http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/ Dreamviews is the largest Lucid Dreaming Community and Resource on the web. All about lucid dreaming, controlling dreams, sleep stages, dream signs, dream interpretation and more. en Wed, 08 Feb 2012 17:44:41 GMT vBulletin 60 http://www.dreamviews.com/images/styles/dream/misc/rss.jpg http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/ http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/already-mostly-forgotten-29610/ Mon, 06 Feb 2012 14:14:35 GMT I've been placed on a blood pressure med called Minipress which is helpful for nightmares and night terrors. It usually works very well. Last night was the exception.

I took one and laid down to sleep at 1:30


I dreamed I was in some sort of hostage situation. I was in some house with a few ladies, one man and a bunch of little kids. I was NOT cooperating with them in the least. I felt certain I would be raped, but I just couldn't stop my defiance. I was just SO MAD.

At one point, I grabbed my phone out of a purse [RC missed- I don't carry a purse lol] and I tried hiding it under a couch cushion but I was caught and dragged away from the phone by my feet.
Eventually, I escaped and it turns out I was in row apartment housing. At the end of the row I ran into a woman and asked her to call the cops. I didn't know which house number I had come from and I worried about the others, so I went back.

When I entered the door, one of the women was holding a gun on the 3 bad guys and the man of the house boasted about the level-headed thinking of his wife. He beamed at her and I felt his jab against me for putting up such a fight.

The cops came and they took out one dead body. The body of another woman was wrapped in some sort of plastic to keep her insides from falling out and to keep constant pressure on her wounds.


I woke up and took another minipress, don't know at what time. (My p-doc wants me to take 2 at bedtime but I can't take them together or I get extremely sick)

In another dream, I was at some sort of religious event. I think the people there were Catholic for the most part. One woman was very welcoming. She was a nun but not in the traditional sense. She didn't wear a habit and she wasn't a virgin because she entered after having kids and being married. Then the dream contradicted itself because she went on to say the Priest wanted her to change her name when she was 17 because no one would want to marry her. But she refused. Her name was pretty common too, Margaret, I think.

She was very depressed and I told her to just cast her worries on Jehovah and he would sustain her. She despised herself though so her worst enemy was herself. Then I told her to remember Job as he wrote the book of Jude [:cackle: say WHAT] and how many of the disciples entreated God to take their problems away but he said no. It wasn't God punishing them, it was them having to live with previous actions or the effects of time.

She appreciated the comfort and sat with me. Conversation got heated somewhere else, and I HAD to get involved and correct someone's misunderstanding of a certain Bible verse (?)


In yet another dream, I heard a knock on the door. I opened it and found the construction crew. One of them was letting me know they were just finishing up. There were garages and smaller building all over the yard, but they looked unfinished.
I walked outside to look at their progress. There was a pile of logs near my house and as we walked by the pile became unstable and rolled. Many people were it. A couple were buried. I raced to see where I could be of help, but I felt in the way as others beat me to the wounded. So I just tried cleaning up and rearranging tools on a table (?). Then it occurred to everyone that some people could be completely buried.
All of us started to move the logs and sure enough, we found 4 white slaves (?). They were in some recess and it didn't look like they had been crushed, but they still appeared dead.
I went to check on one of the women and she darted up in shock. She said sorry about the fright, but she must have turned her "rape shield" on at the last moment. :wtf: lol

A recurring theme seems to be assertiveness and aggression. Both of those things have been on my mind a lot. Especially since I answered some questionnaire about/for my youngest daughter and one of the questions was: "[Does she] knows the difference between assertiveness and aggression?" I became very annoyed at the question. I thought to myself: "There's a difference" "What's the difference"
:cackle: that says volumes about me. Once I thought of it, I knew the difference and was like :doh: But in my mind, they go hand in hand because all my life my assertiveness has always = someone else's aggressiveness :roll:
So, it seems my dreams were telling me I need to stand up for myself more often, but I still need to use logic.

As for the rape theme.... in my demented mind, rape is still sex. I've not had sex for over a year and I went to sleep last night in a "mood". I can't cheat on my hubby, but if I was raped..... yeah, warped thinking I know. As if any sane person would ENJOY being raped. ]]> Zhaylin http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/already-mostly-forgotten-29610/ http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/jumbled-mess-29412/ Wed, 01 Feb 2012 15:42:56 GMT The first thing I recall is dreaming that my teeth were falling out. They came out with little effort (i poked and pulled a tiny bit). It was as if... The first thing I recall is dreaming that my teeth were falling out. They came out with little effort (i poked and pulled a tiny bit). It was as if they were suspended inside my mouth by nothing and I wondered how they hadn't fallen out sooner and I thought of an example of slamming on my brakes while driving and my teeth just flying out lol
In the dream, my p-doc was my Dentist and I worried how he would react.

I've not had such a dream in a VERY long time. I blame Erii's post about the Dentist :cheeky:

In another dream, I was at my Grams house and I kept missing phone calls because she had a telephone that flashed red instead of ringing for the hard of hearing. But then the dream gets all jumbled with another one.
What I recall of it is being at some bar/restaurant. The Land Cruiser was in the parking lot but it wouldn't move. I went out to put something away and berated myself because not only had I left the keys in the door, in another door hung the keys from my new car.
I was traveling somewhere and I worried about hubby finding the Land Cruiser.

Somehow all of that gets jumbled with yet another dream of me babysitting. One of the neighbors was a real ass and he came over to harass the little boy under my care about one thing or another. The boy was only about 6 or so. He just barged in and went to the boys room. I told him the boy was napping and that I wouldn't try waking him and that he needed to leave etc. He shook the boy awake and the boy promptly bloodied the mans nose :cackle:
The man left, taking his little daughter with him (?) and the mom walked in and I started rambling off what happened. She was furious and went to the door to yell at him, but at that moment, his little girl fell and cracked her head on the sidewalk. Her dad was right there but we females still wanted to rush out and comfort the child, but we held back.

Which jumbles my memory further and I recall my parents at my Grams house. They were upset about something and had to travel a great distance to pick up my kids because my sisters car broke down (kids were with them). My dad raged on about how what goes around comes around and he might not give my sister and her hubby a ride home before bringing my crew back.

Which further jumbles with the dream from the bar/restaurant and someone asking who my hubby was and being shocked by the answer and more shocked by the age difference.

And then I recall having laid down on someone else's bed and I was certain I had been exposed to lice and I became highly annoyed.

I only slept for about 5 hours and it was definitely NOT good sleep. ]]> Zhaylin http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/jumbled-mess-29412/ http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/been-awhile-29145/ Thu, 26 Jan 2012 03:35:43 GMT I took a nap from around 5-10PM (some "nap" lol) and I had a dream worthy of recording.
It actually wasn't anything special but it left me with a good feeling when I woke.

It started out kind of strange. I watched the dream as I'd watch TV. There was a boy of about 10 and he was twirling around young, thin-ish trees. He'd run at them, jump, grab and then turn in circles until the tree was uprooted (they were growing on a sandy incline). Afterwards, something caught his eye (?) and he felt bad for his actions and wondering how many animal homes he had destroyed.
Then a hideous woman came along but he saw her as a young girl which melted the woman's heart. He picked her dandelions (?) before the flower stage and the pieces kept blowing away in the wind. He didn't notice, though, and the woman didn't mind.

Then he was going to make her "soup" and so he began gathering ingredients. She asked if she was free to leave whenever she wanted (she thought she was his captive?) and he said "I guess so... you're old enough." Implying he would have made her stay if she was younger but only because there were dangers in the woods.

Then the dream changed completely. I was there and there were 2 young boys. One of them found a Donald Duck Pez Dispenser and tried eating some of the candy still in it. I asked for the dispenser and began telling the boys what it was. I told them they had found something from when their fathers or grandfathers had been boys and that the Duck was of a cartoon- something you would watch on a thing called a television. I noticed an old fashioned TV in front of us and indicated it. I then told them about cartoons and indicated a nearby coloring book, telling them it was like that, only they moved around and talked etc.
They were in disbelief lol.
I went on to tell them about movies and how they made you feel anger, sadness, joy or hope or even terror.
They started looking bored lol and I woke up.

Before then though, I had some run of the mill dreams. In one, I was going to help my brothers ex move but I didn't want hubby finding out. I was driving the Land Cruiser for some reason. There was a thick blanket of snow on the ground and I turned around in the driveway, careful not to get hung up when I backed in the yard a bit. Then I realized I didn't have enough gas and that I would have to reschedule.
There was another dream before that one, but I've forgotten it..... ]]> Zhaylin http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/been-awhile-29145/ http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/religion-pets-26840/ Sun, 27 Nov 2011 12:44:21 GMT I've been having some doozies lately.
One night, I dreamed that Artie, from my Kingdom Hall, cornered me and told me enough was enough. I needed to get back into the KH. His wife made a move to take my cigarettes but I wouldn't let her. I told them I could not come back until my kids grew up and left me. They caused too much stress, legal problems and messes for me to go back. I NEEDED my smokes until they left to cope with stress and I couldn't go back as long as I smoked. Joni (wife) said I needed to just attend the meetings and regain my spiritual strength and that if I did, I'd surprise myself at just how much life would improve.
They then asked if I had gotten rid of some books and video games that were overly violent and inappropriate. I hadn't.

That's the only dream, from earlier in the week that I recall.

Last nights dreams had me talking to my former bestfriend from the KH- Roxie. There were some weird changes happening. Men could now marry more than one woman :lol: Ron and Melvia (an elderly couple!) were trying to bring a younger woman into the marriage.
I was surprised Roxie was talking to me. We spent a good while just catching up and I asked her why she deleted her FB account. She answered it was too distracting.
There was a lot more but I seem to have forgotten it.

In another dream, my former favorite cat Rogue came home. I was so happy and pet him and played with his stubby tail just as I used to do. I was at my parents house but it was a lot different. I eventually realized the bathroom door was open and Cuddlebug (bunny) was nowhere to be found. My birds cage was open too. I closed the cage, amazed that Rogue didn't even try to eat them. Then I went looking for Cuddlebug.
I opened the back door and there were strange bugs and reptiles on the top step. I didn't want to squash them with the door, but I also didn't want to be attacked, so I was extra careful.

There was a small pond to the side of the steps. It was tropical, with lots of plants and flowers.
Then I see some other reptile slither to the water. Only, it wasn't really slithering. It was just really close to the ground. I thought it was a baby gator at first, but it was actually some enormous lizard/salamander
The dream then changed direction and I was with my hubby trying to repair a generator. I told him about the lizard and insisted on him looking at it.
I don't recall how the dream ended, thought the eldest dog briefly entered the story. He was with a black lab stray and it was starting to rain very hard. I put them both in the garage, worrying they would jump on and scratch hubby's new V.W. bug. It was a great shade of green- light, but almost olive.
The dogs started barking crazily and THAT'S when I woke up.

When I woke, that dog was carrying on IRL. ]]> Zhaylin http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/religion-pets-26840/ http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/kittens-rape-26693/ Tue, 22 Nov 2011 16:35:28 GMT Strange combo, I know :roll:
They were separate dreams, I think.

I don't recall much about the kitten one. Only there were a bunch of them and for some reason I was removing their heads with a pair of canine nail clippers :wtf: The last kitten was bigger than the other. I snipped and snipped at him neck but I just couldn't remove it. The kitten was purring and being affectionate and I felt bad that I had to kill all of them.

In the other dream, I was at a large hospital or school with an older sister. She was blonde and beautiful. We ran into some sort of trouble and took off running for our car. A man reached us just as we were trying to close the doors. He began trying to rape my sister but I talked to him. I told him I was perfectly willing and I'd make it worth his while. The eyes of my sis were kind of glazed in shock and disbelief.
He came to the back seat and started removing his clothes. I helped him and kissed his stomach.
Then he did the deed and it was over within seconds :roll:
Then I cursed having not asked him to wear a condom because I was ovulating PLUS I didn't want to get some disease. But it was too late to think of that...

Then he thought we were dating and my sis and I decided to keep things hush-hush. Our dad was someone important and we didn't want to make his life difficult.
The dream gets all jumbled at that point. Dad had taken someone to a secret room to torture and kill him, thinking the man had hurt his oldest daughter. We wanted to intervene but our shame was great.

The dream then changed almost entirely and I was at some park with friends. There were 2 sets of roller skates. A RL HS friend wanted to skate with me, but they were too small. Instead, my "rapist" was going to go with me.
But along the way, I stopped to gather the eggs of a "thrusher". There was also a spider as large as a german shepherd that I tried avoiding.

That's it. ]]> Zhaylin http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/kittens-rape-26693/ http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/dead-birds-25933/ Wed, 02 Nov 2011 17:03:54 GMT I've been sleeping WAY too much. Sleepiness swoops in on me almost as quickly as my old cataleptic episodes. Which tells me 1)I'm either sick or 2) My anxiety is a lot worse than I think.
I don't recall much about my dreams.

One of my earliest dreams was about my cockatiels. I had their cage covered for the night and when I removed the pillowcases they were dead from suffocation. The female looked red like a cardinal.

In one of them, Zee told me she was pregnant and she started flipping out, saying her life was over etc.

In another one, I was talking to some guy and his son about my weight. I told them I gained 40 pounds in 12 years. They said I didn't look fat and I told them I was almost sickly-thin 12 years ago lol

In another one, I was at my grandmothers house. She was upset because the rumor mill was saying she was bad talking one of Zee's old friends Colleen; that grams was saying she was glad she was removed and placed in a facility. But, in the dream, Colleen was like family and my grams was devastated when she was removed and equally devastated by the rumors.

In another dream, I was at a house and woodpeckers moved into a bedroom closet. Somehow they were able to conduct experiments on each other which strange results. Some of the birds had liquefied. Others were just heads. There were several babies and cross breeds. Some looked slender yet resembled cardinal red doves.
There were a bunch of cats everywhere and they were going after the birds. I rescued several of them, but others I left for the cats because when I took them away from the cat it was too late. The birds who were injured had "meaty" flesh, another one had it's back pierced.
I was very upset I couldn't save them all.

**EDIT**
I am most curious about the red birds. I have a lot of tidbit dreams about my birds dying and the female almost always looks like a cardinal. She's a sickly bird- always has been. She's a seed snob so her belly's distended from a form of malnutrition. I often worry she's going to die. But I don't associate the color red with disease or death. Or do I lol ]]> Zhaylin http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/dead-birds-25933/ http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/moar-stress-dreams-25906/ Wed, 02 Nov 2011 02:29:33 GMT ... or rather, fragments of such. All I recall from my last dreams was some adventure by water. I was with a group of people and we were... ... or rather, fragments of such.

All I recall from my last dreams was some adventure by water. I was with a group of people and we were traveling by river. It was very marshy in areas and there were frequent sand dunes. Someone almost drowned but some guy swimming by (in a group of 3) rescued the person. I barely recall hiding in the trees.

Then I had a video game style dream in which I was viewing a world map and trying to find the perfect spot to build my city. I built one, but then found an even better spot on another continent and I commented to someone (?) that I hated separating my cities by so much. That dream was in "god mode". "I" didn't exist in the dream except to make that comment. The map filled my entire vision and I could zoom in to see certain areas better.

In another dream, I was living in my parents house again. I had to go outside for something and I heard something big in some bushes. I quickly got to a car and locked myself in. Then I saw a bear cub. He was very cute, but I knew the mother had to be nearby, so I was just going to wait in the car for them to pass. Except the cub was too curious. He walked over to the drivers side window, looked in and roared at me. Spittle flew. Then his mom showed up at the passenger side window- which was rolled down. She stuck her head inside the car and I grabbed it, pushed her outside and quickly rolled up the window.
I don't recall how it ended.

Okay... maybe these were better than fragments lol ]]> Zhaylin http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/moar-stress-dreams-25906/ http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/stress-25849/ Mon, 31 Oct 2011 14:50:20 GMT I've been having lots of stressful dreams lately.
Let's see... last night (err... this morning), I fell asleep at around 3AM. I was up at 6 and back in bed by 7 and I woke up at 10.

I crashed so hard the first time it literally felt like I had JUST closed my eyes before the alarm went off. The only dreams I now recall from then was flying through a war zone in a video game-ish setting. I've forgotten the finer details. I also dreamed of riding a dinosaur that resembled a T-Rex while some narrator explained the terrain and the dino's physiology. A cliff crumbled under us at one point and we fell into some lava at which time the narrator said the dinos tough skin protected it from the lava :lol:

**Now I recall two other tidbits**
I was driving on the interstate and the roads were horribly complex. I got lost then started walked, trying to find my way. I was turned around and going in the wrong direction at one point.

In another dream, I was about to drink a fountain Coke out of my large cup. I picked the cup up by the lid. The lid fell off and I woke to the alarm clock going off :lol:

When I went back to sleep, I dreamed of my ex-husband. I was living in my parents house with my husband and my ex just waltzed in and plopped down in the recliner. I told him my hubby would be home soon, so we should talk elsewhere. He said he was just about to suggest that. I couldn't find my shoes or jacket and I was getting more and more annoyed. There were many more rooms than there should've been and I was getting more and more frustrated as I went through the house. There were people I didn't know living in some of the rooms. Some of the rooms were trashed.
I finally found my youngest daughters room and she had several girls over. One of the girls followed me around and told me that her parents used to like Zee- that Zee used to be so quiet and respectful; but now she has to sneak out to see her.

I finally found my clothes. My ex was waiting in his car when I made it outside. But it was VERY foggy. I got into my car, wanting him to follow me because talking in the driveway was pretty much the same as talking in the house. I somehow lose him and turn around to hunt him down.
Then, for some reason, I got out of my car, walked just a few feet then realized I lost my car. There were many more streets than there are IRL. I went up and down them, but I just couldn't see well enough to find it.
I ran into my ex then recruited the kids into helping me look.

Then the dream veered just a little and I started also focusing on sewer covers on the road right in front of the house. There were caps over the holes, then the cover snapped into place above it. They were of different sizes and shapes and I was getting annoyed trying to properly pair all of them. And I still hadn't found my car and hubby was due any minute.
Then I was behind something and I saw an ambulance in my driveway. I peeked around the corner and there was hubby. He saw me, so I had to go over and talk and hope he didn't notice my car was missing.

We went inside and he showed me part of the presentation he used during the convention he participated in as a speaker.
Then I woke.

At some point inside the house, I also dreamed of my old cat Rogue. I pet him and held him. I was so glad he finally made it home after having been missing for several years.


I don't FEEL any more stressed than usual. My dreams, however, point to a breaking point in my levels. ]]> Zhaylin http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/stress-25849/ http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/masturbation-babies-farmville-25051/ Mon, 10 Oct 2011 18:28:50 GMT I had some frustrating dreams the last time I slept from around 8AM-11:30. I was feeling randy in the dream so I grabbed some bengay and alcohol... I had some frustrating dreams the last time I slept from around 8AM-11:30.

I was feeling randy in the dream so I grabbed some bengay and alcohol wipes and tried to disappear into a room to take care of some needs :cheeky:
But I kept getting interrupted.
One interruption in particular was a baby. Some woman kept trying to pawn him off on me but I just wanted to be alone. Eventually, I gave in and laid him on my chest to try to get him to sleep but he had a soaking wet diaper.
I don't recall how the dream ended.

At some other point, I was playing Farmville and there was some sort of event going on. But Farmville kept freezing my browser, I couldn't send or receive the special gifts and anytime I tried to exit and reboot, more Farmville pages would open. I was extremely angry about the whole thing.
My hubby's son was in the dream and we talked about exchanging gifts. I told him he wasn't my neighbor, though, but he insisted I was. I kept wanting to congratulate him on his new baby but the subject kept veering before I could.

That's it. ]]> Zhaylin http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/masturbation-babies-farmville-25051/ http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/blah-25041/ Mon, 10 Oct 2011 13:15:07 GMT Sleeping so much has led to LOTS of awesome dreams. But laziness in recording them has led to lots forgotten :D During one of my early AM... Sleeping so much has led to LOTS of awesome dreams. But laziness in recording them has led to lots forgotten :D

During one of my early AM sleeps, I dreamed I was Spongebob :lol: I invented the Crabby Patty by accident by adding cool whip to fish and then baking it.
Then I dreamed of driving and that my steering wheel kept coming unscrewed on one side. So, I took it apart and there were lots of teensy tiny balls inside of a shaft as well as a key. I had to put everything back together perfectly and it was getting on my last nerve.

Some other time, I dreamed I was from a planet named Mira (or Mirror ?). I escaped to some other world where black people were still slaves. But on my world, they had been revered almost as gods. So I kept following one woman in particular around, in awe of her and furious about her mistreatment. This is one of the dreams I wish I had recorded sooner. It was very intricate.
Now all I recall are snippets about space travel and spaceships, telling people I escaped from some cult (but it was a cover for my ignorance about the language and knowledge of history because I actually came from some past time).

In the last dream, I had almost violent sex with someone who was supposed to be my brother (I wasn't dreaming as myself). I fought against it for a very long time, but he finally captured me and I gave in. It was as our family had always done for many generations.

Then the dream changed and I crash landed a spaceship on earth (?). I was in some amusement park called Route 88. My IRL hubby wanted to have tee-shirts made to remember our adventure. But he was also irritated about spending money on them and said it was coming out of my allowance.
We passed crocodiles and some sort of prehistoric looking alligators.

Next thing I know, is I'm hiding from some woman. We both put on disguises but we still run into each other and I try to escape- repeatedly. I was with some other woman and we race back to the spaceship which looked like a car. She started driving in reverse and I asked her about it worriedly. She said our portal was behind us and it was the only way to get through it.
While running and such, I spent most of that dream flying :) ]]> Zhaylin http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/blah-25041/ http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/religion-24992/ Sun, 09 Oct 2011 12:16:32 GMT I guess I had this dream some time during 1-7:30 AM I wish I remembered all of it.

My memory of this dream is scattered. I'm not sure where it began.

I was in some building that reminded me of a compound. It was just a large house, though, on a LOT of private property. There were many people living there, but I recall the women most.
There was a VERY little boy. His size was in between infant and toddler but he was vocal and active like a 6+ year old. He was throwing a fit about something and I tried to help the women by distracting him. I just talked and joked with him and he complained about being very cold. The woman in charge (his mom?) refused to let him change or get a blanket. She said to him that he had made a big enough mess as it is. I suggested to him that he clean and put his stuff away and maybe then the woman would let him get a blanket.
She shook her head no and implied he needed to toughen up.
I held him at some point and he was then so tiny I had to support his head.

As I left I told them that I didn't have anything against them, but I wouldn't be returning. I said we were just too different. The 3 of them sadly shook their heads in agreement.

I left the property and as I went through town I became aware of a government raid against the place. Though I didn't agree with their methods, I thought they were good people and I didn't want anyone to get hurt, so I rushed back to sound the warning.
But my complaints were dismissed as paranoia. The government came in guns blazing and many people were hurt. In the aftermath, I discovered I was a healer lol. That baby/boy was now a young man. I rubbed my palms together to warm them, then set them against the injured places on his body. Sometimes I almost violently rubbed the spot as well. His arm had been weirdly broken- almost compressed- and I pulled it out almost like an accordian and reset it.

But then I went back in time. I was before the elders, telling them once again about the raid. We had a scripture "sound off" and I used my knowledge of future events to convince them I spoke truly. They thought I was possessed though, lol, but they still followed my suggestions.
I don't recall how that ended because at some point, the dream changed.

I was one of them. I was out with a couple of girls. We were all pregnant and we became aware of a curse. If we didn't make it back to the compound before 7PM some creature would attack us and we would lose the baby if not our life as well. We got closer to the compound and one of the girls fell off a small cliff into a small river. We heard her scream as the animal attacked. We kept running and every time we thought we were in the compound, some other door or alley would reveal itself. I made it to a store- which was a safe spot, with just one minute to spare.
On the way there, though, I had seen some of the creatures. They were *like* guard dogs, only they were sleek and black and somehow resembled a mole more than a dog. They were also very large.

I went searching for an older woman for answers. She said it was an old wives tale that they attack at dark. She said she started it because her people were encroaching on their land and attacks were becoming too common.

At some point, I was out walking with 2 girls. We were near the river and found some old abandoned clothes and wallets etc. I realized then that the men were instigating the attacks by the creatures and that the creatures lived IN the river. I quietly told the girls to move away from the water. But a creature grabbed one of them and tried to rip her leg off and pull her under. We helped her to get away then we rushed back to the compound where I confronted the men. Among them was that baby/boy. He was now a man and laid the guilt on thick- telling him his actions almost cost him the life of his sister.

I don't recall how it ended.

Other tidbits within the dream was me fighting for the rights of the females to have an education. And I hardly walked anywhere in the dream. I floated/flew. At some point, one of the girls asked me how I did it, and I taught her :D Well, I tried to. I'm not sure if she ever managed to get off the ground.

That's it :) ]]> Zhaylin http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/religion-24992/ http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/strange-sex-24871/ Wed, 05 Oct 2011 16:33:37 GMT Well, that's how it ended anyhow lol

I woke at 6AM, fell back to sleep by 7. I woke up again at 9:15 and in that short period of time, I had some really strange dreams.

As far as I recall, the first dream/dream scene was of food going to waste on the stove at my grams house. There was a LOT of food, from beans and potatoes, veggies and some meat that looked like caviar when cooked thoroughly. THen I was throwing all of the food into a trash bag. Someone wanted some of the food but I told them it wasn't good for people. It had been left out too long but I didn't want it going to waste so I was feeding it to the dogs.
Then there was something about a stray (?) and my little dog that I've forgotten.

The next thing I remember is grocery shopping. There was some Long John's style tilapia for $33. I wanted it desperately but didn't have enough money.

Then I was driving and got turned around and lost. An elderly couple told me how to get back onto the interstate.

From there, I was with 3 kids. We walked through what looked like a yard decorated with a winter holiday theme. In the ground was a large decorative key. I heard something under it, so I smashed the key and there was an entrance way to some rollercoaster type ride. I had to suspend myself in mid air and wait for the ride to be under me. I slung the kids into it then dropped. Once I was on it, it looked more like a subway train.
Someone started pursuing us. My memory gets fuzzy so I recall nothing until someone was standing over some man with a syringe to kill him.
I grabbed the syringe then took off flying. I wanted to talk to my hubby about what I had seen.

I get to his house but it looks different. Instead of the front porch, there was a breezeway which opened directly at the door to hubby's bedroom. I want to surprise him, so I just walked in. There were two guys on either side of him. He was laying in bed and the men were performing oral sex on him. Then I noticed there were scores of other people in the room. Most of them were in the 50's-60's and they had been watching the whole thing. It was like a stage secret society.
I was pissed. I told them to get out and I shamed them. Hubby wouldn't look me in the eye. Then I woke up. ]]> Zhaylin http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/strange-sex-24871/ http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/walmart-disaster-un-bombing-24317/ Wed, 21 Sep 2011 03:07:04 GMT Earlier this evening, I dreamed something about being barricaded inside of Walmart. There were 3 grates at one end of the store that some people... Earlier this evening, I dreamed something about being barricaded inside of Walmart. There were 3 grates at one end of the store that some people were trying to access in order to escape. There was an earthquake or something and the people somehow turned to dust .

I've forgotten most of the story behind my latest dream. In part of it, I was playing with a baby named Nikoli. But then there was confusion over whether it was a boy or girl lol- which fit the dream because one minute I was a guy, the next a was a girl, another I was myself. The same with the person I was with.
Later, the dream changed. I was watching TV and there was news on about a bombing. There were 5 bombs and they were each projected to hit the UN. Then the video zoomed in so I was watching the unfolding scenes from the bombs. The UN looked more like a military compound and the video feed of the bombs was coming from the UN. The second bomb took out that feed. My vision temporarily blacked out, then I was AT the UN. There were hospital beds and people started randomly showing up. I concluded that something about watching the footage teleported us to the site of the bombing.
Bad guys started streaming in and executing people. Someone else was with me and we went to one of the beds to hide under it. Some guy was already under it, but we squeezed together.
Then I woke up.

That last dream was inspired by CNN footage of a satellite that's supposed to fall to the earth on Friday lol. My imagination took a lot of creative liberties lol. I had also read about world events and the turban bomb. It all meshed together in an interestingly weird way :D ]]> Zhaylin http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/walmart-disaster-un-bombing-24317/ http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/wow-24245/ Mon, 19 Sep 2011 18:40:52 GMT I didn't fall asleep until around 12:30 this afternoon and I woke at 2PM from a very intense sexual dream which I, of course, cannot share here :P
At least not in its entirety.

But before that one, I had a couple of really good dreams as well. Unfortunately, I don't recall much about them.

In one of them, I was a man trapped in a top floor flat of some high rise. Someone had imprisioned me there for one reason or another. He was in another building though, but it almost touched mine.
There was a cable hanging outside a window. I tried reaching it with my toes (which I can use, IRL, to pick some stuff up lol). It was somehow vital to obtain it in order to communicate with the outside world.
I stuck my leg out of the window but I couldn't quite reach it.. so I then held on to a bar at the edge of the window by locking my elbow around it, then I lowered myself out and grabbed the cable.
Only, as I was pulling it and myself back through, it wasn't a cable at all but a dead man. No... he was attached to the cable because as I drew the cable inside, it started to burn. The burn spread along the cable and melted the skin off the arm of the man. Both he and the cable fell.
Then my vision zoomed out and down to follow his fall. He landed inside a car which then crashed. I became depressed because I figured no one would figure out he fell from the sky (my building) and no one would know my plight, so I was doomed.

In another dream, I traveled through time and space. This is one I wish I recalled more of. All I really remember is going backward through time, then forward, then I was in space trying to figure out how to capture time (?). I was standing before a large screen/map. I had a cape that was used to capture the stars, but I couldn't control it properly.
There was a monkey named Sasha who started playing with the cape and she captured some. I instructed a class to mimic the monkey. The cape had to be moved in a sort of waving motion that was hard to get just right.

In another dream, I was trying to climb down a rope from a stationary (yet airborne) helicopter to some spot inside a Navy base. Something went wrong and I fled, but then I felt badly, so I went to some office and turned myself in. I told them I had done such before when I was about 16 years old and I wondered if I could do it again. They laughed and said if I wanted to attempt something like that again, to just let them know ahead of time :lol:

I don't know if the sex dream somehow tied in to that last dream, or if it was another dream.
But I was with some guy named Jimmy. We were "rough" people and were about to get jumped by a biker gang or something. As a ploy (the exacts and purpose of which I've forgotten) he pretended to lock himself out of his convertible.
But then he wanted back inside, so he just pulled the top back and we climbed inside. It gets a little sexual at this point, but I'm annoyed because a couple of people are walking our way and one of them looks like a cop.
They were missionaries or some-such and Jimmy played all innocent as they walked by. He asked one of them if he wanted a cigarette and the man said no because it was a sin and unhealthy. The missionary then goes on to say that sex isn't sinful however, as long as the couple is married and they're in the privacy of their bedroom :lol:

That's it :) ]]> Zhaylin http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/wow-24245/ http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/messed-up-23834/ Sun, 11 Sep 2011 15:21:30 GMT I think I went to bed at around midnight or earlier. I had gotten no sleep the day before so I was really beat and fell asleep quickly. And I... I think I went to bed at around midnight or earlier. I had gotten no sleep the day before so I was really beat and fell asleep quickly. And I stayed asleep all night (other than brief wakings)

I had several dreams, but they're all sort of jumbled right now.
In the last one, I was a male monkey teaching my offspring how to jump through the trees safely. We were high up in the canopy and the little one missed a couple of times. I dove through the branches, in total panic to grab him. I got to him in time, and then I went around teaching him how to identify dead branches and trees and I showed him what made them dangerous.

Then the dream changed and I was myself at my grams house. Something was going on with a cat and a kitten. The kitten was black and it either got separated from its mom or the mom died. I went out to get him but then I saw my old (favorite!) cat Rogue run off carrying something black in his teeth. I followed Rogue and cornered him, then took the kitten out of his mouth. I popped him a couple times and after I got the kitten, Rogue hissed at my. I noticed the kitten had a small but bleeding wound on its stomach and I thought briefly about letting Rogue finish the kill. But I couldn't. As I walked across a large field to return to the house, a lioness started nosing the kitten in my hand. I used my body to block but I knew she could feel my fear and pretty soon she would just eat me too lol. I got the house and stood in front of the door.
I told someone through the screen to open the door just a little and to take the kitten. My son Myles argued with me, not seeing the lioness. My mom picked up on the stress from my voice, so she took the kitten.
Then I woke up.

And I all-stinking-ready have a headache.

In other dreams... I killed someone and tried to hide it. There was something about a crocheted ball of yarn with the needle stinking through it. My son, Myles lol, somehow knew what I had done and he was calling me out on it. I kept grumbling for him to drop it, but then an Elder showed up behind me. I was very angry. I wouldn't look at him. One of his hands was on my back, the other occassionally rubbed my crotch through my clothes and I wondered if he thought I was hysterical [a reference to a medical practice LONG ago where the Dr. tried to cure or clam female patients by inducing orgasm :lol:]
I don't recall how that dream ended.

In another dream- an awesome dream which I've mostly forgotten, I followed to lives of one family: a mother, father, 2 sisters. They always traveled southeast and something always happened to the family in which everyone died. I was confused throughout the dream because I didn't understand how their line could continue. Then it was revealed (somehow) to me that they were the same family but from different places and in different times. They were different families yet somehow also the same. I wondered how they could all look the exact same, then dismissed it so I could finish watching their story.
But I've forgotten, now, way too much of it to do it justice.
The daughters were in some secret war against each other. The older sister was crazy and kept threatening the younger. But the younger had a gun, so the older stayed in line.
The older sister, somehow got the gun and taunted the younger. The younger ran toward their mother who was in a public restroom.
The mom was behind a door and couldn't see what was going on. She was kidding around with her youngest kid and played that she was "going to get her", making tickle hands at her kid.
The younger told the mom to run, but it was too late. The oldest sister killed their mom then the younger took off running. And as she run through some woods, she became smaller and younger til the point she was about 4 years old. I thought to myself she would never make it, and she didn't.
Then my vision zooms out to a map. I was certain I would pick up the story further south, but I shot up to Denver and I let out an exasperated cry
I don't recall how that dream ended.

In some other dream, I was with my ex-husband. We were driving somewhere but the car felt unbalanced. It had an open roof but mostly resembled a truck. He stopped briefly and I jumped out. I told him it was going to roll but he pushed on anyhow and it did roll. We were on the property I now live on but the driveway was much different. My ex pushed the vehicle up a small rise to get it back onto the driveway but he ran over a small tree in doing so. I was upset, saying my hubby would be angry because he had JUST planted that tree. But it had been pulled up roots and all, so I carefully placed the roots into a container of water, lol, that was under the ground. I was going to tie a string around it and a nearby something to keep it upright.......
Ah ha... and then my son rounded a corner, calling me out on having killed someone.
So, this dream tied into the second one I wrote above.

Then there are tidbits I recall... walking through a grocery store and being asked if 40% off a jar of Seasoned Salt was a good deal. I looked into the container to see how much equaled 40% lol It was being sold for $1.00 so I agreed it was a very good deal. My friend Roxanna walked by me then and agreed with me.
I wanted to talk to her so badly but knew I couldn't.

In the dream where I followed the family, there was one scene in which the mom was having an affair with some corporate man. The husband rushed to her rescue, thinking she was in danger. I don't recall anything more about that split though.

That's it... ]]> Zhaylin http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/messed-up-23834/ http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/rar-23727/ Fri, 09 Sep 2011 16:43:40 GMT I'm still feeling the effects of the 1/4 Seroquel. I slept for around 20 hours yesterday and I'm still sleeping the med off today. I think I'm going to give Tylenol PM a try instead lol

I woke up this morning, got the girls off to school, read some here and CNN then I went back to sleep.

My dreams were interesting. In one of them, I lived in a posh neighborhood in a large house. It was a really nice house with a large garage at one end (with 4 doors to get in and out) and a single garage at the other end of the house off the master bedroom. I was with a husband (either my ex or my current) and we heard someone come into the house. I was naked, so I grabbed a sheet and ran for the single garage when we saw someone inside. But the cars were in the other garage, so we snuck around the house and just as we were getting into the car, some man forced his way inside the passenger side door.
He told us we ignored the evacuation order and that we were the only ones left. We HAD to leave. Then we got a birds eye of the neighborhood: Our house was the only one left on a floating island. There was a pond and river nearby and my hubby said the bedrock would last forever and that our house wasn't going anywhere. The man then spoke of a fault line that ran right through that bedrock.
We teleported off the island. I worried about my pets and hoped the man was wrong and that I could return for them.

I don't know if it was that dream or another, but I was flying. I used a bandana to catch the wind. I flew over a large body of water but I wouldn't venture out too far in case the wind died completely and I'd fall.
At one point, I had a large backpack on as well as my fanny pack. I asked myself if I actually needed all that stuff, so I emptied the backpack and took only my car keys.

I dreamed something about my grandmothers house, my grams and my uncles. Don't recall the details though.

I also dreamed something about trying to get back together with my ex-hubby but something always kept us apart. I wanted to stay in WV and he wanted to stay in FL. We were forced to admit we would never be happy with each other.

In another dream... I don't even know where to start with this one lol. I traveled to some ancient time. There were fat, pink creatures and slender blue ones. The blue ones traveled with another creature that looked like a donkey and they were very mean to him. All the creatures spoke. The blue leader gave everyone permission to kick and berate the donkey. The pink leader produced beanies and everyone wore them. The donkey was made to wear his on his butt.
I traveled with the creatures for a while and we came to some ruins that were obviously built by people. They were like the ruins of a modern city. I asked someone we traveled with how that could be possible.

Some time later I was made aware of the donkeys mistreatment and I explained kindness to the blue leader and that it hurt me when they hurt him. They had never considered the donkey actually had feelings.
We were on some stairs when we had that conversation, then we ventured into a wide hallway with an almost secret entrance at one end. I knew we were supposed to avoid it, but we were drawn in anyhow.
Then the dream became even more strange. It was sort of like a video game. The creatures had to fly past a much larder predator while avoiding some bubbling sludge and smaller predators in the air.
Every time I failed to navigate the scene properly and died, I would start back at the beginning. At that point, I was dreaming from the creatures perspective.

>>> The last dream was inspired by reading an article on CNN about an Angry Birds theme park being open in China.
I'm not sure about the rest of the dreams.
Other dream themes were: a basement with dead bodies and being in College but forgetting my classes and failing and having a job but forgetting my shifts and losing it.

Those 3 themes are getting on my nerves. They're recurrent in a way that my subconscious is trying to tell me something. I've told my brain to speak in plain English and forget the symbolism, but for months now my brain has refused to listen. I usually forget most of the context of those dreams upon waking which is vital in deciphering the symbolism.
:bang: Oh well, I'll figure it out eventually.. ]]> Zhaylin http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/rar-23727/ http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/nice-one-23695/ Thu, 08 Sep 2011 20:17:24 GMT I took 1/4 of Seroquel. I managed to sleep perfectly from around 9:30AM-3:30PM I had a phone call to make before I could sleep though. I called... I took 1/4 of Seroquel. I managed to sleep perfectly from around 9:30AM-3:30PM
I had a phone call to make before I could sleep though. I called the number and fell asleep while I was waiting to be connected. When she spoke, I woke up but I was confused at first and my voice was slurred. I think I succeeded in not sounded drunk :roll: I got her answering machine, so I made arrangements and went to sleep. Only to be called by her some time later.

One dream I had was absolutely amazing. I was at a club or something and there was a competition going on. There were 2 large "ribbons" hanging from the ceiling. The theme was "tango" and I was against a couple. We were doing "pole" work but it was more aerobatics in nature. For the most part, they stayed on their ribbons, as if in a caress. I danced my butt off around them. I kept telling myself the Tango was a 2-step dance (I know nothing about dancing lol). But I couldn't help showing off some. I wrapped my ankle around the pole and "fell" backward toward the ground quickly. I applied friction with my thigh as I reached the end of the rope and I stopped inches above the ground. When I looked at the top of the ribbon, the couple was gone. I was confused, but then I saw them sitting on some bleachers. They had fallen off their ribbon and was disqualified. They were friends and I was still sad.
I don't remember how that dream ended.

In another dream, I lived in an area with a lot of hills. I had a strange vehicle that looked like a small car, but it was like one of those miners rigs that go on tracks and you have to pump some mechanism in order to make it move. I told someone that at least I was going to get awesome arm muscles :lol: There was a lot more to this dream that I've forgotten, like a carnival, about people valuing porcelain better than antique art glass. Then there was some bit about people being controlled by some artifact. One woman saw it and heard "You must stop that train". Her friends left her when she said what she had to do. The intention of the artifact was to kill the person it controlled.

I also had a dream about my old Congregation, but I've forgotten that one completely. ]]> Zhaylin http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/nice-one-23695/ http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/dead-children-23633/ Wed, 07 Sep 2011 10:50:40 GMT I am so out of it right now. I just woke up after an amazing 6 hours of uninterrupted sleep (thanks to 1/2 a Seroquel). But I ache all over!!! ... I am so out of it right now. I just woke up after an amazing 6 hours of uninterrupted sleep (thanks to 1/2 a Seroquel). But I ache all over!!!

What I recall of my dreams is fragmented. I'm not sure how they all fit together.

I had 3 kids in one part of the dream. They were toddlers. One of the toddlers (a boy) was somehow dangerous (or would become dangerous). I had a long talk with him and he finally consented to being killed.
He seemed to become MUCH smaller as I laid him across my lap. I tried snapping his neck, but it didn't work and only caused great pain. So I then smothered him (with much difficulty) with my bare hands. I was upset but didn't cry. I knew I had killed the other 2 but I didn't actually dream it.

Then the dream turned religious. I was explaining to someone the Kingdom of God and the future Paradise Earth when some woman entered the area with much opposition. I tried explaining the details but she didn't want to hear it. She kept ranting about how religion keeps women "down" and how my husband- an Elder- should be ashamed. I told her my kids were from a previous marriage, but she still wanted to blame my Elder hubby.

Then my hubby became my ex-hubby and we were in the parking lot, picking up trash and patching holes. There was our house on the edge of the property and I worried people would find the dead bodies in an off building which was partially underground like a basement or bomb shelter. There was a little pothole right outside that building. I started cleaning it out and found some poop and what looked like a finger.

The Witnesses were having some sort of strange 2 weekk event that sounded a lot like Vacation Bible School. My hubby was still patching, so I told him he could take a break and enjoy the event with the mens group. I was still disfellowshipped though, so communication was difficult with my group.

Next thing I know, I was in a house- supposed my house- and my friend Roxanna showed up. I was about to tell her I killed my children, when they came running out of their bedroom. I was very confused to say the least lol.
Then I woke up to my alarm.

Other dream things: a toilet with something white and large in the bowl. I visited the toilet a couple times in the dream and the white thing scared me evertime I lifted the toilet seat.
The basement/bomb shelter thing is something I've dreamed about a llot. In every dream with it in the dream, it has dead bodied bring in the deepest corners. It's little more than a hole in the ground.
In part of the last dream, the area became larger and one of the Brothers was sweeping the floor lol

Interpret later... must go back to sleep now... ]]> Zhaylin http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/dead-children-23633/ http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/old-friend-23454/ Sun, 04 Sep 2011 20:15:37 GMT When I went back to sleep from 1:30-3:30PM, I had a very detailed dream.
I was in my hubby's yard. Rocky (the dog) had gotten loose, but he was just sitting in the yard. I sadly wished he would run off and find a new home or get hit by a car and die because he has such a sad, boring life with us. But he just happily wagged his tail, enjoying his few moments off his chain.
I was having a hard time getting into hubby's house (I don't have a key IRL- hubby uses the garage as his door to inside). I eventually got in and all the kids (my youngest daughter and her friends) were in their old bedroom, smoking. I thought about telling them to quit because hubby would smell it and throw a fit, but there was a knock on the door.

I went to answer and there was my son Myles and my bestfriend from my old Congregation with her young son. I'm disfellowshipped though, so we can't socialize IRL, but she can help and relay messages and such. So she told me she picked him up from school because he tore up his knee. Myles said something to her. She said he couldn't go to school tomorrow and I said there was no school to which she told Myles he got what he wanted then.
I smiled and said "Yeah, he gets to stay in town and play Everquest." She told him she'd keep in touch and as she walked away, I told her we had no home phone. She said she'd just drop in then as was convenient. I said sure, but then I remembered my cellphone.

They were walking the long way around the house to avoid Rocky. I raced to my car for one last look at her, thinking she must have my number. I got into my own car as a cover for my stalking lol. She drove off and I was sad from missing her. She and her son never got very close to me, so I didn't get a clear enough look at them in the dream.

>> a very strange dream. I've been feeling sadly nostalgic lately- but about my stripper days. Strange how I would dream about my Congregation instead of the Pole (the only thing I liked about stripping).
The rest of the dream, though came from:
My daughter and her friends have been smoking so much, the house is foggy.
I couldn't get ahold of my hubby the other night and I worried something had happened to him and I had no way of checking on him.
Myles would love to play EQ2 and I've been overdosing on the game lately.
Oh, and the male dogs really do have a boring, miserable life. I wish I could find someone to adopt them. ]]> Zhaylin http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/old-friend-23454/ http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/so-sad-23288/ Thu, 01 Sep 2011 19:07:38 GMT I had a lot of dreams this morning, but only one really stands out. I dreamed I was at the Farm, scolding my children for the mess they made of... I had a lot of dreams this morning, but only one really stands out.

I dreamed I was at the Farm, scolding my children for the mess they made of the house. I told them to start cleaning, that Myles and Destinee were coming home with me. All the kids complained but they got to work. There were a bunch of animals in the house. One of the cats had kittens and one of the kittens bit the hand of my oldest boy and held on.
I was on the porch looking inside, and I saw my son rip the kitten from his hand and throw it at the wall. I asked him what the hell was wrong with him, and I started crying in the dream so hard and I was so furious that it woke me up.

>> I had that dream, in part, because I went to the Farm at around 2AM to bring my boys food. The house wasn't a disaster area, as in the dream, but it could have been better and I was slightly annoyed. And my dog, Cocoa, loves my oldest boy so much, I thought about leaving her up there for him. But she's get eaten by bigger, wilder dogs so I didn't even mention it. But my son lamented about how much he wanted he cat up there with him. He does so every time I go up, and every time I tell him no. The cats all live outside now because they like crapping everywhere but their litter box. And their favorite spot at the Farm was always behind the furnace, which is almost impossible to clean behind. Plus, one of the females is pregnant and I wondered where she was. All of those things ran through my mind just a couple hours before I fell asleep.
But, I don't know what triggered the violence and emotions in the dream. My son loves animals (especially cats) and would never harm one in such a way. ]]> Zhaylin http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/so-sad-23288/ http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/disturbing-22881/ Tue, 23 Aug 2011 19:09:19 GMT Thankfully, I don't recall much from last nights dreams.

I woke my daughter up at 5:30AM instead of 6:15. I just could not stay up any longer. I fell right to sleep then woke up at 8AM from a disturbing dream and freezing.
All I recall is being some different different woman. At my feet was a man the woman loved. He appeared to be dead or unconscious. There was a little bit of blood on his forehead.
There was then something around the top of his head and 2 drill-type things bored into his ears. I panicked, sure he was still alive and screaming for help. But then the thing on his head "moved" so that it was as if a vice on either side of his cheeks and it tightened until his head was flattened. I watched, in horror, as it tightened, but thankfully the vice was in such a position that I didn't actually see his head be crushed.

I woke up, took a hot bath, then went back to bed until noon. I woke up from some more disturbing dreams, but I don't remember those at all.

What is with me and disturbing dreams lately? ]]> Zhaylin http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/disturbing-22881/ http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/dead-babies-22614/ Thu, 18 Aug 2011 20:25:02 GMT I don't remember a lot about last nights dreams, but I'll never forget the scenes from what I do recall.

For some reason, I was trying to break into a secret lab. It looked, for the most part, like a regular house... only it was very high up and it had a large porch. The porch was booby-trapped. I wondered how I was going to climb up without setting everything off, then concluded I could just fly up. So I did, carefully avoiding all the traps and alarms.
I went to the door which had an electrically high-tech entrance pad. I ran my hand over it and blue light shone softly from my palm. The door opened. In a small room just to the right of the door were containers filled with fetuses in various stages of development. On shelves were dead babies. Many of them were highly deformed and a lot of them had what looked like charred skin.
I quickly left but later met up with someone and called them out on their "secret ingredient" for some medicine or perfume or something.

In another dream, I was in an electronics store with my mom. When we walked past game systems (almost like an arcade), I would touch them and they turned on.

I also dreamed something about the Motor Coach, but I've forgotten it. ]]> Zhaylin http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/dead-babies-22614/ http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/somewhat-lucid-22556/ Wed, 17 Aug 2011 14:22:50 GMT I don't recall how the dream started, but several people and I were outside somewhere. There were tall buildings in the distance, we were on a hill and thick fog was rolling in. A lot of people were scared but I explained to them that we were dreaming. Some guy asked why we just don't let ourselves be killed then. I told him that we would wake up and lose the dream as well as the experience forever lol
So I told them all something along the lines of:
'If you die, you'll wake up. Certain things will make you slowly lose lucidity: Flying too high, fighting too long and using too many powers if you have them. So take as many breaks as you need to stay in the dream.' :lol:
Some monster on a horse rode by carrying a victim behind him. I stared at the horse as it rode by, then it turned around and stopped in front of me. The monster (?) ran off or something. I calmed the horse while someone else helped the woman down.
I don't remember anything after that, though the dream continued for awhile.

At some point, I dreamed of being stranded in a large body of water with other people. I recall several people died, but that's it. All I really know is it was an unpleasant dream.

Then I had an all out bad dream that my hubby was sick of giving me so much money, so he was divorcing me. There was a long, involved story that brought in cops and lawyers but I've forgotten the details. I woke up near tears from that one.

That's it... ]]> Zhaylin http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/somewhat-lucid-22556/ http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/nap-22317/ Fri, 12 Aug 2011 18:35:55 GMT I just woke up from a nap. I only recall snippets because the girls were carrying on and I woke too quickly. In one snippet, CPS was bothering me... I just woke up from a nap. I only recall snippets because the girls were carrying on and I woke too quickly.

In one snippet, CPS was bothering me again because I had a 19 year old unsupervised at the Farm. I was highly annoyed and asked my hubby "I thought at 18 I could kick the kids out if I wanted to. What is THIS?" He said they must have made an announcement when everyone was sleeping.

I dreamed of a large house and the owner had a chawawa a lot like mine. There was a turd in the toilet and the bathroom floor was somewhat flooded. Out in a large garage connected to the house, I and some others, ate ice shards of different colors and flavors. Then they became popcicles and there was also some individual containers of neopolatin (SP!) icecream. People were preparing for a huge banquet.

In another snippet, there was a tiny bird in the cage with my cockatiels. It was like a hummingbird, so I wanted to put it some place safer.

I was in some place with a public restroom. The floor was flooded and the stalls were nasty. One toilet was *almost* like a mans urinal but it was up high and there were sheets to cover the toilet for sanitation. I tried to pee but couldn't reach it.

In another dream, I was telling 2 of my childhood friends- Theresa's sisters- about my pregnancy dream.

In the garage dream, I think, I was messing with strange plastic things which were packaging for something my hubby had bought. I asked if he wanted them because they looked useful. The bottom was rectangular with six pocks in it for holding the items. But on ridges between the pocks were thin metal rods with springs over them (like in a pen) and overtop those was a strange hollowed out screwdriver. A plastic "hood" went over each screwdriver to keep it in place. I was frustrated because I kept trying to place a hood back over one of them but it wouldn't snap into place properly.

That's it I think. ]]> Zhaylin http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/nap-22317/ http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/pregnancy-religion-22308/ Fri, 12 Aug 2011 15:52:29 GMT That's basically all I recall from last nights dreams though there were other dreams.
I was pregnant in one of the dreams. My belly was perfectly sized and the baby was huge. Whenever he moved it was as if an alien was just beneath the skin of my lower stomach. The dream changed and I pregnant with 3 babies. A JW couple had me inseminated and I carried their baby as if it were a twin to mine. But a childhood friend, Theresa needed someone to carry her baby too, so it was added to my upper left side. I was worried about that baby the most because it wasn't in a womb and it was tiny.

I had to go in for an examination but I kept trying to put it off because every time I went in over a false alarm, the more dangerous it was for the babies. I kept asking them to be born all at the same time, nice and healthy, but "I" became pregnant well in advance of the two inserted in me. I worried they would die when I had my baby.
I had an intense urge to bear down, but I kept ignoring it.

At one point, the JW woman felt the babies kick and move around and she was absolutely delighted.

At some point, the dream evolved and I was in a large school. The JW husband was a teacher and I realized all the students and teachers were Jehovah's Witnesses. I was thrilled, but I still felt out of place and as if I didn't belong. I spoke to the husband about wanting the babies to hurry up and be born and he laughed. I tried finding a seat in one of the classrooms but something always went wrong (the isles were too narrow or stuff was in my way).

That's it.

>>The first dream was mostly the result of more gas :lol: I'm not sure why the symbolism played out as it did though. Why did I worry more about the other babies?
>>>The evolved dream is about my desire to return to the Kingdom Hall but not feeling ready. ]]> Zhaylin http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/pregnancy-religion-22308/ http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/how-strange-22264/ Thu, 11 Aug 2011 20:33:00 GMT I only remember a tiny fragment of dream. I ate a whole bunch of berries and at some point later in the dream, the left side of my stomach slit open... I only remember a tiny fragment of dream.
I ate a whole bunch of berries and at some point later in the dream, the left side of my stomach slit open and the berries started falling out. I applied pressure to the wound then went off in search of a Dr. Later in the dream, I looked down to where the injury had been and the skin was mostly healed over. But if I moved my hand across the skin a certain way, the wound would start to split again and I realized I still needed stitches.

I woke up with pain in my left side lol I've been eating wayyyy too much broccoli and cheese which = gasious distress :lol: ]]> Zhaylin http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/how-strange-22264/ http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/fragments-22217/ Wed, 10 Aug 2011 20:34:17 GMT I had some weird dreams this morning. In one, I was shopping and saw one of the Elders from the Kingdom Hall from behind. I approached him, but the... I had some weird dreams this morning.
In one, I was shopping and saw one of the Elders from the Kingdom Hall from behind. I approached him, but the dream ended before I reached him.
In another dream, I was flying and I wanted to spin. I LOVE spinning in dreams, but I've always done it in the past on skates or by foot period. In this dream, I flew up high and started twirling and when I reached the ground I swung one leg back then forward to spin and I spun very quickly. :) I did that a few times before I got it right.

In yet another dream, I was some guy living in a house in the woods. I don't recall the whole story, but a flash flood picked up the house and started carrying it down hill. I was terrified it would go over the edge down a cliff, but the water followed the dirt road all the way into town. I talked to my family the whole time, reassuring them. When we got into town, the house became a manageable size and I carried it on my back. I still spoke with my family. At some point, the dream revealed that I had actually murdered my family and I was locked away in a hospital completely insane and only "dreaming" about the flood and carrying my house. ]]> Zhaylin http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/fragments-22217/ http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/tracks-sky-21705/ Tue, 02 Aug 2011 01:49:02 GMT I had an absolutely epic dream earlier. But I'm rushed for time, so I'll do it no justice.

At first, I was in a type of quarintine (SP!) The planet was dying and we were in some sort of enormous biosphere. One area had a smaller machine in it which was a sort of beacon that could carry only a couple of people. I kept trying to access it, but one area was much too small for me to get my hands on.
So the dream changed and I was swimming in an ocean. A fish bit me. He looked strange and the bite hurt. But I didn't hold it against him and gently removed him from my hand. Then I held him in my cupped hand and swam him back out into the water. But as I caught a wave he said "Weeee!" :lol: So I kept repeating it and I made a best friend.

We were swimming under water and some of the areas were brightly red. I asked him about it and he acted as if I was the stupid lifeform ever. They were lava flows :D

I took him back to the general area with me per his insistence. I felt badly because he was dying. I ran from body of water to tubs of water then finally to the area of the machine I couldn't access. I set him inside of it and it was some sort of flying "ship". Using it, the fish accessed a control panel which opened a vacuumed door to another room which was flooded with water. I watched on a video feed as he indicated a plug that needed to go into the wall. He did something else that drained the room.

I ran in to plug it in, but others rushed me. They didn't want access to the outside world.
I placed the fish in a tub but he eventually died and I was heartbroken.

Can't remember how the dream progressed, but I eventually got to the machine and disabled the biosphere. The children who grew up in the biosphere all went a little wild when they were allowed into the outside world.
"I" tackled some guys on a vehicle so I could have it and at one time, the dream reversed which showed me why I did it. They were drug runners working for some cops who were moving drug laced food products from a local restaurant.

At some point, I was told I was pregnant and I was confused because I didn't remember having sex. There was a priest there who kept giving me a hard time and when I questioned his teachings he asked "You're not one of those Jehovah's Catholic Witnesses are you." I was perplexed and said "There's no Catholic in it."

Toward the end of the dream, I was walking outside with a guy and looking at the sky. It was very cloudy but there were "tracks" or light in the sky which were breathtaking. I told the guy to forgive my ignorance, that I wasn't feeling well and I asked what they were. It was the natural sky, but I don't recall what caused it. I was near tears at the beauty of it.

Then I was hiding from the drug cops in a bathroom. There was another me who had to hide in the closet. Then I woke up. ]]> Zhaylin http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/tracks-sky-21705/ http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/bits-pieces-20356/ Mon, 11 Jul 2011 01:19:26 GMT I just woke up very quickly from a 3 hour "nap".
I only remember bits of the dream/s.

In one part, I was in some sort of office. I tried thinking up the term a lot of people use when saying Pot often leads to heavier drugs. I kept thinking stair or stairway but I knew it was wrong [as soon as I woke up, "Gateway" popped into my head lol]. There were books on a desk, so I tried looking up info on Pot to see if it would use the term. It looked like all the books had water damage and when the owner of the desk returned she said they would be of no use, took a book from my hands and set it on top of the others.
All the women from the office were cackling about a trip they had taken and one woman said the people of Texas no longer use hitches and horses, but big rigs and trucks [:roll: ] She commented that it wasn't such a relaxing place now-a-days.
Then the owner of the desk wanted to show me a slide. She held it with tweezers. The critters looked like spiders with human faces, but the slide kept waving and I couldn't get a good look. I took the tweezers and slide from the woman. I tried to hold it the same way, but the tweezers kept slipping until they obscured the image completely and the woman snatched them both back saying the slide wasn't being protected at all the way I was doing it.

Then the dream changed and I was at an older house. I kept wondering if I should tell my hubby about my secret escape route [since I was a little kid, there's always been a "tube" in the bathroom closet- or the toilet's tube once the toilet was removed- that I shimmy down into a basement in order to escape nightmare elements]. I worried that I was getting fatter and might get stuck one day and he'd have to rescue me lol.
I decided to keep the secret though.
Sometime before those thoughts, I was driving through town and a cop escorted me back to the house. CPS was with him. They asked about my son and I stated worries about him and his future because he didn't have an ID card. They gave me a hard time about it and I ranted about current requirements. Then someone asked a weird question such as "does the owner of blood have to ask for permission to use it or does owning it entitle certain rights". I didn't know what the heck point the person was trying to make and still don't lol

[hubby needs me to try to start my car before dark... finish this later]

Okay... then we went to the backyard. There were cages filled with rabbits and rabbits running around freely. There were also a bunch of cats. I felt guilty because I had forgotten about them and I was surprised to see so many of them were still alive and looking relatively healthy. But there were a few dead ones here and there too :( Then the CPS worker and cop started ripping into me, saying how this and that needed to be cleaned. The cop had peeked in through a window and saw that a bedroom was messy, so he criticized that as well.
As we were leaving the woman said something and I told her I didn't even know if my hubby would sell the house lol. I said I didn't know if she misunderstood or if I mis-spoke and she laid the blame on me.

At some point in one of the dreams, I found our cat Tiny dead and clutching a rose to her chest. I thought one of the Trailer Park girls must have placed the rose there

During another dream, I was helping someone accompany an older woman across a street. I was supposed to get the elders back as we carried her. Then the woman I was helping became suddenly tired and asked if I had her. I did, so the woman left and I carried the elder to the house sort of crab walking across the street with the elder sitting on my knees and thighs. She was very heavy and when I got to the house, I collapsed on a bed that was in the general sitting room. The bed had a scale on it and everyone wanted to see how much the elder and I weighed. I didn't want to, but they weighed us anyhow and the bed sort of bounced us around because it was on lifts that went up and down but also side to side. The women were making the bed do that because they were very pleased to see how fat I had gotten. Together, the elder and I weighed 388 pounds.
I was very embarrassed. All of a sudden, the perimeter alarm started paging me. I thought the elder was paging me, but she was still with me on the bed.

Then it hit me that I was dreaming. I woke up quickly, thinking my hubby was paging me. It's right beside my bed, so I paged him back but got no reply. I rushed outside to see if he was on his way over or at my car, but all was quiet. I went back inside and checked my computer and his gmail status was orange.
I dreamed the entire bit about the alarm lol ]]> Zhaylin http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/bits-pieces-20356/ http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/possessiveness-20139/ Thu, 07 Jul 2011 12:40:37 GMT Strange dream... I dreamed I was going to see my p-doc and my hubby was actually going to accompany me to have some questions answered and to be... Strange dream...
I dreamed I was going to see my p-doc and my hubby was actually going to accompany me to have some questions answered and to be reassured about my treatment. We get to the waiting room and it's full of people. There are also cops there. Time was dragging on and hubby was getting very impatient. His face and ears were turning red so I knew he was about to lose his temper and storm out of the office.
Eventually, my pdoc came out to apologize for the delay and to tell us about his emergency patient. He told us everything about the mans diagnosis lol. As I sat there, I wondered why he was breaking doctor/patient confidentiality.
My appointment was canceled. In the parking lot, in between 2 trucks, hubby briefly had sex with me :wtf: He got into his car, I got into mine, and as I drove off the dream changed.

I was running away [I've been having a LOT of short dreams about running away to areas around or in Michigan (that doesn't sound right, can't remember the area now)]. I was running out of gas though. It was winter outside and I was very cold and I knew if I ran out of gas and had no heat that I would die. Then I remembered hubby had a vehicle that was overflowing with gas; I just had to find a giant straw to suck it into a container so I could transfer it.
Then I woke up.

>> The first dream was about possessiveness. Hubby dislikes my seeing a pdoc and being on meds. He's become greatly tolerant over the years though, so why the dream comes NOW is beyond me.... other than the fact that I see my pdoc today and hubby and I spoke about my pdoc going on vacation last night before bed. I'm also about to have my monthly "visitor" which puts my libido in overdrive lol

>> I noticed gas prices went up 20 cents yesterday, which accounts for the gas part of the second dream. I was also freezing, so I dreamed it was winter :) ]]> Zhaylin http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/possessiveness-20139/ http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/epic-yet-mostly-forgotten-dream-20007/ Mon, 04 Jul 2011 22:25:55 GMT I've had my "sleeping sickness" again today. The last time I slept (from about 2-5PM) I had an amazing dream. It was very thorough and detailed. But as soon as I woke up, I had to pick my daughter up from a camping trip and I lost most of the details.

Here's what I remember:
I was in some Police State. Guards were patrolling everywhere. I was with a small band of freedom fighters.
At some point, we became separated. I had to walk into a jail/hospital and find someone. I seduced one of the inmates and there was a short sex scene. He followed me out and we went looking for the others.
Along the way, I came across some Everquest type houses. I accidentally entered the wrong persons house and a little chaos ensued.
We escaped. I told the guy I loved him (I knew him previously it seemed) but to find the others because I had to leave.
I had to go to another city for re-enforcements. I visualized the city, said a couple words and was teleported there. I don't recall much about what happened there.

When I got back, I found everyone at a mess hall.
No, before that, I was walking across a creek carrying some bags of sweet potatoes. There was an army with me, but I said some words and all that was with me disappeared.
The people walking near me asked who I was and what I was doing. They were sympathizers to my cause but felt it was hopeless. I said some words and the army reappeared before I concealed them again.

THEN I found the mess hall and my friends. I also ran into the guy whose house I accidentally entered. I explained to him that it was my doing and I was sorry and wanted to make amends. He wasn't pleased at all and did something to me (a curse maybe?).
I left the mess hall and I knew I NEEDED to return to the other city for help. I visualized the place and even took out a map, but I couldn't teleport. My thoughts were too confused. I then looked for my bandana which allowed me to fly, but it was missing.

THen Zone 4 and 1 followed by knocking on my door woke me up. ]]> Zhaylin http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/epic-yet-mostly-forgotten-dream-20007/ http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/hodgepodge-19852/ Fri, 01 Jul 2011 21:16:13 GMT Last night I dreamed of my p-doc. That I saw him at a store and he had a broken arm. He was with his brother, but still having difficulty. I... Last night I dreamed of my p-doc. That I saw him at a store and he had a broken arm. He was with his brother, but still having difficulty. I wanted to help but didn't because I didn't know the appropriateness of interacting outside of his office.
>> I saw p-doc with his brother at Wal-mart yesterday thus the dream.

I had another dream of being pregnant. A couple of guys could've been the father and I was upset and crying. Turned out BOTH of them with the father lol
>> Just finished reading the Land of Painted Caves which gave me that gem.

During a nap, I dreamed of going shopping. I was looking for a toy for a 6 month old baby, then realized she was just 6 weeks old and too young for toys. I bought a bottle brush. I was going to get a really long and cone shaped dusting rod so I could reach the ancient cobwebs in the corners of my room, but it was almost $13. so I wanted to find something cheaper.

As I was leaving, I ran onto someone I knew (?) and we went to another store together. The store had dim lighting. Some guy was sitting on the floor looking depressed. My friend asked if I could buy his beer and I said sure. But when he came to check out, he had a case of beer and it came to $40. I was annoyed that it was expected I pay that. I thought he had a can or a bottle. I told him I could've spared MAYBE $20. but I needed my money to buy food for my kids.
I took my money off the counter and walked away.
And there the man was, sitting despondently on the floor in a corner, cradling the case of beer he couldn't afford.

When I got outside, there was some sort of parade going on. Some of the roads were blocked. As I approached a stop sign, my car didn't want to slow and I almost went through it. There was a cop behind me and I was afraid I was about to get pulled over. But he was going toward the festivities in a hurry.

Then I arrive at some sort of apartment (?) complex with a narrow hallway and dim lighting. A housekeeper was cleaning one of the rooms I ran into to use the restroom. For some reason, I took money out of a handbag and shoved it into my mouth. Then it was stuck and I couldn't get the bills out. The maid said I had a piece hanging out the corner of my mouth and she told me to take it out. But I couldn't for the longest time and she stared at me as if I'd lost my mind lol

I was back in the hallway, heading toward my room when I midget in stripper stage clothes rushed by. I asked if a particular door now lead to her room and she said no. She just had to go in there so the girls could rip her a new one for messing up so badly. As the door opened, I saw several more midgets goofing off with sex toys.
I woke up before I could enter my room.

>>The car part came from me almost rear-ending some idiot who came to almost a complete stop suddenly when I was driving earlier today.
The duster came from me wanting to find something for my cob webs in real life.
The bottle cleaner came from me looking for one at the Dollar Tree so I could clean the inside of my birds water dispenser so I can get rid of the bowl. They have a habit of pooping in the bowl lol
I have no idea about the rest of the dream symbolism lol ]]> Zhaylin http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/hodgepodge-19852/ http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/grandmass-singing-19494/ Sat, 25 Jun 2011 07:30:55 GMT I crashed at around 8:30PM and woke at around 2:40AM.
My daughter woke me several times, but I fell promptly back to sleep once she left.

I don't remember much about my dreams. Only 2 dreams linger.
In one, I was at some sort of concert. It was a little like America's Got Talent, but you weren't buzzed. The audience voted.
There was a high staircase and some man came out singing. He was foreign and people complained they couldn't understand him. I've always been able to understand almost anyone IRL so people saying that annoys me ("if I can, why can't they" sort of thing). So I followed behind him, singing behind him. I don't remember the song, but I do know it's something my brain made up then and there. We didn't sound half bad and I was only mortified a couple of times. I don't handle the "spot light" well, but it happened so quickly, I didn't really have time to think about it or process anything.
Afterward a few people said they wanted to take my picture. I got several thumb-ups. It was a really "feel good" sort of dream.

The other dreams theme was stress lol. I was at my grams house which was also part of an airport lol. I kept searching her house, looking for a bottle of Coke but I couldn't find any. At one point, I saw 2 bottles on her dresser. They were sweating and looked SO good lol, but I didn't even ask her about those because they looked like they were set aside to keep people away from them.
I then looked for ANYTHING to drink, but couldn't find anything. I finally asked grams if there was anything in the house to drink. She said I could get water from the dispenser on the fridge. I thought "no thanks. It always tastes like metal".

Then I started packing and carrying stuff up to the attic for the luggage transport to pick up. A lot of stuff was packed into boxes and the bottom almost opened on one of them. I wondered if I should tape it up, then I thought the luggage people would do so.
Then I realized I never packed any of my clothes which were strewn across the bathroom floor. In a panic, I started boxing up everything.
I saw my hubby some time later and he asked me what I was going to do the rest of the day. Apparently, our hotel (lol) was paid for for another day. I breathed a sigh of relief that I could pack for another day.

At some point, CuddleBug showed up in the dream, as did some other animal. I worried about leaving them behind.

That's it. ]]> Zhaylin http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/grandmass-singing-19494/ http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/snippets-19342/ Wed, 22 Jun 2011 13:28:37 GMT The first one that comes to mind is being a very heavyset man. He measured my butt and then told me how much I weighed (131 lbs) and how much of... The first one that comes to mind is being a very heavyset man. He measured my butt and then told me how much I weighed (131 lbs) and how much of that was fat. Then we went somewhere and was eating something (saltine crackers?) but I ended up hiding them in a drawer so we wouldn't eat them all at once.

I remember something about running across a busy street with someone (my ex or my hubby). One of the Elders was on the other side and the person I was with rushed over to say hi. They shook hands and I was jealous the man with me wasn't shunned (ignored).
We were on a date or sorts and I kept almost ruining it by talking about serious things (The oppression of women was one topic lol), but I ended up turning the date around.

In another dream, I was riding in a car with my dad driving. I was speaking to him about religion and what spirits were/were not. Then I talked about the "afterlife". I closed the conversation by telling him that some of what I said weren't Biblical, but I knew they were correct. I also said, they were my own ideas and not to hold it against any Jehovah's Witnesses he might run across. (A lot of what I told him was stuff I don't believe IRL lol)


>>The religious dreams came about from seeing former Congregation members these last few days while out and about.
I spoke to my mom last night about my dad and my ex
I feel fat
My daughters friend thinks our house is haunted, lol, so the bit about spirits came from there.

I'm surprised I remembered anything at all. Very early this morning, the rabbit woke me up thumping his feet. My daughter has a second friend staying with us and he doesn't know how to close the bathroom door when he's done. Animals ventured in the bathroom which scared bunny. Judging by the water on the toilet seat and the lack of water in the bowl, I'd say both dogs ventured in. Thankfully, they were more interested in toilet water then the rabbit. Needless to say, I brought bunny into my bedroom. ]]> Zhaylin http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/snippets-19342/ http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/vampires-werewolves-flying-19226/ Mon, 20 Jun 2011 16:41:39 GMT All amount to a bunch of really awesome dreams.
If only my daughter hadn't kept waking me up and I remembered it all. Now I'm left with mostly snippets.

There were 2 groups. One was new and made up only of werewolves. They hated the older group which consisted of both. They felt the werewolves should be with them (with the older group, a vampire was the leader).
There was also some sort of infection going around that drove people insane. I guess it turned them into a sort of zombie. The only way you could tell was by having sexual relations with the males and looking at the semen. If it was bloody, they were zombies. In the dream, werewolves and vamps could procreate.
The new group was tested against their will once they were overpowered. They were all clean. Someone got into the head of the new groups leader and showed him that there WAS a better way. Peace could exist between everyone.

A human was with the old group. During a battle she nearly died but the leader saved her. The leader was asked why- the attacker said she would make the leader a perfect mate in the next realm. The leader told the questioner there could be no such joining in the next realm because the vamps are of a different mind and such complete knowledge would completely kill the essence of a human.

A member of the old group was diseased however. He disappeared, taking the young daughter of the human with him. He went back in time and set up raids, killing all he chose. But then the leader eventually found him, some years later. The leader dug a hole and disposed of the body of his former friend.

That's all I recall. I had a role in the dream, but I don't recall what it was. I only remember the gist of an awesome story. Parts I skipped over include a female vamp causing trouble for the new group because he denied his son. He said spirits cause pregnancy, not joining where werewolves and vamps are concerned. He said another made her pregnant but the child was obviously his.
Before the new group was tested, time passed in slow motion. And one of the new members was upset because the woman testing him was like a mother to him.

I don't recall much of the flying dream. There was an accident with an RV. I got lost trying to lead some people to it. I was flying to get a better view. ]]> Zhaylin http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/vampires-werewolves-flying-19226/ http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/%2Arawr%2A-19058/ Fri, 17 Jun 2011 14:18:37 GMT More sucky recall. My daughter kept coming in my room and waking me up. I recall snippets of: A tray full of cockroaches. Apparently, they were... More sucky recall. My daughter kept coming in my room and waking me up.

I recall snippets of:
A tray full of cockroaches. Apparently, they were my pets (I LOATHE roaches). I also had a hutch filled with baby rabbits. The hutch looked like the upper cabinet of a my writing desk. I worried they starved to death because I had forgotten to feed and water them. When I opened the doors though, they were all okay. Then everything got loose and I was trying to put the roaches and rabbits back where they were supposed to be.

>>I found a bird on my daughters bed the other day. When I picked it up to throw it out, maggots fell everywhere. I think maggots are cool. But I had a conversation with my son and he said he feels about maggots the same way I do about roaches. Plus, I murdered a moth on my wall that looked like a roach. So, that part of the dream is easily understood.
>>I only fed and watered Cuddlebug (our rabbit) once yesterday. I kept telling him, I'd get his goodies before I went to bed, but I forgot. That explains part of the bunny dream. I don't know why he multiplied though lol ]]> Zhaylin http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/%2Arawr%2A-19058/ http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/recall-grrrr-19008/ Thu, 16 Jun 2011 13:31:46 GMT I crashed hard this morning at around 2AM. And I woke up quickly at 9AM. I took the trash to the road and brought in some laundry from outside. ... I crashed hard this morning at around 2AM. And I woke up quickly at 9AM. I took the trash to the road and brought in some laundry from outside. Then I checked my email and was shocked that a good sum of money was added to the child support credit card *wtf* I'm not going to look a gift horse in the mouth however.
I then called my hubby.
So, I've forgotten my dreams.

I only recall snippets of swimming with sharks and car crashes. ]]> Zhaylin http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/recall-grrrr-19008/ http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/zombies-18941/ Wed, 15 Jun 2011 11:13:10 GMT The best dream I had last night was of zombies. These were the fast kinds. But they were dumber lol. Most of the time, they just went in a... The best dream I had last night was of zombies. These were the fast kinds. But they were dumber lol. Most of the time, they just went in a straight line. If that went to food, great. If not, oh well, forward they continued to march.
I was beginning to think avoiding them and escaping death was going to be an easy thing. Then they became smarter and started crawling along the tops of walls of bottoms of ceilings- slithering across them as if snakes.
A group of people and I were in a large house, but everyone was picked off one by one. Then there were three of us and one young woman snapped. She ran out of the room we were in to find someone. I closed the door behind her and stood in front of it, hearing her be killed.
I don't remember how it ended.

Then I dreamed something strange about baby birds and ants. At first, all of them were inside a shoe box or something. But then I found a nifty closet with a tree stump inside it. I then poked holes through the floor around the stump so the ants could leave for food. I never thought about RC-ing lol, but I bored holes through think particle board flooring with only my fingertips lol
Then I dumped the shoe box. The first thing I noticed was a smell like poop, then I saw cat turds, then I noticed the baby birds for the first time. There were 4 but I only noticed 2 in the darkness. They were grayish colored with a mop of black tipped feathers on their heads.

I flew a lot during my dreams, but I don't recall the circumstances. I vaguely recall something about outer space and a dying planet. ]]> Zhaylin http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/zombies-18941/ http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/smart-alec-18726/ Tue, 07 Jun 2011 06:34:21 GMT Before I forget this little gem of wisdom from some DC in my last dream:
"Follow the buns before you're over 40 and flipping buns" :roll:
The character I was playing in the dream was torn between love and a possible future elsewhere. Sadly, I've forgotten the details of the dream other than that quote.

There was some other weird dream. I was walking through a town with a guy (my hubby I think). We talked about the "No littering" signs and how even the smallest towns should have enough money for them. Then we passed a wedding and hubby brought me in to it. I was carrying a book and for some reason, the cake was on the ground under a table. When I set my book down, it fell onto its side but only grazed the green colored trim along the bottom of the cake. Someone was about to make a toast or something, but hubby walked over to the person and said the name of the drink (which was something really confusing and long in Spanish). Everyone applauded, then he hubby gave the drink to me. It was red colored, almost like tomato juice (in consistency too- though not quite) and served in a chilled, tall and slender glass.
I chugged it, but it was really strong. It was a little spicy and very potent. Hubby had to hold me up as I finished it.

Then the dream somehow changed and I was with a woman, discussing the dangers of that drink. Very randomly, a snowy apparition would jump out at you. It was a curse from the drink, but it was more annoying than scary. My apparition followed me though a house and popped up here and there. The most impressive time was outside a bedroom window. His image sort of overlapped with mine, then I mimed angry to tell him to leave me alone lol

In another dream, I was like a strange robot or something and people could pay for the use of my body (like some movie I saw months ago but forget the name). A tranny used me once and afterward I was sure he had used me for sex lol.

In another dream, I was walking through a town and I saw to JW's. They were carrying guns though, and I commented to someone that I was asleep. They asked why and I said because Jehovah's Witnesses are peaceful and passive and would never walk around with firearms. But I let it pass so I wouldn't wake up.

All of these dreams occurred between 11:15PM and 2AM :)

The dream of the drink was inspired by the grossest foods thread in the Lounge.
The one about the JW's was because I saw a JW last night while speed shopping. ]]> Zhaylin http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/smart-alec-18726/ http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/adult-content-18642/ Sun, 05 Jun 2011 09:07:55 GMT Sort of :P

I've been having a LOT of sex dreams lately. But I can't get no satisfaction even in my sleep :roll:

The most memorable was from yesterday. I saw my ex-hubby out shopping. He was trying on another pair of black jeans (all he really wore back in the day) but I was wearing a sexy red dress. He saw me. Next thing I recall is we're in a room somewhere. He's mad about something and he whips out the palest, most swollen "member" I've ever seen. He tells me to suck it and I tell him "no. F*** me." He looks surprised that I told him to have sex with me.
Then the dream fast forwards to AFTER the freagin fact and I was worried I had gotten pregnant. He had 5 new kids and I commented to myself that he was definitely still fertile. I worried about how I would explain my pregnancy to my hubby seeing how we haven't had sex in almost a year.

I ended up taking a nap from about 1:30-4:30AM. I had what started out as a normal enough dream.
I was at a gas station, trying to fill up, but a motor bike was blocking me and there were tons of cars around. I got out and moved the bike, but the kick stand wouldn't hold it. Someone in another car was good naturedly laughing at my plight. I eventually laid the bike down. Next thing I recall is being unable to control my mini-van. I almost ran over a cop who was directing traffic out of the gas station.

At some point, I went to sleep in the passenger seat of my van. I woke up to find it filled of guys. Instead of just 2 seats in the front, as in real life, the vehicle had a bench seat. I then played passive-submissive, laying my head on the shoulder then lap of one of the car jackers. He took the bait and placed his hand on my stomach. My stomach?! Really? I was ready to have sex with the whole lot of them, but the leader made it clear that absolutely no harm would come to me. Me. Who was still pretending to be asleep. Arg.

Then I dreamed I was a wild horse o something- in heat- and I didn't get lucky then either.

:mad:

Then the dreams went to the somewhat mundane. I was trying to take care of my own needs while hiding under a blanket with my niece and a couple other kids in the room. Nothing. Too distracted.

Then, the dream became weird and my mom showed up, upset, because she found strange stuff under my mattress when she came over to clean. The items were small. Some sort of paper trinkets with stuff written on them and some notes. She told me to be careful sleeping on that stuff or something (?) might just happen to me. I didn't even remember what they were but I had the impression they were magic related.
Then my p-doc showed up for a VERY open session. There was another doctor AND my family in the room. I don't recall if we actually spoke. He listened to everyone else complain about me, then he handed me my file.
I worried that he was moving or "firing" me, but that didn't seem to be the case.

Then the dream changed again and I was at a bar, trying to pick someone up. No luck. I woke up.

I wish my period would hurry up and get here so my hormones will get back to normal. This is just crazy! ]]> Zhaylin http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/adult-content-18642/ http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/persecution-16975/ Tue, 03 May 2011 00:59:39 GMT I slept forever yesterday and today, but I still only recall fragments of dreams. The most disturbing one was of religious persecution against... I slept forever yesterday and today, but I still only recall fragments of dreams.

The most disturbing one was of religious persecution against Jehovah's Witnesses. They were on the run and I was a sympathizer but that's really all I recall other than there being a video which was made of the whole thing and Bon Jovi (sp) was one of the actors. I liked his character the most because he reminded me of the younger brother from the show "Numbers" (which I had watched hours of lol)

In another dream, which may have tied into the one above, there was a woman on the run, hiding with her young daughter. They were staying in a huge run-down bus. There was litter strewn about the inside of the bus and crystals were growing in one corner where water had dripped for years. I told myself that shouldn't be possible, lol, but the dream continued. I had no role at all.

In another dream, a car fell off a very tall bridge and flew down onto a roadway underneath it. (I've had that dream several times before. The roads remind me of amusement park rides which are impossibly high in the air).

There was a dead body in one dream, a little girl who had mutated to having 5 breasts- some of which looked almost decaying. I had a baby in one dream, and in another I fought with my mom telling her I was going to run off and live in the woods like I had always wanted to.

That's it. ]]> Zhaylin http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/persecution-16975/ http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/dry-spell-16821/ Sat, 30 Apr 2011 06:28:11 GMT I don't recall too much about my multitude of dreams. I've been sleeping a lot because I starting taking allergy pills a couple days ago.

In one dream, hubby was approaching me for sex, but when I started getting undressed, he said I was fat... when I started putting my clothes back on, he tried to backtrack and said it's just how I am. He became interested in me again, but before anything could get started, I asked religious questions about some book we had been reading. Then he got into a different bed and I was ANGRY lol
He recommended some book for me that had been rewritten so 9th graders could understand it.

Then I was at a religious meeting. I signed a 2 pieces of paper to show I attended. My signature bothered me because one of them was slanted to the right and the other was upright (I do that in real life too). And then I very loudly heard someone say "Run!" And I woke up. A moment later, the dogs started barking and growling. I got out of bed, but the dogs are just being loud and playing. ]]> Zhaylin http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/dry-spell-16821/ http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/very-rare-pleasant-dreams-within-lol-16354/ Tue, 19 Apr 2011 23:32:05 GMT I took a nap earlier from around 5-7PM

In one dream, three people switched places with "doubles" who lived in a different era. I lived in a huge house and had a servant who was horrible at her job lol. Germs weren't known about at this time and I kept trying to explain what they were and why they were important.
Then my hubby and I were talking with some gentleman about cryto-machines. I compared it to a typewriter and my hubby (who "time traveled with me) called me an idiot and was embarrassed for me.
>>That's about all I recall from that dream, but it was inspired, in large part, by a conversation about germs that I had with my 16 yo before I fell asleep.

In another dream, I was putting pictures together for my son-in-law and his new wife. She is absolutely gorgeous. But putting the pictures together was turning out to be a major pain because hubby wanted me to include a bunch of pics about model airplanes from a show he and his son had gone to. The pictures of the wedding, had the music from the wedding embedded in them lol.
Then I got a phone call from my step-daughter. She was having some sort of very minor allergic reaction and we talked about a video game for awhile before she had to go.
>>>That dream was inspired by my hubby telling me he spoke with his son last night before I went to sleep the first time. He and his wife just bought a new house and they're expecting their first baby by Winter.

In the thoroughly enjoyable dream, my 14 yo daughter was pregnant. We could see the baby move inside her belly. She was weirded out until I showed her what parts of the baby could be made out. First it was a foot, the a butt and an elbow.
She left my room but came back a few minutes later holding the baby. I grabbed a tape measure and measured him to be 23 inches long. He was perfect. He had blond hair and blue eyes like his mom. I was worried that he came out too soon, but he was perfectly viable. There were two carriers in my room. One rocked and was slightly bigger than the other, so I told her to place him in it. But it belonged to Andrea (supposed RL cousin) who had just lost a baby (sort of- her young children were stolen by the State for good IRL). I told her it was okay- that we would switch seats before visiting her.
Then my daughter left to clean out 1 of 2 bottles and fill it for him. He picked up a dirty one that had once contained juice and took a tiny taste before I took it from him. I told him "yuck", sticking out my tongue a little and crinkling my nose. He thought it was the funniest thing ever and smiled every time I did it.
Then I did something else which he thought stupid and some sort of rating system was initiated lol.
When my daughter walked back into the room, the baby was gone. He went back inside her belly for a while longer :D
>>>>That dream was inspired, in part, from me always telling said daughter that she's not "allowed to be a girl". She used to be a tomboy but now she's interested in the opposite sex and she gets all dolled up for them. I'm not ready for my "baby" to grow up just yet. Her bestfriend is a 19 year old boy. She's known him since she was about 7 years old. So the other part of the dream is me being afraid he'll get her pregnant.



All I recall from last nights dreams was driving somewhere to hide a body. That dream came from watching a movie "Night Train" the day before.
I had slept from around 6AM-1PM ]]> Zhaylin http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/very-rare-pleasant-dreams-within-lol-16354/ http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/who-knows-16268/ Mon, 18 Apr 2011 08:09:46 GMT I ended up taking a nap from 1AM-3:30AM.

I had a dream that was a combination of the "Gimsons" (Simpsons) and Family Guy but I couldn't remember the name of Family Guy, so in a later dream I was arguing with people (?) about it and I lost the dream because of it lol So, who knows what all that was supposed to be about :lol:

In another dream, I watched a series of events unfold where something at a dining room table caught on fire and fell onto something else (a spoon, I think) which landed on another thing and made an alarm clock go off. I then watched (in first and 3rd person) as an Asian woman walked through a lot of different rooms to get to the back of the house. For some reason, the cops were called. They asked her if she understood what "A Beautiful Mind" was about.. that the man KNEW things (mathematically) and didn't have to go through the motions like she was (paraphrasing- can't remember the exact words anymore). She then went on to explain herself, which I've also forgotten.

The next thing I recall is being on a bridge... no, under a bridge. There were work trucks and stuff on top of the bridge which I guess, wasn't a bridge at all but some sort of dock or loading station or ??? Another series of events unfolded. The bridge splits in half and the vehicles started falling off. Everyone starts running, but their struck and killed by the vehicles. A woman is knocked out so some blond-haired guy picks her up and starts running with her. They're grazed by something, though and the woman falls into the water. She's floats next to a pillar and I keep hoping she'll wake up, but she doesn't and drowns.
There was a conversation going on between the people before the bridge collapsed, but I've forgotten it.

In another dream, I found an enormously fat man using my shower. I give him a towel and everyone starts talking. My family (not real family, "I" wasn't in the dream) loved him. My dream husband loved him so much, he wanted the man to stay with us. The fat man had lots of problems with his mom and supposed friends, so hubby starts calling people from the guys cellphone and telling them they were through.
I put on the mans pants (?!) and disguised myself as a man and went outside for a walk. But as I walked, I remembered how badly the fat man smelled and I couldn't believe I was wearing his clothes.
When I returned home, the man had vanished. He returned to his mom thanks to my hubby's calls lol
There was some reference in the dream to "feeling my man-titties" lol but I don't recall the context.

In another dream, a cat made itself split in two so one half could suck on (eat) my 18 yo sons face and the other could suck on his leg. I plied the creature off of him, but then tried to joke about it with my son, saying "See how much this cat loves you? It tore itself in half." He laughed then walked off. Then I talked to him about something I had seen on TV about a "water cat" which does the same thing, but I concluded our cat isn't aquatic and is much too large to be related.

I recall a snippet about flying, something about GPS in a car and still getting lost and a hotel conference. But I've forgotten the details of those. ]]> Zhaylin http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/who-knows-16268/ http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/disturbing-16250/ Sun, 17 Apr 2011 21:29:49 GMT Damn allergy pills. I crashed at 5AM and woke at 5PM. I'm sleeping way too much. I was supposed to go to the Farm today to pick up stuff, so my son came into my room almost every hour since noon to question and insult me for my inability to wake up. I don't recall much about my dreams. From what I do recall, I think I'm glad lol

I don't recall the story behind the actions, but I was in a large house. People were tied up everywhere. I had killed several of the people but someone (?) I was with was supposed to dispatch of 2 others in an upstairs bedroom. He couldn't do it, so I took the Sling Blade from him and with complete lack of emotion, I slit the first mans throat. I can still remember the resistance I felt from the skin. Blood ran down his his neck but he still tried to talk.
I wondered if I cut deeply enough, but shrugged it off. I then killed his friend.
>>Dream may have been inspired in part by watching "Harpoon: Whale watching Massacre" before falling asleep (It's a horrible movie BTW, and I do NOT recommend it lol). The Sling Blade came from another show though "Sling Blade" that I watched over a week ago.

In another dream, I was pregnant but I didn't want to be. I was a dark haired woman- not myself. I recall hardly anything about this dream. I may have killed 2 little kids. The phase "A crying woman is a scheming woman" kept playing through my mind (which came from the movie "Antichrist")

There was something in some dream about losing items. I had a plastic organizer/container of sorts. It was dumped and the contents became wet and/or lost. I seem to also recall something about scores of dead animals.

Maybe I should stop watching horror movies before sleep lol
But I never dream about the ones I actually love, like Offspring. Antichrist seems to affected me on a psychological level (disturbing imagery), so it will be in my dreams for a good while yet. ]]> Zhaylin http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/disturbing-16250/ http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/finally-16167/ Sat, 16 Apr 2011 12:49:24 GMT I finally had some good dreams.
I went to sleep a little after midnight and I woke, permanently, at 8AM. I'm still taking allergy meds which have been knocking me out.

One dream was based off a 2009 movie, Antichrist, which I watched before falling asleep. Only my hubby was acting as my therapist and he was evil. I don't recall much about that dream because it was the first one that I had and I woke several times through the night.

Another dream was inspired, in small part, by Fantasy Kingdoms. I had a pet griffon that I was riding around my grandmothers property. Below us were several other animals- horses and foals. One foal took off, got into another pen (animals I don't recall) and then into the woods. I was annoyed and told it to have a nice life or come back when it was through because I wasn't going to chase it down.
From my birds eye view, I then started counting the foals. There were 7 at first then I saw others which brought the number to 12.
Then my daughters were on the griffons back with me. My boys were (?) also in the air and I asked one of them to take a picture of us but the camera wouldn't work and I became annoyed again (inspired by my 16 yo wanting to use my broken camera yesterday).

There was something strange about the horse pen and the one joining it... ??? I recall a revolving door. It was in my hubby's house lol. I was putting stuff away but the door was stuck. He was annoyed at me because it sounded like he wanted me to put stuff away on the forth floor (which he doesn't have). When I finally understood him, I said "Oh, you mean the Entertainment Room" but he was annoyed by that notion because it was now just used for storage.
I got down on my hands and knees to work out whatever was jamming the door. In each section of the revolving door was an animal. The one that caught my attention most was a red fox (from Antichrist).
I'm starting to think these are details from dream one lol

Because the next thing I recall about the animal pen was my cat Jasper eating something on the wall that divided the pens. I thought it was a critter and I became sad. Then I realized it was just some sort of jellified goo.
Then I was on my grams back porch. I found some chains- one of which had a stirrup at the bottom. The other stirrup had broken off and the two sections joined then branched off to two other chains which made up the reins. I wondered how I could use them on my griffon.
There were a bunch of emotions and thoughts in this dream. My grams and uncles were all still alive, but grams was annoyed with me (though I don't recall actually interacting with her OR my uncles). I thought about my uncles horses and how they were put to sleep because my uncle couldn't care for them anymore (one uncle and the horses still live IRL).

I recall a bunch of dream snippets. I don't know how they fit into the whole or if they were dreams of their own.
In one, I was going to school. I missed a lucid opportunity because I thought "I'm actually going to pass because I know where my classes are this time". In other dreams about school, I always fail because I become hopelessly lost. There were scenes from the actual classroom setting, but it's all become a blurr.

In another dream, I was thin but pregnant. I thought I would kill myself if it turned out I wasn't pregnant or if I lost the baby. I could feel it moving inside me, which has always been a feeling I cherish.
My hubby needed a kidney and I was going to give him one, but it had to be done by a certain date and I realized I could do nothing until after I had the baby. Then I found out hubby was divorcing me. He and I talked for awhile and he was distant and cool.

In another dream, I was at a car garage (?). Hubby wanted me to get his vehicle- or something out of it- and he told me where a hide-a-key was. The car was unlocked though.

Another snippet was of me putting a cigarette down in his garage. When I returned, I was looking for the griffon lol then realized I was confusing life and dreams :lol:

It's storming here. We may lose power, which is why I've saved and added to this post so many times.
Going to get off of here for now... ]]> Zhaylin http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/finally-16167/ http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/ugh-really-16116/ Fri, 15 Apr 2011 13:13:54 GMT I was extra sleepy today because I've been taking allergy meds, so I crashed at about 15 minutes before 6AM
At 6:30, my daughter came back to my room, complaining of having the crud that's wiped me out. She had a fever so I sent her back to bed. Hopefully, she wont get taken by the State for this one absence!
I went right back to sleep then woke ??? with my mouth full of blood. I had been chomping down on my gum again.
I went right back to sleep again, then my son woke me at 8:50. Someone was at the door. Crap! Was it the State already?
Nope. Just one of the women who work for my hubby. She needed me to sign tax papers.
Now I'm awake for a couple of hours and I remember nothing about my dreams.
The area on my gum looks nasty and it's throbbing *sigh* ]]> Zhaylin http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/ugh-really-16116/ http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/burial-16098/ Thu, 14 Apr 2011 23:00:16 GMT I've not been recalling much about my dreams lately.
I went to bed this morning at 7:30 and woke at 11:30. I was sitting almost cross-legged with my head on the bed in between my knees. I woke when I started coughing up a lung.
I went back to sleep at around 1PM and woke at 4:15.

The only part I remember about any of my dreams is of a man being buried. I was in some enormous dumpster type thing and a couple men (?) were throwing dirt on top of some other man (?). Eventually, though, the man being buried started coughing and moving. Everyone quickly climbed out of the dumpster and one of the guys I was with closed it, locked it and "sealed" it with another series of locks (oddly enough, the lock and sealing mechanisms were the most memorable and vivid part of the dream). I was distraught. I felt if they were going to leave the man in there, they should kill him. ]]> Zhaylin http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/burial-16098/ http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/death-explosions-15962/ Mon, 11 Apr 2011 20:39:44 GMT I went back to sleep from around noon-4:15. In one dream, I was with my JW friend Roxanna. We were teenagers though and I was only 1 or 2 years... I went back to sleep from around noon-4:15.

In one dream, I was with my JW friend Roxanna. We were teenagers though and I was only 1 or 2 years older than her. I wasn't disfellowshipped but I was on my way to being so. Rox asked me to buy her a pack of cigarettes, so I did. A couple days later, she told on herself. She was grounded but that was it. I kept wanting to ask if she told I had bought them for her. Her parents let me inside to talk to her, though, so I figured she hadn't said anything about me.
The next room (?) was in a hospital. A very old JW was lying in bed. She was told she had a rare blood disease and needed a blood transfusion to live. Rox and I held her hand and told her to be strong. On the floor, hidden somehow, were several cigarette butts. I put out my own cigarette there, though I hadn't had a cigarette until that instance lol

I'm not sure where the next part went... I was at a Convention or something. We were sitting on the floor at first, then school desks/chairs appeared. Someone was on a projector TV speaking about religion. It seemed more like a school than a Convention. He was saying things against what I believed in, so I remained seated. But then an elder//teacher lol told me to stand because he was speaking truth. All my classmates were standing so I was peer pressured into joining them. I hadn't noticed though when they sat down, so I was standing awkwardly by myself for a time.

In another dream, I was in China (?) Two men could run exceptionally/impossibly fast. They were enemies- one with a red light, one with blue. They ran in opposite directions- or tried to, trying to catch each other to create an explosion. One of them cheated along the way, and lit a whole bunch of fireworks. He lit too many and the city caught fire.
I was walking and told the person I was with that I was going up for a better view. A passerby asked how but I ignored him. I went off a ways then transformed into a black and white flying craft that sort of looked like a VW "Bug". I got above the power lines and kept flying.
I landed in some woods near a cave girl and a family of bears (that looked like people lol). I had food with me that I had apparently gathered. I approached the bears cautiously, signaling I was very hungry and wanted to use their fire pit. They ran over to look in my bag, took some items and cooked for me.

Then I was with someone (?) who beat a difficult level in a game and was about to be warped to the next level. She could take one person with her, which was me, but scores of people showed up and cut the line. I still got to go, though, but I don't recall anything further.

>>I'm too sick to decipher anything right now. ]]> Zhaylin http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/death-explosions-15962/ http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/dead-bunnies-15951/ Mon, 11 Apr 2011 15:32:24 GMT Blech. I've only gotten about 4 hours of sleep. I'm sick with a sore throat, earache and cough. And now I have scratches up and down my legs because I was an idiot who tended to the dogs while wearing shorts. They're extremely superficial but the sting something fierce lol.
I fell asleep at around 6AM and woke at 10AM.

All I recall of my dreams is
1) trying to make it through some sort of obstacle course where the floor rose to meet the ceiling at three different squared off areas and at three different speeds. They were side by side and you had to overcome the obstacle to pass. Unfortunately, there was also a spiked ball at the end of a chain which dominated the center square (a square which moved more slowly than its neighbors).
I don't recall the dream actually ending or merging with another.

The next thing I remember is being in a large house with an even larger basement. I was at the top of the steep stairs at first, yelling at my daughter for lying to me. She said she would have the basement clean by the end of the day, but it looked as if it would take her a week to do. I vaguely recall placing two rabbits in a type of AC/utility closet which was half as tall as a normal closet, but long like a crawlspace and located within the basement. I engaged a lock and left (?)
Then I was back at the top of the stairs, arguing with my daughter again and she was very angry, saying someone ripping the stuffing out of everything down there. I immediately thought of the rabbits and asked about them. She shook her head yes "Even them"
I disengaged the lock and opened the door and saw the rabbits mutilated almost beyond recognition.
Then I woke up.

>> I don't know why I'm having so many rabbit dreams. None of them feature the rabbit I have IRL. Our bunny's been feeling very restless lately and has taken to thumping quite loudly. He's in a container in the bathroom which is right next to my room. When he's at his worst, the kids can hear him from the living room and kitchen lol If he's thumping while I'm sleeping, that would explain the dreams.

>>> I think the other dream was inspired by video games. ]]> Zhaylin http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/dead-bunnies-15951/ http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/pain-15869/ Sat, 09 Apr 2011 07:24:53 GMT I had another gallbladder attack, so I slept for almost 24 hours. I was awake from 10:15AM-1:30PM so I could see my 15 yo who's an hour away. I went right back to sleep, woke briefly, went out for a soda and was in so much pain I puked in the bathroom at a gas station before getting enough strength to drive home. Once home, I went right back to sleep and didn't wake until after 1:30AM
I took 100 mg Seroquel to help knock me out. I took 2 hot baths which I slept in. When I woke this last time, the attack had finally passed. My back still hurts a little, so the attack may strike yet again.

I don't recall much about my dreams.
In one, I was upset because I was trying to go to the Memorial (of Christ's death) but I didn't know when it was or where it was being held. I finally found out it was at 2PM, but 2 hours away. I knew I would never make it in time, so I tried figuring out how I could celebrate by myself.
>>I've been thinking about this a lot lately. I don't know when it is. But it's always at sunset and always held at local congregations lol. In the dream, it was more like one of our big Conventions instead of the Memorial.


I dreamed something about secret tunnels. It's been a reoccurring theme since my childhood.

That's all I can remember, sadly enough. ]]> Zhaylin http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/pain-15869/ http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/grrrr-15807/ Thu, 07 Apr 2011 20:43:53 GMT I was extra sleepy today so I crashed at 5AM (paid my 18 yo to wake the kids up for school) and I slept until 4:30. I had a bunch of dreams to... I was extra sleepy today so I crashed at 5AM (paid my 18 yo to wake the kids up for school) and I slept until 4:30.
I had a bunch of dreams to record but I lost almost all of them because 18 yo was excited that one of our cats had kittens in his closet :)

The only dream I recall is a testament to my current Runescape addiction :) I was running around in a town and the graphics were just like RS. I was killing monsters and collecting gold. I kept trying to find the library to buy upgrades (Everquest reference) but I kept getting turned around. Then I killed time with a shop keeper because every time I clicked on something, more options and purchase possibilities appeared. I recall clicking on a jewelry box, which opened to another "shop" with yet another jewelry box inside another shop. Then I was browsing scarfs.

>>The dream was also influenced by my 18 yo who was playing RS while I was sleeping :lol: ]]> Zhaylin http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/grrrr-15807/ http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/more-bad-recall-15767/ Wed, 06 Apr 2011 20:49:02 GMT I was extra sleepy today so I went to bed at at around 8AM and woke at 4:14- one minute before the kids get home :D BUT, my son used my computer for... I was extra sleepy today so I went to bed at at around 8AM and woke at 4:14- one minute before the kids get home :D
BUT, my son used my computer for a few hours, I received a cellphone call about my 15 yo daughter and had to write something down and apparently, the perimeter alarm was going off in my ear the entire time I was sleeping because I forgot to turn it off (workmen are here today, working on hubby's garage). Then my kids walked in, told me about a fire in their school as they were leaving for the day, and now what I had remembered is pathetic little.

I recall sharks. They were very oddly shaped with extreme "hump backs". I was in the water with them and they went into a feeding frenzy- only they were eating each other.

That's it. And I had that dream because of something I posted on DV mixed with continuous commercials for "River Monsters" ]]> Zhaylin http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/more-bad-recall-15767/ http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/another-boring-night-15730/ Tue, 05 Apr 2011 20:10:33 GMT I crashed early yesterday because I was almost out of smokes and I am out of food until later tonight. I went to sleep at around 2AM, woke briefly... I crashed early yesterday because I was almost out of smokes and I am out of food until later tonight. I went to sleep at around 2AM, woke briefly at 6 then again at 6:30 to drive my daughter to the bus stop (pouring rain). Then I crashed again from 7:30AM-1PM. I saw my pdoc at 2, was home by 3 now I'm about to watch Hulu.

The only thing I recall from my dreams is confusing. I was walking down some back roads, trying to find a place. 2 signs were missing letters, so I read "G_N_P__K". Eventually, I figured out it was supposed to be "GunPark".
I asked a female cop for directions. We spoke and she was formerly in the Navy. She was very cool and aloof. I said I had to go to an awards ceremony for my brother-in-law. She said she was handing out any awards. I said: "Oh yeah, I forgot you were Navy." But that was her way of inviting herself to dinner :lol:
My brain must have figured out I didn't have a brother-in-law (husbands brother), so the ceremony became something for my brother. The cop ended up turning into one of my 18 yo sons on-line friends, Toni and the ceremony became dinner with my family. My mom and dad were bickering. Toni was 19 years old and a high school dropout. My 18 yo son was 17 and in love with her. My mom was very rude to Toni, saying she needed to go back to school and why is she interested in my son. My dad yelled at my mom, saying she didn't have any say in the matter and to leave it alone.

>>>I watched a Creature Feature before going to sleep that featured some Navy men as bad guys.
IRL, my 18 yo is the school dropout and Toni is doing wonderfully with her life.

That's it. ]]> Zhaylin http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/another-boring-night-15730/ http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/whole-lot-nothing-15691/ Mon, 04 Apr 2011 22:12:20 GMT I fell asleep by about 9AM, was up by 3PM. 6 hours seems to be my natural norm. My oldest son was in and out of my room several times which... I fell asleep by about 9AM, was up by 3PM.
6 hours seems to be my natural norm.

My oldest son was in and out of my room several times which disrupted my sleep- then I woke quickly (?) and lost anything I might have remembered.
All that remains are snippets: starving animals... something about the Kingdom Hall.

The animals ran out of food 1 day early- thus the dream.
And I was thinking about the Witnesses before I fell asleep, which accounts for that part. ]]> Zhaylin http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/whole-lot-nothing-15691/ http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/oooookay-15642/ Sun, 03 Apr 2011 19:58:41 GMT Death seemed to rule last nights dreams. I went to sleep at around 8AM and woke at 3PM.

I don't remember entire dreams.
In one dream, my birds got spooked and Vlashki flew away. He made his way out of my room and by the time I reached him, one of the pups got ahold of him. I checked him for life, but he was quite dead, so I left him for the pup. (IRL, Vlashki tends to sit atop his cage. Every now and then, he gets spooked and flies, but my doors are always closed and my room is tiny so I get him right away. And when my animals kill something, even if it's another pet, I let them keep the kill rather than waste the body by burying it).
I came back to my room, in the dream, and watched his mate trying to find him and I became very sad for her. I was all the more sad when I silently wished she had been killed and not her mate who I favor.
:(

This next dream, though... I have no explanation for it lol.
Aliens were possessing people. They somehow impregnated them anally- males and females, young and old. But the babies and the host never lived through delivery. I saw MANY dead aliens being born. The host was always standing, but bent over.
This dream was like watching a movie. I had no role at all. I followed one young woman in particular. I REALLY wish I could recall the details because it was a great story.
The young woman, initially, was very shy and reserved. I watched her behavior become more and more erratic and she became very promiscuous. She focused on one guy, but that's where memory ends.

In another dream, I was burying something. I dug a hold to place a box in. But above the box, I was going to layer dirt and blankets to make a bed for one of my kids :wtf: Whatever was dead would have gotten me sent away if discovered. Somehow, the box ended up in the toilet, flushed. I thought it impossible for it to actually go down and I thought I'd be caught when the toilet stopped up. I reached my hand inside and tried to pull it out, but all I got were soggy pieces of the box. Eventually, the toilet flushed and all evidence safely went into our septic tank.


>>>I can understand the bird dream. Vlashki flew onto my bed a few hours before bedtime. The pups have been getting on everyone's nerves. I LOVE my birds lol so I often subconsciously anguish over something happening to one of them.

But the other dreams? I played Runescape, CafeWorld, City of Wonder, Fantasy Kingdoms all day yesterday and the day before. I didn't battle in RS, I'm primarily a skiller. I've also been reading the latest Jean Auel book, but nothing exciting is happening yet.
So, who knows lol ]]> Zhaylin http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/oooookay-15642/ http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/depressing-15530/ Thu, 31 Mar 2011 22:21:24 GMT I went to sleep at 11AM and woke a couple minutes before 4PM.
Some time has passed since I woke, so I've forgotten some of the dream details.

In one, I recall sitting across a table from an older gentleman. He was good looking and spoke about being "hardcore" (passionate) but I "heard" he and I could have sex without having to worry about emotions. It would be purely physical. My hand was on the table and he reached out and held it. My palm was facing upward, though. I didn't "hold hands" with him. But he closed his fingers some and gently squeezed my hand affectionately.
I worried someone would see us because I didn't want my husband finding out.
Then my pdoc showed up and I went off with him for some medical tests. I remember something about Lupis, but there was something in my blood/body that could help sufferers. And some other treatment could help grow my teeth. But I had just pulled the last few and I told them having one kid after another after another destroyed them beyond growth or repair.
I dreamed a lot more about my pdoc and feeling guilty and lonely, but I no longer recall the specifics.

I recall flying somewhere (?)
But first, I was walking between houses. There was a crawl space at one point, but I refused to take it because spider webs were hanging everywhere and I didn't want them on me. Instead, I crossed through a yard and spoke with a friendly dog (reassured it that I wasn't a bad guy so it wouldn't bite me lol)

There was also some sort of a race at a school. I had to "leap" up the stairs and another team had to leap down them. We each had to find a room a separate room before the other to call something off (?).


Some of the dream themes and scenes came from shows I've recently watched. I really wish I'd stop having the emotional dreams though because I carry the loneliness out of the dream and it bothers me all day. ]]> Zhaylin http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/depressing-15530/ http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/fragments-15369/ Tue, 29 Mar 2011 11:16:26 GMT I actually went to bed "last night" at around 1AM. I'm about to get a few more hours of sleep. My son slept through the night too, which means no one was in my room :banana:
But I woke up quickly to wake my kids up for school, so I'm stuck with only 2 dream fragments.

One dream was of being at my grams house. I had had a sticker on a small fridge with the phone number of a 4th grade teacher. I kept it for sentimental reasons, but grams thought I wanted to get in touch with the teacher, so she called the woman. I remember I spoke with her, but that's the extent of it.

In another dream, I needed a pack of cigarettes. I was going to ride along with my dad or uncle (?) but everything was taking so long that I announced: "I can fly AND teleport. I'll just head out on my own if that's alright?"
I took off flying but electric cords almost completely blocked the higher sky. I could have gone in between some of them, but I was afraid of getting shocked. There was some kind of festival/parade about to take place on the streets below me.

In another dream, I was battling something (?) It spit acid occasionally so I was trying to make a mask. I needed some gauze like material for where my eyes are but I was having a hard time finding anything.

Time to catch some more "zzz's". ]]> Zhaylin http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/fragments-15369/ http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/multiples-15286/ Sun, 27 Mar 2011 14:41:27 GMT My kids really need to find another hangout lol I crashed at around midnight and woke (for the last time at 10AM) The fragment I recall the most... My kids really need to find another hangout lol
I crashed at around midnight and woke (for the last time at 10AM)

The fragment I recall the most was about rabbits. They were in a cage with an automatic sliding glass door. It was really nifty as it could only be activated from the outside. I started worrying, though, that an animal might jump up to the cage to look inside, activate the door by accident then have a very nice free meal. There were at least a dozen or so rabbits in this one aquarium style cage.
I came back later when I realized I could lock the door, but all the rabbits were dead. They had all suffocated.

In another dream, I snuck into someone's house and stole a key. They had teenaged children (2, I think). I washed their dishes for a long time and cleaned the sink. When everyone woke up, they were initially surprised to see me, but then they accepted I was supposed to be there. I talked to the mom a lot, but I don't remember what it was about.
I'm not sure if this is part of the same dream, but another scene was of me outside. No. This was a separate dream.

I was outside walking and I happened upon a yard sale. There were a lot of really nice clothes, but I was interested in something buried at the very bottom of one of the piles. It looked like a table or something, but when I got all the stuff off of it, I realized it was a shopping cart. I was still pleased and planned on buying it. I filled it with clothes, then a mob of people showed up. They were all very panicked and went through the clothes quickly, spilling most on the ground.
I went along behind them, trying to pick them up, telling them to have some respect. The woman came out of her house upset, saying the clothes they trampled were her Church clothes. Most were brightly colored sweaters- pink, blue.

In another dream, I was somewhere with my kids. My 18 year old was told he couldn't participate (?) because they were taking him away again. He had to go to a shelter and he became very upset.
I woke up before I could figure out why.

That's it. ]]> Zhaylin http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/multiples-15286/ http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/gross-15257/ Sat, 26 Mar 2011 22:22:21 GMT I only got about 4 hours sleep last night. That backache I woke with the other night was the start of another major gallbladder attack. It came and... I only got about 4 hours sleep last night. That backache I woke with the other night was the start of another major gallbladder attack. It came and went and has been mostly okay since last night.
I woke to my son, in my room, playing my computer. We made a deal where if he cleans certain things, he gets time on my computer. We specified an hour per room and now he thinks he can get on whenever he wants.
And since my oldest daughter was taken away, my youngest has been practically attached to my hip. I don't say anything because it's nice to be wanted again (she's 14) and I realize she's feeling vulnerable (she might get taken next), but I'm used to having a lot more down time.
The two of them have been practically camping in my tiny room (which is where I "live"). My daughter's trashing the place (leaves her clothes, soda bottles etc lying around) and my sleep has been suffering a little for it.
They start school back up in a couple days, so life will be back to semi-normal soon enough :D

ANYHOW.... I only remember fragments from last nights dreams. In one, I was at the feet of my mother and eating decaying flesh off of her feet. I almost ate a couple of her toes, then realized they were healthy and still functional. It was REALLY gross. But when I was finished, her feet were healed of whatever had been bothering them.
Next thing I remember, my hubby and I are about to have sex. I wrap my arms around him and feel a gaping wound in his back. His flesh feels flaky and dead.
Then I woke up.
:disconcerted: ]]> Zhaylin http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/gross-15257/ http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/sore-15068/ Wed, 23 Mar 2011 13:09:50 GMT I couldn't get comfortable last night to save my life. So I slept on the opposite side of the bed (reversed the top/bottom position). But I woke at one point in an almost lotus position with my head on the bed between my knees. I was comfy but my feet had fallen asleep lol. My upper back/chest is oddly and painfully this morning. Plus I'm "trying" to start my period 5 days early *WTH*

I remember basically nothing about my dreams. I recall dreaming my so threw a fit because I bought him cheap cigarettes. In another fragments, my 14 yo daughter was mad/upset about something. I woke to a scene from House, with him telling ? that they're not stupid, that he's just far more superior lol

Blah... time to get hydrated... ]]> Zhaylin http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/sore-15068/ http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/fragments-15040/ Tue, 22 Mar 2011 11:48:06 GMT I slept like a rock last night, though I did wake a couple times (once to turn off my AC 'cause it was too cold).

I only recall two fragments: Walking through a store and seeing my old JW best friend. She was with a lot of kids (babysitting) and I smiled at her.

The other dream was about driving and I kept losing control of the vehicle.

Make it 3 fragments: in another... crap, I just lost it again lol
It's back- something about a beach...

That's it.

I went to bed at around midnight and woke at 7:30
My pdoc doesn't want me completely off the Seroquel, but I told him that stuff scares me now, so we agreed on just 1/4 of a pill before bed. It does help me sleep, but I'll be watching myself :P ]]> Zhaylin http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/fragments-15040/ http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/damn-sp-fa-14989/ Mon, 21 Mar 2011 09:09:03 GMT I stayed too busy yesterday and never did get back to explaining the dream keywords. I went to sleep, last night, right before midnight and woke... I stayed too busy yesterday and never did get back to explaining the dream keywords.

I went to sleep, last night, right before midnight and woke several times throughout the night. It's now 5AM and I'm up.
I had at least 3 bought of SP and False Awakenings last n

**EDIT**okay... what happened to my post.

I left to eat a honey bun before the fruit flies thawed and when I came back half of my post was missing?
I had no memorable dreams but the FW (or is it FA) drove me insane.
I kept "waking up" in my bed, with a severe sense of evil in the room. I'd look around and try to focus on my birds, but their cage was in the wrong spot and I'd eventually fall back to sleep. This happened, it seemed, about 3 times in a row. I wanted to turn on my light but I was too scared to leave my bed even though the light switch is only about 4 steps away.
At some point, I did wake up and turn on the light, but I went right back to bed and to sleep.

I remembered a little of my dreams when I first woke, but this war I'm waging against these fruit flies has made me forget. I have no idea where the buggers are nesting. I sleep with the AC blasting at 72 and on High but when I wake up, the temp quickly rises to around 80. The buggers are inactive at 72 which I love, but I freeze at that temp during waking hours. ]]> Zhaylin http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/damn-sp-fa-14989/ http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/quickie-14962/ Sun, 20 Mar 2011 18:21:46 GMT I laid back down at around 11 and woke at 1:30 to stupid Zones 1 and 4 blasting in my ear. I turned off the monitor but now I'm up. I still feel like puking, but I have to run to the store as in right now.
So, I thought I'd write down some keywords in hopes of helping me recall my dreams when I get back.

Dead puppy; nursing mom who was here but not here; exodus; damn building and hearing a large potato :D; CPS; penny in door which served as temporary key; jail; granny's house: rotting fruit, wooden sword, a marble knickknack (lighthouse ?), pizza, kids playing.

I had a hard time remember that much. There's almost no hope I'll remember what it all means when I get back lol But I'll try. ]]> Zhaylin http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/quickie-14962/ http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/poo-14942/ Sun, 20 Mar 2011 10:40:50 GMT I feel like poo. No, actually, I feel like I'm pregnant and having morning sickness. Pregnancy isn't possible though, lol, so I probably have the flu.
I went to sleep at around midnight and woke on my own at 6AM There's a HORRIBLE kink in my neck. I need to remember to pump my mattress up some today. I should also pack away the stupid pillows. I'm beginning to remember why I've never before used the things for some 36 years :lol:

I only recall fragments, but my dreams were pretty epic.
I recall being on an island. In hindsight, it was shaped an awful lot like the moon (which I watched before going to bed :)) A woman lived there who was some sort of unofficial Queen of the realm. She wasn't allowed to remarry though, so she was adopting some children (and puppies), for one to become her heir. Humorously, she was also a factory worker and she had to hurry off before she was late.

There were untold riches hidden on the island- which is how we met (and how the dream actually began- I always seem to remember my dreams out of order). Her guards were gauging my worth and at one time, sent me away. But I had one of my men-at-arms follow him through the rain into some sort of tunnel (a throughway) which was filling with water. They were all riding horses and I was struck by how the water looked as it lapped the horses flanks. (I became my man-at-arms, temporarily, when he left "my" side). The speech was spectacular and I wish I recall it. In any case, the troop came back to me and I was accepted as one of them.

I had adopted a daughter at some point. The Queen was interested in having her join the royal family. I was talking to the Queen, singing the praises of my daughter from before I adopted her at the age of 4.
The dream had a flashback of seeing the child playing on the ocean. She was writing in the sand "DJ" so that's what I named her (though I SAW "Denverway" on the birth certificate).

There's a lot more to the dreams, but I'm having a hard time with recall because I think I"m about to be sick :( ]]> Zhaylin http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/poo-14942/ http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/nap-fragments-14908/ Sat, 19 Mar 2011 16:27:34 GMT Went back to bed at 10AM, slept till noon. I remember dreaming about my birds. I was cleaning their cage and adding things to it, like a fan on... Went back to bed at 10AM, slept till noon.

I remember dreaming about my birds. I was cleaning their cage and adding things to it, like a fan on the bottom. My birds were on the floor, and they walked to a blanket that was draped on the floor. Then my kids came into my room and left the bathroom door open. Scroungie came in but I forgot about the cat for a moment and when I remembered I freaked out, looking for him. I finally found the cat, hidden under the blanket as well. The birds were fine.
I went to put my cockateils back in their cage, but it fell apart.

>>I had that dream because I cleaned out my birds cage last night before bed. I changed the location of a shelf/box on my wall outside the cage but Vlashki (the male) doesn't seem to like the change.

I dreamed something about walking, about going to some class and walking from WV to California in 3 weeks. There was something about a killer, but I've forgotten. ]]> Zhaylin http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/nap-fragments-14908/ http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/more-fragments-14894/ Sat, 19 Mar 2011 11:03:08 GMT I went to sleep at around midnight and woke for the last time at 6:30AM.
I didn't sleep well. I sweat a lot, then froze, then sweat lol. THen I laid on my ear too long and woke up in agony (why the heck does the happen? I'm the only person I know who has ever had that complaint!) It's the outside of my ear that always hurts. Then I finally woke up thinking one of the dogs was crying, but it was just my nose whistling lol

I don't recall too much of my dreams.
What I remember most is of being with my parents. They didn't want me hanging out with someone, so I was sneaking, but then I'd be gone too long and get yelled at. I walked a lot in the dream. One house I went to sold trinkets and mystery packages (like gaming cards) that had sexy stickers and whatnot inside them.
One of my kids came along and tore up the place so I was kicked out.
At some point, I was at an outside wedding. It was at a beach and I found some nice rocks on a beach. When I tried picking up a piece that was green but looked like tigers eye, someone else grabbed it.
Then, on Oriental boy of about 4 ran to a woman holding his crotch because he had to pee :lol:
I was with hubby and we followed the boy and his nurse inside. Hubby wanted a drink. The first place was off limits so we went to the next door.

That's all I recall.

>>I dreamed of my parents because I spoke with them before going to sleep. I dreamed of sneaking off to see someone because I snuck off to see someone last night, close to bed time (hubby's uncomfortable with me having friends, but someone we gave two puppies to had to give them back to us for awhile, so when I went to pick them up we chatted for a few minutes, then I worried hubby would be all grumbly wondering what took me so long to get a soda :roll:)

Don't know what the bit about the trinkets or rock meant. If I remembered more of the dream, it would help.

The fact that the boy was Oriental came from a conversation I had with my oldest son. I LOVE playing FaceBook Zuma. One of my "friends" scores over a million whereas I've only reached 1 m once! My son was picking on me, calling me a looser because I couldn't beat her, so I shrugged my shoulders and said "She's Oriental". My son was SUPER shocked because I never say such things and he said: "MOM! Now you're starting to sound like Myles" (my 16 yo who is sadly and strangely prejudice/sexist/racist/etc) So I said "What? Orientals rule at everything. She's just naturally better than me." Son then said, "Yeah, Americans naturally suck at everything."
The fact the boy was holding himself probably indicated I had to pee :D

That's it. ]]> Zhaylin http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/more-fragments-14894/ http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/grrr-14875/ Fri, 18 Mar 2011 21:44:17 GMT I slept for about 4 hours. I woke several times with a pounding pulse and scared out of my mind. Don't recall why though.
I always fell right back to sleep though. I woke a few times to "Zone 1... zone 4". I remember the alarms integrated themselves into my dreams, but I don't recall how.
I do recall one dream where I was trying to get $500. from hubby but I kept missing him.
That dream resulted from my wanting to get the money from hubby before 3PM but he was out all day looking for lawyers.

That's it, unfortunately. ]]> Zhaylin http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/grrr-14875/ http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/fragments-14849/ Fri, 18 Mar 2011 08:45:28 GMT I managed to actually stay awake for 8 hours before taking 50 mg Seroquel and falling asleep. When I first fell asleep this afternoon I was... I managed to actually stay awake for 8 hours before taking 50 mg Seroquel and falling asleep.

When I first fell asleep this afternoon I was dreaming that my 16 yo son was having an affair with a 4th grade teacher. I was very angry with her and was about to have her arrested. Alarms were going off "zone 1... zone 1..." but what woke me was my computer ringing VERY faintly as my hubby called.
The dog was loose and was setting off the perimeter alarm, but I was so out of it, it didn't wake me, though the monitor for the alarm was turned up and right beside my head :D
The volume on the computer was turned WAY down, but it woke me when hubby called asking what was setting off the alarm :D
My 16 yo son told me then the dog had gotten loose. When I told him my dream, he cursed me and asked why he couldn't have dreams like that :lol:

My stomach hurt a great deal, so I went back to bed.
I fell right back to sleep and didn't wake again until 2:30AM.
All I can recall from those dreams is being shot, having a large wound on my stomach and right leg. The leg was worse and had buckshot throughout it. I wanted to tell someone, but I had been threatened to keep my mouth shut.
I had to go to school (college) and I kept trying to hide the wounds. I was choosing my courses and decided to take weaving even though crocheting would have been better.

There was something about the layered world again and pictures. I had taken some pictures for a friend of one of my daughters. They wondered when they were going to get their money and I was very annoyed. Each picture took $3.00 to develop and I wondered why I was giving the person money for my work.

That's it. ]]> Zhaylin http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/fragments-14849/ http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/surprise-surprise-14807/ Thu, 17 Mar 2011 08:59:14 GMT After my last entry, I took 400 mg Caffeine, went to the store, came home and spoke to hubby on the phone for an hour, and then I fell... YEP... and... After my last entry, I took 400 mg Caffeine, went to the store, came home and spoke to hubby on the phone for an hour, and then I fell... YEP... and then I fell right back to sleep.
For awhile, I kept waking up every few minutes and then drifting back out.

THe dream I had was a strange one. The only DC who was a real person was my Uncle Troy.
At first, I was gathering ingredients for making pizza. A local Food Lion was giving away free food samples if you had a store card, so I kept going there. I told friends and relatives about the deal, so they started showing up.
The dream somehow became my FB game City of WOnder and it was oddly and literally a layered world.
It's hard to recall the beginning part of the dream. I was gathering supplies and buying and selling things with my neighbors. I was fortifying and upgrading troops. At some point, I was climbing a wall with another person or 2 (?) and we went forward in time. All I recall is seeing a dragon on one level and warriors battling one another. I couldn't access one area, so I looked for some way down. Behind the wall were rungs and at one spot, a tunneled type section going down. I went through it and was blasted by fire. I lost a bunch of hit points lol then braced between sections which were cemented as another blast came.
I eventually made it out and back to the "real world" where I continued gathering ingredients for some pizza.
I went to family members but a few of them shunned me because of my children. This real world was layered as well and also like some huge trailer park. My Uncles children were mean to mine, so he sent them to sit in the car. But his wife treated me meanly even though I made cookies for her younger children.
Alcohol came into play somehow, but I no longer remember.

I woke up, went to the restroom, and as I type this, I can barely keep my eyes open. The feeling that I am trapped in a dream is as strong as ever. Maybe I'm finally having an emotional/mental breakdown or something lol
At any rate, most of the last dream was inspired by playing City of Wonder right before I fell to sleep. There's a new Workshop building that allows you to gather supplies from your neighbors to create "unique" buildings.
I think I may leave and walk around Wal-mart for an hour or so, so I can be sure to be awake to wake my kids up for school. If I stay home I'm just going to go right back to sleep.
How the hell is it possible to sleep as much I have been and yet still be SO tired? ]]> Zhaylin http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/surprise-surprise-14807/ http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/stripping-14799/ Thu, 17 Mar 2011 02:22:15 GMT Blah. I went right back to sleep after my last entry and I just woke up. I dreamed I was at a large club. Anyone could dance on a pole if they... Blah. I went right back to sleep after my last entry and I just woke up.

I dreamed I was at a large club. Anyone could dance on a pole if they paid the boss $4.00 But when I tried I couldn't get a movie to exit and my song "It Can't Rain all the Time" to load. Then some kids showed up and got to play on the pole and I was kind of hacked off because I really wanted to use it.
I was wearing some sort of old gown and the whole atmosphere was 1800-something.
Someone went missing and I tried to help search for them.
A friend had recently given birth and the baby was adorable (but much too small). She asked when I was going to have another kid and I said it was bound to be soon.
Then I went to the restroom and stayed there for 2 hours. There was a little girl with her mom in the bathroom. She kept trying to put on blush. I put on some foundation and other makeup but it wouldn't spread correctly and I kept trying to wipe and wash it off. When I came out, hubby was waiting and severely ticked.
Then the dream changed and my kids came into my room and were standing near my bed. They said the ran into my hubby who was worried I was sleeping so much, so he was coming over to check on me, just to make sure I was alright.
My house is dirty and I do everything to keep hubby in his house, so I woke right up lol

Now I need to go to the store. ]]> Zhaylin http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/stripping-14799/ http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/dogs-daughter-14794/ Wed, 16 Mar 2011 22:26:33 GMT I am sleeping incredibly too much. I took 50 mg Seroquel and 200 mg Caffeine before going before the Magistrate at 10:15 this morning. When I got... I am sleeping incredibly too much. I took 50 mg Seroquel and 200 mg Caffeine before going before the Magistrate at 10:15 this morning.
When I got home at around 11:30 I was so stinking sleepy that I took another 200 mg Caffeine. By 12:30, I gave up and laid back down. I fell asleep right away.

My dreams started off sort of strange. I was in some sort of large garage/house, though I left several times with my ex-hubby. I was assembling a video game and was looking for pictures from nature to integrate. A lot of the images came from clouds, but I traveled islands of the world which looked more fantasy than real and I found many clues about my quest.

I was assembling all the data at the garage/house. Downstairs, some man was reclining in a chair with his head out a window. He seemed annoyed, at first, by my ex and I talking. THen 5 pitbulls got loose. They were being kept somewhere downstairs by the owner, bt a door had been left open. Ex, guy and I tried rounding them all up to put back. I was afraid of them at first, but they were giant pussycats.
The guy said he had to leave soon because the dogs were setting off his allergies. Then he wondered aloud why his own dog doesn't both him.
In some wide, open area a guy was laying down holding layers upon layers of wood paneling above his chest. The dogs were under the wood, surrounding him, laying down with him, but the weight was too much and his grip kept slipping. I thought they'd all be squashed.

Then the dream changed somewhat and as I was assembling the game (or whatever it was), I found a webpage by my 15 yo daughter. Strangers were concerned and told me to get ahold of her regarding some of the info she posted.
But then I was beside her. We spoke about her goals and she wanted to work at some particular restaurant. At first I was against it and I told her she would never be hired because she's too young to serve alcohol. But then our roles were reversed and I explained her age didn't matter because the company could have another person sell such beverages. Then I tried explaining I wouldn't be able to visit her because my license was suspended.

At some point, I was in a tunnel and a great crowd was passing. At the end, I noticed some in the crowd were holding up a coffin. THen I noticed a suspicious character and right before a bomb went off two officers shielded my ex and I.

I woke up to my phone ringing. My 15 yo was calling me :D I had to repeat everything I had told her in the dream lol.
My license HAS been suspended since January for failure to pay Court Fines.

I've been awake now for almost an hour and I'm still so sleepy I can barely keep my eyes open. WTH? It's been like this for a couple of days now. I feel like I'm still dreaming- in fact, it feels like I'm stuck in a dream that I need to fall asleep in, in order to wake up. The world goes so slowly. I just cannot keep my eyes open.
It's actually pretty freaky. ]]> Zhaylin http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/dogs-daughter-14794/ http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/sadness-abounds-14760/ Wed, 16 Mar 2011 07:20:55 GMT I laid down after a bath some time after midnight and I woke (grudgingly) at 2:25AM. I slept at a bad angle with the lights on. They were all... I laid down after a bath some time after midnight and I woke (grudgingly) at 2:25AM. I slept at a bad angle with the lights on.

They were all horrible, horrible dreams.
Rabbits was the main theme as was delinquent behavior from my children.

I was living in a large house. I decided to reclaim one part of it for myself because the kids had thoroughly destroyed it and they had too much access to come and go as they pleased. The area was almost square shaped, but divided into 4 sections. At the bottom of the square was one bedroom. My 15 yo daughter was hanging out with a much older guy (19-22 or so). Every time I tried asking questions, he acted grossed out, as if I was hitting on him. That bottom room was my daughters.
Above it, to the left, was a door to the outside and a stairway to the attic. To the right was another room, though small. At the top of the square was another bedroom- unclaimed and used as storage for the most part.

The dream began as drama from my daughter. She wanted me (expected me) to drive her here and there, but I told her she HAD to get back to the shelter NOW or else she'd get into even more trouble. It dragged out for awhile, as I was trying to clean messes and piece together broken furniture and torn papers.
Then I go back to the room that was actually mine and looked like mine IRL. At some point, I acquired 4 or so rabbits. I kept yelling at my kids and scurrying after them to close all the doors and windows so the cats and dogs wouldn't eat the rabbits. I was late a couple of times. A larger bunny laid in halves at the entrance to the door. The cats started the job but the dogs were trying to finish it off. The rabbit was reddish colored with the sweetest disposition. There was nothing we could do for it, so my oldest son carried it outside so the animals could finish their meal and the rabbit wouldn't have died in vain.
But when I got back to the room, Brooklynn (dog) had a teensy bunny in her mouth. I wrestled with her and eventually pried her jaws open, but not before I heard a very loud crunch as the babies skull was penetrated.

At that point, I left. I laid the baby with its family and started changing rooms again. My oldest son said he thought the bunny would be okay, but it sat up at one time and blood gushed everywhere.
I was enraged and very sad.
I grab the rabbits container and carry it to the new room. 15 year old daughters guy friend had to make a phone call. There was a devise on the wall- like a network box for computer cables with a little plastic applicator that looked like large tweezers, which he was using to place the call.
While he did that, I transfered the rabbits into 2 larger containers, but later realized the containers were full of water. I dumped them and the rabbits poured out. I quickly tried to gather them, but the littlest one (with her head chewed) was absolutely nowhere to be found. I focused on the others. They then resembled stick figured dolls with absurdly long feet and legs which could twist around each other.
I did infant CPR on a couple of them then put them up to my ear to listen for breath sounds. They were going to live.
The cats and dogs kept breaching the perimeter and I was majorly stressed, trying to figure out how to keep them out. One of the main doors was broken, so I tried coming up with a way to jamb it shut.
I became increasingly enraged as I took in the extent of the damage. Many things were broken beyond recognition and almost all of it was my stuff- useful items as well as keepsakes from my past (not IRL though)

I was griping about everything my kids were doing, I hated the other animals and eventually, I woke up in pain over my neck.

Two other dreams occurred alongside the above. In one, people were getting in trouble for stealing electricity. They'd be in power wheelchairs or other electric-powered vehicle. They'd approach people and ask for just a little electricity to help them get home. But it was some sort of scam and the government was getting hard on the thieves. I thought the law was silly because so long as I paid for the power, what did it matter where the power went.

In the other side dream, someone was murdered in the large house and I was tracking the killer down. I found a mattress and when I moved it, it fell apart from underneath. One of my kids had started a fire and used the mattress to drown the fire.


That's all I can remember at this point. Some aspects were triggered by movies I watched throughout the day as well as an annoying phone call I received from my 15 yo daughter while shopping earlier this evening. ]]> Zhaylin http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/sadness-abounds-14760/ http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/let-rage-begin-14752/ Wed, 16 Mar 2011 01:02:40 GMT My children tick me the hell off so flipping bad. 'A woman I babysit for just offered to let me move in' (says my 14 yo daughter) 'Just think about it. At least then I'd go to school.'
WTF?! Here or there, what the hell makes the difference. She needs to get her ass to school either way.

Anyhow... I slept from 5:30-7 and my anger was very apparent in my dreams. I woke up (was probably SP) because I had a STRONG demonic presence that was very oppressive in its strength and persistence. The dream was the same old lame one, but with an angry twist. I was trying to find all these goods to market but stuff kept getting in the way. I was the young boy again in the dream.
I wish I could recall more, but hubby woke me up by ringing my computer. I picked up my allowance then drove to Goodwill half asleep. The dream quickly faded from mind. ]]> Zhaylin http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/let-rage-begin-14752/ http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/names-14735/ Tue, 15 Mar 2011 17:59:58 GMT At around noon, I decided to take a hot bath and sleep for awhile. My daughter lost the bathtub stopper, so I stuffed a bandanna in the drain. I... At around noon, I decided to take a hot bath and sleep for awhile. My daughter lost the bathtub stopper, so I stuffed a bandanna in the drain.
I fell right to sleep, woke up, turned the water off, went back to sleep. I woke almost an hour later with my hands painfully pruned lol
Then I had a minor temper tantrum because I didn't have any hot water in the tank, my bath was half empty and I wanted to go back to sleep for awhile.
God only knows why though.
I fell right back into the same lame dreams I had last night.

I spent the majority of the dream harvesting trees and crops, but then I became a kid and was being taught the trade by an adult (?) I was a young boy.
That's all I really remember, except the interesting thing is I woke up with 2 names fixed in my brain: Anika Anicia.
I googled them and Anika means "sweet faced" and is Hausa (West African) in origin.

I've had no success with Anicia (uh-knee-see-uh). ]]> Zhaylin http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/names-14735/ http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/lame-14720/ Tue, 15 Mar 2011 10:29:10 GMT I watched an intensely "scary" and gross movie before going to sleep last night. I thought, for sure, I would have some awesome dreams because of it. Nope. The dreams were all lame. They were so lame, in fact, I kept waking up telling myself how much they sucked "lol:
I have forgotten most of the dreams as a result.

I was farming throughout a lot of the dreams- harvesting trees and plants. The whole world was walled in (inspired by "Monsters"). There was some drama about obtaining seeds and selling the goods, but it wasn't memorable.
In a side dream, I watched a video of my husband kicking something as part of a contest when he was younger. After the contest, he removed his shoes and the arch of his foot looked like the foot of a corpse. He later said he had a bad reaction to some green bean juice he spilled on his feet :roll:


I took no Seroquel last night/yesterday. I actually slept pretty restfully though I woke frequently because my dreams sucked and because I kept getting too hot.

The dreams were inspired, mostly, by my Facebook Games addiction. I harvested my Farmville AND my Fantasy Kingdoms right before going to bed. ]]> Zhaylin http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/lame-14720/ http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/strangely-emotionless-14687/ Mon, 14 Mar 2011 10:34:32 GMT I don't know when I went to bed. I took 50 mg Seroquel and crashed quickly and early.
I slept almost completely soundly throughout the night.

I had a lot of dreams that *should* have been emotional, but they weren't.
In one dream, I fought off hordes of what appeared to be zombies- only they were alive and very fast. I needed to be in their town for some sort of cure that was found in "animals" near a beach. Once I made it to the beach- with reluctant help from some guy, I had to cut the living critters open. I needed a womb, an embryo and a couple different sugars. I killed 2 but couldn't find the sugars (which looked like pills lol). I knew I should've been sad, but I was just angry.

In another dream, I was some random female DC and my father was suicidal. I went on some sort of journey and literally had to put my house in order before I left. I didn't want him going through old boxes even though he was a scientist and needed them for his research.

At some point, in some dream, I had to turn on water (Thanks "Rango"). It was originally a cactus that looked like a statue of a man. One time I scaled it and got thorns stuck throughout me. Another time, I was happy to see all the needles had been removed.
My old JW friends, Rox and Zac were my neighbors. I was trying to clean my yard because I kept my rabbit out there. I don't remember much about this dream, but this was one which should have been emotional. A kid was kidnapped (?) and had to go through lots of trials and tests. I tried to help him escape back to family, but his kidnappers were too influential.

There was also some dream where my oldest son was being emotionally mistreated. He saw a girl eating spaghetti and told her she had a strand hanging down. She called him a fat pig and said she wanted nothing to do with him. Someone was arguing about how fattening milk ISN'T and I butt it to tell them otherwise. I explained how my oldest son never drank soda or tea while growing up. He didn't have junk food. He became obese simply because of drinking too much milk (none of which is true in real life lol).
Then, some boy was using my youngest daughter. He was giving her a hamster if she went along with what he said (?) but in the end she couldn't do it. He gave some riddle: "What does 1, 1, 2, 2, 3, 3... mean?" People laughed at him (?) and said they wanted to choose 9,9 (which wasn't an option). The answer was "the days of the week".

At some point, I had to wrestle creatures for some sort of artifact. I ripped a monocle off a dog while stabbing it in the neck. The dog was confused and saddened by the treatment. I knew I should be sad, but I was numb. As I hurried in trying to finish the creature, his mate returned from her rounds of the property. We wrestled and struggled for her blade and then I woke up.

My anger hasn't dissipated any. I woke up feeling rage threaten to surface.
I'm seriously getting on my own last nerve. ]]> Zhaylin http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/strangely-emotionless-14687/ http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/grrrr-14669/ Sun, 13 Mar 2011 21:18:48 GMT After I wrote my last entry I fell back to sleep and didn't wake up until 3:30! I couldn't believe how late it was.
Hubby called as I was putting my night shirt on (I sleep nude). I arranged to pick up $50. then I left right away. Which sucks because I had an awesomely epic dream.

All I really recall of it was creatures and watery passages. I watched a show called Primal yesterday that featured caves and a watery passage. And before I went to sleep, I started watching a show called Monsters that had octopus looking aliens floating in the sky.
Both those movies appeared in the dream in one fashion or another.

Toward the end of the dream, I was trying to catch smaller alien creatures. Sometimes they looked like fish, other times they were furry-ish. I was capturing them with my ex-husband.
There was a baby in the dream at some point. I was teaching it about the history of the family and showing it how to swim from one passage to another. Opening certain latches would cause water pressure to build in other areas. There was a feud going on over one of the houses connected by the passages.

I really wish I had taken the time to record these.
Oh well... ]]> Zhaylin http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/grrrr-14669/ http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/odd-upsetting-14640/ Sun, 13 Mar 2011 10:41:21 GMT U took 100 mg Seroquel at aroun pPM and I crashed by 11. I woke up once to my 18 year old trying to get smokes from me. Apparently, he and his sis... U took 100 mg Seroquel at aroun pPM and I crashed by 11. I woke up once to my 18 year old trying to get smokes from me. Apparently, he and his sis were cleaning. I keep them under my mattress so I got him one. he wanted me to see the progress but I was too out of it.

I don't recall the whole of the stories of my dreams

I had broken my wrist [Thnkas "Royal Pains"] and I was trying to scam a brace off someone. I was a younng guy in this dream. My mom eventually got one for me. It was a large, so when no one looked, I switched it out for a small.
After a drawn out story line which I've forgotten, my brother calls me out. I briefly became a girl for a sex scene.
My brother chased me to the ocean. We struggled for awhile. I thought I would drown but then I was swept up by both my brother and the current. Fish kept nibbling at my flesh and I wondered why my brother wasn't affected. He rode the waves as though he had a surfboard, then surfed the surface of the shore, still dragging me through the water. We nearly knocked down a random DC while flying by.

Then the dream merged into an earlier version. I was tring to make Jehovah's Witnesses extinct for some reason. I looked for incriminating files. I was supposedly helping the couple but I was just using them for accesss. The man couldn't take it anymore, so he climber on top of a tower and planned to jump to his death. His wife was already all but dead from the shock (they were very elderly). I told my mm I could carry her to the top and have her "jump" with her husband.
While waiting for the perfect chance, I saw her ion a bench with my mom and placed some bottle of booze in her hand.

That's all I recall/. I woke drenched in sweat, ]]> Zhaylin http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/odd-upsetting-14640/ http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/awesomeness-14590/ Sat, 12 Mar 2011 06:21:25 GMT I took 100 mg Seroquel and went back to sleep from around 4PM-1AM My memory of this awesome dream is quickly fading. I was in a jungle (?) ... I took 100 mg Seroquel and went back to sleep from around 4PM-1AM
My memory of this awesome dream is quickly fading.

I was in a jungle (?) Something was loose that was killing people. I found a couple dead bodies and they looked really gross because limbs and flesh were missing in some, others were bloated and oddly decayed.
Another dream paralleled this one. It was some sort of beauty/intelligence contest. There was an obstacle course that spanned a lot of ground. There were hurdles and strange natural elevators. I found the bodies during the contest. One woman was able teleport because of her trauma. I hugged her as we jumped through our current location during different times. It was always a place of great sorrow, being a bunker in several wars.
She was captured at some point, as people wondered how she could do what she did. I found her again and began force feeding her. I thought her ability was triggered as some sort of subconscious nurturing mechanism.
It worked.
Rabbits and insects were part of the various scenes, but I don't recall how they fit in.

Then the dream changed and I was a mentor. The location was the same- some forested island were bad things were happening. Some kid was receiving a scholarship to a school of his choosing. S/He (the gender kept changing from scene to scene lol) wanted some place in Georgia and when I asked why, he wanted to go there because the desks were the same and there was also some sort of outside fountain. I said he couldn't choose a place based on that info.
When he got on stage, a mayor or somesuch offered him Hawaii but he asked for Georgia. Because it would have been cheeper, she agreed.
But the dream fast forwarded and I was checking up on the kid who went to Hawaii after all (Hawaii became the place with the specific desks). She was a little upset for being there. They didn't have her desk but there were nude works of art everywhere which made her uncomfortable. She met a guy though, who cut her hair, so she was accepting her lot.

I also vaguely recall something about a beauty competition and being late for it. And once, during teleportation, we landed at a mine where women brutally worked other women. We eventually helped them escape.
That's it.

Now, I need a soda lol. I'll be up for a couple hours, then I'm going to crash again. Gotta love sleep and dreams as a means to escape my sorry life :) ]]> Zhaylin http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/awesomeness-14590/ http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/muliples-14566/ Fri, 11 Mar 2011 17:01:06 GMT I fell back to sleep at around 5AM and woke at 11AM In one dream, I was walking through some woods with my mom. She became exhausted, so I... I fell back to sleep at around 5AM and woke at 11AM

In one dream, I was walking through some woods with my mom. She became exhausted, so I carried her for 3 miles. Deer kept jumping off cliffs, but didn't die. One deer was very curious looking- it's fur and coloring was like that of a white rabbit with a black circle around its eye.
Just as I was getting too tired to go on, we made it out to where the adventure had begun. There was a McD's nearby, so we went inside. They sold pizza lol.. My mom went right away to a booth. I went to the Soda machine to get a glass of Coke. It came out almost clear, like Sprite. I tasted it, but it was flavorless, so I dumped it and tried again. It was still yucky so I did without and went looking for my mom.
I almost cried when I realized our walking wasn't over yet. There was so much further to go before we were actually home. I thought about calling my dad to rescue us, but the dream changed.

BEFORE the walk, I was with my grandmother in a store. I was eating a hard boiled egg in the checkout lane and the cashier got onto me about it. But grams knew her and they started talking. As we bagged our items, I asked if I was hallucinating lol I told her something about 12 years and the fact I never heard about the cashier (who was a random DC). We had spoken briefly about my bio dad who I then saw trapped in a snow bank which lead to the dream of me walking through the woods with my mom.

At some point in time, I dreamed I was in a car with many people. I was in an unknown neighborhood. I was stuck in an awesome dream loop where the dream kept repeating itself at certain spots. The group I was with wanted some rare book from one of their mothers husband and boyfriends. Every time we messed up in obtaining it and/or getting away, the dream would begin again from the point of our arrival at the property. This was one of my earliest dreams. I forget the details because I was woken up mulitple times since I had it. All I truly recall is that is was amazingly bizarre.

At another point, I dreamed of drawing a picture and writing a poem. I was outside for most of it. On a piece of (grrr what's it called- the large "paper" used in school for projects/presentations) large project paper, were 2 boxes at the top and three below it. The middle one at the bottom was larger than the others, but in the dream, the boxes were still somehow equal in arrangement. In that center place, I was drawing a picture. The picture was of a boy and trees. That's all I recall. I remember liking the poem, but I can no longer remember it.
At one point, I was near an actual tree and a boy was drawn/etched into the bark. Someone said it looked like "Jonny" and I said that's who it started out as being- a little stick figure person someone recommended I draw.

I also dreamed of building a house in the woods. It was at the edge of a cliff on a very high point. I loved the house and the dream, but I've forgotten almost everything about it. I found a piece of cardboard, lol, at one point, that I thought would be a perfect window because of its shape.

The last dream I had before waking was the most disturbing. It started out as a carnival seen through the first dream I wrote about, while waiting at McD's. Then the dream zoomed onto one of the floats. It was like a giant puppet show where artists controlled the scene with wires and cloth. The were on each others shoulders like a cheerleading act though.
It was snowing and the police were called. A wheelchair was added to the side of a police cruiser as if a sidecar on a motorcycle. One of the artists became suspicious because no one in a wheelchair would ever come to this particular carnival. There were way too many hills.
From there, the dream went to murder scenes. I saw inside one woman's throat. She was giving oral sex when she died. Her throat was just a slit from the inside.
A witness was found, but she was a foreigner and I couldn't understand her. Somehow, we learned some man had killed his own daughter in the sex trade.
I was some woman (?)- a cop investigating the murders. I was at a carnival game where you throw darts to pop balloons. It was a scam where the owner called forth a challenger and you had to beat the challenger. We had the same number of darts but she was supposed to falling-over drunk. A fight began somehow and I knocked a light out with a pole. It was supposed to have been an accident, but i gave myself up as a cop because the guy saw through my act. We fought briefly on the ground, mostly with poles, but then we were then on top of the game. His leg got trapped and he fell over. I held one part of a pole that trapped his leg. He wanted me to let go so he could fall to his death. Instead, I gently lowered him to the ground where he was apprehended.

>>Most of these dreams were random. They came from things I spoke about or watched on TV before falling asleep.
Certain recurring themes, though, are things I'll have to think about: Cliffs, fathers.
I dreamed so often of snow because hubby told me it was sleeting/snowing right before I fell asleep. ]]> Zhaylin http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/muliples-14566/ http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/grrrr-14553/ Fri, 11 Mar 2011 07:32:14 GMT I had a VERY emotional day which reflected itself in my dream. I took 150 mg Seroquel so I could sleep and avoid the world for the day, but they... I had a VERY emotional day which reflected itself in my dream.
I took 150 mg Seroquel so I could sleep and avoid the world for the day, but they didn't kick in fast enough. I fell asleep at around 3PM and woke in a SUPER crabby mood at 1 AM.
Before sleeping, I gave myself a heart tattoo on my right leg and gave in to some other self injurious behavior.
I only recall snippets of dreams though.

In one, my youngest daughter found a diary entry about how picking my face is the only thing that makes me feel good and she cried and jumped all over me for my behavior.
>> When I'm super irrational I want to disfigure myself. I never do though. My face is off limits, but the thought alone triggered the dream.

In another dream, I lost my car. I had been driving it and the vehicle was completely unresponsive. I tried driving straight, and it did donuts. It was very scary. I managed to park it somewhere and I went off for a carnival or something. But then I couldn't remember where it was parked. I enlisted the help of some people and though I've forgotten the specifics, most of them were very mad at me.
>>> Driving = how I feel about my life. It's completely out of control and I have no support from the people in my life who are supposed to be trying to help me.

I've entirely forgotten the most emotional dream. All I recall is something about power outlets, walking through a neighborhood, being out of time.

I dreamed something, at some point, about cockroaches again.

My 15 year old daughter was taken from me today, IRL. She went straight from the Judges chambers to a shelter about 4 hours away. As soon as a bed becomes available, she's going to a juvinile facility because of the Kindle she stole last November. The State is going to be back in my life because of the incident and I think I would rather die than have to deal with them again. I'm giving my gun to my hubby later today for him to hold on to. I'm not suicidal though. Not yet anyhow.
When I woke, I had no Coke's in the fridge and my bedroom light blew. I started crying and cussing lol. The kids hadn't done their chores. I have no bulbs to brighten my room.
What a perfect start to a shitty day. ]]> Zhaylin http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/grrrr-14553/ http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/staves-14510/ Thu, 10 Mar 2011 06:28:32 GMT I went to sleep at around 10:30 AM and woke at 7:30PM. The only things I recall about my dream are flying too close to the sun and fighting with... I went to sleep at around 10:30 AM and woke at 7:30PM.
The only things I recall about my dream are flying too close to the sun and fighting with staves.
While fighting with the staff, it started out as a serious, life or death battle. But then it became a lesson. My staff was short and hooked at one end. Eventually, I switched to a bigger one, yet it was more unwieldy and shaped like a branch with knots and a couple twists.
I kept thinking about flying away from the battle and at one point I did. But I flew out of control and got too close to the sun. It wasn't hot, just bright to point of being painful. I told myself "down" and made the hand gesture and eventually I lowered.
I was fighting in a garden area. There were signs posted about someone stealing the carrot crop.
That's it.

I think playing Fantasy Kingdoms on Facebook and Dragon Quest on the DSi before going to sleep inspired the dreams. The only part I'm uncertain about is the bit about the sun.

In yesterday's dream, I figured out what the lighter meant. It's nothing serious :) I only want some hot, passionate sex :lol:

I will most likely be awake until day after tomorrow. I have court twice tomorrow- once in the morning, once in the afternoon.
I'm resorting to self-injury to help deal with the stress of it all. I'm surprised my dreams haven't reflected that yet. ]]> Zhaylin http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/staves-14510/ http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/strange-sex-14465/ Wed, 09 Mar 2011 01:21:40 GMT I had strange symbolic sexual dreams during a nap. I was trying to masturbate, but kept getting interrupted. And scenes were flashing of... I had strange symbolic sexual dreams during a nap.

I was trying to masturbate, but kept getting interrupted. And scenes were flashing of gardening and robots lol. In the gardening scenes, I couldn't dig deep enough. With the robot scenes, I was raped and the robot was too large. Then the robot story took off on it's own but I forget the gist of the story, other than someone was raped and another girl went for help. We were on an alien planet and the people who could help save her friend wouldn't even talk to her at first. Some young woman was hiding in a cabinet.

Then the dream went back to me trying to masturbate only this time, I had a lighter. I don't even want to know what I was trying to do with that thing lol.
I was interrupted again by a commotion at my hubby's new garage. I went outside to see it had been broken into. My kids had painted the walls, which actually looked really nice. But in doing so, they accidentally broke a window as well as rectangular glass panels on an antique dresser. I knew who did it, but hubby hadn't figured it out yet and I was worried he would.
Then a couple of neighbors came over. They had kids with them, but they were well behaved. I kept trying to figure out how to clean mud and water out of some item. The grandmother of the neighbors went back to her house and brought me back and nasal syringe (those little plastic suction thingies used to clean out babies noses).
A couple more neighbors came over and my mom was one of them. People were leaving the garage to talk, but my mom hung back. I told her to go outside and make some friends.
The kids saw 3 roaches and I kept trying to point them out to someone else to catch. One of them flew off and scared one of the kids nearly to death and I started laughing, saying "that's what they do".
I was on a couch covered up throughout most of the dream sequences lol. The couch seemed to move wherever I went.

At some point, I also dreamed of traveling in the RV. An arm from a chair fell off when someone braked hard. I kept trying to put it back on but it was made of metal and had a joint in a weird location. I eventually snapped it back on but then it looked strange.
Outside of some house, I found a bunch of cats and kittens. Some of them were demonic and scared me. Others I took. My long lost cat, Rogue, was among them and I snatched him up first.

That's all I recall.

>>>My brain usually knows better than to give me deeply symbolic dreams. Chances are, these themes will continue until I figure out what I'm trying to tell myself. If I stumble across a correct interpretation, the dreams will discontinue.
The outright sex parts are easy enough to figure out. I have needs lol, but I also have 4 kids and an uninterested husband.
The seeds are apparent to me as well. As strange as it is, when having sex I usually don't envision a person or event. I envision caves, a forest, nature scenes. The deeper I go, the closer to orgasm I am :lol: (it's all quite involuntary I assure you)
But where did robots and rape come from?

The garage is easy. It's my hubby's pride and joy. It's bigger than my modular home but it still lacks electricity and inside walls. He bought our perimeter alarm to protect it (one of the homes he uses for storage was recently arsoned).
My kids destroy everything they come in contact with, thus the dream of them destroying it. But what was the significance of the paint and the mirrors? What about the mirrors, the neighbors.

The part of my mom resulted from speaking of her before falling asleep. She has pnumonia (sp).
As for the bit about going out and making friends: I have no friends and neither do I truly want any. But I was thinking on it before falling asleep. I'm a foul weather friend. If someone needs me in some hour of need, I'm there. But when times are good, I fall away into the shadows. Those thoughts triggered that part of the dream.

The suction thingie is easy: my nose is chronically clogged lol
But what about the rest?

I dreamed of the RV because my youngest daughter talked about it yesterday. But why did the arm of the chair fall off. And why was it designed in such a way?
I have no idea why I dreamed of demonic cats lol But I still miss Rogue and no cat dream is complete without him.

That's it.

*EDIT**
Notice I didn't say anything at all about the lighter. Perhaps that's the most important element.
Gotta think about it. ]]> Zhaylin http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/strange-sex-14465/ http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/bad-night-14439/ Tue, 08 Mar 2011 15:58:35 GMT I remember very little about my dreams. Actually, I only recall one snippet now. I ran out of my Celexa and my pdoc is out of town this week, so I... I remember very little about my dreams. Actually, I only recall one snippet now.
I ran out of my Celexa and my pdoc is out of town this week, so I took 100 mg of Seroquel instead. I normally only take 50 mg and sporadically at that, but my anxiety is flairing up, so I took more (I'm prescribed 100 mg but only take 50 because it knocks me out).
I slept for almost an entire day lol.
My kids came in at one point to ask me to drive them somewhere and they quickly realized I was too doped up to drive. I had slept ALL day before they woke me, but I spoke as if drunk and kept falling asleep while talking to them.

I woke for a couple hours last night.

The only snippet I recall was talking religion to someone. They were blaming God for something bad that had happened and I tried explaining that Satan is the cause of the bad, not God. The person's attitude was like "yeah, whatever, sure."

I could go back to sleep now, but I took a caffeine pill to try to stay awake.
No more 100 mg for me no matter how bad the adrenaline flares become lol!!! ]]> Zhaylin http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/bad-night-14439/ http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/rape-14338/ Sun, 06 Mar 2011 23:32:08 GMT I went to bed at around 10AM and woke at 5:30 PM
I don't recall much about my dreams, but one stands out.

I dreamed 2 guys came into the house and my 18 year old son raped one of them. He thought they were intruders but it turned out one of them was a friend. I was appalled by my sons actions. Even if they were intruders I felt he needed counseling and/or jail. But I was more concerned with the friend. As it turned out, my son had attacked him before so he shrugged it off sadly as if it was something he was used to. I tried explaining NO ONE has any right to treat him that way.
That's really all I can remember.

>>>The ONLY thing I can think of that could even possibly have triggered that dream is the fact my 15 year old daughter had a gay friend stay over for a couple of nights. My bedroom connects to the bathroom. They were putting on makeup and dying their hair and coming back and forth between rooms. Once, Jeff (the guy obviously lol) was sitting on my bed when my daughter randomly asked: "Does butt sex hurt." Without thinking, I replied: "Yes." Then Jeff said: "It hurts the first few times." so I quickly added, "Yeah, if you have a gentle partner, there ARE things he can do to make it better."
But why the dream evolved the way it did from that is a mystery.

Bits and pieces of other dreams include:
Running into former religious friends at a gas station.
>> I went to a gas station before bed and ran into the church crowd, which triggered the dream.

I dreamed of a large cockroach that I kept trying to squish and butter that I squeezed for some reason and it resembled a rabbit. I tried to preserve the butter because it looked like a piece of art lol, but when I left for some counseling session it melted.
At the counseling session, there were a lot of angry people. I shut down and shielded myself from the anger for the most part, so that part is lost.
>>>I'm pretty sure I dreamed of the counseling session for 2 reasons. I watched Fairly Legal right before going to sleep. It's a legal show about mediation. Second, last night, my brother-in-law was putting me down as a parent to my 14 year old daughter because both of my daughters are most likely going to a Juvenile Facility for truancy. This is their 4th appearance before the Magistrate. Their last 4 absences were my fault because I was having a rough time with my gallbladder but the rest of the absences are on them. Neither me nor their older brothers can wake them up in the morning. They refuse to go. Now they have to deal with the consequences.

I also dreamed of repeated scenes were I jumped some watery chasm in a vehicle. Only, the vehicle folded down every time and I was able to carry it out of the water :D
>>>No idea :D

And there was a couple dreams about driving through snow in my grams old neighborhood. I'd always lose control at certain curves, but I never crashed.
>>>>It's snowing today after unremembered days of "Spring". I drove in it this morning, thus part of the dream.

I think that's it.

I jumped awake, thinking I was being paged over the perimeter alarm. It plays as musical beeps when hubby's trying to reach me from his house. But it was quiet lol ]]> Zhaylin http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/rape-14338/ http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/another-one-14298/ Sat, 05 Mar 2011 22:19:30 GMT I dreamed I was a factory worker, making boxes. My box kept falling apart at the bottom, and we rounded them using ice lol so the inside kept... I dreamed I was a factory worker, making boxes. My box kept falling apart at the bottom, and we rounded them using ice lol so the inside kept getting soggy.
The dream occurred before the first or second world war.

At some point, I ran away with the female factory boss. We were in love, but it wasn't affectionate. Neither was it "cold". We were just "proper" ladies. I'm not sure when that part of the dream happened, because I barely remember it.

Back at the factory, she exchanged lifts so I could have a smaller surface to work on. I placed my hand on her back momentarily as we walked, but that's all. I was afraid of putting her in a bad spot because she was the boss AND a woman.
There was a paper bag on the floor next to one of the moved lifts. I looked inside and it contained a couple photos and some other odds and ends I've forgotten. I asked if it belonged to this one young man whose lift had been moved. It was his and he took it and I was taken aback by how sad and lost he looked.
I kept trying to get the bosses attention to have her explain what I did wrong with my box, but the dream kept changing. We passed some boxed toys and I admired the craftsmanship. Part of my brain screamed the toys couldn't exist yet, but I shrugged it off to continue the dream.
Higher on the shelf were a couple knickknacks belonging to the boss. We passed them by and she told me the factory was being shut down and she was moving with her family.
Angrily, I grabbed the knickknacks and held them close to my chest.

I went outside to try to wait for her and a kid in a nearby car was crying for her grandmother. I never saw the boss again until much later.

The dream zoomed by, showing my life after her. My dream turned me into a man lol and I joined the military. I saw battle often and trained many soldiers but one day I received a letter about my old boss. She was very sick. I rushed to her side on some remote and frozen island. I found myself in a bar. My old boss was in a long peasants gown, filling orders. She didn't look very well though. In a corner sat her husband. He exchanged words with me and it was unfriendly, but I no longer recall the specifics.

The dream then changed completely and the guys in the bar were my partners in crime. We were planning some sort of rebellion or revolution. Two of the men started fighting with each other and while a black partner passed behind one of them holding up a chair, he was shot through the chair in his eye. He didn't die though. Everyone wanted to flee the scene but I told them we had to take responsibility and explain what had happened.
Cops came, we explained and THEN we fled lol
Then I woke up.

I've been exhausted lately, so I took a 2 hour nap. I'm about to go to Wally World and buy some caffeine pills! I LOVE my dreams, but I can't sleep my life away for them lol
I have no idea why I had those dreams, though certain parts were inspired by watching What Would You Do before falling asleep (the parts about being gay [in the military] and the screaming kid).
The factory bit was inspired by watching a Charlie Chaplin movie "Modern Times" last night.
But why my brain threw it all together in that fashion is a humorous mystery :D ]]> Zhaylin http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/another-one-14298/ http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/another-one-14297/ Sat, 05 Mar 2011 22:19:28 GMT I dreamed I was a factory worker, making boxes. My box kept falling apart at the bottom, and we rounded them using ice lol so the inside kept... I dreamed I was a factory worker, making boxes. My box kept falling apart at the bottom, and we rounded them using ice lol so the inside kept getting soggy.
The dream occurred before the first or second world war.

At some point, I ran away with the female factory boss. We were in love, but it wasn't affectionate. Neither was it "cold". We were just "proper" ladies. I'm not sure when that part of the dream happened, because I barely remember it.

Back at the factory, she exchanged lifts so I could have a smaller surface to work on. I placed my hand on her back momentarily as we walked, but that's all. I was afraid of putting her in a bad spot because she was the boss AND a woman.
There was a paper bag on the floor next to one of the moved lifts. I looked inside and it contained a couple photos and some other odds and ends I've forgotten. I asked if it belonged to this one young man whose lift had been moved. It was his and he took it and I was taken aback by how sad and lost he looked.
I kept trying to get the bosses attention to have her explain what I did wrong with my box, but the dream kept changing. We passed some boxed toys and I admired the craftsmanship. Part of my brain screamed the toys couldn't exist yet, but I shrugged it off to continue the dream.
Higher on the shelf were a couple knickknacks belonging to the boss. We passed them by and she told me the factory was being shut down and she was moving with her family.
Angrily, I grabbed the knickknacks and held them close to my chest.

I went outside to try to wait for her and a kid in a nearby car was crying for her grandmother. I never saw the boss again until much later.

The dream zoomed by, showing my life after her. My dream turned me into a man lol and I joined the military. I saw battle often and trained many soldiers but one day I received a letter about my old boss. She was very sick. I rushed to her side on some remote and frozen island. I found myself in a bar. My old boss was in a long peasants gown, filling orders. She didn't look very well though. In a corner sat her husband. He exchanged words with me and it was unfriendly, but I no longer recall the specifics.

The dream then changed completely and the guys in the bar were my partners in crime. We were planning some sort of rebellion or revolution. Two of the men started fighting with each other and while a black partner passed behind one of them holding up a chair, he was shot through the chair in his eye. He didn't die though. Everyone wanted to flee the scene but I told them we had to take responsibility and explain what had happened.
Cops came, we explained and THEN we fled lol
Then I woke up.

I've been exhausted lately, so I took a 2 hour nap. I'm about to go to Wally World and buy some caffeine pills! I LOVE my dreams, but I can't sleep my life away for them lol
I have no idea why I had those dreams, though certain parts were inspired by watching What Would You Do before falling asleep (the parts about being gay [in the military] and the screaming kid).
The factory bit was inspired by watching a Charlie Chaplin movie "Modern Times" last night.
But why my brain threw it all together in that fashion is a humorous mystery :D ]]> Zhaylin http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/another-one-14297/ http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/oh-boy-14285/ Sat, 05 Mar 2011 19:07:22 GMT I've known for years that I have a crush on my psychiatrist. It's only normal when he's the ONLY person in real life I have to REALLY talk to. I even told him at one point because I was holding back info in fear of making a bad impression. I told him that too.
But some things, I definitely keep to myself :D
Like last night's dream.

In the dream, at some point, we were kissing. He was a sloppy kisser but I still enjoyed it. Then we were lounging on a bed. That's what I enjoy most about these dreams- the physical closeness. At various times, I had my head on his shoulder, his chest, his lap. At one point, I was near his feet and had the crook of my arm around them. I asked myself why I wasn't grossed out (feet tend to be dirty and smelly so I avoid them IRL). I was just soaking up the affection.

Then he gave me an engagement and wedding ring and we ran away to India. He's from Egypt and that's where we were *supposed* to go before the dream decided to change things. I started getting cold feet, thinking of my hubby and children. He said he could drop me off at Paris and send me home, but he'd need his rings back. I decided I didn't want to go home :D
The airplane trip was long and exhausting and the airport was insane. There were people with guns everywhere (not literally, only about 3 but it felt like more). We became separated, and I needed a key card to get to the room. I couldn't remember the room number (our hotel was part of the airport as it usually is in airport dreams). I talked to someone and he asked me lots of questions to verify who I was. I couldn't remember where we were or where we came from. I couldn't remember my doctor's name, though I eventually did I couldn't remember how to spell it. I asked them to just call him and verify everything. Someone eventually took pity on me and did.
But then I couldn't find the room. It was either 3 floors up or down and I kept getting turned around. I was worried because everything important to me was in the room- my money, my DSi, my iPad, clothes, doctor lol etc.
Then I remembered that my mom and her friend were showing up. I was annoyed because no one was supposed to be there with us.
Mom's friend asked if I was in love with my Dr. and I couldn't answer her.

Then the airport became a hospital and I was still lost. Some madman was shooting up the place, hunting others down, but I walked right passed him, mostly unconcerned until he was out of sight. I asked someone where I could go for food, but the directions were too complicated.
"Alert Zone One" "Alert Zone One"

Then I woke up to the stupid perimeter alarm going off. It was around 5:30AM and I was ticked off to have been woken from my dream lol
I went back to sleep until 11, but I don't remember those dreams.

>> Interpretation:
I have a crush on my pdoc lol. I'm starved for affection. But I'm married with children and he's my pdoc, so nothing will ever come of it- which is why there were so many interruptions and interferences.
Am I in love with my pdoc? No. I've never been "in love" with anyone, though I thought I have been a few times. I LOVE deeply, though. I do love my pdoc, but I understand WHY.
As for the airport- I dreamed about that because I'm out of meds and my pdoc is out of town this week on a conference. He always flies.
I don't know why I dreamed of the hospital or the shooters.
I frequently get lost in dreams. I have no sense of direction IRL and in my dreams it's always much worse lol. It's a normal recurring theme though.
I woke up starving, so that's why I dreamed of wanting food. ]]> Zhaylin http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/oh-boy-14285/ http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/strange-14045/ Mon, 28 Feb 2011 07:21:37 GMT I had some really weird dreams last night. I've been having some real doozies lately, but I quickly forget them.

Anyhow, last night, in one dream the face of a man was being sawed off along his mouth. Even though he was quite dead, I could hear his screams inside my head. As the person kept sawing, sand started pouring out of his face. I was more fascinated than mortified/upset.
In another dream, I gave birth to a boy and a girl, one week (or 1 month) apart lol. I kept losing them and forgetting to feed them. They didn't have names or birth certificates yet because I gave birth to them at home. I kept thinking if one of them died, I wouldn't go to jail because no one knew I had them :O But them I found them and never let them leave my side after that. I was going to college so I kept asking my parents to buy me 2 baby carriers because juggling them plus my books was proving impossible.
I was failing one of my classes because I could never find it.

>>Part of that last dream was the result of my youngest daughter complaining about the school not letting them use backpacks. Her shoulders are very lax and it's causing her problems.

I dreamed of a large building, of flying.
Here recently, it's been difficult for me to fly. I can barely leave the ground.
I dreamed of the ocean and people drowning. I dreamed of the beach in winter and secluded trails.

Night before last, I dreamed I was losing my teeth. My upper molars were horribly loose, and when I placed my finger between the tooth and my gum, it was so loose I just pulled the teeth out. I pulled them out because I had horrible toothaches. One of the molars was about a foot long and extremely heavy lol

>>I had that dream because my youngest daughter has to have her wisdom teeth removed and we spoke about it right before bed. I have to reschedule her because another appointment can't be moved.

But that evening, I took a Seroquel to help me fall asleep. It's my nature to fight against sleep, but when utterly exhausted, I finally laid down. My youngest daughter walked into my room at that point to ask me something, and she had purple hair lol. I blinked a few times, telling myself I was seeing things (not uncommon for me when exhausted), and sure enough, the purple slowly disappeared lol. I've not had that happen for a REALLY long time :D ]]> Zhaylin http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/strange-14045/ http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/bad-recall-13469/ Tue, 15 Feb 2011 22:57:40 GMT I only recall bits and pieces from last nights dreams because I was woken up several times this morning and quickly the final time. I remember... I only recall bits and pieces from last nights dreams because I was woken up several times this morning and quickly the final time.
I remember dreaming about shopping and one of my sons throwing a fit because I forgot to buy hotdogs.
In another dream, I was flying.
In yet another, I was very sad about something. I was in a house and my pdoc was sitting on a couch. I had to sit on the couch too because there was nowhere else. I was also sleepy lol Our shoulders were touching and he didn't react to it, so I eventually laid my head on his shoulder and went to sleep. Being in his presence was very comforting.

I've been having more dreams about my pdoc,, which is making me slightly depressed. I'm an independent hermit. I've never felt the need to be close to anyone before. In fact, being physically close to people usually makes me antsy. These dreams show that I'm liar to myself. I DO crave contact. My shrink is my confidant. I have no friends. I rarely see my hubby and we haven't had sex for at least 6 months. I'm forming an unhealthy connection with my pdoc... BUT I wont see anyone else. The dreams depress me because they show me what I'm missing out on, which makes me want things more.
I need to find a way to make the dreams stop... ]]> Zhaylin http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/bad-recall-13469/ http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/mostly-fragments-13041/ Mon, 07 Feb 2011 11:50:06 GMT In one of my dreams last night, I dreamed I was talking to an alcoholic or drug addict. I was explaining Paradise Earth to him as well as other JW... In one of my dreams last night, I dreamed I was talking to an alcoholic or drug addict. I was explaining Paradise Earth to him as well as other JW beliefs. He was very sad because all the people in his life were overly negative and unforgiving. I asked him if his past was in the past and he said yeah. I asked if he had tried to make amends to those he hurt and he said yeah. I then told him to try and disregard the words meant to only him and to continue doing a great job.

I had this dream, in part, in response to a thread I replied to.

I dreamed about poop, sharks, the RV and shopping again, but I've forgotten the specifics. ]]> Zhaylin http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/mostly-fragments-13041/ http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/sharks-13031/ Mon, 07 Feb 2011 05:42:55 GMT I dreamed of swimming and being attacked by a shark. It bit off a body part (?) and another shark rescued me. I had to have a shark blood... I dreamed of swimming and being attacked by a shark. It bit off a body part (?) and another shark rescued me. I had to have a shark blood transfusion lol. I later told someone of the attack, but I didn't have any marks on my chest where the shark grabbed me so I became lucid for a moment.
I also dreamed of shopping and something about the RV.
My memory is very fragmented because I woke up much too quickly.

I think I dreamed of poop again. It seems to be a recurring theme. Yes, I did... I dreamed I popped out a little turd and it squished against my butt and undies and I was VERY grossed out but couldn't think of a way to excuse myself gracefully.
My subconscious is TRYING to tell me something. I've had similar dreams for about a month now. I need to remind my brain that I don't handle subliminal messages very well so it needs to just TELL me what the frick it wants me to know. Cause I'm just not "getting it". ]]> Zhaylin http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/sharks-13031/ http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/emotional-dreams-aplenty-12364/ Thu, 27 Jan 2011 02:12:41 GMT I am not an emotional person in life. I might get angry and grumble, but unless there is ABSOLUTELY no other way, I do not yell. And when I'm sad- even grievously sad- I almost never break down in tears.
When my grandmother died several years ago (I was closer to her than to my mother), I held her hand as she drew her last breaths. And when it was all said and done, I couldn't sit still. I had to clean and organize everything.
So, all that said, emotional dreams are exceptionally interesting to me.

In one dream, my brother (whom I have never been close to in real life) had died. It was confusing... he died of something like West Nile Disease, but he had also been caught in flood waters where he ultimately died. He had been in the water for a day before he was discovered. When someone (?) broke the news to me, I hit the floor on my knees- tearing at my clothes and wailing.

Interpretation: I have no idea. I have never wanted a richer relationship with him. We are completely different people. I love him in a sibling sort of way but he's never been so much as "friend" to me. I don't mourn the lack of a relationship I never had. To me, relatives = chaos (i.e. DRAMA) and sadness so I keep my distance without actually shunning anyone.

The other dream was of me in a car at first. I left my 4 kids in the car for something like 6 hours. I have no idea what I was doing at the time, but their bio-dad ended up getting them. My kids were really young. My oldest is now 18 years old, but in the dream he was around 5. In the dream, my ex-hubby thought they had only been in the car for 1 hour and I wasn't about to set him straight!
His dad was there, trying not to get involved. But I could tell he did NOT approve of what I had done.
My ex-hubby then started giving me hell about how I was raising the kids and I blew a gasket.
My voice was very raised as I told him we hadn't seen or heard from him at all in several years so he had NO right to jump my case and tell me how horrible a mom I am.
Then the dream switched somehow and we were arguing about a manuscript I was writing. I told him I was open to ideas and criticism and at that he threw his hands in the air and turned to his dad who just casually rolled his eyes at the "logic" of women.

Interpretation: No sure. I still have some anger toward him for abandoning us... but in truth, he rarely ever even crosses my mind.
So, does he represent the man I'm now married to? They're both very controlling and demeaning at times... my ex was never there as a father and my current hubby has never been a father to my kids either. But I'm older now, just a tad bit wiser lol, and I'm not quite the doormat I used to be. I now tell my hubby when something he does or says upsets me. My biggest problem, though, is with finances and I brain-washed myself so thoroughly as a child that I still find it exceedingly difficult to hard-ball over my allowance. He has the job. He's worked all his life. I'm a slacker who plays facebook games all day. I have no right to make a fuss about anything... Or so I tell myself.
I always wanted to be a novelist but it's slipped away. Hubby kind of scoffs whenever I've mentioned writing. So, I connect writing with creativity AND financial freedom (yeah right, I know lol). The first part of the dream was me screaming about how the men like to give orders and complain, but they've never BEEN there so they should shut the heck up.
This interpretation feels true. I was yelling in the dream because I'm ever the mediator, so even when I'm unhappy about something, I sugarcoat the issue when I really just want to scream or punch a wall. ]]> Zhaylin http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/emotional-dreams-aplenty-12364/ http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/whacky-dreams-8320/ Sun, 17 Oct 2010 06:33:52 GMT In one dream, a few days ago, I was some random female DC. I had been raped. The man then stuck fishing hooks into my arms and legs. He strung me... In one dream, a few days ago, I was some random female DC. I had been raped. The man then stuck fishing hooks into my arms and legs. He strung me up, then sat on me like a chair. Then I was attached to a "zip line" and he rode me to the bottom of a hill. I asked him to please stop. That it hurt. He went somewhere (?) and I removed the hooks from my arms, but when I tried removing the ones in my legs I couldn't. The barbs were too large and I was still attached to a line.
I don't recall what happened after that.

In another dream, a few days back, I dreamed of walking through my hubby's house, looking at his art glass. I was trying to teach someone (?) the different types and styles. One of his modern pieces was broken as well as one of his older vases. It saddened me.

Other than those, my dreams have been typical: large houses, zombie apocalypse, airports, flying, drowning, driving out of control, yadda yadda yadda. ]]> Zhaylin http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/whacky-dreams-8320/ http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/why-6186/ Wed, 25 Aug 2010 02:48:54 GMT Why do I have the same freagin dream themes? It seems more pervasive than other's dreams.

Last night I only recall snippets. I dreamed of my p-doc and his brother. They both had a daughter from the same woman. I don't recall how I fit into dream.
I also dreamed of being in the RV, but the driver was too close to the edge of a cliff and we fell off into a body of water. Don't recall anything else.

Then I took a nap earlier for a couple of hours.
In it, I was at an airport (surprise, surprise). I had been looking through some shops and was interested in buying some things. Some items were books and others were hand held games.
Then I was outside, sitting in some waiting area. I was trying to sneak a smoke. A bunch of interesting people sat near me from time to time. One was an artist.
Then a wealthy woman (?) showed up and I was expected to go with her. We got onto some sort of trolley and I talked to her about the great crowds. I told her the only people I didn't see were Jehovah's Witnesses. I expected some snide or "funny" remark, but she instead asked me how long I had been apart from them.
There was bitterness in my voice as I told her "way too long" but smoking was my demon and I had no desire to quit any time soon, and I saw sorry in her eyes for me.

That's all I recall. ]]> Zhaylin http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/why-6186/ http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/blah-6110/ Mon, 23 Aug 2010 10:33:11 GMT The only dream I recall from last night involved me eating rotten bread.
I worked on a talisman earlier yesterday, so I'm sure the dream was a religious message from my subconscious.

That's it. ]]> Zhaylin http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/blah-6110/ http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/worlds-worst-dreams-5981/ Fri, 20 Aug 2010 15:01:44 GMT I don't remember all of them (thank goodness) but they were awful.

In one dream, my rabbit, Cuddlebug had crawled into some tube. The tube became tiny and it was somehow pressurized. It could unscrew but I always confuse my left from my right. Instead of loosening it, I tightened it and I felt a pop and my hands became wet with blood. I killed my pet and cried a lot- cursing my stupidity.

In another dream, it was a zombie apocalypse. I was running through the large house I always dream about. My youngest daughter was attacked and I didn't hesitate in killing her. I struck fast, but didn't complete the job. She laid on the ground before me, with a dazed expression on her face. Then she became a size just a little larger than a barbie dolll. I sawed of her head and then my grief consumed me.
Then I worried about how to conceal her body in case the world wasn't ending and the State stopped by.
That dream continued for a long time, but I've forgotten most of the details.
I was on a train at some point, and everyone marveled my stupidity.

That's it.

Oh yeah, but night before last, I dreamed I went back in time. I saw my younger self at the age of about 6. Then it dawned on me I wasn't that person. I was someone else, even though I still resembled her. ]]> Zhaylin http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/worlds-worst-dreams-5981/ http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/more-epic-dreams-5853/ Wed, 18 Aug 2010 13:48:10 GMT but my recall doesn't do them justice. My brain seems... ???... incapable of recalling all the detail of my dreams.

The last one I had was amazing. It spanned what FELT like several generations, but that was only because I relived the story in countless ways in two worlds. The book, Dune (which I'm currently reading) inspired a lot of it.
I was on a desert planet (though not always). I was some random male DC who wanted to propose to his girl. But something always interfered. In the world I was from, it was "normal"- full of life and green. But something always happened to send me to that other barren planet. My girl would be with me. One time, we were walking down a road and were ambushed. I "woke" myself up and was sent to my home world before I could die. But I would have no or very little memory of what happened in the barren world. Every time I was about to propose, I would be sent to the other world. Every time, something bad happened and I nearly died, only to return to my own world with no memory. It was extremely frustrating.
Several times, I was in a Fort of sorts. It was booby-trapped and I was injured in countless ways, only to "wake up" before dying. Some man was pursuing me during most of the dream on the barren world. In the last scene, we were trapped in a room in the Fort. The doors sealed us in. I could see the dart traps and tubes rose from the floor which would release poisonous gasses. But somehow, I lived and the bad guy died. I was able to propose, but we were stuck on the barren world. I knew if I went back to my world, I would forget everything and be doomed to live without her.

Another dream was of the large house I frequently dream about. There were the secret passage tunnels in the floor and this time, I actually used them. I was running from someone and there were others with me. I showed them the tunnels/tubes and sent them through. At one time, I used one myself, but I had to return to the house and the second time I was forced out some other way.
I recall a balcony. I was trapped, so I flew to a nearby rooftop. I laid against the roof, but the bad guy (a young black woman) saw me eventually. She released a dart which went through the building and roof and almost struck me. But I moved at just the right time.
I don't recall how the dream ended.

Early in the evening, I dreamed of driving my van. My oldest son was in the back and someone else (?) was in the front passenger seat. The road was treacherous and I ended up falling off a steep cliff. I realized then, all my kids were in the car with me. I told them all I loved them and that I was sorry. Then, the drivers seat was on the other side and I was directly in front of my oldest son. Our combined weight, made the car tilt to the right and I became terrified of the pain. I screamed that I didn't want the car to land like that. But it did. I marveled that I wasn't in any pain, but it was then that I realized we were all dead.
I woke up.

I also dreamed of being at a movie theater. After the show, I wanted some smokes and food, so hubby and I ordered some. But we had to give our selection to the chef to cook. He said it would be done in an hour and a half and I was greatly annoyed at the delay. He said he was the only person working on Sunday- that they were normally closed. Hubby was surprisingly very patient.
That's all I recall. ]]> Zhaylin http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/more-epic-dreams-5853/ http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/thnk-you-seroquel-5651/ Sat, 14 Aug 2010 18:05:52 GMT I'm back on my Seroquel, for anxiety, and my dreams last night and this morning were amazing.

Let's see... where to begin.

Last night, I dreamed of talking with my JW [Jehovah Witness] friend. She lit up a cigarette (I was already smoking) and I cocked my head at her. I asked if she was sure she wanted to do that and she said yeah. It was only a half-jobby. Another JW walked in and was obviously uncomfortable. She (?) soon left and I told Roxanna she would be in trouble for talking with me and for smoking. She told the lady before she left that she was putting the cigarette out. That she prayed and found she hadn't needed it after all. She was asking the woman not to tell on her, but I knew it was pointless.
Then the room filled up with JW's. They were having a meeting in the room we had been smoking in lol There was a new member who started to come over and introduce herself to me, but I held my head in shame and the woman walked away.

Later, I was in a car with 3 Brothers [JW's]. There was Bob M, Frank B. and another guy I either don't remember or who was just a random DC. Each of them started smoking half-jobbies. I asked them what was going on, if I was somehow being set up for some sort of life lesson. I started to give them my excuses for turning my back on returning to the congregation: My house is still a mess, my daughters give me constant grief, I need to smoke to calm my nerves. But before I could open my mouth to say any of those things, I sadly smiled and told them "I get it". Whatever I could say is just a lame excuse, and there is no excuse for turning your back- not on returning to the congregation in so much- but on turning your back on God.

Shut up brain. When I woke up, I lit a cigarette. I'm not ready to return just yet.

I also dreamed something about the RV's but I lost them.
I also had an epic dream which I've forgotten :(

I was still sleepy, so I went back to bed.
I had an epic dream. I was at an airport (surprise, surprise), but this time, I actually boarded the plane. I fell right to sleep and when I woke, I was in China or Japan. I told my hubby that wasn't possible, that I'm a heavy smoker and would have noticed. But I gave sway to the dream as usual.
We were separated, and as I exited the plane, I noticed I had a huge turd hanging from my butt. I walked strangely until I could safely let it fall without being noticed. I wanted to pick it up and dispose of it, but people were coming and I wasn't ready for the embarrassment *ewwwww* lol.
Most of the rest of the dream occurred in restrooms. I walked into a public restroom that was for both sexes and I nearly fell over from shock. There were people of both sexes crowding the area. In every corner there was someone getting a hand job, a blow job, or just having sex. I just wanted to use the bathroom lol but there wasn't a stall available.
Back in our room, we were ordering food and the housekeeper was telling us she'd charge $40. extra if she had to remove our food from our room. She said, when we were finished, we should leave it outside, not in the room.
Hubby ran into someone he knew and they talked shop for awhile. I went back to the restroom, and everything was quiet.
It went on like that for some time, but I've forgotten the rest.

Then the dream became another one and I was talking to a little girl. She asked what association was, then she kept falling off the back of the couch, but I kept catching her. I thought about calling her Sunshine, but that didn't quite fit. So for the next several minutes, her mom and I kept trying to come up with the names of some clowns. The little girl liked one called Amber. So I started calling her "Amber". She giggled and asked why. I told her she acts like a clown so I associate her with clowns because they're funny. Then she understood what association meant.

The dream changed again and I was back at the airport, only the airplane went back and forth through time. I hate that I've forgotten most of the story, but the gist of the dream was that I was traveling to undo some wrongs my father had committed. I was a random DC for this part of the dream. Sometimes I was male, or female and once I was a male child. A lot of times, the wrong committed was that my father did nothing at all to stop an injustice he could have prevented. One time, it was simply showing an act of kindness to a woman who was gravely ill.
At the end of the dream, someone became aware we weren't the people we said we were, but I woke up before I could see the dream through.

Curse my brain and it's sudden fascination with outright symbolism. It knows I don't appreciate those sorts of dreams, so the messages from my dreams are usually more direct.
I'll have to think on these some. ]]> Zhaylin http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/zhaylin/thnk-you-seroquel-5651/