Perhaps you were born without a corpus collosum.
Does anyone here ever feel like...
Like their entire existence is really a division being held together by one body?
Like part of you wants one thing and there's another part that wants something completely opposite?
I've read about the ID and SUPEREGO of psychology, and maybe that's true for all things. Maybe we're all fractured souls, desperately trying to hold onto the singular bodies we have.
Or maybe I'm alone.. because it seems to me that everyone around me... the people that are supposedly my "peers" ...
they all seem to know what they want, who they are, and what it means to be one person...one soul.
***
Thoughts??
"The inevitability of death is not what makes us human: it's the perpetual possibility of love."
MY SEMI-COHERENT DREAMJOURNAL: http://www.dreamviews.com/community/...ad.php?t=70945
Achievements:
Perhaps you were born without a corpus collosum.
Art
The ability to happily respond to any adversity is the divine.
Dream Journal Shaman Apprentice Chronicles
How do souls have desire?
"Reality is merely an illusion, albeit a very persistent one." -Einstein
The truth is that everyone feels like this. It is called anomia. It means "nameless".
Once you find your passion for something, then you will feel purpose. It is pscyhologically feeling the lack of purpose or contribution to society. You likely feel alone and as though you have nothing to offer others but see that others do. However, you fail to see that there are actually more people that feel the same than otherwise. That does not help, but I am just saying that don't despair!
The fact that you posted this distinguishes you from others by one thing - motivation to understand it. Many will just wallow. You, however, show a motivation to express frustration with it, a desire to overcome it.
Keep that passion. Read. Listen. Try new things. Watch/read/eat things you would normally never do or know nothing about. I went through a random movie renting phase and you'd be surprised how rewarding it can be (it's how I found Jacob's Ladder and Requiem for a Dream; I knew nothing about them beforehand).
What do you think..?
~
Just search for a purpose to your life. Be honest with yourself, it isn't hard.
soft she stirs on starlit sand,
and clasps wet shore within her hand.
she turns to face the silent seas,
and through her heart, a vital breeze.
she wonders at this strange new land.

I'm not entirely sure what you mean.
IF you could maybe try putting it another way :s
Kyrie Eleison.
I agree with carou, please be more specific maybe.
Thanks for the responses everyone, it means a lot that you took the time out to read.
While searching for purpose is vital and somewhat never-ending, I really posted this for another problem:
My problem is that I feel that so much of who I am is a conflict. My deepest thoughts and desires are in direct contrast with other desires of mine/ my actual actions.
How can it be that half of me stands for one thing, and the other half stands for the exact opposite?
I'll probably be able to find a place amongst others and somewhat of a purpose in life, but I'm still just lost in myself. I don't fit in my own skin.
I'm two clashing sides in one. I'm still a dichotomy, and it's difficult.
"The inevitability of death is not what makes us human: it's the perpetual possibility of love."
MY SEMI-COHERENT DREAMJOURNAL: http://www.dreamviews.com/community/...ad.php?t=70945
So you have learned and understand two paradigms of understanding the world.
I suggest you do not try so hard to simply jump to one side or the other but naturally approach each from a neutral perspective and assess which makes most sense to you with the more information you gather.
Consider looking up phenomenology and epoche.
~
Like this?
Id, ego and superego.. I do not think that these three "aspects" of a being originate from fundamentally different "places". I think a human is a wholistic entity and to say that there are parts which are in control of another does not seem correct to me. Certainly, sometimes it feels like we are in inner conflict about decisions, and sometimes we follow instincts or act morally etc. But I don't think one has to divide the being into fundamentally different parts. A human is a whole. And not everything is due to childhood sexual experiences, that is just bad science and nonsense.
You are what you make yourself to be, from the things that are set in your life. It is possible to step back from the flow of your life and observe, and thus you are fundamentally free. The body, what you call "me" is perhaps psycho-biologically determined, but you are always more than yourself.
No matter what you say about a human, it always falls short of the full beauty of the being.
Last edited by gaia; 01-18-2009 at 01:42 PM.
"you only lose what you cling to"
Bookmarks