I used to do shit like that...Then I got my own comp, and then I discovered porn hub...And now my imagination has atrophied

So...pretty much every single night before i go to sleep for 1 hour i roleplay in my head. Lately i been imagining about a woman outside my door screaming because her ex boyfriend is after her, so i open the window and invite her in, and she's soaking wet because it's raining hard outside, it gets really hardcore after that so i wont go into details, but i normally don't finish because i get bored so i redo it from scratch and find a different way to approach the scenerio. This even happens when i am at work everyday, i do it to pass by the day while i work quickly, or when i see a woman walk by (yes, i am a pig).
Does this make me some type of sex-a-holic without the sex or something? I don't care how it makes me look, i can't live without roleplaying in my head and i've been doing it for many many years now (age 18, i am 25 now, you do the math).
Is this some type of problem i should seek help? it's starting to take controll of my life more and more. Most of the time when i see a female, i start getting into this but if i don't then i start wondering "why can't i do it with her". I feel uncomfortable writing this, but what needs to be said should be said.
While it was not much of a problem back then when i was younger, i'm getting older and it's getting worse and worse by the year. I don't wanna be 40 and talking like this or thinking like this all day and all the time, i know some people like this and it's bloody annoying being around these people.
BTW i can't get into porn, it's not the same. I can't use my imagination as well as i can when i'm thinking up scenerios.
I used to do shit like that...Then I got my own comp, and then I discovered porn hub...And now my imagination has atrophied

But i don't wanna be some 40 year old who can't stop making dumb sex jokes, and going "i'd do her" all day long. I went out with one of the customers ( a guy, just hung out, not a date, i don't swing that way), and everytime i went out with him all he ever did was make sex jokes, say "i'd do her", and everything else all night long, every time we hung out, so i stopped hanging out with him except when he came to my work, you got no idea how annoying it is. I take a look at him, and i don't want my future to look like that. Not judging him, but i don't wanna be down the same path he's on when i am his age.
I do this.
Theres this thing called self control...
Bollocks.

I do this, but it usually excludes the sex part. I usually imagine myself in a zombie movie or something.
Sometimes, I don't allow myself to fall asleep because I feel like I have to finish the story beforehand.

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