whiterain

Well its been a while folks, still really interested in all this but sometimes life gets in the way. Massively vivid dream last night, seemed to last a few hours and contained many recurring themes from past dreams. There is this girl I went to school with, she was always fairly quiet, but we got along well, and once we won a doubles tennis tournament when we were doing A-level PE. Despite never being close to her she seems to pop up in these dreams even more than ex's do which I find kind of odd. It is almost like I have grown feelings for her through these dreams when before them I did not really think I felt anything for her really. They are all just based around being with her at parties, trying to get closer to her etc, but even in these dreams i have barely got more than a quick kiss. Sometime during this one I remembered that she is now married with a kid, this should have ben enough to get me lucid but I didn't quite make the connection, although it did change the flow of the dream as we left the party. I headed to the beach and had some long weird dreams but the details are pretty hazy. Hopefully I'll be posting here more often now as the time and motivation are back and I know I will often be lucid if I just put in a little effort.

second dream this week involving singing. i realised that in a dream/dream memory that i had been in a spoof version of TOTP singing some joke songs with a few old mates. it took me a while to figure out if this had actually happened but i felt so awake that when i saw a replay of it i was sure it was real. we had been called in last minute to do the song and despite not having any guidance as to the nature of the show had done a silly song in a serious manner. it was rubbish but i was really excited to see how it had gone and just see us all on telly. we gathered down the road at some old friends house to watch it, but didn't tell everyone that we were on. she seemed really whacky, almost out of it for some reason.

we watched the first few songs then it finally dawned on me that our song was probably so rubbish that they would have cut it from the end of the program. it was replaced with one my mate who is actually a singer had done for the next weeks show. it didnt fit the spoof nature of the program but was actually a really good rock song with him on guitar in the video on his own in some kind of escher staircase type video. he turned up at the house and despite being annoyed at not getting to see our song, i was chuffed for him that he had done such a good performance on telly. i tried to find the producers who were right annoying media types and they just tried to cause friction between me and my mate while i was just trying to find out if there was a copy i could watch somewhere. what i was mostly looking forward to was the spoof banter before the performance with some guy who was like tommy lee. then i realised i had a mouthful of stuff like previous recurring dreams, and i tried to pull it all out into a sink. people thought i was being sick, but i just had this mass of vegetable matter stuck in my throat. maybe just a sign of eating a bit much?

im with some folks on the street next to mine and they are trying to fix up their front garden so they can have people over for parties. we are just doing stuff like trying to lay all this crazy paving down. somehow i become lucid and just decide to instantly transform it into this amazing club style place. i stay lucid for a long time and just go around asking people questions about themselves and their views on where we are and what we are experiencing. its as if they are really there so i ask this guy his name and say if you are real we will meet online somehow one day

someone asks me for weed. havent smoked for a while but i decide to try to magic it out from my magic pocket. all i feel in there is some dust so i doubt my abilities. for some reason i decide that it will be easy if i just hand something to the guy and let him create it himself. i pass him some pocket fluff and as soon as he gets it it turns into a big bag of weed. i say to my brother how it somehow seems easier to create things for other people. random but enjoyable

im going past my old school when some old mates invite me in. i see an old teacher and then say i am off to the shop. im riding and have to cross a river before 'handside' shops which are the same as in dreams years back. the lad in front of me shouts out as he realises the river is deeper than he thought. i ride through and it reaches chest height. i push on though and get through.

there are kids fishing under a tree at an idyllic spot. one of there hooks has got caught in a duck and the kid is panicking dragging it around. i stop him and say we have to be careful and unhook it. once the duck is free, it flies off in slow motion and looks like it splits into smaller parts to be light enough to fly. i see kilty who talks about this..

then it snows heavily and i go out for a walk in it. halfway round it melts and i suddenly quite warm and sunny. second time this week i miss this dreamsign. i am in a temporary hut type building with an old school class. we are discussing a race we are about to run. its kind of a triathlon with roller skating, running and a water section. me and three others. as we crawl out of the small door to the hut, we realise there is a horse race going on and they are jumping over us so it isnt safe to leave yet.

when we leave i roller skate away from everyone. eventually i get caught up somehow by people using some technique across the water. i am second going into the final running straight. its rare to run well in dreams but this time i was determined and legged it past my mate trying to run the finish out of him. i win and the teacher gives me a bunch of fivers. i say we should all go to the shop and get some stuff for a little celebration at someones house

unseasonable weather, hot in november. odd clothes, beige cords! old girlfriends. fights. paranoia. people on my roof. mixed friend groups at parties.

i am in this posh hotel with loads of old mates. we are high up above a city which seems to be rome. there is about to be some ceremony which feels like the closing ceremony of the olympics. we have an amazing view of the city as the hotel seems to fly by the lights as evening descends. i even remark to someone that the only time i have seen such amazing views is in dreams yet don't become lucid. i spend ages trying to get a beer as the ceremony starts. as it does we all gather round the window at this fantastic overlooking view. suddenly it becomes really close and we are right in front of the performers who are dancing and singing operas in english for some reason. i am trying to record it on a shitty camera phone.

then it changes to a plane. we struggle to climb a hill in front of us and have to perform an emergeny landing. there is a long mat laid down for the plane but it is soaking wet so we just slide along it at an incredible pace for miles. eventually we are sliding along next to this cliff, and there is a huge corner coming up that it seems we have no chance of turning round which would slam us into the cliff. this all reminds me of the coach crach dreams i've had but still no lucid. we hit the rocks but for some reason nothing really happens and we are all fine. we are all down the front of the plane and i mkae a joke about the lack of panic sex. i then go through the plane to the back and someone else in an empty section says something about having sex with her boyfriend as we were sliding along towards the rocks.

first part of the dream was about keeping little pigs. they were really friendly and there was a grey one, a pink one and a japanese one which was animeesque with weird angular bone structure and advertising branded on it. also there were hedgehogs in the garden.

then i was stressing about being made to conduct my cousins wedding. i was wearing a long tail coat and for some reason looked like the bastard child of stewart lee and russell brand as i checked my hair in the mirror.

back home and jennifer aniston is there as i am trying on these multi coloured towel shorts things for her. then we are out in the garden and i notice we are growing peaches and one of them is ripe. i give it to her and as she bites it, the juice runs down her neck and chest....

early wbtb this morning. then suddenly find myself in manchester with malibu and mrs. then loads more people turn up and we are all crammed onto this sofa. we plan a night out in town and try and decide where to go. major dreamsign of mixed friend groups and old manchester house crossed with my nans old place.

then i am witha group of girls in this conservatory type house. we are drinking and having a bit of a party. one of the girls has this cockatoo which is green and blue. there are loads of other birds there too. i hate seeing birds in cages but i shut the cage just in case it decides to fly off. sapphire and her friend are there. nuff said for now

starts at local park playing football with old team. loads of colourful trees surrounding us, covered in massive flowers. huge cactus by the pitch too yet still dont get lucid.

then in town drinking after football. loads of old mates around. have a major dreamsign of neverending sticky toffee in my mouth. despite pulling loads of it out my mouth is still stuck full of it. leaving town with si and anna skipping along lifting her up. accidentally end up going the other way and i ask them about how we have managed to turn without even noticing. i start to suggest that we must be dreaming and that we turned around because we didnt really want to go home, but wanted to spend more time out with mates.

outside the local shopping centre there have been loads of fountain pools put in to celebrate something like the olympics. there are loads of people swimming in them despite the not brilliant weather. i hear some tunes made by an old mate which seem to inspire me to want to make some more myself

also a ver odd bit that felt like a film where this guy was getting everyone to watch him jump off this high building. it seemed like he had no chance of surviving but when he hit the floor it gave way and he went halfway into a hole which seemed to cushion his fall.

i was skateboarding near my brothers new house. all good fun but was finding it impossible to even walk up hills. then we decided to go out for the night. the first place we went to didnt serve booze but it had good looking food and great looking juice things served in massive fish bowl type things. i ate a hot samosa and it was incredibly realistic. we decided to go to manchester for a drink and a party. when we got there we went to my mates (Fi) work who said we were really early for the party but it didnt matter.

incredibly clear lucid last night. im at this swimming pool/shopping complex in manchester with a mate (MF). we walk into a part of it we are not supposed to and security pull us back. after a quick search they give us back our stuff. suddenly i notice im missing my clothes. i grab a towel and jump in a lift. my mate starts laughing at me then when he jumps out the lift he realises he is naked too. we look at each other and go ahhh it must be a dream.

were in this square in town and there are amazing old architectural buildings around. i float around a bit then decide to go for that swim. then we are on bikes and searching round the outside of the complex/ there is some kind of animal park there, with fenced of paths to walk down with horses and stuff a bit like a petting zoo. there is a little pile of puppies on the ground and they look like some of them are badgers.

my mate swerves to avoid another biker and his bike flies of down this ravine. luckily he manages to bounce himself off a tree to avoid falling. when he gets to his bike he whacks it golf style and somehow manages to land it right next to me.

inside the complex is a 1st story room with large glass windos each side. there are 2 similar buildings across each street on each side. as the swimming complex starts to close, people start to file into this room for some after hours activities. it soon becomes clear that its some kind of swinger club as people start displaying themselves to each other across the street. i have a little look but then decide its not for me right now and make my exit.

back in the shopping part and i have this weird link to a repetitive past dream. i am trying to buy this weird tv, which is portrait shaped, makes lots of weird noises and lights, and best of all comes with this egg which grows into an amazing worm/caterpillar type thing which eventually becomes some amazing bug. kind of like the screaming bug on simpsons without the screams. the tv and bug are from a dream where i am living at college in this row of chalet type houses.

i meet wayne rooneys brother when i decide that i will have to order the tv later. i tell him that im here with wayne? for some reason... wayne turns up and has a bit of a fight with his near identical little bro. i try to leave the complex to get my car but the entrance foyer is starting to get rammed with people heading up to the swinger area. lots of my friends are their. also there is this one guy from school who i go up to and ask him his name. his says yes thats me and i just call him a massive cunt then walk away. also Si C is there with mates as i try and squeeze past them. Fi is also there and i chat to her briefly.

i finally make it out of the complex and ask a guard what is the best way to the car park. i go round the back and side of the building and remember that we are parked in this sandy area. i drive around it and eventually we come to a track which leads to a beach. people have left loads of stuff on it like kids bikes so i have to drive very slowly and carefully as they move them for me and i weave inbetween them with just my foot on the brake which only slows the car down but never quite stops it. as i pull into the beach i drive over this black guys wallet/phone or something. i hope that the soft sand will make sure they are not broken, but as it seems he hasnt noticed i try and just get away with it sneakily... cant remember much else for now

in an area that i relate to oxford for some reason. just has a rural england feel to it and seems to link to many previous dreams. there is a bush on the side of the road. it is about to flower but completely green. when you rub your hand over it suddenly all the flowers come out in bloom aswell as strawberries underneath. i hear an old rugby teammate (LM) shouting and go over to investigate. all i say is is that you L are you ok? she! says yes and just walks off with TL. marsh is there too so i go and chat to him. we run off down this field which has lions on each side. i then get invited to a party by daniel agger. all these things directly relate to things i saw just before bed

amazing festival type dream last night, k was taking me round for my birthday. col, rus, dan j, marm, jo p, michael caine, david cameron and stephen fry all featured. after festival we were all hammered and in this house which seemed to be this michael caine type characters place. loads of girls lying around, parts of the place were still like massive festival tents with people sleeping while i rode my bike through them. found Jo with an old aussie celeb, she looks tiny and we sit down and chat. kept going round and finding my stuff all over the house like nmy phone etc because i felt so hammered. dropped my phone while talking in a crowd, and then stephen fry fell on his back with an almighty thud. was ok but said he was off home or something.

later outside this kid gets bitten by a wandering spider that they were provoking. i manage to blag us a bus to take him to get it sorted. while leaving and hanging off the back of the bus, david cameron comes out in protest against the festival. he comes up to me and knows my name which freaks me out a bit (dreamsign). i grab him and shake him up to freak him out back.

on the bus and we spin through a field and tip over (major dreamsign). it comes to rest against a wall and everyone is safe.

must add losing personal belongings and worrying how much cash i have left to list of dreamsigns

first bit was just lying around on the usual beach and going from there to bars. then i was in a park with alot of people and there were also groups of lions around. got caught between two groups of them but they didnt seem too bothered by me. then later on i killed a little spider and was really upset with myself

yesterday remembered one where i was lying on my side in my front room, and i was just kind of propped up on my hip and floating round in circles. the kind of dream where it feels like it is practice for a wild. tried using this visualisation and its pretty good. just like trying to run through the air on your side.

did a long wbtb this morning then went back into a massive party dream based in my usual mix of holiday/town/bar etc locations. loads of old mates around. one girl (TR) says 'is it normal if i change clothes at work' then just strips off her top in front of us all. i am sitting down in this huge comfortable chair and suddenly her friend joins her in dancing around semi naked. someone wheels in this free standing double pole dancing set up for them. right in front of me i decide that it looks like some kind of weird sexy masonic ceremony with the two poles as the pillars. thats the last i remember for now