Thread: Awesome Application For Ld...

The only advice I can really give you is make sure you really wanna know what you wanna know. Because if you have any doubts, I'm positive you will have 0 success accessing that part of your subconscious.

Do you have someone strong to support you emotionally should you end up becoming overwhelmed by long repressed emotions that might be stored along with the supressed memories?

That'd be my main concern if I were going to attempt to exhume memories through dreaming... especially since emotions in dreams are severely amplified. It'd be benificial to have someone you trust completely to be there for you should you dig up something unexpectedly tramatising or highly emotional.

I'd say find that trusted someone first and clue them in to what you're about to do and what might come of it. If you don't have anyone like that in your life but are determined to continue on with this, be extremely careful. This is potentially volatile territorry that you're endeavoring to tread on.

Either way... best of luck if you do go through with this.

What if you just make it all up? how will you know? I don't mean to naysay, but how can you possibly tell the difference between a repressed memory, and a really traumatizing LD? I guess you might be able to know, because it is a memory, and will... I dunno. Autosuggestion or hypnosis (HILD) are the methods I would suggest. Sorry, I'm not very helpful

Kitten thanks for advice, i agree with what you said. By the very nature of a repressed memory, retrieving it will be a very traumatic experience. I have some really good people in my life who know about what i am doing, and they are here to support me completely.

And sprout thanks for your responses. It is something i need to know, its the only way for me to move on with my life. I will know that it is the truth when i see it, because i will also feel it, and re-experience it, and it will be familiar. And that part kinda scares me a bit, but i wouldnt be doing it if it wasnt absolutely necessary.

I will keep you posted with any progress.

Sp.

I wish you the best of luck, Sparrower. I really hope you find what you're looking for.

Wow, I can relate that with you because I did a similar memory-retrieving technique recently (my suppressed memories ended up being revealed in real live instead of inside a dream, it was very heavy). I will share what I have discovered/experienced so far and what was the key of retrieving my suppressed memories.

I, too, had heavy traumatic pasts that I, unconsciously, had them suppressed very deep in my unconsciousness. I was completely unaware I did that, but somehow at a certain point, I became more aware that I indeed had some awful pasts and I know I remember fragments of this and this, but it didn't make sense. I have noticed there were some time gaps that I could not remember (my friends would claim this and this and I would not remember any at all). I also developed first phobia ever out of nowhere after having a wisdom teeth surgery (let me share this so you can understand what I say later on).

The dentist surgeon and his nurse were getting me prepared to undergo the surgery by using an I.V. with general anesthesia. I was preparing myself to fall asleep consciously (at least that was my goal). As usual, I was very nervous that things might go wrong and I would never come out of deep sleep, but I know the odd is low since they seem to know what they are doing… although, I could not get rid of my anxiety so they put a relaxing medicine in my I.V. The surgeon said, “It will help you to relax.” He smiled and assured me that I didn’t need to worry. I was really curious how general anesthesia works on me and if I could fall asleep consciously like a lucid coma (lol)… I watched the surgeon getting up after giving me the relaxing medicine…
… Black void. My heart was beating slowly and in rhythm. In infinite distance, I felt a gentle tap. It came closer and closer, and then I realized that somebody was tapping my shoulder. Immediately, I opened my eyes and saw my mom’s face. I felt my mouth and realized that the surgery was already over. Suddenly, I felt threatened and started to bawl without knowing why. I freaked out about not remembering anything.

Ever since this experience, I panic every time I go to my dentist and it was my first phobia ever. I was aware that the fear was unreal, but I could not help it. Every time I reviewed on this experience, I would experience a very vivid flashback and become very emotional when I get to the “waking up” part. It was very awful. I didn’t know why I had this and I thought that was very strange.

Eventually, I felt ready to face whatever I have inside my suppressed memories. I started to try and confront my memories in my lucid dream. Slowly, I woke up and would have an insane flashback about pieces that I forgot later on in the day. It would send me shivering in the corner sometimes. I even hugged my blue teddy because sometimes I felt like I was a kid trapped in those memories while I was retrieving them. It was very intense and… cold? Yes, cold. Very dry, cold, and cruel. I felt like I was going insane mentally. At first, I wished I didn’t touch that and left it suppressed, but later as I retrieved more memories, I began to realize that I could use them to help other people. I have whole first-hand experiences on my hands that I can use to help. Time by time, I slowly confronted them and began to accept them as part of who I am (at first I tried to deny them because they were awful and I rather not share them now… they are very personal and mmm, well I still feel threatened if I share it).

Few weeks ago, I faced my last fear with suppressed memories. I was meditating and I became emotional because of the flashback of my wisdom teeth surgery. It was painful and intense at the end. At first, I was puzzled and confused about this then soon I came to understand that the source of my suppressed memories and fears were the source of my unconscious area! I hid them in there! It WAS the reason I woke up bawling. It was because I went to sleep and saw those memories and again suppressed them upon waking up! It made completely sense to me! I realized that they were just suppressed and that I have nothing to fear since I already have confronted my suppressed memories. At this instant moment, I no longer shiver when I retrieve that surgery moment! I felt free and still feel free from my fears!

It was the most wonderful feeling! Now, those suppressed memories don’t hurt me anymore like they used to. Now, I see them as my luxury side of who I am. I see them as my experiences so I can help others. And, I believe that it is one of the rare gifts that anybody can have because it make me wiser and more empathic toward others.

Sorry for the long post, I just wanted to share what I have experienced. Just don’t ever underestimate your suppressed memories. They ARE suppressed for a good reason! Although, if you feel ready to retrieve them, be sure to do it with supporting people. I have few online friends (including my boyfriend) that helped me through it. I don’t know how far I could go without them! I am very grateful for them!

If you feel the need to share, please feel free to reply here (or pm me), I will check here regularly. I can try to help only if you want. I wish you the best with your suppressed memories journey and that they will help you to become a stronger being.

Thanks for sharing your story DM. Congratulations on your success and happiness

Originally Posted by Sparrower

Thanks for sharing your story DM. Congratulations on your success and happiness
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Thank you. I am sorry if my long post scared you off.
I wish you the best!