Well, I can only talk from experience. After being dumped by a girl I was deeply in love with (twice in a month) I started dreaming about us being together and happy all the time. Sometimes we'd be pissed at each other and she'd make out with guys in front of me to make me mad. It was pretty painful, both variables. It was like that John Mayer song says: "When you're dreaming with a broken heart, the waking up is the hardest part."
I am completely over that now. We haven't spoken in over a year, but I started seeing her in my dreams again occasionally. It was never something too significant, just little "cameos". For example, I'd be visiting my home city and meeting with my old friends and she'd be there looking at me like "Haven't seen you in a long time, hot shot.", and then we'd probably have trivial conversation.
I also felt like contacting her again (I didn't though, and I don't think I will), just to talk about some stuff. Actually I don't miss what we had, I just miss talking to her. She had a way to make me feel certain about my decisions.
We too ended things in a nasty way. A lot of stupid messages were sent. However, I don't think it's gonna do anything for me to try to mend anything because I fell in love with a dream that I built of her, not HER.
My opinion is that you feel like you haven't gotten proper closure yet. That doesn't mean you are not over her, just that the way things ended left a sour taste in your mouth. Try to evaluate how much the relationship meant to you, and act accordingly to what feels right. You can't control how she will react, but you can at least be true to yourself and act upon your desire to settle some things.
I hope this helps, somehow!
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