Good afternoon, Dreamviews!
I've been a member since hmm, maybe around 2008-2009. I haven't always been the most active member due to a lot of things going on in my life,
but lucid dreaming as well as dreaming in general has been one of the things that I've always been fascinated with. Until recently.
(This might get a little bit personal here and there, but I don't really mind I have nothing to hide). Anyway, let's begin.
Just recently, (2/half weeks or so), I was bonded out of County jail. And I can't begin to tell you guys how much has been on my mind lately.
I have been letting negativity push itself in my life lately, knowing that my case doesn't really look good. But other than that, I've just been trying
to go on with life and enjoy the time I have right now. In jail I had a few lucid dreams that I can actually remember. But ever since I've been out of jail
and sleeping in my own bed, I find myself having these "nightmares", and waking up automatically right when they're over no matter what time I go to sleep.
I believe that this is cutting into my restoring deep sleep and is causing me to be groggy all day the following morning. But the thing is, most of the time they really aren't nightmares. They really aren't scary, but just very in depth and weird.. Like right now for example, I woke up from one of these "nightmares" probably about an hour ago and for some reason got compelled to get on DV for once in a century and write about it! I am very curious if anyone can give me any insight about this dream/dreams. It's kind of like two dreams connected into one with two different storylines. If that's what you want to call them. Anyway, here we go

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Dream 1:
I find myself East of my old High school, across the street from a plaza kind of in a little deforested area after crossing a ditch from the side of the road.
I see my brother, and one of his friends that we used to buy weed from there next to us. We're kind of bent down, and I can feel the sense of paranoia running through me in the dream. I keep ducking down thinking that there's cops all over us. (I haven't smoked in probably three days because of this reason). I look up for a second, after smelling marijuana. He's burning a blunt, and passing it over to my brother who takes a couple hits and proceeded to hand it to me. I give in and take a couple tokes. It goes around for a couple rotations and things start to get hazy, and in the dream I can feel a marijuana high. But it was like his friend was just waiting for us to get high to trick us, and I kept thinking that in my head so I was kind of expecting something in the dream to happen with him. At first I thought he was trying to get us jumped, but then my dream self kept talking myself out of the nonsense. Anyway, I look away to view the now light-filled plaza for a couple seconds and not a second later I hear my brother yelling. His friend started running away with what I guess now was "our weed", an extra baggie, and somehow he got some chain off of my neck that I own in real life but haven't worn since I was like 11. I take off running after the bastard. But for some reason my nose feels really clogged up, like in the dream I started to breathe out of my mouth because I couldn't breathe through my nose at all at one point. So I delayed the chase, and my brother soon caught up yelling, "WHAT!?, CATCH HIM MAN!" "THATS MY MONEY!" I pat him on the shoulder and say, "All in good time, man. We'll get him." Anyway, for some reason even with my nose clogged up I started to chase him again. But at this point I lost sight of him. So I'm moving through this forest, moving out of the deforested area and closer towards the school at the other end of this forest. I see him trying to climb up a makeshift boat, and directly to the right of the boat he jumps onto a tire swing, falls backwards, and gets caught. I casually walk up to him, trying to talk but my nose is so stuffed I can't hardly talk. I muffle out, "Where's the blunt?", "And my necklace." He hands them over, (surprisingly), with no trouble. All I can really remember from this point is me trying to brag so much about how I chased this guy down and got everything back to my brother. My nose becomes more stuffy, for some reason I started to panic, thinking that I would die from not being able to breathe. Then I wake up, and surprisingly I have the worst stuffy nose of my life. (Kinda weird we can feel things in dreams that are happening in real life). I then go back to sleep after pondering for a while, not knowing really what the dream meant but for some reason it's frightening to me. Dream 2: I find myself going to a wrestling match at this woman's house for a while. There are a lot of iconic wrestlers there. (I don't even watch WWE or wrestling normally). I picked a seat in one of the front two rows, and watched as they wrestled everything out. I was talking to this girl next to me, who I thought was astonishingly beautiful. I was separated from her at once. I looked away from her for a minute, looked back and she was gone. I felt so much pain it was incredible. I don't know why, but maybe it was because she was just so damn hot! Anyway, I start to leave the match after it's over, and by this time it's night time. I wait for everyone else to leave for some reason before I put on my shoes and leave. (Have no idea why they were off in the first place). And I step out into the night air. I look up at the moon, and hear things moving around me. But for some reason I just keep staring into space. I finally catch myself and look back down at the house I just left. There's a woman that's watching me through the window now. Her face menacingly staring at me. I can feel the chill bumps rising on my arms. I start to walk away but she teleports in front of me, so I start to run past her and she disappears. I look back over at the house, and she's back in the window. I stop in my tracks, look at my hands, and they're full of some kind of lettering. Like tattooed with some kind of ancient script written perfectly by a scribe. I gain a instant amount of willpower and courage, and walk back over to the house where she is. I'm standing there knocking on the door and this gentle woman comes to greet me again. Not looking so menacingly this time. I ask her what she is doing tomorrow, and if she needs any help around the house with anything. She mutters one word, "okay", and shut the door. I start walking but feel my nose stuffy again. I quickly realize I'm walking in the wrong direction and towards a party of some sorts. I enter the party and see this beautiful girl again. I go over and say hi to her, and she pulls out a condom and motions for me to put it on. I do and we have sex. Although it wasn't long, we were interrupted. I find the goal of this part of the dream me trying to get some alone time with her, but she keeps escaping my grasp. Kind of like she's running away from me or mocking me. This makes me feel worthless. I can't describe the feeling of depression that I felt in that dream, but it was the worst I've ever experienced in my life. I walk outside and a house alarm goes off. I instantly get scared out of my mind and try to run off in the other way to avoid any drama or getting caught up with anything. (The reason I got locked up in R/L was because of Felony Burglary, but it really isn't how it sounds. We basically just went through a window in a school to explore if you've ever heard of Urban Exploration, but it ended up my friend taking some ancient Windows 98 laptops and they caught us all up on Burglary). The cops kind of start to close in, and my grandma's words echo in my head that the Devil was trying to set me up to go back to jail. (She's very pushy with religion sometimes, not that I'm not religious because I am spiritual, but sometimes she overdoes it). And I get frightened. I start to run and all I can remember is the flashing lights behind me and me running and running down this road, and onto a high way, and keeping on running until I can't breathe anymore. I can still feel my stuffy nose at this point, and it's starting to annoy me very much. I can't hardly breathe, and my throat is starting to dry from breathing through my mouth so much. I find myself in a city that I live close by to that I had visited in real life the day before to take my father to the doctor. I realize then I still have the condom on. (WTF?) At this point I had lost the police and I was in the clear so I thought. And for some reason I started walking over to a garden, and lean on the side of the brick layout in front of it and start masturbating. (LOL WTF!? WHY?) A cop drives by and sees me, and I start running again. I'm running and running, not being able to breathe because of the stuffy nose, and I then wake up and am here writing this now. With a stuffy nose. For some reason I keep having dreams like this and I have had a dream very, very similar to this before. I have had reoccurring dreams before, but not to this extent. For some reason these dream(s) are bothering me very much. If nobody has any insight on this, it's okay. I personally like writing, and writing about things like this gets my mind off of stuff ya know? So if there isn't any replies I won't be discouraged. But any insight at all will be greatly appreciated. Thanks for reading, and I'll see you all soon!
PS. I'll try to keep more active this time. Unless of course I have to go back to jail. :/
Goodnight/Morning all!