Thread: He has a boyfriend. Why was he staring at me?

I'm a 19 year old, gay college student at the University of Maryland.

I had a dream last night that I can't get out of my mind, and it's bothering me greatly. I'm going to give a brief background of the situation, before I detail the dream.

Back in February, I met this one guy (we'll call him C) at a gay Valentine's Day party for singles. We instantly clicked and kept in touch. A week later, though, he got into a relationship with someone else. We lost touch after that, until around April. In Early April, we bumped into each other, and continued to speak after that, platonically. A few weeks after this occurred, he broke up with his boyfriend, and was then single. I began flirting with him after awhile, and he reciprocated. I told him that I liked him and that I wanted to get to know him more, and he said the same. In May, he came over and we watched a musical together. After that, we had sex. It was amazing sex... it was very intense and emotional. There was definitely a bond there.

Weeks later, finals came around, and I had to study and take mine early, as I had to head home to Florida to watch my mom graduate from college. This caused a gap in communication between us. I also stopped texting him because I didn't want to disturb him at his job. I came back to college for the summer in early June. I went to a leadership conference in Pittsburgh for a weekend, and had sex with two guys there. I took photos of us and put them on Facebook. I believe C may have seen this. A few weeks later, the DC Gay Pride festival came around, and C posted a photo of him and another guy (we'll call him M) close together at the parade. I know M, and he is very self-obsessed and a douche. So I grew concerned. The next week, more photos of them surfaced on Facebook, with C at M's apartment, and they were cuddled up. The week after that, they began dating, and I became upset. C is very different. He doesn't judge - he is sweet, kind, and always happy. He means a lot to me, which is why I'm having a hard time letting this go.

And now for the dream...

The dream is during the daytime. I'm on one of the university shuttle buses, getting a ride from campus to my apartment. I'm sitting in the back. A few stops later, C and M get on board of the bus, and sit in the front - facing me. I make a head nod towards C, as a subtle "hello," and he just keeps looking at me. This expression on his face was weird. I don't know if it was blank or nervous or confused. As the bus was driving, M turns to C and kisses him on the cheek. C has no reaction and does not reciprocate. He just keeps looking at me with the same expression. At the next stop, M gets off - it's his apartment, not C's. As he gets up, he is holding C's hand. He walks away from C, still holding his hand, and lets go until he can't hold his hand anymore, and exits the bus. I continue looking at C, and he keeps giving me a "I don't know what to do/what to say" look. Throughout the ride, I peek over the woman in front of me, and C is still looking at me. I get nervous and get off at the next stop. The bus door closes as I exited, and I realized that I shouldn't have left. The bus drives away, and C looks at me through the window. Right as the bus pulls out of view, he finally looks away.

I woke up after this.

What is the meaning of this? Is this my subconscious trying to tell me something? Please give me some enlightenment. Thank you.

-J