This is a very interesting set of dreams. I used to have the same recurring nightmares, over and over and over and now…I no longer have them. How did I do this? By learning to listen to myself via meditations and dream journaling.
Regardless, I realize you simply want someone to give you an interpretation of your dream as if it was mine that makes some sense to you of your fear. Before I begin, here’s a caveat…
Dreams are for each of us to interpret on our own. Therefore, if anything I say below doesn’t resonate with you, then simply discard it. So, here’s an interpretation of your dream as if it was mine….
This is a long reply for there is much to tell about these two dreams...
I begin by considering the location of my first dream. I could have located it anywhere, at anytime, in any reality BUT I’VE LOCATED IT IN AN AMUSEMENT PARK. Why have I done this?
I’ve learnt that where we locate a dream is one of the ways we sort of “frame in” our dreams. It provides lots of symbolic information to us.
An amusement park is a place we go to be entertained, to be sometimes scared BUT TO OVERALL HAVE FUN. So right away, I have a feeling my dream is going to make “fun” of myself.
And what do I see around me? A roller coaster set on a very large dock stretched over the water. “On the dock there was this congregation of buildings hundreds of them all tightly packed together one entrance and the entrance was the only exit.”
In my dreams, things that are made by people are symbols of masculine and things of nature are symbols of feminine. I will take a sidebar here and describe that I’ve learnt from my own dreams and then return to interpret the coaster, the buildings and the water…
I’ve learnt that before we incarnate, we carefully select the times we will live in, our families, life circumstances, challenges and potential exit points. We then carefully select our personality.
I’ve learnt we do this by selecting approximately 200 different “belief filters”. These are energy filters that have two polarities, a feminine one and a masculine one. We select the degree of polarity we are going to hold the belief, i.e. the degree of feminine or masculine. This then determines the belief vibratory level.
Each belief then works with the other beliefs, each with their own vibratory rate. They literally “filter our reality” by blocking out the greater reality vibrations we actually come from. They create the aura around us and create our thoughts/feelings for each moment.
We constantly tell ourselves about this in our dreams. We use symbolism to show ourselves about the beliefs and their limiting effects on us spiritually. We also show ourselves the “dis-ease’ created by some of our beliefs using colours in our dreams.
So with this said, back to my dream…
I am looking at a large structure that is a symbol of some of my masculine based beliefs, i.e. the roller coaster since it’s people made. It’s made of many different “components” which are symbols of different beliefs working together to create the belief effects I’m experiencing with them.
The roller coaster “beliefs” are located on top of a very large “dock”. I wish I could recall what the dock was made of for this would have been valuable information about the underlying beliefs supporting the coaster beliefs. If it was wood, this is a symbol in my dreams of what I call “dead feminine” beliefs. These are old feminine beliefs that are now no longer working for me, i.e. they are now ‘dead’.
Regardless, underneath the dock, supporting it all is….my feminine – water.
“On the dock there was this congregation of buildings hundreds of them all tightly packed together one entrance and the entrance was the only exit.” So what’s this a symbol of?
I will take another sidebar to describe what I call are my ‘other lives’ and then return to describing the buildings…
From my meditations and dreams, I’ve learnt that I have incarnated many, many thousands of times. In this life, I’m working with about 2,000 of them.
I used to think of them as my ‘past lives’ until I was taught they are “all living at the same time as I am”. This is a real mind bender. How could this possibly be?
I came across a man called Tom Campbell. He’s a nuclear physicist who’s had many, many out of body experiences. He wanted to reconcile his science with his out of body experiences. So he wrote a trilogy called “My Big TOE” where ‘TOE’ stands for “Theory of Everything”.
His TOE has two hypothesis One is that there is an overall consciousness he calls “All That Is”. The second is that it must evolve. He puts this into scientific terms of lowering its entropy, where entropy is a measurement of randomness.
He then goes on to talk about how we are all living in a “virtual reality” with different rule sets within them and also different time sets.
This really resonated with me for it makes sense of what I’ve learnt. It explains how my what I used to call “past lives” can all be living ‘at the same time’ as me but in ‘different times’.
His trilogy is not an easy read. If I have captured your imagination and you’d like to learn more, then I suggest you find a copy of a fictional trilogy written by Jane Roberts “Over Soul Seven”.
Jane was a person who channeled an entity named Seth during the 1970’s-80’s. How wrote many excellent books through her. However, she wrote some books on her own, one set of which was a fictional account about an ‘over soul’ named ‘Seven’ and some of his lives, who lived at different times and interacted with each other. The books are an easy read and convey complicated concepts like time et al. I strongly suggest you read them.
So, I decided to call my lives my ‘other lives’. I borrowed this from Robert Monroe, the person who coined the term, ‘out of body experience’ or ‘OBE’. He wrote three books on his experiences, which are also good reads. He described his many lives as his ‘other lives”. Tom Campbell actually worked with Bob for many years.
So with all this said…back to my dream.
In my dreams buildings are symbols of what I call ‘belief compartments’. I’ve learnt that each wall is a symbol of a belief. Furniture within them are symbols of yet more beliefs that work with the overall beliefs to produce what I call are ‘belief effects’.
To symbolize to ourselves the many different types of beliefs we use in all our many lives, we often create our dreams in towns, cities or, in this dream as a group of buildings.
I’ve often found that in many of my dreams, people appear in the rooms or buildings. I will take another sidebar here and describe what I’ve learnt about people in my dreams…
When I first began recording my dreams, I would often find people in my dreams that I didn’t know or ones that I did know but they were doing strange things. When I tried to literally interpret my dreams, it usually didn’t work.
I had a near death experience 12 years ago that changed me. One of the changes was a determination to learn to meditate. I had stopped and started meditation all my life and had in effect gone nowhere in a hurry. So this time I was determined to stick with it.
I slowly learnt how to touch my “higher self”. One day, the thought came to me to use my higher self to assist me in interpreting my dreams. Then the dream gates swung wide open.
I’ve since learnt that people in my dreams may be who they are, symbols of my masculine and feminine, other lives, teachers, guides, oversoul, aspects of myself, people who I frequently incarnate with, etc.
About a year and a half ago, I felt compelled to put together a free website documenting what I have learnt. At first, I didn’t want to because I felt what I had learnt was akin in my mind to a teaspoon of water compared to all the oceans’ water, i.e. not much. However the feeling persisted.
Today if you go to ‘learningfrommydreams’ dot com you’ll see what I created. If you go there, I suggest you look at 3 things. One is the meditation page where I list all sorts of different ways to meditate. Find one that works for you.
Then I recommend you read the dream discussion paper I posted on the website. It describes the symbolism I’ve learnt including people.
Finally, I recommend you look at the resources page where you’ll find an extensive list of things to look at.
So with all of this said, back to my dream…
So I am looking at some of my other lives and symbols of belief compartments we have used and are still using. These belief compartments are also built upon the dock which in turn sits on top of feminine, in effect isolating myself from myself, if this makes sense.
I then consider the lighting in my dream. Lighting is a way to symbolize the vibrational state of the beliefs. If it’s dark or dim – this indicates low vibration beliefs. If it’s bright out, the sun is a symbol of my higher self/over soul, which is assisting me.
On an aside, if I am in belief compartments, i.e. rooms, with no windows, then I am working on my own, without my higher self to assist me. I am ‘en-lightening’ myself.
In this dream “the lighting in the dream felt moon light with average amusement park lighting”. So I am out in the night. This is a way of symbolizing to myself that I am needing to wake up spiritually and rise out of my low vibration darkness.
Further, the moon is a symbol of my feminine. It’s shining as best it can without assistance from me regarding the beliefs this dream is about.
“In the water you could not see far at all in the distance nothing to be seen no land or anything flat but water.”
I am looking out over my feminine and…it’s calm. However, my spiritual sight is limited by my own masculine beliefs. If I was to ‘en-lighten’ myself I would be able to see far and wide.
In my dreams objects are really important. Why? I’ve found that they are symbols of beliefs I should first work on. So the roller coaster is one of the first objects I need to focus my attention spiritually on. However, in this dream, I’m not on it, so I need to determine what beliefs to first concentrate on.
“On the dock there was this congregation of buildings hundreds of them all tightly packed together one entrance and the entrance was the only exit. Weird creepy people owned bars, shops, butcher shops, stages, and so on the people scared me a little and I was uncomfortable around them I cant recognize faces but we ran out past a curtain and ended up in an all that led to the dock.”
So who are the people in this dream scene? Who are “my dad, step mom, and step brother”? They are themselves. So why are in my dream with me? That’s because they share the same underlying beliefs of this dream. They may experience the effects of the beliefs differently than I do BUT they too are on the same spiritual voyage I am with respect to these beliefs.
Who are the weird, creepy people? They are some of my other lives. They scare me a little. That’s because I am scared of myself.
On another side note about other lives…
Some of my other lives, I only see in certain situations and thus know they are working with me on the beliefs a dream scene is about. Others however, I learn their names, where they live and the times they live, etc. A few of them have taken me a lot of time to spiritually digest. I will give you one example…
In one life I was an Asian emperor. I was living in my palace with my concubines having a gay time. Outside my walls, the people were revolting. I then ordered my soldiers to kill them. I then left my palace and was literally walking on top of the dead bodies of woman, children and men my army had killed…WITHOUT ANY FEELINGS OF REMORSE.
At first, I couldn’t believe it. It was so unlike who I am. Then my teachers told me to “accept and not judge”. It took me months to accept it.
So, from me to you, the journey you are embarking on is both exhilarating and also hard to do at times as one learns to face oneself. However it is worth it. Back to my dream…
We ran out of the buildings through a curtain and ended up in “all that lead to the dock.” There is only one exit in and out of the dock.
The curtain is a symbol of the first belief I need to deal with in my dream. It is “easily passed through”. So what’s this belief a symbol of?
“Once on the dock I could see it separated and it was floating away from the main land the only way back was to jump in the water and swim. The water scared me so much I would have rather died but I jumped in headfirst. It was cold like jumping into a lake there were slight waves and the water was dark in the night I was incredibly scared.”
This is my fear. Thoughts and feelings are very, very important in my dreams. They point to the heart of the dream. I am very, very scared of my feminine. I think it will “kill me”. These thoughts are belief effects of my masculine based beliefs.
I have found that I have a number of masculine based beliefs that are scared of my feminine. Abilities like acceptance, collaboration, creativity and spiritual communication are contained within mental walls.
In this dream however, I am showing myself I can dive into my feminine, no matter how ‘dark’ it might seem.
“It was cold like jumping into a lake there were slight waves and the water was dark in the night I was incredibly scared.”
My feminine is cold to me. I now can see some ‘waves’ and am extremely scared.
I am laughing a bit at myself in this dream. Why? I used to have many dreams where I was on snow and ice. Imagine my surprise when I learnt that these were symbols of my feminine. My own masculine based beliefs were so effective at controlling my feminine that it was frozen. Today I am mostly swimming in water. I’m laughing at myself for thinking my feminine was so scary!
And now I come to the star of my dream…
“I could see this building and have noticed it for awhile a lifeguard station it was white on the shore with a porch extended towards the water held up by wooden beams. This girl I know in real life her name is Emily I have known her since 3rd grade I am a senior now. I liked her had feelings for her since 5th grade and then they died off freshman year I "gave up" on her, But when I saw her its like I just fell in love I missed her so much I wanted to be with her. She was a lifeguard on a jet ski she pulled me on and we road towards the house and that was it I wanted to be with her more but she dropped me off and rode away. “
I am looking towards where my feminine has born fruit…i.e. land. There I notice a masculine belief compartment, i.e. a lifeguard station.
It’s white. White in my dreams is a symbol of unity. It has an entry point to my feminine that is built using now dead feminine beliefs, i.e. wooden posts.
And then Emily shows. Is it her or, is she a symbol? She’s a symbol of my feminine. I note that I am using a woman who I had sexual feelings for as a representation of my feminine. If this were my dream, I would meditate on it.
My feminine then rides out on masculine based beliefs, i.e. a jet ski. It’s a symbol of masculine beliefs riding on top of my feminine (just like the dock).
I want to be with my feminine for what I think of as “love” BUT “she dropped me off and rode away”.
If this was my dream, I would be first excited. I can swim in my feminine, i.e. the water. I am showing myself that I can “survive”.
I’m also giving a glimpse to myself of what I call the “heavy spiritual lifting” ahead of me if I choose to listen to my dream. I need to follow the “spiritual road” my feminine left me on and go back to the beliefs the coaster and the buildings represent and learn to face myself.
On to the second dream…
Once again I am back at the amusement park. From the first dream, now I know why. I’m going to have to face the beliefs the park and the coaster represent.
In this dream it’s sunset, i.e. my higher self is letting me know I have to face the beliefs on my own…that’s why we incarnate – to learn.
I also note that I am getting “stuff” out of my car in a parking lot. Cars in my dreams are symbols of masculine beliefs compartments I use to spiritually use in in life, i.e. drive around in. I’m also standing on yet more masculine based beliefs, i.e. the asphalt car parking lot. So, I am seeing lots of beliefs I will need to address.
I also note I’m getting “stuff” out of my car. These are yet more symbols of masculine based beliefs. These ”objects” are what I should begin to focus on first.
On a side note: don’t get depressed by seeing lots of beliefs to work on. This is the first process in learning, i.e. to recognize whom you are underneath. Let your dreams guide you on ones to concentrate on.
“Emily was there so were these two guys I knew both named Matt and this dude I met in summer camp. Both Matts and the dude and I were playing catch with a football on our way to the front gate of the park.”
Okay so who’s who in the dream zoo here? Emily? She’s a symbol of my feminine. The two Matt’s? They are themselves. The dude? He too is himself. All three of them share the same underlying beliefs I do. Spiritually, they are working with me on them.
So what’s with playing catch with a football? I could have been doing anything in my dream BUT I’M DOING THIS.
Most sports in my dreams are symbols of competition. So I am sending myself a signal that one of the effects of some of my masculine based beliefs involved a sense of judging myself by how others judge me. A feminine ability would be collaboration. So the four of us are exchanging a symbol between us of competition and judgement was we walk to the gate.
I will take an aside here and talk about lying, sitting, standing, walking and running in my dreams…
When I am lying down in dream, it’s a symbol that I don’t have any spiritual ability yet to even see the effects of some of my beliefs.
When I am sitting, it’s a symbol that I need spiritual support to see the effects of some of my beliefs.
When I am standing, it’s a symbol that I now can stand on my own two spiritual feet to see the effects.
When I am walking, it’s a symbol that I am now steadily moving through the beliefs.
When I am running, it’s a symbol I am moving relatively quickly through the beliefs.
Note that I have found that spiritual time and our time are too different things. Usually my dream time is far faster than my physical time. So when I am running etc. I realize that it still will take “some time”.
Back to the dream…
So now I am beginning to move spiritually towards the front entrance to my beliefs this dream scene is about.
“The front gate wasn’t an ordinary gate however. It was a waist high white picket fence with a pathway and you could just walk in no fee. On the left of the entrance were trees and white picnic table along with a big white house with a wrap around porch on the right some trees and bushes straight was a path that further led us deeper in the park.”
The picket fence is made of dead wood, i.e. symbols of my dead feminine. I take some heart from the fence? Why?
It’s a picket fence, which I can now begin to “spiritually see through”. I am showing myself that the size of the belief wall is no longer that high, i.e. it’s only waist high AND that I can now begin to see through the old beliefs.
There is no fee to enter…it’s my own dream with me as the star player! It’s also another sign why the fence can be seen through. How?
The football was a way of showing myself masculine beliefs about command and control, i.e. competition and winning. Another effect of these beliefs is judging ourselves by how others judge us.
In many of my dreams when I first began working with myself, I was paying for things. This is a way to symbolize command and control judging myself by how others judge me. These beliefs in my dreams usually have a “controller” and a “controlee”.
If my beliefs were in full force, I likely would have had to pay someone to enter where I am the controlee and they are a symbol of the controller. In this dream…I simply walk in. This is good and it’s one of the reasons I shouldn’t lose hope in myself. I am showing myself in my dreams how I am making progress, e.g. surviving my jump into my feminine and not judging myself by how others judge me.
“On the left of the entrance were trees and white picnic table along with a big white house with a wrap around porch.” Left in my dreams is a symbol of my feminine. So I am looking left and see nature! Trees! HOWEVER, there’s also a symbol of some more dead feminine beliefs, i.e. a picnic table where I need spiritual support to consume my beliefs, i.e. sit and eat. There’s also a large set of belief compartments, i.e. a big house. It has a large porch around it, i.e. a place requiring myself to require spiritual support, i.e. sit down and admire my greater self, i.e. the outdoors.
“On the right some trees and bushes straight was a path that further led us deeper in the park.” This is some good news again. Some of my masculine side is now allowing my feminine to grow – recall the picket fence. There’s also a “straight path”. This is a symbol of my masculine based abilities, i.e. analytical which results in command control beliefs of “order” i.e. the fastest way between two points is a straight line.
And now I come to the next set of beliefs to work on – the ride.
“I remember riding one specific ride it was red and it was weird I rode with Emily. Four seats in a row, I don’t know how many rows but we all rode at once. The seat hung below the track you sat down and pulled the harness over your head and locked it between you legs onto the seat.
The coaster had weird movement strange very odd and impossible architecture this thing could not physically stand but it did. There were a lot of lefts and rights and it moved almost the way the wrinkles in your brain look and it ended 4 stories below the start of the coaster and let you off on ground level.”
First, I note that I am riding with my feminine on masculine based beliefs, i.e. the ride. I require spiritual support to see the effects of my beliefs, i.e. I’m sitting.
Now I come to numerology. I will take a short sidebar here to describe…
When I first began to interpret dreams I though numerology was some fluffy thing people did. Then I learnt that it’s not “fluffy” because my dreams and those of others are full of it. It’s a way of sending us messages about ourselves. Numbers are part of the multiverse we live in.
In this dream, when I was walking to the gate, there were 4 of us playing catch. I am sitting in a seat made for 4. The ride ends 4 stories below the start. So this dream scene is all about a message associated with the number 4.
I have my own theory about numerology in dreams. It doesn’t matter which reference or approach a dreamer takes to interpret it AS LONG AS THEY USE A WAY THAT RESONATES WITHIN THEM. I think that once the dreamer has their own numerology frame of reference, the dreams are arranged to convey to the dreamer the messages using their frame of reference.
For myself, I use “Angel Numbers – Joanne Sacred Scribes” (Google it). Here’s what she says for the number 4…
Number 4 resonates with the vibrations and energies of practicality, organization and exactitude, service, patience, devotion, application, pragmatism, patriotism, dignity, trust and trust-worthiness, endurance, loyalty, mastery, building solid foundations, conservatism, determination, production and hard work, high morals, traditional values, honesty and integrity, inner-wisdom, security, self-control, loyalty, conscientiousness, reality and realistic values, stability and ability, progress, management, justice, seriousness, discipline, system and order, maintenance, constructiveness, dependability and conviction. Number 4 also represents our passion and drive and encourages us to work harmoniously yet diligently to achieve our goals and aspirations. Number 4 is the number that represents the four elements of Air, Fire, Water and Earth, and the four sacred directions, North, South, East and West. Number 4 also resonates with the energies of the Archangels.
Angel Number 4 is an indication that your angels are offering you love, support, encouragement and inner-strength, enabling you to do what you need to do and achieve your goals with diligence and proficiency. When you take positive action towards your highest intentions, aspirations and goals, the Universe works in your favour and helps you to establish solid foundations and advance you along your path.
Angel Number 4 indicates that your angels are around you and that you are able to call upon them for help, guidance and assistance whenever you feel the need. Trust that you have all the skills, talents and abilities to overcome any obstacles and achieve your highest aspirations.
Angel Number 4 also encourages you to put proper preparation into your plans and set things in motion with system and order so that you can achieve your goals and aspirations.
When I get messages like this, I always thank my higher self for getting though my belief filter and working with me.
“The seat hung below the track you sat down and pulled the harness over your head and locked it between you legs onto the seat. “ So I am pulling masculine beliefs over my spiritual head and then locking it in my genital area. I now realize that some of the beliefs are driven by belief effects relating to my ideas of sex, masculine, feminine, roles, relationships and sex.
The coaster had weird movement strange very odd and impossible architecture this thing could not physically stand but it did. There were a lot of lefts and rights and it moved almost the way the wrinkles in your brain look and it ended 4 stories below the start of the coaster and let you off on ground level.” I am showing myself that I need to work with both my masculine and feminine sides. I’m showing myself a potential spiritual path to work my way through.
“Once again the coaster was over the water and once again the water terrified me. The water can be described exactly like the last dream calm almost solid flat but water dark and couldn’t see through it and extended forever.”
So once again I am facing my feminine, which I am still afraid of. That’s why I’m back at the park. I am showing myself that my feminine is “calm”. I’m also showing myself that I am afraid of the depth of it, i.e. “it extended forever.”
“I remember seeing my mom and uncle and other family members that I can’t remember, but they wanted to go to this Mayan themed part of the park that went under ground. It was massive giant ledges and Mayan themed sculptures and building everywhere and a giant waterfall that came from the ceiling but when you looked up at the hole it was sunny and forested. It didn’t make sense since I was only a few feet in. I was in a ledge my family was on a ramp leading deeper and deeper down towards an orange and yellow kind of light. It scared me so I said no and ran as they yelled and commanded me to go with them. “
Okay I will take this in sections…
First who are the people? Are they my family? Yes. So once again, they are spiritually working with me on these beliefs.
Who are the ones I can’t recall? They’re some of my other lives who also share the same underlying beliefs this dream scene is about.
I am drawing my spiritual attention to Maya. Some of my other lives live as Mayans. My family also incarnated there as well. These other lives can help me.
When I come across other lives in my dreams, I request them to assist me. I do this in meditations as well as before I go to sleep some nights.
This part of the “park”, i.e. a symbol of some of my beliefs, is “underground”. This is a symbol of lower vibratory levels. It’s also a symbol that I need to examine some of my old feminine beliefs for I am now “inside my feminine” i.e. underground.
I’m also sort of giving myself yellow stick it notes saying “Hey there me! Remember this upon awakening and when I’m ready, return to face these symbols of some of my beliefs.” Those sticky notes are the buildings and sculptures I am seeing.
“..giant waterfall that came from the ceiling but when you looked up at the hole it was sunny and forested.” This is a wonderful symbol my dream self couldn’t understand.
I am showing myself that my feminine flows down to the levels where I am with my vibratory beliefs. It is what produces live, i.e. forest. It also requires masculine, i.e. the sun to grow. I thank my wonderful feminine for showing me this.
“I was in a ledge my family was on a ramp leading deeper and deeper down towards an orange and yellow kind of light. It scared me so I said no and ran as they yelled and commanded me to go with them. “
And there I am, feeling somewhat trapped by my old beliefs, i.e. a ledge. I’m not yet ready to go to lower vibratory levels to face myself.
I will take a short detour here and talk about colours…
I’ve learnt that colour in my dreams is very important. It’s a way to symbolize to myself where the dis-ease caused by my belief polarities is affecting my etheric and physical body to my chakras.
The reference I use is David Leadbeater’s book “The Chakaras”. On my website are links to the book.
Orange is a colour associated with the lowest two chakras that relate to my sexual organs, ideas and beliefs. It’s also associated with the heart chakra…our spiritual heart. Yellow is associated with the spleen chakra. This is the chakra associated with connecting physical and spiritual life.
Regardless, I am not yet ready to face myself regarding these beliefs, so I turn away from myself. My other family members are “commanding me”. From this I understand that there is some command/control beliefs I need to address.
Then the scene changed…
“I saw this ride it was like a sling shot but instead of shooting you up it spun with a chord or something extending out from the top of the UFO shaped stop and it spun like a rope tied to a fan and then it just disconnects you and you shoot across.”
This is yet another symbol of my masculine based beliefs. It is a “spinning ride”, i.e. one that spiritually turns you around. It is my “lifeline” to my old beliefs. In this dream I’m going to get disconnected from them, i.e. myself.
“There were these plane pieces; giant plane pieces cut up into sections. I wanted to ride while on a plane piece. I watched them launch a wing then a hull and I wanted to be attached to the cockpit. Now this plane was weird because it was fake. It was wooden, but the size of a 747 my section was cut right before the door so you could open it and go into the cockpit. But I wanted to be holding on to the outside behind the door with a band spanning from side to side and then the slingshot attached to the center so on release the front of the cockpit would fly forward.”
The symbol is made of several beliefs that work together. In my dreams, planes are symbols of masculine based beliefs I use to raise my vibrations BUT they contain me from my greater reality, i.e. outside the belief walls of the plane.
I’m showing myself that these beliefs are separate, i.e. pieces and then they spiritually lower their vibrations, i.e. they don’t fly on their own.
The plane isn’t weird as I though in my dream. It’s me telling myself that my beliefs are now no longer working for me, i.e. they’re fake.
Some of the beliefs are old dead feminine ones, i.e. made of wood.
However, I don’t really want to go inside my beliefs yet. Instead I want to hang outside the door, still spiritually hanging on to my dear old beliefs.
“When watching these pieces be shot across the sky I noticed they were shooting them towards land and away from the water so that’s why I was fine riding it. I thought I could just take this plane piece back home.”
Here is the heart of my dream. I don’t want to face myself. I didn’t want to go down to the Mayan beliefs, I don’t want to go inside the cockpit which is a symbol for how I’m spiritually guiding myself and I definitely don’t want to face my feminine, i.e. water. Therefore, I am fine “riding my old beliefs”. They will carry me away from my feminine. Its me who’s avoiding myself.
“When I got on I was literally just holding on and had the chorda spanning from side to side on my back. I felt it pick up and start spinning but it was different. It felt weak like it had no power. There was slack and some bend in the rope going to the slingshot. Somehow I knew this wouldn't end well.”
I am showing myself that my existing beliefs no longer work for me. The old dead feminine holding me to my old beliefs, i.e. the rope, no has some spiritual slack and bend in it. Once again I feel fear “as I know it’s not going to end well”. I am trying so hard to let myself know it’s time I did face myself.
“When it launched me like all the other launches it counted down 3.....2.....1.....clink! It would disconnect and like mine 3......2.....1.....clink! But mine was slow it was weak and was heading for the water all of a sudden . Booooom, splash the front hit the water and it was a massive splash. Surely I thought I was going to die. I wish I would have died instead of being in the water.”
And now, once again, I am forcing myself in this dream to face myself. I am now once again swimming in my feminine. I think I am going to die.
I am laughing a bit as I read this, since I have some experiences that show otherwise. I will take a detour and tell you about it…
About 3 years after my near death experience, I was in several meditation and spiritual circle groups learning how to meditate. One dark stormy fall night, I decided to brave the elements and go to a meditation class. Only 3 or 4 of us showed up. So we decided to have the meditation and share at the end.
At the end of my meditation, I felt a presence. It showed itself as a pre-baby boy. I knew it was a message for the lady sitting beside me. At the time, all I knew was she was a schoolteacher, was Jewish and had two late teenage kids. So I turned to her and asked if I could give her a message? She said yes.
I then asked her if she had miscarried a baby boy? She said yes. And then, the most wonderful thing in my life happened.
The baby boy turned into a man and he passed me pure unconditional love. It went right to the very core of who I am. It only lasted a fraction of a second but it was and is the wonderful thing I have ever experienced. Words can’t describe it.
I began to cry. The lady began to cry. Her son told me he was always with his mom. She then told me he had come to her through another medium but she was so glad to hear from him.
Than entity was a teacher for me. He showed me what all of us are…beings of pure unconditional love, spiritually deep down inside us. He also was there as yet another example that we are much more than our physical bodies.
That experience took me several hours to recover from. Whenever I get down or her others who are down, the memory surfaces and I realize who I am.
Since then, I’ve never felt scared of dying. Death is really no big deal. Now, to people who aren’t listening to themselves, the big “D”, i.e. death, is something they are really scared of. Yet, it’s like an amusement park ride, when it ends, we simply spiritually walk away from the ride that is our life. We will continue to face the same fears inside our body or outside it.
So back to my dream…
“I disconnected and swam as fast and as hard as I could back to shore. My surroundings were different from the last dream the dock with the big coaster that floated away was gone it wasn’t there but the white life guard house was still there that was my target I swam for that.”
I must learn to spiritually swim in my feminine. As long as I feel it’s cold and will kill me, then my fears will take over not only my dream but my life and build belief, mental and spiritual walls around myself.
I didn’t die in my feminine in the last dream. I see the same old belief compartment on the shore I can swim to.
BUT, I MUST FACE MYSELF, I.E. MY FEARS…
“The water was cold like ice cold it felt heavy and dense. I couldn’t see in it. It was so dark and I was scared beyond belief. I thought something was gonna get me. I don’t know what but something a shark a crocodile an alligator something I don’t know but I had such a terrifying fear of that water and for some reason I kept being put in it and this time Emily did not come save me this time I got so close to the shore about 100 feet away and then I woke up and I was still scared. “
My old beliefs, which I’m showing myself to be fake, i.e. the wooden cockpit, that are now in pieces, i.e. plane parts, is trying to drag me down to the depths of my feminine telling me it will kill me. I can’t spiritually see because of my beliefs, which is why I couldn’t see in it. I note however that the water is calm until I get in and then I start to create my own waves of beliefs based on fear. It’s only my fears that are creating my own reality of fear around me.
This time, my feminine, i.e. Emily, is not going to save me using some old masculine based beliefs. It’s time for me to realize that it’s myself who’s making myself afraid of myself, if that makes any sense. I am so close to saving myself but I can’t realize that it’s me who’s holding myself back.
If these were my two dreams, I would actually become excited rather than afraid. Why? I’m showing myself I survive my own fears.
I’m also making spiritual progress. I can enter some of my old beliefs without having to deal with some of the old judging myself by how others judge me. I can see through one of the belief walls, i.e. the picket fence. I can look up and see the my feminine creates life, i.e. the waterfall. I can now see inside some of my old beliefs and see they are no longer working for me, i.e. fake plane. I can swim in my feminine.
Dreams are all about choices. One could choose to ignore these dreams and the messages. It took me 50 years to begin to really listen to myself and face myself. You are much younger.
From my own experiences, I feel you are standing at the edge of a great spiritual adventure if you choose to dive off the old masculine belief ledges and learn to embrace your feminine. Will it all be “easy?” No. Facing oneself is not always easy BUT IT IS WORTH IT as I have personally found on my own journey.
I leave you with some words from an entity named Silver Birch, who was channeled during the 1900’s by a man named Maurice Barbanell.
“Life is always a polarity. If there were no darkness there would be no light. If there were no trouble there could never be any peace. If the sun always shone you would not appreciate it. You have to learn sometimes through conditions that seem a nuisance. One day you will look back and say, "We learned our best lessons not when the sun was shining, but when the storm was at its greatest, when the thunder roared, the lightning flashed, the clouds obscured the sun and all seemed dark and hopeless". It is only when the soul is in adversity that some of its greatest possibilities can be realized.”
“There is an infinite storehouse of knowledge which is placed at the disposal of all who desire to have it, but it must be earned by growth and struggle, by evolution and progress.”
The whole purpose of earthly life is to awaken the dormant slumbering souls to the reality of their existence. Your world is full of living sleepwalkers who go through the days activities in a dream.”
I hope that some of what I have written above deeply resonates within you.
With kind regards,