Entering WILD. Imagination or concentration?
Hello,
Here's a question regarding WILD.
First I'll describe some special feeling I want to ask about. Recall some times when you've been absolutely tired and had urgently needed some sleep. If you close your eyes in such a state, you'll feel as something will relax in the center of your head behind your eyes - just like a muscle inside your brains. The same moment you'll start to lose your concentration, forget who you are, where and why. Some images will appear behind your internal look and soon you'll fall asleep. I dare to assume that you are not able to relax that thing inside your head without closing eyes. Closing only one eye will not help. Although if you are not tired you will rather not feel this strange relaxation once closing your eyes. In this case you will keep your mind awake. I feel this like a tension of mind, I call it so. That's quite trivial, but I don't understand how to fall asleep and stay awake in the same time.
If I try to keep my consciousness to enter WILD (counting and repeating "I'm sleeping" for example) - I keep this tension of mind and feel no relaxation, don't fall asleep and don't have a LD. If I don't keep my mind arise - I don't feel tension, I fall asleep, but I lose consciousness and have a non-lucid dreams.
So the question is - should I maintain this tension to enter WILD and just wait for full physiological relaxation. Or I just have to release my mind and imagine something special. Imagination don't require "mind tension", but concentration does! What is correct?
WILD means letting go, but only just
In the few WILDs that I have managed, I started by physically relaxing, then trying to stay aware, waiting for the onset signs, but usually I just stay in that state for ages getting nowhere. Then I eventually succumb to sleep, and with the successful WILDs there is just enough residual awareness that I snap back into an LD. It's almost like I need to forget my awareness enough to drift off, but with luck I retain enough to pull back to an LD from the non-LD. My problem then tends to be that the LD is short because I bounce back out to awake state.
I've been working to improve my hit rate by using this method, and slowly getting better at not letting go too much too soon, I.e getting better at recognising that point of letting go and not falling completely into a non-lucid. It's a delicate balance because I find I have to allow myself to go quite deep to start the dream.