Sozu

I had a dream (not fragment) upon waking up this morning, I did write to my gf that I ate candies in the dream. Now it's been few hours after and I didn't bother write down the whole dream down when I woke up - instead I was lazy going back to bed.
What I can remember though, I were at my home and my parents were here too. And I knew I wouldn't been eating anything (because fasting irl), but I struggled hard and had received candy, so I just ate it all.

(since of having the dream I was thinking, I'll need start record/write down when I wake up, new year and perfect time to do a new start on several things and hold onto them)

Salesman
I was at my dads house and I heard someone knocking on my door. I went to the door and there some guy had already walked in.
It was a salesman who seemed to wonder if I wished to buy something from him. I instantly said no and he started walk away to the street.
As I turn back in my rec room I see it's very clean the whole table, I do remember I have had that table in a mess and I couldn't recall that I've cleaned it. I stick my head out and still seeing him, I tell him to wait.
I go indoors again and looking around the table and I remember that I'd my gopro on the table but I couldn't see it anywhere around.
I quick go outdoors but he is already gone. I thought he must have stolen my gopro among other stuffs I had on the table.
I proceed with going into my room to look around for the last time and there I happen to find my gopro. Being lucky that it's not stolen.

The end



Ex gf
I met my ex on the bus. She happened to be single again. Talked just a little, as she told me she is single I asked what happened and who broke up with who, as I was curious and to keep the conversation going.
She said that her boyfriend (now ex) broke up with her with similar reason that I broke (or tried to break up) with her, of simply she being very needy and clingy. I was like alright.
I got asked to go home with her, and I was like sure.
I knew in my mind I would never want to get together with her in a relationship anymore.
As we were at her place we layed in bed, and from there it got sexual. Meanwhile she asked to come together again. I was weak and said yes somehow.
But I knew in my mind it wouldn't work out, but thought to give it a shot anyway.
Next day we were going to my grandpas place, it was winter time, loads of snow. We had to even dig us down to the mailbox.
Later that night we were going to sleep, my grandma somehow had recording on so she would hear if we had sex. I didn't care at all, she came down and said like "oh I hear you haven't had much, maybe because it's stuffs to do outdoors this year with this much snow". Upon my sleep I also thought I don't care at all, that on this recording I will need to record my dream next morning as well.

The end

I was in my dads house, my dad had given me some newer TV in my room which I'd like high up in my room. It was a sunny day as the sunshine fell into my room. So I put the blinders on the windows on slightly as well.
However outside my window I saw some people outside, I saw my old friend Björn who's an anarcist, communist and anti-racist. He was with some friends who I also seen from the primary school.
They saw into my window and I was quite scared as I thought they knew I'm not communist as they're, that they may see me as a racist.
Anyway I was needed to go to the school and I was quite scared to go. Wasn't sure what I would bring with me, so I took some chips, water etc, I also put some cash in my pants as I was afraid to be robbed. Also took with me my old gopro in case of.
Then I went outdoors and I saw nobody, and the area I was in was some kind of expensive hotel. I passed by some hot girls who seemed to know me, but didn't say much. I continued to walk down and suddenly I met old classmate Björn as well of a guy named Abraham. We started talk a little bit, and I was so scared that they thought I would be racist or so. But they seemed not to. I asked what they were doing here, and they said they were going to fix some people. So I told them alright, I'll just go to the gym.

So I went to the bicycle, but I forgot to take my air pump, due my tire was leaking air as in real life. So I couldn't take the bicycle unless I walked all way back which I didn't want to do.
It was very sunny day in summer, and many people were around, and even bicycle pumps were there so I used one for my tire.
However, the whole tire went really swole, I thought it's good now and I shall start cycle now.
But some hole went on the tire and all air leaked out. So I thought well I can't go with the cycle now and wasn't sure if I were going to the gym anymore, if I would need to walk.

That's it.

Aurora photography with tourists
I was at my dads home, my dad was also at home.
Meanwhile I hosted a female via Couchsurfing, one who I found to use blablacar as well, she were later going to karesuando.
I had to go school and couldn't hangout with my guest, as well I had no idea what she would do all day and if my dad would be home or not.
On lunch time at 12:00 we had lunch and I cycled home, our teacher had told us something about we could head home for the rest of the day if we completed some work, I didn't listen careful enough, I thought I will have time to go home anyway for 1 hour at lunch and then I can go back if needed.
When I came home I checked the mailbox, and I had some packages, books and stuffs from pharmacy in there. I took it all out and carried it, but accidentally dropped it in the snow that was partly melted, like slush. I got pissed that the book would get wet now.
I went indoors and I met dad, but went out again to get in the rest of the packages. However I didn't find them that easy.
It started get sudden dark outdoors so I turned on my flashlight on my phone, found some more posts but thought I'd miss something like the box from pharmacy.
But I went indoors again after a while and found out I do have the box from pharmacy.
I also see 3 packs of cat food, so assumed it was dad due he got a cat now.
I went to the kitchen dropped it off to him, and then to my room to drop off my stuffs.

Then I went outdoors again, and somehow I continued try find something near my mailbox.
Moments later some travelers walking nearby, she asks me if I can help her take photo of the aurora that was currently on. First I thought I should move out of my way as I was almost blocking her view.
But then I thought that she wants me to take a photo of her in front of the aurora.
I walked up to her and asked her if she wants me to take a photo of her. She said no, that she only want photo of the aurora and wants me to help.
So she gave me her equipment, it was a DSLR camera with a gimbal, it was really weird and heavy. I had no idea how to use it even, it had two buttons in the front and one button in the back.
I tried it but couldn't even balance it, when I pressed one of the button the whole camera went crazy spinning around superfast.
I asked them what their idea is, if they're going to film the aurora as they bring this gimbal, if the camera now is that good.
But they told me that they're going to make a timelapse, I asked them if they wouldn't need a tripod for that. But they seemed not to understand me, it seemed like they wanted make some kind of handheld timelapse moving video.

And that's end of that dream.



Hunted by two girls, warzone with AK47
I was away traveling, I met two girls and they wanted me to come to their place. It was some kind of warzone, they kind of forced me to go with them.
Suddenly I was in the warzone and I'd some kind of sniper without scope, I killed some people with that weapon until I found an AK47 from an enemy I'd killed. I grabbed it and sprayed down a few people until I had to reload. To reload I just took out the magazine and put it back in - and it worked, it was reloaded.
I continued fight until the girls captured me again and tried take me further in to their warzone.
Short after I managed to escape, during my escape I had recall that via my fitbit I shall be able to reset my location and make myself teleport. I thought that would be the best option here to get away. I tried to find in the settings of where I can do that, but I didn't find it.
I managed to make it out the warzone and when I arrived to the city I went straight into a shop, a shop we had been before we walked into the warzone. I hoped the girls wouldn't go in to search me there. I was hidden beneath a desk.
Meanwhile I tried find function to teleport or even to reset the fitbit so I can apply new IP adress and maybe make it teleport me. But during my search for it, I saw the two girls coming back to the store.
One of them stopped in front of the desk, I saw her eyes looking towards me, I looked back.. I was sure that if I see her eyes, she will see mine. True that, they got me, threw me into their trunk in back of their car.
I thought this is the only chance I have, that now I need to find this function.

The end


Ex-gf
I was at my dads home. I happened to be on my computer at first. It became evening and my gf came home to me.
We were making some food together, I made some hamburgers. She said she already had been eating so she wouldn't be eat much. She also said she had been home at my place at 4:30pm, but I hadn't seen her. But she told me she were walking her dog. I thought still it's weird I haven't seen you until now in the later evening (~8pm). She changed her mind and said that yes it's true what I say that she hasn't been here until now.
I thought whatever you're here now at least.
We went to my livingroom to watch movie and eat food. I was kinda stiff and wanted to bang, but she didn't want to. I pushed her gently off from the sofa, two times and both times she hit her head in the floor, but she was fine.

The end

I was at home at my dads house. It was a summer morning and I were about to go school, but before I wanted make sure everything was really shutted down.
I went back to my room and found my computer was still running even though I'd press on shut off, the screen was off but the fans in the computer were still on - so I turned it off on the backside.
Then my sister suddenly were home and she were gonna start the washingmachine, I told her not to do it if she's not going to be home all day, as well she had loaded the washingmachine with barely any clothes so I told her to fill it up instead. I pressed on a button to finish the washing immeditly.
I felt in a rush for school, I went to the office where I'd my backpack and suddenly I felt that I needed to have a shit, I couldn't hold myself and a second later I'd a pile of diarrhea on the floor.
I went to toilet to gather paper and I told my sister that I just need to take up some shit I'd and told her it looked like melted chocolate.
As I wiped up shit I noticed a pack of toiletpaper was nearby that also had some diarrhea on it, so I grabbed that paper and wiped up all diarrhea.
Then I were walk to the hall to get my outdoor clothes and rush to school.

the end.

I was at my dads house, but instead of dad living there, it was my mum who lived there.
My room was in the office.
My mum was about to go work early, or around 8am she had to leave. Meanwhile I'd no plans so I didn't need to wake up early.
At 11:27 I woke up by messenger notification, it was my friend Midu who wrote some sentance in bad Swedish grammar who he probably used Google translate for, though spelling also was incorrect.
I started to type the sentance in correct form when he seemed to notice it and say "oops" like if he knew that I woke up by him. Then he asked me what I am eating.
I continued write the correct sentance to him.
I didn't get time to answer on what I am eating, instead the doorbell rang. I wrote BRB to Midu as I were about to walk to the outdoor, which I somewhat thought was weird due I thought that the bell doesn't sound like that nor it should work.
Suddenly I woke up in real life slowly, to the sound of my alarm on my app Timely.

Was a long time I logged a dream, previous morning I remember to record my dream though! Here it is

My dad and sister had the idea to go north Finland, they wanted all 3 of us to go there by car. Once there it started to snow and their idea was to start go south through some forest.
I was very worried about internet not working there, as I need to hack within 24 hours for my Sojourner medal in Ingress - so I don't lose a day (again) and have to start over, however dad didn't really care about it.
At the evening when we were going to sleep we got into some place that looked like my dads house (where I currently live irl), my dad had his own room, my sister had her room (guestroom now) and I had mine.
However, my sister didn't want to sleep in her room somehow, instead she was going to sleep in my room. I just wanted to sleep because I was so tired, but I couldn't because she wasn't ready to go sleep.
Then one of her friends called her, and her friend was so loud. They were in the kitchen emptying the dishwashing machine, talking and made noises. I got pissed off and told her to go sleep in her own room.
But no she didn't want to, instead they decided to go sleep outside my window.
I tried to fall asleep yet again.



The end

Was a while ago I wrote down my dreams. I still keeping a dream journal though I hadn't any much recalls as stress came to my life, stress cus of job, and just anger and disappointment because I didn't get into the military educationi that I been worrying for over 2 months or so, all because of my gluten allergy.

Anyway, here is last nights recall

Location: Gf's mums apartment
Bedtime: 22:40
First wakeup: Sometime during night, 5am maybe?
Final wakeup: 06:45


Gas stuck on snowmobile (dream)
I was at my grandpas (dads dad) place, in a village where he live.
It was winter, lots of snow. We were having the snowmobile outside, on a small pile of snow.
My grandpa were trying the gas on it, and somehow it got stuck and it drove away from us (nobody who sat on the snowmobile).
My dad tried to stop it, he drove his MC to get stop on it.

There recall ended.


Willys (dream)
I were at the grocery store named Willys. I had not got the extra price of an product (happened in real life) and I were going to ask them about it, and about some other products that I am interested in buying.
However, the personal were very busy, and it was a queue following one worker who took care of one person at a time, so I had to wait.
I looked down at the freezers and found a big sausage (falukorv in Swedish) that I wanted to buy, it costed about 30 SEK / kilo, and it was about 512 gram, so I thought it will be very cheap for that sausage.

Packing (fragment)
I were at my dads house packing a bag with clothes as I were going to my grandpa (dads dad), even though I really didn't want to go there, I had to pack bag and follow anyway.

Alright, I have some dreams and fragments I have written up in my physical dream journal that I haven't written here, because of lazyness and busyness the days I had the recalls. Now however, I will write them up here.


8th April
Location: dads home
Bedtime: 01:40
Wakeup: 08:00
Notes before bed: ADA, Dream Yoga

Swimming hall (dream)
I was in some kind of swimming hall where they had sliders and swimming pool. It was a long queue, but once I got there I talked to the woman about all kind of things. I was 'orny but she wasn't interested.
I didn't dare to go for the slider as I had my iPod with me that I didn't want to get water damaged.
The queue to the slider had to wait a very long time on me as I took long time on me.

Meeting and sweets (fragment)
My friend wanted to take the bus to the meeting we were going to. Also we later bought sweets/candies mixed with tacos for about 4999 SEK.

Lego (fragment)
I was playing with lego. Some mean dude had kidnapped somebody and through the lego I could communicate with them.

9th April
Location: dads home
Bedtime: 23:40
Final wakeup: 07:58

Notes before bed: All Day awareness, Reality Check

Trip plan (fragment)
Me, my friend and some old friend were going for a trip to a city about 50-200km away. My dad didn't like the idea at first but later he said it didn't matter for him, that we can do it if we really want to.

10th April
Location: dads home
Bedtime: 01:00
Final wakeup: 07:20

Notes before bed: I dreaming

Military education (fragment)
I was in a classroom with a class, and my old classmate Andreas were there, he told me that he is also going to start the military education and he told me to choose the base/home defense.

Fragment
I was with my gf, her dad had went on vacation to another country


12th April
Location: dads home
Bedtime: 01:30
Final wakeup: 09:00

Extra points (fragment/dream)
I were going to do the basic military education test. My gf were with me.
It was in some kind of forest we were in.
They were also giving extra points if I were having intercourse/sex with somebody. So me and my gf were going to do so.


13th April - already written it up in earlier entry


15th April
Location: gf's apartment
Bedtime: 22: ??
First wakeup: 23 : ??
Second wakeup: 01 : ??
Third wakeup: 01 : ??
Fourth wakeup: 02 : ??
Fifth wakeup: 04:45
(I had a huge cold, worst night ever, impossible to sleep)

XXX-star (dream)
I had intercourse with a pornstar from Brazzers after I had helped her with a lightweight flightplane she had.
She wanted long wings on the plane, that I accidently broke under the sink with water). But she forgot that she needed the airplanes parts that she quickly scale off. I were to her support.
Then it looked like she took me from behind, she were rubbing her body to my butt and it quite hurted.

Neighboor stalker (dream)
I were in a house with my gf. Jörgen my dads neighboor were messing with us. He were looking into the windows and spied on us. We were covering up our windows with blinds but he didn't stop trying to look into our windows.
He were threating/hounding us to get to the city and meet him for a fight or something.

Location: gf's apartment
Bedtime: 22:30
First wakeup: 01:30
Second wakeup: 07:20
Final wakeup: 10:00

Phone scratches (lucid dream)
I were in my gf's room. I had the phone in the bedside table, but picked it up from there. I looked at the phone and discovered a large & hard scratch on the phone. I didn't believe in it and I thought it must be a dream I am in.

Right after it became black for a second and then I woke up in real life and thought that I was correct about that it was a dream.
unsure if I shall count this as a lucid dream. Not 100% sure of it, but quite a 90%(?) that I were aware in the dream. Just didn't get to make reality check or get further.

Old 'friend' (fragment)
I had given my old Habbo account to this old 'friend' Laura (knew her some years ago). And she were playing the game a lot but somehow her room was very empty (not completely empty, but just a couple of furnitures).

Inside a game (dream)
Me and somebody were inside a game. It was some kind of labyrinth almost, we went across weird gardens etc. It somehow reminded me of lego too. While in the game we also listened to a techno radio named NE Radio. We found potatoe chips and I picked some up and put them in my wallet so I could eat them later if I wanted.

The basic military education test (dream)
I was on the basic military education test, it was located in some ICA grocery store.
It was mostly girls there, and most of them looked skinny. The leaders was 50/50 men and womans, and they were also quite skinny. The guys who were there looked quite so young, around 15 year old or so.
However, the very big leader/boss of the test were a woman in maybe 40 year age and she were turned on by me.
She started to jacking off me so I got an erection. Then somehow she sent me a Facebook link that lead to some forum page where she had written about she seeking fk buddies.

Location: gf's apartment
Bedtime: 23 : ??
First wakeup: 04 : ??
Final wakeup: 08 : ??

Beauty girl (dream)
I met a cute/beautiful girl in some public waiting room that had yellow walls. Somehow we went outside same time and we got in contact. She was looking to be around my age (21 year old). But somehow it seemed that she was even younger than that, like 15 maybe?
Somehow I felt llike I were in love with her. Her personality and look was just perfect. But I knew that I already have a girlfriend and therefor I didn't go further.
She seemed to be interested too, but she knew I already have a girlfriend I think.
We talked in some seconds or so, and then we kind of splitted. Then I thought I just can be her friend and I thought I could get her number.

The number started with 073-833 but then I don't remember the other digits/numbers, it shall be 4 more.
When I woke up from the dream, I kind of wanted back into the dream and talk with her more..

[EDIT]
Oh, and she also kissed me on the cheek.
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Dollarstore (fragment)
Me and my gf were buying sweets at Dollarstore.

Quark (fragment)
I was at my job/internship or at my dads job (or both?) and searched for my quark in the fridge that actually looked like a dishwasher.
I found the quark, but I had forgotten the funlight to mix it with. So I then just took the quark and were going to head home and eat.

Right now I am a bit drunk as I been drinking 2 irish coffee (me and my gf got one each from her mum and the dude that's here, but my gf didn't like it much, so I drinked her too), + 2 other drinks that I don't know what it is but it's good k.

Today anyway, I woke up in morning. I packed gymbag, this time I choosed my backpack as I thought it might be better for my shoulders/back etc, as the other gymbag kind of put much pressure on one of the shoulder I lift it on during bike etc. Plus it have start to broke some.

Anyway, I went off to gym in morning, did strength exercises. Legs, back, abs, shoulders and chest.
Once done at gym, I went to the internship, last day there.
Was there from 9am to 2pm. Got to write on a contract, start to work there at 22th April, my first real job ever where I got to earn money. Sadly though, it's not very great salary after all (15 400 SEK in month, before tax, and in Sweden we got high tax. Maybe I get around 10 000 - 11 000 SEK. Still better than the 3000 SEK I get each month for being unemployed).

Well, after this internship I went to the store and then to my gf's mums apartment where she lives.
Waited for them to get home, as they were in city etc.
Then later, we made and ate home-made pizza, and ofc ate of it.

I watched 9 episodes of 2 and a half mens, season 10 (latest), while waiting for dinner and while eating it (pizza).

Then watched some other serie that my gf atm watching, some supernatural serie. Wasn't very great, so instead I am on the computer.

I don't want to say it, but just höhö. that's a secret code that I only know as I consider it too personal to write out. I just write it because I will know more if I will read back in my journal.

Now I just listen to music and being abit drunk and I hope I will get VIVID or LUCID dreams (I did get lucid dreams and vivid dream before when being drunk, which I am not very often, just a 2-6 times a year in average I believe, atleast the previous 2 years). Year 2012 I think I were drunk about 5 times maybe? if even that? Maybe it was only like 4.
And when I am drunk, I am not wasted (meaning, so drunk that I wont remember sh-t). I am just that drunk that I still know what I am doing etc, and I don't feel like throwing up or anything, just that somehow it does feel that I'm alittle drunkie and it's fine and fun and great.

Been lazy writing down dreams here in my journal on dreamviews. But here I write them from my physical dream journal.

2th April
Bedtime: 23:00
First wakeup: 02:28
Final wakeup: 06:00 (alarm)

Rush morning (false awaking)
I woke up in the morning and noticed on the clock that I've overslept. I started to rush/hurry with everything and thought that I'm fkd (as I would come late to internship/job).


Filming with Pewe (dream)
I was going to make a video with some dude called/known as Pewe (real name is Peter). We were outside some bar/restaurant and walked into it. The place was nice, it was red and yellow wood colors. Somewhat expensive restaurant/bar i believe.
However, we didn't find anything great to film there. But we found some other place where I shot series of photos that matched great (idk how they matched though).
Then I went home or somewhere, I laid in a bed and my gf called me and asked me when I will come to her. Time was about 10 o'clock.


4th April
Bedtime: 00:10
First wakeup: 05:45
Final wakeup: 06:00 (alarm)

Fragment 1:
Computers + internet + internship

Fragment 2:
The basic military education

Sleep over at gfs dads house (dream)
I were at my gf's dads place and we were about to sleep over there. At first we had some argument (me and my gf), but we got alright later. The argument started when me, my gf and my gf's mum watched a movie together and my gf got sad over something in the movie, but me and my gf's mum didn't care really and that made my gf mad and there argument started.
Anyway, at her dads place we had a room where we gonna sleep in. I were told to make the room darker, take out all lights etc.
But then my gf had fixed some movie that me, my gf and my gf's friend were going to watch at. But somehow, it was a sort of game that had to be installed before that.




That's it.
False awakings: +1
Dreams: +2
Fragments: +2

Today I woke up about 10am, thought for myself that I would have wake up earlier (and also go bed earlier, as I went bed next to 2am).
Anyway, I went up and did what I always use to do, which means getting my clothes on, visit bathroom, be at the computer.

After that done, I packed my gymbag and went off to the gym.
Once at the gym, I worked out for like an hour maybe.

When that done, I walked to a store in order to buy quark (for breakfast/lunch). I bought 5x500g (2,5 kg) quark, they got them quite cheap. The amount of proteins in them, is almost as cheap as protein powder I got.

When done at store I was going to walk home. However I was very worried about my bladder. I really felt like I'd to pee.
About half way home (20-25 mins of walking), I felt that I cannot hold it anymore, I need to get into the forest and do my needs there.
Once in the forest I hided behind a xmas-tree. The cars were driving by about 50 meters away from me.
I felt that I also needed to do the number two if I am going to pee. So to be sure not to get poop in my pants I digged down myself with the feets in the snow, further down so my ass wont be showing that much in case somebody would see through the trees etc.
Fixed up my panties and bent down, did pee and number two. Lucky I had some toilet paper in my jacket that I used. Also I had an empty sweet bag made by paper that I also used.

Then I continued to walk through the forest and made a shortcut way home. Didn't want to walk back as it would look suspect or so if somebody would've seen me.

Once at home, I went to the bathroom and had out some more pee and also used more toiletpaper, and changed pants (didn't see any poo marks or so though).


Anyway, most of rest day I sat behind my pc, listning to music, playing battlefield 2, etc.


Well, I think that's most of it.
There was no april jokes for me today. Didn't get joked and didn't make any joke.

Location: Home

Bedtime: 01:45
First wakeup: 07:48
Second wakeup: 09:00 (alarm)
Final wakeup: 09:59

Notes before bed: I will meet my dream guide tonight.

Work out request call (fragment)
I was at my gf's apartment. My friend called and said he isn't in Luleå but he asked if we're going to work out in the evening/night.