Thread: In the Mind of a Schizophrenic

I normally wouldn't post anything about a non- lucid that I have had but this dream that I had about a month ago was something to mind blowing to keep to myself. It went like this

I'm lying in bed in a dark room with a strangely beautiful girl with long strait black hair and pale skin, as the dream continues and we finish making love ( this distinction is important as I seem to have known her for nearly all my life and have a intense bond) and we make our way on to a train. We are just talking and then the strangely beautiful girl turns to another woman in the next seat. They know each other, and the strangely beautiful girl introduces me. Upon my introduction however the other woman asks to girl who she is talking about. I think, what does she mean, of course she can see me Im right here. The strangely beautiful girl continues to explain that I am most clearly there but still the other woman can not believe I exist. Then I had the most overwelming feeling of terror I have ever experienced, It suddenly hit me like an atomic bomb.... I don't exist, the strangely beautiful girl is Schizophrenic and I am a creation of her mind and that is why the other woman cannot see me. At this thought I immediatly cease to exist within the dream and blink out of existence entirely. The dream ends.

Later that same Night I had another dream that adds on to this.... its went like so...

I'm out walking around a golf coarse with my friend and my dad, as we are walking we see train car from the 40's sitting in the middle of the golf coarse. Its all beaten up and falling apart as if it had been sitting there for 60 some odd years. We stop to eat lunch by it and I decide to look inside. Once I'm inside I realize that it is the exact train car from the previous dream, looking around I find the seat in which I was sitting in the first dream. In my place is a t- bone steak, and for some reason I cannot explain, this t-bone was the physical manifestation my non-existent self from the previous dream. This blow my mind so far apart that I immediately woke up with my head spinning.

This put me a tail-spin for the next couple of days, constantly contemplating my own existence and wondering if the only reason I exist in waking life is because everyone acknowledges me, and I am the product of a collective schizophrenia of the worlds population.....oh and the steak thing was just crazy.

So if anyone has any interesting input I would love to hear it. I'm going to make this the basis for a short story to be published so keep that in mind if you have anything to add.


Thanks, I know that was a lot to read!