Apr 5th 2013
I have this vague recollection where I think I’m talking to my Ex GF about the ginger cat.
I have these bundles to deliver. I’m trying to find an address on the High Street. I pull the bundles out of my carry/delivery bag. One of the bundles is a light blue/turquoise t shirt folded flat in a loose cellophane bag/wrapping.
I think how bad it had been packaged/delivered. (It reminded me of ‘Ebay.’)
There is a handwritten address written on the front of the cellophane in blue ink, but you can only just make some of it out.
I dig in my delivery bag where I’m trying to find the correct parcel for the recipient. I try and sort through and I pull out an orange coloured item also in a cellophane bag which is like clothing which is all rolled up.
I hand an item to one of the waiting people (at the address,) as I’m still sorting through the half-dozen or so items I have in my bag. (@ 5.15 am)
It is a bright and sunny day. In my Ex GF’s Mom’s old front garden I happen to notice this TV aerial on a bit of a pole pointing at a bit of an angle in the sky as I go past. I think to myself that the Mom used to have a TV aerial in the loft.
I see the brown coax cable has been cut at the base of the aerial and I think ‘look what the new tenants have done already.’
I carry on and look where I notice the antenna has a (new) white coax cable connected at the back just by the old brown stub. (The aerial seemed to be in a garden further down now pointing up at the sky at a steep angle.)
I think to myself why is a TV aerial being used to try and pick up a satellite when a dish should be used instead.
I see this lad with light or ginger hair go past me as I walk nearer this car outside. I don’t recognise or pay him too much attention at first. He seems a bit dishevelled, tired with a worn looking face.
I think he notices me and talks first, but it turns out to be my old (work) mate.
He is/was with this Indian lad I also know (from a previous job, etc.) who in turn is in a car (possibly open topped?)
My mate (the first one mentioned) has bought a new car which is parked further behind us. It reminded me of an American model which is quite big (long) and angular like rectangular in style, but flat, etc. a sleek design, with a silvery, shiny finish. It looked quite a smart car.
The Indian lad points over to it. (Someone mentions a (Ford) Fiesta just earlier.)
I think that I need to sell my car.
I’m in this ward/operating room for Cancer. I see the blue gowns of the Surgeons and I notice the beds/places and the area is very cramped, as I have to step/walk round the place carefully.
It is at night where I’m outside on my Parent’s driveway. I see a stockyish man standing further down the driveway who is dressed in a denim jacket and jeans with black wavy hair.
I recognise him as someone I knew from an old workplace. I walk towards him and I think ‘dream!’ He looks at me as I was going to touch him to see/check.
I touch the floor with my hand to stabilize. I notice a couple of people/shapes walking down the road from the top (RHS.)
I squat/sit just off the floor and I feel myself sort of levitate a couple or so inches above the surface. I start moving and floating a little bit. I narrate what I’m doing in a different voice – a bit like an Astronaut.
At first it is like my sight is restricted/blurred in one eye and I have to wait for it to open, etc.
I go up the road (like walking) and just before I get to the Sunday school building (LHS) I exclaim ‘clarity’ to help focus. The scene is just as clear as before – not much really changes.
I carry on where I start to see/experience these ‘blocks’ or ‘areas’ of light (bland) colour, like a flickering/rotating abstract shape which destabilizes the dream and I wake up.
I don’t move and hold on for about 15 minutes in anticipation of a DEILD, but non is forthcoming. (@ 7.15 am – Sleeping pos. RHS)
I see this man standing in the room near my bed dressed in a dark blue t shirt (which reminded me of the same colour as that ‘Fat Willy’s’ t shirt I had IWL.)
I can see the t shirt that the man is wearing is pixellated with these small darker blue squares which forms a big dark (indigo) blue area (on the RH) side up to the armpit. The effect is like a dream. I think ‘dream.’ I start to feel ‘odd.’ It is like I’m turning/twisting and I feel this sense of inertia. I ‘see’ what looks like the air/space seems to twist/distort like a viscous fluid which is semi-transparent. (The nearest analogy I can give is where it’s a bit like the effects in the Matrix film where the space is manipulated.)
I consciously ‘exaggerate’ the feeling of inertia where I start to feel the sensations more.
I then feel the effects of slowly waking up. (@ 7.56 am – Sleeping pos. Mainly on my front)
I’m on this bus which is playing ‘Ibiza’ music. I get up off my seat and join the queue of people waiting to get off down the aisle of the bus.
I remember being behind this woman.
I want to get off for my lunch where I want to go back to my seat to grab my lunchbox.
I took a bit of an afternoon nap after taking a codeine-based painkiller (Co-codamol) for a bit of a dull headache still.
I recall having this dream where I can see this thin ginger and white cat with short fur in this big empty white bath.
Water gets splashed in it and the cat jumps out on to the top of the bath. I notice the shapes and formation of the water droplets on the bath surface. (@ 6.13 pm)
I seemed to recall quite a few dreams this morning and my overall awareness paid dividends.
The second DILD, although short, was quite bizarre.
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Fri April 5th 2013
Dose: (Bed) Apple Juice (0.5 pt) Banana (x1.) (WBTB) Menthodex cough drops (x3.) Menthol = ?? mg
Side Effects: Very slight fuzzy headache. (Dehydration?)
Sleep Duration: 6 hrs/ 2.75 hrs (approx) after
WBTB: Yes (36 min)
Dream Comments: Very good recall. A DILD, plus a much shorter DILD with bizarre ‘transition’/effects noted.
Updated 04-05-2013 at 05:06 PM by 44820
(added an afternoon dream entry)
Was lucid Saturday...something involving a theme park, and this stripper chick I dated once.
Today I had a few frags. I remember talking to my brother about bowling. We were having a conversation about bowling not being a sport until a person who is really good at it does it.
Mar 31st 2013
This senior doctor checks the body laid out on the table. He doesn’t want to carry on as the patient seems too excited.
Outside the place is like a small brick building or business/industrial unit with a green coloured (garage type) metal shutter door. (@ 7.30 am BST)
I’m standing up in my Front room right by the main window where I’m looking at the (fairly vivid) view of my front garden ahead. It is a fairly sunny day (possibly early morning, as IWL regarding the time and the sun.)
I notice this dark green garden/builder's (open type) truck where it has pulled out quickly either from my driveway or my neighbours on the left.
I notice that all the boundary fencing and conifers at the very front (possibly the RHS as well) have disappeared!
The boundary is nice and tidy where the lawn goes right up to the path itself at the front.
I think to myself that the (new) neighbour (on my RHS) must have got someone to do some work and he has mistakenly worked on my garden/property.
I suddenly think ‘This is a dream!’
I immediately exclaim to myself, ‘stabilize!’ as I turn round. (I was worried about losing control and waking up.)
I feel and touch the carpet where I crawl on my Living room floor, basically to ground myself.
I cannot see anything as I carry on crawling towards the far wall. (The one where the light coloured unit is.)
I start to make out the impressions of vague grey objects near the floor/against the wall. I just about start to make out some shadows as well, including my own.
I suddenly try to fling/lunge forward whilst on my front, as if to fly? (I worry about waking as this action sends my heart-rate up a little.)
I think about the daytime and the sunny scenes in my mind’s eye as I turn round, crawling on my hands and knees. I knock my head slightly on the Kitchen door which is sort of wide open. I wonder why my head didn’t phase through it instead? (I do not worry about it too much though.)
I’m looking through the blinds of my main window (whilst standing up now.) It is nice and sunny.
I go into my kitchen and I go just outside where the main door is. Across the street I can see a red van parked next to the council and the new house and I can also faintly hear a record by Frankie goes to Hollywood playing.
(The view I get is like the one I would expect to get if I’m looking from my Ex GF’s (her Mom’s) old house much further up the street!)
I seem to notice the sense of hearing as I can hear typical background sounds, etc.
I worry about this affecting the stability, and about me waking up so (I shut my door) then I go back inside. (@ 8.42 am BST – Sleeping pos. mainly on my front)
I’m down at my Parent’s house in the Front living room. Dad is sleeping slumped on his front on top of the light wooden box type coffee table which is covered in newspapers.
(I get the impression that there is someone else (one of my Brothers) is in the room by Dads usual sofa seat somewhere.)
I need to go to the Dentist. I need to wake him so that he can sign something (on my behalf.)
I wake him from his deep slumber where he then goes underneath to the bottom section of the coffee table to rest – sleepy still.
I apologise for waking him and I pull these newspapers and papers out where I hold them.
I mention about needing something signing for the Dentist. My Dad is now standing in the Front room where he says ‘The Deeds.”
I say “No – the Dentist!” “I need this for treatment.”
Dad says “He never did that/anything for me.” (@ 10.02 am BST)
I expected the GMT/BST change to throw my schedule out a bit, so I went to bed ‘early’ and woke up late, (although it is technically still an hour later!)
I didn’t do a WBTB, nor did I take any supplements today as I woke up to the alarm and fell back to sleep again instead, although I took a brief toilet break later in the morning instead.
After my very short break, I found it difficult to sleep due to the strong sunlight/ambient light in the room so I tried my little eye trick which helped me get to the HI stage quicker and much easier; this helped, along with concentration to the exclusion of external stimuli, etc.
I found it interesting that I had another DILD relating to my garden(s) again, when comparing it with yesterday’s event. (These were both probably due to incubation/thinking about jobs to be done, etc.)
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Updated 03-31-2013 at 07:40 AM by 44820
Mar 30th 2013
In this dream I look out of the back Bedroom window. It is a bit of a sunny day where I can see various bits of brown furniture/garden stuff all round this (my) back garden.
I happen to notice that the garden is quite open. I think to myself that my (back) fence is missing! (There is a garage at the back of me IWL.)
I think that I’m dreaming this!
I feel slightly odd where it feels like I’m getting slightly taller, etc.
I’m standing in my bedroom still where I start to extend my arms outward from my sides raising them slowly until they are both horizontal (like a ‘T’ shape.)
I hear the sound of a radio station which is faint at first and then gets louder like it is slowly tuning in. I hear the male announcer say, “You’re listening to…”
I feel like I’m floating or trying to fly (on my back?)
I see a bit of a field which is a bit hazy in my mind’s eye.
I slowly wake up, but I stay still with my eyes closed in the hope of a DEILD which doesn’t happen. (@ 6.38 am - Sleeping pos. RHS)
I’m indoors where I’m discussing lucid dreaming with my mate (Rich.) He mentions that he had a lucid dream involving a dog on a pipe.
I have a big white plate with a big half-joint of meat on it. I’m eating the odd Turkey slice off it.
His (American?) Girlfriend (not IWL) is round as well. She is preparing a meal, etc.
I bring the plate (which still has the big joint of meat on it) back in the Kitchen, and I put it on the table. (@ 7.42 am)
I’m on this rural road in the day (possibly in the early morning as the daylight is a bit weak.) I go up towards the brow of this hill where on the right in this green field, I can see some form of 3D Art installation which is made up of two rows of several cubes on top of each other. It is there as part of an Arts festival or weekend.
The cubes are mostly covered in transparent polythene although there may have been some form of platform covered in black polythene?
The installation is quite big, and it is in the process of either being assembled or de-assembled.
I was starting to forget what a lucid dream is!
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Sat Mar 30th 2013
Dose: (Bed) 5-HTP (x2.) = 100 mg. (WBTB) Menthodex cough drops (x4.) Menthol = ?? mg
Side Effects: Generally ok
Sleep Duration: 6.25 hrs (approx)/ 3.5 hrs (approx.) after
WBTB: Yes (39 min ex. relaxation)
Dream Comments: Short DILD recorded. Lucid dream theme(s) also noted in proceeding dream.
Updated 03-31-2013 at 07:42 AM by 44820
4:38AM - #153 - Inside The Claw Machine - DILD
I was going for WILD here but ended up with DILD.
Edit: I remeber something else. I did in fact have a WILD I just forgot it. I remember having strong HI and then something clicked and I was able to initiate the vibrations by focusing on the back of my neck. I got well into but I either fell non lucid at that point or I just forgot the dream. Damn!
I can't for the life of me remember the non lucid part as of right now and it's driving me nuts. Was it something about a cheesy bar? Some thing about my mini dachshund? Wait I think it was something about S from work going car shopping with me. Are all these right? Hmm. Anyway...
Something triggers lucidity and I know I am dreaming. The dream starts to go dark so I stare at my hands. They look zombie like and the right hand turns into something like The Penguin from Batman.
I start walking forward. I see bars of florescent lights but nothing really lights up the dream. I start licking my hands and soon find that both of then are impossibly far in my mouth. I quickly pull them out.
I don't know what happened here but the dream sort of took its own course and I just rolled with it. Literally.
Somehow I am a coin in waiting on one of those washing machine coin slots. I am totally blind but I can feel it all.
I notice the feel of body and how round and flat I am. I find it odd but amusing. I use my imagination and sort of become briefly dual in existence. I push the coin slot into the machine. I feel myself roll down and hear the coin-dropping-sound. I see some strange track with funny looking marbles on a U-shaped track that is lit up. Then, for whatever reason I decide that I am probably in a claw machine. I revert back to human form. I am crowded around with stuffed animals. All I can think of is that episode from The IT Crowd where Moss gets inside a claw machine.
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I become amused at this. I mutter something like, "What the flip, Ross?" I don't think about any iPhone but I start emptying out the machine. I still can't see very well in this poor lighting but I can feel the various stuffed animals as I push them out the flap. When the machine is empty I jump forward and morph through the hole. I feel liquid at that moment and I marvel at my own shape-shifting abilities.
I am down on the floor on one knee now. I see a florescent bar going around the bottom of the claw machine. I think, "I really hope I get some light soon." Then I realized that I forgot how the dream started. I try thinking back. I know I should know it but I can't recall it.
Suddenly, I am staring into a white void. I try to focus and see DV on my computer screen. I can't see text very well, mostly just a blurry rough layout of blue and white. I briefly wonder how I was lucid dreaming while staring at the computer. Was I day dreaming? I do a nose plug and blow through. I can hardly believe it so I do it again. I know I am dreaming so I get up and leave the computer. As I do, I see a full bar of gold stars in my signature.
Now, I feel like I am laying down. I roll over and see some very fat, pockmarked faced man that looks Filipino. There seems to be red cushion walls behind him and a kitchen door that makes me think "restaurant". Something about him makes me feel like I am back in the first part of the dream. He put his hands under his chin and makes a "cutie pie" face at me. I don't know what to think at first so I move away from him. Then, I hear a laugh track like from some cheesy sitcom show. I relax a little when I know he is probably just joking.
Then, for whatever reason, I suddenly I become afraid that my lucidity is starting to slip. I think I must have startled myself all because I abruptly wake up without warning.
Updated 03-26-2013 at 08:26 AM by 5967
So I'm walking down the street with D pushing a grocery cart that has a baby in it. This drunk guy some up mumbling stuff and some people throw something at him. Some lady yelled at the kids and said the guy had leukemia. I told them if they would have hit my daughter I would have came after them. I looked again and noticed that wasn't my daughter. It looked like a brown version of Stitch.
D said it was his kid and he was going to marry the mother and get a house. Well from that point on I knew I was dreaming but I wasn't super aware. I went into the building and there were people watching tv and whatnot, and this one older lady probably in her 40s.
I stated making out with her. Her husband showed up, got mad and they left. And then her daughter came up to me and said she wanted to make her mother jealous. So we started going at it. Her mother comes back and ignores the situation, so the daughter decides to take it up to the next level. We head to the back of the room and she positions this chair under a desk and some kinda way wants us to have sex there. I didn't understand it Sh turned on a radio and some horrible song came on and her friend came over and they started eating snacks.
it starts out like a movie I'm just watching all this stuff happen with small cameos. And finally I'm thrown into the streets of Agrabah. While browsing through the merchandise I see the kid from the jungle book mowgli. He smiles at me, and and asks if I had any questions. I asked him where was Baloo. "He's off in another mission." he said, in broken English. Oh well. Then my perspective changes to Mowgli's, and he hops on a chimp who takes him all over through the city. Music is playing and the sun is slowly setting.
They spy on Jafar, who just got the lamp. His wish was to create more genies (some how this translated to castles) in which he destroyed, and tons of gold and jewels would burst out. Then my POV switches to spectator inside the castle. The King is worried about what's happening to all those other castles as they get decimated one by one. For some reason he has two daughters, and one is fake, and the other is real. He's letting them both stay until they can prove it. The castle starts shaking, Jafar pops out of no where in a cloud of red smoke, and starts making demands.
I (real me) arrived and told the king to get out of here. Real Jasmine said' she'd stop Jafar at whatever cost. Jafar say's he's after some treasure, that wasn't reproduced when all the other castles were created, so he had to personally show up there. But get this....Sora show's up and tries to hit him with his keyblade, but Jafar teleports back to the throne.
The center floor starts opening up and there's a green rock free floating in it. Sora jumps, grabs it, throws it to me, and I jumped and threw him my car keys. We both caught each others items at the same time. Sora's keyblade got more powerful and I gained the power of magic. Aladdin shows up with Genie, and we all rushed the throne.
Instead of straight action, we're fighting turned based (ala old final fantasy). Sora and Aladin are in the front row, and I'm in the back with Genie, and Jasmine. Sora and Aladdin's attacks are pretty quick, and we have to wait a while for magic. It took me a while to think of any attacks until I heard Sora say "Thungaga". The attack stunned Jafar, and I went on to cast Blizgaga. Ice shards pelted him over and over. Then I yelled Ifrit. He came out from above curled up and set him on fire. I was just about to summon Peter Pan, and something happened.....
I ended up at some random store with M, and we were talking about a whole lot of nothing. When we left it, I realized we were in Disneyworld. I was so disappointed that the dream ended shifted like this. I just wanted to go back even if I lost lucidity. The next thing I know, Genie shows up riding on carpet with Jasmine, and Aladdin and Sora arrive out of the crowd. He says he knows where Jafar is and he needs our help. Then he asked for everyone names. Sora says "I'm Sora, this is Aladdin, and Wade". Genie says "oh we don't need wade, he wasn't much help". I told him he was probably jealous that I was doing the most magic damage. Some of the people in the crowed laughed, and Genie told us to make sure we're ready before we head out. I came back first, and woke up while waiting on the others to arrive.
Well... this was an interesting night. The first thing I'd have to say I noticed was that all of my dreams took place at home. And not a home rendered wrongly or somewhere else perceived as home, just my regular old house. Doesn't seem like that happens too often with this many dreams, but it's probably just a coincidence.
Anyway, this time I took 50 mg of zinc at 9:30 and smoked some calea at ~10:00, and then I smoked more for technical WBTBs at 5:22 and 7:40, according to my phone log. This night actually started out very unpleasant.... I passed out with my laptop in bed and must have fallen asleep on my arm at a weird angle, because around like 2-3 in the morning I had this odd hypnagogia of orange dots in a grid setup expanding to orange circles with a weird hissing sound, and then I woke up with a high level of anxiety and very extreme right arm pain. I freaked out and ran to the bathroom to inspect myself and my whole perception was going hazy and getting really bright, and I ended up taking a couple Librium pills as well, which are chlordiazepoxide, a close relative of diazepam, or Valium, hoping to calm myself down. Like half an hour to an hour after that, I woke up again with a lot of stomach discomfort and had a very uncomfortable bathroom visit, which I blame on all the pizza I ate yesterday and the day before.
That was finally the end of the festivities though, and I hadn't had any actual dreams before all of that, so after I fell asleep again from that point on is where my night really began.
#1 - I wondered when this would happen again. [Non-Lucid]
I don't remember how exactly, but I met a girl and I want to say her name was Jessica (and I was looking up pictures of Jessica Rabbit cosplay last night, so maybe that had something to do with it?), and I invited her over to my house because I had some feelings for her. Once she came over, the dream continued on under the impression that we were already in a relationship together and this was the first time she was visiting my house. I can't remember exactly what it was we were doing... watching TV or playing games or something, but we were just cuddling and acting all cute with each other the whole time, and then later we were eating a meal and my dad and one of his friends were standing out on the back porch and he was peeking in to tell me some odd instructions for burying something in his room that my mom was purposely ignoring. Then I gave Jessica a tour of where our food was, the two fridges and the pantry, which were completely packed with all kinds of heavily-detailed food (influenced by the calea?), and she made some joke about the cereal that I can't recall now. I was really happy to be with her, she was really cool and collected and definitely my type, but then as we were headed to my room I woke up.
#2 - I get the reference, but... Butters? [Non-Lucid]
I believe I was waiting for a game to be delivered in the mail, when a group of policemen showed up at the front door. I barely cracked it open to talk to them, and after a little discussion they held up some chemistry glassware and told me that my dad and "my friend" (who I immediately perceived as Butters from South Park) are both hardcore cookers of random drugs and they were after them. This was very clearly influenced by the fact that I just started rewatching Breaking Bad with a friend of mine. They asked me to get him and tell him to go out back, and I went to tell him what was going on and then returned to the front door, and I started freaking out knowing that they were going to search the house because I didn't want them to find my stoner stuff too, but then I woke up.
#3 - Well this dream was pretty dark.... [DILD]
I was again in my house with my parents and a group of friends and there was some killer with a gun stalking us, she kept moving all around the house trying to get a good view of the inside through the windows so she could shoot us. My parents took my friends somewhere to hide safely while I just kept hiding around in the house in strategic places where I couldn't be seen, but where I could just barely peek out every now and then and continue to track the killer's movements. Eventually it seemed like she wasn't going to be able to get us easily, so I ran to my bathroom where there were no visible windows and met up with my parents there. I asked them where everyone was and they just laughed and told me that they weren't actually my parents, they were people that the killer payed to disguise themselves like that so they could get close to me undetected and take me out. My heart sank, and at least one of them pulled out a handgun. I had to wrestle with them until I could get one free, and then I managed to take them down and shot them both in the head multiple times to make sure that they were dead, because they kept moving. I headed back out and my memory gets a little blurry here, but somehow I managed to track the killer down from the inside and shot her too before she could shoot me.
At that point a few of my friends and some family members came out from hiding and we all were celebrating. But then this TV show came on in the living room with lots of shooting going on and will still perceived it as people coming after us, so I pick up this big machine gun out nowhere and start shooting at them, but just one shot at a time. I managed to shoot one guy and felt good abot myself, but then my cousin A, who's birthday party we went to last night (and ate pizza), just rolls her eyes and takes the gun from me. Somehow (I'm not sure if I looked away and back at her or what) she had actually entered the TV show completely and was rapid-firing at everyone and easily takes down all of them. Around this time I randomly became lucid. I actually managed to remember that I had smoked all that calea, which is really a first for me, and I decided to try to jump into the TV screen as well which was now in the area of the living room where the corners of the couches meet for some reason. I just wanted to hug A, but as I jumped my perception just zoomed in and then floated around the room for a couple seconds before restabilizing, and a couple DCs (I want to say they were my parents?) just looked at me like I was weird. I looked over and the TV was now back in its proper place and there was some Star Wars game just sitting there on the startup screen. I decided to try again with entering that game, but just as I was about to go for it I woke up.
#4 - Why couldn't we have just watched it in person? ._. [Non-Lucid]
J and Z, this girl I just met recently, came over to watch some sort of Lincoln play that was going on somewhere in my house, but we were going to watch it through random TV screens around the house instead of just seeing the actual thing. I can't remember exactly what it was about, but I know that a lot of the speech Lincoln was giving was based on that clip from a show I really can't remember the name of right now, but it's the one where it starts with the girl asking a panel of politicians why America is the greatest country in the world and the one guy goes off on this long rant about how it isn't. Unfortunately we kept changing rooms trying to get a better reception or a bigger TV screen, and we basically missed all of it. Afterward everyone was leaving, because there were a lot of people here, and J hitched a ride back to his campus (in another state ) with some girls who were going to some bar or club called "88" that was supposedly right next to it. This other big group of girls was about to leave too, but some random guy came in the house and told them that their car got towed because they didn't have a parking permit to park on the street in front of my house when there were already so many cars there, and they would've known that would happen if they had just listened to him before instead of just brushing him off. One of the guys still at the house volunteered to drive a couple of them home, and I asked where the rest of them were headed, but before they could respond I woke up.
And that's it. All of these dreams were actually pretty vivid too, so I suppose the supplements did their job.
Updated 03-10-2013 at 03:34 PM by 50803
So just for the record, I've gotten lucid three times in the past four days. >.> But I haven't felt like recording them because the one from Tuesday just totally disappeared from memory, and the one from yesterday I remember basically nothing of either, but I remember all of the non-lucid bits both before and after it. I guess I might add that one in here.... But the first one, I want to say that nothing important happened. But I might just want that to be the case. ._. There's really no way to say for sure. The second one... I'm pretty certain that the only thing I did was phasing, which is of course nothing new for me. I remember experiencing it and everything, I just don't really remember the experience itself. Oh well, the one from last night very much made up for it....
Oh, and for the last few days I've been taking 400 mg of L-theanine a day, divided into two doses of 200 mg with one in the morning and one in the late afternoon or early evening, usually.
#1 - But why are we in a skyscraper to begin with? [Non-Lucid]
I was in some school class in a huge skyscraper in some downtown area, and there were random people I graduated from high school with, this girl who sits behind me in my speech class I'm taking this semester at college, and my parents, for some reason. There was a massive storm coming our way with tornadoes visible through the windows and everything, and I was holding my mom's hand as we were all scared. There's a flashforward and things get hazy, but I remember seeing people evacuate but thinking that it wasn't on the same day but it was the same "windy season"....
#2 - Who would build a bathroom like this!? >_< [DILD]
The details of this have gotten hazier since I didn't care to write it down at first, but there was some gigantic computer mouse whose cord stretched all the way across some city streets, and it got pulled away and I tried to chase it but lost track of it. I remember seeing my old high school friend AB's car, but then things get blurry.... This is around where I became lucid and phased but then my next memory picks again at the non-lucid point. :T I was spending the night somewhere with AB, M, and these guys J and Ma who I met through M. The next morning, I woke up and started blasting some really heavy club music and M got excited, and her boyfriend D, who's suddenly there, turns to me and says something like "We can catch up later." I then realized that I needed to go change my clothes so I went to the bathroom to do so, but there were big windows all over the door so it was very easy to see inside. Everyone was oriented in the direction of the windows, but just not looking directly into them, but of course it was making me very uncomfortable at the thought of starting to change. J was saying maybe they should turn in a different direction, but then I woke up.
Last night, I took 250 mg of choline bitartrate immediately before going to bed. I'm fairly certain this had an effect, particularly on the lucid.
#1 - This would have been great to become lucid for!! [Non-Lucid]
I was playing some bizarre new PSP game the whole time, and there actually was something going on in the rest of the dream too but I pretty much missed it all because I was so focused on playing, so I don't really remember the plot anymore. What I remember about the game was that it had a setup where you had a team of playable characters that reminded me of the structure of NIS games, but it was mixed with a simulated life raising element like chao from the Sonic Adventure and Sonic Advance games, and the actual creature and level designs were sort of Pikmin-like. I really wish I could've played more of it because it seemed really interesting, but that's about all I can recall of it, and I remember walking up stairs or something maybe to see my speech professor... but no more solid details than that.
I woke up from this dream with a very strong headache. I'm fairly certain that my head was smashed into this part of the backboard of my bed and that's what caused it, because the pain slowly went away in a way that I can only relate to when you wake up with a numb arm and it slowly returns to normal, but it was my first time having that type of thing happen so I can only guess. But I really hope that that's what happened because otherwise it would mean I woke up with a severe unexplained headache. >___>
#2 - I could've told them this would happen... somehow. [Non-Lucid]
I was in a high school PE class (though I think the setting might actually have been my elementary school, sort of?) with O and people kept trying to give him balls that corresponded to different sports, but I remember equating these to video game weapons in my mind and thinking that they were doing it wrong because they didn't realize that "his growth charts are unique". Eventually he decided to play what I think was registered as either baseball or golf... but it's really just a bunch of balls bouncing around and people chasing after them with no clear goals. He makes the "winning play" I believe when at least one of the teams is "frozen" at 23 seconds left on the timer, but it switches to this weird TV view for it that only shows symbols to represent the player. He was excited that they run, but due to the odd way I saw it play out I asked him for verification that he actually was the reason they won, claiming that "they only showed the overhead", or some such nonsense. Suddenly he got all depressed at the thought because he didn't realize that he had won it, he thought he was just a part of it, so we asked some other guy and he said that that was the case. Suddenly O sank into despair, and this guy PR who I've known since elementary school tries to ask him what's wrong and cheer him up or something, but he proclaims that he may never play that sport again, and then walks out of the gym all dejected as class ends. On the way out I was trying to think of a way to explain his reaction to PR, but I couldn't really think of a good way to phrase it before I woke up.
#3 - I think it might have been inspired by Buffy? [DILD]
This was an odd driving dream, and I'm fairly certain I've had something like this happen before.... Basically, I was driving home in the snow at night, and I was stuck driving from the back seat where there was an accelerator but no breaks. As a result, I was forced to drive very slowly and frequently take my foot off the gas so that I wouldn't gain too much momentum. I have no idea why I didn't think to just climb up to the front seat, but I know that there was a car driving behind me too, so maybe I just didn't want to mess with the situation and cause any trouble. We came over this bridge in my neighborhood, and then when I turned on to my street it was suddenly daytime. Somehow I managed to go too far beyond my house though, and then this car started coming down the street in the other direction right for me, and I perceived someone else as being in the car with me at this point too, but I don't recall ever seeing anyone.... I started thinking "shit shit shit" because I couldn't stop the car or change the direction it was going in very easily, and then we ended up headbutting the other car. This is all unbelievably vivid... perhaps a mix of the supplements and the adrenaline boost? I started trying to rationalize this situation because I didn't want to have to actually be in a car crash again, and then I thought to myself "Wait, could this be a dream? This whole thing is pretty odd...." I climbed into the front seat and by then I had a feel for my state of mind and was sure of it, so I became lucid.
At this point I looked around at the street and the sky and just stared. This was one of those lucids that leaves you completely in awe from start to finish as you repeatedly tell yourself "There's no way a dream could be this real." As I looked over the neighborhood, there was no distribution of focus as in a regular dream, it was all fully rendered as a single image. It seemed exactly as if I was seeing it in waking life in every way, minus the snow. I ended up driving back down to where my house was (and I think it was using my first car which is long gone), and when I got there my house was pretty different. It was tall and thin, spanning multiple floors, whereas the real one has only one floor and is much more wide than tall. There were also large windows spanning most of the front face, and it had some kind of Greek-esque architectural design for what looked almost like a tomb on the ground floor, and it was covered in plant vines and everything. There was some large inscription at the top of this part, which was totally made out of stone, and I didn't get a good look at all of it but I do remember seeing the word "SOUL" in large print. Again, this was all extremely vivid. I wanted to go inside and check it out, as the front door was still right there where it should have been in the middle of that framework, but about that time I started feeling a headache again and woke up.
*sigh* That would've been cool to explore. That headache, too... not the real one, but this one in the lucid. It felt like the ones I get when I smoke too much or the last few times I tripped. I'm really starting to wonder if it's hippocampal in origin, and if the choline brought it out.... I guess this break from smoking will probably help in more ways than I thought, because it's going to be annoying if that headache keeps making an appearance in lucids. :/ Hopefully it was just a one-time thing though, and overall I still consider this dream very successful.
No supplements this time, I decided to just go clean and see what happens. I did smoke a little during the day, but not much, and not too soon before going to bed.
#1 - How Did This Become About Aliens? [Non-Lucid]
I was at some house party with JE and JG, among other people who I can't quite recall now, and we were all lying around or sitting on this bed in the dark waiting to each get pizza from JG one at a time, or something really odd like that. When he was calling me to get mine I suddenly realized that I was naked and felt really embarrassed, but it was really dark so I quickly made a grab for my pants and cami which I saw on the ground not too far from me and slipped them on. I went over to JG and got my pizza, like in a personal pan-sized box, and then I decided to head out (and the pizza just kind of disappeared in the process). I was walking to the door and this big dog came up and tried to get outside, but I held it back and went out and just started pacing back and forth in front of the door for R to get there to pick me up. I started anxiously texting him, but then after a minute JG came out to tell me that R was already sitting in the car parked in the driveway, even though when I looked a second later I didn't see anyone there.
I went over and got in the car and, down on the street, this car pulls up and a group of mean looking thugs or something get out. We drive off recklessly, swerving and barely missing obstacles along the way, and eventually we accidentally hit some of the thugs. R (though I'm not sure it's actually him) drives us off quickly so we can get away before they come beat the shit out of us and we end up in some frozen and snowy lake, which was the first sign of this kind of weather in the dream. Suddenly I had a third-person view of the thugs trying to figure out who we are, and they were referring to us as aliens (and I had a mental image of me being a humanoid one, while R or whoever looked like Roger from American Dad!) when someone pointed out that there were just some aliens at JG's house, so they decided to go ask him about us. It flashes back to us now except that it's still in third-person and we've become Robin (Cobie Smulders) and Barney (Neil Patrick Harris) from How I Met Your Mother. I could guess who was supposed to be who but I can't really say for sure, I didn't feel a distinct connection to either since this was all very detached still. Robin was freaking out about the situation but Barney was saying don't you get it? Something had to have started all of this alien business, and it might have been there at that lake. However, before he could really go any further with that thought, I woke up.
#2 - Just An Ordinary Office [DILD]
Something led up to this part of the dream, but the first thing I really remember is when me, Butters from South Park, his dad, a psychiatrist, and a cat all walked into this nice little room that was visibly (through the windows) on the first floor of some building we were in. Butters had some kind of supposed emotional problems that needed discussing, and the psychiatrist started talking about how she had the perfect method to make him feel better. It sounded really deep and caring, until she started saying about how wonderful it would be to do... whatever it was (some form of relaxation or self-expression I think, but it's hard to recall now) "as a lesbian". As she was saying all this, I became lucid. Poor Butters was just starting to get really confused as always, and I start petting the cat who's still walking around the room and laughing my ass off at how ridiculous this is. I started thinking about someone I know in waking life who always has stories about how when something funny happens in one of her dreams she wakes up in a fit of laughter, so it made me a little cautious not to make myself wake up but thankfully that never happened. I started observing everything around me just to stabilize a bit, and I decided to go through this other door in the room (aside from the one we came through) that I perceived as leading to the closet, but I wanted it to lead somewhere else.
I opened the door and there was a hallway in it, and as I turned around and it left my sight while I was closing the door, I willed it to lead to some kind of work office. I'm not sure why I chose this exactly, I guess I just thought it would be more likely to happen since I could easily picture it in the kind of environment I was already in. It worked, and I suddenly felt that I was no longer on the first floor of the building. I walked down and this guy walked past me and smiled at me, so I just kind of smiled back while I was still busy stabilizing, but then I decided I should stop worrying about that and just be confident that the dream will hold itself together for at least a little bit. I turned back around and said hey to the guy and asked if I could see his shirt, just to see what it said. It was one of those things where there are two phrases that each have one word the same and in the image they're combined so that they each end up at that word (or sometimes start from that word, but not this time) and that particular word is only written once, you know? The two things it said were "PUSH IT" and "SHOVE IT", with the 'IT' being at the bottom. The whole thing was made out of craftily placed black and orange borders, and I'm not sure if it would have actually made sense in reality or if it just worked because I only focused on one section of the shirt at a time, but I did think it was pretty cool and I told him so. He got all happy and was like "Isn't it?" or something like that, and then walked off.
I kept walking through the office a bit and came across a few people, a couple guys sitting at desks and a girl just kind of standing around. I walked up to the girl and asked what's up, and she says something like they're just hanging around, and then she asks me if I want to dance. I say sure and we do a dorky little dance for a moment (you know when you like just raise your fists up to your shoulders and barely shake back and forth a bit? ), and then she asks me if I want a piece of paper. I'm like um, sure? And she reaches over and grabs one with something on it from a printer that was sitting next to us. I reached out to take it from her but she pulled it back and started telling me something, and I think it was about something I had to do to get the paper, but the dream started becoming flat and seeming distant, and then it faded away and I woke up.
I thought about trying to fall back asleep and go for more, but I kind of had to go to the bathroom when I woke up and I was already alert enough that I knew that afterward I would be too awake to really have a chance at it, so I just decided to fully get up then.
Updated 03-10-2013 at 11:30 AM by 50803
I'm in my bed trying to go to sleep, when all of a sudden SP kicks in. I feel like I can't move or breathe, and I'm trying to convince myself not to break it. Finally those feeling subside, and then I feel myself floating out of my bed. "ZOMG epic flying dream incoming"I think to myself, as I feel my soul is leaving my body.
The problem is, no dream really starts. I think I'm just probably in a NREM state, because I keep seeing shadows, and shades of blackness....nothing is really materializing. Suddenly I'm awakened by a sharp pain in my ribs.
I'm at the supermarket with some guys, and I see one of my classmates. She's looking beautiful, and I don't hesitate to let her know....I'm about to have sex with her right there, and of course I woke up.
I'm at car dealership in a corvette, and I'm thinking of ways to steal it. I drive it outside of the lot, and try to replace it with another blue car. When I came back to the corvette, it was a different car. I opened it up, and there was some venomous snake there. I was thinking it was a Pigmy rattle snake because I didn't hear the rattle at all, but I saw the fangs. I backed off slowly, while facing it, and then once I got away from striking distance I took off. All of a sudden it starts chasing me. "This has to be a dream" I think, but I'm not going to take my chances.
I'm in my room. I get out of bed, and head to the bathroom...I think I'm dreaming but not sure. I do a nose pinch....no pressure, but can't breathe. Still not sure. I check the mirror. Boils are on my face, and other things don't look right. I do another RC...it doesn't work as expected but I know I'm dreaming. The damn dream fades.
So, I decided to do another ridiculous supplement test this time. I took 80 mg of melatonin at 9 PM, and I washed it down with thin mints, for good measure. The result was interesting. First of all, my first dream of the night was lucid. That's pretty odd, especially considering the melatonin... not that I really mind. For the rest of the night I noticed that nothing overly trippy happened, except that all of the dream scenes were very, very vivid and had mostly bizarre video game themes. I was also a bit delirious whenever I woke up, which caused me to lose one or two dreams from memory before being able to write them down, so I actually had quite a few dreams this night. And I could've had even more, but I had to wake up early again, so....
#1 - I've Yet To Make This One Work >:T [DILD]
I remember being at a school and walking down a hallway somehow having control over what was playing on the intercom, and I was using it to mess with someone by blasting loud music whenever they started talking. Eventually I got to the class I was walking to and became lucid. I wasn't incredibly aware though, because I kept texting my friend N throughout it, and I can't remember what we were talking about now. At first I just stabilized a bit, and then I kept trying to summon a joint or a pipe into someone's hands so we could smoke, but it never worked. Eventually I just sat down next to one of the guys there and started cuddling with him, but soon afterward I woke up.
And yes, let it be noted that 80 mg of melatonin was not enough to stop me from waking up several times throughout the night.
#2 - Dream Fragment [Non-Lucid]
I think I was playing as a video game character, or maybe meeting one, who was super violent and was accused of attacking someone over one thousand times "outside of battle"...? Or something like that, and I believe there was a scythe involved too, but it's hard to remember exactly.... I almost lost this one, I just barely was able to grab ahold of the memory.
#3 - Bobolo [Non-Lucid]
I was trying to help my cousin K with a school paper based on some kiddie game website called Bobolo that was specifically about some kind of disease or diseases, and I was slowly realizing that this topic wasn't really going to be usable to make a very good paper, but I didn't want to point that out to her because I felt bad that her paper was due the next day. What I remember of the website I could most quickly compare to Maple Story, but I wouldn't say it was exactly like that. There was also some set of medical record scans that I was able to unlock and look at at one point, but I wasn't able to make our what any of them said.
#4 - I Would Definitely Play This Game [Non-Lucid]
I was with my cousin G, who was living at some kind of trailer house I'm unfamiliar with with his immediate family now. We were in his room and I was playing some video game with pretty strange maps. I'm fairly certain that the way I was walking around and the character I was using were based on Phantasy Star Online, but the maps had colored grid squares with area effects that were very clearly (I even remember thinking it at the time) based on geo panels from the Disgaea series. The way the character jumped also reminds me of a Mario game thinking back on it now, but not enough to say it was based on that. I was excited about something on it, but I can't remember what now, and then I logged off and talked to G about watching kids do something pointless (the conversation is pretty hazy in my memory), and then I left the house. I got in my car and started trying to figure out how to get home while blasting some really crazy dubstep song which actually sounded pretty badass, but just as I was starting to find my way the dream faded.
At this point I woke up and, after I got out of my mildly hypnotic state, my libido was running pretty strong. I rolled over and started basically molesting my body pillow for a minute, but I tried to do this passively so the energy would wear off and I could fall asleep again. Eventually I started drifting and had some light hypnagogia, I think of some text or something? I didn't make note of it, so it's hard to remember. And the same with not long after, I rolled over and had more hallucinations, I think it was some kind of ladder pattern running horizontal across my vision, or something... but then my mom came in and woke me up because I have stuff do. Ah, well. Not a bad night.
4 Bud Light Platinums
3G Fish Oil
12:11Am - Flying Radio Station
I am flying in the clouds. There is a radio station seated on a higher cloud. I refresh my Galaxy Player and see that I now have wifi connection. I see a list of a lot of cartoon videos to watch.
4AM I move to the recliner but I as too tired from drinking to do SSILD or any other tech. Recall is tough too.
5:23AM - Walmart Storage
My wife and I bought a bunch of stuff online from Walmart. We decided that we should just go to the warehouse to pick it up ourselves. We back up a moving truck and start loading random boxes. There is a rocking chair we want but it looks unfinished. My wife says it needs varnish. She messes around with some commercial paint sprayer until she figures it out. I spray the chair. For some reason I spray down a baltic amber necklace. I have it all over my hands and I hand the necklace wet.
I move back to bed but my son soon wakes up. I feed him in the recliner and when he done we both dose off together.
7:00AM #132- Voxer Distortions - Brief DILD
I am looking at houses with my mom. We come back to my house in the back yard. I enter the back door for some reason. Maybe I was looking for my phone? I hear my voxer app going off. It's clearly a voxer notification but it sounds strange and distorted and comes from many different directions. I finally find my phone but see no voxer notification as I walk back out the back door.
I think this is really odd and it reminds me of my daytime awareness practices. I say out loud, "I am dreaming!" Not knowing what else to do I rush out the back door but I hit the void.
I now feel myself laying in bed. I quickly transition and get up out of of the dark bed room. As I enter the living room everything gets bright and vivid. I feel very pleased about this. I notice two small panels on the floor that look like tables turned on and just glowing a blueish white color. I go to examine them more closely.
I either open my physical eyes, or I realize I have had my eyes open already. Either way I discover that the two glowing tablets are actually two of the windows in my living room. I feel breifly confused because in the dream I thought I was in bed and totally forgot that I was in the recliner. (There is something to be said about "OBE's" now isn't there.) I try to DEILD but I am not feeling it. I give up too quickly and enter straight into a non-lucid dream.
I am at a version of work sitting at a workstation. Someone is next to me working on something. He is annoying me and taking up my space but I tolerate it. I see someone put a bunch of Walmart sacks on my desk. I am like what the hell is this? Then M.R. comes behind me and tells me J.D. gives them walmart sacks to use and he just puts them there because that workstation is usually empty. She takes the sacks and leaves. I notice that I have no monitor for my computer. I ponder over this for a while. I pretty much summon two monitors out from behind the desk. I set them up and feel disappointed at how small they are. I wake up.
Updated 02-16-2013 at 09:41 AM by 5967
I couldn't resist coming back just to post this quick little entry. Number 100!!
Catch Me If You Can [DILD]
I didn't make too much of an effort to remember the pre-lucid part of this dream, but what I do recall is that I was looking at multiple crazy new colleges with my old high school friend N, and he was interested in one specifically where there was this big paintball arena. Actually, I think he went from wanting to be in it to actually already being enrolled there, because he got to go into the arena while I had to wait outside (not that I had any burning desire to play paintball). However, around this time I became lucid and decided to see what the arena was like. All I knew of it so far was that it was totally inside and just set up like a maze with tall walls you couldn't see over that you had to find your way around in, and it was totally inside but there was plenty of lighting since the ceiling was still far above the walls. I started moving forward to phase through the wall into the arena and I was reminded of a discussion I've been in recently. I noticed that I was vividly aware of the solidity of the wall in front of me, but I was still able to drop that awareness willingly and pass through it without any trouble. As I did so, as opposed to normal how my perception just kind of blips, the entire wall was slowly decomposed into lines that disappeared as I fully got from one side to the other, and it was actually really cool, there were even little sound effects for it. This whole situation made me think back to this hacked character my cousin and I created on Super Smash Bros. Melee years ago, with a code that made it so that by pressing different button combinations you could activate or deactivate the collision detection for any map, and in combination with an infinite jumps code (to prevent you from just falling straight through the map to your death) you could basically hide in certain parts of the map until someone came by and you would jump out to attack them. I started acting off of the same concept in the dream. I would phase into a wall and wait there until a paintballer or two came by and then I would come out when they weren't looking and confuse them by running off and then phasing into another wall before they caught me. I was just having fun messing with them, but I allowed myself to stand totally still in one of the walls for too long and the dream sort of phased out and I lost lucidity. The dream briefly restabilized with me parked on the side of the rode somewhere with my car acting really weird and uncontrollable. I can't remember exactly all what went down, just that I got out of the car to look at it and suddenly realized that I was naked, and then I saw that there was another car full of people parked nearby who could just see me standing there totally clueless and I felt embarrassed. And I think that's the last thing that happened before I woke up.
And that's that.
Jan 22nd 2013
I’m in this damp and dingy looking house which is a bit basic inside.
I’m in the main (Living) room where I have my back to the wall which I can physically push back slightly as it is like one of those (interior) pebble dashed concrete prefab wall sections initially.
I now notice the plastered over wiring in the walls and the bland coloured paintwork as I look around the room afterwards.
It appears the owner/landlord is having the place done up because he has a work schedule in the form of a notice on the wall by the door.
I see the words as a heading on this board which reads, ‘Art and design’ followed by some other indecipherable word.
These people come in the room and start handing me boxes and things to carry. Soon I have both hands full where I wonder what this is all about, as I don’t want to be some sort of lackey.
I end up carrying this small stack of things through, and I even push and wedge open a set of metal framed glass doors with my foot to get through.
I find myself in this room with a bit of a corridor. I’m sitting at a table, sort of looking at the big TV at the end of the corridor which is showing some (Asian?) current affairs program at the time, as there is this Chinese looking guy in a (modern) brown suit on.)
I start thinking about this being a dream so I touch the table. I get up and look around the spartan looking room/corridor which is quite modern.
The scene is quite vivid now as I will (by thinking about) my Girlfriend appearing here naked as I’m looking in the direction of the wall.
My thinking process gets a little convoluted as I think of her being ‘in bed.’
I turn round half-expecting to see her in front of me, or further on, but I don’t. (I think ‘oh well!’) as I turn around and take a few steps.
The dream goes unstable so I touch the floor to try and regain control. The floor is a bit ‘odd’ as it is sort of grey looking/shifting with very small hypnagogic like yellow and blue dots in the centre of my vision, and just after I think I’ve momentarily woken up, (FA?) but I keep focus by staying still with my eyes shut.
I sort of go back in within a second or two where I see the bland greyness coupled with a strong hypnagogic flash of vivid yellow and blue light in the form of a couple of fleeting corona shapes. (@ 8.21 am)
I had quite a few dreams that I can recount from last night/early morning, besides the HI and FA's; however I'm showing the main dream here only.
I did try DEILD also, as I woke up 2 or 3 times during the night/early morning where I kept the mindset not to open my eyes, or move too much, although I think I simply fell asleep, rather than go back into a dream.
It was only after the short DILD however where I nearly managed to get back into the dream after the FA.
I did have a bit of a gripey stomach after, following the exploits of my WBTB routine.
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Updated 01-29-2013 at 11:08 AM by 44820