Thread: Extremely violent nightmares, this one about brutal killing

I've been having violent nightmares for years. My kids even know because they hear me screaming and sobbing in my sleep. In this one there was some group of people that were hunting me down because they wanted to kill me. I stood up for something and they didn't like it. There was also a group of people trying to hide me to keep me safe. One was a guy I work with. I was hiding in his house in a dark corner and he was packing luggage because he was leaving to visit his daughter the next day. We were talking and out of no where he is shot in the back of the head. His blood sprays everywhere and I see his body drop to the floor. I was very scared because I knew then they were willing to kill anyone who helped me. The next part I remember I was in an older woman's house, in a remote back bedroom, and she had a shot gun. We heard noises in the livingroom and she yelled out that whoever they were better surrender now or they would be shot. We then heard a thump and I went running out and found this black man, who was a part of the group helping me. His throat had been slashed and he was bleeding out. I took both my hands and tried to put pressure on the wound to slow the bleeding but it wasn't working. I started screaming for him to not die and became covered in his blood. This is just an example of the severity of my dreams.
Another is I know I'm very sick and need help. I was crouched on a busy sidewalk with countless people passing me. I try to reach for them begging for help and they snatch their hands away like I'm a leper. I keep begging for help and I'm sobbing. All of a sudden I'm bleeding from my eyes, nose, mouth, etc. and I know if it doesnt stop I'm going to bleed out. Suddenly, someone stops. I tell him I neep help and that I'm dying and he touches my shoulder. I can't see more than a red blur from the blood pouring out of my eyes but his touch makes me uneasy and feel panicked. I try to back away from him but he holds onto my shoulder so tight it hurts. I scream at him asking why he can't go away and leave me alone and he whispers in my ear "You'll never be alone because we are always with you." I look up and see these very tall, thin shadows have formed a circle around us and the people are still passing, totally oblivious and uninterested in what's happening. I'm terrified at this point and he raises a finger to his lips and says "Shhhhh. This can be our little secret."

I am a 31 year old female, Active Duty military for 8 years. Im not sure what anyone else might need to know, but if you ask specifically I will answer. Nearly all my dreams are violent and deal with surviving or mass murders, diseases wiping out man kind, being raped or tortured, etc. One specific one dealt with being held as a prisoner in some shack with one window in front of me and watching people being slaughtered with their blood splattering on the window.