How a dream person responded. Self-awareness.

I'm in my room playing a video game with a long-since broken friendship. My best friend. My quasi-elder-brother. I walk to the door, and something hits me. I turn to my friend and say--not inquire, but say--"this is a dream, isn't it?
He replies quickly, curtly, and matter-of-factly, "Yes."

The old dude from Breaking Bad barges into my room. Knowing it's a dream, i throw up my hands and prepare to blast him away. He keeps coming, and nothing comes out of my hands. I wake up.

Seems my subconscious didn't want to let me interupt the dream.

Not very interesting, but i figured it might have some useful info to someone.

I'm beginning to realize that awareness is the most important thing in having lucid dreams. Reality checks don't mean anything if you don't already have the awareness to use them. *sigh* All day awareness is a pain in the ass. Meditation kind of is, too. But. Gotta do what you gotta do.

You can learn to truly enjoy awareness expansion and various meditations. Keep a good attitude about wanting to learn those things for the value they have alone, not just as tools for lucid dreaming.

^^ Some might say that lucid dreaming itself is a practice for developing awareness.

Ho-hoo. Trippy, Sageous. :P

I bet that is the best way to look at it, Sivason, but i just don't have the motivation. My primary motivation is lucid dreaming, because I'm highly drawn to the idea of complete or near-complete freedom. Meditation and awareness seems more like a cage than freedom. :/ I will try, though.

Something that might help motivate you is to see it not as being forced to do all the work of paying attention, but perceiving the world in the kind of detail you used to as a child. Usually that helps me out. I've noticed my awareness and the type of details I pay attention to normally slowly grow less and less over the years, and even just remembering what perceiving the world was like a few years ago is enough to get me to want to pay attention more, or at least be aware in a different way than I usually am. I'm more bothered lately by how much of my daily life becomes a subroutine I act out autonomously (even paying more attention to things can be done automatically that way sometimes!) than by the effort it takes to stay aware really.