Recurring Dream of Ex-Love for years

Hi I'm new to these forums and I've never tried to have my dreams interpreted, but I think I need help in figuring out so that they can stop.

I am 22, and for at least the past 2 years I have been having at least one dream a week about my highschool sweetheart. I was a sophomore and she was a freshman and we dated until I made it all the way to graduation. And then we dated on and off until we both left for the military(she was then 18 and I was 19). I truly loved her with all my heart. I knew that she was the one the moment that I laid eyes on her that she was the one. Even though I was only 15! But like most highschool relationships after I graduated we broke up, but every so often we would go back out and then go our separate ways again until she left for the navy and then I left. I think the reason we didn't stay together was because we were our first loves and first for sex and if we truly did love each other and were ment to be together we would find each other later in life.

And when she left for the Navy the dreams started. I have not seen this girl for almost 3 years, but at least once a week sometimes even more I have a dream about her. It's been almost a year since I've even talked to her.

Now let me tell you this, for the past 3 years I don't really remember of having any dreams besides ones with her in it. The only dreams I remember/have are ones with her in it.

Now for the dream. It's like any other dream I would guess but I start the dream by hanging out with her or talking to her. And somehow she just goes away, she has to go do something else. And the rest of the dream I am looking for her. I call her I text her, I scoure low and high for her, but I CAN NOT FIND HER OR GET A HOLD OF HER. And it makes me sad in the dream because she knows I care about her, but she acts like she doesn't care. There's even been dreams where I would fight men to be with her and do anything to be with her. But it's the same thing every dream I never have a happy dream with her in it. I always wake up feeling like my heart is crushed I feel emotional sometimes through out the whole day because of these dreams.

I don't know if these dreams are warning me from going back to her because she will just hurt me in the end,or I'm just attached to her because she's my first love and first for everything, or that it's a sign that I should go back to her for my happy ending. Please help me I'm plagued by these dreams of a woman I haven't seen for years. Ask any questions you want, I just need help.

I think its pretty normal to hold onto your first love as some sort of ideal in your life... your subconscious still wants to go back to the time when things were happy or simpler.. I don't know if you've had relationships since that were serious like this one was, but if not, you're still holding onto the past of what you felt was perfection.. and even if you have had relationships, I think you believe they don't measure up to what you felt for her. I'm 36 years old and I still dream of my high school boyfriend. I have regrets there. I still hold him as the 'perfect' mate... And no one else compares. So my dreams reflect that. I think until you really let her go, and let go of the idea of her, you'll continue to dream of her... she represents something happy to you, but its in the past, and its time to find a new thing to make you happy... just my opinion....

please listen to me because I have been through the same thing. This is how I let go of the past scream in the pillow if your angry or cry like hell on the pillow and let everything go. Do not hold on to the past it will eat you alive.