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Woke up around 3am, popped a 5-HTP, B-6, and one Choline bitartrate. Did this because my dream recall has been lacking for the past 7 days. Back in bed I started a WILD, focusing on my breath and a vision of a star, which immediately came to me. I started to see the dream I wanted to re-enter, and allowed drifting thoughts to come and go while I came back to this vision. A tunnel-vision grew stronger and before long I popped into the dream state with awareness.

I drifted across a grassy field toward a town, then proceeded to scan the town when I realized it was familiar from a past dream. It was night as is often the case in my dreams. I saw a familiar area of town with some nightlife, and went past this toward a hotel that caught my attention. It was a small hotel, like something you'd see in the streets of Paris, and two gentleman were working the desk. I remembered one of my goals was to ask the question "Where are we?" to one of the dream characters, so I did, unfortunately I don't remember the answer. I went upstairs to my room where two maids were cleaning, one vacuuming and the other picking up the carpet.

That's about all I remember.

I went to bed at 11:30pm, woke up at 2:00am. I took a double dose of Galantamind, only my second time taking it, and I won't be taking it again for at least a week. A double dose equals 8mg of Galantamine and 200mg of Choline, but I took an extra 200mg of Choline bitartrate separately. I started into a WBTB method and as a drifted I felt the sleep paralysis come on as Ryan Hurd and others have described. I reminded myself to stay calm and focus on my intent to get lucid, and not my fear of being paralyzed. This went on a for a little while and I suddenly woke up in my dream bed. My youngest daughter was sleeping beside me and I knew I was in a dream. I was lucid as well but I'd say not fully stable. I reminded myself to modulate my emotions, and not fix my attention to any one thing or else I'd risk slipping into unconscious dreaming.

I wandered out of the room and up the stairs past my wife who didn't pay me any attention, she was doing chores. My oldest daughter was upstairs and started talking to me in the middle of watching a show with some friends. I'm not recalling exactly how I responded, but I went outside the kitchen door, and looked at the dark night sky. The ladnscape was different for sure, huge and wide open with dimly lit houses scattered across hillsides - very magical feeling. The moon was bright and I wanted to fly up to it but reminded myself not to or I'd risk loosing lucidity. Instead I flew out and across a field in search of some exploration. I wound up at a classic building, like a mall, but more like the Louvre in Paris. People were everywhere. I wanted to find someone but I didn't know who, I dropped to the floor when an overwhelming feeling of sadness hit me. I cried intensely and woke up.

The sadness was related to leaving my family in search of adventure. Although I knew this was a dream and not waking reality, there's probably some aspect of this this 'desire to escape' in my waking world as well that I could look at closer. I believe that part of my loosing lucidity was related to the emotions, but also not having a clear goal for the dream state.

I often dream of water, either the ocean, streams, or ponds. Last night my wife and I were at a beach we've been to before, sitting in an ocean-front restaurant watching the waves and the surf. The ceiling was made of windows. I saw the ocean start pulling back like it does when a giant wave starts building, and I knew it was coming. The whole ocean started rushing toward the shore, and crashed into the building we were in. I watched the water and followed it with my eyes as it rushed up over top of us. The water eventually covered us, then receded. We went outside to look around, and saw a giant sand dune had formed in the middle of the water just off the shore. People started grabbing their boards to go back out for another surf : -)