Thread: Alexial's dream journal

Hehe well hey everybody. I'm new on here. And am currently very sleepy, but I wanted to get this down. First I want to just post up a dream I had a while ago, simply because it was a very emotional one...

So I've known this guy for almost a year, and the that particular night I was thinking about him quite a lot. We were close friends for a while, then I let slip that I liked him... and I got rejected. It was a big mistake to let something like that slip... because I already knew he liked somebody else. And after that we weren't as close... and for the sake of trying to get over him, I went out with someone else, but that didn't help... And after around 3 months, I broke it off. This dream happened close to when I wanted to break up.

I was feeling so utterly depressed in my dream. I couldn't bare the sight of seeing him (the guy who I truly liked). It was a restaurant of some sort... I remember the distinct colour of white. He was sitting quite far away, but I could still make out his face. I can't remember if I smiled at him or not when I saw him as I walked in. I only remember looking him straight in the face... he was semi-surprised to see me? I walked away briskly, feeling my insides squirm with discomfort. As I said, I couldn't even bare seeing him. I sat down at a far away table... and I looked up to see him looking back at me. I put my hands in my hair and stared down at the table... emotions wrenching at my heart. I took a glance at him again, to see him frustrated as well. I remember feeling like I wanted to cry again. And a significant happiness to see him feeling just like I did. He got up and was walking towards me. He was crying. At this point, I wasn't crying, but on the verge. He reached out for me and we hugged. I held onto him so tightly, and it was both painful and comforting. I was definitely crying by now. And the thoughts of my ex (was still bf when i had the dream) slipped by as well. I thought about what he would think if he saw us. As I was holding onto him, I asked him, "Why?" (as in why have things turned out like this?) But I can't remember any other dialogue. The fact that he was crying already meant a lot to me. We stopped hugging... I think, and I took his hand. Just like I had so many times before. And I think it meant that I would try to work things out, so that I could be with him. But of course... that's just a dream.

Recently... hmm... I actually managed to realize that I was dreaming in my dream. But I wasn't able to see the person I wanted to see. I tried too hard by trying to figure out how I'd get to his house in the 'dream world'. And then I just fell back into normal dreaming. Now I know that I could actually try calling him up or something.

A lot of my dreams are set back in Hong Kong, at my primary school. I guess it's because that's my most favourite place in the whole world. I spent 4 years at that school. I would see my favourite teachers and usually talk to them, or be doing something with them. In my head, I would usually be thinking that I travelled back to Hong Kong from Australia. I only take these trips every 2 years in real life. It's always a bit weird because I don't remember the plane ride.

I dreamt of a beautiful lake/waterfall two nights ago... it was so pretty! The water was clear blue and I looked down upon it from the rocks. But then a friend was telling me it was time to go, I obviously wanted to stay, then the alarm woke me up. And I was like damnit xD

I've also had random dreams of kissing celebrities. So far, I've kissed Daniel Radcliffe, a Hong Kong actor I've liked for a long time, and weirdly enough, Paris Hilton.... And yes I'm a girl... >.>

And I've met Jim Carrey in my dreams quite a few times... but not anymore lately. It happened a lot more when I was obssessing over him. I'm a big fan of his movies and I see him as one of my heroes. Made me laugh when I was really down. One time I got his autograph in the dream, I was so happy when that happened, but when I woke up and found out it was a dream.... that sucked!! xD And mostly I meet him as a fan, it didn't come up as if I was his friend or anything, which makes sense because I don't know him in real life

I was thinking if I'm able to lucid dream again, I'd search him out and then pretend to have a really good conversation with him That would be really cool~ Other lucid dreaming goals... searching out that guy I like and then kissing him... given that I can't do that in real life *sigh* Flying of course, I envy my sister who's done it a few times already, but not lucid, she just dreamt it. Even more cool would be to swing from building to building like Spider-man!!

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