Hi. I'm hoping someone could help me.
Breif backround on previous experience.
My fiance, Ed died 4 months ago. I thought I was awake during all of this and I felt everything. This happened about 2 weeks ago. I was laying in bed. I feel like something is pushing me up, like something is under me. I'm being pushed further and further up and each time I hear like a loud gushing wind sound (I'm not sure how else to describe the noise). I felt something under me..I wondered what it was, kinda scared but decided to just let it happen..I felt pushed more and more in sync w/ a gushing wind sound. I was afraid to turn around to see what it was, but I did and I saw Ed's face. He looked like he was sleeping. He's covered in my blankets w/ me but I saw his arm. He was wearing an orange sweater w/ other colors in it. I took his hand I could feel his warmth. I could feel his hand. I'm like oh my god I can feel you. I'm like "no no no Ed I can feel you I love you so much" and I opened my eyes ( I guess really waking up) and everything was gone.

So, last night I have this crazy experience that I thought was similar, but it was not pleasant at all. I didn't see Ed this time and I actually was so freaked out I almost wanted my mommy. Here it goes:I was in bed. This time I was on my stomach. Same pushing, same noise that I can't describe for the life of me (gushing wind, loud stereo static? whatever) So, I'm like ok just let it happen, so I did. I forced open my eyes and I saw my blanket. Then I looked around and it looked like my room but like with a greyish tone to it...very weird. But I still couldn't move. I was trying so hard to move. I was so scared. I was trying to move my head when I saw like a growth from my head..kinda looked like a brain...and I was like "ok, so why do I have a tumor!?" Still trying to move I called out to ed..I had no voice. I'm like ok.. so maybe if I'm out of body I don't have one.. so I used my mind and called out to him again. Still no Ed...finally I floated? moved? away from my bed and I looked at my bed.. I'm like if I'm out of body I should see myself sleeping. I saw the blankets ( when I woke up i was pretty much covered in them anyway prob wouldn't of been able to see me) and I also saw a vision of a cartoon cat the size of a sticker floating a couple inches above the bed...ok so I'm like that's it.. i wanta wake up..as I was waking up I said "ed, will you marry me?" I have no idea why I said that. I woke up on my stomach.

If anyone can tell me what that was it would be greatly appreciated. I especially need help w/ the kitty sticker and the "tumor". What's that all about? Thanks to all who suffered through the long post.

~Gina