Hello everyone,
Some back round on myself,
I started having night terrors since a small child, to normal talking in my sleep. I never had control shouted out things, moved around doing actions never out of bed but sitting up telling my dad i was playing chess. People could talk to me tell me to go back to sleep and i would say aww but dad i want to play and i would put my stuff away and lay down and out i was again no longer talking. In 5 grade my night terrors got so bad it was effecting my awake state i was so tired. One day my teacher asked me what was wrong and i explained the night terrors. He told me to sit at the edge of my bed and tell my self over and over again i will not have bad dreams until i believed it. Next thing i new the night terrors were far few in between. Then i realized in the dream i would be running from someone terrified and yet i could tell myself stop running turn around look at it your dreaming this is not real do not be afraid. I would stop still terrified but i would face my fear and poof night mare ended. As i got older i realized i could think of what i wanted to and dream it. Now i am 29 years old and sometimes i dont remember a dream at all. Sometimes i float through them no control and i remember them still. Then there are the ones i can say nah i dont want to go sailing i want to shop and make it happen while dreaming. Sometimes i can wake up with my alarm and say wow i was having fun and go back to sleep and pick up where i left off. The strange thing in all of this is i did not realize what i was doing is this lucid dreaming until i came accross this forum after googling a very odd dream i have had as of recently. I also have started to actually get out of bed and start sleeping walking and doing things in my sleep but these actions i never recall when i awake i am only told by my significant other of them. Not having done my research yet which i plan on doing after typing this i wanted to share my most recent disturbing dream to see what and why it went the way it did as it is out of the ordinary for me.
My Dream:
It is a short simple clip I was standing in the ocean no one around not an animal not a human being just me and the waves. I remember being in a couple inches of water wanting to go deeper submerge myself and myself saying do not do it you will drown. However i told myself this is a dream you will be fine you will not drown. So i slowly walked out further into the water. As my body became submerged i said you ware to deep go back. And again i said to myself it is a dream your fine go further. Then i realized i could not get high enough to surface out of the water and looked blankly around knowing there was no way out and yet again i said you are fine you can not drown for real you are in a dream. Then the panic set in. I was drowning i couldn't breath i tried desperately to swim to the surface however it was like slow motion like i realized i was not trying to swim that hard all. Then i started to yell at myself wake up wake up you are drowning. I still gave it little effort and i kept yelling at myself until i was sitting right up in bed gasping for air. and i heard my significant other say im not even going to ask what that was about and i went back to sleep with out a single dream to remember but this one is vividly remembered.
My question is to myself why out of all the lucid dreams did i continue onward not heading my own caution.
I look forward to everyone's responses and learning more about what i have apparently stumbled apon for years with out knowing i was already doing it.
