I am soooooooo soooooo thankful I came to this site! It is so nice to be among people who experience what I do. I think because of my childhood, I grew up extremely empathic and compassionate. I have honestly lived my entire life in this mindset. Very aware, almost too aware. I feel everyones happiness as well as pain. I have always been the one saying why can't we all just get along? I see the good in people, I sometimes have to search really hard to find it but I do try. Every day for me is a new day and a new day to give people a chance. I always have a smile even though I don't speak much. I am inwardly extremely happy and if I died tomorrow, I would have had a fulfilled life even though I never traveled or did much, I feel peace inside me. It is so nice to see the beauty in everything rather than focusing on negatives which I see most people around me doing, and why I choose not to be around them.
I have spent my life as an observer, appreciating everything in my life. I am the person everyone tells their deepest secrets to because they know they can trust me and my lips are sealed. I value trust and honesty. I am not book smart but I have always felt one day I will find my purpose and feel that my purpose is something BIG! I just don't know what it is yet. I hope I can figure it out .
I think because I learned from an early age that when tragedies happen to us, we can only count on ourselves to feel better. We all have the strength within us to overcome anything!! TRUST ME! If not, I would be a total basket case! I learned to appreciate life and look at it as a humongous challenge and we are in charge of our own results. We can just be depressed and anxious (which I do have depression and anxiety, I don't take medication) or we can visualize ourselves rising about the pain and suffering and choosing to make our life happy. Happiness within is the greatest gift I have learned on my own. I never had help, my parents didn't have the money to send me to counseling, I begged them in my early teens. Turns out, that was when the VOICE in my dreams took to teaching me about myself and actually giving me the tools I needed for survival. Like I said before I am not religious, but I do believe that when people are at their weakest points in life, they have the choice, and I chose to listen to the VOICE within :-). I am glad I have a place to share, even if noone reads it haha.
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