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Became lucid last night. It was night time and I was in my yard, the only light was coming from a pair of headlights from a jeep. I could tell it was a jeep from its Grill. I don't know why I didn't think to change the lighting, but whatever, I was just happy to be lucid again lol. I tried to make my black lab bigger so I could ride on his back. Didn't work, but I was able to make myself smaller to accommodate the situation. I wonder why I was able to change my size, but not the dogs. I was able to summon people though. Tried to feed one of my enemies to him but he's just too good natured of a dog to hurt anyone. Dang it lol. My ex appeared, he pulled into my driveway and scooped me up just like he use to. Ah! It was pretty great lol it was short but great
I had a hard time staying lucid, I need to work on that. I'm really wanting to try WILDing but I'm scared to death of the sleep paralysis. I need to quit being such a chicken lol

I realized I was asleep, it feels like almost instantly. I remember thinking "ok, I'm asleep. I gotta keep knowing I'm asleep" then I remember floating from my bed, down the hall, & to my door. I knew exactly where I wanted to be. I wanted to fly to my ex boyfriends house. I couldn't grasp the door-knob to turn it, so I remembered trying the window. I thought "why isn't this working." I looked at my hands to keep myself aware that I was asleep. And then I thought to physically make the window longer and roll out. It worked and I was still aware I was asleep, but I noticed too that my body was kinda hard to control and that things would fade to black, I even tried looking at my hands when things were black but couldn't see anything. After that I remember being in another part of my town in the opposite direction of where I needed to go. I was a the local walmart in the parking lot. I tried to fly but couldn't at first. The only thing that seemed to help me was focusing on a small whisp of cloud in the sky and trying to visualize myself floating up to it. It worked but I still found it hard to control my dream body. I was kinda stiff. I guess after that I slipped out of the lucidity of it. I'm pretty bummed I didn't get to my destination but I'm excited that I was able to remember at least one tip and it seemed like I was able to quickly realize that I was asleep.

Extra info: the colors weren't very vibrant. They were there just felt like a gray haze was over everything. Being outside it was gray and gloomy, like before a thunderstorm, but there wasn't big black clouds

Non lucid dream that happened after lucid dream:
I was at My ex's, sleeping in a separate bed. I kept waiting and waiting for him but he never came there were 3 rooms joined together, with no doors. I thought of a circle for some reason, like the design of the house was round. First It was my room. (It was His bedroom, but there was just a bed in it) the middle room had just a bed but it had a large woman in it I knew her in real life, her name is Tammy, she slept with his roommate once, their relationship never went beyond that. Then my ex was in the room next to hers. The bed was next to the wall, things seemed kinda pink/purplish and his back was turned to me. He woke up and seemed distant toward me. The next thing I remember is her cooking in his kitchen and I freaked out and threw her down the stairs outside of the house. I remember crying to his friend Chelsea, saying "This was my second chance, this was suppose to be my second chance" I felt like I was refurring to my last relationship before him and how this was suppose to be different. Then I woke up. I just remember feeling hurt and rejected by him, even without him speaking to me much during the dream.

( I notice that in a lot of my dreams I'm in a house/trailer, usually broken down and decaying. Not always the same one either. They're different each time. Other times in in my grandmothers house. Others in a school theatre)

I was in a broken down old house that was set on some support beams above water and mud. Maybe a river bank. I remember that my ex had called me. Specifically, he called me to apologize and he wanted me back. I remember wondering out of the door, over a wooden plank on to an open platform, I could see that I was very high, the sky was cloudy, like it was going to start raining. I jumped to another house straight across from the platform and it looked a lot like the other house only it was way more run down. The floor was weak and every time I took a step it creaked and bowed beneath my weight. I was still on the phone with my ex and I eventually stepped on a weak spot and fell through the floor. I remember a dusty Tv on a dusty dresser in the room where I fell. When I fell I landed in the mud, about chest deep, and not long after that, the dresser and tv fell but barley missed me. I must've went into a deeper sleep, because I can't remember much else.

Last night/this morning, I had yet another dream of someone from my past.

In the dream, I return to a house she used to live in when we were younger. We have gone back there to meet for some strange reason. I do not know this reason, but I know that when I am here now, I do not want to leave without her. I get the feeling in this dream that we have been away from each other for too long, and I am relieved to be with her now. I go to find her in her room and we talk for a bit. The first thing I notice when I enter this room is there are many beds, stacked vertically, one on top of the other as far as I can see. I also notice that the blankets covering every one of these beds are a lush, red color. The dream shifts at this point to a completely different place (another house, where some parts I remember from other recurring dreams) and she takes my hand to lead me to her room. Her face has changed, to someone else from my past that I know, a completely different person, but I know it is still her? I notice that I am in nothing but shorts/boxers, and I have a coat on that I used to wear when I was a child. I use it to cover myself, embarrased, but it seems too tight or small. She asks me if I would like to take two paths to get to her room, her words aren't clear; but I know what she is saying. I choose a path, and it turns out to be a wooden stairwell. I look down at my feet as I walk up the stairs as they are suddenly unstable, so I have to watch where I walk, I can feel them move beneath my weight, but nothing actually happens. The stairs are very steep, and narrow, length-wise. We get to the top and enter her room, which is occupied by a bunch of people. There are about five random people in there hanging out, they are all in their pajamas. She kicks them out and lays down on an air mattress in the middle of the floor. I go to join her and we talk for a bit. At this point the dream turns erotic for a brief moment, and I wake up shortly after.

Notes:

This person is an old friend that I grew up with and at one time in our lives, we had a very strong friendship. Everytime I have this dream it seems to start this way; we meet, and I go to find her in her room, which is vastly different than it actually was in real life. This dream always starts with the beginning, then always shifts to a completely new dream. The last time I talked with this person was last year, shortly before she got married. I have not spoke with her since, even after making attempts to contact her. She is like a sister to me, and we love each other as such. The second room I was taken to reminded me of an elaborate tree house. Small inside, but very comfortable. I enjoy being in places such as this. The unstable stairwell is a reference to my job; I have delivered large appliances to people who have front decks that are poorly built, and move sometimes when I carry the weight across it. I do not know why the beds in this dream have red blankets. But I will note that the wood these beds are made of, is dark in color, and in the second part of the dream, the wood is lightly-colored.