Am I getting Insomnia?

[Jdeadevil]

I seem to be going to bed so late at night it's exremely early in the morning. Surely you people must of seen me never going offline, it's like DV is literally the only site I bothor visiting all the time in my spare time. And when I'm off college I have all day spare time, so I'm on here all the time.

Can someone tell me how to get motivated to going to bed? I mean, I'm tired and bored as hell it's that late at night now (6:18 am).

Last night I started scaring myself with the fear of that picture I posted in Beyond Dreaming (it was moved there by Oneironaut by kind-of request), so I had a bit of a tough time with sleeping. And I got up at 3:00 pm.

It's upsetting me that I have no life and this is literally all I do on days off, why coudn't I grow up with friends and why did my parants have to be so protective? "Don't go outside, you might get lost", that's the idea they gave me when I was little, every time I mensioned it. But now I'm just living with my dad and he's like "Go on then" pointing to the door. My two brothers and my mum live somewhere else so I can't really ask them for company, I could even meet someone in town or something just wondering around town, I could even meet my future girlfriend. It's just now I feel it's pointless and unmeaningful for me to go out. And my dad would probably try and pretend and I go out everyday and go "Well be back by..." or just plainly come and look for me. He's not the best of "This is the world" people. I fucking hated how I was brought up.

I have a thing called "Occular Motar Dyspraxia" which hardly does anything. Just makes me have less atributes, speed for example. It doesn't do much though so don't go thinking I'm on of those disabled/mutated people. It doesn't change my appearance or Knowledge in any way. But it's why I'm in a special school 50 minutes away from my home town. Hence I don't have any home friends, just college friends.

Sorry, I'm going off a killer tangent. But yeah, thinking about my whole life makes me upset and feel down, It makes me not want to go to bed (for some reason). I really don't know what's wrong with me.

Edit - I was in kind of special school, I'm in college now

[Mes Tarrant]

Could you explain "Occular Motar Dyspraxia" further?

Honestly, I think a huge reason why you aren't going to bed is because your dad isn't making you. No offense to him (I'm sure he's a nice guy), but that is just plain bad parenting.

You need to try to stop blaiming certain things on how you were raised. You are old enough now to make your own choices, it's not like you're 10 right now.

You are also seriously lacking a social life, which you seem to be very aware of. You need to do all you can to change this, and as quickly as possible. It's your life, and you have all the power to turn it around. You also have the power to remain in this hole forever, if you choose not to act.

I think that if you went out during the day, got your exercise, and stared at the computer a little less, you would have no trouble sleeping.

[Jdeadevil]

Well here is what looks like a simple page that describes it.

http://www.dyspraxia.org.nz/what_is.htm

I havn't read it myself though, lol

[Mes Tarrant]

I havn't read it myself though, lol

Ummm ... :lol:

I want you to explain it in your own words, though. Who told you that you have this condition, and do you even know what it is?

[Jdeadevil]

Well it's not even much of a condition. My mum says it makes me slow at doing stuff like in a race, it would take extra practice and effort for me to do certain things.

Also - She had to pay more attentsion to me as a small child, for example: "Come on Jonny, go up the stairs, come on" for ages in life and even "Stand up Jonny, stand up". Me explaining that sounds normal but it's not, lol.

When I was in a pram, I coudn't look straight at all, I tried my hardest but it was like a force field blocking my way. I was unable to look straight on.

But whatever you do. Do not think I'm weird or strange! Because really, I'm just as a normal person as.... *Looks for normal people*

[Mes Tarrant]

I skimmed that article. It keeps talking about "children" this and "children" that... it didn't mention anything about adults. Anyway, I read the bit about how it might affect someone socially, and honestly I think their description fits you very well. If you have any questions on how best to act in any given situation, I'd be more than happy to help you. From what I understand, this syndrome isn't going to limit you in any way shape or form, but you might have to think a little harder in new situations/environments.

[FreeOne]

dude you got to get out and do stuff! take up an outside hobby. Go running, go to the gym, build something, or get a job! things like that help you alot. Especially getting a job. You will meet new people, get out of the house, learn new skills, and get paid all at the same time!

dont blame it on your parents, you're 16 now. you are old enough to go out and do stuff if you want. If you want to change your life, you have to do it.

[Jdeadevil]

I'll think about it tommrow. :undecided:

[LucidFlanders]

I seem to be going to bed so late at night it's exremely early in the morning. Surely you people must of seen me never going offline, it's like DV is literally the only site I bothor visiting all the time in my spare time. And when I'm off college I have all day spare time, so I'm on here all the time.

Can someone tell me how to get motivated to going to bed? I mean, I'm tired and bored as hell it's that late at night now (6:18 am).

Last night I started scaring myself with the fear of that picture I posted in Beyond Dreaming (it was moved there by Oneironaut by kind-of request), so I had a bit of a tough time with sleeping. And I got up at 3:00 pm.

It's upsetting me that I have no life and this is literally all I do on days off, why coudn't I grow up with friends and why did my parants have to be so protective? "Don't go outside, you might get lost", that's the idea they gave me when I was little, every time I mensioned it. But now I'm just living with my dad and he's like "Go on then" pointing to the door. My two brothers and my mum live somewhere else so I can't really ask them for company, I could even meet someone in town or something just wondering around town, I could even meet my future girlfriend. It's just now I feel it's pointless and unmeaningful for me to go out. And my dad would probably try and pretend and I go out everyday and go "Well be back by..." or just plainly come and look for me. He's not the best of "This is the world" people. I fucking hated how I was brought up.

I have a thing called "Occular Motar Dyspraxia" which hardly does anything. Just makes me have less atributes, speed for example. But it's why I'm in a special school 50 minutes away from my home town. Hence I don't have any home friends, just college friends.

Sorry, I'm going off a killer tangent. But yeah, thinking about my whole life makes me upset and feel down, It makes me not want to go to bed (for some reason). I really don't know what's wrong with me.

Edit - I was in kind of special school, I'm in college now

I'm usually online most of the day too, so don't try feeling alone :P anyway i find it more comfortable to be at my computer then infront of strangers all the time....although sometimes i go to a friends place all day and play 360 at his place and go out. Computer is pretty much my life....but hey alot of things to do. Besides, i find most people boring/lame to hang out with.

It doesn't do much though so don't go thinking I'm on of those disabled/mutated people. It doesn't change my appearance or Knowledge in any way.

I got one of those....disabled things. Learning disability, and it's thanks for getting dropped down the stairs when i was a baby. THANK YOU VERY MUCH, and everyone else on the guy side in the family beyond dad/uncle are smart. THANK YOU AGAIN!

[NeAvO]

Insomnia is basically when you can't sleep physically or you find it incredibly hard to stay asleep.

I doubt this is your case. I think your "insomnia" is self inflicted with the fact that you a) don't feel like going to sleep or b) you want to stay on here longer.

[MontyFlatts]

I seem to be going to bed so late at night it's exremely early in the morning. Surely you people must of seen me never going offline, it's like DV is literally the only site I bothor visiting all the time in my spare time. And when I'm off college I have all day spare time, so I'm on here all the time.

Can someone tell me how to get motivated to going to bed? I mean, I'm tired and bored as hell it's that late at night now (6:18 am).

Last night I started scaring myself with the fear of that picture I posted in Beyond Dreaming (it was moved there by Oneironaut by kind-of request), so I had a bit of a tough time with sleeping. And I got up at 3:00 pm.

It's upsetting me that I have no life and this is literally all I do on days off, why coudn't I grow up with friends and why did my parants have to be so protective? "Don't go outside, you might get lost", that's the idea they gave me when I was little, every time I mensioned it. But now I'm just living with my dad and he's like "Go on then" pointing to the door. My two brothers and my mum live somewhere else so I can't really ask them for company, I could even meet someone in town or something just wondering around town, I could even meet my future girlfriend. It's just now I feel it's pointless and unmeaningful for me to go out. And my dad would probably try and pretend and I go out everyday and go "Well be back by..." or just plainly come and look for me. He's not the best of "This is the world" people. I fucking hated how I was brought up.

I have a thing called "Occular Motar Dyspraxia" which hardly does anything. Just makes me have less atributes, speed for example. It doesn't do much though so don't go thinking I'm on of those disabled/mutated people. It doesn't change my appearance or Knowledge in any way. But it's why I'm in a special school 50 minutes away from my home town. Hence I don't have any home friends, just college friends.

Sorry, I'm going off a killer tangent. But yeah, thinking about my whole life makes me upset and feel down, It makes me not want to go to bed (for some reason). I really don't know what's wrong with me.

Edit - I was in kind of special school, I'm in college now

tl;dr
(Actually, I read the first paragraph. Kind of sad.)

[CoLd BlooDed]

You're not getting insomnia, you're just messing up your sleep schedule by staying up til early morning and sleeping so late.

[Photolysis]

Ugh, I have true insomnia at the moment.

I spent hours trying to get to sleep last night. I went to bed ag 10:30PM, and woke up at 12AM. I couldn't get back to sleep despite being exhausted.

I took an hour's walk at 4:30 AM, still no luck.


It's so frustrating. Obviously it's very hard to have lucid dreams with almost no sleep, but it's so stressful and irritating.

[Xaqaria]

Besides, i find most people boring/lame to hang out with.


Based on your description of yourself, it sounds like most people would probably think the same of you.

[Serkat]

http://succeedsocially.com/

[cuddleyperson]

hey JD how can you be sleeping those hours if you have college? Don't you need to be getting there by 8:30-9 some days and probably lunch time at the latest if you have no morning lessons.

Hmm well on friday and saturday nights i do sometimes day up until 2am( 3am if im being naughty:P, holidays then.... urm there is no pattern in my sleep) and wake up at 12pm.

Maybe go to bed and read a book and turn off your computer? If you do that at like 11pm then you'd be awake at 7am no probs.