This has happened to me so often I came up with my own acronym for these kind of dreams: DAWA, "Dream Awareness Without Agency."
From my own experience, it seems like genuine lucidity is composed of more than the mere awareness of the dream state. I have plenty of non-lucid dreams in which I comment to someone on the fact that I'm dreaming or even make decisions based on it, but just as you describe, "I don't really feel as if I'm the one choosing what to do," that is, I'm not conscious of my own agency. Because of this lack of agency, I don't make the same kinds of decisions as I would if I were fully lucid, such as remembering to work on my current projects or tasks, and instead just tend to follow along with the dream narrative, much like in an ordinary non-lucid dream.
Because of this, I've started to look at genuine lucidity as a two-level state of awareness: awareness of the dream state is necessary but not sufficient, and must be supplemented by conscious agency before a dream feels fully lucid. And perhaps I shouldn't even use the term "fully lucid," since the more experience I have with lucidity, the less it feels like a binary state and more like one that admits of an extraordinary variety of degree.
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