Thread: Ash's Dream Journal

March 19, 2008

Photography
Im walking down a campus street its dark out theres a busy street like a highway, im trying to get across with some friends, and i compare it to frogger, just like XC practice. There are a few people who have already made it 1/2 way into the street and are crouching in the diving line, with cameras taking pictures of the oncoming traffic, one of them is sung-ho[a classmate of mine], the other reminds me of Jay Lee [The schools journalism phtographer] and the last is some random adult professional photographer, i get the feeling that they are trying to take a long shutter speed picture of the traffic so the light is blurred, when the coast is clear for the 1/2 of the street closest to me, i run out, i cross in front of the path of the professional photographer, right when his flash goes off. He's pissed at me for messing up his shot, Sung walks out of the street complaining about his camera. i take a look at it, see if i can set it to what i normally use to get pictures like that. Its too dark to see anything, i walk blindly along the edge of the street, i think i find him, it turns out to be my sister, i cant see who it is, but i accidently take a video with the camera turned upside down [so its facing the sky] and i get the image of me standing next to my sister [hannah] briefly. her face is a bit distorted, as if someone had stetched it out and pulled the corners down like stickytack or something. i realize its not sung im talking to, and ask her if she's seen him

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Indifference to Evil
The next thing i know, its daytime and im on a campus where my sister goes to college, the street im on runs East West, and im walking west on it, im on the left hand side of the road, on the sidewalk, i find her building, walk up the stairs out front, climb a second set of stairs, reach her dorm room/Apt. and go in, she's standing there normal now, in the kitchen of the apt. which is the very first room you walk into. shes got some friends of hers who are girls there, i go to show her how to use the camera but find out that the model is different than mine and its still a canon but i cant work the controls right, and its a little bit embarassing, the roomate of hannahs, a white girl with brown hair, shorter and thin, [someone i recognize from hannahs pictures from college but dont think i ever actually met] giggles something about making sure my hands are clean when i touch her camera. and another girl whos there repeats the same thing, then im confused because i thought the camera was sungs, and also why my hands would be dirty. Its embarassing and i feel out of place, i dont really know how to react. Sometime later i leave. im walking back east of the campus street, im on the same side i came down on, i pass a bank with a basement entrance, and i see two guys in black ski masks at the bottom of the stairs trying to force their way in the door, i look around and i see another guy in a ski mask to my immediate left keeping watch, i feel threatened, i look upwards, pretend not to notice anything and keep walking just a few steps ahead of me theres a railing surrounding the other stairway down, i jump over it and drop down just so i can continue walking in a straight line, a few guys in ski masks become alarmed and run to the edge, thinking i was involving myself somehow or i might hinder them. i pointedly look away from everything around me and walking back up the staircase i continue on my way.

The night of this dream I had watched Boondock Saints with some friends and a main theme in that movie is that a huge problem in the world is the indifference of people to good and evil. My willingness to look the other way out of concern for my own saftey, i think, shows that.

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Doing Just Fine
JO [my ex gf] drives by my house. AC [her best friend] in the passanger seat, she slows down a bit, but pointedly doesnt look at my house, shes laughing and has a hoodie on. Im standing in the front yard. I have a white car, kinda old, not in terrible condition though, i have the urge to jump in it and race of after her just so i can show her that im out living my life and having fun, on my own. But then my niece appears out of nowhere and is sick, so i need to stay there and take care of her.

The night of this dream I was hanging out with some friends, they wanted to stop by JO's house, i was riding in the passenger seat of the car, we ended up pulling into her driveway, but i wasnt going to get out of the car, so after sitting there for a few minutes and arguing about whether or not we would go up to the door, we backed out and drove off. I think thats where this might have come from.

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Strange
Some guy like doofey from scary movie was in this dream. he acted retarded and everyone thought he was and didnt suspect him of anything, but he wasnt really, he was dangerous, i saw him sit right behind this guy, and steal something and lie about something and i had a feeling that it was part of something bigger and dangerous, but no one else did, i tried to explain it to two people but i couldnt quite articulate it right.

I woke up at 2am and recorded the following dreams, i got on DV forum and browsed around for about 45min, then went back to bed at 3am.

March 20, 2008

Talking with LJ [my gf] on the phone, she says something about coming over. She lives up North, she would be taking a wire brass wire framed sled with a piece of red cloth draped over the inside as a floor. As Im talking with her, Im on the roof of my grandmothers house. I got there by jumping from her driveway to her garage roof, up again to the roof of her house. I complain about how am I going to get down off the roof, LJ tells me to be careful. My little brother S is on the ground, he shows me the way he always takes to get down, but I disregard it.

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Im driving in a green car down the street that my grandmother lives on. Im riding in the back seat, my sister H is riding in the passenger seat and J [her bf] is driving. She tells J how I'm, "really respectful, and stuff" J replies, "No he's not, i was just over there [referring to my grandmothers house] and he was giving S a hard time chewing his green gum [it was "5" rain flavored] then i become aware that I'm chewing the same green gum that very moment.

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Working someplace with McCourt and Jarret fixing posters in my room. McCourts just turned 17 so now he can work the machinery. J is telling me how in this one poster of Bob Marley I have, he has a "spank face" on [Ive got no idea where the heck that came from, lol]. And that my Led Zeppelin poster is "Really, really shitty, bro."

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These were dreams that I had after 3am, that I remembered this morning when I woke up at 7am.

[just a forewarning, this is a weird dream, and unless you play World of Warcraft, it wont make sense... even if you do it probably wont, but it will make less sense if you don't play, lol. I feel like a huge dork for having this dream, but never the less, i did. so here it goes]

I'm running around a WoW night elf starting area type of place. I'm a horde character and in enemy territory. I'm out numbered and trying to avoid people. I accidentally agro two centaurs, they start attacking me with bows. I run off the path into the woods, and a pack of hounds sees me and starts chasing me. I need to wait until they're within 5ft of me to frost nova them, its nerve racking because they keep getting closer and closer, if this doesn't work then I'm dead. Finally right as they jump at me I do it, and it works. I run away.

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I'm still in WoW, still in enemy territory, but now there's a street [modern day type of street]. With streetlights, cars, and pedestrians. Almost everyone is an enemy as far as my eye can see. The ones who aren't are avoiding detection and cant help me out if i were to get attacked someone sees me and is about to attack, but i think on my feet and say that i really am on his side, but it shows me as red because i accidentally assaulted a police officer. He buys it and repeats it loud enough for the entire street to hear. The whole street gives a sigh of understanding, I'm safe.

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My grandmother gave me a purple kite. Its amazing and Flies great, its night time, the moonlight illuminates the street, its kinda foggy and wet, as if it had just finished raining.

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LJ takes me to her friend Emily's house. As we walk up to the front door some dogs wander up. LJ warns me that I need to pet Emily's dogs or else they'll bite. We walk into her house and are standing in the living room. Emily's mother is there. LJ doesn't introduce me, I have the feeling that I'm supposed to be Emily's teacher now that she is being home schooled.

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I have $5 to get Burger King for lunch. I'm in my family's white minivan. My dad and I split up to get lunch. I'm getting mine at this BK, my dad went to the other one and I'll meet him there afterwords. I'm pulling up in line for the drive through, a huge line of cars starts coming up from behind, I'm almost there and i don't want to be stuck in line for another 10 minutes behind them, so I swerve into the other lane, almost cutting them off. The guy directly behind me, in a big white van with an orange ladder on top is Larry [an electrician who i worked with when i was helping my dad do some remodeling to a house]. Suddenly he appears in the passenger seat of my van, smoking a cigarette. We order food, as we're waiting to pull up to pay I realize that we ordered exactly five items, and that all I have is a $5 bill. So even if each item was $1, i still wouldn't have enough for tax. I realize that I've got to ask Larry to pitch in a little because we ordered food for him too. Larry finishes his cigarette, grabs it with his thumb and first finger and with his palm facing his face. He throws it out the window quickly, Im suprised he didnt ash on himself.

The only thing that I can connect with this is that the night of this dream I had gone to taco bell and had $5 of change afterwards, also I finished my cigarette at the drive through while I was waiting for my order to get ready, and pitched it out the window. I didnt do that wierd hand thing that Larry did though...

• Spin or Summon something while lucid
• Freeze time in my dream
• Ask some profound questions of my DCs
• Just take a step back while lucid and observe what happens without influencing it
• Extend my dream time
  

September 10, 2008


Im in a huge building, it feels like a rich kid boarding school. I go down to the schools garage because I remember that my friend told me we all have new cars waiting for us. I walk over to the one he said was mine, its an orange Lamborghini, I get in the drivers seat and take a look at it, it has a plastic dashboard with a wood grain design, it has a cassette player, CD player, and nice stereo. then I look and the keys are in the door. My friend tells me that he’s been holding onto my car for the last week and taking care of it for me.
Ive got to pack two pairs of clothes for high school retreat
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WoW group running around, some buff or powerup they have lets them kill the first enemy they see.
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Richie, Tyler, Dk are waiting for me.
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Im in the top floor of the school, I have to make some decision or someone gets killed, I hit my head against the window and when I look up at it, the fog marks look like the face of the person.
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Richie cant find the things he packed
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Aimee went crazy, we were driving on opposite sides of the road headed toward eachother and she swerves into my lane, shes psycho. I drive through a chainlink fence and the side of her van is scratched up.
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Dk’s dad is telling me about how he got his son (5 or 7 years old) a debit card, to get him used to the responsibility. It has $5 on it.
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Mrs.D (jr high English teacher) at retreat, looking for place to make announcements, theres a park bench table not too far away, I pull it up.
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Donna is telling me about how her dad said she had to get a job and how she has a habbit of lying to make her situation sound worse than it really is.

Monday 9/15/08
Tyler, Dk, Andi and me break into a house while the lady was at work. The door was unlocked. We were walking down a hallway a few feet lower that the first floor, so the windows were about half the height of a regular window. A man walks by (a friend of the lady) we ducked and dove behind a door to the bedroom, the door has slats on it, we can see him through it. andi and dk are still in the hall, but they are right up against the wall of the window so he cant see them. he gets a strange look on his face and pulls out his phone, i think he saw us. I imagine that he is saying "youre not home, but there are some kids in your house, should i call the cops?" I look behind me and notice im in the ladys bedroom, theres a bathroom door in her bedroom, she has a pink and white stripped underwear spread out on her floor.
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Tyler, Dk, Andi and me are outside some place, her dad is there. The dream is fading now but i think i remember something about a pool or... no no, andi was hurt or something, more than just her broken ankle. she needs to heal and recover. The place feels like Andi's front yard, but it looks nothing like it.

9/24/08
XC race or army march, im wearing a XC jersey. We're inside running 3 laps around this building. Mrs.Edwards is there. Suddenly the few students turn into a kind of whole army, and Mr.David is shouting a kind of chant so we will keep pace. He says something about how he can yell and make us go faster, or he can yell and make everyone shut up. Mr.Davis also says something about each of us should be close to our commanders, so they wont lose heart and turn on us, or betray us. So i go to the back of the line, where our three commanders are facing off against the other commanders of the next squadron or something, i say something to them, try to make them feel like theyve got connections and friendships in this squadron so they wont desert in the face of the enemy. Which is strange because we are all on the same side, but it feels like the other squadrons are a kind of enemy. Right after I finish running I go to the end of the hall and sit at the desk and start playing the computer game (the princess and the goblin or something) little girl comes up to me and hands me this hybrid plant [its a standard reward that everyone will recieve one of when they finish the race its part onion and vilarium(?)] but its fallen over, and not staight, some of the dirt is falling out of the pot, I need both hands for mouse and keyboard to play the game, but I stop playing and look at her, her mother is sitting behind her, and tells her that im busy and not to bother me. She then looks at me, smiling, and apologizes for her daughter interrupting me. I say its allright, and smile at the kid, take the plant and say thank you very much.

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Constance and Rick have a huge library in their upstairs of their house. It must have cost thousands upon thousands of dollars.

01/22/09


Im with E in catlin, we're driving around her school, the parkinglot is huge, but its deserted. She says it ususally takes 10-15 minutes just to get out of here when school is in session. As we come to the end of it we can either go straight, turn right or go left. straight and right both end up in the middle of a huge river behind the school. she decides to go straight
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Im lying on my back looking up at the sky. I sit up and realize that Im floating on a small piece of plywood in the middle of the lake with emily swimming just a little way away. Im trying figure out why E is in the water when its the middle of winter and when suddenly the front end of the board drops into the water and im plunged into icy cold water. Everythings pitch black and I feel like im plummeting down really fast, I try to move my arms to start swimming back to the surface, but I cant move at all. I hear E screaming my name from up above and Im scared that shes going to try to swim down and see if Im allright.
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2/2/09

Im driving E's car around catlin, with E and LJ in the backseat. We're about to turn left off of webber onto the main road, I let off the brake, and look left just in time to see a cop car coming our way, im already too far out to let him by so i hit the gas and cut him off. I remember I have weed on me and dont want to get pulled over, so I try to act normal as he passes us. Then we pass two more cops up ahead. There was some kind of accident or something. We turn left into the gas station. E and LJ get out and run inside holding hands like theyre best friends.

Im lying outside on the ground with emily. Its raining, but the water doesnt bother us, we're perfectly comfortable. We're planning on spending the night outside together.

Dont Blink

Im sitting with my parents and family at their house, Im not sure why I'm here. Everyone is having a good time though. Then, all of the sudden my sister brings a pile of gifts out from the other room and tells me its time for me to open them. Finally I realize... its my 20th birthday. As I try to look back over the last year I realize I cant remember anything about it, and it feels like I just had a birthday the other day. The year flew by in the blink of an eye and I cant help but wonder if thats how the rest of my life is going to pass me by.