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    1. Cockadoodledoo

      by , 08-29-2016 at 03:15 AM (Xanous' Dream Journal)
      #493 – DILD – 9:08AM

      There is some preliminary dream about my wife looking very Asian. I am taken aback by this, but quickly have a false memory that this is how she is supposed to be. I have warm feelings of love and communicate this to her as I normally do in waking life.

      Now it's a false awakening and I decide to just go ahead and sleep on the floor... or did I wake up there? I have the thought that the uncomfortable sleep should help me induce a lucid dream since I have been failing all morning. As I try to have a WILD, my wife starts talking and asking questions about what I am doing. Typical dream wife! I don't get too annoyed, but I do my best to ignore her. As I watch her groping hand over the edge the bed looking to make contact with me, I mumble something about trying to have a lucid dream.

      Suddenly, I am overly worried about waking up on time for work. I know I must have set the alarm for 5am but I need to make sure. I get up and try to check the alarm clock on the dresser, but none of the buttons are working and the digits are distorted. There is a VCR next to the alarm clock that I take for granted, but the time is all zeros. Frustrated, I leave the bedroom looking for my cell phone, but quickly notice it's in my right pocket. I pull it out and hit the side button. The screen dimly lights up for just a second and then fades out. Then I finally get it! What if I am already in a dream? I do a quick half-assed nose plug and agree that this is indeed a lucid dream. At that point, the dream becomes dark and I nearly wake up, but I quickly stabilize by crawling and peering into the darkness – my usual bag of tricks. The dream quickly stabilizes and I stand back up.

      I look around the dream environment and notice that I am in the first house I ever purchased back when I first started lucid dreaming. There is no irony here, just time distortion. Forgetting that, I become over-whelmed with euphoria that I am lucid dreaming and shout, “OH LUCID DREAMING! HOW I'VE MISSED YOU!” Then at a normal tone, “I did it. I really did it.” I notice a large, old-looking, child's book on the floor. I try to read it. I name off some random words that appear out of the alphabet soup swimming on the pages. I decide this random garbage isn't worth my time and throw the book away.

      I decide to leave the house but find the back door is missing. I find this mildly curious, but I don't let it deter me as I swiftly move to the front. I pause at the other exit and think about the daylight and the grass I just saw outside the large pained window in the living room. I use expectation to enter that world and not the dark abyss that sometimes grips me when I transition areas. My efforts pan out, but I do notice the somber, overcast sky. The grass is looking really dry with a lot of brown patches.

      I recall my dream goal to talk to an animal; I had a really funny dream about a talking rooster the night before and wanted to repeat some of that experience. This time a large white husky type dog comes running to me. He's so excited to see me. He dashes around me letting me pet him a little then runs circles around me. After a moment of play, I mentally tell him to talk and he quickly reminds me of the dog from the movie Up “OH my master. I am so happy to see you.” Something about this is disappointing and I decide to mimic the chicken from my other dream hoping to recapture the humor there. I say, “Cockadoodledoo maaannn.” Yes the chicken from my dream sounded like an old burned out hippie. The reply I get is total unexpected and that's what I love about my dreams. I hear an echoing answer from across the street, but it's no chicken that I can tell. How do chickens sound when they talk? Not like this, I suppose. Certainly not like the dream that had me laughing all day. No, the voice sounds like a little boy and I am curious to find it's owner. We play a quick game of Marco Polo, stoner rooster edition, and I am taken across a large yard to a barbed-wire fence. Because of the nature of dreams, I know this could turn into a tangled mess so I quickly decide to phase right through the wire. There is some fight, but I mange just fine. I sense the boy is calling to me from this old farm house that's now in my sights, but just before I reach it, the dream switches to black and I wake up. Damn the luck!
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    2. Almost Lucid: Government Chases and School Antics

      by , 08-26-2016 at 07:46 PM (Exploring My Mind)
      Had a two day period of no recall, but I didn't let that deter me, and this morning I was able to recall two non-lucids. What was frustrating about the second one, however, is that I was almost lucid! Well, frustrating isn't quite right. It's more both heartening AND frustrating, nice and bittersweet. Here's the first non-lucid:
      I was being chased by these government agent types; they were an army of about 10 men and women dressed up in black suits and equally black sunglasses. They were after me for reasons I didn't know, but what I did know was that I needed to hide. I ran all over the place trying to find a good enough hiding spot. Seemed like we were in a sort of hotel-like place. I ducked through a stairwell, noticing a guy as I passed by who I knew from real life, somebody from my high school, and for some reason, he was wearing a sombrero. He shook his head and looked away. Eventually I found a tucked away corner behind a column and waited. They passed me by, and the leading lady was barking orders left and right, having the group split up. Did I get caught? Well, let's hope not. Dun dun dunnnn.
      The second dream:
      I was in a classroom that looked like my old psychology class's classroom from high school. I was minding my own business, but the guy I recognized from high school in the previous dream was also in this classroom (no sombrero this time, a shame...) and he was ranting like crazy, to the point where it was bothering others. I couldn't take it anymore, so I slammed my hands on my desk, stood up, turned around, and shouted at him to just shut up. He gave a snappy retort back at me, and the entire class fell silent. I gave him a glare and sat back down in my seat. Suddenly, I got the strangest urge to do a reality check. All I could think was, I should probably reality check right now. ......And yet, nah...I'll do it later. Dismissing that thought, I noticed a fictional character from a game I play walk into the classroom. In this game, she's a little sister to the main character, so she happened to be my imaginary little sister here. She was bringing me cookies, which cheered up my grumpy mood a little. All I can say is...CURSE YOU, DREAM-SELF!!! On the one hand, I'm delighted my non-lucid self is thinking those thoughts. That's a good sign of progress. BUT SO CLOSE. Yet so far. In a dream that wasn't all that weird, funny enough, at least compared to the antics of the dream before it.
    3. Magic Lesson Two: Sword Fighting

      by , 08-24-2016 at 08:55 PM (The Dream Adventures of MadMonkey)
      I woke up naturally for my WBTB and ate some breakfast and took some galantamine and alpha gpc. I did some SSILD and when it felt right started WILD.

      08.24.2016
      09:00 AM
      Vividness Potion (SSILD WILD)

      I find myself standing in my room. I was doing WILD so this must be a dream! I do a nose plug and confirm it. I look at my hand and it does have five fingers even though the dream isn't very vivid. I take some time trying to get the dream more vivid but it just won't get to where I need it to have fun.

      I wake up and wait for a false awakening to form. I get out of bed and it is still not very vivid. I summon a vividness potion. It is a small cylindrical bottle with red liquid. I drink some of it and it is strawberry flavored. The dream gets a bit more vivid and I read the bottle. The first words that form are "he he ha ha". Another lable says "Suck this down. This is a dream." Or something like that. Things are more vivid but it doesnt really feel realistic at all. I summon a stability potion. It is green and triangular like before. I drink it but its a lost cause.
      I wake up and my nose itches so much I can't DEILD.

      08.24.2016
      10:30 AM
      Magic Lesson Two: Sword Fighting (DILD)

      I can't completely remember the begging. It is prohibition still or maybe the early 1940s. My father is a prominent person in the sale of alcohol. The first thing I remember is being on a train with him and my fictional family going through Italy. We are going to meet Benito Mussolini. At some point my perspective changes to that of my father. There is a broken part in the track ahead and we have to stop. We are close to the palace though so we get off the train to walk. I see a group of men on the hill next to the track taking a break and drinking. I walk over and become lucid. I realize there is not much I can do for my goals here and I would rather follow the plot. I feel like I will have a chance to be fully lucid later so I go along with it. I talk to them for a bit and ask if I can have some of their drinks. The assistant that is suppose to bring me says we will be meeting Mussolini in minutes and I say I will just have a sip. I drink half a shot follow the assistant. We get a room in the palace and Mussolini is going to meet us here. I split of from my dad somehow and become lucid again. I explain that Mussolini is going to be on the wrong side in the coming war and we should stop him. Out of muscle memory I summon Juliana. I think it's her at least. Mussolini comes in and is mad that I am here. My dad hides in the bathroom. Juliana and I beat the crap out of him. I point my fingers at him and do some sort of entanglement spell that wraps his hands in vines. Juliana sits down on the bed. He trips and falls and I try to throw a dresser on him but it hits the bed instead o him. The vines fade away and I feel I did a crappy job on the spell. I tell Juliana to knock him out and she does a spell that knocks him out. I ask what now and she shrugs. I say let's mess with him and tell her to give him diarrhea with a spell. I sort of loose track of what is going on. Juliana says,"You really need to work on your sword fighting." My dad comes back out and I try to calm him down and I loose lucidity and my memory skips for a while.

      I am walking through a street in a town and see a fancy looking McDonald's. I go in and the guy I had the drink with is there. There is a second story with a balcony for outside dinning. I go out there and become lucid. Wow, this is a perfect time to do my second magic lesson! I stick my hand back and feel a hand I look to quick and it is my girlfriend Chiara! Yay that is not a bad way to mess up. I hug her and tell her I have to summon Juliana but I am glad she is here and can meet her and watch my lesson. Chiara takes a few steps back and I stick my hand back and feel another hand. I ask Chiara if it is Juliana and she says she can't see anything yet. I say, "It should be a tall sexy lady in a witch outfit." Suddenly her eyes light up and say it is her and she is pretty. I look over and Juliana is there! She has pink hair this time and her witch hat this time. She walks over and says hi to Chiara. I walk over and compare our heights. Based on how I compared our heights with our fingers she is 6 feet tall although that is with heels. I loose some vividness so I feel her sides and then her boobs to restabilize. I look at Chiara and I raise my eyebrows as if to say wow look at the size of these things. I look at Juliana and realize what I am doing is not very polite at all! Her face does not look happy. I say, "Sorry I am just trying to make sure I remember what you look like." She takes her hat off and walks away a bit. I ask,"Hey Juliana. How are you doing. What have you been up to? She still looks a bit down and says,"I havn't been so great. I am still recovering from some side effects from a potion I took yesterday." I say,"Oh, sorry, well, I guess we should start with the less. What will the lesson be this time?"

      She thinks and then says something but I somehow can't hear or remember what it is. It doesn't seem very magical. I say,"What about fireballs!" I try to summon a fireball to show her but realize I still don't know how yet. She says,"Fine. Give it a try." I say,"I don't know how. Could you show me?" Chiara walks behind us to stay out of the way and I can't quite see what Juliana does. She throws a little spark and a couple second later it crackels into a blue sparkly firework. "Wow, cool. Could you do it again though? Chiaras head was in the way?" They both look annoyed at me and I wonder why everything I am saying is coming across so rude. Juliana cups her right hand for a moment and then throws another spark that bursts into a firework over the balcony. "Swirl the energy in your hand to build it up and then throw it.", she says. I do so and then throw. I get a tiny spark but it fizzles out. "Do I have to think about it exploding." I ask and she nodes. I think about what it is going to do a few seconds after I throw it while I am swirling the energy in my hand. I toss the spark and it bounces of the wall and back at us! I guide it with my mind the other direction and it makes a blue firework!

      I look over and Juliana'a hair has changed and now it fades from white at the top to red at the bottom. I make several more firecrackers until I have the hang of it and then try it with both a hands! I look over and now Juliana's hair is short and blue. I ask, "Juliana, your hair keeps changing. Are you okay?" She says,"No I'm not okay. I'll be happier when you treat me like a person instead of just some dream element." Her hair turns all sorts of different colors. I apologize and explain I didn't mean any disrespect. "You keep dismissing the things that I teach you as not magical enough but you aren't even ready for fireballs. I told you right now you should learn sword fighting." "Oh, sword fighting! I remember that now from the previous dream. That actually sounds awesome!" I notice there is now a box full of foam weapons next to us. "Juliana, I am sorry. You need to trust me that I trust you too." She looks a bit happier and I notice her hair is purple and shoulder length now. She pulls out a sword and says,"On guard." I pull out a sword too and we get into stances. Chiara looks through the weapons and plays with a shield. Juliana and I start sword fighting and I realize this is hard even in dreams. I have experience with martial arts but no real experience with swords other than what I saw in youtube videos. I can't seem to hit Juliana. She easily blocks everything. She manages to break through my guard and land an attack to my chest. We start over and I think about the strategies I heard online. I have to hit her sword out of the way, get leverage over her sword, or get in behind her range. I pary one of her attacks with the lower part of my sword and realize that gives me the control. I slide my sword down hers and rotate it to boop her head. She says,"Good job!" and we continue. She is making it harder now and I think I see an opening. I strike at her head but she slices at my stomach before mine hits her head. Dang I thought I had that. We continue for a while and I still can't get past her but I am learning. We take a break.

      I am talking to the worker from the earlier dream. Juliana talks to Chiara. He shows me a tiny rubiks cube and I say even though it's cool its really hard to turn smoothly. He asks why I never added him on facebook and I say, "Well, I think your a dream character so I don't really know how to add you. Would I even be able to find you when I wake up?" I realize I am about to wake up and turn to say,"Thanks for the lesson." to Juliana but wake up and find myself saying it in my own head.
    4. Horny Haunting

      by , 08-03-2016 at 10:28 PM (The Dream Adventures of MadMonkey)
      I did a WBTB but fell back to sleep trying to remember my dream. Two hours later I woke up from a non lucid dream where 3 old ladies are trying to convince me to have an orgy. I did a proper WBTB this time and stayed up for a half an hour or so. Despite how weird that dream was it made me think about sex and made my next dream extra horny.

      08.03.2016
      10:20 AM
      Horny Haunting (DILD)

      I am in a meeting with a family of DCs outside of their house. There is a picnic table set up with soda and snacks. We are discussing what to do about the ghost that is supposedly haunting the house and even killed someone. One kid says he found a magic spell book in the attic and it must be related to the haunting. All the DCs murmur and say we should read it to find out more about the ghost. I say they shouldn't read the book. I become semi lucid because I realize that ghosts aren't real but don't fully realize it's a dream. I use telekinesis to clean up the picnic table so that we can get out of here. The kid insists on reading the book and starts to open it but I shut it with telekinesis. "DO NOT READ THAT BOOK. Are you crazy? Haven't any of you seen horror movies before?" I become more lucid and take the book. I tell them that ghosts aren't real and we go inside.

      I go upstairs to an empty bedroom and think it's perfect for starting my goals. I stick my hand back and imagine my dream guide's hand holding mine. I look back and no one is there. I pull my hand up and I am holding a detached hand that disolves away.
      I didn't find this spooky at the time, I thought my dream control was just sucking, but now I think it may have been the ghost! I try again but now I can't feel anything when I try. One of the DCs walks up the stairs and I realize she is a pretty cute blond woman. I feel a very strong urge to have sex and wonder if I can have a quickly and get back to my goals. We have sex and it goes on for a while but I can't seem to finish even though I am trying to go quick. The dream fades but I know I can DEILD so I wait patiently for the dream to form again.

      I find myself in the room again except I am floating upside down. I fall on my head and do a somersault. I am alone in the room again and try to summon my DG again but can't manage to feel a hand there. I go down the stairs and see that the house is my childhood home. The same DCs from before are walking around. I realize I need to make points for Spellbee2's contest so I fly slowly down the hall. Use telekinesis on a laundry basket and then phase through the counter top. I realize this doesn't cover my full body for extra points so I phase through a wall. I need to summon my DG to get the most points though so go back to focusing on that. I imagine my DG walking around the corner but the grandma DC does instead wearing a witch costume. I tell her she is way to old to be my DG and to go back and try again. I look in the living room and see a red cat staring at me. The tip of it's tail and a spot on it's back is white. I tell it to transform into my DG too but I don't give thought to it because the grandma comes back and still isn't my DG. Damn, that cat was probably my DG's cat form... I tell the grandma to try one more time and again it fails. I walk into the room and look at the TV. There is an image of a hot woman on it. I stick my hand into the tv and she grabs it. I pull her out and she isn't my DG but she is hot. I can't help myself but have sex again. This time when I wake up I wake up for real.

      Updated 08-03-2016 at 10:32 PM by 32125

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      lucid
    5. My First DHL Mission

      by , 07-28-2016 at 05:14 AM (The Dream Adventures of MadMonkey)
      07.27.2016
      08:45 AM
      Lapras, I choose you! (DILD)

      NON-LUCID LUCID OTHER

      I am in Las Vegas with my girlfriend and some of her friends. We are all in the hotel bathtub together naked for some reason. I hide myself at the edge of the tub and face the wall. I wonder who's idea this was this. I'd like to take a look at their bodies but I am to nervous. I do get a peek of some sideboob. Afterwords, my girlfriend and I are alone and have sex. I become lucid and let her know it's a dream. I say I have some goals but we continue for a little bit first.

      I leave the hotel and explore. I find myself at the beach. I guess I guess I forgot I was in Las Vegas and now it's Las Angles. I remember that I never summoned my Lapras from it's pokeball and might as well do that now. I put my hand behind my back and tk pull the dive ball into my hand. It is a lot more dull than before. I throw that ball and it breaks opens with a red beam. Lapras appears but the dream freaze frames some how and gets all blurry.

      Once I restabelize there are a group of DCs around me. One gives me a shinier dive ball and says that is why I destabilized. I say, "Lapras, I choose you!" and throw the ball at the ground. It just breaks and I destabilize again. I restabilize by feeling one of the DCs shirts.

      After this I use the same technique as last time to try and teleport to my dream guide's staircase. It Actually works great but I keep waking up and DEILDing when I get to the top probably out of excitement. One the last try I go through the hatch but the room is way to small and looks different. There is a bed with a person in it. I run up and it is a redheaded woman but other than that she doesn't look like her. The dream freeze frames again and I wake up.






      07.27.2016
      10:45 AM
      My First DHL Mission (DILD)

      NON-LUCID LUCID OTHER

      There are a few semi lucid bits at the start of the dream that I forgot but after I DEILD I become fully lucid.

      I am in a grocery store. I see a sexy brunette who looks sort of like Robb Stark's wife. She is there with her mom they are talking to another DC. I mind control the DCs to not notice as she and I fool around. Her mom somehow still gives me a very nasty look so we go to a different isle. I read the food labels and eat a bag of Limón chips to stabilize. I think I should get on with my goals. I need to find and remove a giant venomous snake that has been terrorizing DCs. My first DHL mission! I go up to two DCs and ask them if the have seen a giant snake causing problems? One says no. The other says, "You should go to a pet store. There are lots of snakes there." I say, "Those aren't the kind of snakes I'm looking for but thanks." I go up to the brunette and ask her if she has seen a snake. She says, "Yes! It was over there and about this big." She indicates about 8 inches with her hands. I point out that is way to small. "But it was really big!" she replies. I go outside to look for the snake.

      There is a convention going on, probably Comic Con. There are a lot of DCs. One guy keeps following me and trying to talk to me but I dismiss him. I have work to do. I am going down a hall to go outside to the otherside. Wait a second. I should ask that guy! He says he knows where the snake is and I to follow him. We go outside and through the parking lot. He runs while I fly above him. About a block down the street he points out a red thin sticking out of the gutter. I use TK to pull it out and it turns out that was then end of a giant red snake. It is about 20 feet long with a head the size of a football.



      I plop it down in the middle of the street. As long as I keep my distance this should be easy. I hold the head and neck of the snake down with TK and twist them in opposite directions. Clear blood shoots out along a line at the neck and the head rolls off. That was an easy 5 points. This head is still dangerous to DCs I think. I look at the guy and see that he is safely on the sidewalk. I realize I never disguised myself. I point my hand in the air and yell Tatsumonki. I look down and see the sleeves of a black coat. I feel my hair and it a weird curly bowl cut. "I looked this way the whole time. Right?" I ask the guy. He nods. "I am DHL hero Tatsumonki. Spread word of my power!"I summon a glass jar and make it larger. I tk the head into it and summon some formaldehyde into the jar as well. Once it covers the head I put the top back on and shrink it down really tiny. I put the jar in my pocket. Headquarters can use this to make an antidote for the venom!

      I go back to the convention to celebrate. The brunette girl is there with her friends and we look at the cosplayers together until I wake up.


      Next target: a mafia thief.

      Updated 08-05-2016 at 01:21 AM by 32125

      Categories
      lucid , task of the month
    6. Who is Androx?

      by , 07-20-2016 at 09:31 AM (The Dream Adventures of MadMonkey)
      07.19.2016
      10:30 AM
      New Teleportation Approach (SSILD)

      NON-LUCID LUCID OTHER

      Some fairly boring dream stuff happens that's not worth mentioning. I am with my roommate and we are leaving a building. A large bearded guy looks familiar. We shake hands and I remember I met him earlier that day and he is friends with one of my friends. Unlikely I would run into him again so I do a nose plug RC and become lucid. I know I want to teleport to my dream guides house but this time my strategy for teleporting is different. If I teleport to the inside of the staircase I should be able to remember what it felt like because I touched the wall while I walked up it originally. I close my eyes and feel a step under my foot. I open my eyes and I am still where I was. I close my eyes again and feel the wall with my hand. I open my eyes and I am in a staircase but with the wrong kind of brick! I walk up the red brick staircase and end up on the roof of a building. I run and jump off the edge because I know the urgency will make my TP work. I imagine the feeling of the step and feel myself colide with it and the wall. I open my eyes and I am in the right staircase except there are far more windows than I remember. Little details like that shouldn't matter I think. I start to walk up the stairs but get so excited that I wake up.

      I decided to sleep in because I didnt work until later. It took me a long time to fall asleep but eventually I guess I did.

      07.19.2016
      12:30 AM
      Who is Androx? (SSILD)

      NON-LUCID LUCID OTHER

      I am sitting on a floor watching an old western drama on a CRT tv. It changes to a weird cartoon about a bank robber using a large spherical bomb to blow up the wall of a bank. I find myself inside the cartoon and the robber turns to threaten me. I run and he gets in his tiny cartoony vehicle to chase me. The vehicle is carying the bomb with him. Suddenly a cat jumps at the robber and knocks him out of the vehicle. The bomb falls off and rolls after me. I get run over by it and end up on top of it. I roll with it and the cat catches up and jumps on my shoulders. The cat can talk and tells me to stay calm. It is a ginger colored adult cat with a female voice. The bomb rolls into a river and we float on top of it along the path. It becomes more like a man made track with bumpers to keep it in. The track goes above ground and through some weird video game like dimension. I pump us up on a stream of water to a higher track.

      Eventually I find myself at the edge of a pond in a forest. I see a orange salamander about a foot long in the water it swims up to me and I get scared. The orange cat is there and is joined by a black one. One of them says "Don't be scared, its not fully grown and won't try and eat you." I feel relived until suddenly a massive 6 foot long orange salamander jumps and eats the smaller one. The cats guide me out of the forest and into a suburban neighborhood. We hop fences and run through back yards. The sprinklers go off in one and I see the timer for the sprinklers and I am going to turn it off but the cats urge me to continue following them and it's just around the corner. We go into another back yard. I notice there are a bunch of alligator ranging from small to massive. We even walked past biting range of some of them before I noticed. I ask what the heck and the orange one says it's for protection and that we should be safe. The black one says, "He is just a beginner though." They both run up to the largest one for some reason while I am more focused on the closer ones. I see there are a bunch on the steps leading to the back door of the house. The alligators start to approach me and I use telekinesis to float them into the pool which is surrounded by a fence. It is difficult but I remove all of the alligators. There are also two mastiffs guarding the door. I hope they don't attack me and walk past them to the door.

      Once inside I see a southern style home similar to one I drew for a storyboarding class but with a kitchen attached to the living room. There are two white cats sleeping in the floor. One is an adult and looks like my own cat actually. The other is a kitten and looks like Androx!
      I become lucid and the kitten lazily looks up at me. It's large ear unfolds from behind it's paw. It sits up and stairs at me.



      "Androx?" I ask. I look around to stabilize a bit and notice the other cat has walked away. After a long pause the kitten says, "Hello Matthew." with its androgynous voice. "It is Androx, right? Not Andrea? I had a hard time journaling that part." I say. "It's Androx.", says the kitten. I ask,"Are you male or female?" "Male", Androx says and looks fairly annoyed that he had to answer that. He walks over to a bowl of pet food and a water dish next to the kitchen counter. After inspecting the water he starts drinking. I kneel down to him and tell him that I need to ask him some more questions starting with what are witches and what are their relation to talking cats. Androx says,"Talking cats are witches that have transformed themselves." This confirms the theory that I had. He goes on to say, "We suspect that you and your girlfriend are ones too." I wonder if he thinks my dream guide is my girlfriend or if he is my actual girlfriend. "Do you mean Chiara? (my girlfriends name)" I ask. Before he replies Androx walks around the armchair and forces me to move around to follow him. I set in the other sofa and he jumps up onto the armrest next to me. I ask Androx,"How did you become a talking cat?" He says,"I wasn't always a witch. I used to have a family." He starts to get emotional. I find myself looking at eye level and wonder why I am not looking down at the cat. "It is hard to understand when you are little and your parents get foreclosed on." he says and starts to cry. Suddenly I see him not as a cat but a child about 11 or 12 with a red brown bowl cut. To be honest even though I know he is a boy he looks a bit like a girl somehow. The feels hit me pretty bad as I realize Androx is probably an orphan. I wake up before I can hear the rest of his story.


      I think that is some pretty good progress on the witch hunting front. Now I should probably start focusing on Dream Hero League Missions so I don't get to far behind.

      Updated 08-05-2016 at 01:04 AM by 32125

      Tags: androx, dild, witches
      Categories
      lucid
    7. Too many false awakenings

      by , 07-12-2016 at 10:12 PM
      I had an LD tonight. I went to bed around 8:30 pm for a nap but it took me some time to fall asleep, and I woke up at 10 pm. I rarely have LDs at night, but my sleeping times are messed up currently anyway.

      It started with some painful sensations like the last time but I was aware I was dreaming this time, and tried to get rid of them but couldn't but at least I knew they were not real, so I suffered less. Then I thought I woke up and realized it was false awakening and became conscious again, and false awakenings kept happening, probably 5 times. I tried to summon somethings each time, but it didn't always work. There was never a time enough to go with the flow and live a story or something but I had some fun in between them.

      I remember in one of the false awakenings, I thought that my body moved in real life while spinning in the dream. I thought that because when I woke up (not really, just a false awakening) I found myself in a weird position and floating! and that sounded realistic to me at the time until I realized later I was still dreaming.
    8. Teleportation Practice

      by , 06-30-2016 at 12:40 AM (The Dream Adventures of MadMonkey)
      06.29.2016
      9:30
      Teleportation Practice part 1 (DILD)

      NON-LUCID LUCID OTHER

      I am at my college at night and want to go to sleep because I vaguely know that I was trying to WILD but the rational parts of my brain aren't working i guess. I try to find a place to sleep but can't. The dream changes and I am in my mom's office helping her with something. I randomly do a nose plug RC and realize I'm dreaming. I fly out the window before I consider my goals. I am in a difference building and city than my mom's real office. I land on a roof and feel the roof to stabilize. That's right, my goal is to practice teleporting. I close my eyes and picture my bed room because that should be my most familiar place. When I open my eyes there is nothing and I can tell I'm waking up. I try and feel the carpet of my room but feel my bed sheets instead. I wake for a short WBTB. I tag this dream and try WILD again.

      06.29.2016
      10:30
      Teleportation Practice Part 2 (DILD)

      NON-LUCID LUCID OTHER

      I am in some sort of bizarro sandbox world where I can make what ever I want. There is infinite flat grass to the horizon. There is a bunch of random technicolor stuff built around me like if someone was building with lego but didn't have enough to not use random colors. I am working on the colors of some furtniture. I have an eye dropper that is more like the size of a turkey baster to copy the colors from one place to a another. I am making a bed have blue bedsheets and remember that I am in bed. I remember that my goal is to practice teleporting so I give it a try. I think about teleporting home but based on the previous dream that might just lead to a FA or destabilization. I close my eyes and imagine the ally way in a neighborhood near my apartment. I should be able to train there without any DCs around. The ally way appears and flys in beneath my feet. Everything on the left looks right but on my right there is a soccer field behind a chainlink fence with DCs playing. There is also some DCs talking in the ally. I practice some telekinesis on a rock but deside against it because of the DCs and that I should keep training teleporting. I up in the air and remember I want to talk to Androx. I yell,"Androx, I summon you." Wait didn't I want to go to LA and see if I can find the DHL headquarters and I start flying in that direction. "Wait, wasn't the whole point to teleport?" I get a bit overwelmed with different goals. If I can fly as fast as last time I should be able to get there in less than a second. I think as I start to fly over some mountains. I hit some fog though and loose my vision.

      The dream changes to me in a tunnel under the mountains. A guy in a green robot suit is attacking some cars. Suddenly, Iron Man flys into him and pushes him into a room connected to the tunnel. I run in and see Iron Man get blasted in the corner. "Oh so you brought your friends? I will take care of them too." the titanium man looking guy says and shoots some sort of energy beam at me. It deflects off my body and I start throwing random things at him to taunt him. "Grah" he says and throws a sticky bomb at me. I TK a wooden palate into the bomb and fling it away. I pick him up with TK and fling him into a trash compactor in the corner and pull the lever with TK. I hear a crunch and think he is dead but I hear him say, "I can still breath. Help!" I guess it broke his suit but it protected him from death. Iron Man steps out of the rubble in the corner and takes off his suit which turns into a brief case. He asks who I am and I explain that I am part of a new superhero team from a different timeline. I think he would actually make a useful ally for the Dream Hero League. "Your timeline is about to get really bad. Come with me to my timeline where you can make a difference. If you really want to go back after I can teleport you to right before I came here." Tony and I walk while he considers it. Hawkeye and Captain America run into the room. I pat them on the shoulders as I walk by and whisper to Tony "We don't need people like them. Only powerful people like you. Oh and Thor. We should find Thor." I consider Hulk but I think he is to much of a loose trigger to be helpful. This is pre Age of Ultron Tony so Vision and Scarlet Witch aren't around yet either. While we walk down the tunnel Black Widow and Nick Fury jump out and hold guns to me. They tell Tony not to listen to me and I might be an enemy. I say to Tony, "About that teleport." I grab his arm and close my eyes. I have never tried teleporting someone with me before but it's good practice. I imagine the DHL headquarters and teleport us.

      I open my eyes and I am in some sort of government building. Tony is no longer Tony but a handsome but average looking man. Teleporting has made me loose track of my goals again. I think I am trying to insert this man in the FBI as my spy. There is a guard at the door checking if we have clearance. The spies name is John. Wow what an average person. He has clearance. The guard looks at me suspiciously and say "Your guest needs clearance too." And starts looking through his paperwork. I punch him in the jaw and he drops to the floor. I look through the paperwork and sure enough my name isn't on there. John and I run inside. It looks like a plain office. "Wow this place is so boring." John says with a British accent. "Oh, yea, I guess this is the FBI in the default dream timeline. They pretty much don't do much exciting stuff in real life. Maybe the CIA in the James Bond timeline would be more your speed." I see a really bored looking woman in a cubicle. I say to her," Hey, want to go on an adventure?" She says yes and looks excited to do something actually cool. The guard runs into the room holding his jaw. He looks furious. I grab John and the womans arms and we run through a door. We a few floors up on a balcony over looking the loby. I jump over the banister and pull the DCs with me. Here goes. I close my eyes and picture myself landing on solid ground without falling.

      My feet touch ground right away. That means we teleported. I think the feat of falling makes it more effective. I open my eyes and we are at the bottom of a staircase. The banister is now pat of the staircase. There are people in suits and dresses mingling. I pull them into the staircase and find a place where we are alone. "You are both in the CIA in this timeline now. Tell me your names so I can find you when I need information." Wait, wasn't I trying to find the DHL headquarters? Why am I infiltrating the CIA. I think I need to be more careful to hold onto my awarness when teleporting. The woman says her name is Rosa something or another. I touch her shoulder and repeat her name. I turn to John to ask his last name but wake up right away. I try to DEILD and get close but it feels a bit to late in the dream.




      I am pretty happy that I did my goal and learned a lot about teleporting. It should be a much more reliable way of traveling if I can maintain lucidity and my goals. Now I have to decide what my next goal should be. Should I try and teleport to the DHL headquarters and fight the armed men. Or should I summon Androx and ask him about my dream world and dream guide. He might give me new powers too. Write in the comments what you think I should do.
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    9. Police Chase!

      by , 06-26-2016 at 07:25 AM (The Dream Adventures of MadMonkey)
      06.25.2016
      11:00AM
      Police Chase!DILD

      NON-LUCIDLUCID OTHER

      I am talking to a friend and she tell's me she opened up a boba tea cafe on the college campus I go to. I ask her if she is hiring and she tells me yes she is. I get the job and get to start right away. I actually got a similar job in waking life but under more normal circumstances. I wonder if I will ever dream of my real work. That would be a pretty boring dream. haha They tell me to wipe down and clean everything in the cafe. They even want me to take apart the appliances and clean the parts. It is sort of a drag but because it is my first day and I want the job I do it.

      After a bit of cleaning the dream skips forward to me driving home to my mom's house. That doesn't really make sense because I live on my own now. I really need to RC when ever I am there. Wait, I am there for weekend right now! *nose plug* My sister's family is visiting. Some sort of emergency siren starts going off outside and the news says to evacuate but doesn't explain why. Could it be an earthquake, terrorists, a meteorite? There isn't enough room for everyone in one vehicle so I offer to drive separate. Everyone in the neighborhood is lining up behind a checkpoint to get out of the neighborhood. That's weird. If this was a natural disaster evacuation I don't think there would be this many police just sitting around. I realize I never really packed anything in my car and turn around to go back to my house.

      On the way inside I see a friend. In retrospect, both "friend" DCs don't represent real people from my waking life but I still think they are a friend. Weird. "Hey man. Let's get out of here. Can you back my car into the garage while I get stuff to pack. It's the silver Jeep over there." I say as I hand them the keys. I go inside and look in my closet for the tiny little box where I put some of the sentimental things I wouldn't want to loose for situations just like this. I also get the backpack that contains my laptop and dream journal and realize that is everything that is worth spending more time packing. I head out and find my friend is packing my camping equipment into the trunk. "I just don't want to be caught off guard if this is more of an apocalypse type emergence." he explains. I agree and grab my hatchet for chopping wood. "No, you need more than that if it's zombies." He shows me he has an AR-15. The police are watching and freek out. They open fire on us with full auto weapons. my "friend" crumples besides me and I jump behind the cover of my Jeep. "Those are the terrorists. Get them!" I get behind the wheel and start driving. They keep unloading on me but luckily they only hit my Jeep while they still have a clean shot.

      I am in a chase now and there are quite a few police cars following me. I am thankful that I played so much Need for Speed back in the day. I guess that taught me how to maintain control during high speed turns. The neighborhood feels like a maze. I can't find a way out that isn't blocked off. I take a wrong turn and see a dead end sign at the end. Wait, there is a small ally for pedestrians. It looks just big enough to fit my jeep. I blast through a metal gate and skid onto a larger road. Cars swerve out of my way while I try and get back on the right side of the road. I don't see any police cars and I'm near the edge of town now. If I could get to the freeway I should be able to get away. Right around then I here a helicopter. I look up at it while I try and figure out how to get away from it. I pull over in on of the dry fields that surroundings my Bakersfield. As long as it can see me I will never loose them. I wish I had a rocket launcher or was lucid right now.
      Wait! I nearly face palm. I am dreaming right now. I have goals to do. I need to destroy a beehive for the Dream Hero League.

      I fly up to try and get above the helicopter and imagine myself as invisible to DCs for good measure. I wanted to do this task in Los Angeles though. I bet the DHL headquarters is in downtown LA. I fly up higher and see that I am actually in the San Fernando valley now. It is dark but I tell myself it's okay it won't wake me up as long as there is this much street lights. I can't quite see the LA skyline from here so I fly up as fast as I can. I think I over did it because when I looked back down I could see the curvature of the earth and most of the United States. It only took a few seconds so I estimate I was flying at about Mach 500! That is fast but it would still take me 25 minutes to get to the moon. No wonder I always have problems flying there. I need to practice teleporting. instead. I fly down closer until all I can see is Los Angeles. The geography is right but I don't see any buildings. I imagine the buildings there and eventually get it right but right before I fly down it becomes an island and looks wrong again. I get frustrated which only makes it harder to teraform things. I start to wake up and can't pull myself back into the dream because I don't have anything to grab onto so high up and lost feeling in my dream body. I can tell it is to late for a DEILD so I just let myself wake up and enjoy that I got another lucid dream.




      This is the second time I wasted a lucid trying to get to Los Angeles. I think it is because I pictured myself attempting it closer to my apartment and then trying to go to the HQ. I should postpone my goal of doing DHL missions until next month. My next goal should be to practice teleporting because it will make future goals much easier.

      Updated 08-06-2016 at 05:27 AM by 32125

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    10. House climbing / Lucid in a bar

      by , 06-26-2016 at 05:53 AM
      5:15 I'm battling monsters, Orcs Must Die style. I'm fighting fire monsters and ice monsters. I'm able to cast a 'death hex'. I do this when I'm fighting many flying jellies. The UI turns purple and everything becomes very crazy looking. When I cast the death hex the monsters counteract and cast their own version of the hex, summoning a wraith.

      Later in the night. I'm in a huge house. We(?) are planning to rent it. It's good for climbing, so I climb all over it, exploring every part of it. The house seems all open plan and doesn't seem to have doors. I think it's possible to have a view in most rooms from outside of them. Some women come in after a while to have a look at the house. I'm on the very top of the house climbing on some platforms. After a while we decide not to rent the house and go outside. I see the house's exterior. It seems quite normal and uninteresting.

      8:59 DILD I'm drifting in and out of consciousness and decide to become present. A bar comes into sharp focus. Wow, it feels like this is actually my reality, but I realise I'm dreaming. I'm aware of my surroundings -- I'm sat on a leather sofa in a dimly lit bar with some drink in front of me on a coffee table. I'm peripherally aware of my friends somewhere to the right by some stools. I think about manifesting a girl next to me but I start becoming aware of my real body in bed. The dreams fades quickly. I try to hold on by visualising the bar, but I've lost it and I'm back in bed.
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    11. #4 - Dream Chain A

      by , 06-21-2016 at 04:23 PM
      I had this series of dreams after waking up early and going back to sleep, which is typical for my previous lucid dreams. I was familiar with some of the features of these dreams: a realistic environment not usually drawn from real life, realistic dream characters who are part of the scenery instead of the plot (and sometimes ignore me), and dream chaining.

      I can't quite remember the beginning. Before I went to sleep, I recall deliberately daydreaming to occupy my mind, so it might have developed out of that. At some point I found that I could have WILDs really easily. All I needed to do was let my mind wander, I'd soon see some realistic imagery (or once, a geometric pattern), and at some point, rather than getting caught up in the dream's plot, I'd just go 'yep, this is a dream'. I was able to improve the quality by shouting 'increase lucidity' and so on. The dream chain included:

      - One where I found myself in a large building with a vague 'institutional' feel, having corridors and a reception desk. Most of the dream characters seemed to ignore me, even after I did the "You're all in my dream, what do you think of that!?" thing, which I sort of felt like I wasn't supposed to do. I found an old lady who did respond to me and asked her something, but I don't remember what she said.


      - A non-lucid false awakening in which a kid climbed through my window, much to my anger, causing me to go and get a sort of spatula in case I needed to repel the intruder.

      - One where I found myself in a garden or courtyard surrounded by three-storey Edwardian architecture. There was a small, cubical brick building similar to a power substation. I decided to test my dream control abilities. Simply by telling the dream that my hands were sticky like a gecko's, I climbed up the brick wall and stood at the top. I then marvelled at the feat and pondered what to attempt next; I didn't want to try anything that might disrupt the dream. I considered trying to turn into an animal but rejected it, for example.


      - Misc.: I also recall some SP-like sensations of shouting but having no voice coming out, being unable to feel myself breathing, or having a dry throat but being unable to clear it. I recall trying to shoot 'energy balls' out of my hands by sheer willpower and failing. I recall looking at my bedroom despite knowing my eyes were closed and sagely recognising it as a false awakening. I recall the realistic sensation of having an orgasm after doing nothing more than passingly thinking about it. I recall the sensation of partially separating from my body by sitting up in bed but failing to fully do so.

      I don't know if the chain started with a real lucid dream, and I definitely caught onto one or two bits of false awakening imagery while still asleep, but as soon as I woke up in real life I realised that my supposed 'really easy WILDs' were actually all from a false awakening. I'd been dreaming about lucid dreaming the whole time.
    12. Thanks Navi

      by , 06-15-2016 at 03:55 AM
      I'm in a castle. Someone betrays the count or something and breaks some stuff. Then I'm at a table with some others discussing dream incubation. They say that in real life if you touch or taste some food then go to sleep you'll be so hungry that you'll dream of forks. (Something like that. Recall of that part is fuzzy.) I decide to try it. I smell my soup and go to sleep. Holy crap I'm having hypnagogia. Well I'm aware now. I ride out the noise and just stay cool. I get the feeling I'm in my mum's house on my bed (Not my own. It seemed like nothing unusual at the time). I decide to visualise myself standing next to the bed. Seems like the right thing to do. Then I'm moving towards a light. I suddenly find myself in a black void surrounded by faces of Zelda characters. I remind myself that I'm dreaming so I should stay aware. I hear a voice tell me that the choice we make reflects our deepest selves. I hover over a few like the goron but decide to choose the great fairy (She's hot okay? But seriously I like to think it's because the great fairy can grant cool powers). When I choose I'm transported outside. I get the feeling I'm on a path by a lake and maybe the fairy fountain is nearby in a cave. My fairy (Navi?) informs me we don't have much time left and then I wake up. Thanks Navi.

      Updated 06-15-2016 at 04:55 AM by 90842 (more details)

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    13. #1 - Lucid Burglary & Fragments

      by , 06-15-2016 at 02:34 AM
      Background

      I'd known about lucid dreaming for a long time, but it took longer for me to experience it, and it was essentially spontaneously. I'd found I could accidentally go through a WILD-like trance when struggling to fall asleep after waking up early. The dreams would start off at a distance, like a television screen, and then become 'real', often as dream chains that I had some conscious influence over. Sometimes they were fragmented (e.g. being frozen in darkness, having very blurry vision, or the only sensation being the feeling of flying very fast), but now and then the clarity and reality of the scenes I experienced would blow me away. Still, I was unable to stabilise them. A few days ago I discovered that spoken commands like 'increase lucidity' could turn a vague fragment into a full-fledged visual scene, which was encouraging.

      Waking Myself Up From A Burglary Dream

      I'd told myself that I would write up any dreams I'd have that night and post them to DV for my first entry, so it's only fitting that I ended up having my first (semi-)lucid nightmare. After waking up in the morning and went back to sleep, I had a dream where I was sitting around a table with a few people, including, I think, a family friend. I was concerned about an exam that was coming up. I was worried that a question about acid-base chemistry was going to come up; something involving a base in ammonia, and I was sure that it was some other substance than the ammonia itself - NaBH4 or NH4OH. But the exam was cancelled because of an outbreak of 'parainfluenza', and this news was accompanied by the image of a woman with sore-looking yellow eyes. Since it was cancelled, I could rest easy and go to sleep.

      This led into another dream where I was at home in the night, looking down the stairs so that I could see an area near the front door. I heard noises near the front door and looked closer. There was a fairly short man standing there. I thought it was my father - though I wasn't expecting to see him - so I called out to him. Rather than respond in kind, he shushed me, and I realised that it was an intruder. More of these intruders came through, so I retreated into a nearby empty room. At this point I began to suspect something was off. I thought I might be dreaming, but if so I wanted to wake up, so I could be sure and not have to worry about the intruders anymore. This wish suddenly ended the dream. It was replaced by text filling my field of view, being read off by a calm male voiceover. It said something along the lines of, "Welcome to your lucid dream. Wake up now or wake up dead in two weeks." At the time I think I had enough critical faculties to not be sure if this was right, but I realised I was in sleep paralysis and I really wanted to get out of it. I found that, surprisingly, I could slightly move my body with great effort. With what felt like a lot of willpower, I forced myself to move and woke up.

      There wasn't any lingering feeling of terror, which is my usual criterion for a nightmare, but I think this fit the bill, if only because it made me realise that a semi-lucid dream could still be unpleasant.

      Video Game Fragments

      I was watching a boy playing a FPS game, switching between my view of him and a view inside the video game itself. He was clearing a large building with many corridors similar to a hospital - of what enemy I don't know - and then went up a curved staircase, which had many offices running alongside it, arranged in a staircase fashion themselves. The general aesthetic was wood and blue light. By entering this area he went into a sort of mini-game where he blitzed through the offices at high speed, which also involved strips of light flashing on his mousemat very fast. I thought it involved predicting the lights, but when I asked he told me that it was actually a very fast memory game, which observation seemed to confirm.

      I thought about the idea of being sleep-deprived from addiction to virtual reality. I imagined a person distracting themselves from their tiredness by immersing themselves more into it. I have a dream in which I see scenes from an online FPS game called Xibalba, which I think actually represent a place within one level. Bizarrely, I also pondered the merits of a religion that worships the electron transition in one type of molecule (containing nitrogen!) versus a rival religion that worships another.
    14. Boats & Bandits- Also a throw back of an amazing lucid dream I had!

      by , 06-12-2016 at 08:19 PM
      I had 3 dreams. Non-lucid: The first I woke up from & fell right back into it but it changed somewhat in the middle. Chaining/DILD/WILD. I was on a ship & there were these thieves or bandits. There were a lot of people though like this was a luxury ship yet not a cruise ship. It was like I knew a man in the first & in the second. Same man but I just couldn't tell how I knew him. Woke up to feed Meesha & fell back into this ship dream again. The details weren't all that interesting it just had cargo & some animals & people talking about theft. The man was the focus for me just because I couldn't figure out how I knew him. 3 dreams with the same theme was unusual though.

      Throw back from LD4All website.

      The one place I've always wanted to go. Venice!


      PostPosted: Thu 24 Mar, 2016 in LD4ALL:


      WBTB Method. When my cat woke me up I used it! I tried my back first but then I turned on my stomach cuz I have spinal issues & it hurts. Took my Meds, smoked a cig, used the bathroom, fed my cat, read about lucid. Then I thought about Venice because I've always wanted to go & wanted it for a destination in my LD. And I suddenly remembered how much I slept when I was a child. I loved to dream. I had a traumatic childhood & I'd suppressed this. I did my meditation & before long I was having a dream about my childhood friends & then it happened! I was on a staircase in the dream & then my friends were gone & I was outside. It was beautiful! The most vibrant colors I've ever seen even in real life & I was on street in Venice! And then I knew it. I knew I was Lucid Dreaming & I consciously opened my eyes. Lots & lots of ppl & color. And can't say enough sbout the color! I could run really fast & I tried to push past some ppl who weren't happy about that & I knew I shouldn't do that so I flew over them, just like that! Easy peezy. And then I woke up... Talk about a rush! ... And I feel refreshed. Like I did a work out & just feel all kinds of happy! I hope it counts cuz that's where I wanted to go.


      I mention this one because I always wondered why it was so incredibly different than most of the others I've had since. I meditated & did the flip. At least that's what I call it when you are laying there meditating & you go straight from awake into either a lucid dream state or AP state or at least sleep paralysis. I opened my eyes because I could see through my eyelids & it felt so different like I actually went somewhere. I went from meditating to being in Venice where it looked like Mardi-gras. I've always been fascinated by Venice but not once have I ever seen the festivals that actually exist in Venice which exactly like Mardi Gras. This had details that were extremely vibrant & all the details were very intricate. I remember it just as I would if I had taken a trip there on a vacation. Very Memorable.

      Non-Lucid-Green
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      Explanation of details-Blue
      Side Notes-Purple
      Astral Projection/AP-Brown
    15. Travels by Bicycle in Search of Underwear

      by , 06-06-2016 at 05:26 AM (The Lab Notebook)
      Non-lucid, Lucid, [Commentary written while awake]

      I'm in the office building complex north of Disneyland. I'm there to be cast in a show or parade there. [I don't specifically remember becoming lucid, but I do remember being lucid.] I'm floating around up by the ceiling, which is a high ceiling, when the casting director walks into the room below me. When I see her enter, I float down so I can talk to her. "Hi," I say while descending. She says I've been cast in [whatever show or parade it was], and to go and change into my costume for the show. I head out of the building to do so.

      Outside the building, I stand on a stretch of grass that ends at the top of a concrete block wall, about twelve feet high, at the bottom of which is a sidewalk. I need to get down onto the sidewalk to get back to my car. I know I can do a controlled fall, so I do. I jump off the top of the wall, control my descent speed, and land easily on the sidewalk.

      When I get back to my car, I realize I don't have any underclothes with me, and I can't be in the performance without any. I realize I'll have to go to a Walmart or Target and buy new ones, but I don't even know where there is one around here. I decide to set off and go looking for one.

      I'm at a freeway onramp, on my bicycle, still on my way to find the nearest Target or Walmart.
      [Why am I on my bicycle and not in my car? I dunno.] The onramp runs next to a high, tan-colored wall. On this wall, about a quarter to a third of the way down the ramp, there is a traffic sign that reads "NO BICYCLES ON FREEWAY." I start bicycling down the ramp, but when I get to the sign, I read it, sigh, and say, "All right, fine. This is me, not riding my bicycle on the freeway." I get off my bike, turn around, walk it back up the onramp, and start looking for another route that doesn't involve taking the freeway.
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