I'm extremely scared... what happened?

**TheCJ** · 05-08-2008 04:56 PM

This is the latest post from my dream journal.. I'm downstairs as I type this and I'm too scared to go back to my room, so it seems I'll be sleeping in here tonight. No way am I going back up there.

I had no luck with lucid dreaming last night so I decided to try WILDing tonight. While reading over the tutorials for WILDing I came across this one for Hypnosis Induced Lucid Dreaming and thought I'd try it out. I could never understand why the tutorials kept saying fear can keep you from LDing but now I do. I put earmuffs and a blindfold on and off I went.

When I started off, I wasn't sleepy at all. It was 8pm, whereas I usually go to sleep at around 2am.

I did all the counting excersises and started imagining there were weights on my body. After the first time, I thought "Hey this just might work". By the time I got to the third set of weights I felt like I couldn't move at all.. it was extraordinary. I felt completely attached to my bed and my mind was so relaxed. I started doing the other imagining excersises but I was so relaxed was sure it would only be a matter of time before I fell asleep.

I wasn't falling asleep so I kept re-doing all the counting techniques and mixing it with some things from the WILDing tutorials I've seen, such as imagining myself riding a horse.

Then it got really odd. I knew I was half awake but I could feel myself as if my body was two in one and the dream one was trying to escape. My mind was awake but my body wouldn't move even if I tried, but I didn't want it to, I wanted to dream, so I wasn't scared. I imagined a hole in front of me and someone pulling my other body out from the paralyzed one but it only ever got halfway.

I started to see things like tables and a different room through the hole and I could see people doing stuff through there as well. One of the people looked like me and I realised it was me, in the dream world. I didn't know how I got there because I only remembered halfway pulling myself through but there I was. It still felt like I was imagining it, though, and not dreaming it, because I couldn't *feel* it happening to myself, rather I could only see it on a sort of elevated level, like peeking through a hole in the ceiling to spy on the people upstairs. I wondered if this was part of a dream or if I was daydreaming so I looked at my watch and looked away and when I looked back again it was a random time. But I didn't feel like a dream, I can't really explain it.. everything was all blurry and.. imagined.. I don't know.

I tried to move my body to crawl through the hole but my real body jerked out of the paralysis and I woke up. I realised the room was much darker than I'd left it and when I checked the time it was an hour later, although my mind was practically awake the whole time and it only felt like 5 minutes.

I'm scared of the dark so as soon as I saw the room was getting dark I shut my eyes again and started counting, but I didn't imagine weights or anything because I was a little frightened of being stuck again. That's when I suppose I started really dreaming because I wasn't lucid in it, just scared shitless.

I was totally scared and looking around the room for someone to keep me calm then I saw my cousin Khadijah (who I have only seen for about 2 months in the 3 and a half years since I moved.) I was trying to explain to her what was so scary but she didn't understand.

I took her to another room and there was a painting of a sort of desert silhouette scene with cacti and a rolling dust ball thing and a purple background. For some reason the picture completely petrified me, as if it were a summary of all the things I was trying to explain to her and I started screaming.

She took me back into the other room (which was actually my old bedroom in Trinidad but I didn't realise at the time. Also there were no walls). We went on my laptop and I started looking for this forum to show to her and I came across the picture again. All of a sudden my whole body was paralysed and I couldn't stop staring at the picture. I realised something strange about it, the wind was blowing the ball in one direction but everything else in another direction. Then I woke up, sweating, realised it was dark, screamed and ran downstairs.

The picture looked a bit like this.. I tried to draw it but it's not exactly like it was in my dream. (Thank God.. or I'd probably be screaming right now.)

My hands are shaking as I type this and I'm too scared to go back into my room. I'm not sure what's so scary but I'm never going to try that again

Also.. the whole thing lasted three hours although it really only seemed like 10 minutes. I was so shocked when there was darkness all around me.

**Jdeadevil** · 05-08-2008 05:04 PM

I woudn't worry too much about it, these things are natural when you are into Lucid Dreaming induction. Yes it's scary as hell, but it'll come natural with experiece.

Cn · 05-08-2008 05:10 PM

I had a scary experience while WILD'ing a while ago, I heard power tools screaming away at my ear drums during SP, I avoided WILD for a week and decided to try again, they were gone, no problems since then. Please try again and don't give up, I'm sure the first time is the worst.

**Robot_Butler** · 05-08-2008 05:20 PM

I hate to say it, but it sounds like your WILD was successful. There is definitely some weirdness during the transition to sleep. Its so hard to describe, so people often don't include it in their write-ups of their WILDS. I think you did a great job of describing it.

It sounds like you were stuck in that transition period where your consciousness was switching focus from your 'real' body to your 'dream' body. This does not always happen. No two WILD experiences are alike. Sometimes they are smooth, sometimes bumpy. Try to enjoy the ride and don't be scared. Think of it as a cool video game.

Did anything actually happen that caused this fear? Or was it just the strangeness of it all? Does the whole concept of lucid dreaming scare you? Maybe you need to become more familiar with it, talk more with people who do it regularly, and realize it is totally natural, and nothing to be scared of.

Don't be discouraged. Take a break for a day or two, but try again soon. It sounds like you are making great progress.

Cn · 05-08-2008 05:28 PM

Yeah, like Robot_Butler said, some are bumpy, some are smooth. For instance, some of my WILD's start with me all of a sudden tipping back and I go on this crazy roller coaster ride for like 30 seconds with no visual, then I stop, then SP practically picks me up and shakes me

, then I can step into my dream. But some are just like, a little bit of vibrations, then I step in.

If your first was that bad, they only get better.

**silicovolcaniosis** · 05-09-2008 08:32 AM

but how does the painting summarize your explanation?

**Dexiro** · 05-09-2008 09:28 AM

haha, the SP thing sounds pretty scary to me now xD

still can't wait to try it though, probably could of managed it last night but i'd never read to imagine weights when you start feeling really light

**TheCJ** · 05-09-2008 11:09 AM

Originally Posted by Robot_Butler

I hate to say it, but it sounds like your WILD was successful. There is definitely some weirdness during the transition to sleep. Its so hard to describe, so people often don't include it in their write-ups of their WILDS. I think you did a great job of describing it.

It sounds like you were stuck in that transition period where your consciousness was switching focus from your 'real' body to your 'dream' body. This does not always happen. No two WILD experiences are alike. Sometimes they are smooth, sometimes bumpy. Try to enjoy the ride and don't be scared. Think of it as a cool video game.

Did anything actually happen that caused this fear? Or was it just the strangeness of it all? Does the whole concept of lucid dreaming scare you? Maybe you need to become more familiar with it, talk more with people who do it regularly, and realize it is totally natural, and nothing to be scared of.

Don't be discouraged. Take a break for a day or two, but try again soon. It sounds like you are making great progress.

Thanks for your advice.. I'm glad to hear it wasn't just me, I felt like a bit of an idiot this morning. (I didn't sleep at all after it happened. It's 19 hours later and still no sleep so I'm a bit slap happy.)

No, it wasn't the idea of LD that scared me. The whole experience was like nothing I've experienced before.. it was unusual and unexpected. Also it probably didn't help that I awoke to complete darkness and I'm a little scared of being in the dark by myself.

I'll definitely try it again, though. Maybe I'll give it some days.. or at least try to get back to sleep first....

Originally Posted by silicovolcaniosis

but how does the painting summarize your explanation?

D'you know, I have no idea!
In my dream it made perfect sense (as alot of things tend to do, I suppose, when you're not lucid.) I've just tried to recreate it so I remember it as it was in the dream

**Shady** · 05-09-2008 08:23 PM

Brings me back to one of the first times I attempted a wild, sounds surprisingly similar although at the time I didnt know much about it, or what to expect.. and just kinda went with the flow which ending up making it a very enjoyable experience.

All i can really say is try not to panic about it, just try to let things happen naturally... I've had some crazy experiences in the transitional stage, that sound like either bullshit or some kinda possessive shit.. but I realize that it was really all in my mind.. and at the end of the day caused me no harm.

About the weird loss of sense of time, I commonly experience that, on a nightly/daily basis if i have a nap. Some days I lay down to WILD and after what feels like a few minutes Im finding myself slipping out of consciousness. Not necessarily dreaming.. but it just feels like your whole.. awareness of reality blinks. Almost like you just wake up, but you know you weren't asleep.

I've found thats why it'll feel like 5 minutes, but an hour goes by.. you slip out of consciousness, wake up a bit later.. and it just naturally feels like you just... woke up from nothing? If that makes sense. I dont know how to explain it, but it doesnt feel like you were sleeping..

Thread: I'm extremely scared... what happened?

LinkBack

Thread Tools

Display

I'm extremely scared... what happened?

Bookmarks

Bookmarks

Posting Permissions