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I had what felt like a long dream. I was secretly dating a guy who was a public figure, like in the pop industry or something. People definitely knew exactly who he was & didn't approach him for the most part. He seemed obviously younger than me. He was very handsome & mature for his age. At first I thought he was Justin Beiber, lol but he wasn't, he was older than that & didn't look like him after all. He was very calm & seemed to be in deep thought when he looked at me & when he looked around at all the people. He was very sure of himself & projected this but not in a cocky way. More of a very calm confident person. I've never before me someone who captivated other peoples attention but knew to not push them too far. Not like this anyway.. We were at an event where he was making an appearance. It looked like a benefit w/ many stages where there were competitions going on. For example there were big areas of water that looked green w/ lights in it & big rocks all around it. Like a stage set used for a movie. People were swimming in it & challenging each other to do this or that in the water. I don't know how to explain it. There were people all around us but he was extremely calm & cautious. Like he was trying to protect me from all of these people. I was telling him he didn't have to tell anyone about me & he calmly told me that he wanted people to know. So when someone asked him if he was dating me he said yes very calmly & confidently. His calm energy was very contagious I guess because my demeanor was suddenly very very unusually calm. In fact we were both unusually calm. We then were able to walk around holding hands & he still seemed very serious. As if he was calmly on alert to field any questions about this new romance that would now be scrutinized by the media. But I also felt an overwhelming deep connection w/ him. Not your typical DC experience. It was on the lines of love & a deep emotional connection where you feel like you don't question your relationship. You just know on a deeper level w/o question what you feel is real & true & strong. Like I was in a parallel universe & this was a duel reality of my own. (I have these kinds of dreams fairly regularly where they feel like real people in connection to me.)..... Like I said this dream went on for quite sometime w/ us just walking around & he never did anything to pinpoint exactly what he did for a living. It was like his presence there was enough for whatever reason.... Eventually he pulled me aside & told me that he wanted to marry me & that he wanted to tell people tonight. Of course I thought it would seem odd to people that he had just told them he was dating me & in the same night to propose marriage would seem rather hasty. But it didn't seem hasty to me because we had seemed like we had already been together for a very long time & that because of him being a public figure had wanted to keep this part of his life to himself. It was like he was tired of hiding the relationship. And sure enough he got up on this rock wall thing & addressed the people & stated that he & I were getting married, all with great confidence & a hint of "None of you will challenge this fact because it is what I say it is" tone in his voice. And no-one objected. We were free to roam about & he now had a demeanor of relief when he talked.... So we just walked around w/ each other in a state of bliss.. And then I woke up. Like on cue or something.

This dream seemed to have a climax building throughout the dream & then when that part was over the calm set in & the dream just faded into the night & I woke up. Definitely a memorable dream. I can't categorize it as lucid because I never had that ah-ha moment & then tried to act upon it. But I did note that I was married in real life while I was dreaming & that this was definitely not an average dream so that it was okay to act this way w/ this particular man. This was something else altogether different in my mind. It was more of a dream that seemed to be rooted in a factual nature. Like this place & this person was part of another life & did not need to be put in a category. Yet, I wish there was a kind of category for things that seem like they are of an "alternate reality or dimension". I woke up feeling very calm & the dream is still there in my mind many hours later just a perfect & preserved as can be. I won't forget this dream because of the intimate nature & realness it possessed for whatever reason.

Last night was very frustrating. My husband has a restless night & it interrupted my process... I tried to induce SP & I had even more sensations than ever before but was repeated interrupted. I had jerking, whooshing, seeing a light w/ my eyes closed & I had the sensation of weightlessness & the feeling of starting to float. But like I said my husband tossed & turned all night long & it made this process stop & start repeatedly. I was so frustrated. He is usually a pretty still sleeper but does snore & then so I may have to rethink when I try to do this or possibly even where. I may try to lay in our recliner at night & see if that works. I don't know. I guess I'll think on it.


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Lucid-Red
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Side Notes-Purple

Original journal entry dated Oct. 16, 2002:

This one had me and B and S in it and then a bunch of people I don't know because I've never seen them before. We were all fixing up this old castle that was haunted and stuff, and there was this huge library in it, and it was creepy, and old, and dirty, and dusty, and dank... and then there was a store next door that was all for college stuff. And then after we were done, I moved to Antarctica and made a living fishing. I lived on an old barge! It sucked!

And then I had this dream that I was transported to an alternate reality, or the past, or something, and I was actually a ten year old boy with a red bike, and there were all of these aboriginal people, and a canyon, and then they led me to this old professor guy's lab, which looked like one of those power things from Trigun only, you know, somebody lived inside of it. Yeah. So then we found all of these notes in a sort of Call of Cthulhu-esque way, and found out that he had actually gone crazy, and then there was a landslide, and my bike got wrecked.

I've been practicing and reading about OBE and Astral Projection for quite a while, and today I had a fake dream about it.:( I thought I was having an OBE because it seems so real but it was a fake dream, again!:lol:

In my first fake OBE I was struggling to leave my body, but I was glued to it. I managed to pull half of my Astral Body out and tried to open my astral eyes but instead my I opened my physical eye and saw through, it was annoying.:P So I closed my eye and memory went to blank. I'm not sure about this one being a fake, I'm just guessing.:?

But about this one, I'm positive that it was fake because I had a paper with some random numbers on it, placed on top of my drawer. I saw the number in dreams then checked against the number in reallity, two weren't same.:panic:

I was practicing on leaving my body, I heard the buzzing noise and it got stronger and stronger, then I felt the vibrations. Then I suddenly found myself above my physical body with eyes closed. I tried to open my astral eyes but again my physical eye got opened, then I close it again. After closing both of my eyes, I tried to open them slowly and it worked, I could see through my astral eyes.:banana:

Then I tried moving my astral hand up in front of my eyes and looked at it, it was pretty normal though a little smaller than my physical hand. Then I remembered that to confirm it's a real Astral Projection (OBE) I had to check the number on top of my closet. Before than I took a look around the room and out of window. I went up and picked (!) the paper on top of the closet and looked at it. I saw the number and I was excited.

Then I went exploring the house again, but my family weren't there. So that's it, then I went back to my body and woke up only to find out it was just a fake dream.:(

The dream started some time in the past, showing a time where certain people were actually dragons. They were humanoid but had dragon-like appearances and could transform into a true dragon form at will.

This section was set up like a prologue of a book, and was set near a the base and inside of a cave system. The cave itself was very rugged, and rocks jutted out at various points of the exterior going up to a flat top, that connected to a winding pathway inside that had lava on either side. Most of the dragons were gathered near the base of this cave system, preparing for a huge battle. I was one of them, and I was excited to be about to join the battle. Without them saying anything, I knew we were going to go up against an army of regular people who were ordered to slay all the dragons by their evil king. (I watch a lot of fantasy).

Before I could join them, however, my mom and someone else, who was either a close friend or my dream brother, who were both normal people, told me not to go. I was disappointing, but I listened, and didn't enter the cave system with the other dragons.

It turned out to be a good thing, because when I looked in the caves after time had past, there were no dragons alive anymore. They had been killed by the humans.

The dream skipped later in time at that point, where the king had issued a law that anyone who protected dragons could be arrested, and for all dragons to be killed. I was one of the only surviving dragons left alive, and had been hiding my identity along with my mom and (i think) brother, who were both normal. My life had been a struggle to prevent people from knowing the truth about me, which has starting to get harder and harder, as my powers grew.

The first thing that had started to develop was snake-like eyes. They could be controlled, and made to look like human eyes, but as a grew more dragon-like this was getting harder. My family had house hopped for a few months, avoiding procedural searches for dragons in each town or city. Unfortunately, one time, we were to late in moving, and a guard had come to check if we were dragons. My mom got checked just fine, and my brother was getting checked just fine, but while they were checking him, my powers started to grow, partly due to nervousness, and partly because they were bubbling under the surface wanting to be used for some time.

Unlike normal dragons you see in fantasy, my kind of dragons, had powers in human form and dragon form that were unlike simple flying and fire breath. I could control the wind, had psychic powers, and more that I can't remember. (I'm going to try to use various methods to get back into this universe and find out what else I could do, it was so awesome).

Without my even realizing how stupid it was, I started to test these powers, and made a burst of wind blow over a nearby patch of grass. I could feel the wind from behind me blow over to the grass and make the grass bend and quiver. The wind also made the grass pulse with varying levels of light and shadow from moving up and down. As the wind subsided the guard noticed me doing it, and grew suspicious.

He said he said he would have to do a full body search, (like in airport security), and I knew if I let him he would probably realize I was a dragon. Now not sure what to do I looked at my mom, who seemed to say to try and fake it. I looked at the guard and realized, all I needed to do was stare at this man, and his mind would be mine to destroy. I didn't need to let this man search me, I could kill him in my sleep if I wanted to (pun intended). A this point the dream ended while I was deciding weather or not to kill him.

When I woke up, I used A LD induction technique I read about, and modified it to fit for the purpose of entering the dream and becoming lucid in it. Not MILD actually, it was in the thread of "Silverbullet's possible key to lucid dreaming". Silverbullet showed four youtube videos that really helped. Everyone should watch them.

While I did not become lucid, I did re-enter the dream. WOOT! The dream had skipped later though, and it was me, my mom, and my brother buying supplies at a town that stood before a huge pine woods with scattered mountains. We had realized that living in towns and cities would not be possible anymore, and we were heading to a remote location to perfect my skills so I could defend myself.

After we had gotten the supplies we found an empty area outside the city, where I transformed into my dragon form, and they put the goods in a sort of saddle bag, got on my back, and we took of scouting for a spot to train. We found a spot in the mountains away from people and the chance of forest fires, and got to training.

Sadly, I woke up at this point and never got to experience the training. But i'm hopeful that i'll visit this universe again someday. I have so many questions like: what's the name of the land, what powers do I have as a dragon, do I ever defeat the evil king, do I meet other dragons, do dragons ever walk in this universe normally again.

Now I sound like it's a bad movie or something. But I do want to get back to this universe again, if only to experience being a dragon again.

Last night I was a sort of vigilante private investigator that could shift between states of reality (ie, there was reality, then there was this second state where things in that state were semi transparent and could only interact with objects/people in the same state. When I was in that state I could also cause other objects/people to shift into that state as well). My partner (who has the same shifting skill) and I were in an early 1900s city trying to figure out who ruined a certain scientist's groundbreaking medical research. His lab (on the 9th floor of a 12-story building) had been totally burned and the fire had severely damaged the surrounding floors. My first place I checked out was the building itself.

The dream actually started when I went in with a team of four other investigators. Turns out there were a bunch of assassins or something trying to torch the rest of the building, and they would stop the elevator at every floor as and we'd have to get out and fight them hand-to-hand. It was intense. At one point these assassins started using Halo-style plasma swords. That was one heck of a fight. It was crazy vivid.

Once my team and I made it to the scientist's floor, we discovered there wasn't much to see. The floor had collapsed, and the floors above and below it were so badly burned we were afraid the rest of the building would come down, so we left.

The dream became somewhat disconnected after that, and I just remember me and my partner checking out potential suspects at dinner parties in fancy hotel lobbies and walking through some underground walkway (kind of like a subway) discussing the case. We would use our shifting abilities to hide inside walls and listen in on conversations, get inside locked rooms, tail suspects, etc.

The dream returned to maximum realism for the climax. My partner and I, having made only disconnected discoveries, were in a small auditorium watching this scientist and his assistants give their much-delayed presentation on his groundbreaking discovery. Halfway through the presentation, I noticed my partner was quite uneasy. I had asked the scientist a question, and he had kind of freaked out when he saw my partner. At this point, the scientist totally lost it, started throwing things at my partner, and the clues assembled themselves and I realized my partner had committed the crime. Right then and there he tried to pull a knife. I ran, and at the doors one of his minions burst through and tried to kill me. A second guy locked the door behind him. I actually remember blocking the attack, then grabbing him around the neck from behind and stabbing him in the gut out of desperation with a pen lying close by on a table.

While my partner and I had been successful at hiding our shifting ability from others up to that point, I was forced to shift into the alternate state and escape by running right through the locked door. My partner shifted as well and tried to follow, but I shifted the door and he smashed into it totally cartoon style. From then I only remember sprinting down the stairs and bursting out into the street. Night had fallen. Police were coming.

Then I woke up all like "duuuuuude."

i had a short dream just then where i woke up in a bed in what looked like a really exquisite resort. What was strange about this dream, was that it felt so real. I was looking around trying to find a way i could perform a quick reality check but was unable to find one so i walked through the house looking. It honestly felt like I was living in reality, I had just as much conscious thought as I would in reality, and it had the solid sort of feeling that reality does, it was like being more than just lucid when i hadn't even performed a reality check - even from the moment i awoke from that bed it felt as real as waking life. I walked through the house, found another bedroom, and my mum was lying on the bed, I asked her "where am i?" and thats when I woke up.
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I've had a dream like this before where i wake up in a bed and it feels just as real as waking life. I know these are false awakenings but they differ from any other false awakenings i've had before, it seriously feels like being in waking life. I often wonder if the reality we live in at the moment is one step away from the real reality (as in this waking life is nothing more than another dream - just more solid), or if dreams and reality are merging.

I just couldn't believe how real this dream felt, later on it made me think 'hmm maybe im in a coma, and one day i will wake up into one of these dreams which will turn out to be reality'

April 22, 2003:
I know I've been studying too much when I have a dream that I live in a library!

April 27, 2003:
Every time I close my eyes, I dream that I'm studying - or I'm in a library, or something. The insomnia's worse than the dreams.

April 28, 2003:
All night I had dreams about exams - that as I was going to take my exam, a huge tornado hit, and I had to go and hide in one of the offices. For some reason, my old Geography professor was doing paperwork there. I was supposed to fill out this form explaining that I couldn't take my exam because of a tornado. Then my brother got hit by a car with these 2 annoying prissy girls in it. They broke his leg and they kept trying to compensate us for it by giving us makeup... my mom was really pissed off, so was I, he didn't seem to give a damn, and Mom told them she'd see them in court. Then I found out that I'd been exempt from the exam to begin with - EXCEPT that I was supposed to have turned in ANOTHER form verifying that I was, indeed, exempt...

April 29, 2003:
I had a dream that there was some sort of alternate dimension, and we were on a film project to film it, or something. And it was just a huge movie, and all of the people in there were actors - they knew they were actors, and would go to other dimensions to "star" in them (like movies). So there was this one, and he had really long black hair, and he was supposed to be like the antihero/supervillain type, and he starred in this one dimension as a swordsman (a la Highlander) and then hopped to the next to become an evil sorcerer. But he didn't start out as one - just as a sort of twisted, misguided sorcerer. Then he got into a fight with this humongous hairy beast, and it killed his son, and he got all angsty/dangerously insane, and created a dimensional bubble where he screwed with reality. Then he turned into a woman.