saltyseedog
lover of the dead

I am writing in a note book. I write out a message and the message I receive appears on the lines just underneath where I wrote. I am writing back and forth to nomad.

So what I can remember was said...

I said that I see dreaming as a bunch of cords criss crossing in a complex system sort of.

Then at one point I was focusing in on his energy and wrote to him saying that there was both negative and positive emotions sort of being repressed, and that kind of clouds his consciousness.

Then he wrote a bunch of shit back and then I went to check and it was all cross out like he decided to take what he said back. Then I just saw I think alot.

besides those things I can't remember quite everything that was said.
while doing this more than once these sort of videos came up that I would watch. They were youtube videos. He was like telling me things. Then at one point he's talking about weed. he has some bud plant. He's says don't tell anyone!!! Someone that lives around here will steal it!!

The environment I was in was changing as I wasn't paying much attention to it. I was mostly focused on the notebook and sending messages to nomad. Then the parts with videos I sort of suddenly was merged into the experience.

I looked out an saw every life I had lived. It seemed to span eternity.
I saw all my lives as a sphere.
I was on the edge of the sphere existing in one time. I moved to the right into the future. the past was to the left on the edge. Somehow if I kept going I would eventually come back around to the same place.
I entered the center of this sphere.
I could feel and know every life I had lived and will live. Yet they all already existed and nothing could be changed.
They seemed infinite.
Then I was spiralling upwards around this golden cord.
Then there was a tree.
Its roots were growing into the ground.
I was a leaf at the top a tree. A part of a leaf.
This tree was a group of souls.
Then I saw the planet. It was covered in trees. a planet of trees. All groups of souls. But each one was its own organism.
I saw from the perspective of the planet.
I was every tree as one being. and it felt no different from what I perceived as my own soul earlier.
There were many planets. There was a galaxy of planets.
It was disk shaped, spiralling. golden in color.
It was stacked on top of other disks just like it. These extended out creating a living organism.
There is an ocean. The organism lives in the ocean.
The entire planet is liquid.
Its a drop of rain falling.
But it never hits the ground.
There are what seems to be an infinite number of rain drops falling along side it.
It is a storm.
But nothing truly moves as there is no up or down. Yet they are falling.
There is no storm.
Nothing exists.

This is a dream I had a couple days ago. I was hesitant to post it.

OMG WTF I SERIOUSLY just wrote out both these fucking dreams and a pop up come out of nowhere and I exit out and lose both of them..............agghghghghghggh fuuuuuuuuck

OK........

SO i this dream me and mayatara were walking up a hill road thing
I become fully lucid
I realize I have been here in the past in a dream
We are in a white void I look out and swimming pools appear in rows all different lengths
we fly around and do random fun stuff together
Later we somehow travel back in time through this place to the time where we had both had the dream in the past
When we get there we realize that the dream we had in the past was us traveling back in time but we didn't perceive going back in time.
we do things in this ever changing white void of things
I wake up and I don't write down the dream because I'm to tired and fall back to sleep

I am watching this girl do all these things like a movie
Helps a guy buy food for his son and there is confusion as to what is the right thing he needs to get
Later she is at an old man and women's house
The man is talking about god and reality to her but she doesn't understand is uncomfortable around him
He offers her a job to clean his carpets
there is doubt that she could do that because she doesn't know how
There is this random soccer game thing that busts out explaining to her confidence teaching her a lesson
apparently by the end she learns to be confident and all is good or something


^shortened version of my dreams, don't have time plus psychic vampires all around me making noises for no reason. Trying to bug me. I feel oppressed.

Me and erii are flying through a world
The world is not seen but felt
It is intense
I am becoming exhausted from continuing to push through
We reach what we came for
It feels right
as we approach it, it is overly intense
The intensity makes me feel almost sick
I keep pushing and make it through some kind of barrier
I am overwhelmed with information all at once
I am above earth
It looks extremely different
I see something flaming hurtle towards earth
it is so large there is a massive shockwave that covers most of the side of earth I'm viewing
It looks brown
Now all that was green and blue I saw from air is nothing
things begin to change and energy shifts
now I am not seeing anything but feelings are all over the place
The earth is red completely
It glows red
energy is intense and very hyper
I am on the surface
I see nothing but smoke
I feel alot of heat
Now I am slipping into darkness and losing my awareness of this scene
I see a huge twisting ball of energy that is white and blue
It is very chaotic
it seems to be pulsing
it feels sick
like a dying heart
like an old person with a dying body
hurting all over
its very strange and I am confused what this is exactly
I cannot leave
I feel stuck
and it grows more and more chaotic
then at once it is nothing
and now it is everywhere
the energy which was once a ball is spread across in every direction incredibly far in particles
Now I feel like monster compared to these sand like particles
I feel all of them
everyone filled with life
its own sentience
they are like stars
I see lines interconnecting them
In three dimensional patterns
the patterns are infinite as far as I can see
They appear chaotic just as the ball
Now I am small
I am flying through space
Still incredibly large
I come to a whitish blue star
It feels aggressive
With nothing to be mad at
It is so isolated
it is individuated
and nothing can effect it
yet it seems angry
and resentful
at what?
It feels like it angry at the universe
It makes no sense
I feel hatred
I feel pain
Why does it feel these things?
It is nothing more than a piece of the larger ball of energy
yet it is alone and cannot be harmed
But it hates?
I am confused so deeply it hurts
I feel sick
I feel like I'm melding into a painting which is this star
Then all at once I realize that the star is me
And the world of stars I called space was all humans
all dis unified
All lonely
It hurts so bad
The loneliness is killing me
I can't stand it
I am going insane
I am incredibly confused and scared
I felt fear I didn't know existed
every human seems so distant
Every star is so far away
I am floating alone
Yet I enjoy it
I am not sure why
But I enjoy it
I feel like I could float here forever in acceptance
But then something happens
I don't feel like a star in this strange universe or whatever anymore
Now I am in my dream body
Floating in a monster of energy beside erii
The energy is ripping like a storm
Yet we are safe
I see her body glowing
I cannot even make out physical features just the glowing shape of a body that is red
I am exhausted
eventually I push through and we are flying as hard and fast as we can to get out
We return to the place which we left before we came here

I telepathically tell everyone on dreamviews I love them as I wake up impulsively. Its weird. I do one person at a time telling them all these crazy things as I'm half asleep in bed. I don't even remember exactly what I was telling everyone. But its mostly about me loving them.