Childhood Recurring Nightmare that was Unspeakable
Just a little history behind what might have caused the dream. My brother died of crib death when I was 2 and from what I know from my mom she is RH negative and my dad was positive so all of her births had some issues. My older brother who is 11 months older than me had severe retardation, I was a placenta previa baby and had to be resuscitated at birth, my brother a year younger is the one who died, however my mom also had my other brother when I was 3 years old and he had to have a full blood transfusion.
My recurring nightmare was my dad and I in a cabin in the woods (I never went to a cabin), it was dark and dreary, I was in my room when I heard a baby crying so knowing I always helped my mom feed the baby I leaped up and looked around for my mom, I only found my dad who was staring out the window at the trees. I kept hearing the baby so I followed the sound (I think I knew I was dreaming because I didn't see my mom and knew we didn't have a cabin) I went outside and it was damp and wet with a lot of trees, I didn't see any neighbors. I kept following the sound wondering where it was coming from when I saw a box on the wall, like an electrical box and I opened it up and inside was a dead baby, yet the crying was piercing my ears. In my dream I told my dad and he told me I could never tell anyone. (My dad was on a Coast Guard cutter when my brother died) Spooked me more than any and it was always the same. It was one I couldn't control but it eventually went away but I heard crying babies for years, especially when I gave birth to my son.
Lots of Loss Giving Trauma
You started dreaming this at 3, when your new bro was born. But maybe the catalyst was 3 is when you became self-aware enough.
With every baby having severe problems, it's no wonder you had nightmares.
You are the only female and there were 3 brothers.
So maybe this is partly why only your father was there, being male, staring at the family of healthy trees outside or beyond, where maybe the ground was saturated by emotion or tears.
So the birth of your brother when you were 3 could be the catalyst after all.
A young girls needs her mom most and she was missing in this scenario where you and him were isolated in dark misery.
It looks like your power was affected by the overwhelming sadness and loss, understandably, maybe like the power of all the baby's was not flowing right, or ended in one, and maybe felt like it killed you. And it has the look of feeling boxed in, trapped.
Was it just like a secret you did not want to know? Or was just so scary you didn't want to tell.
It wasn't that you blamed your dad, was it, at such a young age?
It probably eventually subsided when it became the past, as you grew up more.
It also explains why you heard crying babies giving birth. For fear of it happening to yours.