I'm still underwater. I think of those situations where you're underwater, and the distance to the surface seems so far, beyond what your lungs can handle. I finally break the surface, and pull myself out of the water and sit on the side of a rock or concrete place at the level of the water and look at the surface of the water for a bit

+ I'm walking through a building with lots of people. A group of people is before me. I feel bold and am probably semi-lucid at this point. I see one young lady who I think is Kelly from "The Office" and select her for "interaction". I'm walking the corridors looking for a room offering privacy. We pass one room off to the right and I look in briefly as we walk by but it is filled with people. A bit later on I choose a room (that seems to be a library?) with low bookshelves, and I pick one of these and move it aside and there are still people but I figure to heck with them, then we interact [MEO] and I wake up.

I've been contemplating on sharing this but screw it lol

I had a dream that I was at the third Island destination of Pokémon Ruby where the guy and his Pelipper Peeko bring you to with his boat.
We then ship back to Dewford Town where a group of men came together at the cavern entrance to cause all sorts of trouble.
As I walk towards the men I suddenly come to the realisation that I'm entirely naked, I hide in the local city theatre and put on a dress for the time being as I lock the glass door. A bunch of old girls I went to school with at some point in my life are all knocking on the door wanting to see me naked. A short girl whom I was classmates with in 5th grade enters to tell me about her birthday party where they're also getting naked. I go to the backstage area of the theatre and grab some shirt and pants to put on as I walk to my room (which is in the theatre for some reason) as I walk towards my room (which is my bedroom on my family home) I notice a girl on my computer writing down a questionnaire, she tries to run away but I angrily grab her and hold her as I ask her what's going on. She tells me about her bad experiences with her boyfriend and that she was writing a list with questions for me. I slowly let go of her and let her tell her story. We then chill as she's leaning her head on my shoulder, I them hear a voice telling us we should kiss so we do. I then ask if she wants to go further to which she consents, I lift her up and walk towards my door to lock it as I suck on her breasts and lay her on my bad, I'm about to go down on her when I hear the jingle of a gameshow with an announcer saying "And that, ladies and gentlemen, is a wet dream!" as the girl slowly disappeared into my bedsheets. I stare at my empty bed before waking up for real, minutes before work starts.

Wet dream within a dream, how meta.
Dream was in Dutch and English.

S/O = someone
S/L = something like
CH = childhood home

earlier:

+ in a store standing in a crowd, really tightly packed with people. Thereare shelves in front of me and to my right, curving around, they are about eye level high. There are some of my favorite (childhood?) stuffed toys [FALSE] sitting on top of the shelves, about 3. This store is in a foreign country, and I want to take pictures of these toys, and I say "(s/o) will be amazed that these have traveled all the way around the world and now are in <country>! I bet they (s/o) never thought they (the toys) would end up here!" And I'm asking people to hold them so I can snap a picture.

[I had forgotten this dream! Thankfully I jotted down key words at the waking]

+ In a house with a huge party going on. I'm on the first floor. It is a large open room with a vaulted ceiling and the 2nd floor is like a big balcony looking down on the main living room where I'm standing. I'm looking up at the crowd on the 2nd floor, and they're looking down at me. The people are packed shoulder to shoulder. I see the face of old University friend NsfIsk standing a few people back from the front of the crowd, we make eye contact. I say S/L yes it's me, <my name>." And NI says, "it's me, NI", and I say, "Yes I see you!". I was standing on the right side of the balcony on the first floor. Then I'm on the 2nd floor, on the left side, and I'm thinking about the huge load of weight all these people must be having on the 2nd floor structure, they're dancing and hopping (and the floor is moving?) I'm thinking about the vertical support beams, and how they're probably barely holding up this load.

+ walking outdoors, I'm following some path. (There are some rhythmically moving obstaces? Not sure. I make it past). I walk under an overpass, and now it's like I'm in a wide long cave with rough stone walls, more like a stone hill, leading up and to the left. I see "footprints" embedded in the rock, and I take this as a hint that I should follow this path. The path opens out to a wide open atrium/room like in an office building, and the wall is now made of rubber with tendrils extended out, these I think are to grab your feet and hold them so you can walk down the wall. I do this and end up standing on the floor in the atrium

later:

+ I'm outside on the deck at my CH. I'm trying to watch something? The idea comes up (s/o recommends?) to use a projector and project it on the oak tree across from the deck as a "screen", and I look to my left further down the deck and see a large projector system sitting right there on the railing. (Mom and dad are there?). I project the image and it's pretty well seen there on the trees across from the deck. Then I'm there close to the "screen" and I'm adjusting the alignment between the screen and the projector, trying to get them to meet and to be squarely aligned so the image is not distorted to one side or the other.

+ at a ski resort, with a group (of kids?), I'm a sort of leader/organizer, I'm lining up skis along a long stand for the group members to take. I'm trying to get the skis to stand upright, I sort of "weave" the skis between long horizontal slats that make up the stand/fence. I take my skis and I notice that the toe fastener/clamp doesn't look quite right, like it's not going to hold my foot well, but I manage to adjust it to hold my foot satisfactorily.

My (deceased) MIL Z is there, and I'm a little bit worried about how she's going to be on her skis. I want to tell her how to stop using the "wedge" procedure. But to my surprise she seems quite adept on the skis, moves easily, even as we're approaching the start of the hill, does a sudden 180 and is skiing backwards! All so easily. "Wow, I think, she's really good and will have no problems." We start out on the (gentle) downwards slope, and she immediately demonstrates that she's able to use the wedge action to control her speed.

We come around a bend and the ski valley is laid out before us, shining and white, extending far into the distance. I think it is a lovely sight and say so. Down the hill are some fancy structures, round like a carousel, (made of snow?) very ornate. I think there is some sort of event (tour?) going on there and we ski there. Some staff member (yng woman?) is there, [this part I don't remember well], (something about a vacuum cleaner?), and she's saying why there won't be any access for us there inside the buildings.

1. Turtle Ruin Islands (LD)
I aware as hypnogogic images on a screen appear. I'm looking at a square screen with a figure of a dark skinned man in a yellow outfit dancing around. I want to hold this scene until I feel the dream is stable enough to transition into. I remain aware and begin to feel that I can move my dream body. I stand up in the area to my right, take a step and feel that I'm ready to begin exploring. I make my way to the foot of the bed and there's a circular mirror in which I see my reflection, in my periphery - as I'm still looking at the screen - and see a portion of my body as well as the device I'm holding. I look my my body is compressed toward the midpoint and I have a slight short mohawk. It looks a bit strange, so I turn to my right, toward two windows, and decide to phase through and begin exploring. I realize I'm in The Meadow. I fly down to the concrete area below and turn to my left, considering where I want to explore. I see pale rocks which are stacked up in a triangular fashion, in perfect balance (1). There's a small plant next to the formation as well. I make my way past this area, around the edge of the house and through the gates. It seems that the entire landscape of the meadow changed, however. Instead of the typical M Street with the large house and 'treehouse' area beyond, the entire area is simply a wooded landscape in broad daylight, with leaves on the trees being quite sparse. I decide to try one of my dream goals: element manipulation - specifically conjuring a tornado. I wave my right arm, yet nothing happens. I wave both in a circular motion, yet nothing happens once again to my surprise. I then decide to try to throw a fireball, and nothing happens. I conclude with a trying to try lightening, and this doesn't work either (2). I continue a bit down the wooded slope and decide to try to head to the persistent realm I incubated: The Forest (3). I see a large tree with a very thick trunk and phase through easily.
--In the black void, I imagine music playing, and a soft fantasy melody begins playing. I imagine an area with greenery in my visual field.
--
I suddenly appear in an area with a concrete floor with building surrounding me which are roughly two stories high. One of the building has a Bowser marking on it. I have the though: what the f***? I don't know why I would have popped up in such a random scene after imagining the forest area. I decide to explore anyway and begin flying upward. As I ascend, I see that there are actually many floating structure beyond the area I'm in. All of these structures are in the middle of a massive body of water, possibly an ocean. I fly further upward and continue forward, viewing a large floating black inflatable structure filled with more Bowser symbols (4). I fly to the edge of this area and turn right, trying to find a cooler area to explore. To my right, I see two large islands, in shapes that somewaht resemble dagger blades. The islands are covered with dense, dark green foliage as well as the bones of some massive turtle creatures. The area essentially resembles ruins. I think that this would be an awesome place to have a persistent realm in, although it's not quite the forest I imagined. I curve around in flight and begin heading toward the back end of the second island. As I get closer, I soon end up in a false awakening in which I'm drying to DEILD using head vibrations.


2. The Mansion Walls (LD)
I'm lucid outside of a large building resembling a mansion with two stories. It appears to be situated on an elevated piece of land with a cliff roughly 30 meters ahead of me. It appears to be just before sunrise, and the scene has a slight amount of sunlight in it. There is a young boy, roughly five years of age in front of me. He has blonde hair and reminds me of my nephew. I have the instinctual drive to teach him some dream yoga skills while where in the scene together. I walk up to him and tell him I'm going to teach him some dream yoga. I turn toward the mansion, and tell him, "First, we're going to practice phasing". I explain that you simply have to fully expect that you can walk right through it, and you simply shouldn't think about it. I phase right through the wall and end up in the first room within the mansion, which is dimly lit, containing antique furniture. The boy follows me. I continue into the second room which has a large glass door to the right which seems to lead downward. I explain to the boy that we're going to practice phasing single body parts. I raise my hand and slowly stick in through the glass, moving in slowly downward. I continue into the next room by phasing through the wall to my left. I end up in an office area with brown furniture along with a lamp and a desk in the center. I explain to the boy that we're going to practice transforming objects next. I decide the chair is too big and head toward a shelf in the back of the room. On a dark, mettalic, rounded tray sits roughly eight to ten silver Hotei Buddha figurines facing the wall. I decide to try to transform these. At this moment, the dream fades and I'm in a black void. I imagine my hands grabbing ropes which support a wooden bridge. I imagine that this bridge is in the treetops of The Forest. As the imagery extends, my lucidity drops and I slip into a non-lucid in which my body slowly descends via a rope.
Notes.
(1) The rock formation seems to be a re-creation of images from the book 'Yumi and the Nightmare Painter' that I just started, it which Yumi stacks rocks as a part of her rituals.
(2) Possibly I need to try the tornado outside of this realm.
(3) No official name yet - I plan on learning it once I get there.
(4). The imagery was probably influenced by a podcast I listened to the day before in which a lady was talking about Mario chasing her in a NLD

Visiting JadeGreen and Manei (DILD) 07.20.2023

There was this whole dream about Halloween and getting in trouble for some reason during a celebration but I can't really remember it all. The next section of dream I remember clearly I am in a basement with some friends that I don't know IWL making a diorama of a graveyard out of candy. We go up stairs and the friends mom is really worried about us and sort of mad because, "We are letting the demons in." and other crazy religious things. I randomly think to do a reality check and can breath through my fingers so I became lucid.

I summon my Robes of Anorak and pull up a heads up display. This time it is bright and vivid. I tap the search bar and then say, "Woue". The map changes to show a tropical area with a river ending in a river delta. I snap my fingers and suddenly I am in a mangrove where the plants have black leaves. This time I remmebered to look up! The sky is cloudless and blue. To my right there was a binary sun. Theses stars orbit eachother in such a beautiful way. Currently they are fairly close but not overlapping. Then I look up and spot one of the moons. It was smaller than our Earth moon. Then to my left, high up in the sky, is the large ringed planet, Asuma, that Woue is a moon of.

I start flying looking for JadeGreen and Manei's beach. It doesn't seem like I am on that island. I still have the HUD up and I look at the map. This area is mostly mangroves but there are also some markers on the map. I fly past one and see that it represents a modern looking building. I hear a familiar voice so I fly closer. On a second floor balcony I see Manei and Hade! I fly down to them and run up to Hade to give him a hug. He is shorter than me in this form. As I hug him his body flashes purple where I contact him. I stand back and poke his chest and sure enough there is some sort of magic armor made out of small triangular segmants less than a centimeter from his body. "You have made some improvments to your ward!". "Yes I have. I wanted to be prepared incase we sparred." he says. Then I go up to Manei. She is much taller than me and wearing a crop top and a necklace with sea shells, "It is good to see you in dream form." I say and give her a hug.

They guide me into the building and there is a red skinned alien sitting on the couch eating fruit. I talk to her a bit and then wake up.

This lucid is from the 18th. I was camping that day so its only been written up and posted now.

I am walking in some sort of christmas themed town. It feels like being in one of those decorative village sets you sometimes see during the holidays save for the fact that everything is inhabited and at full scale. The set is placed in some fjord with tall mountainous terrain surrounding it on three sides and the open icy ocean around us. There is a very large yellow and orange brick road that has been cleared of snow. It is nighttime with a mostly clear sky (a few clouds present) and a large number of dream figures are making their way along the road. I see children, adults, and many many of santa's elves.

I become lucid and take off to fly. I note that flying seems easier, I no longer seem to be running into as many negative issues with flying such as struggling to get enough thrust or maintain altitude. I remark to myself in the dream that this is probably one of the many positive side effects of having Jonathan be behind bars. I fly around for a bit above the village doing some stunts and studying how the village distorts and warps as I fly up high and then come back down again, the sensation of flying in a dream never gets old.

I then recall my dream goal to spar with madmonkey. I remember in some instances he described meeting on the moon. I look and see the moon very low on the horizon over the ocean. I decide I will fly there. I fly out over the ocean, hitting the proverbial gas to accelerate and the dreamworld begins to warp around me. What I expect is to fly straight at the moon, the earth will slowly curve out under me and I will fly up higher and higher. Continuing to accelerate this will result in the earth curving away under me as I take a shallow trajectory up into space.

As I continue to accelerate I see the moon abruptly shrink in size. It goes from being roughly the normal size to maybe a third the size it would be in waking life. I come to a stop. Looking back a long ways I see over the ocean (which is dotted with icebergs) the village is a tiny speckling of lights in the distance and the surrounding terrain is quite small. I'm a good few kilometers out to sea.

I back up a little bit and the moon returns to normal size. I move back forward again and the moon is tiny once more. I note this odd invisible threshold over the ocean that upon passing through it actually causes the moon to appear smaller even though by crossing the threshold I am getting closer. I decide I will continue on my journey.

I fly some more and reach the edge of the world. Instead of curving out from under me, the world just ends with the ocean spilling off into outer space like asgard or the edge of the world in sinbad or something. I stop to examine this, though for not as long and then proceed to the moon. As I get closer the moon changes again.

The moon is now a concentric series of gyroscopic rings, each rotating on different axes, with a sort of wormhole or celestial object in the middle, floating in space. I think it best resembles the wormhole machine from the movie contact. The rings are made of a white-ish stone and decorated in complex runes and relief carvings or statues which have color applied to their distinct regions. I notice many of the carvings have a religious or spiritual nature. I see one that is a strange eye symbol between two roman columns. Another appears to be jesus on a cross, the cross is brown, jesus' crown is green and theres blood around the nails binding him to the cross. Yet another appears to be series of chakra gates each colored appropriately, and another appears to be some hindu deity, colored in blue with a golden halo. There are many more carvings, many of them unrecognizable to me.

Intuitively I know that this is the moon as viewed on some higher dimensional plane, and these carvings and runes each provide supernatural power to their respective entities. I know that this is all entities that earth has ever or will ever believe in. Some are from lost or obscure faiths and others are for faiths that will not be prominent for thousands of years to come. I then feel myself being pulled into the central wormhole and grab on to one of the rings. The ring has a carving of a santa hat just above the much larger jesus carving.

I make the connection that christmas is a christian holiday and therefore santa's source of power is next to the one representing christianity. I grab onto the fuzzball thing on the top of santa's hat (I'm sure it has a name I am not going to google it). It's a stone orb about the size of my chest. I feel myself slipping and drive my fingers into the stone to get a better grip. The stone cracks, but also yields and feels like clay, my grip is secure. I feel somewhat conscientious about defacing this construction but resolve that my own security.

I see the wormhole flash red. Once. Twice.

I sense an entity is very confused.

The wormhole flashes with red energy three more times in quick succession.

"The teleporter is jammed. Its a safety system someone or something is inside of it."

"They are in big trouble."

I know they are talking about me. I intuitively know that this construct is some engine which enables Santa to magically teleport and that me being inside of it has tripped a safety system. I then see through the wormhole that it leads to a christmas village (a different one than before, this one has a large decorated tree in the center and other, larger buildings.)

I let go and fall into the wormhole. Without much fanfare I arrive at the destination I could see, standing on a large iron platform in a brick plaza. It has a complicated rune pattern on it which somewhat resembles a 2d flattened version of the 3d gyroscopic ring construct. Santa claus stands over me. He seems genuinely angry. Not the "you're going on the naughty list" kind of restrained anger santa is usually shown to have, he is genuinely bonafide pissed and demands an explanation.

I proceed to rapidly but thoroughly reprise the entire dream beginning with me becoming lucid in a dream, all the odd things that I saw and phenomenon that I observed. Not only is he no longer angry but he belly laughs saying something about how he thought I was the grinch or boogeyman trying to do a magical attack, but upon realizing I was a lucid dreamer who just got lost realized I had no harmful intentions.


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I was in some cave or ancient ruin deep underground, exploring with a team that included Rorkue from Atlantis the lost empire, Carter from Halo Rech and Batman (okay… interesting choice of characters.) We reach a large flooded sort of stone labyrinth deep underground that we must swim through. I am told we must simply hold our breath through this part.

I swim underwater, discovering I can breathe and possibly becoming lucid. I think I remember using the amethyst bow here though the significance of it seemed lost on me. Upon entering the labyrinth we encountered three or four of these large sea monsters. They had a fishlike body and a bull’s head with large horns. I somehow related this to the original legend of the minotaur being found in a labyrinth.

-+-

There was another lucid dream on this night. I recall being in this mountainous country at a train stop. The sky was a deep forest green and cloudy and the terrain was black. I see a train track with a number of large black robotic arms positioned around it. On the end of each arm is a large green rotating brush, like one might see at a car wash.

A steam locomotive pulls into the train stop where I am waiting. It seems to be highly detailed within the dream but otherwise of a fairly normal appearance being made of a dark gray metal with some golden livery. The locomotive exudes power. It feels powerful. The robotic arms descend on it and begin cleaning it, even though there is little in the way of visible grime or dirt.

I become lucid and fly away from the scene, desiring to find MadMonkey for our sparring match. Other stuff happens that I do not recall. I find myself in a janitorial closet somewhere and wake up.