Thread: Rant and Rave, Cry and Complain

Grrrrr... I woke up because I was dizzy. I changed positions which just seemed to make it worse. I noticed my eyes wouldn't focus but kept listing from the left to the right. I opened my eyes and they still wouldn't focus. I sat up, turned on the light and the listing slowly subsided. I took my blood pressure and got an improbable reading (133/53) so I took it again and again and it seems to be normal.
It takes effort to focus my eyes but the longer I'm awake and sitting up, the easier it's getting.

What the heck?! Now I feel like barfing.
If this keeps up, I'll go see my hubby at his office today. If my eyes are fine, and if the benadryl I just took does nothing, I'll see my family Dr. to see if my ear is infected or fluid filled. This is ridiculous.

Gavin. I hope everything's okay.

Originally Posted by GavinGill

Welp, I didn't finish in time. The report was supposed to be 8-11 pages long, but I only managed 3. I sent it it in, but I'd be lucky if I even managed to get 20% on it.

I've often ignored page requirements. Most of the time, the teachers just docked a few points for not being long enough, but I put enough effort into the pages I do write that they always gave me passing grades at least. Hopefully your teacher will be similar? I just hate page requirements. But I hate writing reports too.


Anyway, my rant is far less consequential. They usually are. But nowadays, doesn't everyone have a smartphone? I don't, but I still have a computer which I use to check emails daily. Which is my rant: in today's world, not replying to emails in a timely manner just seems rude to me. I've been waiting 8 days for a response from a record label, and three days now for a response from a band. Two completely different situations, but both of which already have my money yet fucked up with it.

Well, I have to study this whole book which is over 680 pages long and has 26 chapters. Then after I study and remember the most important topics in the book then I need to take the ICND 1 exam; which costs around 175 dollars (per try). After I get my CCENT certificate I have to study the ICND 2 book to get my CCNA which is just as long and even harder. Not to mention I have to buy equipment and set up a network lab.

These are Cisco certifications which are highly valued by employers. I guess the military is looking for some CCNA's and they get paid extremely well.

Not feeling lonely when alone, feeling lonely when accompanied. I understand.

Much success to you PepsiBlueFan!

Astaroth.

Sefalik, I understand that rant. My hubby is horrible about not replying to people. Someone once poured his heart out in an email and I doubt hubby ever responded to him. I feel it's not my place to email the guy on hubby's behalf (they were sort of in a business together but they broke it up and the guy basically said "lets still be friends").
Business transactions should be answered quickly. You're giving them business after all. If they want to ignore you, don't give them any more business.

My rant is that my hypocontriactism (sp) is rearing it's silly head. I'm thinking I have a brain anyerism (SP GRRR) or tumor or something I realize, logically, that this dizziness is likely just an inner ear thing, but my paranoia is saying otherwise. Benadryl has been helping. I even managed to sleep for 7 hours and I woke up fine. Hubby's somewhat concerned and says I need to see someone if it continues. Dizziness should not be causing me to wake up... so perhaps its a number of problems. I can see waking up dizzy if my sleep apnea is bad. Everything else, though, points to inner ear (closing my eyes and laying down makes it worse, moving my head makes it worse...). I think I went through something similar last year around this time because that's when I got the script for Zofran. I had unexplainable dizziness with nausea then too.

SO, could the colder weather be messing with my ears? What are some cold weather allergies? My post nasal drip worsens this time of year too. It's likely all connected.
If I'm having allergy attacks while I sleep, it could worsen my apnea? causing me to wake up dizzy and affecting everything else?

Hmmm... gotta google late year allergies...

Other than that, everything's good.

Originally Posted by GavinGill

Welp, I didn't finish in time. The report was supposed to be 8-11 pages long, but I only managed 3. I sent it it in, but I'd be lucky if I even managed to get 20% on it.

It never hurts to ask for a too-late extension.
The worst they can tell you is no.

It worked for me once or twice in college.
Just be honest and explain what happened.
It shows commitment; that you're willing to make the best of things.

But you have to go all out and make those necessary pages full of awesome to make up for the extra time it took to produce them.

Spoiler for "my great aunt passed away yesterday:

She was named after a movie star and born the same month as me, 2 days and 49 years earlier.

She made the best potato salad, that could never be duplicated, even with the most exacting recipe guidlines...and was also the one behind the camera for so many of our beloved early family photos. She even went to New York for a school trip, just like I did.

My grandma said that she never heard her sister say an unkind word about anyone. She was a very kindhearted, almost timid individual.

They say she hadn't spoken a word in years, though.
She had Alzheimer's, just like her eldest sister is living with today.
Out of their family of eight siblings, only three remain and one (the oldest) doesn't even know her own name.

In a way it's a good thing I guess, because unlike my Grandmother she doesn't have to deal with the pain of being the oldest yet witnessing most of the younger ones pass too soon.

May you rest in peace, Myrna Jean.
Though you have gone, you are not forgotten.
I hope one day you get to experience the 50th wedding anniversary you very nearly missed this go 'round.

And give your mom a hug from all of us. Until we meet again, in that big downhome reunion in the sky... =}

As for ranting;
Okay so, I'll admit that I do and say some weird/crazy stuff sometimes...
But is it crazy to be confused when someone gets mad that you gave them two pennies?

Because that happened to me today.
I used two pennies for her, and gave her 65 cents back.

She first asked where her pennies were. Then protested when I told her that I'd given her two, saying she wanted to give her pennies away. Then she accused me of doing this to her one time previously (never seen her before, btw), THEN said she would just tell me beforehand next time (because obviously, how thoughtless and rude of me to give away two cents).

Lady, with all due respect...
You wanna give away your change so bad?
I handed you your change 2 minutes ago, before you started arguing.

Pitch the nickel into the dish and call it a day already.

I can't win for losing with these people. >_<
Most of them avoid change like the plague but the one time I take steps to avoid giving them any, suddenly I'm the bad guy. I gave away five dollars today already lady, stop acting like giving away pennies is a crime.

Especially when that's what you were gonna do anyway!

Originally Posted by acatalephobic

As for ranting;
Okay so, I'll admit that I do and say some weird/crazy stuff sometimes...
But is it crazy to be confused when someone gets mad that you gave them two pennies?

Because that happened to me today.
I used two pennies for her, and gave her 65 cents back.

She first asked where her pennies were. Then protested when I told her that I'd given her two, saying she wanted to give her pennies away. Then she accused me of doing this to her one time previously (never seen her before, btw), THEN said she would just tell me beforehand next time (because obviously, how thoughtless and rude of me to give away two cents).

Lady, with all due respect...
You wanna give away your change so bad?
I handed you your change 2 minutes ago, before you started arguing.

Pitch the nickel into the dish and call it a day already.

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Especially when that's what you were gonna do anyway!

- I have ones that request paper bags for me (presuming you’re working at some kind of grocery retail), have too many coupons, and then ask me if I scanned the coupon stuck on –insert item name here-; the coupon is at least half an inch wide and too miniscule for the naked eye, and then they debate on the price of potatoes, whom you call the assistant service manager to double check; while they’re on their way to check, the customer asks if I can just hurry up to see if the price is right or wrong so they can go get another one if the latter is the case (when they realized they want to end up looking like an idiot)

- The ones that sweet talk to me, and then by the end of the order, they try to manipulate the pleasantries given to me to get some kind of special discount; nope nope nope nope nope nope poker face nope nope nope nope

- The ones that don’t see an item labeled on the coupon, and figure that if they get the bigger one, they’re entitled to a discount; they proceed to sublimate their rage to the ones they’re with instead of cursing at me, because they know deep down if they direct that to me, I will patronize the living hell out of them.

- Ones that get pissed off of me patronizing them, asking to call a manager, only for the manager to patronize them; apply cold water to your burnt fucking ego, or the manager kisses their ass.

- The ones that know/didn’t know there’s a limit of 2 per customer on certain meats, beers, etc., and then I see:

o They come into the store again to make another purchase
o They have a joint check, and tell you their spouse is going to pay the other
o The y scream at you, blurt out expletives, and other unorthodox ways of settling a dispute thinking it’ll scare you to do what they want
o Get their friends to make the other orders, which is technically allowed, but still ethically bullshit within the store policy for some circumstances

- The ones with plastic bags filled with coins:
o You ask them how much is in there, and they either -> A) “You’re a smart boy, you can figure it out.” B) “Let me see if I can get all of this change out, if you don’t mind?”
o They use that in supplement with their food stamps and WIC cards, then they’re WIC/food stamps card don’t have enough, and you end up putting the real amount left, and then they pay with physical cash that would’ve been enough instead of a bag of coins

- People with WIC/food stamps in general that get hot and bothered on why things aren’t working…maybe get a job? (This isn’t talking about those who desperately need that for their children; just the ones that want their free peach drink, lunch, etc. that they should be paying for without those cards)

- The ones with recyclable bags; you ask if they want their meats in them, but they express a snarky tonality that you can stuff them in the bag for cold items, “because that’s what they’re for;” Sorry, I’ll just mix your salmonella along with your peanut butter as well, sorry for the stupid question of being considerate of your well-being, ma’am/sir.

- Children in general that want the store’s currency just for children (e.g. buddy bucks);

o They make a gesture with their hands of a “come on already”
o They look like their face is going to explode when they ask, “Can I hav sum buddy bux?”
o They become a broken record if you don’t respond, and they sometimes go behind you while you’re busy, and their parents just have no consideration of their ill-mannered, demonic child
o The ones that scream when they get instant winner; it’s like we’re starting them young on gambling addiction in the spin n’ win

- The ones that use organic bags conceal multiple fruits and vegetables you have to take out for the sake of being consistent with inventory, and they either:

• Ask why you’re doing this
• Say they’re all the same price
• Say they don’t have organic (and they end up having it when you check the PLU)
• They check their receipt, see you scanned organic, and then it’s back to the patronization games with showing them the PLU, and informing them it is organic

- The ones that revel in double checking they’re coupon because you actually gave them a speedy checkout:
o They either do it to kill time, and are social awkward, and read the receipt that’s as equivalent as looking at your phone, and pretending to type while you don’t know what to do in a 4-way street.

o To double check if their coupons were processed, and they have the exact price memorized to perfection, and berate you if a few didn’t apply

o The used to be nice to you, and exchange pleasantries with you, but moment you tell them to have a nice one, and they can’t get their 25 cents coupon, you’re automatically on their grudge list

- The ones that are looking for an available register, and you’re on express, and they have more than 15 items; they look down their noses to count even though they clearly have 45 items; they see you’re not reacting to them to go to full service, and then when they do, I troll them and tell them to go to full service

• “Why can’t I go here? There’s no traffic?”
• “Oh sorry, I didn’t see the sign in neon lights that it was 15 items or less…tee hee”
• “Can I get a manager real quick?”
• Any circumstance where they just need to salvage whatever remnants of their ego so they don’t look stupid

- The ones that couldn’t get the coupon, and expect that you have a grandiose coupon machine that you can just 1-2-3 BOOM, print, and give to them.

- Any circumstance and duties that aren’t your responsibility that they want to use you as a scapegoat for

- The younger people that come to buy alcohol near closing time, and any customer in general that comes 15 minutes before the store closes. I can’t wait to be able to make an announcement with the movie trailer guy impression to tell them to get out.


I’ve learned to bury my emotions, and sense of self deep within my psyche, performing like a robot, and working through pain while sustaining an inferiority complex to progressively become better and better, and now they want me to become an assistant service manager.

The service manager herself practically puts her hands together in a prayer gesture knowing that I applied for the position after hinting to me for months if I wanted to become ASM. She almost had a heart attack when she realized I also applied for Bookkeeper, but assured her I wanted to be an ASM instead. The store is in a complete mess team-wise ever since 3 of really good ASMs left, which means I’ll be joining the scapegoat team we call assistant service managers.

And the funny part, I won’t technically be an ASM that just stands there and orders people around; I’ll just become a vagabond ASM that’s a checker and sacker to keep the traffic going. Because the other ASMs already abuse that I’m a robot in the first place while they casually talk about their quotidian lifestyles, and abuse the in-group favoritism their peers and managers stroke their egos with. And I have to create an imaginary objective point of view of how to observe their personalities with a neutral disposition (so I don’t fall into favoritism of personality rather than work ethic), and assess them in a non-confrontational way.

It’s like I’m creating another persona, but there’s only so much capacity one can stuff their sanity into the void. I know your pain all too well, and at least we have a void deep within us to share, huh?

Originally Posted by acatalephobic

Pitch the nickel into the dish and call it a day already.

Addendum: I subscribe to existential nihilism, and call it a day because I won't let one circumstance kill me, and go full existentialist on them, i.e., a robot that wants to have a sense of responsibility.

This thread is therapeutic, but sometimes I feel microsoft word/notepad binge ranting/raving is close to home to me

I like the ones who claim in-store signs are giving false advertisement, when in reality they are just too lazy and/or incapable of reading the sign with their own eyeballs.

If it says 2/$2 on 3.75 ounce bags, that price does not apply to 8.5 ounce bags clearly. Or else the sign would say 2/$2 on 8.5 ounce bags, now wouldn't it?

"Oh I'll just report you to the manager" (as if I somehow made the sign indiscernable to them on purpose) or "I'll just report your store to the BBB" (as if we are committing fraud by clearly stating the price of specific items in bright, bold, colourful, grade-school level writing, +pictures no less!)

These folks are the best, because there's only so many nice polite ways to make a person aware that THEY are the only ones dropping the ball in this kind of situation.

They are about as laughable as the ones who I card for tobacco or alcohol that say, "You must be new, I come in here everyday."

Nice try pal. I've worked here 5-6 days a week for the last five years.
If I've never seen you, trust me, YOU must be new here.

They say, "I don't have my I.D. but I am 22, my birthday is 6/17/1992!"
And I say, "well my birthday is 8/14/1764, and I'm Santa Claus. If only I had my I.D. to prove it!"

Screw em!! I say if they aren't enterprising enough to get a fake ID or get somebody else to buy it for them then they just need to wait till they're legal age!!

Originally Posted by OpheliaBlue

So what happens now?

Originally Posted by Zhaylin

Gavin. I hope everything's okay.

Originally Posted by sefalik

I've often ignored page requirements. Most of the time, the teachers just docked a few points for not being long enough, but I put enough effort into the pages I do write that they always gave me passing grades at least. Hopefully your teacher will be similar? I just hate page requirements. But I hate writing reports too.

Originally Posted by acatalephobic

It never hurts to ask for a too-late extension.
The worst they can tell you is no.

It worked for me once or twice in college.
Just be honest and explain what happened.
It shows commitment; that you're willing to make the best of things.

But you have to go all out and make those necessary pages full of awesome to make up for the extra time it took to produce them.

My prof had already given me a few extensions for this report but I wasn't able to capitalize on the opportunities due to medical reasons. Anyway,

Originally Posted by Professor McBadass

From the bit of writing you have given me it is evident that you are capable of decent work. I am willing to give you an opportunity to salvage credit for the course. If you write a final exam that is up to the standard that I see in this small sample of your work then I will base the final grade on that exam, with this essay counting for 20% only of the final grade for the course. I will give you 10/20 for the work you just submitted so with a good mark on the final you still have an opportunity to achieve a respectable grade overall.

What a fucking bro.

This is his last semester before he retires; I feel a little guilty for souring it for him by putting him in such a tough spot, but I definitely appreciate his leniency.

He believes you can do it.
If he didn't he wouldn't have given you any shots, let alone many.
This ain't his first rodeo neither, so if anything that should boost your confidence.

Coming from a masterful procrastinator:
Try to think of these things no longer as deadlines but instead as a labors of love. Instead of assignments, think of essays as an opportunity to give justice to something you truly care about. Writing is all about finding your passion. When you are enjoying yourself, your efforts feel less like work and more like play. Your topic is perfect to that end already.

Simply do your best, and you can never go wrong.

Nice to see y'all here Dark and Link!

Grats Gavin! Your Prof sounds amazing.

My only rant, so far today, is trivial. I have either a very large pimple or a bug bite on my forehead. It's driving me batty but I don't have time right now to fiddle with it.
I just woke up and hubby and I are about to go to the Mall of all places. And then out to eat at the Outback. He's making himself get out of the house and "do something", so he'll probably get cranky very easily *sigh* It's going to be a zoo out in the world!

A rave is that I'm feeling much better. Apparently, there's some sort of bug going around. The kids are now sick with it. Wth, though. What kind of illness makes you feel dizzy and nauseous but nothing else?
I have blisters on my right tonsil. I was looking only to hunt for tonsil stones which tend to form on the left for me. My right side never bothers me. I have no sore throat. Blisters? Makes no sense lol
I hate sore throats though, so I'm definitely NOT complaining.

Everyone must be doing great
Or they're like me and have just been lazy

My outing with hubby went smoothly. We had a great time and I even complained about the food at the restaurant. I usually don't say anything (I can be kind of picky lol), but when the waiter asked how everything was I told him: "The meat is *really* tough... but the sweet potato is amazing." He said, the sweat potato would cost about $1. out of the $25. the meal cost (I had a portebella filet). The mushrooms were even laughable. They looked like charred shoelaces.
He took the food back and the chef brought my replacement with an offer of a dessert. Even the mushrooms on the new steak were amazing...
But then I was full Between the bread, potato, and potato soup, I couldn't eat much more. My kids ended up eating the majority of the steak... so they were definitely raving that day

Other than that, I've been sleeping in excess. I woke to a musical dream yesterday. It was a really strange dream about Grimm (TV show) Hexenbeast and someone with deep green eyes that a bunch of women were swooning over.

Last night, I took a risk and bought EQ2 time. Ehhhh... it's laggy, but not as laggy as Minecraft or EQ2 free-play. Is there a difference from, say, streaming video from CNN and watching a movie on Netflix? There seems to be a huge difference but I don't understand why. If I'm watching CNN (or similar), the video stops and starts all the time. If I'm watching Hulu, the shows tend to run perfectly until the commercial breaks which are laggy.

Anyhow... I created a Ratonga (rat person) Ranger and sent her to the "evil" side. I'm also NOT playing on my usual PVP server. I hate that all my high level toons are there. I loathe PvP lol. I'm not a player killer, but I liked the extra challenge of staying alive. Now it's just tedious and annoying.
In about 12 hours time, I leveled the newbie up to 16 with maxed out everything else (gathering, trade per my level).
Now the game is down for service. Probably wont be up until 1-3 if it's anything like the past. I want to play some more but I gotta go to bed.
That's my only rant of the day which is pretty awesome

Didn't sleep a wink last night. Set strong intention at bedtime to be aware during the night and get lucid. Well, I succeeded, but left out the critical "must be asleep and dreaming first" part. Crap.

Life's good, things getting better now. We need some positive posts here sometimes! Not all is bad as it seems to be. Have a goodnight!

I have a positive post. Guess who got laid last friday?

Originally Posted by Anju

I have a positive post. Guess who got laid last friday?

Was it me?

I hope it was me.

Wasn't you.
I...uh..hired a callboy

Well I got laid last night. In a lucid (probably my best lucid intercourse so far, still a brief moment tho). Great dreaming morning, to counter the terrible sleepless night the night before. Waking, dozing, dreaming some more, like it could go on forever. I love cold, dark winter mornings

full dj entry:
http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/fryi...drawing-62456/

Negative, possibly somewhat nonsensical post. Quiet note to self: try to find something positive to add to this thread soon.

Spoiler for rant:

Ridiculous loneliness.

Sometimes I do good things but in the long run, they never mean anything at all.

I find something good and it's like I can't get away from it fast enough.

Worthless, confused. Don't know where to go from here. Mostly people don't care; when they do I only start crying and apologizing to nothing because here it is, another good thing that I didn't ask for and am only going to ruin now.

I am right back at the beginning all over again because although someone with my name and body worked to make things better, found a way to be better, it was not "me" - there is no way I can go back and be that person, or talk to the people I talked to as her, because of the lack of continuity or consistency...it's just wrong somehow. I must, I have to get away: I'm always running not only from the worst choices I've made, but also the very best ones. Better to pretend she's dead. Who really stays the same person throughout their lifetime? This is sickening. A false awakening loop. Get out of bed, get dressed, eat breakfast, brush teeth, leave the house, wake up get out of bed, get dressed, wake up, wake up, wake up. Is it ever actually going to end?

Perhaps I need to stop running. Maybe I should go back. But all the same I don't think I'd ever leave behind this sense of being, well, an impostor, or a liar, an actor who completely lost her script and cannot improvise. Any moment now and I'll get my wording just sufficiently wrong for them to realise. I'm not supposed to be here. I'm not supposed to be here. The words won't come. Only an overwhelm of blankness. Can't do this. Better to hide.

I decided, I suppose, to once more try talking to a therapist mostly for social-anxiety-type reasons. Now to see if I'm actually going to go or do everything I can to change my own mind again, and, if I do go, whether I'll manage to say everything or even anything that I need to.

I hope everyone's day is going well, or decently at the very least, if it cannot be better.

Vasiona, you may want to try reading "Wherever You Go, There You Are: Mindfulness Meditation for Everyday Life" by Jon Kabat-Zinn. I'm finding it amazingly eye-opening, it offers a total transformation on one's approach to life and living. The same author also wrote "Full Catastrophe Living," focused on people facing illness, pain, and stress. Either or both may be very inspirational to you and offer you a positive path going forwards. In a nutshell: via mindfulness meditation, one can learn to recognize the negative emotions and forces that push and pull us mindlessly through life. You don't suppress them, but rather you acknowledge their presence and understand them for what they are, and then choose an action mindfully based on what *you* want to do, not what they want you to do.

Rave: I'm done with work till Sunday night.
Rant: My family is having thanksgiving dinner at 1pm. I'm normally sleeping at that time, so today I'm going to try and stay up all day (I've been awake since 7pm yesterday). Time for coffee!

Rave: It's snowing.
Rant: It's snowing, and everyone on the road has completely forgotten their basic driving skills. But I finished my errands and am inside for the day, which brings me to...

Rave: I found some of the Bitches Brew beer at the grocery store, so I snagged me a big ole bottle. And a cookie. I've been wanting to give it a try since seeing someone post it here in the beer thread. It's only fitting that I listen to some Miles Davis while drinking it, but I only have Kind of Blue on vinyl. I suppose that will do.
Rant: My cat keeps begging for food even though there's still food in her bowl.


Really, this post is a big rave; I just like ranting about silly and inconsequential things. I'm getting snowed in and (after a few quick chores) will be spending my day drinking beer, cooking some bean soup, and just lounging around in general.

Originally Posted by sefalik

Rave: I found some of the Bitches Brew beer at the grocery store, so I snagged me a big ole bottle. And a cookie. It's only fitting that I listen to some Miles Davis while drinking it, but I only have Kind of Blue on vinyl....Really, this post is a big rave; I just like ranting about silly and inconsequential things. I'm getting snowed in and (after a few quick chores) will be spending my day drinking beer, cooking some bean soup, and just lounging around in general.

AND a cookie?
AND Kind of Blue on vinyl?
AND bean soup?

/jealousy level rising with every sentence

No real rants for me today, except that I have no Bitches Brew and that I have to work today.
I do have Thanksgiving off though because my coworker got sick and had to switch days with me.

Not the way I'd prefer it would happen, for her sake, honestly I'll take a holiday off any way I can get one!

Originally Posted by Anju

I have a positive post. Guess who got laid last friday?

Time to party!