Thread: Nice Dream made me depressed.

Hey I am new here. Male and a 18YO teen from Germany.

I will just start now.
„Which happenings, feelings, and thoughts did you have on the day before?“

It did not happen any special yesterday. I am on my summer break right now and unfortunately I don’t have much to do. Every day I am bored. Normally I hang out in a lot of chat rooms bur since I have a “girlfriend”(?) from the UK I am avoiding those chat rooms because I used them in order to find a girlfriend.
So back to the question; I felt ok. The only thing that was new to me is the new song “High by the beach” by Lana Del Rey. I think this song has something mystic on it but later more about it.

“What determines your current life situation, what is your current main feeling like, which problems are there in your life right now?”

Well my main feeling is colloquial in the basement. But I feel better now than before. It was all caused by the break up of my first relationship. Actually it’s almost a year ago but since I have visited her last spring again and all has gone worse I felt worse again either. I felt/feel really bad. I had serious suicidal thoughts. They have gone weaker but I still feel insecure.
Right now while I am typing this I have remembered that my former girlfriend has messaged me a day or two ago. We still had talked sometimes but finally I could not handle this anymore and I made this clear to her yesterday or the day before. Talking to her makes me feel pain and it is not helping in order to have a happier life again.

“Which feelings and thoughts did you have in your dream?”

I felt totally happy – that’s all I can say about it. I mean it is indescribable because this dream almost reflected my life how I wish it to be. But at the end I felt scared, brave and disgusted. There will be more about it later in my dream description.

“Which feelings and thoughts did you have when you woke up and afterwards? ”

When I woke up I felt really upset. I felt depressive and with full of questions. This feeling holds until now. It’s also a feeling of disappointment and a kind of “home sickness”. I’d rather live in that dream than in my live I am living right now. It makes me asking “Why?”- Why am I not living like this? Why can’t this be real?

“Do you recognize Pictures/Individuals/ the topic or something that happened in other dreams too? ”

Yeah even a lot. The persons I saw with under were my former girlfriend and her friends who I also got to know once. To mention this already: My former girlfriend is an American. I came to visit her twice.
The topic of dream was my first day at an “American” college. I will tell you about the contradiction later. Right now I am on my last year of vocational school. My goal of life is to life in the USA so why not studying there? Well no money so I can forget it. Nevertheless I still would love to study in the USA because the people are just different (in a positive way). And I feel home there. Seriously I do. This is what makes the USA so special to me.
Anyway I was familiar with the part at the end of my dream. Because in every good dream I have is a weird part. (Not in nightmares, but I love nightmares they don’t scare me after the dream) In this dream the weird part was at the end when zombies were attacking the school. It started with me being in the basement when suddenly the light went of and I ran as fast as I could upstairs again. That’s why I described my feelings as being scared and brave. A bit later I needed to kill a zombie. It did not die in the first place so I took a screwdriver and put it through his head. That was the part that disgusted me because I could mentally feel the screwdriver being in my head without pain but with just feeling it. I hope you know what I mean. I also hope this is being taken serious. I know it sounds childish or like I am making a joke but this is what I seriously dreamt and as I have mentioned before; There is always a weird part in every good dream I have. In this case it was the zombie part at the end.

“Describe the moods and locations of the dream as exact as possible (Colors, Positions, Noises, Smells). ”

The location was my current school, not 1 to 1 but it was it. That’s why I told you about the contradiction with the USA. My school is located in Germany, but the dream was in English and in German at some parts. My mood was just awesome I was really happy. I was in my classroom (Well the classroom in my dream, not my actual classroom) and the teacher got in and welcomed me in a special way. I don’t know what exactly he said but it was something about me coming from Germany etc. There were some noises but I no smelling at all. So I have been in that classroom at the beginning of my dream and the teacher started the lesson. My former girlfriend and her friend had been in my class too. They talked to each other. A TV was on. But the program did not fit to the lesson. It surprised me that you could do so much during class and the teacher wouldn’t say anything.
Well positions. . . I was mainly in my own view. Rarely I saw myself from a different ankle.
There were no special colors. It just looked like how a school looks like from the inside. Except for the color brown because we were all sitting on wooden benches. So I remember this brown in a strong way.
Another special thing were the classrooms themselves. They did not have walls. But you could not hear the other classes. And I just saw a class next door once.

Yeah that was my dream.
I woke up around 5am, turned on the music (High by the beach as a loop) and then fell asleep again and dreamt this.

Could the song have influenced my dream? Because I think it has something mystic on it.
How about the weird parts in all of my good dreams? Why do I have in every good dream weird parts? What do they mean?
I don’t have that in nightmares though.
I hope you can help interpret this dream. I really wanna know what it means.
It made me really thoughtful and sad and depressed.
And I hope you understand my English.

Thank You ☺