Thread: this is really weird

Okay, so something really odd is happening when a certain person appears in my dreams. I'll explain later in the message, but first, I'm going to give some (read: a lot of) back story. This is just for your knowledge of the situation. (I apologize for how much I sound like a stupid little emo girl in this story.)

I'm 16 years old and I just finished 10th grade. At the beginning of 9th grade, I met this boy in one of my classes, and soon I liked him. (He's in the grade above me, but a year younger than most of his grade, so he's my age.) At my school, we have one set of classes for one semester, then a different set for the next semester. Anyway, throughout the whole semester, I didn't ever talk to him or make any effort to make friends with him or anything. So, during the next semester I didn't have any classes with him, and I felt pretty bad about that for a while. Okay, now fast forward over that semester and that summer. Beginning of 10th grade (11th for him.) I have a class with him again. I've realized that I still like him. I decide that this year, I'm not going to do the same thing I did last year. Near the end of the semester, I realize I'm doing exactly what I did the year before. So with about a week left in the semester, I give him a note. I know, that's a really, really stupid thing to do, but I probably wasn't going to have any chance to talk to him alone, so... I thought a note was the most convenient way. I explained that I liked him, I explained why I chose to tell him about it... and I said that if he didn't know how to respond he didn't have to say anything to me about it. Not much to my surprise, he didn't. The next semester started. He was the teacher's aide during one of my classes, so I did get to see him every day. I'm almost finished with the "back story." Bear with me. Within a week, I've realized, wow, this is awful. I still like him, but he has no interest in me (I'm assuming) so now I can't do anything except... just get over him. Obviously the whole semester was mentally stressful and depressing for me. I'm glad school is out and I have a couple of months to just not see him at all for a while, and I can try not to be reminded of him and minimize thinking about him.

Okay. That was long. I will really appreciate it if you're still reading, because this is the part that I actually want to ask about.

Whenever he appears in my dreams, his hair is always strange, ridiculous, and completely different than how it is in real life. In almost every dream I've had about him since I met him (as in, almost two years ago) this has been the case. Just for a few examples, it's had highlighter-yellow streaks. It's been all blue. It's been the usual color, but really long and styled like a girl's hair. Most recently, it looked like that of one of my favorite musicians. Oh, and usually when I see him like this in dreams, I do recognize it as being weird and different than usual. The kind of dreams I have involving him vary. Sometimes I'm awkward and don't know how to act around him, like in real life. Sometimes we're happy with each other and acting like friends or more.

I've tried thinking of some of the most obvious explanations myself, but none of them fit... the first one is that I would be focusing too much on his appearance, but that doesn't make sense. I don't think he's that physically attractive and that never has been the reason why I'm attracted to him. The next one is that maybe my opinion about him has changed. I would think that was a possibility, except it was also going on during times when I guess my feelings about him remained the same for a long time?

I will appreciate it if you have any explanations. :\