In August 2015, I started this medication for my anxiety- citalopram. Since then, I have been to the same place every single night in my dreams. It's like I have an "inner world" now. I have a life there, a house there. I have friends that I hang out with. I go on adventures a lot. There is a beach there that I love visiting. There are mountains and campgrounds. The best way I can describe it is every place I've lived with moderations and added unknown territories. I love it. I almost get too excited to sleep some nights because I love being there so much. But there are two things that make me interested. Keep in mind I got pregnant and stopped taking the medication for the 9 months and did not visit my town. So ....
1. I have been going here every night for over 2 years now and I have never gone lucid (I had been occasionally lucid up until this point). Why is this?
2. There is always something going on. ie. I am running from someone, hiding from someone, someone is killing the entire world. Anything. It doesn't scare me, more makes me just think on my toes. Theres a neighbor I have that I'm always watching out for, and I don't know who he is or why I'm looking for him. But I always wake up remembering looking out of my door (it's like i have a gigantic apartment) to his door to see if he is home and looking for me. I frequently check my doors and windows to make sure they are locked (in dream world) and I am always looking for him.
Has anyone experienced anything like this or have any type of opinions? I have been so curious since it has started. Don't get me wrong, I love my town so much and I hope I dream of it forever, but why did I create it in my brain? And why the hell is it so action/thriller filled?
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