Hello everybody!~ I'm fairly new to this website. I have joined to, hopefully, educate myself further about dreaming.
Lately I have been having some dreams that somewhat worry me. It has been occurring over the last 3 nights.
Night 1 (August 19th, 2015)- I dreamt that I was walking down the sidewalk holding hands with my current boyfriend. It was very nice and very peaceful. I could see that the sun was setting, which gave it kind of a romantic feel. I didn't notice anything out of the ordinary until my boyfriend reached over and placed his hand on my belly. I looked down and saw that I was heavily pregnant. I knew the baby was his and I had this feeling that the baby was a girl.
Night 2 (August 20th, 2015)- I dreamt that I was sitting in my bedroom with my best friend. I was pregnant once again in this dream. It was night time, we were watching TV and holding casual conversation. Then I suddenly gave birth to my baby right there in my room. My friend witnessed the whole thing. The baby was, indeed, a baby girl. My mother then took the baby from me and refused to give her back. I fought with her, getting angrier and angrier, yelling, "She's MY baby! I'm the one who just gave birth to her!" until she finally gave in and returned my baby girl to me.
Night 3 (August 21st, 2015)- I dreamt that I was standing with my boyfriend. I believe he was holding our daughter while I was on my phone. I was on Instagram putting a filter on a picture. The picture was of us holding our baby. I ended up not posting the picture on Instagram because I knew that not ALL of my friends knew I had the baby and I was afraid of what their reactions would be once they saw it on social media. Before the dream ended, I remember sitting with my best friend by a pool. We were discussing methods of contraception, condoms in particular. I made a comment, "Well I ended up with a baby anyway." her response to that was, "I know. I was there when she was born." [I strongly believe this was a reference to the last dream that I had where she witnessed the birth of my daughter.
Additional information-
-I am currently sexually active with my boyfriend. We do not have sex often, when we do we are sure to take precaution so we do not end up with an unwanted pregnancy. We are not ready to have a baby just yet, we are having sex as a way to show love for each other. My best friend (of 5 years) also does this and we do discuss our experiences in casual conversations at times.
-I do not constantly daydream about having his baby. I do think about it sometimes, but not so much that it would leech it's way into my dreams. I do long to have a baby girl with him someday, when we are ready.
-I do not have a very good relationship with my mother in reality. I can get very angry with her very easily and a fight can spark between us at any point. I fear that she will treat my children the way she has treated me. I'm afraid that she'll say things to my children that will influence their thoughts or behavior when I'm not around. She is a very judgmental person and I do not want my kids to think the way that she does.
-I do have an Instagram account. I try to be careful about what I post there because some of the friends that follow me can be judgmental.
My fear is that these dreams are premonitions.. I have had many of those before. But never like this. These dreams are almost like a timeline; pregnancy, birth, and then life afterwards. These dreams also seem like they take place in the near future. This is kind of hard for me to describe. I have had dreams where I see myself as an adult in the future, I've even seen my past self. I haven't seen my adult self here. This is my current self. My boyfriend doesn't think anything of it but I still worry about it because neither of us are ready for children. Is my boyfriend right? Are these just dreams? Or do they actually mean something?
If anybody needs anymore details just let me know. Thanks to any and all replies in advance!
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