Thread: Blackrain_artifacts struggle for conscious dreaming

For the second night in a week I dream about meeting my nephew Robin, and as before he´s present in some kind of kin gathering. Although he belongs to the family as much as anyone else, he seems like an outsider and I have to go to other rooms to be able to talk with him. He seems kind of blue I believe.

I have just met my grandmother prior to go on a long trip and she wants to support me economically by giving me a "grand" bill (1000 swedish crowns). Soon after the receiving of the money I drop it on the floor. We continue to walk to some other place when I suddenly remember the loss and returns to the same spot to pick it up again. Might be a in a garage context if I´m not mistaken.

I meet up with a very familliar dream person, Leif, back in my home village in Sweden. We´re in his house and just talking. The interior is a bit more narrow than I´m used to, which I actually reflect upon. In the end of this dream L. walks outside and I stay inside for some reason.

Some dusky dream located in Perth (my location at present) where I stand by the major road downside of Campus. The atmosphere is dark and there is something doubtful going on on the otherside of the road.

This night I have the oppurtunity to watch no less than two great performances on stage. I see both of the shows as from many different angles, muck like the tv-views at concerts but this time it´s Me that looks with my "eyes".

First up is Peter Steele from Type´o, whom (while the band keeps playing) rips up his green shirt and starts to act out a pretended sex act on stage. He lays in the stage, wriggling as he makes out with a fantasy women.

Afterwards, but in an other episode, Bono starts singing solo on stage in front of a huge crowd. All of the people throw their arms in the air as they wave along to his tunes. A moment later the rest of the band enters the stage in solemn entrances, one by one. I specifically get a good look at Larry Mullen jr. from behind the drums. I notice that he´s about to get bald. At this very moment I think about how fast the times goes, since I don´t think it was that long since War was released (where LMjr. had quite a hairdo).

I´m impressed with my own analytical abilities in these dreams!

A friend of mine back in Sweden and I are on a "Mission" from one of my old teachers in high school (Bosse). We´re about to make inventories of some lakes around my home village. We´re driving around for a long time before we get the lakes/rivers of interest. Martin (my friend) seems kind of worried about how the examination is about to be made.

One of my very closest ones, Sofia, and I have just missed the train we were supposed to travel home with. We only have to walk up to the road again when Kjell and Chris from my hema village drives up beside us on a large black trike. They offer us a ride home and we willingly accept it. I end up sitting on the right side of Kjell, whom drives the trike, and Sofia is to the left. I feel/see that Kjell throws some glares at Sofia and that she doesn´t appreciate it that much. With all the respect for the ride we´re getting, I don´t dare tell Kjell to stop glaring. Therefore I take Sofia´s hand and sort of comforting her as we ride fast through the forests on our way home.

I get bitten by a viper no less than two times in a dream. I only recall the latter, as my sister and I are exploring some old treelogs and I happen to step on a grey squirming thing which bites me in the leg. Sis gets really upset since she´s read that people in my age usually dies when bitten of this snake. So the rest of the dream is really traumatic as we prepare ourselves and our family that I´m going to die anytime.

Me and my classmate Erika are heading for Stockholm in a dark blue BMW, which Erika has borrowed from her mother. It´s a long trip and when we finally arrive to the area we, consciously och not, take a sideroad through the forests. So it immediately feels kind of ironic to be so close to the capital of Sweden and still be lost on dirt roads in the woods!

I am about to have my educations practics somewhere far from home, probably in the Stockholm area. I´we driven myself to the place to "prepare" for the stay, but soon after, my grandmother comes with her husband in their car. They want to make sure that I manage on my own, and the note that I´ve forgot most of the stuff I need to make it (food, clothes etc.) Luckily for me they brought most of this in the trunk of their car.

Kind of the same feeling in both of these dreams, being on my way to some unsure futures with little preparations. There was a distinct feeling of worrying when I realised I´ve forgot all of my important belongings on the trip I made...

Once again I dream about my late uncle Hans whom regularly shows up in my dreams, mostly in dark contexts. This time I meet him in my parent´s home, on the top floor. He has got his legs cut off below the knee caps, but he keeps "walking" anyway like he doesn´t care. I´m standing and looking at the bloody traces his open wounds leaves on the floors. Can´t really communicate with him, he seems lost and really sad.

This scenario has repeated itself many times since I started LD, and is propably my most certain dream sign; Hans in agony.

Had a really cozy dream including myself and an old love of mine,Malin. She looks as astonishing as usual, at least, and we seem to have a good time.

I´m in a street/city crossroad with my sister, Rebecca, and she´s brought a shitload of horses with her. Big ones that stumbles around without taking notice of us soft humans. HTeyre all brownish/redish and really sturdy, and sis just treat them with as strong commands as ever irl. Me, I´m mostly trying to get out of the way of the unreliable beasts, watching out for their hind legs.

Partly because I now live in Australia, the fear of spiders and snakes is quite...justified. Last night I dreamed that a giant snake, a Tiger Python, was chasing me from an apartment and out in the gardens.

Later on, I find out that a spider is hanging from a thread on my right, and someone tells me it´s a dangerous kind.

Scary atmosphere in these episodes, trust me on that.

Me and a sorry ass gang of random people are going to have a sort of physical education á la secondary school. We´re standing outside on a large bridge and are about to compete in high jump. The teachers have set up a provisorical rib made of rope and we have to build our own staffs. It´s a grey day and it matches my mood towards this "shit" that I thought I was done with since graduation.

Anyway, the people starts to line up and they jump over the rope one by one. Among the people are Stefan Holm, one of the most successful high jumpers in Sweden. He takes the rib as nothing, of course, but jumps so high he dissapears into the air and set himself up for a nasty crash. I turn my head when he hits the ground. When finally it´s my turn I have my plastic stick and give it a go. The rib is in knee-height and I make without significant efforts. Though, I make a little crasch anyway just to make it look demanding. The teachers become seemingly satisfied with me and I´m finally free.

Old feelings of compulsory efforts in elementary school rises to the surface in this dream. May be due to the Simpsons episode I watched prior to vedtime, where Lisa are under regular pressure from Skinner & Co

At first I´m hanging out with my old crusch from high school, Cecilia. We´re in her car at first and we stop on a street in my home village. As she disembark the car she happened to hit the gas and the car get´s off on it´s own!

Later on she and I visit a forest lake for a bath. I believe we have some intimate activities going on on the beach before jumping in the blue. There are some bird nests with eggs in them on the shoreline, and an angry mother bird that guards them as well.

Me and a couple of persons are out on a field trip taking water samples for some reason. We´re visiting some really cozy places, among them a lighthouse on a peninsula. There´s a rive right by it and one of us is reaching down to sample. He drops the bottle and we see it sink and flow away in the stream. A great dissappointment spreads throughout the gang. Before heading back to our "science-o-mobile" we visit the lighthouse. It has a fence around the base level and both wooden and metal stairs attached to it. We manage to sneak past the fence and explore the inside. I´m heading upstairs to face a really old and deserted interior, but still very cozy with sea view and all.

The other dream includes me and a larger group of vaguely familiar people, possbily high-school classmates ( I can distinguish Elena). We´re on a long journey somewhere with forests and mountains and a railway station. We´re just about to catch a bus to continue our trip but we´re running to slow and miss it by seconds. The others are blaming me for being to naive with the time!

I find myself looking at my index finger on my right hand, its skewed! Dislocated at the top joint. It gets me terrified since I'm a guitar player and extremely keen on keeping my fingers intact. I keep looking at the finger as if this alone would fix it. Actually, I think it does after a while but I keep looking at it at least 4-5 times.

The dream sign candidate is that I repeatingly keep looking at my finger, as the hand-looking is my most common reality test.

For a while I'm in a pretty large wooden house right next to a dark forest. Possibly I'm seeing someone in the house, it could be my dad. My long-time friend Sofia visits me in this house for a short while and then she disappears again. As she is so dear to me I decide to go looking for her. I happen to know she must be hiding in the forest so I step up through the tree border and start the hide and seek. This section is pretty vague but I believe she has a hideout beneath a big rock some distance into the forest. She's not there but I still know she should be there.

I continue into the dark spruce forest (just as in the picture but darker). Eventually I reach a deserted barn which is way to big to just have been forgotten or negliged by people. It might be up to 20x10 meters in size. As I walk through the open entrance I see all the hay that's inside. A big mountin right on the floor. I scan the interior of the barn and see that there's a sort of second floor upstairs with a big hole in the middle ie. for throwing up or down the hay for more storage I suppose. Right above me and slightly to the left I feel that there's someone starring at me. It starts to speak to me and I realize it must be a forest gnome. It doesn't present itself and I never dare to look at it but I still know it..

Old common dream signs are pops and the ol' gnome. And the dark forest as well.

I'm in a place very similar to the living room of my parents house. A woman I've been in love with for a while, Linda, is sitting next to me in a couch. I'm on the right side and she's on the left in the brown leather couch. I've taken this time to say goodbye to Linda since my plane leaves in just a couple of hours, I've no idea on where I'm heading though. There are some serious feelings involved and I believe we express our feelings towards one and other. There could be some talking about pregnancy since she suddenly starts to pull her shirt up and stroke her bare belly, which has freckles on it by the way.

As we sit there and I get really emotional I forget about time and when I finally check the clock on the wall it shows that I've got about 30 minutes until my plane leaves. Even though I panic on the inside I "keep my cool" and start to walk into the kitchen to find the number to a cab. There's only some five year old, out of date number available and I ask Linda for help. The dream ends somewhere here and I feel a mix of panic and great sorrow within.

Linda is a reoccuring dream person, probably since she is of such great importance to me. Dream sign in the clock watching!

At first I ride on a train on my own. A dark, gloomy train with blood-red interior. The train going through dark, gloomy forests below a mountain. Later on my family joins me on the returning trip with the same train. My sister happen to find a row of seats for all of us and we sit down in satisfaction. Suddenly someone in the family pulls out a bottle of orange lemonade and I take the responsibility to serve the glasses. As I already hold the bottle, I ask the rest of the people in our carriage if they would like to have a taste. I find myself serving lemonade to complete strangers...

As I am expecting a visit from a distant friend, Johanna, for the first time in months, I'm pretty excited about it. Especially since I find her very attractive. She arrives to Sweden and me and another friend pick her up in a big car/limousine. My friend is happy to see me as well and she gives me a kiss on the mouth. My other friend instantly shows signs of jealousy.

Later on, me and my visiting friend are at my childhood friend Christian's cottage. He lives by a beautiful lake (resembles of the one at my dad's place). While johanna's doing something ellse I'm talking to Christian and his wife separately about my feelings towards the girl. As I'm talking to Johanna again she's giving me the news that she will be staying for longer than planned and that she's going to spend that time with me only. I have a hard time hiding my content feelings here...

I'm in a conversation with a french guy I met in Australia last year, Eddie. He looks exactly as I remember him; pretty sturdy, tanned and bearded.

It's New years Eve and I'm on a bus in a city at night. My parents sit right behind me and there's a little girl sleeping in my lap. Some random dude sits right next to me and I wonder if it is his child that I'm taking care of....

I'm about to visist my little sister Rebecca. She's 20 years old and liver in an appartement in my home village. In this dream she lives on the top level of a big house. I walk up the narrow wooden stairs and suddenly halt. Sis has not put down the curtains on her window and I can, too clearly, see her and her boyfriend having sex in the bed. I quickly turn around hoping they didn't spot me in their "pleasure". Probably I'm blushing.

One dream includes me visiting a dear old friends house, Emelie S's, in my hometown of Hudiksvall. I sneak into the seemingly empty garden and enter the front door. I shout something but no one's answering me except for the echo. Suddenly I'm upstairs with the twin sister to whom I'm looking for, Johanna. She's having some dinner party with a couple of cute friends. One of them walks up to me and gives me a kiss on the mouth. When I'm leaving the house I talk to the sisters father, Kjell, for a while.

There's a big festival going on in my hometown and me, Rob and Matt are about to camp there during the whole party. There are several similarities with RockWeekend in reality. THe camping area is in the forest right above the hospital. We have a big trouble finding some decent grounds to put up the tent onto. Most "free" areas are covered with stubs. Yet we find a small narrow spot were our sleeping bags merely fit. As soon as we get the tent ready something bad happens downtown and we start to run to the aid of someone. I grab a long stick as I go, as an attack device..

I'm in the town of Härnösand for some reason and I don't have anywhere to sleep. I meet Markus Kajava in a parking lot. Then I go to the old hotel in which I've lived before. The caretaker is right outside the entrance and she actually finds me a vacant room. It's the one just to the right when entering the building. THere's a computer and a TV inside. I'm pretty pleased.

My mother gives me a call and she starts to reel off about a bunch of negative stuff that's suddenly happened. Among them that my grandfathers wife has died. However, when I ask her about it again it turns out that it's actually my grandfather who's died. Right then I get a sort of flashback to when grandfather hid a key for me to find. It was hidden some distance into the forest behind a red cottage.

"Old" dream persons...

I'm hanging out with a really cute, blond woman in about my age. We're in a really dusk environment outside some houses. It really reminds me of the Tristram level in Diablo 2! Anyhow, this girl is working in this area as some kind of guide and I'm visiting her. At the end of one of the streets there's a cell-like cage with iron bars just like in those old medieval times. It is not more than 2x3 metres in size and has only a bunk as furnishing. Also, there's a cricket club in a corner with a small ball next to it. Now, throughout the dream I'm visiting this cage several times and I'm being convinced that the cage is haunted by a phantom, possibly manifested in this club. For example I see the club fall apart at one occasion, and also that it is moving by itself. The woman doesn't seem to agree on my conviction even though she is in the cell with me a couple of times.

I wake up several times during the dream, horrified by the haunted club of doom

Me and an old classmate from uni (Ida N) is standing by a red brick house, looking at some kind of balcony. We're walking around the area as well, speculating about where "the other people are located in the house".

I'm hanging out with a good old friend of mine, Andreas K.. and his girlfriend. He picks me up in his car as I walk along a road. Probably in the hospital area in my hometown.

I find myself looking at a photo session of a local rock band here in town. Among them, in the upper right corner, is Dave Grohl from Foo Fighters. I'm assuming he's in the band and I get a bit jealous.

This dream is basicly structured as a FPS-computer game such as Alien vs. Predator. Me and some other people are living in a mountain village where the houses basicly lies on the rocky plateaus. Suddenly, panic strucks us inhabitants as we discover that bloodsucking hi-tech goats have entered the village through one of the walls!

Now, the first couple of "lives" in this scenario I repeatingly get killed by these macabre beasts. Finally I start the "level" as one of them ie. I see (as a weapon in my view") a sharp clawed paw. Now it gets really messy as I turn against my race and start to kill other über goats. Sick.

At first I'm standing next to a cute girl (who reminds me of a girl I actually met the night before this dream). For some reason she shows one of her breasts and suddenly someone puts a leech on it! Utterly disturbing, I know....

Me and a girl are swimming in a really dramatic environment. It looks like a extremely (brown/grey) rocky coastline with high, steep rock walls from the water up to the shoreline. And I get the impression that the water is very cold as well. We're diving in these waters for a while and occasionally I get worried that the girl has drowned, although she shows up under the surface just as the thought strikes my mind...

Irl, one of my dearest old childhood friends lost his father to suicide a couple of years ago but we´ve never spoken about the whole thing. In this dream, however, Andreas send me a hand-written letter where he tell how he's taken the loss of his father and how hard it's been to talk about it with us pals.