Thread: Azaleaj's workbook

Congratulations on the lucidity once again!

Originally Posted by Azaleaj

Thanks for the feedback F. I'm wondering if my lack of really clear lucidity and recall has to do with the fact that I have not been practicing any waking mindfulness, meditation and have not been doing reality checks. I wonder if I could discipline myself enough to do these things if it would affect my level of lucidity. Hmmm, hopefully I can pull it together and focus a little more.

Yes, I do believe that would make a difference. That is like the correlation I made in my practice where I found that I had stronger lucidity during periods when I was doing better with my self-awareness work (which Sageous says is basically mindfulness).

One standout image was driving through a tunnel and realizing it was dark because I had my eyes closed. When I opened them I saw that the tunnel was filled with beautiful spring flowers!

Sounds beautiful!

I was a little better about being mindful and did a few reality checks during the week. I also stayed up a little longer with WBTB and focused more on visualizing becoming lucid and remembering my goals. 2 lucid dreams last night, one DILD and I believe a WILD.

I laid down to try to have a WILD. I fell asleep but then woke back up. I tried again. Next thing I remember I was observing a dream form before my eyes. It faded in and out for a few seconds. I was careful to not try to join it too soon as I've seen recommended on here. I was trying to figure out the best moment to get up and enter the dream. Lost some here.

Next, I was walking in a mall empty of people with a woman with blonde curly hair. I remember my goal of finding the woman with the blonde bob (a dream guide?) I ask this woman if this is her. She look down and does not respond. I take this as a no. (I often encounter dream characters sort of turning off, or looking away and not wanting to interact at different times. Sometimes when I ask the questions and sometimes if I'm sexually forward.) we continue walking toward an escalator that goes to the basement. I realize we are walking when we could be flying. I choose to continue to walk just to mix it up as I usually fly in LDs. We go downstairs.

Once downstairs I remember my other goal of surrendering to something greater than myself (whatever that might be). I let go and find myself floating 3-4 feet above the ground on my back. I feel a palpable sort of vibrating, peaceful, borderline blissfully energy enveloping me. I find myself floating along the winding mall hallway observing the window displays of clothing. I see lots of various blue fabrics. I feel I'm sort of meditating, or mindfully observing. Sort of like a walking (floating) meditation. Lost part of the dream again.

Now I'm upstairs. I find myself with an attractive man and we come close to having sex but not quite.

I remember thinking (as I often do during longer LDs) that this is a long dream and I hope I don't forget parts of it, which I did. I woke up, went over the dream in my head and set my intention to LD again as I had another 1.5 hours to sleep.

I had a semi long dream about being in the country (on the ranch). I'm exploring the layout of a property with various houses and outhouses on it. I go into an octagon dome type house. Sort of a hippie house nestled in the tree. I notice lots of windows with gorgeous views of oak trees. There is a weird shoot type window in a tunnel. I think that that would be a good escape route in case of an emergency. I then go outside. I became lucid here. I see a cat I think is my deceased cat Reeses. I get excited to go see him. As I get closer I see it's a different, kind of ratty cat. I give it a few pets. I then remember my ongoing goal of tasting and smelling. I pick up some pine cones and branches and breathe deeply. I think I also tasted them. Nothing. I clearly see the colors and feel the texture but no taste or smell. I then look closer and see the branches are actually fake and crafted out of craft supplies. I can see the papers amd pins holding them together. They are very colorful. I'm not sure if I lost lucidity here or just don't remember the rest of the dream. I had 3 other dreams full of adventure and strong feeling as well. I think I may have had a few other moments of lucidity but can't be sure.

Nice set of LD's! Congrats!

Originally Posted by Azaleaj

(I often encounter dream characters sort of turning off, or looking away and not wanting to interact at different times. Sometimes when I ask the questions and sometimes if I'm sexually forward.)

I hear you. You're comment made me take a step back and reflect on my DC interactions. I have a lot of experience with sexual encounters in lucid dreams and have progressed from my earlier experiences where I would win over the occasional hesitant DC's to the point now where my favorite method is to walk up to them either like "honey here I am, at exactly the moment you wanted me" or something more romantic like "finally we are together - the fevered moment we've both been waiting for!" I often say this sort of thing out loud.

Thinking about how easy this has become for me it made me take a step back and reflect on why I haven't fully utilized this same "technique" for DCs where I am just asking questions (no sexual intentions) and hoping to find some interesting answers or results. I have done it, but I realized that I often just ask the question without expecting whether they will be intelligent or not. I do believe that if you completely expect them to be intelligent (with the same strong expectation - knowing actually - that I expect from the female DC's...to be ready for sex), that they will almost always be intelligent sounding.

I've been trying to be more mindful in waking life. I think lucid dreaming is helping me appreciate the details of waking life more. I found myself having more moments of wonder just petting the cat, listening to music and closely examine flowers. If dreams are so amazing then waking life is pretty amazing (and mysterious too). We are just used to it. Had a long lucid last night.

I'm in bed then get up and go out to the back yard and become lucid. It's really realistic and I wonder if I'm having an OOBE. I walk around noting snow on the ground. I think to fly and find myself riding my dog up in the air over the neighborhood. My vision becomes blurry and dark for maybe 30 seconds, I spin to try to come out of it.
Now I'm flying solo flapping my arms trying to gain altitude. I remember the contest and try to remember my 3 step goals. I think it was to phase through something, telekinesis and to summon my dream guide( I was a little off on this). I started trying to move objects on the ground. At first I'm unable but after a few tries an object moves. Yahhh. Next I see big, looming, cold, metal buildings. I fly to one and try to pass through the wall. I hit it and it feels solid.
Now I'm inside one of these buildings. It's ominous, stark and empty. It's all grey metal. I float on the tall ceiling looking around. I remember reading something about how when having an OOBE (or lucid dream) one can change their thoughts and outlook and the surroundings will change. I wonder if I chant OM whether things will become less stark. I start chanting and other voices join in. It sounds beautiful.
Now I'm in a small basement sitting on the floor. I'm surrounded by colorful walls and shelves of objects. (Not sure what the objects were). I decide to really look closely at the objects memorizing what I see so I'll remember it really well. I note that the colors change as I stare at them. I stare at a chartreuse wall that becomes banana yellow. This feels really fun and fascinating. I remember reading about a person who would experiment with asking DCs what they saw and they would often report different surroundings. I want to ask a DC this but do not see anyone to ask. I go up some stairs and out a door into a green beautiful landscape with a dark night sky.
I come across a friend's husband and friends. I wonder if he is dreaming. I tell him to remember 10+10=20. I plan on asking him about it when awake. I follow them to a car and get in. We drive to a farm and when we pull up into the barn I see an old desk and joke that the kids could use it. For some reason everyone thinks this is hilarious.
At some point I did math in my head to increase lucidity. I started with 2+2=4 then 12+8=16...no..20. Apparently that one was a little challenging ha ha. I also rubbed my hands together. I was quite pleased I remembered to do these things. I also remembered the goal to look for a fellow dream contestant. The name Joe came into my head and I wandered around looking for him.
I was aware of waking up and had that sucking down a tunnel into my body sensation that I have had before.

Nice LD once again

Originally Posted by Azaleaj

I've been trying to be more mindful in waking life. I think lucid dreaming is helping me appreciate the details of waking life more. I found myself having more moments of wonder just petting the cat, listening to music and closely examine flowers. If dreams are so amazing then waking life is pretty amazing (and mysterious too). We are just used to it. Had a long lucid last night.

This has absolutely been a side effect for me and one of the beautiful benefits of lucid dreaming. I find though, that I sometimes need to remind myself of this amazing waking life beauty. When I first started noticing it, it seemed to always flow to me naturally.

Originally Posted by fogelbise

Nice LD once again

This has absolutely been a side effect for me and one of the beautiful benefits of lucid dreaming. I find though, that I sometimes need to remind myself of this amazing waking life beauty. When I first started noticing it, it seemed to always flow to me naturally.

Absolutely! Tuning in to the present moment on a regular basis results in a much more enjoyable conscious life: whether waking or dreaming!

It's been a while since I checked in. I've had a couple of dry spells, good dream recall though. I've been doing WBTB but find myself pushing the snooze for an hour plus then not getting up for more than five minutes. When I get up and really focus on MILD I've had success.

So it's been 11 months since I had my first induced lucid dream and I've had 88 LDs since then. I've set my goal to have 100 LDs by June 26th (one year). It's a bit ambitious but maybe it will motivate me to get up out of bed and really focus.

You are doing extremely well! Having goals you're excited about can really help the process along... especially concrete goals of things you want to do in your lucid dreams. When I'm involved and actively working on the TOTMs, I have more and better LDs!

Thanks fryingman, I agree that having goals helps a lot. I wrote down some concrete goals I'm excited about and will put full effort in tonight.

I was having a dry spell, only a couple of lucid dreams in the last month. I read about it on here and took notes about different mindfulness and visualization techniques and re read about how to do the MILD process. I also forced myself to wake up more during WBTB and to spend 5-10 mins visualizing.

The added effort must have worked because I had 3 LDs in the last 3 days. 1 short, 1 med and one long one.

The first one I was laying in bed and heard my husband's voice talking to me. He's out of town so I knew I was dreaming. I then found myself in a scene making out with a stranger. This went on for about 5 minutes. I actually tried to wake up but couldn't. Now that was a first in a LD.

I then had a second long LD which was a DILD. I was helping an old lady into bed when her eyes became black holes and this prompted lucidity. I looked at another care giver in the room and she had gorgeous sparkly eyes and no hair. I decided to go explore. I was in my childhood home. I came to the garage and basement stairs where I sensed there were things I did not want to face or that felt dark. I decided to go outside and fly instead. I lifted up into the air and noticed it was very dark and blurry out. I asked out loud several times for there to be daylight. I saw a little light on the horizon like the beginning of dawn. It was then sort of dim light out. I went into a building to explore and came across two men. I found them unattractive so moved on. The house I was in was small and not very nice. I went up to the attic to fly through the wall. This was difficult but I must have made it because I was then flying through the air slowly making swimming motions with my arms. I thought "why don't I fly superman style?" I tried this but I just continued to float slowly through the air. I realized I was also bouncing colored balls from the air onto the ground and they were bouncing really high. I csme to a moat around a house and noticed the fine crystal clear details of the rocks and moss surrounding the water. I went into the water and My body felt really heavy. The water wad cold and the rocks felt sharp against my feet. I then woke up.

2 night later. At the end of a long dream I became lucid. I feel it's going to end so I start moving around quickly thinking motion will keep me in. I also remember my goal of looking for a gift that will give me a hint about how to have more lucid dreams. I start looking under bushes but don't find anything. I'm in a park like setting with lots of people milling around. I get down on the ground and feel the sharp scratchy bushes on my skin, it's slightly painful. I also notice that it is completely silent. Then I woke up.

A few things I found interesting about these dreams. The first one felt stark and sort of gloomy. I've felt this before and changed it to a beautiful scene (not intentionally) by chanting or surrendering to the highest. I wonder if this would have worked again. I'll put that into my goals for next time. It probably didn't help that I was reading about serial killers right before bed. I also experienced pain as well as complete silence in a LD for the first time that I can remember.

Well I'm really happy that the added effort seems to be paying off and I will keep it up. I'm in the process of writing up some new goals and I experiments.

Congratulations Azaleaj! I do the same thing when I notice I have had too many nights with no LDs. I mainly going over my own past notes and recommit to putting more time to my practices, realizing that I was slacking a little too much.

Great work once again!

I think I've had about 7 LDs since my last check in on June 14th. I had a dry spell, started putting in more effort with my MILD technique and really focusing on becoming lucid as I fall asleep and it worked. I've been experimenting with portals or trying to change scenes lately with only a small amount of success. I have not been able to find a new dream scene that I was wanting but have found rows of doors in hallways through an open door that was my portal. I've also tried to find a wrapped gift with answers to my questions without success. What I have had a little too much success with is finding sex partners. I think most of my LDs this last month have featured sex of some kind which is fun of course. My flying continues to be a sort of slow, pleasant floating with rage be dream where I had trouble maintaining altitude, a first for me in LDs but not in regular dreams. I had an interesting LD last night where I was floating along observing my imagination with limited visuals, almost hypnagogic type images/thoughts and I realized this is what might be happening when there are sections of my LDs missing from the middle of the dreams. I've also stopped worrying about waking up and this has allowed me to DILD a few times (I think). I love dreaming so much! I've started doing more drawings in my dream journal which is really fun. I need to really think about what I want to explore next (instead of JUST sex). I want to figure out how to visit previous dream scenes if that is even possible. I'd also like to meet the woman with the blonde bob again who was guide like and seemed wise.

2 LDs last night. Snoozed through my first WBTB alarm for over an hour. When I finally awoke I only had 2-3 hours left to sleep but did the MILD technique anyway.

The first one started out with blurry vision but I've come to realize that if you just move along it will clear up and it did. I started flying and landed near some family members on a hill. I saw a butterfly and my little brother as a kid. I remembered my goal of asking a DC or symbol what it represents. I asked the little boy and he smiled and said innocence. I tested out my senses including sound and smell. I could hear paper crunching beneath my feet and smelled something (not sure what). Long section of hanging out with some tech guys, then of trying to find a nice bedroom as I went through a series of doorways. They were all kind of run down until I finally found a nice one. I then examined some black mesh dresses, trying to choose one.

Next dream was triggered when I was at a beutiful park with some friends. One friend had me listen to her headphones to a band called Podesta. (When I woke up I read about Trump tweeting about Podesta) so I thought that was interesting. I then wondered if I had had enough coffee and looked up the hill and thought it would be a long walk to go back to the food area. Then I remembered I could fly and became lucid. I flew around with my friends doing all kinds of acrobatics and hangin upside down. I came upon two cans of bright red paint and stuck my hands in one covering my arms. It was so pretty with a smooth thick texture.

These were my 99 th and 100th LDs. I missed my goal of 100 LDs the first year by about 10 days. That dry spell I had last month set me back but it seems to have passed.

So I've been experimenting with portals, changing things in the dream, still trying to smell and hear, and asking things what they mean. I'll continue with these and try to really think about what I want to work on next.

Originally Posted by Azaleaj

These were my 99 th and 100th LDs. I missed my goal of 100 LDs the first year by about 10 days. That dry spell I had last month set me back but it seems to have passed.

So I've been experimenting with portals, changing things in the dream, still trying to smell and hear, and asking things what they mean. I'll continue with these and try to really think about what I want to work on next.

Awesome! Congratulations on LD #100! I love milestones. They give you one more reason to recognize your progress and pat yourself on the back which can be added motivation to keep up the work of this journey.

Yes, keep up those experiments and do also identify something new to keep you striving for more. New goals can provide purpose for coming lucids which can heighten your waking memory and make you more aware during the lucids.

I am so happy for you! Your post made my evening!

Thanks for the comments fogelbise! I'm a little late responding. I'm keeping up my progress and have had 11 LDs since I last checked in. For a while I was having shorter LDs and was worried they would stay that way but they didn't. I've had 4-5 of the longest ones I've ever had. In the dreams I was trying to figure out how much time had passed and was worried I wouldn't remember everything. I estimate they were over 20 minutes. I no longer use techniques to try to prolong my LDs except occasionally looking at my hands to increase visual clarity.

Lately I've been focusing on trying to go places through portals, paying more attention to my senses and on experimenting with Robert Waggoner's technique of asking all mentally projected dream characters to disappear ( I just yell out to meet an conscious entity). I have no idea whether such a thing exists but I'm an agnostic and keep an open mind. I don't think humans know as much about reality as some like to pretend to know.

The portal exploration has not been too successful. I've opened doors intending to find a forest or ocean scene and found a hallway of doors inside with middle aged couples talking behind the doors as well as just empty closets. I did later find myself flying over a forest so maybe it sort of worked.

When talking to DCs I've been asking them if they have a memory of time before this dream or if they are independent of me. 3 DCs in a car answered my questions but I can't remember what they said. 2 nights ago I met a woman after calling out my request and asked her if she was dead. She she nodded yes. I asked her if it was better or worse than life on earth and she said better. I asked her if she would look after me in life and she said no. She was being polite answering my questions but was fairly disinterested in me. I'm going to stick with talking to DCs. I think they are one of the most fascinating parts of dreaming.


I'm still unable to gain speed while flying but have been playing with doing acrobatics, yoga, and floating upside down and it's so fun!

One thing I've noticed that gives me an incredible feeling is complimenting DCs and telling them I love them. Silly I know but it really creates a strong emotion.

Looking forward to making a big effort tonight.

Waking life= not meditating or exercising like I should be! I have been doing art and spending time in nature. I've had the goal of meditating more for forever! It's so hard to stick with.

great job Ace, 100 in the firt year awesome :-)
if you spend alot of time walking in nature, you could try a form of walking meditation , just be present in moment and focus on feeling of wind or on your feet and breathe etc

So awesome Azaleaj! Long LDs are an awesome achievement. Keep up the great work and experiments!

Time to check in I think. It's been a couple of months. I've been consistently having about two LDs a week. I keep trying to have another WILD but always just fall asleep. I've had maybe 4 total and really want to develop this skill but I just loose awareness and fall asleep. Lately I've been pretty good about facing scary things in my LDs. I don't dream of terrifying things, just sort of ominous or overwhelming. Last week I had a LD where I saw the vast, scary ocean so I forced myself to go sit on the edge waist deep holding onto a cement wall. I got a little more courageous and flew up over it. It then transformed into a pool in a house. I continue to practice my flying and mid air acrobatics which is so fun. I'm still not able to fly fast or smell much but I can taste food. On several occasions I've stuffed my face with endless cake and frosting. I've also had a few regular dreams about people being alcoholics or addicts and wonder if this relates to my overindulging in life or dreams. In several dreams I've flown up towards the sun and decided it was way too bright and I felt exposed. I feel the same way about the sun in waking life. I continue to ask the dream or DC questions. Sometimes I get an answer and sometimes I don't. I wonder why. I was just looking at Stephen a Leberge's workshop info and am tempted to sign up. I've wanted to do it for years now. I'm still trying to meditate more but still find this difficult. Maybe it would help with WILDS. Some of my current goals are meditating in a dream, asking to speak with non self DCs (who knows), asking what certain symbols mean, visiting a beach through spinning or a door, expressing gratitude to my subconscious or whatever is behind life for these amazing experiences.

It's great to hear that you are still going strong Azaleaj and having fun exploring you dreamworlds. Meditation should definitely help. I also don't do it enough though. I have also wanted to check out Laberge's workshop in beautiful Hawaii but not sure I'll get the chance with my wife's anti lucid dreaming stance. Nice goals for lucid activities as well. Keep in touch.

Oh no, wife's anti lucid dreaming stance! Thanks for your feedback. I tried my goal of going through a mirror last night and I ended up in a closet of old lady clothes that were also too tight. I was hoping for a gorgeous beach of seashells ha ha.

Originally Posted by Azaleaj

Oh no, wife's anti lucid dreaming stance! Thanks for your feedback. I tried my goal of going through a mirror last night and I ended up in a closet of old lady clothes that were also too tight. I was hoping for a gorgeous beach of seashells ha ha.

Congrats on teleporting! For a specific scene it really helps to "know" what is on the other side of the mirror (or on the other side of any teleportation method). I have found success by imagining and then experiencing senses related to the scene…like before going through the mirror you can "already hear the gentle ocean waves" and "smell scent of the ocean." Especially getting your sense of sight into play at whichever point feels the most appropriate as in "ah yes I can see a seashell, and another and another" perhaps as you are passing through the mirror. Have you ever read the thread in the first link of my signature?..it's actually not just for newbies.

Yeah, her stance is unfortunate. At least I can talk to her about normal dreams and she will tell me some of the occasional dreams she remembers.

I’ts been a while since I’ve posted on here. I have not had a lucid dream in a while mostly due to laziness and fear of failure. I do still keep a daily dream journal and take a twice monthly dream interpretation class which is really enjoyable. I plan on getting back into my lucid dream practice and know it will take some effort. No work tomorrow so I’ll give it a go tonight. Hopefully posting on here will help hold me accountable and up my motivation a bit. I’m amazed to see a few of the same people on here still working diligently! That is admirable.

Tonight I’ll do a visualization and set my intention before bed. I’ll set a few goals of things I want to try. I’ll also do WBTB and use the MILD tecnique after about 5 hours of sleep. Wish me luck!

Originally Posted by Azaleaj

Wish me luck!

Good luck! It sounds like a good plan. Let me know if you need any help.

Hi,
I thought I would check in after a long time away. I think it is wonderful that you continue to run this thread Fogelbise. Can I ask you how much effort you have to put into your practice at this point? I see you have had almost 1,000 LDs since 2013. You must have a pretty high success rate! How do you stay motivated?

I find myself very motivated in the day but when I’m going to bed I feel ambiguous about what I want to work on which makes me less motivated. I took Robert Waggoner and Ed Kellogg’s lucid dream/lucid living online workshop and it was actually really good. I went from no LDs to 3 a week for the full month. I think all of the goals they had were quasi spiritual but based on actual experiences so appealed to me. I loved working with a group on one goal each week then reporting results. It was really interesting reading about the results others had as well.

One week we worked on healing in lucid dreams. I have been suffering from restless leg syndrome for about a year and it was causing me a lot of distress. I wanted to work on curing that. In a lucid dream I poured blue light and for some reason creamsicle light onto my legs. Later that night I dreamed I was taking too many blue pills. In the morning I looked at my vitamins and stopped taking Sam-E, an over the counter antidepressant I have taken for 6 years when I was depressed, I’m not any more. I have not had restless legs since that dream. I was very skeptical about the whole thing but I found that pretty impressive. We worked on some other things loosely based on Waggoner’s book.

Anyway, since class ended a couple of months ago I have only had one LD. I still try to do WBTB but often push my snooze button for hours or just do it briefly. There was something about having an organized agenda and doing it with others that I found motivating and inspiring. I will probably do the class again in the fall but I would love to find a way to work with others on similar goals in a group of some kind. Not sure how to go about that. I did inquire in the main LD thread about whether there would be any upcoming contests. I have found them helpful in the past.

I hope all is well and any advice would be appreciated as always.