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      Quote Originally Posted by Anju View Post
      So, I went to a counsellor as suggested by Jacq (paradoxowl). It is a real hospital and not the kind of cosy office i had expected. She made me sign some papers that I won't attempt suicide or self-harm and asked me to fill several questionnaires on my background and past, including topics like alcohol/drug addiction, abuse etc.

      Now i'm beginning to think I shouldn't have gone, as the counselling is making me quite uneasy. I'm not sure if this is how the treatment is supposed to go, but she asks the most uncomfortable questions and I end up crying. The conversation seems to be deviating away from the issues at hand and I'm guessing she's connecting everything to the fact that I was sexually abused in childhood. That's something I have left in the past, it is not bothering me at present. She still insists on bringing up things I've almost forgotten, which I don't want to be reminded of now. And I feel worse after each session, so I go home and cry some more. But I'm continuing my sessions because I'm not sure what else to do.

      Next week, she wants me to take a depression test. She says she may have to refer me to a psychiatrist. I know that I'm different and have my own quirks, but I don't want a psychiatrist. I think that all I needed was a little vacation in a quiet place and I could have handled this shit on my own. Now the counsellor is blowing things out of proportion and trying to make me believe that I'm mentally ill. Or maybe I really am ill but refusing to accept it. I don't know what to do.
      If you're not comfortable with that counselor, try seeing a different one. Or tell the current one that by ignoring the issues at hand and focusing on the sexual abuse, she's just making you feel worse. If she doesn't listen, don't bother going back. My psychologist doesn't press further on anything that I'm not comfortable talking about, your's should back off as well when you tell her to.
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      Quote Originally Posted by Anju View Post
      So, I went to a counsellor as suggested by Jacq (paradoxowl). It is a real hospital and not the kind of cosy office i had expected. She made me sign some papers that I won't attempt suicide or self-harm and asked me to fill several questionnaires on my background and past, including topics like alcohol/drug addiction, abuse etc.

      Now i'm beginning to think I shouldn't have gone, as the counselling is making me quite uneasy. I'm not sure if this is how the treatment is supposed to go, but she asks the most uncomfortable questions and I end up crying. The conversation seems to be deviating away from the issues at hand and I'm guessing she's connecting everything to the fact that I was sexually abused in childhood. That's something I have left in the past, it is not bothering me at present. She still insists on bringing up things I've almost forgotten, which I don't want to be reminded of now. And I feel worse after each session, so I go home and cry some more. But I'm continuing my sessions because I'm not sure what else to do.

      Next week, she wants me to take a depression test. She says she may have to refer me to a psychiatrist. I know that I'm different and have my own quirks, but I don't want a psychiatrist. I think that all I needed was a little vacation in a quiet place and I could have handled this shit on my own. Now the counsellor is blowing things out of proportion and trying to make me believe that I'm mentally ill. Or maybe I really am ill but refusing to accept it. I don't know what to do.
      Go for it
      Way back in the day I was part of an experimental study group on PTSD secreted away in the north woods of NY, The counselor (Shrink) had 9 of us volunteers lie on mats with our eyes closed and listen to a meditation recording (I think it was "Eternal Peace") while trying not to fall asleep and after it was over she woke up the sleepers and asked if they noticed anything unusual, I was the only one and I said I flew out the window.
      She said that's great, You had an "Out of Body Experience" and we talked about it a few more times and even though I don't think it did a thing for PTSD in the end she turned me onto "Astral Projection" 20 years before the internet came bumbling along and made it popular and then I found various way of converting it to "Lucid Dreaming".
      So hang in there sunshine, Just learn to take what you can use and leave the rest...
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      Quote Originally Posted by Anju View Post
      So, I went to a counsellor as suggested by Jacq (paradoxowl). It is a real hospital and not the kind of cosy office i had expected. She made me sign some papers that I won't attempt suicide or self-harm and asked me to fill several questionnaires on my background and past, including topics like alcohol/drug addiction, abuse etc.

      Now i'm beginning to think I shouldn't have gone, as the counselling is making me quite uneasy. I'm not sure if this is how the treatment is supposed to go, but she asks the most uncomfortable questions and I end up crying. The conversation seems to be deviating away from the issues at hand and I'm guessing she's connecting everything to the fact that I was sexually abused in childhood. That's something I have left in the past, it is not bothering me at present. She still insists on bringing up things I've almost forgotten, which I don't want to be reminded of now. And I feel worse after each session, so I go home and cry some more. But I'm continuing my sessions because I'm not sure what else to do.

      Next week, she wants me to take a depression test. She says she may have to refer me to a psychiatrist. I know that I'm different and have my own quirks, but I don't want a psychiatrist. I think that all I needed was a little vacation in a quiet place and I could have handled this shit on my own. Now the counsellor is blowing things out of proportion and trying to make me believe that I'm mentally ill. Or maybe I really am ill but refusing to accept it. I don't know what to do.
      If you truly feel like you are hurting more than getting help, please look at a new therapist. Therapy is a lot of work and painful to work through problems, but it is better to have a person you completely can trust and relax with than someone who always ends up hurting you.
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      The femoral biceps on both my legs are SOOO sore. No clue what I did. The pain started last night.

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      Quote Originally Posted by OpheliaBlue View Post
      The femoral biceps on both my legs are SOOO sore. No clue what I did. The pain started last night.
      Ouch, anything femoral hurts..I just had Femoral artery bypass surgery too, Now I know about hurt But if it persists go see somebody..
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      Hi MelanieB. Haven't seen you here in a while.

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      Feel better soon, Ophelia. I pulled my leg muscles from weeding (again lol), so I sympathize with your soreness.

      Anju, definitely try to see someone else. Just like people we may come across in other walks, we won't "click" with everyone. If your therapist is doing more harm than good, don't put yourself through the torture!
      Therapy sometimes becomes uncomfortable, but it's usually after a relationship has been built up. If the person comes at you too hard, too quickly, you may feel pressured, harassed, embarrassed, depressed. Tell her you're not comfortable lingering on certain topics and tell her what you'd like to focus on instead. If she can't take cues from you, move on.

      No real rants from me. I've been doing laundry today (finally) and I'm going out to eat with hubby at 5:00. I've felt pretty alert for the last couple of days for a change, so I even cleaned and organized my room some.
      And last night I had a first ever dream. I was driving a helicopter I was doing a very poor job, lol, but it was still a great dream.

      Oh yeah... I did have a dunce moment I'm still ranting about. I was coming back from the store last night and thought about an old childhood friend. She later babysat for me when my kids were young, but then she moved to New York. I wondered what ever happened to her and for a second, I thought she had died. Then I remembered, "no, that was her sister Loraine". And then I further remembered... she's dating my brother and they have a kid together. They live together about an hour away.
      What the heck? Am I becoming senile at the ripe old age of 40? Seriously. How could that slip my mind so thoroughly?
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      I couldn't get to sleep until 6:00 AM and I just woke up now at 3:00 PM. The day's practically over and I feel like shit. I think might be having another mood episode.

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      quebgqiB: indeed! I did the opposite and got no sleep

      Quote Originally Posted by Zhaylin
      I pulled my leg muscles from weeding
      I totally read that as "wedding" at first
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      We've missed my kid's friend's Birthday party because of we got lost in the woods trying to find a shortcut to find the funny house which was next to a lake, it rained, and we walked almost 2 hours there. Once again, it was my fault!!! No GPS, no maps, it looked so easy on google map, why should I!!???
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      Quote Originally Posted by GavinGill View Post
      I couldn't get to sleep until 6:00 AM and I just woke up now at 3:00 PM. The day's practically over and I feel like shit. I think might be having another mood episode.

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      You too? I did the same but now I don't feel so much like a lizard anymore.
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      Quote Originally Posted by GavinGill View Post
      I couldn't get to sleep until 6:00 AM and I just woke up now at 3:00 PM. The day's practically over and I feel like shit. I think might be having another mood episode.

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      I know that feel. Couldn't sleep, woke up at 1:30 and now it's almost 3 and I haven't done anything. It's hard to feel motivated for the day to go decently when you wake up so late you feel you've already lost.

      I just feel like such shit these last few days. No energy. Guilt weighs on me so heavily lately. Still being supported by my parents at 25. Having never had a job in my field and nothing to put on my resume and just lacking knowledge in general that I should have. Feeling so worthless and guilty I'm pushed to the limit and just need to do something. It's almost enough to put some motivation in me. But it's 3 pm and I have so much to do that doesn't even involve progressing today - like cleaning the place before my dad comes over to bring stuff, going for a walk, exercising, buying coffee because I forgot to get it shopping yesterday. After all that's over it will be 5 already. And to me that's like, the end of the day, and what the hell can I get done past then? I'll be up late because I overslept, then I'll be tired all day tomorrow because I have to wake up early, and tomorrow's going to suck even worse. I don't want to face it at all. I'm just feeling so energiless and tired but don't really have the choice to go back to sleep.
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      Ffs I did it again. I haven't been able to do a single fucking thing for the last few days because my seep schedule is all out of whack.
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      Can someone get the new U2 album off my Iphone!?

      I wish my professors understood that I have to go to bed early in order to get a good nights sleep and lucid dream. I can't just drop everything to finish a project because you moved the due date up a week.

      Amy Tan's 'The Hundred Secret Senses' Is really good. I'm only halfway through it.

      Why did Microsoft buy Mojang?! Now I can't wait for the next version of Minecraft to come with Double XP weekends and paid DLC...
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      everyone.
      My sleep schedule is wacky too... but that's nothing new

      My rant is that my e-cigs aren't working good enough, so I bought a pack of smokes last night. I smoked half a cigarette and it hit me wonderfully; then I finished it before sleeping. I've had no temptation to return for another one, which is a new experience for me. I prefer the e-cigs. I just wish the batteries would work better.
      Another rant is that I broke down and tried minecraft again last night. I was playing at an FPS of 4-7. *pulls out hair* I have run my virus scans, defrag, cleared my cookies etc, but the speed is just awful no matter what I do. Gah!!!

      I'm also hungry but I don't feel like eating. I'll have to or I'll feel gut-punched, but- again- Gah!

      I rave is that I'm absolutely in love with both the song and video "all that bass". I youtube it several times a day
      Also, my finger is almost completely healed. I pulled the scab off because it was ready. The skin is still dimpled and a new, smaller scab is forming. The new skin is still very red though and it's still sore to the touch and the tendon (or whatever it is) is still a smidge swollen. It's a very strange wound lol

      Guess I'll go make a couple peanut butter sandwiches...
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      Soooooo... I just moved, new apartment, new city, without parents. It feels strange, like it is just temporary (which in fact is, but it is still 10 months). Feels good tho. Finally they decided to come and set up internet (yikes these two days have been way too long). I like this city, we went to see a little bit of it yesterday and ended up at a concert. The beach zone is beautiful, seems like a really big city and also the... how is it said... mood and ambient of the people around feels better, good vibes.

      I'm actually pretty nervous, I start university next monday, knowing no one. I'm not really scared of that, but because when I get nervous my stomach goes crazy and it hurts a lot, which is what makes me anxious and embarrassed. It is something that I've to face and overcome by myself, so I've to do it anyway.
      Uhm, what else? Oh yeah! I love cooking for my roommate, I liked cooking before, but it is satisfying when someone appreciates it.
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      Grats, Astaroth. I still remember the first places I lived and it was an almost magical experience- that sense of freedom and independence

      Rant of the day is that another cat is likely dying. 2 more to go after her and then another cat will never set paw in my home. I don't know what's wrong with her. I pet and talked to her. She sounds a little congested. She doesn't have symptoms of the cold that killed the last bunch. Her face seems a little swollen under her right eye. She's never been a very vocal cat, but she talked to me the entire time I pet and talked to her. I'm going to pick her up later and poke and prod a bit. Maybe she was hit by a car? But she seems uninjured outwardly. After her there's Squirmy. Squirmy's my favorite. And then there's a new addition *rage* Pumpkin. My daughter brought Pumpkin home a couple months ago. She belonged to Brittany (the friend who stayed here a while). I told them keeping her here was unwise. The virus that killed our last batch can linger in the environment for up to a year.

      Gah! And my dog is weirder and weirder. Her mites are finally under control. I have to aggressively treat them and put cream on the outside of her ears. She's doing a million times better... but she keeps pooping in the driveway. Prissy little girl doesn't like her paws getting wet in the grass

      Ray is moving to the Mission this week. It's an exciting time. I hope they can help him get the fresh start he needs.

      And now I have to take Destinee and Paula out...
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      Rant: I am totally a lurker on this forum haha. My realization for tonight, so perhaps this is more of a 'realization' than a rant. Anyway, idk its like there's so many people here on DVs now and a ton of really awesome lucid dreamers making the rounds. So much difference from the old days of dreamviews

      Anyway, omg I need to practice more cello! Ahh! Well, I'm going to be fine, but I still need to become better so I can stand a chance against other cello beasts. But on the bright sides my excerpts are slowly improving!
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      I had the brilliant idea to ask some chemists how good you have to do in uni to get in to pharmaceutical research....
      See I was just assuming you had to get basically top of the class in everything. But I just had to know for sure.
      So they all said marks don't even matter that much, it's more that you know what you're doing and work well in a lab.

      So now I am wondering whether I should continue with chemistry and biology, instead of nursing.
      Why couldn't I just go on assuming I wouldn't be able to be a chemist? Goddammit.
      I don't wanna keep wondering what to do for a career.

      I think I'm just gonna make a rule, if I get in to nursing I will do it.
      If not I'll keep doing my current course.

      I'm gonna keep doubting myself now though. I absolutely LOVE chemistry, and I'm fairly certain I wouldn't like nursing that much.
      But nursing would give me WAY more free time to do all the other things that I also love.
      Also my lecturer said chemistry is moving a lot toward computers, which is fairly boring to me.

      Ugh....
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      im fucking retarded, csnt get to bed on time. I've only been sleeping 2-4 hours a night for lasst few days and I haven't been able to some important stuff done because of it. I have class 8 hours from now, and I have to go to the doctors in 2 hours. i cant remember when i last slept i dont remember if i took my meds yesterday
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      Get a pill organizer or notebook to keep your meds straight. I use both because I'm *that* forgetful lol.
      I've been sleeping like crap. I'm sleepy until I lay down

      I had some awesome dreams, for a change, this morning. It's even DJ worthy if I can be bothered.

      The Mission was a bust. They're completely full. My son was told to call every few days but there should be an opening around the first (people moving into apartments and such). Yesterday was a major pain in my butt. We went to the local sheriffs dept. and my son got on their registry and changed his address, only to find out the place was full... so we had to go back today and update everything in person. $20. in gas for nothing And now my son is depressed and wondering if the Mission will even work out. It finally occurred to him that he's *not* homeless and he'd be taking a bed away from someone is direly needed it. But he feels trapped here and wants to do something- anything, to get on with his life.

      The girls are now working the night shift which I'm loving. I don't do early. This switch is wonderful
      In 2 weeks they want my to drive them to Maryland to buy a car for $750. It's a dealership from Craigs list. I'm doubting the worth of any car found such a way, so we'll see.

      Another rant is that there was just a mosquito in my room He jabbed me several times before I saw and squashed him. Little demon....

      A rave is that I went to the mall yesterday and bought some new coils (a 3 pack for $14.). My pass-through e-cig is amazing again

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      Finally had that psychiatry appointment and am going to start taking pills. Cipralex. Apparently it's what my mom takes and it helps her. I wish it didn't take weeks to notice any effects though. The appointment itself was kind of shitty. The psychiatrist was young and seemed inexperienced and somewhat unprofessional, forgot how to pronounce my name and kept forgetting details I'd told her earlier. Not that I expect her to remember but... it just exaggerated that feeling that I'm telling all this personal stuff to someone who doesn't actually know me or care at all. So many questions I had to answer about my personal life, moods, feelings, relationships, etc. that I'd expect to be asked only in a therapy session. All to just be prescribed one thing in the end which I could have guessed I'd be prescribed myself.

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      Dianeva. I guess (what immediately comes to mind anyhow... I'm pretty bad with analogies lol) it's KIND of like having the occasional episode of low blood sugar. You're not diabetic. You don't need insulin. It's just a problem you sometimes have to deal with. ...I guess almost everyone has occasional mental episodes that need to be dealt with, but it's only a disorder if it's chronic, affects your life and needs continuous maintenance and/or monitoring. *shrugs*

      Taking meds feels like a burden sometimes. People tend to think they should just be able to will themselves out of their funk... but people can't will themselves out of diabetes or any number of other troubles. You can take steps to overcome/stabilize whatever ails you, but sometimes meds is part of that and that's okay. It's not the be-all/end-all of treatment though.

      I hope the meds help and that you come to click with your counselor (if it's someone you'll see again).

      If I don't get money on my card tonight, I'll likely be without my Celexa until Monday While it takes a while to build up in your system, it seems to take no time at all leaving it lol. I'll be having constant adrenaline surges by Monday. I missed it today. I'm also out of Cranberry pills which is annoying.

      To add to my list of complaints, I am also without my good e-juice I'm currently using something called "Tiger's Blood". I bought it several months ago but wasn't a fan. It has an acidic aftertaste. If I kind of tuck my tongue and inhale further back (as if that makes sense lol), it doesn't have quite the bite so I'll live. It will be very good when I can order the good stuff though. I've come to actually prefer the Clover/Vanilla combo over the Joe Latte.
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      After getting a bunch of notifications of myself being quoted in various parts of this forum, this is one of those nights on here where I just feel like:
      Spoiler for my reaction:
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      Well here comes more anxiety attacks again...
      My(long term) lucid dreaming goals!
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      []Visit ancient rome(preferably as a jewish migrant\trader)
      []Destroy rome as a germanic barbarian invader
      []Talk to Gandalf about lucid dreaming and philosophy
      []Talk to my subconsious about improving dream recall and getting more lucids!!!!

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      Anxiety attacks are no fun at all... I have something I need to post in the health and sleep section since I had something weird happen. Nocturnal panic attack or something, first time I've got it, started having racing heart, hot flashes, fear, and only thing I can think of is because of stress and being sleep deprived.
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